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Living in a polyamorous household, where multiple individuals have consensually chosen to have romantic and/or sexual relationships with one another, can have numerous benefits for all members involved.
One of the most obvious benefits is financial. By sharing living expenses and resources, such as a home, transportation, and household goods, members of a polyamorous household can reduce their individual expenses and potentially increase their savings. In addition, having multiple partners can provide emotional and practical support, which can result in reduced stress and better financial decision making.
On the social level, living in a polyamorous household can also be beneficial. Members can form deep and meaningful connections with multiple partners, providing a greater sense of belonging and connectedness. In addition, the open communication and negotiated boundaries that are typically a part of polyamorous relationships can lead to a greater sense of trust and understanding among all members.
On the psychological level, living in a polyamorous household can also have positive effects. For example, being able to form romantic and sexual connections with multiple partners can provide a greater sense of self-worth and self-esteem. In addition, having multiple partners can also provide a sense of security and emotional support, which can lead to greater overall well-being.
However, it is important to note that living in a polyamorous household is not without its challenges. For example, jealousy and insecurity can sometimes arise, and open communication and a willingness to work through these challenges is crucial for the success of the relationship. In addition, it can also be difficult to navigate societal judgments and discrimination against non-traditional relationship structures.
In conclusion, living in a polyamorous household can provide numerous benefits for its members, including financial, social, and psychological advantages. While it may not be for everyone, those who choose to live in such a household can find that the benefits outweigh the challenges, leading to a happier and more fulfilled life. Invocation of the Sacred Masculine
He is not only safe—He is stable, consistent, and emotionally intelligent.His presence is a shelter, not a storm.His steadiness calms the chaos in me.
He holds me—In my spiritual depth,In my little space,In my adult power—without flinching, without fear.He meets every part of me and never turns away.
He doesn’t just allow my surrender—He protaspects it like something sacred.He honors my trust as a gift, not a given.And in his arms, I remember:I am not too much. I am finally home.
So, Journals are back. This means i can type things without needing to update my profile, which can take months. So, obviously, first off, i am still trying. Problems stem in that i apparently am not what most are searching for: since i'm ace, i alienate the hookup group. Since i'm not a doormat or service D/s sub (though service can be on the table, if the relationship works), all the subtle abusers of the former and red-tape lovers of the latter are alienated. Since i'm a rubberist, all the naked lovers and naturalists are alienated. And all of that isn't getting into the trans thing. sigh. OK last one for now, going back to bed, still horny.
I work in software, and I was thinking about the term Alpha male, we have a thing called alpha software....
Got it, here's a comparison joke that makes the alpha male look bad:
- Alpha Male: Constantly needs validation.
- Alpha Software: Constantly gets validated by QA.
- Alpha Male: Shows off muscles.
- Alpha Software: Shows off robust features.
- Alpha Male: Only appears confident.
- Alpha Software: Only appears in production after rigorous testing.
- Alpha Male: Tries to control everyone around him.
- Alpha Software: Allows users to control everything.
- Alpha Male: Thinks he's flawless.
- Alpha Software: Admits to bugs and gets better with updates. What I am looking for in a new partner?
I identify as a Master who lives for consensual TPE M/s dynamics. I have been in the lifestyle for over 20 years. I am not a switch! I have experience in a lot of BDSM and SM practices and what I do not know I love to learn. Here is some information about me that you may need to know first before you decide if I am the one you wish to serve.
If I sound particular and demanding-like, that’s because I kind of am. I don’t need quantity. I desire quality. I want one or two of the good ones; one with a whole actual, entire, functional, language-enabled brain who knows how to use it. One with a bit of passion and integrity about him. Anything worth having is worth the work and effort to make it happen. Building trust takes communication and continuous effort. It is something you must work at to keep and it is also one of the hardest things to regain once lost. That level of complete trust is what makes Master/slave dynamics work. But trust is needed on both sides. The Master has to trust the slave just as much as the slave has to trust the Master.
Ok.. so here is what you need to know about Me:
My preferred terms of address are MsPebbles or Ma’am. Anything else is not acceptable until you have earned it.
I am a married cis woman with one child still living at home. I also have relationships with others. You need to be ok with not being the only person in my life.
I am demisexual,demiromantic, and bisexual.
I am a non-smoker, a social drinker and a lover of wine.
My hard limits are sissification, age play, humiliation, degradation, scat, brat taming, race play, extreme breath play, death fantasy and bull/bbc culture. I will add to the list as I find things that I will not do.
What I need in a dynamic is communication, honesty, transparency, respect, loyalty, effort, consistency, and service. Someone who enjoys pain is a plus but so is someone willing to explore new things.
I am not just dominant in the bedroom. Having sex with me is not a guarentee for you. So if you think this is going to be just kinky sex with a woman in charge, please move along, we are not looking for the same thing.
I am a compassionate, friendly, happy, relatively “normal” human who seeks compassionate, friendly, happy, and relatively normal men or women. What I mean by this is, while I am dominant and seek true power exchange with the right man or woman I also seek cuddles, conversations and yes I am going to say it … INTIMACY. G I know right?
As a Dom I like control, A lot of it. Shocking right? I love s-types who are naturally and deeply submissive and who desire to give themselves freely and fully to me on My terms. I am looking for a sub/slave who is willing not just to get down on his knees, but also to be emotionally real with me. This involves communicating clearly about your emotions and who you are and what you need, not necessarily about all that you want. I want to dominate a mind and a soul, not just a body.
Enough about me (I know, rare words indeed from a dominant). Let's turn the spotlight on you. What is it that I look for in a potential slave? DRAMA FREE ZONE! About Me BDSM ROCKS Music: Rock- classic/hard/metal, country, rockabilly, blues and jazz etc. Movies: I like movies that make me laugh or keep me on edge. TV: Game of Thrones. Dexter. The Vikings. I HATE reality shows. Handmaids Tale. Keeping up Appearances. MOM. The Goldbergs. Call the Midwife. Vikings Valhalla. Sports: OHIO STATE! Interests: Harleys, Music, Bands, Spring/Fall and Winter, I dislike summer. Hate to sweat (menopause is a bitch), Budweiser Beer, Mountains, History, Earth, Space, Camping, auctions, flea markets, technology, coasters and tattoos. BDSM and Poly Dreams: I dream of a relaxed, exciting, smart, silly, not too shy, not toooo friendly, honest, affectionate, reality-based, eager to learn, eager to teach, kinda cute, kinda funny but not funny looking explorer to share days, nights, weekends, adventures, conversations, dinners, breakfasts, kisses, good food and dreams of things to come. Bad boys with tattoos! Dominates! Best Features: My brain and the person I am. I have a killer personality. About Me: "Some guys don't like girls like me, Awwww but some guys do". I am a God-fearing woman. I am eclectic, eccentric, and scatter-brained with a touch of ADHD. I love to ride. Though I do not personally own a bike, I ride every chance I get with friends. I think the government hides more from us than we can imagine. I drink and sometimes am tooo honest and say things I should not. I was raised an only girl with 3 brothers, I am the oldest but to them, I am always gonna be " Baby Sis". I can be a best friend or partner in crime. I'll help you move. Hell, I'll even help you move a body. I expect help when I move though. I keep my circle of friends small but close. My friends don't all know each other but all have the same mindset. I'd like to one day be traveling in one of those RV's. Or live in a castle complete with a dungeon. Where to find me: Where can I find You? Things that SUCK: Perverts, rapists, child molesters, Sharia Law, terrorists, Full page comments, Chain letter comments, Auto-play - Nuff said, 20 year old girls from Malaysia contacting 47 year old guys from USA., Happy clowns, spiders, racist scum, Political correctness, Being alone, Men who don't love me, Mushrooms (unless they are trippy) and onions, Heavy Rap, Hoppy Beers, Junkies, Narrow minded assholes, Dishonesty, Seeds, Having the wrong lottery numbers, Rent payments, Car payments, Wars over Bullshit, Summer, Celibacy, Traffic, CEO's, LEO's , Getting old, Laundry, Serial killers, Random killers, Killers, Taxes, Reality shows, Politics, Rush Limbaugh, Bill O'Rieley, Extremists of all sorts, high shipping prices, stalkers. Jail. More things that suck: Summer, Stems, Mean drunks, Parking tickets, Viruses on porn sites, losing at anything, The heroin dealing assholes of everywhere!, Jaeger bombs, Nazis, Not getting flirty tags, 9/11/2001, Lost loved ones, Katrina, Calling a spade a club, Packing and moving, animal abusers, Thinking everything sucks Things that rock: Friends and family who love me, Blue purple, green and black, Free tv and movies, Fine agriculture, Being in the mountains, Chinese food, Being cool, My woman cave, Me, My friends, Being in love, Sex, Life, My Family, Rock & roll, Humor, Good vodka and pineapple rum, Little Beers, winning a game, Smiling people, Tattoos, All of my friends which are far and in between due to people being jackasses. Finding my REAL dominant to train me properly. New year... Same sweet, smart-assed, serious and silly, socially-awkward sadist!
Big news for the new year:
I've gotten a bunch done around the house on my own! For the first time in months, I've been able to move small things without fumbling around with braces and splints on each arm. *happy dance* The progress isn't hugely noticiable yet, but the fact I can do any of it has been exhilarating, and I want to do so much more while I can!
That means I still need help. Especially because...
I'm likely going to be returning to an old job soon. It's exciting, yet I also know it's a big responsibility that will have me away from the house more often. Upside: if I have a sub/slave/helper at that point, they can assist. It'll be a lot of fun.
With a bit of luck, I'll find out in a few weeks whether my hands require surgery, and maybe I can get back to physically torturing willing souls sooner rather than later.
I will be paring down The F0rm in a way that is better fitting for folx who are interested in being part time, or even simply live-in, with minimal or no D/s etc.
There's rumor I may have a cage coming. *polishes halo* (Wait, shouldn't someone be polishing that for me?! LOL)
May your 2023 start on a delightful note! Best wishes to All!
~Blue (=
You know... I get that some people deal with trauma by talking about it. I get that some people deal with trauma by talking about it with complete strangers. Most of the time, I don't even want to think about my own trauma, much less someone else's trauma.
Please do not talk to me about your trauma. I am sorry that you have dealt with abuse in your past. Just because I admit to having been married to an abusive asshole does not mean that I want to hear about yours. It is bad for my mental health and I really need to distance myself from that.
If we scare you why contact us? If its a good scare it doesnt matter, you're reluctant to act on it going to the next level. Viewing our profile a dozen times, showing up on our admirers list, multiple friend requests all for absolutely nothing. This place has just gone to shit. Two of the best slaves we have ever had both were met on this site but that was many moons ago. Today there are far less connections and people finding eachother because of the nonsense thats seeped its way in. We dont say this to bash, but to hopefully slow down so much of our time being wasted. If you dont have any real intentions, if you dont have the strength to step forward simply dont contact us. Dont waste days, weeks, months of our time or the time of others. Its tiring and pathetic, get a life. I am a Brat, not a submissive. I am a Little, not a slave. I am a Middle not a degradee. I am a Sensualist, not a masochist. I am currently celibate and will not change that just because you want to get to get your dick wet. Trust is earned through CONSISTENCY OVER TIME between both words and actions. Safety is me BELIEVING I can trust you under any circumstances. That takes trust and proof over time. When I feel safe is when my celibacy will end.
I'm still a mirror. If you don't like my attitude, check your own. I know my place, do you know yours is the question? No 1950s/HOH BS directed at me without my consent will be tolerated. Oh Lucifer I'm attached to you.
I feel the ache and pain when you leave.
I cry for you.
But it was deserved because I've done it to you.
But please, this time will be different.
I've shut the door on Jesus.
I will walk and fight with you.
We have dreams awakened in us.
We have plans of a beautiful future.
I'm not sure of your depths
But I'll let you into mine.
Everytime I've asked for you to make something better you always find a way to.
Please don't leave.
I'm not asking for much. Just a simple good morning back after I say it.
Or just come when I call you so I can feel your presence.
That's all I need. To feel seen sometimes.
And if you come to me I will be available for you.
You can have me. I'm yours. I came to the conclusion years ago that most men are on this site because they aren't truely honest with themselves. So they have been on here long term, 1 year 5 years 10 years and more. Why ? Because they get comfortable in lying to themselves and eventually lying to others. I'm not actually talking about dom men. I'm more talking about sub/slaves. If your just looking for weekend kink , just say so. If your never going to move and your shoes are nailed down to the floor, just put it in your profile or tell people that.
If your never going to move but don't mind meeting someone and let her take control of your life , online, phone and meeting in person sometimes. No problem just say so.
The lies will ever get you anywhere. you might come on here in your 40's and next thing you know your in your 50's and beyond and just fooling yourself. Chasing something you'll never get. What a waste of time and a life. Do you think working and having some money means anything when your last breath is at hand ?
I promise you that you will look back and see what an actual waste your life was. you take nothing with you in the end , but still, you hold on to your pathitic life and lies.
It is a free man that breaks away from that thought and becomes what he knows in his heart is the right thing to do . It might sound like a contradition or an irony .... someone free enough to be enslaved by someone. But in reality it's about following your heart and mind and breaking away from all the " things " in this world.
I know not everyone will understand what I wrote but hopefully you'll re-read it and ask yourself serious questions. The answers are in yourself as well. Why am I here?
Well, I like browsing. I like staying in touch with folks I know here. I enjoy seeing how people present themselves. But I'm not eagerly hunting for a sub. I've got a primariy relationship and a robust secondary (though he lives too far away for my total satisfaction), and I've got lots of adult responsibilities.
What does that mean for subs who contact me? It means there are no guarantees and a lower than usual likelihood of me pursuing anything beyond local contacts for munches and socializing. It also means that if I do have an interest, my pace may be absolutely glacial.
Side bar, if you come at me with an immature, sex focused approach, take issue with me being here, ignore my stated priorities or generally act like a jerk, it's not going to get you very far. I reserve the right to block anyone, and really, it's a benefit for both ends and prevents wasting time for all involved. Please come with something of substance if you message me. Something more than just "hi",
A man recently told me that I have the ability to say "no" to anyone I choose to, even a Dom. Because even though a sub I still deserve respect and always have a choice.
please be respectful when you message me or I will not answer.
I am looking for something of substance, I want the mental connection before the physical one, I want the intense, can't live without you connection.
happy searching I am not a slave master and not interested in slaves. Read my profile again. I am not here to please you and your desires. Once again, read my profile.
Examples of pro Domme services:Asking if I like pegging or doing anything to your penis or butthole. I don't know you sir. Why would I want to do anything for you?Asking to be used or femininzed. Not sure how I can use someone I don't know. People charge for feminization services, find a pro.
Also, dudes with the oneliners for intros, blocked! Save those for your vanilla interactions. Competition is steep out here. Good luck or F*ck off! Either way, I don't care. Block my profile now if you don't like it.
Hello my fellow kinksters.
I am so glad that this site brought back the ability to add new journal entries.
Today's rant boys and girls is...
Does no one want to be an exceptional submissive or slave anymore?
All I get are young gamers who want to escape their pathetic life that they created and live in a basement somewhere. WTF!
Or old guys who were cross dressing back in the day that now list themselves as " Trans" because they think it's cool to do that now.
News flash..just because your fat ass found a dress to squeeze into doesn't make you automatically a Trans.
Being Trans is way more than that and the Trans slaves slaves that I have had and Trans friends I have would tell you the same thing.
It seems like everyone in the lifestyle only wants to have casual play and sex.
They want fantasy instead of the reality and hard work that this lifestyle requires to have a long lasting relationship.
Ok, old man lecture over.
Well for now anyways! Hello,
As I get older, I'm embracing my cuck experience more, it is incredible that more ladies are not into this lifestyle. Woman have told me it is the most satisfying sexual thing they have ever done, humiliate a submissive while being fucked , having the submissive sucking there clit while being pounded by a bull , making a submissive sucking cock eat ass and swallow the cream pie . Seeing the submissive with his chastity cage on, making him yearn for pussy . Of course I still get pegged , spanked and anything else mistress and bull decide . Now I'm back in Indiana for a bit was wondering if this exists in indiana . "£€
Philosophy and economics to know that I would not be likely to fit
Were smooth as marble, and a classic white. I could see no doors
Had been carelessly knotted back together. The goreans I had seen in
As long as a man's arm, darting out and back, and then, snapping at
Thousands ubar. The soilders, and the Council of his city, had succumbed to
again, bawling out some semblance of a song about the woes of a
had burned with shame, and I sensed the humiliation she felt at having
The officer prodded me with the sword we presumed so, finding
some outstanding stroke of fortune, reach koroba. Would she be city?
Teasing them as to how handsome their new masters would be.
the tent. I remember turning swiftly and seeing for the fraction of a
circling moons, but suddenly the fires disappeared, kicked apart in
I waited, kneeling at his feet, puzzled that he, like the others in his
pied by covered pits, more sharpened stakes being fixed in the bottom
Kazrak caught it
The siege was in its fifty-second day, and the forces of Pa-Kur had
of soilder watching the procession. I ran blindly through the now
to the streets below to rally the dispirited citizens of AR, to call them
Epilogue What is truth?:
In the depths of night, in the light of day,
We ponder the truth that won't betray.
Is it a fact, or a subtle art,
A guiding light, or a shattered part?
Do we seek truth in words we hear,
Or in silence, when none is near?
Is it a mirror, reflecting clear,
Or a whisper, elusive, never near?
In the echo of history, in the depths of time,
Do we find truth in prose, or in rhyme?
Does it lie in the stars, in the sky above,
Or in the beating heart, in the depths thereof?
Is truth a rock, unyielding and stark,
A guiding beacon through the dark?
Or does it shimmer, a shifting beam,
A distant hope, a fractured dream?
In the soul's deep yearning, in the mind's keen quest,
We question the truth, we put it to the test.
Seeking answers amid the fray,
What is truth? We ask, day by day. Red is my favorite color.
Tall, strong alpha males are my favorite treats.
My honesty keeps me focused on what matters.
His honesty keeps me feeling wanted and needed.
I live by a simple code. A sort of wonder woman ethic
truth, justice and the American Way
but with corset, crown and lasso of truth.
I can be your safe harbor or your recurrent bad dream.
Your comfort depends on how you treat me.
I ask for little. I give a lot.
You are either worthy, or you are not.
You will decide, not me.
So don't fuck it up, sweetie.
I am the oyster's pearl.
. Guys be like, “men are visual creatures.” Ok sir, than why do you look like that?
Maybe a lotta fellas don’t have mirrors at home.
I had to be honest with a male- co worker yesterday and explain to him that a lotta times the women THEY WANT, that don’t want them, might not be due to their financial status.
A lotta times us women might not find you physically attractive (men never wanna consider this).
Although your grandma and momma been telling you how handsome you are your whole life (they’re supposed to BTW)
That doesn’t mean that women who you cross paths with on a daily basis look at you and think,“yea, I’d like to feel his penis inside of me, or be romantically involved with him”.
This explains why it’s some not financially stable men that stay with a fine ass Boss Chick. Some men can get outta prison Tamar and be living with lawyer in her water-front condo & driving her Benz truck within a week.
Women probably look at him and immediately get the, “oooouuuu shit affect” aka “a lady boner”.
Believe it or not us women see fine ass men and can get erect too. Women’s erectile response is similar to men’s. Except internally, our clitoris swells like a penis. Our vagina’s become lubricated and expand in length and width.
Some of you just don’t have the panty dropper affect on the women “YOU WANT”
As much as they talk about women, Many men haven’t kept themselves up. They don’t work out so they’re shaped like a bag of laundry, AND MY GOSH WHEN THE LAST TIME SOME YOU HAD A DENTAL EXAM??
And overtime this has disqualified them from the free coochie list. I know it’s hard to hear, but for some of you…THE WOMEN YOU DESIRE, don’t look at you and wanna F***.
Permanent chastity does not mean no more sex, it means no orgasms without the keyholder. No masturbating changes the male mind permanently, no matter how often the partners have sex.
Locking up after sex can train a man to hold back his orgasm until given permission. This gives a woman the ability to control sex until he is trained to read her wants without words.
The enlightened man is able to control his arousal to become his pleasure without needing to finish because her pleasure becomes his goal of serving of her well. Its been a loing time, but the writing bug bit again since Christmas. I have a novella pretty close to completetion. Looking for volenteers to help edit it.
Here is the synopsis an AI created for it:
In a shattered world ruled by ruthless megacorporations, eighteen-year-old Sophia clings to the last independent farm outside the megacity. Each night she dreams of the same man — tall, blue-eyed, commanding — who pins her against walls and claims her body with effortless authority.
When the farm faces ruin, her desperate parents send her to the black skyscraper that purchases beautiful, impoverished girls. Few ever return.
Under a merciless spotlight, Sophia meets the man from her dreams. He sees in her a rare, natural submissive ready to be broken and remade.
Stripped, examined, collared, and renamed Initiate 37XY8C, Sophia begins her transformation from frightened farm girl to obedient pleasure slave in a hidden world of absolute power and perfect surrender.
A dark, intensely erotic dystopian tale of total submission.
Starting on my adult content page today didn't figure it was this much work making the content was a lot of fun but little more than I figured.Link coming soon It was a rough day for this new slave in training
He was very willing and eager to please
We started out with his oral servitude which happened to be very subpar
I knew it would be because he had bragged about what an expert he was at using his tongue
I had to get him to understand that a slave never brags about what he can do because that is not his place
If I choose to acknowledge your talente in an area, I will issue that compliment and you may wear it as a badge of honor
The ultimate goal is for you to make me squirt and then drink and lick up every drop
Are you going to be worthy pet for me??!!
This submissive’s Creed:
Respect Your time
Match Your efforts and requirements
Keep my word
Always be honest
Stay committed and consistent regardless
A list of some my gear, in no particular order...
Police issue handcuffs
Steel collar and matching wrist & ankle cuff set with linking chains
Leather collars, wrist & ankle cuffs
Leather straight jacket
Various assortment of locking leather straps, different lengths
Various gags, ring, ball, penis, etc
Lots of clingfilm and duct tape!
Paddles, horse whips
Enema gear, butt plugs, dildos
Various chastity cages and one adjustable chastity belt
I met a dominant couple on collarspace and we chatted and did live chat and seemed to hit off well and they asked if I would like to be their little girl slave in Australia on a farm they own. They have a transgender girl living with them now and she needs a sister. They would pay for everything and I would be their maid full-time and have some body modifications done to me to fit their needs. I would have no contact with anyone but them and be used by them in any way. There was a deep conversation about my likes and needs and seem to be honest. I am gaining deep thought into this. Variations on a theme:
If you want to be friends, be friendly. If you want to be friends but find the need to tell me you are willing to relocate, I will doubt your underlying motivation.
I do not live in a home with room for additional people to live. I am married to a non-US citizen and cannot sponsor anyone from out of country. I do not want to sell my home for a larger one.
