kittykat33

Possibly not quite "journal"-worthy material...

• I own eleventy three nail polishes, but am completely incapable of applying them properly - it's the fingertips too, or nothing
• I loathe my body; being naked Is. The. Worst.
• I kinda like being embarrassed though, so it's not all doom and gloom...
• The only sport I will watch willingly is curling (and I'm extra excited when cats get involved)
• Not really sure I could kiss anyone who actually likes leeks. Maybe if you brush your teeth first. Maybe.
• I tend to overestimate the amount of time I have to get shit done. Plus. Procrastination.
• "Bits" in yoghurt are just plain wrong, as is coffee-served-in-a-glass; ffs, what's wrong with you people?
• I was seriously squicked by episode 9 of Girls, but I still use q-Tips o.O
• I am a Pinterest failure
• I'm the clumsiest person I know and my thumbs are not technology-friendly
• I get trolley rage. And pedestrian rage. Stop. Gathering. In. Doorways!
• Your logic has no place anywhere near my outrage. Sorry.
• I loathe my voice
• ... and my feet
• I have "water anxiety" - my water bottle must be nearby at all times. *Or*... I'll get thirsty I guess :/
• I'm beyond horrified at the thought of something crawling into my ear (either one, I'm not picky). 
• I'm terrible at board games, but if I don't win it's because YOU cheated  -_-
• I get extreme food envy - to the extent I will move towards the back of the queue, so I can copy your order
• I hate the seams in my socks to be crooked; my toes get creeped out
• I laugh at the pompous
• I love being complimented on my outfit and I will tell you how much it cost and where I got it in the next breath
• I tell most people (who don't run quickly) about my grand plan for egg scrunching - minus the cleanup
• I am "happy" to wait out the last bit of moisturiser in the bottle - time and gravity will defeat you in the end you slimy fucker
• I adore designing psychometric tools that are both ethically and empirically questionable… Let me classify YOU! (just pm me and I'll pass judgement)
• I cannot cut in a straight line - as a result my wrapping paper to present ratio is seriously fucked

A Quick Disclaimer: 

I don't exactly "love" some of the things I claim to enjoy, like corner-time for instance (which is dread... mostly)

Corner-time is one of the things that seems particularly effective in explicitly reminding me someone else is in-charge, which weakens my knees. (Un)fortunately (for me), I also find it deeply humiliating, but *this* side-effect means it is something that gives me "the feels" too. Just 'being reminded' such things are even a possibility is enough to get a reaction from me - for a while at least

So, it's not something I 100% *want*... I mean, I'd rather just be "into" stuff that I don't find quite so humiliating and that don't leave me unable to respond with a witty retort (or sometimes with Any Words At All). But things that don't embarrass me and don't trigger the push-pull (aka 'my' version of a panic-boner) don't seem to have quite the same effect

It's total agony; to crave the things I dread, but it's also where I find my bliss

So, I guess my attraction to the very things that especially give me "the feels" is a bit more nuanced than can be conveyed by:  X = a thing I "love", but CS doesn't have a 'push-pull'/'nutcase-option', as far as I'm aware...

And though I realise the site might break as a consequence, I still wish it were possible to both love-AND-hate a single fetish, b/c that how us contradictory people tend to operate (unless I am truly an outlier-amongst-outliers, in which case... *nothing to see here* o.O)

 Anyway. 

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