dancesonstarlight

Aaaand I've got COVID. Kinda knew this wasn't just a cold or flu. 

Fluids and rest for me, and hopefully it makes its exit soon. 

Unavailable until I'm well again. 

I'm sick. Again. 

Mostly been asleep for the past few days. 

I don't see that changing anytime soon. 

i can't sleep again. Insomnia has been kicking my ass all year. Me and steroids just don't mix but it's necessary, so I basically don't sleep restfully or much at all. I'm exhausted. I've noticed Sir has been incredibly understanding when I've said goodnight and attempted sleep only to find myself restless and wide awake and so I grab my phone to doom scroll. He's usually asleep but will sometimes text me if he sees I'm online or senses I'm awake. Sometimes I'll text him that I can't sleep and he will see it when he sees it. I'm always afraid of waking him though so lately I haven't text him when I can't sleep. 

Tonight is no different, I'm exhausted yet can't sleep. All I really want is to be in his arms, to rest, to feel at home, to feel safe again. 

Why on earth would you post a photo of YOUR HOUSE on here?! RIP to your safety I guess. 

I honestly hate the holidays this year. 

I don't have my kiddo with me. We switched to spring and summer breaks for her visits

I don't have my dad with me. He's been gone a couple of years, this being the second holiday season without him.

And it's been awhile since I've seen my Sir. 

I just really really need a Sir hug from my Sir. 

Gonna make the most of it though. 

im here to chat with those who can be respectful of boundaries and to my already established dynamic with my Sir. I love making new friends, and eventually want to make friends with people who want to hang out in person but that won't be until far down the line and pending my Sir's approval. 

It should be noted that I live with my queer platonic partner (allyriacelene) as well as with spankey (his username on here), plus our 5 cats currently. I plan to move in with my Sir at some point. I had hoped it would be this year but life happened and so that didn't. This was beyond either of our control. Shit happens.

Anyway, I'm not meeting anyone off of here, by myself. I play it safe and don't take those kinds of risks. You will be vetted first, before I meet you. And you must be vaccinated against COVID and the flu. I'm immunocompromised and have adrenal insufficiency and therefore can't risk catching anything as it could literally kill me. If you're under the weather and we have plans, cancel them. Anything else will be viewed as a breach of trust and a breaking of boundaries. But again, meeting won't happen anytime soon after we begin to chat. 

And doms and switches STILL have to message my Sir (Bakayashu on here) BEFORE messaging me, or you will be blocked without a response. 

Not seeking another to own me, I'm already owned. Not seeking any kind of romantic or sexual relationship either. ONLY PLATONIC FRIENDSHIPS! I'm quite happy with what I have currently. Thank you. 

Dont message me demanding a single thing from me. I serve ONE Owner. Only HE can make demands of me. I will NOT share photos privately with anyone, unless HE tells me to. And really, he shows me off himself so I honestly don't need to. I have photos up. You don't need anymore than that. This doesn't make me fake. It means I abide by my Owners rules, regardless of what you may want or prefer. I do not have to prove myself to you, your opinion of me does not matter. The only opinion that matters in this scenario, is Bakayashu's. NOT YOURS. Not even mine. HIS. I am owned and collared, fucking respect that or be blocked. I don't care if you are intrigued. That's kind of stale anyway unless you tell what exactly intrigued you. Which you won't, because you likely just viewed my photos and didn't actually read my profile. If you had, you wouldn't have messaged me seeking to make demands of me, you would know there was no point in doing so. So, fuck off if you can't read my profile and respect what it states.

your toy collection will never impress me.

Your mind, how you treat others and animals, and how you carry yourself might if you're a decent person. 

Me viewing your profile isn't permission to break my boundary outlined at the beginning of my profile about me. It'll just get you blocked. 