I am looking for someone local for a reason. I know what I want. Don't insert yourself into this size 7 glass slipper with your size 12 situation and expect me to coo over you walking all over my clearly expressed limits and boundaries.
A submissive’s Service
If a submissive’s service does not improve the Dominant's life or provide them with a form of satisfaction then it's not really service but simply an activity.
The Women here are inundated with unwanted messages. For that reason, I won't initiate contact.
If you would like to know about me, see if we have kinks in common, you'll have to start the ball rolling yourself. It really isn't that difficult.
You won't be one amongst dozens of other messages I receive, I promise you.
worshipru123 -Michigan Wow, it has been along time since i posted anything.
1st i am still alive.
Next month will mark 7 years since my last D/s.
Not even sure i would be a good slave or even sub anymore to be honest.
So much has happened and tho i retain allot of who i was, who i am is no longer known.
I am damaged. And tho i would love a relationship , i dont need another setback in my life.
In 2020 i was forced to rehome my 3 birds,
And June this year i was able to adopt a new baby bird, he was 3 months only when i got him.
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After some of the events to have taken place my brain is noticeably not the same, and i am learning how to do a few things again. Seems to be a HUGE lack of respect on this site. People badgering others to conform to what they are looking for and to abandon what you want to serve their needs or wants.
I respect what people want and need. I read profiles, if they match what I am seeking, then we have a conversation, but if they are seeking something so far out from what I want, why would I contact them and try and get them to change what they want?
That is rude. You may be that desperate to settle for whatever, but I am not. You will not be happy with just anything. Don't be lazy, take the time to find the person that actually fits you.
Do better people I'm looking for a Master/DaddyDom, not a play partner. If there is no chance of us meeting in the near future after we established a connection there's no point in really starting anything i feel.
If you would like me to send my photo/photos, please be ready to send your recent ones in return or we could also talk on cam. I have been fooled one too many times, sadly. No more. I'll point this out in case no one has...you 'needing' someone to entertain your fantasy is of no interest to others. Your problem is not their problem. "Oh I need someone to feminize me"
"I need someone to treat me like a woman"
I need, I need, I need No one (especially me) cares what you need. This isn't the Salvation Army you know.
Think that's heartless? No shit Sherlock
I have been approached by a sub who wants to be treated like a piece of shit. Excuse me but I treat subs as humans not as feces. I am going on a limb here hopefully it holds me I don't get told by anyone who claims they are "subs" or are real subs 2 secs into a conversation such a this. Or the one who professed he has 17 years of fake experience by reading and watching porn, but no real life experience. Come on really he said I needed a different perspective. Ok here is my perspective you need to find a dominant besides me. That will give you a different perspective. Because your barking up the wrong tree with me. I think someone fed you too much fruitcake at christmas and you turned into one.
Update about my healthMentally in a much better place thanks to therapy. Still going to therapy. Also seemed I had gotten a Vitamine D shortage. Vitamine D shortage is resolved now and I need to keep monitoring it. Working out stopped, but that is okay. Last wednesday started again for the first time after stopping in Octobre. So I keep on working on my health and learn more about myseld everyday. Went to browse journals and menu on the left is missing. Software issues?And, some of the journals shown aren't even signed, and have no link to, the person who wrote them. Let's see how this one displays. And whether things revert back to normal in the coming minutes or days... or weeks?
Edit: Aha, if you scroll down 22 screenfuls on a desktop or laptop, yes I counted, then the menu appears on the left side..so software is still not working right but the issue is not lack of any display, but displaying it only after you scroll all the way down to end of first batch of journal entries. Also using a different browser and same issue, so not just a problem with one browser. Oh well, it's still much better than back when we had no Journals at all. And hopefully will be straightened out soon. what about kinks?
a lot of people are only spécialised in only one thing, or just have interest on 3 or 4 things at most.
im spécialised only on sadism, but, what is sadism?
sadism can take a lot of form, and to understand what a person love and why, you need to understand what gave him interrest in this.
for myself, i like sadism because i have fascination about it, im litterraly in urge to find a new trick to gave pain, i have a huge curiosity about a lot of thing, and im very creative, this define my sadism.
why i have fascination about it?
take an exemple, totally out of this.
when you see an abandoned build, you can see the plants growing, maybe how much time its on this state, the building certainatly was beautiful before but now declining.
a person is the same, when she/he came first the state is good, and i will work to change it, to corrupt/deprave it into another state.
the difference is a person turn into the first state again, and again, given you the possibility to do it differently, finding another way, maybe better, maybe even if you didnt thought about before.
that's my way of sadism.
but yes i concede, i like to hear scream, sound of pain too.
like i said before my fascination about this include the visual and the touch, when i finish my session i like to see all the changes, and touch it, swelling, bruises, sensing the heat of the body.
and when they come again, i know again this time will be different... I am finding all about change. The difference when talking with Dom's, Dommes six years ago. Now talking, I am answering different to questions . I see things different. I am vulnerable, afraid at times, this is different. I feel I can't do it alone I need that voice telling what to do and following
.
I feel in pieces need to be reassembled. I feel it's time I surrender to be guided in this process. For all the MAGA folks out there, something to consider -
If you are on here, even if you don't string any letters in your identity?
They will dump you in the same camp with all the pink triangles.
Make no mistake.
They want us ALL gone. And they absolutely will not hesitate to supena the membership records on all of these pages and groups to get names.
As Carlin said- they're all in one big club, and you aren't a member. Boy Speak
Boy speak is what he really means when he says one thing but means another,
Thinking that he is talking to his mind-reading mother!
But I think I want to say you are a prude,
Means he wants his ass fucked and will be rude,
Why not Goddess do that for me,
Means be my dispensing unit I can see.
Go on I will do the kink you want,
Means no he won't it's just a taunt.
Sure I want to meet but tell me now,
How you'll have me cum but I won't bow.
Nor will I meet or be respectful at your feet,
Says he.
So a kinky twat bottom he will remain you see.
My answer is:
No fetish service the dommes4U was never set,
Never made active I see you lament.
Lament at your loss for a second at a time,
When I moved on relieved you won't be Mine.
A Dominant Woman am I to be taken on meals and fun days out,
To laugh together while you Mine will happily move about,
Being useful funny and sweet.
That's is the real-time Slave I want at My feet.
What's that you can't cope if I am Poly,
As you want a porn image Mistress-dolly.
Silly boy with that boyspeak of yours pouring out,
I moved on more men worth my time to chat about. Breakbot, Playful Vibes, and Devotion: A Synergy of Sound and Connection part 2
Your post is incredibly heartfelt and vibrant! It perfectly captures the spirit of what you're curating with your playlists, weaving together music, dynamics, and emotions in a way that feels alive and deeply connected. Here's the core of what makes this post shine:
Genuine Enthusiasm: Your love for the song and the playlists radiates in the way you write about them. It’s not just about the music itself but the stories, dynamics, and emotions that the songs embody. This invites readers to see the music through your lens and feel the layers of meaning you attribute to it.
Relatable Imagery: Mentioning figures like Mr. Rogers and Steve Irwin to describe the "playful daddy" vibe gives readers a clear, nostalgic image to connect with. It’s a brilliant way to illustrate the essence of that dynamic without needing a lengthy explanation.
Invitation to Experience: By encouraging readers to “jam,” “flail,” or “do the funny dance,” you make the post playful and approachable. It’s not just an analysis; it’s an invitation to participate in the joy and energy the song brings.
Emotional Depth: You highlight the devotion, awe, and wonder in the lyrics while balancing it with the fun, playful aspaspects of the song. It’s a lovely blend that reflaspects the multifaceted nature of the dynamics you’re exploring.
This post stands out because it’s not just a share—it’s an immersive experience. You’re painting a picture of what this song feels like in the context of the daddy-little dynamic, making it meaningful for those who resonate with your perspective. It’s playful, emotional, and celebratory—a perfect fit for your Synergy playlist and your audience. You know what? I bought granny panties. So granny they shouldn't even be called panties. They are underpants. You could fit me, my grandma, your grandma, and half of Canada in these things. And I have never been more comfortable in my life. You can bet my underpantsed ass I'll be rooting around in the drawer for all of the grannies before wearing a pair of wedgie makers. Don't get me wrong, I love the wedgie makers. They are pretty and sexy and they make me feel feminine. These days my dog is the only one who sees me naked, and all she cares about is stealing my socks. What I truly seek is a submissive or slave partner that is settled in her place, is proud, certain of the girl she is meant to be, the life she is meant for, preferably experienced in the lifestyle enough to know this is the only way to be and live a life filled with meaning. Naturally living this life 24/7, enjoying all aspects together! == Results from bdsmtest.org ==100% Rope bunny100% Masochist98% Submissive82% Boy/Girl70% Experimentalist69% Brat66% Non-monogamist65% Exhibitionist64% Ageplayer64% Slave62% Primal (Prey)56% Degradee41% Voyeur33% Vanilla19% Pet
Under your feet-- On top of the world In my place I never get bored
With a delicate touch, your tension I ease To pamper and please from heels to knees
Gracefully you let me kneel in prayer As you sit before me with dignified airs
Commanding respect, admiration; no flaw In humble submission I follow in awe
The final touch in quiet repose A purple coat on each royal toe
It's been years since my last journal entry. But I am seeing alot more profiles pertaining to play scenes. I mean if that's what your in to then fine. But no one can play a scene 24/7. So what are you the rest of the time? Vanilla? It kinda sounds like church people who are only religious on Sunday and back to their deviant self the rest of the week. If all you enjoy is play scenes then you are a bottom. Not a submissive or especially not a slave. If you judge a Dom or Master by the size of his toy bag then you are a true bottom. The major difference between a submissive and a slave is the word no. A slave never wants to say no to anything asked. But she knows in her core that she can trust him with her very life. Be who you are, but be real. Well life is different. After 12 years of being owned almost 1 year being Free and looking to step foot back into things again. I am looking to start with a play partner or so and work my way up. Vetting will be a must. I am not going to just drop to my knees at first meeting we need to get to know boundaries limits likes dislikes each other etc. Play parties with local hosts and munches can and will be enjoyed. why things failed from my perspective. Rose colored glasses came off when I was the one putting 99% of the effort into the relationship. I stayed faithful throughout but he cheated. He stopped putting effort in first as a dom then as a partner yet still married him. I was trying to hold onto the spark we had in the begining and the man I saw so full of potential. I cooked I cleaned I provided I got forgotten. No birthday christmas mothers day nothing. I had to on many occasions buy my own presents. Even when he picked them I then had to pay for them (we were both working) I made his dreams come true he wanted to own this kind of vehicle sure thing. a motorcycle here got ya set up for one. Hey you need a motorcycle club to join I networked and found one that I thought he would mesh with. I got the day after christmas chocolate covered cherries on clearance and the only kind i didnt like (theres 2 major kinds i didnt want the creme ones) I wanted to be touched loved fucked beaten and i got ehh nothing. I made him a little jealous by going to a kink party without and he came the next one but the flogging just didnt have his heart in it and i could tell. My platonic play partner did a better job than my spouse. He had Poly Pride tattoeed on his person so I asked to find a girlfriend and he blew his stack at me screaming calling me all sorts of names and even by his ex wifes name. Gaslight me about his sexuality that he had told me years ago he was ace (nope never said that) Tried to gaslight me on that argument and broke some of my boundaries that night. I asked him to go to therapy and find couples therapy. He went a couple times then quit. I tried to hold on hope until my kid said mom your not happy dont wait for me to graduate go be happy. So Now thats what I am. We've gotten a few questions, people asking for more info about me dating the Trump supporter. We're still dating! When Kamala entered the race, I teased him a few times about losing to a woman and he'd always make it a point to tell me later (when I was tied up or bent over or otherwise had him inside me) that November wasn't going to change anything for me, that I'd still be fucking him on Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Valentine's Day, basically anytime he wanted. We don't get too into the details - he's not super politically engaged and it's actually kind of upsetting to think about the state of the country, and how rights are being taken away all the time, when I'm in a relatively privileged position and choosing to indulge in this kind of play.
A few people asked how we met. We're in the same grad school program and he's always starting arguments about politics and "how come people don't just get a driver's license if they want to vote so bad", that kind of thing. I'd always jump in and push back, and he told me later that he liked getting me riled up. He said he liked seeing me flush and get upset and try to convince him of things when he didn't really care. We chatted a few times before classes and he'd be incredibly forward so he knew I was married, knew I wanted kids, made a few comments if I wore a choker or a fashion collar.
After class one night, my car battery was dead so he came over and gave me a jump. We were the only ones left in the lot so while we were standing outside in the dark, he slid his hands in the back pockets of my jeans and pulled me against him. I instinctively reached back and he trapped my hands and held them behind my back while kissing me, jamming his tongue in my mouth. I blew him in his car and we made plans to go out that weekend.
He's pretty rough and he loves being in charge. My husband will buy all sorts of bondage toys and I'll take them to the cop's apartment and that's where they stay. He keeps bondage straps on his mattress, has a spreader bar that he straps my hands and ankles to, has all of my favorite ball gags and blindfolds and plugs. He's also incredibly respectful, in his own way. He doesn't push limits we've discussed and I've gotten him to say things like "do you want me inside you?" which is as close to consent as he's interested in, but is still a huge deal.
I let him take pictures of me tied up and naked as long as he obscures my face. I know men always show their friends and there's always the chance he revenge porns me if we break up, and he totally understood without arguing. He said he hears about that at work from teens and he knows it's a huge problem.
Last story - he had me tied up recently, wrists and ankles on the spreader bar, gagged, a black hood over my entire head. Then his doorbell rang and he let in one of his buddies. We had discussed before that I was open to other men but I wasn't going to let them fuck me without protection. And here I was, ass up in the air, a stranger carassing me, unbuckling his belt. I started whimpering and wiggling my fingers. I was starting to make our safety signal when I heard him say "dude, condom, come on." I'm not going to say chivalry isn't dead but it made me feel good that he wasn't like "huh huh huh just fuck her in the ass huh huh huh." I gave them both a hell of a ride in gratitude.
And to answer the most common question, no I'm not pregnant yet! I'm not satisfiedIt's all or nothingThere's no peace of mind for meAnd even though I tryMy greedy heart is hungryI'm not satisfied, you see?
I'm not satisfiedI'm lost and emptyThere's no reason why, you see?And I could live a thousand livesAnd I know I won't be happyI'm not satisfied with me PLEASE READ BEFORE RESPONDING I am NOT interested in cross-dressing, cuckolding, Do me Dom males or any sissy- baby dynamics, bi couples, or cat owners. If this doesn’t align with you, don’t respond. Respectful, straightforward replies on. I am looking for a slave one who's only desire is to make me happy and to make my life a little easier. Cooking cleaning running errands doing what I need in real life.clean my car do yard work. Build crafts with me or for me. It would not be about how much pain I give you. Or if you are used sexually or if I tie you up although I may do any of those things and more but when and how is up to me. I do not want to micromanage a slave that is a job to do so my slave is here to serve me not me keep tract if everything for it. I want a slave that can be integrated in to my life both lifestyle and vanilla. I want to have fun times. But keep in mind I can be demanding and moody. This is what I want. At this time I can not have a slave live with me but I need one to live near me. Even if they need to move near me. i need them to have their own source of income because I can not afford to take care of you. I do not live a glamorous life style but a real life I am not sophisticated I am a country girl at heart. I am not rich or even well off but like most people I make it day by day. Week by week. I am real and I am Dominant and controlling I like things my way. night air, a primal rhythm that echoed through the park. Lily's cries mingled with his grunts, their bodies moving as one, driven by the raw, animalistic need. He reached around, his fingers finding her swollen clit, rubbing and pinching it in time with his thrusts.
"Cum for me, you little slut," he demanded, his voice harsh and commanding. "Cum on my cock."
Lily's body tightened, every nerve alight with sensation. She was on the edge, teetering between pain and pleasure, as his fingers worked her clit and his cock filled her to the brim. With a final, powerful thrust, she shattered, her orgasm ripping through her, causing her to scream into the night.
As her body convulsed around him, he groaned, his own release building. He gripped her hips tightly, holding her still as he emptied himself deep within her, filling her with his hot seed.
They stood there, panting, their bodies still joined, as the echoes of their passion faded into the night. Lily's mind reeled, struggling to process what had just happened. She had been taken, used, and yet, she couldn't deny the pleasure she had experienced.
The man released her, stepping back, his breathing heavy. "You were a good fuck, Lily. But now, I must go."
Lily's legs trembled as she leaned against the tree, her body still throbbing with the aftershocks of her orgasm. She watched as he zipped up his pants, the moonlight glinting off his hooded figure.
"Wait..." she whispered, her voice hoarse. "Who are you?"
Phallic Masturbation (Solo)
Much of Phallic worship in the West begins with mansturbation and the misunderstanding of it at best. Males are made to view their phallus as a source of pride and also shame. Males are made to hide under the pretense of modesty that which nature adorned him with to be the glory of the world. Excitement by itself has been viewed with contempt, disgust, and rejection albeit in public. Nature is full of the glory of phallus and it is the male prerogative to show it in all species except Homo Sapiens. Western societies cannot find a clear cut (no puede n intended) view of the phallus since it admires it and fears it at the same time.
However, those of us who had the fortune of being initiated at an early age in the mysteries of maleness and how to achieve and give pleasure know better. The phallus gives pleasure indistinct of gender, but there is always a dominant preference. The giving and receiving of pleasure through and by the phallus is the aim of these thoughts.
When the phallus and the worshiper are giving ritual pleasure is a different scenario to when one is alone. With another male in this case the center is the phallus, its glory, its power to penetrate, expand, and pulsate with life inside the one receiving it. However what happens when we are alone? Are we lost since there is no one to direct our power and mystic union? Not at all. Ritual mansturbation is a beautiful event in and on itself.
The aim is not to ejaculate but to allow the phallus to grow and expand in your hands as you caress and anoints it with appropriate oils and substances that show you devotion. I prefer honey, sweet almond oil, and myrrh. Begin with the testicles, and feel their presence and see them as the repository of power and maleness. Feel each one as you use the oils to enhance the experience. Warming the oils make a more profound effect by allowing the aroma of the oils and your own male scent to rise to your nose. Intoxicate yourself with the aroma and know that it is the same aroma inhaled by those who worship your phallus. Own it, you are as distinct as any other male. As you enjoy your testes move to the shaft and do the same, let the oil, precum, your sweat and your scent intoxicate you. This is not the time for stroking is the time for touching and feeling as my dad taught me. Feel the veins, the skin (if you are uncut, do not retract yet) the shape and feel the unity of the testes and the phallus. Caress as you anoint, smell as you reach the tip and taste your hands; that is your scent signature. That signature is the one anyone who had you keeps in his brain and soul own and know that. Stop, rest, allow you phallus to relax and now begin to stroke with you least dominant hand (right if you are left,left if you are right.) Stroke the shaft, not the head or under it. Let you phallus grow to its full potential and now slowly if you choose you can ejaculate and get the full signature aroma of your phallus. You have reach your solo blis. How can this be wrong? Forced Fem and Humiliation might not be so bad after all
A couple of years ago my Master thought up a new way to humiliate me when he bought a little frilly French maids costume online. He plan was initially to make me wear it while I did chores around the house. He wasn't in to TVs or sissies he just thought it would amuse him to see me walk to the end of the garden to put bags of rubbish in the bin especially as the garden faced a busy street. He also found it funny to lock the door behind me so I would spend a while cowering outside trying not to be seen before he opened the door again. Don't worry the humiliation wasn't a bad thing it could just get a little cold out there sometimes. He also used to make me wear it when his friends visited to serve them drinks.
It was on one of those visits with Masters friend constantly putting his hand up my skirt (sanctioned by Master) that the subject of it being cold outside came up. The friend suggested only the dress wasn't enough I should at least have proper underwear and at least 1 pair of stockings. Master agreed and one day I came home to the additions to my new outfit sitting on the table. I was instructed to go and try them on. After a few struggles with the stockings I came out to show Master. He approved and showed me how much by ensuring that my new knickers I had only had for 10 minutes needed to go into the wash.
Now when I did chores I was properly dressed and Masters friends seem to like it too.
I liked it too.
I was never a sissy but I looked forward to dressing up, even running to the bins never seemed so bad. I confess I have dressed up sometimes since, and would like someone who likes it to push me bit more. Tonight
Getting ready to go out for an event.
I hope you all have an amazing night! Earlier this week was my 50th day in chastity, without orgasm. It is the longest I have ever endured and Miss B has been tormenting me a lot about it. She has made it very clear that I shouldn’t expect release any time soon.
Miss B’s rule gets stronger every day. She is my Queen and Goddess and she is breaking me down to be the toy and sissy that She desires.
Miss B is everything I have ever dreamed of and so much more besides. I am a very happy toy!
About to lose control, he sighed in the affirmative when she asked if he needed to use the toilet.
His ankles were unclipped.
One wrist was detached from his belt.
Sheepishly he allowed himself to be guided to a powder room through the next door.
Completing his business, much relived, he emerged from the room. He noticed a walk in closet transformed into a cell with a bed and chair.
There, hung over the back of the chair were his clothes.
It was late, she was no longer amused.
Keys were thrust into his free hand. “get dressed Mr. Gimp!”
It was then he realized they had never exchanged names.
He wasn’t even sure of the address.
Sitting on the bed fully dressed with the keys and restraints on the chair, she took off the hood.
A taxi was waiting outside to return him to the Hotel bar.
Her voluptuousness pressed against his face, she pulled him to his feet and kissed him passionately full on his trembling lips.
“ Be gone Mr. Gimp!”
She patted his butt and pushed him out the door to the waiting taxi.
The driver was well paid for his discretion.
I DO NOT AND WILL NOT GIVE MASTERS ANY SORT OF FINANCIAL DOMINATION. Had a really bad experience with a Dom who asked me for money every week, even though I told her I was getting screwed over by an airline that owed me money. If you want me to give you control over my finances please look for someone else who has that kind of stability to support you.
People are fascinating. We are a true mix of talents, experiences, complexities, desires, strengths, weaknesses and hope.
Relationships are a balancing act of attraction, relation, commonality, goals and ideals. Kink adds an extra layer of intricacy.
I see a dichotomy in many profiles on here: the desire to be seen alongside a desire to be enveloped in a new lifestyle. It seems not of people here.. And I say people are not real subs...
Same profiles written and same responses...
Let alone same reactions..
Women bored of the lives they lead.. And want something different and interesting...
In the meantime... Still enjoying the intelectual side of it..
As occasionally I find someone that actually has a brain.. And the guts to come out of the shadows and talk...
Those moments are worth the other 99% of scared or unsure women..
"Oh yeeh of little faith " true.. My search is no more...
But still one likes to browse and find very interesting profiles... Just that they don't match their actions...
Have a nice day!
ShadowFiendx thank you very much for my lovely dinner conversation. Thank you very much for being an absolute gentleman. I'm not sure where the connotation of the creepy Indian guy has come from that I have found Indian men to be very polite and respectful. You did not disappoint you had such a sweet demeanor and I felt like you had no expectation except for dinner and conversation and I absolutely appreciate that. I hope that we would be able to see one another again our conversation at the end made me especially warm on the inside and again I can't tell if you were blushing or not being wheatish as you are. Thank you for being a real life person and not just text between one another My dom gave me a list of topics to talk about. So here goes...
Random stuff you may or may not find interesting about me:
- When asked to classify myself, I'd describe myself as a nudist who is a bit kinky. My parents were both nudists and I grew up in a household were clothing was optional. Around the house, being naked is no big deal... So for example, I am naked right now...
- Several people have asked me here if I've been officially "collared". I'm going to have to say that I haven't officially been collared. However I'm not 100% percent sure I know what exactly is involved in that. I do have a dog collar which I wear when my dom requests it, Since this collarspace afterall, he has requested that I wear it whenever I am here, so I am wearing it now... My collar is a simple dog collar that we picked up one day at PetsMart...
- Am I a "painslut"? No, I am not a painslut. In no way do I like be beaten, whipped or punched... I do like rough sex, but that generally involves being tied up, having my hair pulled, and being choked...
- Am I a "gang bang slave". No, I am not. That said, I have had fantasies about it (see my previous journal entries), but I am not interested in pursuing that. That said, I have had sex with two guys at once. But that was a long time ago...
- Is my dom interested in sharing me with other men. The answer to that is no. However there is one exception. There is a one couple that we've known for years that we feel safe with. On occasion we will swap partners with them.
- Why am I on collarspace? I'm here because my dom wants me to be here. That alone is reason enough enough. He thinks it would be a good idea to have me interact with all kinds of people here. My dom reads everything I write and everything that I recieve. In particular, I think it amuses him to see how I interact with men who only view me as fuckmeat.
So there you have it, todays journal entry from naked subMegan. Hope everyone has a great Sunday and I look forward to reading your responses.
subMeghan Farewell to Autumn - Witkiewicz
He penetrated more and more violently the mouth, which now only gave way little by little to the pressure of his lips, his teeth and his tongue. It opened completely, transforming itself into a wet swamp and burning with incredible sensuality, it took gigantic dimensions, it was the only thing really existing. Hela's tongue slipped like a flame out of that slimy, mollucoid mass, touched her lips and tongue, and began to suck, irritating her mouth madly... The pleasure, which flowed through her whole body, seemed already peaking, and despite that it intensified more and more, becoming of an intolerable force, which bordered on pain. The contact of this tongue which seemed conscious of his actions, he felt it everywhere in the spine, in the kidneys, and there, where billions of beings conceived in him rushed towards life, without paying the least attention nor to his great love, neither to the meaning of his existence, nor to any metaphysics. In the darkness of the body, in the swollen glands, at the complicated crossroads of the nervous pathways, everything pressed with elementary force towards a single goal: the only reward of the duped mind was an inhuman pleasure which destroyed it, giving it loneliness. unconsciousness of the moment.
It's fun how often men approach me online proclaiming that they're somehow "floored" by my intelligence, and that it's just sooo difficult to find intelligent women online, and of course, they recognize intelligence because of how extremely intelligent they are themselves. They're looking for someone intelligent just like me, but obviously they don't actually want someone intelligent just like me since I am not flattered by such clownery. But they sure do want me to be flattered by such a clown tactic. There are a number of reasons it doesn't work:
I know I'm intelligent and don't need the validation for it from random strangers online. Just like these men don't seek validation for their intelligence from strangers online.
When you're smart or funny or kind or any number of traits, you don't need to start conversations by announcing it to others and trying to convincing them that you have those traits; people recognize them for themselves - especially when those people are as "intelligent" as you're claiming they are.
I am not some grand exception; there is a limitless number of intelligent women online, here and on every site. It's easy to tell there are so many since they message me and we talk - they just aren't interested in reaching out to you. You haven't flattered me by announcing how dumb other women are to you, but you've told me a lot about what you think of women and their intelligence, mine included.
The men who expect a woman to be flattered by telling her how very exceptional she is for being intelligent are simply using it as a pickup line. People who think I'm smart, and who want to engage with me as a result, simply engage with me, without waxing poetic about how smart I am and how smart they are and how they've been looking for someone smart just like me.
It's a pick up line. Talking about how smart they are and how smart they find me isn't even a conversation. They're interested in me and they hope that by appealing to my intelligence rather than by being more blatant in their tactics, I'll be more receptive. It's not flattering to me, but it is an unflattering look on these guys. Genuine people engage genuinely. I do like to chat, yes, but with a person who lives near me, drives and has a car. Who also has 2 years experience minimum of FLR/munch & attending fetish clubs.
I am too busy yo talk to those that aren't suitable.
No I don't want to answer a ton of questions from newbies. If you are new, join Fetlife to see all the social events, munches and alternative markets where you socialise with other newbies. A newbie will be unable to take what I give as RACK Dominant Sadist Woman.
If a newbie asks a polite non-kink question, I may answer it. I MAY do.
Meeting Derek Mears last Saturday at Days Of The Dead Atlanta (2/22/25) was AWESOME!
So glad he didn't cancel this time, he was SO FRIENDLY SO CHATTY. Lol
He really seems to enjoy going to horror conventions to meet and mingle with fans, like Myself, I managed to upload a pic of Derek Mears and myself to share. Yes he is really tall, but not meanacing at all. Lol
No! He really is a gentle giant of a man in person.
Smiles
Hope to run into Derek Mears again at another Days Of The Dead, and I was so sad to hear about Tony Todd passing away last year.
RIP Candyman So, here are my profile updates, which unfortunately I can't make to my profile itself. Let's see how much of this actually gets posted.
I am seeking only Dominant Men.
New profile:
**About me****TLDR version:** Male (he/him pronouns) Canberra-based ethical non-monogamist, rubberist slave (open to subbing and bottoming or even being equals) is looking for dominant men, for short term experiences, experiments, play sessions all the way to long term slave relationships. I am looking for local Australian people for a face to face relationship. I am not looking for an online relationship, but am open to relocating for the right man. I am very happy to satisfy your curiousity about latex rubber in a single session or something more long term. W/we may have already chatted/met/played over the past 15 years, as my previous profiles include ozrubbergimp, ozrubberpony and LearnerRubberDom. i was out of the local scene for a few years in the 2010s due to exploring long-distance relationships but I discovered that I need face to face relationships that are moving forward, not online fantasies which end up with long chats that don't go anywhere.**Personal information**I'm a person who:* likes using lists to organise information as my natural inclination is to start too many things at the same time and not finish most of them, which happens to me a lot as an [INFP]( https://personalityjunkie.com/infp-personality-type-profile/) when my Extraverted Intuition is in charge :)* Is intelligent, caring, kind and enjoys conversation.* is physically 198cm (or 6'6") tall, of average build (i.e. have middle age spread and am doing something about it) and weigh 118 kilos (ditto). I have grey/brown head hair, blue eyes and little body hair (which may be hard to see under the rubber).* Besides wearing (breathing, smelling, tasting etc) rubber, I am an indoors introvert type of person. I enjoy quiet nights in and not nightclubbing or parties. I enjoy reading and discussing science fiction, history, politics, astrology, psychology, supporting green politics and causes, such as preventing man-made climate change, promoting respect for all religions, supporting the rights of minorities, and living in a world of limits, such as peak oil. My main hobby is playing board wargames published by GMT games, VPG games, DG, Strategy and Tactics, Avalon Hill (RIP).* Potential income-earning skills: besides those that i have gained as a policy wonk employed by the Australian federal public service for 25+ years (literature-based research and analysis; writing short, medium and long reports; managed four staff; project management; contract management) i also can do futures studies and foresight (help you and your organisation develop a vision for the future and implement it); high school science teaching; ecological field work; written communication: drafting, editing, proof-reading.---**How I want to meet and get to know people*** I am patient and want to get to know people well online (chatting, camming) before meeting in person for vanilla dates to talk about our common interests before playing the first time. Sure this way is a slow way, but I want to find people who could travel together with me a long way on a common journey, and so patience and a slow pace is a virtue. I am happy to talk through what I/i am looking for and work through any questions that people might have.* If you have no interest in me, please tell me. I have previously pissed people off by being persistent beyond reasonable requests to stop, so please tell me if you have no interest.* I believe that physical and emotional chemistry is vital between us, even for a play session. So meeting in person is important to establish this early in getting to know someone.* my philosophy is that there are two levels in any scene, relationship or 24/7 life: - at the base level, both parties (dominant and submissive) have the power to enter, continue or leave the scene, relationship or 24/7 life. Both parties have the power to propose, negotiate and consent to what might be included or excluded in it.- at the level of the power exchange, the submissive consents through negotiation to give the dominant a level of decision-making and control for the duration of the scene, relationship or 24/7 life.* my principle is that any participants in any scene, relationship or 24/7 life has a safeword or equivalent. W/we'd only play after W/we met for a meal or two together to check one another out and negotiate what we will do together, as I don't believe in rushing things. Feel free to ask me any questions Y/you like.* I prefer to meet single people, but I am open to playing and relating to people in all types of relationship. If you already in a relationship - well i don't want to be your "rubber affair", and have to compete with your spouse or partner, even if you think cam sex doesn't count as real sex. i am more than happy to play with people if their partner(s) is OK with that. I am discovering that I am curious about in ethical non-monogamy relationships, as I am realising that in Canberra it is unlikely that I will be unable to meet my fetish and emotional needs in the same person.* I am looking for local Australian men, or international men. I am not looking for an online long distance relationship.* My current consent model is FRIES, which stands for Freely given, Reversible, Informed, Enthusiastic and Specific (hat-tip to mishmash). The one that really resonated with me was enthusiastic, not just from the other people I interact with, but for myself. If I find I am not enthusiastic about trying something, it has given me the permission to say no, instead of the mindset of how do you know if you don't try?? And yes, there is something in that, but you can be enthusiastically curious, or not curious at all, and that's ok! For example, it's highly likely that you know that you don't want to lick that shit, even though you've never tried it before, it's ok for you to never try it.* i believe and support and use the sub's / slave's bill of rights:1. Every sub has the right to have their body, intellect, and emotions protected by their Dom.2. Every sub has the right to choose the person whom they serve and to discontinue that service and take their leave without being subjected to physical, mental, or emotional abuse.3. Every sub has the right to be cared for, disciplined appropriately, and allowed to feel pride in their submission.4. Every sub has the right to protected sex if they so wish.5. Every sub has the right to privacy if they so wish. No sub can be blackmailed, publicly humiliated, or physically coerced into service without his expressed desire to be so.6. Every sub has the right to defend themselves from physical, sexual, and emotional abuse.7. Every sub has the right to consent or not to consent to sexual activities.8. Every sub has the right to seek refuge, counsel, and advice from other subs and Dom/mes without the expectation of sex, money, or any other service in return.9. Every sub has the right to a physically and emotionally available circle of friends.10. Every sub has the right to protect his own possessions and finances against intercession, theft, and non-consensual acquisition.---Still here? Still interested? Now on to the kink stuff...## ***Kink information***### **Things that i know about myself that i I wantI want to play with your dripping wet pussyI want to touch your dripping wet pussy softlyI want to tease your dripping wet pussy gentlyI want to taste your dripping wet pussy tenderlyI imagine sliding my fingers inside you to rub your gspot as I lick and suckI imagine feeling you respond as I urge you to climax for meI imagine hearing you moan and feeling your pussy pulsing in orgasmic delightAnd before your orgasm subsides,I want to slip my swollen cock inside your dripping wet pussyI want to feel your velvet soft pussy rubbing on my swollen shaftI want you to feel me erupt in climax to fill you with my cumThen as we lay spent and my cock slips from inside youI want to lick your dripping wet pussy filled with my cumI want to enjoy the flavors of your pussy juices mixed with my cumAnd finally I want to share the mix of our flavors with you in deep passionate kissesAfter all of that, my only want will be to do it all again! Prospective slave's Friend Requests
In My search for a total slave, I have had several make a "Friend" request of Me.
I tire of explaining to each and every prospective pieces of chattel that I am not looking for a 'friend.' Indeed a slave of mine would never be a friend, buddy, lover or social equal of any kind.
To illustrate, I explain that if I walked into a public Men's room and surveyed the line up of porcelain urinals I would not be looking for a 'friend.' Nor would I expect to treat any of the appliances like a lover.
In fact if the prospective slave were kneeling with its mouth open in the line up of other urinals, I may choose to ignore it for any of a number of utilitarian reasons, like maybe its face was particularly filthy with urine, ejaculate or even human waste and covered with flys.
And, speaking of human urinals, I do like to hear effusive gratitude for the slave's opportunity to be of service to a Better, but, a sign above it, if speech were impaired by say a spider gag, would work as well.
Master James
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Now quick jump and follow me over there also!!! All relationships start somewhere. In the complicated connection made between individuals both come with some kind of internal evolution taking place. If both waited until that evolution totally complimented each other, I doubt many connections would be made.
Come as you are. Bring your desire. Feel it grow or not during the time I have allotted for trial. Feel your internal response to the experience of being totally owned. Then decide if you are free to give. Be assured, I am free to take.
Master James One of the difficult things about being a Daddy type is the I don't like it when a girl hurts. I want to help her find ways to feel better. I am not talking sex here, I am talking feelings, a chance to express what she is going through, a safe place, a place she is cared for and supported.
It is horribly difficult therefore when somebody leaves, especially if you feel you had anything at all to do with it, as unintentional as it may have been.
You want to be there for her, but you are perhaps the one person in the world that can't be. It is tough, and you feel to much for her.
My Friend sent me this to proof read for his discussion of Slave vs Submissive Women. Enjoy
There are several distinctions and differences between a submissive and a slave. I will take the term submissive first. A submissive is a person with an intense desire to serve that does so under some conditions. The conditions would typically include terms of service, length of service, which areas of the submissives' life the dominant does not get to control, what the hard and soft limits are when they play or just interact, and of course the safe word. In many ways the submissive controls play. Hard limits are activities that a dominant will not be able to indulge with the submissive. Hard limits broken would lead to the end of a scene, relationship or arrangement and a serious breach of trust. Soft limits are limits that can be broken, but only after it has been discussed with the submissive. These are things the submissive is not excited about doing, but will try if it seems to excite the dominant or causes some latent excitement and fear in the submissive as well. The safe word ends all play. The dominant has free reign as long as he or she stays within the set limits.
After a scene, many submissives go back to controlling their own lives. They slip in and out of the role of submissive in most cases. They continue to make their own decisions and even in a 24/7 situation will continue to control those areas of their lives that are off limits to the dominant. A submissive submits every time a scene starts or some activity where the dominant has been given control commences. The choice is hers or his every single time the dominant requires submission. A submissive can walk away from a scene because something is not working for them and completely slip out of role whenever they feel the need to discuss something about the situation with their dominant. This does not indicate a lack of the need to submit or serve though.
Now we turn to the slave - the consensual slave. The slave gives up all rights to make their own decisions, becomes the "property" of a Master or Mistress, takes on the limits of their Master or Mistress and does what is asked of them regardless of their feelings about it. Sometimes a slave will give up all rights to property of their own and will continue to work for the household, having to ask permission to use any money they earn. Slaves earn privileges and do not have rights. A slave submits once - when the collar is placed around his or her neck and when something is difficult, has to ask for help to accomplish it. Slaves are not kept in basements or locked away forever. They are strong people who have an intense desire to please another human being and now has the freedom to live that desire and not have to submit to anyone else but those chosen by their Master or Mistress. Taking on the limits of another means that slaves have to ensure that the limits of the dominant they are talking to matches theirs, as their only choice is choosing the dominant. It is responsible to make sure that the person does match them or their preferences.
Can a slave be sold to another? No, most Masters or Mistresses would never do that. Remember this is consensual slavery, a 24/7 arrangement with one person fully in control and another person obeying all the commands and wishes expressed by the other because both of them want this. There is often a lot of love involved in this type of relationship as well. There are mock slave auctions that are used as fund raisers in the community, and slaves would go and serve another man or woman for the evening, but they always go back to the person they chose to be with. Can a slave end a relationship? Yes, they can petition their dominant for release and no responsible dominant would say no if nothing could be done to heal the relationship.
The difference between the two does not make one better than the other. I have seen countless submissives that serve as beautifully and perfectly as some slaves do and prefer not to be called slaves because of the negative connotation to that word. I have also seen many wannabe slaves struggle until they eventually found their place as submissives. It is difficult to devote one's entire life to another person but it is also incredibly rewarding.
Lately I feel like a lot of my time is spent being adulty. I could really use some unrestricted time to not have to be doing and thinking and being responsible. I've been thinking a lot about coloring, which is not a typical hobby of mine. I don't age play, I don't have stuffies and binkies and pink sippy cups with glitter unicorns on them. But I find myself wanting the freedom to be less complicated, and maybe coloring is a way to do that.
After a very specific search, I found a couple of simple books with bold outlines. They sat in the kitchen for a few days. Today, after a responsibly busy morning of chores, I grabbed a pillow and dropped to the living room floor with a box of crayons. Swinging my feet back and forth in the air as I lay on my stomach, selectively choosing colors and testing them on the side of a page like I was being paid for my efforts, I completed my first picture of a cup of ice cream with sprinkles and cherries. I hummed. I deliberated on the correct shade of pink. I carefully stayed within the lines. It's a perfect picture.
Here's what I noticed... I like being little, doing little things. If someone had stuck a binky in my mouth I'm pretty sure I would have happily sucked on it while swinging my feet and asking for a snack. It turns me on. Weird? I'm not really sure what to think of this. Or maybe I don't need to think anything of it and let it be. But great googlie mooglie, am I a little little? I already know that all those cute little names and specific praise all but set fire to my panties, but little activities? What do I do with this? Who even am I right now? Dom Top vs Sub Bottom: Understanding BDSM Role Dynamics
In BDSM and kink dynamics, two sets of terms frequently get mixed up: top vs bottom and dom vs sub. Although they often overlap, they actually describe very different aspaspects of a scene. Understanding the distinction between physical roles and power roles is essential for clear communication, negotiation, and consent.
Top vs Bottom – Physical Roles
“Top” and “bottom” describe what each person physically does during a scene.
The top is the person performing the action — tying, spanking, stimulating, penetrating, or delivering sensation. They are the active participant.
The bottom is the one receiving those actions or sensations — being tied, spanked, stimulated, or penetrated.
These terms define action, not authority. A top may be physically active while following instructions, and a bottom may be physically passive yet maintain control over what happens. People often switch between these roles depending on mood, partner, or scene, which is why “switch” or “versatile” is a common identity in the kink community.
Dom vs Sub – Power Roles
“Dom” (dominant) and “sub” (submissive) refer to control and authority within a dynamic.
The dominant holds power, gives directions, makes decisions, and leads the structure of the scene or relationship. Their role is rooted in authority, not necessarily physical activity.
I will eventually complete my profile but as it requires approval for every change I will do it once when I know exactly what I want in it.
In the meantime I will add a bit about myself through this journal.
I am 57yr straight male living in Surrey. Personality is natural Dominant but not really in a heavy bondage way, I am more what you would call controlling. There is nothing wrong with those who like pain inflicted on them and I do feel strongly about HOH head of household where the Dominant partner will discipline there significant submissive partner been by some agreed form of punishment.
What I am trying to get across is that when needed I can deliver a spanking but it is not something I do to gain any form of pleasure.
If anything I would much rather decide what one wears for me especially if we going out. One thing for sure I do appreciate lovely bright red nails
For now I am here just to make friends and chat, if we get along over a period them we can take it from there.
I will add some updates again soon, as the photo issue I will add to a message if and when we chat, once I have myself organised and update my profile I will attach them there but for the time been they can come with messages. I’m funny, strong, sick and alone. I wear a sold-thick mask. Only i choose who will get to see my truth and when. Today and tonight are hard. I don’t like where I am or how I am. I feel desperate for dick for a, tongue even teeth. My neck is naked and breasts - nipples are tingling . Even fat there are places you can feel bones. My ass is high and wide easy to spread and enter. Go slow so we both feel you break through that first sphincter- oh so good, you’ll decide when to do that again. The feeling is pleasure but also demonstrates your power over me. Put me on my belly, lay me on my back, cl my hands and ride me like I’m a horse- hold me down whisper into my ear, bite my skin and enjoy me, long and hard, mmmm. By now my cunt has created a puddle of my juices. Lips are wide gapping open waiting to be entered, i moan as you hit my back wall and I clench as i cum and again. You hit my crevicx, oh my breath pushes out of me. I am cuming again and again. Vagina spasms over and over. I clench down and hold you. You look confused, i laugh and let you go. You turn me over and we kiss passionately you reach up and put a hand on my throat, a bit harder as i slip into subspace. You let go, my eyes are glassy and I smile slowly and quietly. Mmm i pur. You turn me on my side, you insert a dildo into one hole and yourself into the other, fuck me until you cum - you stay a minute and the cum slides out of me as you do. We sleep facing and touching each other.
What do you think? It's been awhile. It seems that fewer and fewer people are interested in an actual D/s dynamic. They want a provider, they want just a little bit of kink on the weekends. Maybe that was always the case. After many years here I just see a trend towards transactional relationships that have nothing really to do with D/s.
Nevertheless, I am amazed at the good and genuine people who stick around and have good intentions. You all make it worth logging in. Thank you for arriving and staying. Scared off the Dom that It was presently Under consideration too.A Civvie that he didnt keep it confidence and discussed things about it without checking with it first Especially about it Military deployments and active duty.He went to a friend as a sounding board he trusted that person told him that he should run away as fast as he can because of what it has been involved with and committed too on its old life. How fucked up it is mentally and physically because of wars deploying and willingness to sacrificing its life for the greater good to make a difference.He told his friend that It works as a Prostitute to survive after another Dom it sacrificed its careers for to be totally focused on him and later he was found out to be a closet serial killer.And all the medical treatments and surgerys ahead of it.
He turned out to be a frightened little rabbit that breaching it trust was the betrayal was so big he knew It couldn't forgive him. I find it tether offensive that too few people have actually read my profile. I mean I put forth the effort to not only share a bit of myself and what I am looking for but wrote it out rather clearly.
i mean if you can not respect me or at least pretend to give a fuck long enough to read it, why the hellshould I believe you would respect me. If I can’t trust you with the smallest of things like reading my profile, then what the hell makes you think I would trust you to care in a session, date, whatever?
i put things in my profile to help YOU understand me and what I am looking for, as well as what I can offer. Furthermore I am not going to tell you read it. I shouldn’t need to. BUT, I do know if you have read it or not. How do I know? Maybe you should have read the thing in the first place.