When I first began talking to my Sir, I was at a point in my life where I was still part of the lifestyle but I didn't see myself being owned ever again, and I had gotten to a place where I was okay with that. Then I came across his profile. At the time I was so easily intimidated by those who exuded a strong presence and even through his words on my screen, I hesitated to swipe right. He looked strong and sure and steadfast, and I felt entirely too insignificant to be noticed. But still, I was drawn to him, like there was a thread behind my belly button that lead to him and it just pulled me towards him. Like the stars quietly shone brighter, the moon smiling her approval, this attraction pulling me and my thoughts to his words, his aura, and finally I swiped right. We began talking at a time where I was going through multiple surgeries due to gallstones. The way he made me feel, not just accepted and seen or heard, but like I was supposed to meet him. It wasn't long before I offered my submission. It just felt right and natural. I still get butterflies, I still get giddy, when he's coming over. When his text tone alerts me that he's sent a reply, I smile and eagerly look at his message. I have only felt like this for someone one other time in my life, and that was for my first love with whom I shared a lot of firsts with. That wasn't a D/s relationship, it was vanilla, but he was my first soulmate, a puppy love that grew into true love and I was absolutely devastated when I lost him. Now, I'm reminded of how I felt back then. Happy, seen, heard, loved, meant to be, belonging. I feel home when with my Sir. Whole. Happy. It's where I belong, truly. I only wish that it hadn't taken so long for me to meet him. 

i didn't realize how much anxiety I have around this election, until I woke up a little while ago, gasping for breath and my chest hurting. I texted my Sir letting him know, and also took some anxiety meds, but we will see if I can get back to sleep. I might be up for the day, though. 

my Sir is so handsome and sexy.

That's it. That's the entry.

Sir is well on his way back out of state. I'm not sure when he'll be back as he has something important to handle. But I wanted to document some growth I've made. But some background first. 

I have pretty randomized memory issues. I forget things frequently and it really takes a lot of repetition before I seem to remember anything. This tends to get me into trouble and makes it hard for me to learn the lessons my Sir is trying to teach me. I have even forgotten some of my rules he's laid out to me. I now write that kind of stuff down so it is easier to remember. 

The last time I screwed up and got into trouble was a doozy. He was so angry and disappointed with me that it was agonizing to endure. 

Recently, though, I showed some growth and handled things a lot better. Better yet, I was able to avoid getting into trouble! This lesson is finally sticking and I'm so damn happy about that. Sir even acknowledged that I handled it better and correctly! 

Sure I wish things were easier for me to learn, but having a faulty memory makes that difficult. I am just happy that it is finally sticking and that I'm making some strides forward. That is the important part. 

I feel this needs to be said. I have Christianity listed as a hard limit because it doesn't align with my own beliefs. However, I have close friends who are Christians and have had partners who were as well. As long as you're not the judgemental, cherry picking, hypocritical type of Christian, I don't mind people in my circle being Christian. Just please don't ever shove it down my throat or try to convert me. I grew up Lutheran and into my early teen years was pretty serious about it. I turned away because I found just was reciting what I'd been told and didn't actually believe in any of it which made ME the hypocrite. I then set out to figure out what I do believe in. I spent a decade exploring various paths and after discussing with one of my aunts extensively, landed on paganism by way of wicca. And while I don't actively practice witchcraft, I do hold close the basic tenets of wicca. My favorite motto that I try to live by is do no harm but take no shit. 

considering taking my photos down since that's all the so called dominants on here look at. Nobody bothers to read my profile because if they did, they'd know not to message me without messaging my Sir first and they'd also know that I am owned. Yes the many are ruining it for the few. I'm tired of being disrespected and tired of having my dynamic with my Sir disrespected. 

i post more on FetLife, and am usually on there throughout the day whereas I'm off and on here and go long periods of time not checking this place anymore. Username there is starlightdancer but most photos are set to friends only there. D types and switches there also have to message Sir before messaging me. Same boundary applies, same rule for me to follow. If you don't message him first, you'll just get blocked and deleted. 