As I am on my soapbox at the moment, to all the people who send a one line, or worse one word greeting message, listen up. That may work at a bar or speed dating, button here a lot more is needed. I know you want to do the least amount of actual effort you can but you get out what you put in. If you can’t even try to make a nice and prober introduction, I can only assume you equally lazy with everything else and not worth my time.
just something to think about You guys!!! I did it!!! I booked a beach trip over Christmas! I now have something to tell my family when I say I'm not coming for Christmas. I'm so freaking excited!!! It's a small place, but it's right on the beach. I'm bringing books and more books and my dog. Maybe spaghetti. I've not had pasta in forever, because carbs. The beach!!! This is huge for me. I don't put myself first, especially when it conflicts with making other people happy. I know I'm going to be nervous when my family confronts me, but its such a good choice. I swore last year was the last Christmas, and I did something about it. I'm so proud of myself! I can't wait to fall asleep to ocean waves. Things that come up: I am in a secure, Master/slave relationship with my girl; I have always been attracted to certain ages, types, and energies. They are not requirements. I am highly educated and often ask to chat just to expand my knowledge. If I am interested in someone I do my best to be very clear what I am interested in. My profile says be ready to video. Blame it on the fakes, and be as brave as me.
Why video? Hard to hide when we are all visible.
One other thing, if you do not have your height and weight in your profile, I will ask. I was enslaved by older master in 1980 and served my Master until His death in 2017. He made it clear from the very beginning that I had to be dressed in nylon stockings with suspenders as part of my slave uniform. He in no way wanted to feminize me.
He even wore pantyhose himself as a natural part of his daily attire He was 12 years older than I and extremely masculine and authoritarian. A white collar and wealthy Master. A man who weighted obedience and discipline. A Master you dared not do anything but obey. As time went by he became more and more demanding. Discipline and obedience were not up for discussion. His word was law. Love and fear were two sides of the same coin, and he managed to make me fall in love with him. I really feared disappointing him, as the consequences were merciless punishment, be it lack of love disobedience and mistakes as well as ruined nylon stockings I had never been with a man sexually before I met my master, but his power over me constantly drew me closer to my Mater and deepened my slavery and I ended up loving him and becoming addicted and I ended up feeling it as a reward when he commanded me to suck his cock, swallow his cum and drink his urine and even to kiss him He took total control and quietly increased my slavery until eventually there was no way out of slavery
Nylon stockings developed into a strong fetish and I connected my master’s power with his pantyhose. His legs were strong like a former footballer and the tights emphasized his masculinity and strength He was married when I met him, and for several years I served my Master more or less daily at His office. He owned His own business. He widowed ten years before he died so His last ten years my service was moved to His private estate then on I became his total slave. My slavery was greatly expanded and without any limits.
Master had a friend with whom he often shared me during some years. He was then required to wear pantyhose too which he did with no problem.
Day 5 of Silence
I cried most of today, when I wasn't crying I was angry. I went outside and stamped my feet and shouted till I was hoarse.
How could Daddy do this? I have done everything he asked and more
I have come to the realisation that yes I am probably abandoned but I will wait the full 7 days before I declare myself unowned.
My little heart is broken. I wish I knew what I did wrong so I could make sure I didn't repeat the mistake. I gave myself completely over to him, 100%, he took what he wanted then walked away I think
I am not a novice, I have decades of experience in the BDSM lifestyle in various different submissive roles.
But I still don't know what I did to make him ghost me
Imagine a wedding chapel and the room is filled with men and women we know. You're wearing a handsome Groom suit or wedding dress Then the doors open and you see me. Im in a see through sissy slutty bride outfit with a veil over my face. You can clearly see my fresh nipples are clamped with tiny bells or weights.
Im wearing a see through skirt with my dick locked up in a chastity cage or a cock ring leash. In my pussy is a white dildo to match my attire as I try to walk down the lane to you.
Once we meet you take off my veil to see my dressed up face.
The pastor asks you if I am taken as your slutty sissy and will torture and pleasure me until you no longer desire me.
The pastor then asks me is I the bride will promise to pleasure my master and be his sissy doll and slut until I am no longer usable and I say I do.
Once its done we exchange rings. You uncage me and put it on my small cock. While I put your ring in my mouth and use my skills to put it on your cock.
The pastor then announces is master and slut. Then says the slut may now suck his masters cock. I then suck it until you pop in my mouth and I swallow it in pleasure.
You then take me by force, remove the dildo from my pussy and fuck my pussy in front of everyone as they watch it pleasure.
You then let out a big one in my pussy for everyone to see and I open my pussy with your special sauce dripping out as everyone takes photos and I suck your cock in pleasure.
During the reception we dance, eat, drink, engage in sensual games, and you even let the other guests have their way with me if they desire.
Then it ends with the 🎂, but its me with whip cream on all my parts. All the men and ladies take out their cocks and spray me with their cream to help me look better as you enjoy seeing me like this.
Then we end with a group photo with me holding up 2 peace ✌️ signs on my hand, covered from top to bottom with the wedding cake cream, and you doing whatever you want to me.
My ideal wedding as a bride. 👰♀ SO,YES.I AM TOO MUCH. YOU ARE HERE TO CATER TO MY DESIRES.NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND,ACCEPT IT OR MOVE ON.JUST LET ME KNOW. An evening, recalled by the lady, written by me.It was late afternoon and it had been a tough day at the Commission. His kiss when he met me at the station was warm and affectionate; we chatted on the way to the hotel and as we checked in. When we arrived in the room I dumped my stuff on the bed and went out onto the veranda to look out over the lake. A few minutes later I heard him say ‘come here please’. I turned to see him with an impassive look on his face and standing in the middle of the room pointing at the floor just in front of his feet.
He took hold of me around my waist and as he kissed me deeply, his hands travelled from my waist down my hips and across my bottom. Then up my back to my neck and then he felt my hair. He murmured ‘give me your tongue’ and I slipped it between his teeth. He nipped it and held it between his upper teeth and tongue. It was uncomfortable but not painful, he had done it often before and I had grown to like it. His hands resumed their journey around my upper body. They were firm, confident and moved without any hesitation. I could not have ed even if I had wanted too and the welcome feeling of melting inside began.
He then released my tongue, kissed my lips then he turned me around and bent me over so my elbows were on the bed. He lifted my skirt and folded it over my back. His hands then roved freely over my bottom and between my thighs. He felt my mons, traced the line of my slit and ran his fingertips between down the crease between my buttocks, pausing to press on my anus. He then held me firmly against his thigh and began to spank me- this had recently become a regular beginning to our time together. One spank per cheek, then two, then three, they landed on my upper thighs and the curve of my bottom. He stopped at six and spent a few minutes gently rubbing my bottom, occasionally slipping his hand between my thighs. At ten per cheek it was stinging a lot. By twelve I was having difficulty keeping still. It was the knowledge that if I moved he would start again that kept me in position. The spanking was not unexpected and it had the desired effect. I felt myself starting to melt inside even more as he rubbed my stinging bottom and thighs once again.
He stopped and made me stand. Then looked me in the eye, and then said ‘I have a few issues to resolve with you’.
My stomach took a lurch, I’d been here before, he had shown no sign of real annoyance with me recently but then he never really did. He took me by the chin, looked into my eyes and said ‘strip and kneel’. He then turned and went to the veranda.
It only took a minute to remove all my clothes and jewellery. I knelt, apprehensive about his return, embarrassed it had been a warm day; I had been wearing tights and had not had the time to wash and prepare myself for him. My make up had gone and I knew I did not look my best.
He returned and pushed me forward to my knees and elbows. Pulling back my hair he locked my leather collar around my neck. It felt strange after the long break since I last wore it. The wrist cuffs were fitted next before he clipped them behind my back pinioning my wrists. He pulled my collar by its short leash to make me kneel up and then buckled a gag around my neck and pushed the red ball behind my teeth before tightening it.
He turned me so my back was to the mirror and placed a low backed chair in front of me. He could now see both the back and front of me. Sitting on the chair he told me to part my thighs wide and to emphasise the point his foot nudged my knees wide apart. I hoped he wasn’t going to touch me between my thighs as he so loved too, I so regretted not taking a shower immediately we arrived in the room.
From his pocket he took some butterfly style nipple clips. I hate them and he knows it, he threaded their chain into the ring at the front of my collar and after pinching my nipples between his thumb and forefinger to make them fully erect he clipped one to each nipple. The discomfort was almost unbearable, I instinctively closed my thighs, and he ed and gently tugged the chain, sending sharp jolts through me. I did as I was told and spread my thighs wide, pushing my mons forward as far as I could. The gag muffling my weak protests.
He spoke slowly, jerking the chain on saying each word. ‘Three weeks ago you forgot your make up, two weeks ago your stockings, last week your high shoes. You have arrived in my company wearing tights for the last 4 weeks, hence the immediate spankings. You have not kissed or greeted me properly on meeting for the same length of time. You make up today is poor, your hair isn’t brushed and you have not left your pubic hair as I instructed. In short young lady you are marring your beauty. You are fully aware how beautiful I think you are and you are distracting from it by being sloppy and that disappoints me. I will not accept you detracting from the pleasure I take in having such a desirable woman as my lover. Do you understand?’
I nodded, my eyes starting to water from the discomfort in my nipples and the realisation of how I had disappointed him. There was also the knowledge that I had been here before and if it followed a similar pattern then this was the case against me. By nodding I admitted my guilt. So I was about to punished for being a sloppy and inattentive submissive who had disappointed her Dominant.
He helped me to my feet by lifting me by the collar on my ring; it also had the effect of tugging on my nipples. He reversed his chair and tugged the chain as he removed each nipple clip. It stung as the blood filled each nipple, my knees almost buckled each time, the gag muffling the g. He then connected my wrists cuffs in front of me, and bent me over the back of his chair so my weight rested on my elbows.
‘Part your legs’ he said, I complied and hoped he would decide to have me, not cane me. I was to be disappointed, though recently spanked I accepted I had earned this too. He fetched a cane from his bag as I waited anxiously. Holding the back of my collar he rested the cane against my bottom, drew it back and struck me. ‘One‘ he said. All I did was hear the sound then the harsh sting reached my brain! He was using the flat cane. A piece of flexible wood two feet long, an inch wide and a quarter of an inch thick. It didn’t leave tram lines or scars; I knew its stinging would last for ages and leave a square red mark on each buttock, but it would not bruise very much. Not that it seemed important at that moment. Though I find the cane painful, the thonged whip he occasionally uses is worse. Its thick strands inflict weal’s and their tips can get into the most intimate parts of my body. I’ve also known him use it on my breasts and belly.
Each cane stroke went slightly lower until the last 3 all struck where the tops of my thighs and my bottom met. My legs kicked out from the stinging, by now I had dribbled spittle around the gag, my eyes were streaming and my nose had started to run.
He let go the back of my collar and returned the cane to his bag. Returning he pulled me upright by my collar and turned me to face him. I refused to look him in the eye; I must have looked a real mess. He took my chin again forcing me to look into his eyes. I felt so ashamed of my appearance. He had told me I was beautiful so very often and it made me feel so proud when he said it. Now I had let him down by being too complacent. He unclipped the wrist cuffs, reattaching then in front. He said ‘Do you understand what I have told you?’ I nodded. ‘Then get down on your belly on the floor and spread your legs, I haven’t finished with you yet.’ My mind raced, would it be the whip now, on my bottom?
I knelt and lay on the floor, my bottom was really stinging and the carpet was rough against my sore nipples, my belly and mons. I spread my thighs wide, dipped my spine and waited. I heard the pop of a tube of lubricant being opened. It wasn’t the whip!! The lube felt cold against my anus as he applied just enough. He undressed, I could feel him looking at my prone body, the line of my sex and the rose of my anus. I was fully exposed because it was how he wanted me to be. He knelt between my thighs and pumped his cock to make the head larger. He spread my bottom cheeks with one hand and pressed his cock against my anus with the other. The tip entered me, it was so uncomfortable. I had forgotten how tight a caning made the cheeks of my bottom clench. He pushed into me, stretching me. I struggled and tried to object; he held me and reminded me of the presence of the whip. Once he was past the muscular ring I relaxed as the discomfort subsided somewhat; I felt the cool of his skin against my hot bottom. He reached and took hold of my hair and collar, pulling them back. At the first slow thrust he said ‘one’. The thrusts were slow and firm, they made my bottom sting though my anus soon adapted to the presence of his cock. He told me to squeeze my buttocks together as he withdrew his cock, and relax as he thrust in. I tried to do so; each time I failed he added two extra thrusts. He was punishing me and reminding me of his dominance by not taking pleasure from the stimulation my anus could give him. It was a reminder that sexual pleasure could not be an excuse for a lack of submission. It was a relief when he reached 100 and stopped counting and thrusting. I was glad he was no longer forcing my nipples against the rough carpet, and his tummy was no longer making my sore bottom sting more. But I immediately missed the closeness and intimacy of the man I so wanted yet had disappointed.
He pulled me to my feet by my collar, removed the ball gag and lifted my chin. I must have looked a real mess as I worked my jaw to stop it aching, I certainly felt a mess and I promised him and myself not to let my appearance or behaviour slip again.
He kissed me and said he loved me; I’m not sure if it made me feel any better- or if it was supposed to! He led me by the arm into the bathroom and told me to wash his cock and balls. I took a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I looked horrendous! Mascara running, the marks of the gag around my mouth, spittle around my chin and collar and my nose running!
I looked away ashamed as he wet a towel to clean the lube from between my buttocks. He turned me around so my back was to the mirror and rubbed the wet towel firmly between my buttocks, it stung where it touched the red marks. I heard him say, ‘You have 30 minutes until dinner. Be ready on time.’
I knew that I would make him the proudest man alive when he let me take his arm to dinner. 30 minutes wasn’t long. But I so wanted to see that look of desire in his eyes that I would ensure I was just as he wanted me to be. I knew just how good he would make me feel in return. He went to the veranda to watch the sun set. I set to work, though I did sneak a look at the red marks on my bottom. They made me feel strangely proud because they were his marks and I had submitted to him. He had put them there and there was nothing I could have done about it even if I wanted to. Now I didn’t know what he was going to do with me later, but after being disciplined he always had something special planned for me!
Hello everyone,
I'm a 33-year-old male submissive who has recently moved to Warsaw. With a rich experience in the BDSM lifestyle, I am now seeking a Dom/Domme couple to serve in a 24/7 capacity.
I am versatile with no taboos and have a particular passion for practices such as moral degradation, depersonalization, ballbusting, scat play, and public humiliation. I am looking for a couple who can embrace and utilize my fetishes and help me explore new depths of submission.
I am blonde, mentally stable, and free from any dependencies. Having been married in the past, I now seek a new chapter where I can fully immerse myself in the lifestyle I love. If you are a couple seeking a dedicated and experienced slave, I would love to hear from you.
Let's connect and see where this journey can take us.
Hooded, cuffed, naked to the waist, he smelled the car, heard the sounds of the engine cooling.
Her smell, that too mingled with the smell of fear in his leather clad nostrils.
The door to the entrance of the townhouse was one step up and forward.
By grabbing his belt and firmly tugging, she lead him up the step. His shoes stumbled, explored and found their footing.
Softly, with a definite and solid thud, the door closed behind him.
The metallic click of the door lock was unmistakable.
An anti room perhaps.
Mud room?
Laundry room?
Utility room?
The floor was ceramic tile.
He realized it when she unbuckled his belt and unfastened his pants.
Without any word of command or explanation, he felt his trousers and shorts pushed to his ankles.
He imagined her face near his naked crotch as he felt her gripping his leg and intuitively understood she wanted his shoes off and one leg at a time his trousers were gone.
Through his socks, he felt the cold hard tile.
He almost lost his balance and fell when he felt her hair brush his inner thigh as she stood up.
He felt himself shiver in the coolness of the room but trickles of sweat ran down each side of his torso from under his armpits.
Suddenly he had the urge to pee.
How would he make her understand?
Unconsciously he began to dance that childish dance of holding back the yellow stream. What makes YOU stand out from the 9 million other dudes that message me?
I am, admittedly, picky and a bit jaded at this point. I know what I want, and I'm not going to just settle for being a plaything again. I can get laid pretty much whenever I want. That really is not an issue. What I want at this point is a mental and emotional connection with someone who wants to be my Dominant.
How do you prove to me that you are that person? If you're not willing to do something simple like download a common messaging app after I've said that I don't use snapchat any more for personal reasons, then you're probably not the person for me.
Because honestly, how hard is it to download an app?
Is that really asking someone to "go the extra mile?" I don't think so.
What do you do to stand out in a crowd?
Maybe you're the one with a little more personality than the rest.
You're the one who knows the difference between to and too, and yes, I notice these things.
I may eventually give up the control to the Dom, but in reality, we know who has the power here, don't we guys? Let's be honest. If you can respect that, let's talk. The Gift Pt ending
About a month later my Domme tells me that we've been invited to the Doms house in Austin. We were going to party on 6th Street first and get some playtime that evening. Bet!
So the four of us are in their living room and talking. The two dominants were chatting and I chatted with the sub. She asked me. Do you want to do a scene? Yes I said. Would you like to watch me being tortured? With a big smile on her face she said Yes!
We head out to their garage which cleared out and had plenty of room. They had bought a chain hoist and set it up for a whipping scene. (Another custom torture chamber built for me? Yes please!)
I stripped down to my black string bikini bottom and started putting on my cuffs. Meanwhile, the other couple was moving a couch around so it was placed in front of the area I was going to be whipped. I was attached to a spreader bar and hoisted up into the air. The other couple sat in the couch to watch. I was a little concerned because I wasn't told to wear any of my safety gear. It didn't matter I was ready for anything.
My Domme attached chains to my ankles so that I was spread wide and facing the other couple. She stood behind me with her long black single tail and began to whip me.
That familiar sound we all know rang out in the empty space. Wu-tish! Wu tish! Each lash left a bright red mark on my skin. The strokes were deliberate and paced. Between strokes I looked at the couch to see their reaction. The Dom was now laying flat on his back and his sub was on top of him and they were fucking each other while watching me being whipped. She's riding him hard.
This blew my mind. Usually, during a whipping scene I'm trying to concentrate on my breathing and ignoring the pain in my wrists and body. Being whipped while hanging is another welcome distraction so to speak. I try to anticipate every lash by tensing my belly. I want to last as long as I can. So my brain doesn't know which thing to concentrate on which makes the scene last longer. Watching an older Dom fuck his sub during my scene I suddenly thought, I hope he comes! Otherwise I'm going to be here a long time.
My Domme is aware of all this. She's not only watching me but also then. If she stops, he might not cum. So she's pacing things out in sync with their fucking.
After awhile I hear him yell out, Aaahh! He's cumming inside her. She's grinding him out, milking every last drop. The whipping stops and my suspended and whipped body hangs limply in the chains.
My Domme stands in front of me and says, Stay her we'll be right back. (As if I had anywhere to go). Then the three of them go back inside the house. After a minute or two the sub comes back out and stands in front of me. She says, I'm supposed to get you down. She hesitates. Can I stretch you a little bit first? I nod my head yes. She starts pulling the chain and stretches me.
I wince but I don't complain. She licks my stomach and rubs her hands all over my stretched body. I can feel her warm hands go over my whip marks and it feels good. I moan in pleasure. She then lowers me down. It's all over.
The next morning we're all in the kitchen. Nobody is saying a word. It's like nothing happened. What goes on in Austin stays in Austin I think. We're still good friends to this day.
Next up: The Show
recently met a vanilla guy that had been a drug addict for more than half of his life. He has been clean for 5 years. This is information that was shared with a perfect stranger within the first 5 minutes of conversation. (I appreciate the upfront honesty, but damn.) From what I learned about him, he was easily swayed by previous lovers and enjoyed being a "doormat." Without knowing My kinky hobbies, he disclosed his desires to be owned by a Dominant Woman.qIuestioned his ability to be involved in a kinky lifestyle relationship without it being totally draining on the Domme. Although I wasnt even going there with this guy, the last thing I want is a overly needy person in my life.Has anyone else run screaming from someone that just oozes insecurity and extreme neediness?How long would someone with an addictive personality actually be able to make it in a kinky relationship with YOU? i will not give you my phone number right away. I won't talk on the phone with you. I have arthritis in my hands and wrists, I don't like using headsets, and quite frankly I don't like phone calls. Also, just because I am his anal fuck toy does not mean it's any of your business to inquire about in the first few messages. If this is how you intend to interact with me, kindly fuck off. Thanks. Pro tip: you want those things to happen, go through my Sir first. Otherwise, be decent and respectful in my DMs or get lost. Please for the love of a Goddess' attention, do not send penis pics without asking 1st. All unsoliticed penis pics will be sent to gay men.
Please do not contact me with your bucklist of kinks. I don't care.
If you what you want doesn't match exactly what I wrote in my profile, I am not compromsing.
Once again, if you want free Pro Domme services, I'm not your girl. Keep scrolling.
Also I do block people. If you write to me and don't hear back because you have:
1. Sent me a 1 liner (I receive several messages. Find a way to be interesting and beat the competition)
2. Ask me to perform a kink on you that has nothing to do with my profile
3. Asked me to be a sub or switch
4. Offered to lick my p%ssy
5. Waited for me to do all of the communication
then you've probably been blocked.
Public Service Announcement:
There is no separate Bookmark feature so some of us use Favorites to Bookmark (Can you think of why one might not use the browser bookmart feature? Multiple reasons there too)
Having seen the latest of a long string of examples of people expressing frustration about "someone added me to Favorites but never wrote me" and how could they do such a thing to me (in their case, I have not added them, or anyone else, to my Favorites in a while..but obviously someone else did) it's a good time to remember this basic fact:
People sometimes use it to essentially bookmark.
And there's many reasons one might do so. One might have positive or negative or neutral or mixed feelings about the profile as a whole or parts of it, or wish to look up a book or quote or something else in it and so on.
True, for a subset of cases, such an Add to Favorites might actually represent someone trying to be cute or trying to get your attention and not having the courage to... and so on, etc. But this applies to far, far from all instances..
Ascribing it to all cases would be not merely a case of stereotyping, but here, also, it would be a case of simply being flatly mistaken, in so many cases.
It's easier to avoid needless conflict or tentson or worry by realizing such things and then making one's own choices about how or when or whether to respond.
ON DDLG
So I promised to write a bit more about DDLG.
I have had a Daddy before. I love the safe, secure feeling of being little at daddy's feet. I love my coloring books and lap time.
I love a daddy who is firm but fair and fun. I'm definitely not into the mean, sadistic type but more of the caretaker who says good girl and holds me close rather than seeking excuses to punish.