My Sir treats me amazingly. He definitely has high standards and expects growth and owning your fuck ups, but he is the most patient person I know. He's a great teacher. He listens. He supports me through some of my hardest days. I'm very proud to be his. I couldn't ask for anyone better to own me. That person just doesn't exist. It's why I find it so hilarious when others try to tell me to leave him. That will never happen. Why would I walk away from someone who has shown what a healthy fulfilling dynamic should look and feel like? Why would I walk away from someone who treats me so well and has never once lied to me? Who spent more than a year showing me he didn't want me for just my body and holes, but for all of me, unlike literally every one of my past owners. That first year? He never laid a hand on me much less fucked me. It confused me so much at first. I wanted him to claim me as his in every single way but he held off to show me that he'd still stick around because I was worth more than holes ever could be. That he valued me as a person first. He has always pushed me to be the best version of myself, to grow, to learn, and to stand tall and proud of who I am and who I'm becoming. He doesn't just want that for himself or his benefit either. He wants me better for me too. And this, this is why I love him and serve him, this is why every part of me is his. And you're damned right we plan on our forever. 

"I am not writing to disrespect your master."

...and yet, by messaging me without his okay, is doing just that. It's also disrespecting me as I'm the one that asked for that boundary to be put in place. It is the first sign on whether or not someone will respect a simple boundary. You failed. Now you are blocked, reported as spam, and deleted. Congratulations on being a walking contradiction, I guess. 

i wish people would just message my Sir first before messaging me because I really do want to chat with people but if you can't respect that simple boundary, what else won't you respect? That's not a risk I'm willing to take... But it sucks nonetheless. Also, this only goes for left side of the slash people and switches, right side of the slash people can message me first without messaging him first. He knows either way, though, because I tell him. So, if you're a left side of the slash person and you messaged me first and got no reply, this is why. 

I do not appreciate unsolicited advice. You get glimpses into my dynamic and that's it. You do not know the whole of it. 

I can't reply to you directly, but please know that i know i am worthy of my Sir's time and efforts or he wouldn't have made me his to begin with. Stop assuming you know what goes on in my mind, you do not. He however does because I tell him everything. I only share snippets here. 

Anyway, Sir seems much less angry with me, and that's a relief. We came up with a way to help me remember things more easily and so I have been working on that. See, I really do have a horrible memory. I forget a lot. Frequently. So, I've begun to write everything down. Rules. Our agreements. Punishments. Everything. All of the important things I should be remembering, gets written down now. We figured out that had I remembered something he told me, I would've probably never gotten myself into trouble to begin with. So, this is the solution. I still have a lot to answer for, but I am hoping once I do, I can start making him proud again. 

I miss him, but I know he is handling more important things and needs to focus his attention primarily where he is. I still get to text with him everyday, and he calls me so I don't miss my early morning meds every morning since I don't hear alarms that early. I'm very grateful to him for that. 

I need to be more diligent about not getting lost in my head so much. I'm so grateful he's so patient with me. 

if you think Alpha males are a thing, please take your delusional Kool aid drinking self elsewhere. 

He's not going anywhere. He reassured me of that. I do not know why I thought he wouldn't or why I let my brain make me fear that. He's told me plenty of times only I could end things by removing myself from his service and well that'll never happen because I don't want to do that. Even when I'm upset with him or when he's upset and angry with me, I want nothing more than than to be in his presence. He's been more talkative since he had to calm me over the phone. More playful? Definitely in a mood to use a serrated bread knife on me, according to him. I just have to learn that it is okay to let go and bend myself to him. Most of the time I do pretty well with that. But when I'm upset or misunderstand what he means cuz he and I don't use some words the same way, I need to remind myself of that. If I'm feeling unheard I need to express that better and more calmly. If I'm struggling with something and need reassurance or help through it, I need to voice that and choose my words more carefully so that there's no room for misunderstanding. And, when he tells me to do something, even if I'm angry and upset, I need to just shut my mouth and do as told. And I need to watch my mouth definitely cuz I can get worked up easily and I know deep down, even in those moments, that he just wants me to succeed and grow and learn. I swear it'd be easier if I was with him all the time. Here I have a lot of stressors that cause me to become depressed and when I'm depressed I dont have the energy for much, and this time, I let that come between us. My depression hasn't lifted, but I do finally understand where he's coming from. And knowing he's not going anywhere makes me extremely happy. 

I will do better. Because he's worth it and deserves it. 

He is my home. My safe space. My calm in the storms. He's proved that repeatedly over the years. I just really wish I could have one big Sir hug currently, though. I desperately need it. 

am really starting to wonder if I'm cut out for this anymore. His anger and disappointment with me is absolutely breaking me. It's been over a month since I've caused this and there's no end to his anger or disappointment in sight. I decided to just give him space because it seems anything I say or do just pisses him off further. I just miss him, his presence, his touch, his smile and I feel so fucking lost and ashamed of myself. 

He wants me to be logical when speaking with him but I am an emotionally sensitive person and neurodivergant so I don't always understand what being logical looks like. He keeps trying to teach me the same lessons over and over again and for some increasingly frustrating reason, they're not sticking. I seem to make some growth, and then something he says or how he words it just triggers me and I meltdown. I don't understand what's wrong with me. I don' know how to fix this. I have cried every single day for over a month. I have held his collar in my hands and just sobbed for hours at a time. I keep trying to show him how sorry I am, but he either doesn't or won't see it. I tried to talk to him about something that had been bothering me and fueling an insecurity, and somehow it escalated into another argument and so now he's even more pissed at me. 

It feels like ever since he accepted me as his slave for my birthday, he's become... Hard. Hard to please, hard to understand, harder to relate to, harder to laugh with, just hard. I almost wish I could go back to being to him what I was before I became his slave. Almost. But somehow I think if I gave up on being his slave, that would disappoint him further and I don't want that either. I don't know what to do. He told me if he saw me right now he would hurt me. I took that as more than he would mean to hurt me. But honestly? I wish he would. I wish he would just get it all out of his system using my flesh if it would make him feel better. If it would just allow him to want to work with me to fix this. We need to get back on the same page but I feel like he's chapters ahead of me and I don't know how to catch up. 

Because this, this is fucking agony. 

I am starting to hate myself for causing all of this. 

And no I don't want anyone's sympathy, I don't deserve it. I have been a horrible slave. His anger is justified as is his disappointment.

All I can do is wait until he gets back from his trip and hopefully when he comes back, that he's less angry with me. I will give him space until he's back. I asked him to let me know when he got back. I'm not sure if he will or not and I have no idea how long he'll be gone. I didn't even know until today that he was going on a trip. I tried to do something to try to show him how genuinely sorry I am, and told him where he could look to see it or if it's be easier for me to take screenshots instead but he told me he rightly doesn't give a fuck at the moment. So it definitely seems like he just needs space. 

Edit to add, he set aside his anger and disappointment last night and helped me through a very difficult to me moment. It meant a lot to me and I am so very grateful to him for that. Also, before helped me, I came to the realization of why I'm struggling so much in my role as slave and it has nothing to do with him. He is amazing to and for me. He has never lied to me or let me down and he is always there for me when I need him. He has high standards and expectations yes, and he can be very unyielding at times and strict and firm as fuck, but he is truly the only Owner for me. I will work more on myself so that I can be and do better as his slave. I will share with him why I'm struggling when he gets back from his trip because I'm sure that once he knows, we can get me past it. 

You aren't going to get a response by crossing my boundary.

That boundary being MESSAGE MY SIR FIRST! His username is in my about me as is the boundary. Bakayashu is his username here. 

And to the one who asks in his about me which 20th century French painter his profile pic emulates if a floating green apple and bowler hat we're added? Renè Magritte. And he isn't French, he's Belgian. And no I didn't google it. I can't reply to you because you didn't actually read my profile and or you did and just chose to cross the boundary stated in it and ignore the fact that I am owned and not looking for a Dom. Either way, not a good look. I now have to block you, as per my rules from my Owner. Such a shame, as I was sure you would've been interesting to talk to. 

please read my about me. Don't just look at my photos and interests. 