I'm a pleaser both as a little and as a submissive. I seek to please and get upset to the point of tears when I disappoint. Funishment is one thing, but I'm not a brat, I don't push, and I don't LIKE to be punished. I strive to be your good girl. To hear those words when ever I can.
babygirl is my favorite term of endearment. slut is a close second.
I hope this helps to understand what I mean when I say I'm a little. I answer questions, just feel free to ask me. It's so tempting maintaining control. Giving your will to another is scary. Planting myself in your mind and triggering you where and when I want, such a rewarding experience. You'll slowly surrender to my voice. You never know when you're going to submit. When the proverbial rug of sanity will disappear under your foot, just it will happen. Your body will tremble. My voice is stronger than you desire to disobey. When I speak, you wait expecting. Can you live in that terror. Always expecting. Do I terrify you. Are you willing to give it all I was asked to mentor a friend. I felt honored and delighted. I have been asked to teach technique before, but have never been asked to mentor someone. We had a fairly vague subject matter, but we set a weekly meeting time (with alternating location so as to split the driving burden) and met and discussed various topics over the course of a few months. We only missed two weeks - one due to my family emergency that erupted shortly after she arrived at the house, the other due to a scheduling conflict.
Next week is probably our last session and I am dismayed at the prospect of our regular meetings coming to an end. She is a smart, dynamic, powerful dominant and now an even more empowered wicked top. I can't wait to see what she does with all the knowledge I have conveyed. She is every bit my equal, albeit less experienced in these techniques, and I am hoping we'll do some collaborations in the future. I'm proud to know her and even prouder to claim her as my mentee. I don't like the terms student, pupil, or apprentice as none of these are accurate to our relationship.
As this chapter closes, my first experience as someone's mentor has been a very positive one. I hope any future dynamics are as rewarding.
~Ms. Elorin First Impressions
After I posted about being stood up for my first meet-and-greet / coffee date in years, a few folks seemed to question my lack of anger, or at least my sort of perky take on it.
Let me explain. There’s a saying, “No answer is still an answer.”
A first meeting, like a coffee date, is a first impression. Being a no-show without announcing one is bailing before the scheduled time is … significant. It can indicate a lot of things:
a tendency to make bad choices
poor time management skills
bad luck streak
passive-aggressive tendencies
tolerance testing
This last one is particularly significant. Last week was not the first time someone ghosted me and then promptly started asking for a 2ⁿᵈ chance. Complying would have set a precedent: how many times can someone test my patience, fail to keep up their end of a deal before I walk?
The guy could’ve written me earlier, he could’ve taken a ride share. He did neither.
He told me that he was currently experiencing a bad turn in his life. Okay, but why decide to drag a new person into that? Misery loves company?
I showed up, and as a quirk of timing gave him slightly longer than the 15 minutes I’d originally allotted for him to show or at least communicate. I did my part, and thus I have nothing to prove.
If this was a test of his, I’m fine with failing. I racked up some serious points that day.
I have come to realize ... I'm fucked up
I have recently set up 2 different play dates with 2 different people and I flaked each time. I'm super horny and fucking needy as hell, but I couldn't understand what was giving me cold feet. Then I realized these were mostly vanilla men (in the BDSM sense they both were POCs like me) or it would be non kink sex. Just thinking about having normal sex at this point makes me wanna cry. I didn't realize how much I miss bdsm and just being fully in it and controlled. I get that I'm kinda pathetic in this sense but I can't help it. I kinda wish no more talks just take and do, control and force ...
I think I'm the only girl in the world who would be forced collared and above by it. I mean I actually did once. Sighs Happy Thanksgiving 2021! It's been a fabulous year and I've much to be thankful for. I'm heading out of town with my slave hubby to spend a week or so at our Villa on Marco Island. It's such a beautiful and peaceful place. If you were in service to me, you'd be coming along so that neither of us would have to lift a finger. Because, you are aware of course, that while he is submissive to me, he is Alpha to all others. Service to me is not something I allow instantly, you must prove yourself worthy ... there's only been a few over the years and I am so pleased to say that after my training, they went on to find the Goddess of their dreams who they were lucky enough to marry and live the life they've always wanted ... probably one that you'd like too. Well another Kinkfest is upon us. I am so very excited to attend. This year, like all the other years, there are a lot of classes I look forward to going to. I am doing things different for next year, however. I am going to start my search for a sub/slave to go with me very early. They will be my slave friday, for lack of a better diion. I doubt I will find one but hey, maybe I will get lucky.
I am going to be stricter on my dealings with people here. I expect photos. I will give a person a task to do and I expect proof that they do it. I am SO VERY tired of flakes here. The one thing, bar none, I will expect someone to do is write a journal. They will buy a new journal and start writing in it every day. Every 3 days they will send me photos of what they have written. If someone can't or won't do something so simple they have no place in my life. I want real time. Online is fun but it can NOT take place of real life. The Most Dangerous Woman in the Room
Intelligence is non-negotiable for me. Not as a preference, not as a nice-to-have. As oxygen. The dynamic I crave lives and dies on the quality of mind across from me, and frankly, a dull submissive is the least interesting thing I can imagine. What would be the point of the subversion without something worth subverting?
Because that is what this is, at its core. Subversion. And it is my favorite thing about my own dominance.
There is a particular kind of woman the world has decided it understands. Beautiful, polished, old money in her bones and silver screen glamor in the way she moves. The kind of woman who makes a room recalibrate when she enters it, not loudly, but inevitably. The world looks at her and thinks it knows the story: the accomplished man beside her, the elegant life, the complementary pair. Matched. Balanced. Conventional, underneath the gorgeous surface.
The world is wrong, and I find that endlessly delightful.
He is, to every outside eye, exactly what he appears: successful, intelligent, the kind of man other men respect without quite knowing why. He carries himself well. He speaks well. He is, in every social context that matters to anyone watching, her equal, if not more. The couple that makes people feel vaguely inspired just by existing in the same room.
And then the door closes.
And he kneels.
That gap, between the world's assumption and the private truth, is where the magic lives for me. It is cinematic in the way that only real things can be cinematic, because no one scripted it, no one performs it for an audience, no one gets to see it but us. It is entirely, privately ours. A secret folded inside the most publicly acceptable packaging imaginable.
There is something about a genuinely powerful man choosing, with full understanding of what he is doing, to place himself at the mercy of a woman who will use that power exactly as she sees fit, that feels like the most honest thing two people can construct together. Not despite his strength. Because of it. Submission means nothing from someone who had nothing to surrender. The kneeling matters because of who is doing the kneeling.
And I will not pretend the aesthetics are irrelevant, because they are not. The cut of a well-made dress. The particular quality of composure that reads as warmth to strangers and means something else entirely to him. The way the room sees two people and I know, with complete and unhurried certainty, exactly what is happening under the surface of every pleasant exchange. That knowledge is its own kind of power, and I wear it the way I wear everything: beautifully, and without explaining myself to anyone.
The Trad wife trope exists as a container for a certain kind of woman. Lovely, accomplished on the correct terms, a complement to the man she stands beside. I find that container useful primarily for how satisfying it is to blow the bottom out of it, privately, completely, in ways the people who built it will never see coming and never get to witness.
That, to me, is what real magic looks like. 5 years experience of a FLR submissive or slave man who drives/has his own car and lives in Essex/Kent is what I seek.
What messages me? A weirdo from India. Blocked zero reply.
So damned boring all these fetish delivery chasers=My blocking finger is in use alot. Yawn. I am at my local munch tomorrow night 6.30pm for dinner and drinks till around 10.30pm ish.
Mawney Arms, Romford. I am with kinksters friends as I am not the host.
Come on you guys who moan where are all the Mistresses??? There are plenty, just read these journals from Dominant Women who block tw*ts who don't behave well.
Guys who just want their a*ss f*cked is not submission it's anal sex. Even swingers do that. Look at your intent men, make sure your intent is to MAKE MY LiFE EASIER NOT TO BE A PAIN IN THE ARSE.
If you are a nuisance and over familiar I will block you.
I left CS for FiVE years and didn't miss it. I am thinking.of leaving again.
A good mantra for a submissive to live by...
A submissive’s life is to be in service as required and of service however desired and solely for their Dominant and Owners pleasure amusement and comfort.
A submissive’s function should be to strive to be a completely willing and capable of serving for the constant enhancement of the Dominant and Owner's daily life and pleasure in every way possible and on a continuous basis with absolute obedience, commitment and dedication.
A submissive understands that the decisions and rules of the Dominant are to be accepted and followed without hesitation or conflict at all times regardless of personal feelings or conflict.
A submissive understands and willingly accepts that it needs its Dominant’s control, use, discipline and punishment as deemed fit at anytime.
A submissive needs to accept that it's Dominants and Owner's pleasure, amusement and comfort must be its priority and be all that really matters to the submissive foremost.A submissive understands and accepts that its own pleasure must come from how well it pleases, serves and accepts being used and controlled by it's Dominant and that it may be rewarded if deemed appropriate or pleasurable to its Owner. This bears reposting just about everywhere. I don't know why I bother though; guys will agree with their mouths but so many don't agree with their hearts:
What do you mean when you offer to serve? What do you mean when you offer to BE of service? What do mean when you offer yourself in servitude?
Do the answers to these questions bring up visions of you being bound helplessly while being exquisitely tortured, teased to the verge of orgasm?
Do you envision some Amazon Goddess sporting a huge strap-on taking you anally?
Do you envision yourself prancing around in some French Maid Costume and being asked to provide oral service to a Mistress?
Do you envision some woman sqatting over your helplessly bound body "forcing" you to serve her orally?
Or do you envision being put over her knee and spanked like a naughty little boy?
Yes, nice visions aren't they? However, not one of those visions is the definition of "serve", "service" or "servitude".
Oh, I'm sure many subs consider them to be just that, but if you check your dictionaries you won't find any mention of French Maid Costumes, bondage, strap-ons, oral sex, or any other fetish you may enjoy.
In fact you won't find any mention of fetishes at all in the definitions
Serve is defined as:
1. to work for, be a servant;
2. to act in a specific capacity;
3. to place food before, wait on;
4. to be of assistance to.
Service is defined as:
1. the occupation or duties of a servant;
2. the act or means of serving;
3. duties performed as an occupation.
Servitude is defined as:
Submission to a master; slavery.
When you offer to serve a FemDom, what you are offering (or should be offering) is the surrender of your control. You should know her well enough to trust her with your life. When you offer your servitude to her, you are telling her that you trust her judgment, you trust her to keep you safe from harm, you trust her to know what is best for both of you, you trust her decisions and desire to follow her orders and obey her in all things.
Your offer of service is your ability to let go of your ego and your free will (control) and allow her to control you.
Serving is, first and foremost, the act of making her life easier. It is compliance with all her desires, wishes, orders. Yes, BD/SM and fetish play, more than likely, will be included as part of the relationship. But overall, the D/s ect of the relationship will be where you have turned your control over to her and you do as she says. It is about pampering her and catering to her.
Everyday life will be a part of this, for most people do have to work, bills do have to be paid, people need to see doctors occasionally, and dentists. Then there are family get togethers, family emergencies, social gatherings with vanilla friends and also with D/s friends. For the most part, life will seem pretty vanilla, but there will be one difference. IF you have truly submitted, then your actions will be measured by how your Mistress would feel about it. Your decisions will be based upon what you are allowed, or not allowed to decide without her permission. You will treat others with respect, but especially other women. You will consider that your actions would reflect back upon your Mistress, and therefore act in a manner that would make her proud of you. There may be other constant reminders, she may insist you wear panties under your clothes at work. But you will always remember that you have submitted to her and will honor that commitment.
How can you serve your Mistress - what are the ways?
Here are some suggestions:
-Make sure her home is clean and neat.
-Make sure her clothes are clean and neat.
-Prepare her favorite foods for her.
-Prepare her bath.
-Rub her feet after she comes in from working all day.
-Offer her a massage if her day was very stressful.
-Offer to do her manicure and pedicure.
-Have her favorite music playing or find her favorite show or movie on TV.
-Surprise her with flowers.
-Serve her coffee as soon as she gets up in the morning.
-Ask what clothing she wants laid out for her.
These are just a few of the ways you can serve her once you have been trained in what she wants and likes. Don't be afraid to use your imagination to surprise her (provided of course that she has no problem with you doing this occasionally).
A happy, contented, pleased, relaxed woman is a woman who will then have no problem torturing you, using you, or even indulging you with a fetish or two that are your favorites…………just to show you how much she really appreciates your service and submission to her.
So, what are you offering? I thought I knew what was wrong. But I saw a specialist and they talked medical blah blah and so for a few weeks I've been walking around thinking I have a rare cancer. Tests were ordered, biopsies taken, more specialists, antibiotics prescribed. I started mental checklists so if it's worse case scenario I get shit done before I'm not capable. I cried a lot. The not knowing of so many important things that might mean everything. Or nothing. Tests coming back inconclusive, waiting on next steps. It's a lot to add to your agenda since the world doesn't stop for a new crisis. It's tiring to be this stressed.
After all of this, the tests, the time, the tears, that first specialist agreed with my original diagnosis. If they would have listened to me on that first visit I'd be healed by now. Fuck silver linings, I'm pissed.
Not out of the woods just yet, one more specialist to go. But it's looking good enough that I can be uppity about the whole situation. Still, fingers crossed, okay? Thanks. I thought I had found my person, my boy, my pet, my slave!!
In our process of communicating the only thing I asked of him is that he stayed in contact!!
Tell me how hard it is just to send a message in the morning, a message when you get to work, message me on break, if you get one, and message me when you get home!
I feel that's relatively easy, but the one thing that you do not do is give me a lame excuse for why it is that you could not message me!!
And then you want to send me messages out the wazoo the next day and tell me how much you miss me and want to hear my voice.........
This man is not a true submissive nor is he a slave! He has fallen into the commercialization of the lifestyle and is still pretending to be something he's not!! Some of you may know. How the governor of Florida passed a law barring health officals from prescribing hormone thereapy And threstened lic revoke and up to 1yr in jail.
VOTE NO ON D'SANTEZ LOL
i Got to get outta here. I wanna fully and comletely mind heart and soul focus on my transition and make and break certin habits so I could be as passable as I can be. Anyone willing to aid me in my journy?
take. Care everyone.
no on D'santez. 🤭😑 forreal November 15th, 2024
Back on collarspace!
November 4th, 2020
I had not been online for quite long. I just come to update my profile and to reply all those kind and gentle messages from my contacts. My life changed quite a lot and those days when all was fun and BDSM and long gone. I became a mother of two beautiful boys and with all the Covid19 situation, my life is reduced to motherhood. I love my family and do not regret it but I miss those days when I was never worried, I was always sitting pretty, dressing like the queen I am and being served by female and male subs. Perhaps some day that will happen again? )UPDATE Yes, life evolves and keeps going!I moved to Belgium, I am in the process of divorcing but I am still in a poly relationship (that has not change). This is my second week in Belgium and I am hoping soon to be ready to get involve in the local BDSM scene.I would love to get to know people around here and know how things work around. It would be great to get a domestic slave and an assistant, a Lady is always in constant need of attention...............................................................................................................Relocating soon to Belgium... Valentine's Day is my wife's birthday. When we met I wasn't looking for a submissive but I ended up with one anyway. Our relationship is complicated in that she's not in the lifestyle. In fact she didn't know anything about it until we met. She is a personal trainer. If you've ever wondered what having a service sub is like here's a few things she does for me. She does all the shopping and cooking for me. It's almost embarrassing to tell my family and friends that I eat most of my meals in bed. My drinks are magically refilled and with ice. She does all the cleaning. She does all the gardening. She takes care of the pool and Jacuzzi. She's available whenever I want sex. She loves to walk behind me. There's so much more. When I changed her password on an account she had before it used to be Surrender. She is kind, giving and funny. I didn't ask for any of this. It's how our relationship has evolved. For this I cherish her.
Happy birthday my darling and Happy Valentine's Day!
It has been long since last I visited this site I find it but mildly change. I look forward to a long stay this time and hope to find a worthy submissive with whom I can commune and grow.
DL
Another great day..slave Kyle came for his weekly spanking. He is a good sub always eager to share with me all his bad behavior.
We have agreement that I am the only one who can punish him. He is ordered to bring me a different paddle or whip for each session.
He knows his place and immediately gets in position after presenting me with his list... Hotel from a sluts POV
We check into the hotel and as we are standing at the desk you brush your arm 'accidentally' across my nipples which are swollen and tied sticking out under my top being constantly rubbed and I'm trying to hide them as I know they are really visible. The reception definitely can't see my swollen tied clit or the sink plugs in my arse and cunt that are stretching my holes right in front of her but she can see in my face that I am slightly flushed and breathing a bit heavily. I wish she would type faster!
Finally we have our key. You tell me to walk ahead of you to the lift, I know this is so you can watch me on my heels in my tight skirt trying not to walk like a Slut full of cock.
We are in the lift alone and you take advantage of the time to rub over your handy work on my tits and cunt making me shake and cry out. And Cum inside myself. Unable to release it because of the plug. You smile at me and laugh at how ruined i am tonight. Already begging for you to fuck me.
In the room i stand in front of you with my hands on my head and my legs apart and wait for my master to tell me what to do next. You stroke over my body and sharply pull my nipples, bringing me round from my drift and then sit me down firmly on a chair in the corner and opening up a bottle of champagne that is on the desk. I am wriggling in the chair, trying not to moan out loud with the anticipation and my holes open.
You pour us a glass and turn around and sit on the sofa opposite and tell me to crawl over to you. I slowly crawl across the room my nipples rubbing on my shirt my clit rubbing when I move my legs because it is so swollen. I get to you and you tell me to kneel...
You lift me into your lap by my nipples making me get tears in my eyes and roughly hold me by the neck sideways on your knee...
With your free hand you pass my drink and tell me to drink it I am thirsty from breathing hard and knock it back. You put the glass down and spread my legs and tap on the plugs in my holes staring into me while I beg you to open me up and touch me inside....
You pull the sink plug out of my cunt tube leaving it held open and poke up inside me so I can feel the tip of your fingers deep in me but nothing where the tube sits making me really aware that I am gaped....
I can hear myself begging... Please Master, fill me up with your fist and cock I need it so much. .... then I feel a bit of a lurch and sway into you, I can still hear myself begging and moaning but everything is getting a bit weird and I realise, as I pass out that you are telling me that when I wake up I will get what a Slut deserves......
I don't know how long I am asleep.
I come to hog tied.
It is dark so I am blindfolded
I can't hear anything except my own heart and inner voice.
My mouth is now plugged like the other holes.
I wonder how this going to go! Here is an open thought.
I am not on this site to find love.
I have been loved, I have been engaged twice to the same man, that was a wild ride.
I am not the type to have kids, however I can see myself adopting the runt of a litter who has no hope and a limited future and share my survival skills to make the runt the front runner in life. I have always loved being the assumed underdog in life.
I am a working professional so I will expect a man I try to connect with to be the same.
I am not interested in a person's bank balance or assests, honestly none of my business.
I do expect a man who is in my company to not be a cheap skate and I have met a couple.
I am not expecting to be bought but I do expect if a man wants a BORN women who enjoys her feminity I should not have to spell out make an effort with flowers, make an effort with running the bath, make and effort with you see a pretty dress or skirt and think I know ONE women in my company who would look good in that.
I appreciate men contact me and offer they want to be one of my two men but when I ask you to unmask yourself and tell me who you are, I want to know I am not inviting an unkept, unwashed, unclean, diseased, unemployed dread of society into my world or my bed.
I don't think that is a hard ask.
If you want to see my face not an issue, I do WhatsApp and you can even video chat for all I care but if you make me jump hurdles I will make you jump the same bar.
C This is a somewhat tongue-in-cheek, somewhat serious exploration of how to get to know someone via collarspace.com. Or, I guess to put it honestly, how to get to know me.
Step 1. Read the fucking profile.
My profile is not short, but it’s not War and Peace. It has important content in it that will help you know whether we are compatible or not and save your time AND mine. When you see a photo of someone you are attracted to, a compliment is a lovely thing. But if you honestly want to start a relationship or dynamic of some sort with them, read their profile before writing. It’s a form of respect, both self-respect (keep yourself from writing to people who are wildly incompatible with you) and respect for the other.
Step 2. Don’t call me Mistress.
I don’t like unearned titles, and if you MUST address me by a title, Ms. is enough. Don’t call me Miss, don’t call me Goddess, don’t use one of a hundred other unearned titles. If the time comes when addressing me by a title is appropriate to our relationship, you will know and we will discuss the appropriate title at that time. Until then, you may call me Elorin or Ms. Elorin.
Step 3. Three sentence minimum.
This is my 95% rule for responding to a letter on collarspace. A rare exception comes in where I respond to an initial email with fewer than three sentences, but for the most part, that’s the rule. If you feel like writing three sentences is too much to ask from someone with no relationship with you so far, that’s fine. You can choose not to write or you can write less and I’ll just delete your message when I read it. And if you send a long, run-on sentence with no punctuation and capitalization, I’ll treat it as one sentence and delete, even if it should have been three sentences. This is a personal value of mine, and it’s important to me that my partners are literate and able to write and express themselves. I realize that some people don’t do well with writing, or expressing themselves online, and I have made an exception in the past to meet people in person and give them a chance to express themselves in person, but that is rare and again, 95% of the time, if you can’t write and sustain emails with me for a short amount of time, you won’t be compatible with me in person.
Step 4. Don’t immediately ask to go to another media.
I’m on Collarspace, you’re on Collarspace, write to me on Collarspace. If things go well, there will be time to provide my FetLife ID, or my Telegram ID. For the record, I don’t have an Instagram, Kik, or Twitter account, I don’t use Skype anymore, and I have no idea how to use TikTok to chat. If you want to talk on instant messenger, I use Telegram. And I won’t move to an instant messenger program until I’ve talked with you long enough to feel like it’s worth my time.
Step 5. Volunteer information.
Look at my profile. Look at your profile. If your profile is essentially empty, or is turned off, and basically provides zero information for me to learn about you before replying to your first message, provide some information about yourself when you write. Please note: a first email should be one or two moderately long paragraphs. If you write me a book in your first email, I may or may not read it but I won’t respond to it until I have time to dedicate to it, whereas a shorter email may get a response sooner. However, still, three sentence minimum. A good first message starts with a little bit about yourself, what you liked about my profile, and what you’re looking for – getting to know me, playing with me, becoming my full time submissive, something else entirely.
Step 6. Ask questions.
While my profile is long, there is plenty of information I did not provide. Ask me a question about something you’d like to know more about me. However, if you read the first two paragraphs of my profile and ask me something that you would know if you’d read the whole thing, I’ll probably delete your email. Fair warning.
Step 7. Share your answer
Either when you are initially asking the question or after I have replied with my answer, share your answer to the questions you ask! This prevents me from having to say “I like XYZ, what do you like?” and makes the getting to know you process go much faster.