If I set you as a favorite, yes it means I would like to chat but if you're a D type you MUST message my Sir first. I'm not allowed to respond or reach out to D types first or even respond unless my Sir tells me you've messaged him and got his okay... This protocol is at my own request as it does cut down on those who would trample boundaries. After all, if you can't respect that one simple boundary... What other boundaries will you have no problem crossing? Also, I am his. It is up to him who can and cannot speak to me (especially if a person is toxic and unhealthy for me) and I trust him enough to know he will never isolate me, only protect me from people who can't respect a damn boundary. 

So, if you wish to talk with me here... Please message me Sir, Bakayashu, FIRST. 

Thank you,

kat

i enjoy reading profiles and journals here. It is often extremely entertaining. And sometimes, just sometimes, I find someone interesting and down to earth. Usually though, it's just entertaining. Yawn.

I only have eyes for one Dom and that's my Sir. 

I've been in a funk this past week, but reminding myself who I belong to has nudged me forward. The storms won't last, they just suck while they're raging is all. I just have to keep pushing through until they subside. 

i can't sleep, again. Insomnia sucks. Being on meds that make that insomnia worse, sucks even more. 

The issues with the profile finally got fixed, so I'm back around again. 

My profile got hidden and now I can't unhide it. And when I go to edit profile, it logs me into someone else's profile. I can't make a new profile either, as it does the same thing for create profile. This is frustrating. Oh well, it was nice while it lasted. Guess I will just go browse fetlife. Because collarspace has gone down the drain, and Submit is barley off the ground but has all the toxicity from FetLife. 

I'm so glad I belong to my Sir.

He truly is the Owner of every part of me. 

I would even go so far as to say he is my One. The only person I wish to serve. Ever. And we plan on forever. 

if you want to know the origins of my Sir's username, ASK HIM! Messaging me without getting his okay to do so will get you blocked without a response, I do not care what the reason is. THIS IS A BOUNDARY!!! 

BUT keep telling on yourselves, I guess. 

Life has become infinitely more stressful. I check my messages here only to continue with those I've already been talking with. My focus is entirely elsewhere these days. Sorry. 

I can't wait to be home again.

But that won't be until Thursday. 

I only wish that Thursday could last longer than a day.

By now you realize that I'm not talking about a house. 

No, I'm talking about his hands that touch my skin, sending ripples through me.

I'm talking about his eyes that look into mine with a hunger that leaves me confident of his love for me. 

I'm talking about his arms and the way they wrap around me, holding me safely against his chest. 

I'm talking about the moments he is taking his pleasure from my body any way he wants to.

I'm talking about the way his presence quiets every ounce of chaos in my head, yet speeds my heart rate up and stirs those butterflies in my stomach each time he's near me.

Yeah, that's home to me. 

And I can't wait to be there again.

pretty sure I'm sick again, just with a nasty head cold this time. Still, I hope I'm wrong and it's just allergies. Doesn't feel like it though. Now just waiting for the NyQuil to kick in so I can get some more sleep, hopefully. 

Today, for my birthday, Sir accepted me as his slave. Not just his submissive, but his SLAVE. I'm so over the moon happy. Best gift ever!

my Sir is on here now so none of you have any excuses as to why you can't message him first. 

His username on here is Bakayashu. D-types and switches need to message him first, BEFORE messaging me! And yes, he still has access to my profile as well. 

i hope you sleazeballs know that my Sir sees everything you send me. All the disrespect of what's his, but also the respectful people too. Everything. I gave him my login info because I'm tired of dealing with the disrespectful assholes on here ignoring what my profile says. 