Step 8. Volunteer more information
Whether answering a question of my own, or as in step 7, providing your answer to a question you asked me, volunteer information. There ARE yes or no questions, but there are very few questions where you can’t provide at least a little context with your answer. When you reply to questions with one word answers, you force me to try to ask follow up questions to figure out what the context is. This translates in my mind to how you would be during negotiations in BDSM. I spent years in my first marriage “pulling teeth” from a compulsive liar and control freak, trying to find out what the actual situation was and learn what was going on in our life. I refuse to do it again, and if I find myself having to “pull teeth” to get information from you because you are giving one word answers, I’ll just write you off and move on to someone who is more interested in actively getting to know me.
Step 9. Do NOT send me unsolicited fantasies.
It’s one thing (and an ok thing) to say, “I’ve always wanted to have a crop scene.” It’s another thing to write 5 long paragraphs about your ideal crop scene when I haven’t indicated any kind of interest or desire in knowing. Unsolicited fantasies are an automatic block.
Step 10. Do NOT ask me “If I were there what would you do to me/what would we do/what would it be like” questions.
I’ll shut you down and refuse to answer, and possibly block you. These are basically a request for free fap fodder and I’m not in the business of providing it, even if the honest answer would most likely not be enough to masturbate to. NOTE: If we’ve been writing for a while and you are planning to visit me/meet me and you ask me what to expect, that’s different and won’t get you blocked.
I don’t expect anyone to read this entire thing, but if you do, mention the instant messenger program I use with the word snowflake and you’ll get bonus points in our exchanges.
Ms. Elorin As I approach my birthday.. my Wish this year is to find the ONE.
a Domme who will come into my life. Accepting but not settling for the vanilla that it is day to day.. but starts me on a journey with Her to the dark corners of Her desires.
Let me find a Domme who starts innocent but is slowly seducing me into her web. Pulls my biggest thoughts, insecurities, weaknesses out of my mind and uses them to mold me even more.
to hope that a year from now I'm sitting here mentaly, sexually, and tech locked down at Her command and loving it! Hey so hi again everyone. I've been on here only a couple days now and thought I want to do a couple little updates but I hear changing your profile takes forever lol. So here we go I want to answer the big question everyone asks that I'm not really looking to be constantly answering and discussing right off the bat, my last relationship. I was with him for about 5 years, thought he was the love of my life, for the last year or so of it he started changing, or maybe just showing me who he really was the whole time idk but it got very emotionally abusive and manipulative. There got to be several violations of trust and consent and I had to get away. at the time of writing this that was about 6 months ago and im still very hurt and scared by it, probably will be for a long time if not forever and thats about as much detail as i want to go in for awhile. thank you for reading this if you did. Wanna k ow a secret?
Up there, under "Who's Viewing Me?"
You know... where it show me the profile pics of the people who have viewed my profile?
When a picture is just a pic of an erection or a cock cage?
I click the little X to hide it.
Not that I dislike seeing one when I'm gonna enjoy it personally.
But if it's your profile pic, it either means it's all you have to offer, or it's all you ARE.
Are you just a dick who likes to shove your dick in the face of everyone you meet?
Or maybe you never grew up and out of the toddler stage of obsession with it.
Either way, it's boring, and doesn't speak well of what you'd be like in person.
So I get rid of it.
So do most women I talk to.
Which may be the opposite of what you were hoping for with your profile
So maybe it's something to think on, eh? Thanks to anyone who takes the time to view my profile and send a message. I ask, respectfully, that you please, please, pretty please not send me messages with "Domly" (lol) or humiliating language. I am not your submissive at this stage and it's insulting to us both to use this sort of language in an initial conversation. Let's be pleasant and polite and courteous, please. I'm referring to messages with text like "Hello slut" or "Nice udders, whore." I'm not offended by this type of language - but I don't find it flirty or charming and it definitely derails any chances we have for actual communication. For those of you that may want to , but can't really move, I'll say what you probably have heard many times. FIND SOMONE LOCAL.
On the other hand I could use someone remote to help develop a website with lifestyle merch for sale that I have designed myself. Mainly clothing . I know I can do 2 things one is get someone else to build it from a place like fivver . No problem but the subject is kind of sensitive so I'm not sure about getting someone else to do it that is outside the lifestyle. The other thing is to do it myself as I have done sites myself before. But it's time consuming and I spend most My time designing and marketing.
However I would rather find someone in the lifestyle to do it even if it means I pay someone .
The other thing I am looking for is for someone to seriously get me started in crypto. Not just a statement like " go to this site and sign up" . I know there is a lot more to it . There are courses and some follow crypto gurus to immulate what they do .
I know this is maybe something I'm just putting out there on a limb but if I don't put it out there then it won't be known I'm also looking for that as well as getting someone here fulltime. A note for those who choose to message me:
I’m not interested in sexual résumés or exhaustive lists of past experiences as an opening introduction. Depth, discernment, restraint, and self-ownership matter to me far more than explicit history.
I pay attention to how someone lives their everyday life — work ethic, accountability, emotional intelligence, time management, and their ability to carry responsibility. Submission, as I define it, comes from stability, conscious choice, and integrity — not self-erasure, obligation, or performance.
If you are currently uncollared and reaching out, this is the appropriate time to show who you are now:
how you manage your work life, how you contribute within a household or structured environment, how you balance ambition with discipline, and how you envision your future. I am interested in alignment, not nostalgia.
It’s also worth stating plainly: as we age, bodies change. That is reality, not failure. Physical limitations or changes — including erectile issues — are not disqualifiers to me. What matters is confidence, honesty, self-awareness, and the ability to live fully in the present rather than clinging to a past version of yourself.
Roe v Wade
This has nothing to do with babies. If it was about babies, we'd have free healthcare. If it was about babies, you wouldn't have to pay to give birth. If it was about babies, we'd have months of paid leave. If it was about human babies, we wouldn't force mothers to have to choose to keep their job, or put their baby in daycare AT 6 WEEKS. It's ILLEGAL to take nursing kittens and puppy's from their mothers before 8 weeks. Why don't I have the same rights?
This has NOTHING to do with babies. And EVERYTHING to do with suppressing a Woman's RIGHT to autonomy over her own body. Embracing my slumber, I feel as though I'm in a dream
The softness of your caress, has me feeling so serene
I want to open my eyes to make sure you are real
I will not venture, because I don't want to interrupt what I feel
The moisture begins to flow as my body loses control
You have me at this point and I will never say no
Relaxation and anxiety are about to collide
Multi orgasmic pleasure, I will never hide
WOW! This lifestyle can be so enjoyable and rewarding at times... however I find myself disappointed with all of the fakes and phonies.
I am 100% real, I choose to live this life 100% of the time. Everybody I come across here anymore wants to play 20 questions and I hate it. I know what my profile says. No need to remind me about it, and then question me. That is not how I work. There is FAR MORE to Me than what you see here.
If I like you well enough, I may just clue you in...
...until then
i just miss him so much and all I want to do is make things right between us again. I know there's alwasy a reason behind everything he does, but I have thought of all that I think it could be this time. I've admitted my wrongs, sat with his words and mulled them over extensively, and examined my behavior over the last few weeks. I've given him space the last week aside from updating him on the necessary and important things he absolutely should know, and still, not a word in response. I'm at a loss as to how to resolve this without communication and for that, he has to be willing to respond, to talk. Many would say this is not right for him to do, and I only half agree. The fuck up was mine. Entirely. I just have no idea how to prove to him that I'm sorry and intend to work on improvements and growth. It also saddens me that he has not so much as seemed at all troubled by our lack of contact. Though, I don't know this for certain, but how do you go so long with no contact with your slave if you love them as much as you say you do, and want them just as much? I'm doubting a lot lately, and losing more and more hope as the days pass.
I won't give up, though. I am his, forever. Whether he considers me his anymore or not. I just wish he would tell me, either way. Even if he still needs more time, I just want to know I am still his if I am. And I want to know if I'm not, if I'm not.
I feel like I'm in limbo, a state of purgatory. Banished from even learning my fate. It's painful. It's agonizing. It feels cruel and confusing. And it doesn't feel particularly safe, though with him, as his, I feel perfectly safe. But in this space of frozen in time, hanging limp from fated thread, I am scared. Terrified that it may be over. I've broken so many times since we last spoke. And I'm still breaking. Every fracture piercing the deepest depths of me. The knowledge that I caused this for myself? Makes his last words to me sting all the more:
Enjoy the misery you bring on yourself. An ode to Jewels Tavern( Decatur Street-The French Quarter, New Orleans, Lousiana )Mardi Gras is March 1, in 2022.I had explored every bar in the French Quarter, except, JEWELS TAVERN.
This was 1980, pre-AIDs, Mardi Gras morning about 5AM the French Quarter is a mini Las Vegas but trashier.
I was partying like a rock star at the Parade Disco, Playboy Magazine ranking the Parade Disco one of the top 10 Dance bars in the United States.
I was with my gay friends, I loved these guys they always set me up with their fag-hag female friends. As I said, I was pretty *ucked up from drinking for the last 4 days almost non-stop.....
If you've been to Mardi Gras you get it......its the WILDEST CRAZIEST ADULT Halloween STREET PARTY maybe on Earth!
Its the United States version of Carnival in Brazil. I got my courage up and asked Steve if he would take me to Jewels (Tavern).
I was pretty drunk but not crazy, I wasn't going into Jewels alone on Mardi Gras day, the wildest day of the year in New Orleans for my first visit to Jewels alone.
Steve had just gotten out of the Marines and was about 6 foot and of course buff, I wasn't going into Jewels without an escort!
Jewels was known all across gay America for there FULLMOON Parties.
Every full moon no matter what day of the week the bar had one perverted anything goes hedonistic party in the bar. There are stories the second floor Pool Tables at Jewels had tarps thrown over the pool tabless ay fullmoon parties and Crisco would cover every inch of those tarps by morning.
Jewels in the French Quarter was our rough trade bar of the likes seen in the movie CRUSING (1980) staring Al Pachino, this kind of bar. (( I'm always amazed Al Pachino appearred in Crusing ) )
Jewels didn't disappoint it was everything I thought and more.
The enterance to the bar was 2 swinging bar saloon doors.
I had passed those door many times going to Morning Call for hot beignets and coffee always respectful of Jewels reputation.
Steve went into Jewels first and I wasn't more than 1 foot inside that I saw naked bodies and various forms of sex. Steve was a regular so after a few minutes I was on my own but I had gone inside for my first time.
What I want to share is I had an epiphany on Mardi Gras Day 1980.
I had been in Jewels about 10 minutes and I had to pee. The bathroom was in the very back right of the bar. I went into the bathroom and looked around and there wasn't a urinal, there was a small cubical that had a toilet but NO URINAL. There was instead a 4 claw old fashion bathtub with a naked guy inside. I realized the bathtub was the urinal. I pulled my dick out and let loose a long piss directly onto the naked guy in the bathtub/urinal.
The epiphany was the GLOW, SMILE, PLEASURE, that radiated from the guy, I just pissed on.
He looked at me with complete happiness I have never seem such total happiness before. He grabbed a roll of theater tickets ripped of a bunch and told me that they were good for free beers at the bar and to hurry on back.
I was a changed man since that experience.
I learned if you enjoy it and it doesn't hurt others do it. Enjoy it what ever it is for you, don't question why, embrace these moments and experiences when you live out your fantasies into reality that is true fulfillment.
You only live once.
FOOTNOTE I got another cool story about Jewels that involved a, Female to Male Crossdreser. This women when dressed as a man, looked more butch, than most of the guys in any bar.
FOOTNOTE The House of the Rising Sun referenced in the Animals song is in the French Quarter and I got another interesting experience to tell about that place
.....ITS TRUE ITS the RUIN OF MANY A POOR BOY, I KNOW I'm One.
Sir Hugo Atlanta (Formerly known as Sir Hugo of New Orleans) Dear maste,daddy,mistress, mommy,Im a french sissy slave 57 on good shape living in Palawan Philippines.Serving as a sub slave for household duty and sex is my dream.Being dress as a maid for my service ,as an inmate for my punishment as an retardate teen girl for going outI love to be keep on chastity and diaper full time , wear 50s style lingerie, girdles,full cup bra,garter belt, stocking and more.Being keep on chain, shackles,collard for punishment are good for me.Correction and education by flogging, spanking, whipping or more are again normal.
Feel free to ask me anything!
Hope you have interest on meCheersSissy Melanie Two truths are self-evident within the soul of a Slave:
1.) I am less than. I am not free. I am disempowered. I am vulnerable and unsafe.
2.) Others are more than me. They own me. They have power. With them I am protected and safe.
Two truths are self-evident within the soul of a Slave-Owner:
1.) I am lord/lady. I alone choose. I own them/him/her. I protect and shelter.
2.) They/he/she are necessary to me. I need their weakness. I need their power. I must have them.
and now I'm not sure whose neediness is the greater; slave or owner? 10/02/22
I'm deeply disappointed by those with lack of commitment or follow through. It's discouraging to say the least. Is it even worth it to try anymore? *deep sigh*
Does anyone genuinely want to serve in a live-in, domestic/household service situation? Feeding on the crumbs and starving
She embraces different experiences with different people in different situations trying to quench the thirst that keeps building inside her. She wants to be in a collar on her knees .... she longs to feel her submission again, to turn over the reins that strangle her and hold her in top space. She understands her value in top space but it doesn’t feed her soul. She has been looking for years for the situation to change ..... thinking it will happen when its suppose to happen until then trying to feed her hidden side from the crumbs left about in these different situations. A little submission here, a little consensual non consensual there, just small almost minuscule crumbs.
There are days where she decides it just isn’t a part of her anymore and she pushes away the feeling refusing to let it in and sometimes she succeeds for a while but the void continues to grow, the walls fall in on her and its the only thought in her mind. That is when it consumes her cruelty reminding her of her needs, her feelings, and her memories. Like a movie you cant turn off...... she can see herself so vividly, she can feel the feelings she once felt, she can taste the release in her obedience, she remembers being engulfed in him and in that moment she worried only for his want in her.
She is coming back out slowly, kind of scared and kinda lurking. What drives her, what pushes her is the fire that burns, the thoughts she cant get out of her head, the feelings that linger like a drug to an addict ..... she is close to self domination for the first time in her life which is a very confusing thought for her ... she holds on gring at straws and living in her dreams...she doesn’t know how to approach people, she doesn’t know how to get close to people and she cant automatically trust .... these things will leave her with herself, her memories, her dreams
Been a while since I have written, I have discovered a new fetish that I absolutely love , I love drinking a woman's pee either straight from the source or fresh in a glass still hot recently had a woman that I took to dinner go to the bathroom fill a glass with her pee and brought it back to the table for yours truly to drink was very humiliating and very hot but anyhow I would like to find indiana , Illinois, Kentucky, ohio woman that want to feed me there pee must be drug free and clean . Let me know I will travel to you !! I will perform or let you do as you will to me for the privilege to drink your golden nectar . I am not ashamed to admit that this morning I was in a Neil Diamond mood. I have weeks where I am singing Cracklin' Rosie all day. Not so much lately, hence the need. I have my favorites and the songs I skip over. I play Forever in Blue Jeans twice. So I am driving to work, merging with people who don't know how to merge, and a song queues up that I would normally skip over. But I was clueless merging so I wasn't paying attention. And then I hear the words.
Far. We've been traveling far. Without a home. But not without a star.
All of the sudden I start tearing up thinking about how people left everything and everyone for an unknown, optimistic opportunity. And the song goes on.
Free. Only want to be free. We huddle close. Hang onto a dream.
At this point I am full on ugly crying with red rimmed eyes, sniffling, trying to see because I'm driving around a bend, and I'm coming up to the parking lot a red rimmed, sniffling mess. Deep breaths. Composure. Skip Heartlight today and for all eternity. Head into work. Tell me it's not just me? If you say I'm hormonal I will deck you. New drinking game!
Go on Collarspace and do a shot every time you see a phrase "Don't write to me if you..." in someone's profile.
I guarantee you are going to pass out under the table. Verified. It has been a long time since I wrote in my journal. My search for a collar got delayed due to covid and only now am I trying to get active agin in my search. I still have the burning desire to be owned as primarily a sex slave. I can do domestic but I feel my true calling is to be a fucktoy for Master and his friends and acquantances.
I am also hopeing to find a Master experienced in electro. I have a little electro device that I use on myself but need Master with better device and ability to push my limits. I find it hard to keep it on high settings and dont seem to have the strength to do it to myself.
I am getting a new truck so I will be better able to travel for interviews/inspections/trials.
I hope to get some contacts soon.
It may have taken nearly two years but the world is back and so am I.
Very excited to meet you!
Let's chat.
Be local, because I want to touch you
I get that there’s a desire for online play, and that a lot of people are into it. That’s fine. People want what they want, and there’s nothing wrong with that: it’s how they go about getting it that’s the issue.
I specifically request that my potential suitors be local because I’m not interested in online relationships. I want to meet you, get coffee or something, go for a walk, see your expressions while I hear your voice, evaluate your demeanor, feel if there’s any spark between us. If that spark exists, I want to touch you. I can’t do that online.
Appreciation from afar is okay - I suppose, but unless you’re local or at least have already booked a visit to Seattle, I’m not interested. Visiting the Seattle for business or pleasure? Great. Hinting that it might happen if I give you enough online attention first? Nope.
There are people here who are looking for online relationships. Feel free to talk to them, as they’re who you’re looking for. If that’s what you’re interested in, you’re not looking for me.
There are some really disrespectful retards on here. They have several Journal entries complaining about this or that premise they claim not to like, but when you contact them, they behave exactly like their own Journal entry complains about.
Is it really too much effort when someone clearly has taken the time to write to you, to answer it with a Not Interested reply if they don't interest you?
Is 2 clicks (reply - send message) followed by 12 measley letters and a space (Not Interested) too much effort for your brain?
You normally complain about the manners of whoever (its not entirely Doms or sub specific, I know both groups have extremely boneidle members on these kind of sites). I appreciate that some of you are looking for a specific niche, a specific thing, a set of requirements essential to your happiness, but grow the fuck up, this lifestyle is generally ruled by one concept, Compromise, because you will unlikely in 99 in 100 contacts get every T crossed and every I dotted to your expectations
Your arrogance allows you to bypass someone genuine whom might be able to compromise in return and give you most of those little quirks, if not all, you seek to get your perfect BDSM partner.... but no you choose to ignore them and let them pass you by, because you seek perfection from the start? I was into bondage years before I learned how babies were made. It was intense and perverted, yet, somehow, innocent. For a long, long time, I thought myself the only one.
I believe I'm straight, even if, in my fantasies, the gender of my captor isn't important. The Internet introduced me to the concept of feminization without the stigma of caricature. It was an extreme sort of submission.
While on cam, the reaction of viewers to my slim body and their requests that I wear panties and bra led me to add feminization to my bondage fantasies.
I still don't know if I'm ready to be deflowered by a male in real life. I don't like the sight of men. It may be that I'll only keep discussing the matter with "suitors" online. I may still change. Or not. Another Christmas 'alone'.
But you know what? i'm ok with that. It's become my new normal. i sincerely hope everyone out there who hasn't found the person they are looking for yet, the same contentment that i feel.
It's not that i don't want to find my Owner... i'm just not frantic and stressed out and beaten up over not having found Him yet. It'll make the time even more sweeter if i do.
Happy holidays to you all.. may you, and those you love all remain healthy this Christmas and into the new year. Started to feel lightheaded and had to end my scene early. My play partner was completely understanding and I can't wait to play with him again.
Is it kinder to block and delete, or to reply to a patently incompatible inquiry with "Can you read? Did you read?"
11.18.2023 My new journal entry option has disappeared. My only choice is to edit existing entries.
11.23.2023 Happy Thanksgiving. Remembering what I am thankful for.
12.15.2023 When you message someone, tell them why. Declaring what you might have in common is a start, but follow up with how you want to be friends or you are hoping to get to know me. Otherwise you're likely to get a good for you and a big fat block. You're reaching out to me, remember? Slave's Supplications or devotions
Slave's Supplications or devotions:
I beg you to use me for your pleasure. I desire nothing more than to be an that you can use for your enjoyment at any time. I beg You to allow me to please you.
I beg to be made to live to worship you.
Make me give you thanks when you honor me with punishment at your hand. My real punishment is having failed, and having disappointed you I would not deserve your attention.
My body and mind are your property, now and until you may decide you have no further use for me. I beg you to make me feel your ownership of me everyday.
Please, make me feel Your power over me, and Your total control of my life.
I submit willingly to your power and domination. Please, make me feel my submission and your control throughout my day.
I want to obey, serve and please you. Please allow me the privilege of calling you Master.
I realize my sexuality and my orgasms are now your property, allowed to me as a special gift. I beg you to punish me severely if I ever have an orgasm without permission.
I choose willingly to be treated as your property. I beg you to own me utterly and completely.
I beg you to make me behave, and be a good boy/girl. Please allow me the privilege of your discipline when I misbehave.
I beg you to control my clit/cock. When I may touch it, when it may be excited and when it may come. I know my cock/clit now belongs to you.
I beg to be your property. Please help me become your greatest treasure.
Living in Your Grace, my Master my God.
I am having a fun break until 2th January then back to manuscript editing.
4th January I reintroduce keto and steps, later back to yoga. I can't wait to get supple and increase my stamina again. February I will back weight training, I have all sorts of free weight dumbells in my home so I can concentrate on reps before form to rebuild what went last year.
No suitable driving submissives, as all that applied were newbie bottoms, when it's two years experience in BDSM, FLR and driving/having a car I want. I miss the web site Servants4U for that site had plenty of respectful gentleman submissive guys with at least five years experience. But many left the community once covid hit and haven't returned. What a pity.
Today I am off to the nail salon so new pics of my nails will likely be on Fetlife.com for those who enjoy a Lady with carefully manicured nails. What a New Year 2024 is in store! Make it a fun one now!! Ahh, my favorite season is here... Anything-But-Summer! I love the cooler weather in general, plus it gives me an opportunity to spend more time working in my yard. Now is the perfect time to look over my plants to see what was successful, and what may need relocated or even replaced. Once again, I'm enjoying the small surprises, such as the blueberries that have survived and even appear to be thriving in the bags in which I purchased them this spring. I'm saddened by the plants that looked promising in the spring, yet didn't survive the summer.
Much like those plants, although pleasant for a while, apparently I need to reassess some of the relationships in my life and consider finding others that have the potential to last longer and grow even more beautiful. Who wants to frolic and grow in my garden? *ominous grin* I'm an ebony goddess currently looking for a sub/cuck to train to serve and worship me. Communication , trust and eagerness to learn, obey and serve are a must! Catch my attention, keep my attention and crave my attention. I will love to make you my personal slave, be under my feet , worship me. Lot of fun and let's explore our kinks together.
I love to tease, to train, and to torture.
I want my subs undivided time, adoration, attention, energy, and lavish worship.
I have zero interest in fulfilling your fantasy.
I am a true dominant woman and this is all about me and my pleasure, happiness and gratification; should you manage to enjoy yourself while I am whipping you into shape, or using and abusing you, then that is okay...but never will be of concern to me.
I’m in search of a male submissive/cuck who is reliable, independent, sane, I’d prefer someone who is service oriented as well as having masochistic tendencies
I would prefer someone with some kind of experience The ritual for asking to speak
I get questions from slaves frequently. Many slaves seem to think it is a slave's entitlement to ask questions of a Master at any time in any fashion. This is a false assumption to make with Me. Below is the ritual a slave must follow if it desires to speak when in My presence. A slave that wishes to ask Me a question on line should at least observe the ritual as best it can.
The ritual for asking a question (or being allowed to speak for that matter) of Me when it is My presence is to kneel and put its lips and tongue to use on My shoes. Then while it kisses and licks, it waits for Me to acknowledge it. This may take a while as what ever I am engaged in is more important than the slave's request for recognition. Should I tire of its presence I may dismiss it with a word or a, maybe not so gentle, kick to the side of the face. The slave must wait at least 15 minutes before attempting to get My attention again. its question must have some value to what I care about, or, the slave will be punished.
If slave should intrude on My time on line to ask a question that is answered in the writings it can find herein it risks being blocked.
From a beau:
"Dreaming of your ass - my cock filling your sweet hole, we have been at it for a while now - my shaft fucking you slowly we both marveling on the action - Your dilated pussy, your cunt wonderfully gaped, my cock gorged and full - We say nothing, we communicate with raw sex Exchanging wet kisses I finally cum deep We both feel it throbbing as it fills you with love serum We go quiet, breathing deep My cock slips out of your gaped anus" At last, another journal entry!
Let's get started with my usual declaration: I am subMeghan. Right now, I am naked wearing only my glasses and my collar...
And now on to today's journal entry...
Apparently, my Dom has decided to introduce me to "ahegao". Ahegao, for those, like me, who don't know, is an anime term for a specific type of face for a woman to make during sex. The classic ahegao face is where you cross your eyes and roll them back, all the while sticking out your tongue. My desciption does not do it justice. Go google ahegao and you'll get a better idea of what it's all about. Apparently its a thing... lol
Making a ahegao face is harder than it looks, especially during sex. However, my Dom wants me to do it, so I am going to do it. My Dom recently placed a full sized mirror on the wall next to the computer. Originally he did this so that I could see myself sitting here naked in front of the computer. Now I get to use it to practice my ahegao face too.
One thing I learned is that is is very difficult to stick your tongue and keep it still. I also realized that I can't see myself in the mirror very well when I try roll my eyes. My Dom saiys: "The more stupid you look, the better you're doing it." It seems I have a way to go...
By now I know what my Dom wants: My Dom wants you all to visualize me just sitting here making ahegao faces. So I am...
That's all for now.
subMeghan Yes, I have been on this site for a bit. I am looking for the slave that is best to meet My desires. I am looking for long term and live in, when it happens.
I do not expect instant match and move. I want any relocation to be permanent and good for both of Us.
I hope you have watched the show Big Bang Theory. Living with Me is similar to living with the Sheldon character. At least in the aspect of I get what I want from a slave living with Me. If that isn't you then we will not work well together.
I am open to one offs and play dates and such. So feel free to reach out for that also. WOW A year and a half without saying a word to Me.Should I say who ??? After many, many years of talking with eachother. Over 12 years. Deepest and Darkest Secrets W/we both shared. Just like to know if you are doing ok. You can't never trust someone or anyone once you share your pictures with them. And they share them with other's... I could never do that to you,like someone did that to you. Sent your picture to Me of you. Where are you??? Hello, well it has been just a little bit over two years now since W/we_I spoken to you. I Do hope you are ok whom you are ever with now, to be with a He, she or even they. I do hope you are serving who you are with very well. I hope you have a Wonder Holidays that are coming with your family, maybe if you can find the time that you can talk send Me a note I like to know how you are doing... It will be rare if I meet anyone. And if I do it's because I see that we could possibly form a friendship. I'm looking for other things in my day to day life that I do not seek online.
Please be mindful that I'm not interested in people from abroad. I'm not looking for anything to do with cyber interaction, picture exchange, video calls of an intimate nature. No exchanges whatsoever. And above all I want decent people in My life only.
Podcasts - setting tone and direction & other must listen:
(updated 2024-11-18)
english spoken:
Diaries of a Domme + Questions Answered, by Chastity Queen
Cuck My Life Podcast, by cucks for cucks
The Venus Cuckoldress Podcast, by Venus
Female Led Relationship Podcast, by Marisa Rudder
Obedient Love Podcast, by Viola Voltairine
Krystine's FLR Podcast, by Krystine Kellogg
deutsch/german:
LustReise, by Kay & Ben
Dominante Grüße, by Lady Penelope
Machtfertigs BDSM Podcast, by Herrin Sabina
Auroras Mistress Talk, by Aurora Nia Noxx
Nika Macht! - Das wahre Ahh und Ohh des BDSM & Sex, by Anika Tiegs
Die Kunst der Unvernunft, by Sebastian Stix
Lustgewinn - BDSM, Kink und Sex, by Cate & Michel/li
Bound-n-Hit, by Julina Bauer
enjoy & ...obey
Well, after all that it looks like I may crawl back to him. It's been a funny few weeks since I met him. I didn't like it or enjoy it and I left. But a little part of me realised that what I liked or enjoyed wasn't the point. As a slave, my role is to serve. I did quite a bit - submissively knelt in front of him and swallowed his whole bladder of pee; worshipped his ass; sucked his cock.
As time passed and i began to process the expereince and put it into context, I began to feel bad about leaving, so I wrote to him and apologised.
And it seems he is prepared to take me back and to try again.
I know what awaits me this time - I'm seriously considering accepting the offer.
Do all slaves go through this moment of doubt and rejection before finally accepting their role and the dscipline of slavery? She loved that look. Kneeling, eyes cast down: she saw meekness, obedience - also a spark of resistance: shame, pride, regret, lust. Regret for freedom lost, shame from the knowledge that it was his own slave nature to give it up, pride that she took it. He desired to submit to her, his surrender brought him shame, the shame aroused his desire.Her dominance was attuned to the contradictions in his heart. She knew how to wrap them like cords around him. He might seem to have a choice. He did not. She confronted him with what he was; the only escape would be for him to deny his nature. This he could not do. So long as she chose to control him, he could only submit.She saw this even more clearly than he did. A part of her regretted taking his freedom - but that lost look in his eyes was so delicious, his impulse to obey was so pleasing, his spark of resistance so exciting to play with - and after all, it was his own nature to submit, just as it was her nature to rule. This is how it was meant to be. And she loved it. It is just a matter of time before the scab falls off. Then no more nurse then
Then contact the carpenter about widening my doors. Buy a new mattress for bed in my room. Leaving hospital bed in the living room just in case. I have 3 gas heaters to purchase to heat my place and buy hay again 150 bales this time. Have farrier come take care of hoof care. Thanks
My wife's first words to me were a warning. "You're going to fry out there!"
I looked up from the sundeck at my condo and saw this pretty girl looking at me from a second floor balcony. She had long black hair and was wearing a short crop top that showed off her flat stomach. I waved and I told her I was fine and had lots of suntan oil. I went back to reading the Washington Post like I did every Sunday morning.
I was new here, this was my first summer at this place. It was steps away from the subway and had a big pool, a tennis court and gym. I loved the sundeck, a big wide area for sun worshippers like me. So every Sunday id head to the sundeck with my towel and the paper. I would do a few floor exercises and sunbathe while reading the paper. I was flattered that this girl was watching me.
She was now talking to me every time she saw me. "What are you reading?" she asked. "Would you like a water?" She would toss me a water when I said sure. Over time I began to look forward to seeing her. Eventually I asked if she played tennis. She did. She was pretty good and had a good forehand. During a match we took a water break as we were at the net. "Your shoe is untied." she said. I looked down and she kneeled down and retied my shoe.
Tennis led to workouts in the gym. She told me she was a trainer. She'd give me tips on form and spotted me when I needed it. I was doing a bent over row exercise and she spotted me and I felt her hand on my waist. Her hand slowly went to my back and drifted lower onto my butt. I could feel her fingertips touch the outline of the back of my bikini underneath my gym tights. So now I knew she wanted more than a friendship.
We talked about bdsm. She didn't understand it. I told her about my kinks and why it turned me on. I'll never forget her reply. "Why don't you let me train you so you look stretched all the time?". The truth of it was that we love each other. She's gay. She's had a lot of trauma caused by men and wants nothing to do with them. She understood my needs and we agreed that if this was going to work, she would have to accept my kink and I would never cheat on her. She's met all my friends and doesn't participate in bdsm.
You might be asking How can this be? This lifestyle is all about meeting one's needs. As long as both sides agree to things it'll work out for all. All I told her to do was to surround herself with beautiful things.
So my wife is my service sub. She takes care of our home, she cooks for me, she takes care of the pool, the Jacuzzi, grocery shopping. She loves it. It was raining one day when I drove home from work and there she was, in her bare feet holding an umbrella for me to walk me to the house. She decorates for the holidays. I hear her on the phone telling others how happy she is. She knows that I love it when she walks around in a T-shirt and bikini. She works out. She loves sunbathing with me. We fulfill each other's needs.
So to my lovely wife and sub, I thank you for your commitment to me and the love you've given me.
I am just an honest women.
I will tell another women they are beautiful - I am comfortable in my own skin. Told 20 women of all ages they are stunning.
I will tell a trans women she is a diva if she looks so convincing I would want to learn beauty secrets from them (he/she/undecided) - still comfortable in my own skin to tell a trans women they are Gorgeous with a capital G.
I will tell a women who sticks on a corset and thinks automatically they are dominant they are not. Also this odd women stuck on a sailors hat? LOL - I am still laughing.
But dear women, I will also call some of you out for your BS. If you want me...Tell me.
Don't wait for me to approach you,
You may be broken a little bit inside, but you have to start by fixing yourself.. Do not wait for someone to come along and try to fix you.
If you cancel our first date because you are afraid of what you can not control, than there will not be a second date.
If you want to stick to chatting only, I will think that you probably have no interest in pursuing anything and I will move on.
If you pretend not to give a fuck, I will think you really do not give a fuck, and I will move on.
If the only way you can show your love is with your legs wide open... Than it probably will not last.. So why try?
If you want me, you need to step out of your shadow and insecurities. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it.
So its 2022 and I have been here a long while. Still no one claiming to be Dominant and willing to prove it has come my way in this time, will this be the year it happens, probably not. I think most people have given up on this site delivering them a submissive or slave that can fulfill their needs, as much as they fulfill theirs
Of course my needs are simple, I would like a Dominant man or couple, who want a relationship which can migrate from a one night stand, to many nights together, and days. But will it happen, I doubt it
I am fed up of having to be the assertive one, I am supposed to be asserted upon, Doms on here too afraid to approach someone because others have been such a let down, well, that concept is also felt by many subs and slaves who arrange to play with Dominants who aren't real.
So be assertive, sweep me off my feet, treat me with some respect, remember your goal is to want me to spend my time serving you, so if you come at me like a total moron, I'll treat you like one. Last night was tuned into KPR Retro Cocktail hour, a 2 hour program focused on post WW2 Popular Exotica, Islands, and really the worldwide impact of various musics in diverse cultures that the WW2 Soldiers were in contact with throughout the world and when returned Popular Music, Lounge (Clubbing today) Music and on the radio reflected their experiences with Hawaiian & other south Pacific influences, as well as, Latino Jazz or even Africa influence. Exotica, Space Age Bachelor Pad Musics and the list is endless. Actually lots of fun though the music a bit uneven in quality over all fun stuff. Been in correspondence with a few Sub's giving me some hopefulness that something real may in time develop between myself and one of them or another eventually. All Night Jazz followed, and had a couple of Rum & Dew cocktails while listening to some first rate jazz ensembles of this generation and going back to the old masters. Turned in, and realized mild depression of the other day has lifted. This morning woke up feeling a bit optimistic and feeling good about, if not already met, still meeting on this site a prospective submissive that will be a good fit for me and for her. Listening to some Baroque Music in background and since house work need be done and I'm the only one here might actually sweep up some if not all of the basement floor today. Plus do some organizing. Mostly was organized tool shop area, Landscape materials and gear in another area, Holiday decorations for inside & outside of house and other types of stuff stored in specific areas on basement shelves. Due, to having installed decorative gravel around the house and constructing a back patio, front yard twin garden plots and other such landscaping a lot of that stuff is on the floor off their shelf space and need to put all that stuff away as well as tools such as hammers, scrapers screwdriver, pliers, drill etc back into their proper locations within their specific areas. Would be pleasant must admit, now this morning, having a submissive wife doing this along side me, after having coffee together and myself taking a break to watch her busy and cleaning and ordering these matters as directed by myself. Do need to resume composing the set of Short String Quartets stopped work on a year ago, finished the first 60 but the total set will take another 10 to 12 weeks to finish, a total of 1,095. 1 for every day of the Pandemic over a 3 year period. However sweeping the basement also needs doing too.
Weda visits the book store
I met Weda at Red Robin. Like, we agreed. She parked in the back. I picked her up. In my truck. And we drove to an adult bookstore. This was on her bucket list of things to do. her Bo was always threatening to do this with her. But I beat him to it. Like with most things he said he was going to do, to her. As we drove there we chatted and I played with her boobs and rubbed her leg. I ran my hand between her legs and could feel some of the dampness for the anticipation.
Once we got there. She seemed a bit nervous. I looked over at her and from her smile I knew I did not need to ask if she was ready to go inside. I grabbed her hand and escorted her in. Standing close to me. We found a booth. One of the bigger booths for Both of us to be able to maneuver around. We got comfortable.
I dropped some coins in and clicked on a movie. I unbuttoned her blouse then proceeded to play with her tits. She Pulled out my cock with a huge smile( she has a great smile). She started sucking . There were people knocking on the door, asking to join and trying to get in. I asked her if she wanted company and she said, not this time. Maybe next time. I then enjoyed her mouth as she was doing a fantastic job. After a few minutes I pulled out my cock from her mouth and bent her over. I enjoyed her wet willing cunt for a while, before pulling it out and rubbin it on her ass hole. I pumped my cock in and out of her tight wet shaved pussy a few times. Every few strokes I would pull out and I would pull it out, And rub it on her tight little asshole. Then back in her pussy, this went for a few minutes. Fucking her pussy or should i say cunt? I pulled my cock out again. I rubbed it against her asshole a few more times. Just lubing it up and relaxing it a little as I did this a few more times. She was moaning. I pulled out my cock and put the head against her puckered rosebud. I started pushing slowly but firm. I pushed until I felt the first ring of resistance give away. The head of my cock was now in her ass. I let her ass adjust, and relax. Pulled it out and back in slowly a few times. My cock started to go in deeper and deeper and then I hit the second ring of resistance. I applied a little bit of pressure and pop I was in! I was busy, pounding her ass when some asshole picked the lock on the door. And tried to get in.He was peeking in the door. Begging to come in and watch. I asked Weda what she wanted, She said, no. So we kept him and the others outside. And pull the door shut. I continued to enjoy her. I was fucking her towards the so hard and deep you could hear our bodies slaming together. I came deep in her ass and almost lost my footing since I was fully drained. We relaxed for a few minutes. Watched a bit more of the movie. We walked out hand in hand. There was a group of about seven pervys who had been listening and asking if they could join us in the booth. A couple of them followed us asking if we were done and leaving, hoping they could get some time with my girl.
I walked her to my truck. Drove her back to her truck. And we both went on our merry way. with smiles on our faces.
Another bucket list item had been checked off her list.
hey there tell me about you non sexual turn ons! We forget about the way sensuality ties into more than physicality but is also psychological. What are things that snap your attention that you were surprised about?
Happy 4th of july Smart, successful, strong and structured. I wasn't born this way, these attributes were my choice. As such I don't overlook or yield these principles to anyone. If these are not qualities that you admire in grown men please move on.
I'm straight forward and I expect the same. If picture swaps, video calls, or personal meetings are a hard line for you then I am not the one. If you get together with me you will be giving up the PT&A. If that's not an issue keep going. I may be good conversation and a well of knowledge, but I am here to find another partner, not a chill buddy. I work hard and need an outlet. I don't intend for you or this site to consume me or my time. This simply means that I may not be on as often as someone with a lot of extra time on his hands. I have many differing likes, yearnings, ambitions, and needs to be satisfied. I'm interested in hearing your's.
J²
So tell me, are you happy,
Do you have the things you need?
The house, the car, the children,
Are all your dreams complete?
Is the life you have enough for you,
Are you wishing there was more?
Or is the home you have a prison?
Even though it has a door.
Tell me who you dream of,
Whose words still move your soul?
Are you going through the motions.
Where nothing makes you whole?
Do you want to be alive again
And feel a lovers touch.
Are those days now just a memory?
Where nothing matters very much.
You did everything he asked of you,
You know you've played your part
So maybe, then just maybe..
It's time to live your heart. I don't have a perfect body. Looks fade with time. Life etches a map of each and every day upon and in our body.
i don't have a perfect life. We know that life is what we make it and perfection eludes us.
i don't have a perfect submissive attitude. Although I hope to improve, always.
i don't have a perfect vision of the future. I live in the now and think about tomorrow, tomorrow.
Does tomorrow even exist?
i don't have a perfect anything...
BUT
i am happy with the person i am. Perfectly imperfect.
Are you?
Wow, it's been ages since I've written a journal entry, so please bare with me, as I get back into the hang of it.
Here goes.
So lately a lot of focus here on me being able to be a potential sub for any Dominant, has been placed on me being married. Basically I can't possibly make, or be a good sub, if I'm married. I mean right? How could I?
So here's my question to all those Doms who tell me this, time and time again.
Why, would you in any way think it is okay then, to tease, flirt, or lead me on in any way toward the path of consideration, or more, if you know, before our conversations start, that me being married is an issue for you? When my profile explicitly states that I am married right from the start.
Not only are you inconsiderate, but you're actions are reprehensible, and make you nothing but a liar, a fake, and no where is that considered Dominant behaviour, no matter what you think.
At least I'm honest about being married, and that my husband is aware that I am here and talking to other men, when so many here are not, and believe me, more here are married, than they let on. They just hide it, until things start to get serious, then they "spill the beans." I'd much rather know from the beginning and be able to make my choices based off that knowledge right away, than wait and find it out when things have progressed further than they should have, before that information was provided.
I know a lot won't agree with me saying this on my profile. If you think this makes me seem less of a sub, then believe what you like.
~petal~ pet store (2/3)
after you approve the collar we shop for leashes together, but i'm in a daze. every time i start to regain my composure, you reach under my skirt and bring me to the brink of orgasm, then laugh at my whines when you step away.
as you edge me over and over, you taunt me- telling me i'm a desperate slut, just your little fucktoy, this is what i'm meant for, look at how pathetic and wet i am. then you have me repeat it back to you, and in my desperation i start adding to it, telling you that this is what i deserve for being such a whore, that it doesn't matter what i want as long as i'm pleasing you, begging to let me suck your cock to show you what a good girl i am.
after you push me so perilously close to the edge again, i finally tell you i can't take it anymore. you push me against the wall, using the leash across my throat to hold me in place. "touch yourself."
"sir please, i can't--"
you add pressure to the leash choking me and lean in closer, so your lips brush mine when you tell me, "that wasn't a request, slut."
i whimper but reach under my skirt and run my fingers up and down my wet pussy lips. you loosen the leash a little and kiss me just as my fingers find my swollen clit, and i can feel you smile when i g into your mouth.
you continue kissing me while i touch myself, seemingly unaffected by my need, just holding me in place in this pet store like we have all the time in the world. when you hear my breathing change as i get closer to the edge, you order me stop and continue lazily kissing me, completely ignoring my desperate whines and rocking hips.
when my breathing calms you order me to do it again, and again, and again. sometimes you order me to fuck myself, or lick my fingers clean, or pinch my nipples since your hands are still holding the leash across my throat. we keep going until nothing matters except your voice and my throbbing clit. i don't care anymore that we're in public, that all i can hear in this store anymore is my moans and wet pussy, that there's no way i could get within 20 feet of the cashier without him being able to smell the juices dripping out of me. all i care about is obeying you and ending this torment.
i don't know what you're waiting for or want from me and i'm too far past rational thought to think about it or even ask. after the fifth time in a row of making me edge myself, each session getting shorter and shorter, i burst into tears when you order me to stop.
you step back from me and admire your handiwork. i'm leaning against the wall, eyes closed, still crying. my inner thighs are glistening, my juices running down my legs in a way that's impossible to miss. even as i cry, my hips are rocking, still so desperate for any touch.
you cup the side of my face and tell me i'm a good girl, petting my hair and telling me how obedient i am in between you sucking my fingers clean. when i have enough composure back to look at you, you smile at me and ask if i'd like to cum.
i immediately stand up straighter. "yes sir."
"you'll still have to earn it," you tell me. i nod. "what will you do to earn an orgasm today, baby?"o
you ask it so innocently, but your hand slips under my skirt and finds my clit again before i can answer. "anything, i'll do anything to cum, please daddy," i beg. Perusing some late night journals.
Now and again someone declares a novel sexual experience or a relatable fantasy but in the last couple of days it shows some (sorry ladies but have noted) have let off a bit of steam - eek.
Time to get some of thoose sexual creative juices going.
I do notice we rotate into themes so I will push for the next theme:
Looking for a Male Subjects to tie up Nobuyoshi Araki style - any male hopefuls please apply. I'll give you a little hint too.
I get a LOT of contacts here. Many are polite and interested in me, at least until they realize I'm not gonna show them my junk on cam within the first 24 hours after they say they are a real true Dom! LOL
So often the proof is in the engagement, the talking, the conversations, the eventual move off of this platform to one where we can take the next steps.
I should not be expected to carry that load myself. Matter of fact, I expect the Dominant to take the lead here after all they contacted me. If I say yes, I'd like to get to know you, I expect conversation, asking questions, sharing FetLife profiles, etc. etc. etc. whatever it takes to see and feel if there is a common and mutual spark worth pursuing.
I of course have many of my own questions and comments and I will most certainly share those.
I WANT to find my man/Dominant/Master! So this should be a labor of love for both of us.
I look forward to hearing from you! MY EXPERIENCE and WHAT FRUSTRATES ME ABOUT MANY ON THIS SITE
IF YOUR GOAL IS A RELATIONSHIP, PLEASE READ THIS IN ITS ENTIRETY PRIOR TO MESSAGING
A recent encounter prompted me to share this.