In other news, it's my birthday month! And since I've never ever gotten birthday spankings, Sir is gonna make up for all the years I've missed out on! YAY! 

to whom it concerns, I am agender. I do not identify as a trans person, I do not identify as a man, or as a woman. I do however present as femme. Meaning, I dress in feminine clothing, usually when taking photos or dressing up. At home I wear gender neutral clothing like band tshirts and either leggings or lounge pants. 

"nOt AlL mEn"

Stfu, Chad

This isn't a game to me. It's a passion. It's a purpose. 

I serve Him with everything I am, mind, body, soul, and heart, as well as my soul. If he's having a rough day, I try to lighten his heart and cheer him up. Or I just listen if that's what he needs. When I screw up, I try my best to do better as well as endure his correction. His happiness makes me happy. His pleasure is more important to me than my own. When he is disappointed, it pierces my heart and makes me choke on the very air I breathe like the wind was knocked out of me. I feel such an intense amount of shame when that happens but I take those lessons to heart. If I don't understand something, I ask for clarification. I love him, admire him, and he loves me. I am proud to be his masochistic, slutty, submissive pet plaything and fucktoy. I am whatever he needs me to be, when he needs or wants it of me. He is strong, intelligent, makes me laugh, quiets my mind of all of the anxiety and chaos that goes on in there. He's firm but fair. He expects growth and he pushes me towards that every day. He forces me to look inward daily, even at the parts of myself I dislike. If something about my body embarrasses me, he makes me face that. Take for instance how most Masters require their slave to shave their pubic hair. I had a Master who did the same and it made become embarrassed by my own pubic hair and now my Sir doesn't allow me to shave until he desires it. I hate it, but I obey. It grows, no matter how much I might hate it, because there's a lesson of self love he wishes me to learn. 

Submission, to me, isn't just about submitting when things are fun. It's about doing so even when you might not want to, or are scared, or even repulsed.... Because that is what you agreed to. I chose this, I chose him. So even when I am upset with him, he has my submission, he has my devotion, he has my respect, and he has my love and admiration. I knew very early on that I wanted to be his. There was no doubt in my mind. As intimidated as I was, his mannerisms, his way of putting me at ease and making it easy for me to open up and just talk, for someone who has severe social anxiety like I do, was everything to me. I have learned so much at his feet and in his arms, and I am forever grateful, forever His. 

We've been at this since 2018. 

Do not think that you will be able to come into my inbox, project your fantasies and unrealistic demands onto me, and have me walk away from the Man who saw in me what I couldn't at the time see in myself. It won't happen. Stop trying. It is rude, and I take great offense to it. Show some respect for the seemingly few of us left that take this lifestyle as a way of life! 

if you're a couples profile, but only have photos of the woman, I'm gonna assume you're unicorn hunters and block you. 

lots of asshats coming out of the woodwork today. 

What? Did someone spray raid into your little hidey holes, ya little roaches, and flush you all out or something? Whatever the case may be, please stop finding yourselves in my inbox. 

Stay in your holes, ya trolls! Damn. 

If your opening message to me involved ANYthing sexual, I will block you!

I'm not a fetish dispenser!!! 

Male subs are now going to my bulk folder, and will be deleted unread. 

Fucking gross asshats on here. 

Also, if you want to submit to my Sir, ask HIM, NOT ME! You can find him on FetLife under the username Bakayashu. 

If you view my profile, where it says to message my Sir first and where to message him, and you don't, I might read your message, but I will not respond and you will be blocked. This is a boundary. Going against this just shows you don't know how to respect boundaries. It tells me all I need to know about you. Any dominant worth anything will respect this boundary. Those who are not, will be blocked. Period. 

Finally feeling better. 

Also, if I had a dime for everyone who failed to read my profile before messaging me, I'd be rich. 

On that note, from now on, anyone who ends up in bulk, will find their messages deleted unread. And from now on, message my Sir on FetLife under the name Bakayashu if you find yourself on the left side of the slash and want to message me. He will tell me if you have his approval to interact with me. Otherwise, leave me alone! If you have already been messaging me, you're fine and can continue. Thank you. 

i either have food poisoning or the stomach flu. Either way, I'm miserable. 