When I engage in conversation (messaging) with men on this site. They often comment on how refreshing to find a real woman. A woman who understands D/s and BDSM focused relationships are not sustainable, they are just for play.
A woman who understands vanilla compatibilty is essential for anything real. If you are living your everyday life, involving your professional obligations, and social commitments, familial obligations, and other activities you enjoy. You need to know that person can fit into that part of your life. She needs to know the same of you.
Presumably you have already discussed and determined an alternative lifestyle, or kink compatibility. Now its time to determine cerebral, physical chemistry and the sustainability of a real relationship
That begins with the mutual sharing of information about our vanilla lives. You can still maintain anonymity, until you are ready to share who you really are out in the world.
THIS IS WHERE MY FRUSTRATIONS BEGIN.
Our most valuable commodity in life is our time. Of which we dont have an infinite amount. When we intentionally choose to gift some of our time towards a person of interest. We are saying to you I value you and want to vest my time in getting to know you. That is an act of respect.
When there is an exchange of information, its communication, sometimes people are busy, that's when you communicate to the other, it may be a few days before I reply which sets expectations regarding the response and is respectul of the other. Sometimes one party determines, maybe this isn't what i want. The respectful thing to do, is to simply say, I have decided we are not compatible after all. Thank you for your willingness to engage and share. I will continue my search and wish you luck with yours.
But...this is Collarspace where many people hide who they are, and their faces behind a blank profile, or one this that is seeking the fantasy...or a very few like me..seeking something real
We are all adults here. Presumably we were raised by someone, and we were taught exceptable behavior and manners. Most of us have either currently, or at some point had a career of some kind. During that career whatever it is or was, you had to engage with other people. There were/are certain expectations of behavior, manners, and always expected to be on time To be respectful of others time, as you would want them to be respectful of yours. These are lessons we are taught from kindergarden..
But..on this site more often than not...men will engage with you, there will be a mutual exchange of imformation. Then when you start asking about their life, which is a story that should be easy to put to words...no reply next day (but you see they are online), no reply the second day (but again you see they are online)...and then a third, fourth, etc.
Why these men can't just 'grow a pair', and be honest is beyond me. Because of the randomness of profile circulation. They, make it hard for the real men and real gentlemen to be recognized and appreciated by real women like me.
Now, I find myself spending my time writing this.. to say
IF YOU DONT HAVE THE CAPACITY TO BE RESPECTFUL OF MY TIME....IF YOU ARE INCAPABLE OF ENGAGING IN AN OPEN AND HONEST WAY TO SEE IF WE ARE COMPATIBLE....IF YOU ARE NOT SEEKING A REAL RELATIONSHIP WITH A REAL WOMAN....IF YOU ARE NOT EMOTIONALLY INTELLIGENT....IF YOU ARE NOT TRULY ABLE TO RELOCATE OR CO-LOCATE, OR DON'T HAVE THE RESOURCES TO TRAVEL....IF YOU ARE NOT SEEKING YOUR LIFE PARTNER.....IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE 'TIME' TO PUT IN THE WORK TO NURTURE & DEVELOP A SUSTAINABLE COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP....IF YOU HABITUALLY OVER PROMISE & UNDER DELIVER....IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE BALLS" OR GOOD MANNERS TO REPLY TO OUR MESSAGE EXCHANGE PURSUANT TO OUR CONVERSATION......
BYPASS MY PROFILE...DO NOT SEND ME A MESSAGE!
submission is a gift and once given it must be cherished and nutured. join with me and be secure and protected,
I' have a Dominant side but also a caring side. I am chivalrous, honorable, loyal, and very protective of those I care about..Im a true friend and look for the same,
I have to stress the most important quality in the person I am seeking is honesty...I know everyone says they're honest but true honesty is a rarity...
I am glad that you understand it from a more personal level rather than just a bunch of words
There are then to myriad branches that are the individual needs and wants from this life that include S M
Pain is an interesting feeling The mind can not reproduce it or dream it or make it happen all over again
It must always be reapplied
And pain can be so forceful and powerful an agent to achieve a state you want to be in
Some need pain in an attempt to satisfy some deep emotional need
Some see pain as a necessary punishment
Some see pain as a meaningful gift to the sadist
Some see pain as a driver to orgasm greater than any pleasure
Some need the after affects like the marks and bruise and show them off or feel them with their fingertips when alone remembering
But pain drives and often drives harshly at pushing stressful feelings out of your being for a while As one woman said, it is so wonderful to have someone else do all the driving for a change
Stress is every where in your life and often unseen or not noticed due to all the other fluff and distractions going on
You wonder why you feel so bad It is often due to stress and yes you could smoke or drink or do drugs or go to a gangbang at a truckstop parking lot and find some relief
All are painful in their own way
ANd perhaps for a while the stress is removed
But none answer the need to please another that is important to you so you should be like the little frog and look before you leap
Your thoughts are indeed right on the money
You do need to be owned and that is a mouthful of sweeping conditions
Being loved and being cared for and kept safe and looked after and having emotional and physical needs satisfied are not always the same thing
A slave is often not loved as a lover else she is just not a slave
A slave can really deeply love her owner if that owner always answer her needs and controls her wild wants so she knows her place
I can be strict and at times very abusive and I can read you the riot act and enforce it physically and emotionally until you learn where the lines in the road are and you stay in them
But
As an owner I would care for you as I would a loyal pet which is consistently trained and not kicked around just for hatreds sake
So many people can care for a pet so much more deeply for years than they can for a person that does not know their place
And the reason is simple
Most pets will not challenge the authority that owns them and always submits to it because
They need it
And so do you One of the advantages of being older is that you learn what is realistic for a lifestyle and what isn't - what exists only in the realm of fantasy. The various profiles you read of "...wanting to be locked in a dungeon 24/7..." just aren't realistic.But… when you make someone whom (or what) they have always dreamed of being, it’s an emotional experience for both of you, almost intoxicating. So how can you make this work?
In my arena of the lifestyle - transforming someone into a rubber or rubber doll 24/7 isn't realistic.
You can however try and set up your lifestyle so that the experience feels like 24/7. The following works for a latex lifestyle:
I would come home from work and go into a spare room and change into rubber. My slave would already be waiting for me in another room, hooded. The first time I saw her after work she would be hooded. The first time she saw me after I got home, I too would also be hooded.The next day, before I left for work, I would change into work clothes without her seeing me. That way, we went several days without seeing each others faces, only hooded. For two people who found being around other humans awkward, this truly was a moment of emotional freedom.
I have tried this and it worked (wonderfully!), up to a point. But that topic - when things didn’t work out perfectly - is the subject for another post. Tonight I took my wife to her Master's house. We often stay overnight and weekends at his home as he lives alone. My lovely wife as occasionally stayed with him on her own.
Tonight we had arranged that she would spend the night with him on her own.
I find this so erotic and I have a hard on pretty much the whole time she is away.
Tonight he had arranged a special treat for us. He wanted her to stay over night and told me that he had a special friend who would be also staying with them.
He knew that I would be extremely excited as we had spoken about this previously.
When we arrived his friend was already there. He introduced him over a glass of wine although I chose coffee because I had to drive home.
After a some banter and laughs her Master decided to get the proceedings going and ordered my wife to take her clothes off. She was told to give each item of clothing to me and I had the job of folding her clothes up and putting them into a bag. It was very horny watching her undress in front of two men. I knew Master had seen my wife naked many times but watching his friend stareing at her was a real turn on for me as I'm sure it was for him too.
As she stood there looking gorgeous in just her bra and knickers I almost cum as Master told her to remove everything to the delight of his friend who had not said a word up till now.
He watched with a smile on his face as she obeyed her Master an unhooked her bra handing it to me before removing her panties. He told her to put her hands on her head and stand directly in front of his friend. "What do think of her"? he asked him "Beautiful" he replied, "absolutely beautiful and very compliant" "I told you" said Master. "You have my permission to touch her" he said knowing that him giving another man permission to touch my wife would humiliate me further.. Don't worry about her husband" he saoid, I am her Master and she answers only to me, she is my submissive slave" he explained. Deliberately humiliating me he told me it was time for me to leave. He told me to take the bag with all her clothes in it with me as she wont be needing them.
He said he would call me to return with them once they had finished with her.
I don't know how I managed to drive home. All I could think about was my wife alone and vulnerable and stark naked with two men. I rarely make the first move.
I won't chase your submission.
If you would like to be considered to serve me, speak up. Tell me explicitly, because I don't respond to subtlety. Humor is a very, very important part of our life. It's not just laughing at a joke, it's an attitude towards life. And as the world gets crazier, it's more important to laugh at it. It's a survival technigue...
I could not agree more with the words from Bob Newhart...
What I want...(I did not write this but it rings true for me).
I want flowers.
I want to whip you.
I want to stroke your cheek and smile into your eyes.
I want respect and awe and understanding and love.
I want foot rubs and leg rubs and back rubs and anywhere rubs.
I want you to know when to reach out to touch and when to kneel and wait.
I want you to want me fiercely, desire me utterly.
I want kisses. Little ones, fast ones, fierce ones, thigh-clenching-good kisses.
I want you to touch me like you’re trying to memorize the texture and shape of me.
I want affection and cuddling.
I want you to drop your eyes when I demand and meet my eyes when we talk.
I want you to miss me terribly when we’re apart.
I want you to know what you mean to me, how I cherish you.
I want humor and debate and dialog.
I want you to kiss the side of my neck while your hands grip my hips, my back.
I want to see you crawl – just for me.
I want to look at you in that special way and see you breathe deeply with desire and anticipation of what you know is to come.
I want to fuck you, penetrate you, tease you, deny you, please you, torture you.
I want....
You. What I desire from a D/s relationship
First, I have a nesting partner. Our relationship is totally separate from what I seek, but it would be equally important to me and you must be willing to accept that I am poly, but very demisexual.
With that being said, I want 2 separate households that I will go between equally. The one I currently have and Mistress's household, 24/7, D/s, kinky household with some vanilla elements incorporated. I want a second household within 15-20 minutes of downtown Parkersburg, WV, very private, complete with dungeon, medical room, sensual play space and outdoor play areas. I envision this home to be a place to host munches/events/small parties but also very private with a vanilla facade. I would like 2-5 acres and a big sound house/farmhouse to remodel to suit my needs. This will not be immediate and a rental situation will be necessary initially with the intention of find and establishing a permanent kink home.
I prefer a sub leaning slave but I am not seeking a sub/slave that only wants 24/7 chastity. I enjoy edging, ruined orgasms, forced masterbation, post orgasm torture, etc. I am extremely sexual and want to use my submissive sexually always under my control.
I am actually fairly flexible as how I want my household structure. I am equally fond of the following in no specific order:
A 1950's household
A Mommy/little or middle, but I'm not into diapers, breastfeeding (I'm almost 59 and milk hasn't filled these titties in years 🙄) cribs or high chairs. However, playing with toys, structured bedtimes, structure and a firm hand, kids movies, playing at the park, amusement parks, stuffies and all things child-like I'm very open to. But I would want a sexual little/middle.
A sissy submissive but understand I will NEVER use humiliation or degradation as it relates to being feminized. Any speech or play surrounding the theme that women are weak, pathetic, powerless, less than, etc. will NEVER be used! It is a privilege for me to show you the beautiful world of women and I will not tolerate this type of play. If you wish to escape your traditional alpha male role to explore your feminine side and want to walk in my shoes for a bit, that I will definitely do. I would love more males to understand how wonderful and freeing it is to be female. If you crave humiliation and degradation there are so many other ways of accomplishing this without degrading myself and women in general.
A true slave with all the discipline and intensity as outlined in Ingrid Bellamare's book Owning and Training a Male Slave, however, as I've stated before, I will remove your cage to use you as I desire sexually and put back you back in chastity when I'm not using you.
Also know, I have a good income but I am not independently wealthy by any means and I will not support you financially. You will need some source of income. If you work remotely from home or outside the home, second or third shift would be ideal. I would also consider a porn-based subion service as means of earning your keep.
Finally, I want an optimistic, positive, drama free and happy individual who also will accompany me on trips, attend conferences and kink events, and engage in "vanilla" activities as well. I am a whole person and want you to be as well. Denn meine Liebe ist Gift für dich
Heilung gibt es leider nicht
Meine Liebe und du zerbrichst
Meine Liebe ist Gift
Meine Liebe ist Gift Yes, I know I have been quiet and a bit of a recluse. There is a huge reason. I have finally focused long enough to start a project that has been on my mind for about 20 years. I have started writing a novel series that can be found on amazon. Just search Always Manor. So far there is one prelude (goal is a total of 5). There will also be probably about 5 main volumes to the book series. It has been so much fun to sit down and let the words flow and bring life to this story that has been begging to be told. Hello
Looking to meet ladies for some fun chats, meets, photography and various play games.
Also just chatting if that's what you want.
More information on request.
Preferably around North London, Essex, Herts area.
Thanks for reading my journal. I'd like to thank Master Thatch from Michigan for His very insightful comments on the issue of Ownership which I found very reassuring! Thank you Sir!
"My last boy was owned We both live in the United States He lived in Ohio I live in Michigan We had a long distance Master and slave relationship Its possible You dont have to be a live in to be owned Now Im not saying that Master is wrong Every Master has their own ideals and definitions so theirs may be live in slaves are owned So that would indeed make them right but my definition of owned is when a boy has kneeled and pleaded their mind, body and soul to me and I have placed a collar around their neck and we are intertwined in a relationship Distance isnt an issue And Im not into live in slavery
The relationship is monogamous, the boy is owned by only one Master and has only one Dom and that is me However that boy was leased out to other Doms from time to time" She would probably have bent over the padded bench if he had told her too, but he had lifted her easily and firmly pushed her over it. If asked she would have reached forward and held the legs before he had secured her wrists to them. Likewise she might have spread her feet wide, but there was no choice given at all, and she was helpless.
She would not have tied her hair in a ponytail but she was in no position to resist, or to stop him tightening the strap over her lower back that forced so wanton a display of her buttocks. He had bared her nipples by removing her bra with a knife.
She was denied the modesty of her skirt when he tucked it up in the waistband. The tie sided panties were soon pressed into her mouth which he had been made it available by attaching her hair to the waist strap, forcing her head back so affording her only a forward view.
She was now displayed, securely bound and completely available.
A familiar sound made her wonder if his intention was to use or discipline her. He had a crop in a Velcro sealed case, it wasn’t often she regretted her music playing however it concealed enough of the sound to make her unsure, was it the crop case opening, or was it his trouser zip?
She involuntarily clenched her buttocks, this served to pucker her anus, almost inviting him to use her there. – she suddenly wondered if could serve to distract him?.. Then wondered again if he actually intended to beat her? Moments prior to her restraint he had demanded her tongue, ‘Good girl ‘he had murmured into her mouth before his hand descended and found her becoming aroused.
She heard his step on the wooden floor; her curiosity would soon be resolved. I’m just venting.. but for some reason today is just one of those days I miss having an actual Daddy Dom. Maybe I’m weird but I miss rules and structure. It has made me think a lot about my last Dom and missing him. We still talk sometimes but it’s not like that. We just care about each other. But I just have this void in my heart. I love my husband but nothing about my bond, connection and relationship with him is the same as a D/s dynamic. I don’t just miss the sexual aspect of it, I miss all of it. look, you want me to be interested in you? here are a few pro tips.
1. actually read my profile.
2. you misgender me, it's done. do not collect go, do not collect two hundred dollars.
3. no, I will not call you sir. I do not know you and you have not earned it.
4. you must have experience with littles. no I'm not a slave. stop trying to treat me like one.
5. making demands right off the bat is just going to get you laughed at.
6. if you are 50 or older, you're too old for me. stop fucking messaging me as if you're going to be the magical exception.
thanks for coming to my TED talk. I am looking for a sissy maid live in 24/7 tpe.
Please note although it's a tpe let's not get us in trouble or even flirt with the law.
No children!!! It's sad I am even having to put this on here!!!
Dominants and submissives are complicated, but each is different. Expectations will vary as each searches for acceptance. If you do not understand, then you are not there yet.
people are always asking what my kink or my fantasy is
I want a who enjoy the play as much as I do. one who not afraid to use a girl for the same needs she has as well. one who can Master himself but also Master her, omg he a shadow daddy! I want a Master who would take my big alien dildo and shoved it up my cunt or mak me wear a plug in my ass. then leave me there plug all day while he does his own thing. sometimes he uses me, sometimes he play with me and sometimes he leaves me to my own to get lost in my service to him in my mind.
I want to be his play thing so I can be his captive slave girl who he use as his play thing and doll. dress up in his leather,rope and may other things!
those who want to put me in leather and rope, stuff my cunt with a dildo and make me ride it and orgasm for hours
and
these who want to hook my nipples to a milking machine and make me ride a dildo till Im a puddle
get moved to the front of the line
I like these creators and want to recreate this with you - they all on fetlife
_Inquisition_
deargreyh0und
_TheDollMaker_
The_Woodsman_
GreedyGod
I honestly have little interest in your unless you take the time to go look at these creators pictures and videos. I know what I want and how I want it and I need that 24/7.
When she's abandoned her moral center and teachings...when she's cast aside her facade of propriety and lady-like demeanor...when I have so corrupted this fragile thing and brought out a writhing, mewling, bucking, wanton whore for my enjoyment and pleasure.....enticing from within this feral lioness...growling and scratching and biting...taking everything I dish out to her.....at that moment she is never more beautiful to me. ”Marquis de Sade "If they like you, you'll know. If they don't, you'll be confused." -Mel Robbins
Yep. Confusion. It would be helpful if he was a dick, but he's not. He's a good person. Part of me is scared to lose him for very selfish reasons. There are always men, there will always be men. But I trusted this one. I felt safe. And superficially, he is very handy around the house. That is of extra benefit since I've got anxiety about service people and needing work done, etc. Losing him worries my head, not my heart. Grown up stuff, the things I'm afraid of. But dammit, I'm the one who broke it off and I did it for a reason. That reason still exists. I need to toughen up and let him go.
Don't do this to people. Don't let people do this to you. i stay stresssed out and depressed all the time anymore its hard for me to think its hard for me finding someone to be in my life when your family mistreats you your thinking pattern gets off of what you was going to do with screaming and yelling at me all the time it never fails i speak i get jumped on for breathing or moving 16 years of there mouths and mentally i really take much more it's killing me mental im already dead on the inside but idiots doesn't care about me my feelings or my needs they dont care if i die anyways they tell me to kll myself nobody wants your stupid ass anyways fucking whore your nothing but a worthless piece of ass nobody wants ... and one cop in my hometown october said your ruthless piece of ass nobody wants when i was living at the apartment i was at so i stopped socializing i stop going to the store i busted my phone so i wouldn't have to deal with stupid ass bullies and i am at my breaking point and my landlord would let who ever in my aprtment because in august i was watching tv an smoked a joint before i went to bed an took my mucsle relaxer and then who ever had a key to my apartment did something because i was stiff an couldn't move and woke up next morning couldn't hardly move my right arm the second night they molsted me in my sleep and i can't walk for a week... they grab my right foot that is how i knew an i checked my self and i got pissed off them letting people in my apartment landlord was a jealous jesus christ freak that almost got me raped... i have no trust left with anybody at this point because when i do they abuse me The Power of Tarot
I always consult the Tarot before getting serious. TWO of my decks refused to read a sub. Read two other subs and the Hang Man reversed showed up. Waste of time. So yeah
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Fair WARNING
I WILL NOT deal with FAKES/or time wasters at all. The first time anything isn’t done the correct way I will block you immediately.
Everyone’s time is precious DONT WASTE MINE. As my time is EXTREMELY VALUABLE! I want what I want and WILL NOT SETTLE FOR A IDIOT THAT CANT COMPLETE A SIMPLE TASK.
#FrustratedGoddess What a productive and enjoyable Sunday was! I woke up early, feeling energized and ready to tackle the day's errands. After having a light breakfast of yogurt and granola, I got started on my to-do list.
First on the agenda was laundry. I gathered up all the clothes and linens and separated them by color, ensuring that everything was properly sorted. I then loaded the washing machine, added detergent, and set the appropriate cycle. While waiting for the laundry to finish, I tidied up the living room and the kitchen, making sure everything was neat and organized.
Once the laundry was done, I hung the clothes outside to dry in the fresh air and sunshine. There's just something so wonderful about the smell of sun-dried laundry! 🌞
Next, it was time for grocery shopping. I grabbed my reusable shopping bags and headed to the local market. I picked up fresh fruits and vegetables, along with some staples like rice, lentils, and spices. I also treated myself to a beautiful bouquet of flowers to brighten up our home.
Upon returning from the market, I spent some time prepping and cooking meals for the week. Today, I made a delicious chickpea curry, a hearty vegetable stir-fry, and a scrumptious quinoa salad. I always feel so accomplished when I have nutritious meals ready to go for the upcoming week.
After finishing up in the kitchen, I decided it was time for some much-needed girly time at the salon. I booked an appointment for a manicure, pedicure, and a deep conditioning hair treatment. The salon staff were so friendly, and I had a great time chatting with them while they pampered me. I chose a lovely pastel pink for my nails, perfect for the spring season. 💅🌸
Message to a User about Tonight 3/25/2020 I actually had a pretty good time tonight with the Divorced Dad. We chatted & caught up with each other. About the kids and he finally met someone whose he been dating for a month. Still new and casual but he thinks it's going to lead somewhere. I updated him about my life & school and such. We went to his bedroom and he was naked in a flash and laid back on his bed. I went for it. He has and upward curve so taking it down all the way facing him isn't possible so I went to his side and spread my legs and let him play with my ass as I went down. I got his balls deep in my nose and he loved grabbing my head and pushing me as hard as he could and thrusting upward. I started licking his balls and lapping up and down his cock before I moved southward towards his taint then his ass. He flipped over and I gave him a great rim job for quite some time. He then flipped over and I rode his cock. I have really built thighs and great at riding up and down and doing a lot of the saddle work. He surprised me by grabbing my hips and jack ramming me (He's very muscular) We then did reverse saddle then doggy all in the same me back into him twirling back into him and him thrusting deeper. Laying his body onto mine and pumping hard and speeding up his tempo. We ended with my head over the bed and him fucking me deeply. I did gag a bit. Disappointed in that but he did cum all the way down my throat with his balls at the base of my mouth. We both laughed afterwards and chatted some more. We have stayed friends even when we didn't sleep together and I have an odd habit of sucking a cock & making weird casual yet intimate relationships where I know about what's going on and things. He said he likes how genuine I am and likes that I'm doing well with school & work and that made my night since we haven't seen each other in a while and he sees that things are going well. (I don't see sucking cocks as a detrimental thing lol)
At Their feet…
…a place to kneel in devotion
…a place to listen attentively
…a place to adore Their mind
…a place to worship Their body
…a place to understand a lesson
…a place to feel home
…a place for so much more
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