Six different men have messaged me in the last twenty four hours, and all of them idiots. Lol

If you can't be bothered to read my profile, don't message me. 

Also, I'm not going to leave my Sir for you or anyone else. I'm his in every way. 

Sir came to see me today. It was amazing as always. He is going to try to come see me again next week. He's going to bring one of his MTG decks so we can play a bit as well. Can't wait! 

It's time to unwind for sleep now. So, goodnight (: 

i get to see Sir tomorrow! I cannot wait! 

Off to bed now so I can get plenty of rest :) 

PSA: PAY EXTRA CLOSE ATTENTION TO THE SECOND SENTENCE IN MY ABOUT ME!

Just had someone who at first said they could be friends and nothing more, then try to assert dominance over me by saying things like my lovely girl and stuff about holding my leash. 

THIS IS NOT OKAY! I AM OWNED! RESPECT MY SIR AND I'S DYNAMICS. It really isn't that hard. Damn. 

i will not help you cheat on your partner. 

Seriously, what is wrong with some of you?! 

They/Them - I'm not a woman, I'm a chaos goblin with impish tendencies. And my Sir's little mink. 🥰 (I identify as agender, but fluctuate between femme presenting or something more neutral when it comes to clothing style and aesthetics. Mostly I wear band or nerdy T-shirts and leggings but when I dress up, it's usually femme and involves a lot of black, skulls, bats, and similar fashion) If you are overly concerned with genitalia and what I may or may not have in my pants... I'm probably not for you to begin with. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Politically: BLM/BIPOC lives matter, ACAB, PRO-CHOICE, SEX WORK IS REAL WORK, universal healthcare is a right, TRANS rights are HUMAN rights, LGBTQ+ member and supporter, tell the REAL story of "thanksgiving" - not the whitewashed version, etc etc, you get the idea. I won't tolerate any kind of hate or bigotry on my page either, you've been warned. Disagree with anything in this section and you might as well not bother messaging me. This is a firm boundary. Cross it, and I'll block and blast you.

Being submissive comes quite naturally to me. And I don't just submit when it's rainbows and butterflies, I submit when there's nothing but storms on the horizon as well. Once I give myself to Someone, I'm all in. When I met Sir, it didn't take long before I was adamant about becoming his. I offered my submission and service, knowing it wouldn't always be easy. Knowing he'd push me to grow and become stronger than I already was. I knew his standards were high, but I wanted nothing more than to please him and make him proud. 

That was June of 2018.

He tested me. Pushed me. And put me through my paces. He still does. But on April 17, 2023, he finally collared me and made me his, officially. It was one of the happiest days of my life. 

I still get excited when he texts he's on his way. A kind of nervous excitement and when I answer the door at the sound of his knock, I grin from ear to ear. 

He is my safe place, my protection, my happy, and all of the noise between my ears quiets and fades away, leaving just the two of us to enjoy each other at his whims. 

So when I tell you I'm not interested in another Dominant, this is why. I will be his for as long as he wants me, and he says the plan is for forever. 

FYI: if I added you as a favorite, or viewed you back... It probably means I am open to chatting, but too shy and awkward to initiate. Lol so feel free to break the ice. I really do want to make new friends :) 

i prefer masculine energy.

Dommes need not message me unless you can be respectful of my dynamics with my Sir. I am not YOURS, I am HIS. Do not demand photos of me, period. I share what he tells me I can share. Period. Demanding I complete tasks and assignments for you is crossing a big boundary and will get you blocked. 

For anyone with an account on FL, i am starlightdancer there. Please keep in mind, that i don't add people as friends until my Sir approves it and a rapport is built... But feel free to give a follow there if you'd like. On there, you will be able to message my Sir as well should you need to (anyone on there needs to before messaging me there. Thank you)