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Just got some more x5 latex hoods with Purple, Red, Blonde, Black Braided pigtails and a slave hood with double buckled collar from Rubber55 in the UK.

Another action camera Insta 360 S3 smallest 4k camera arrived.

Two pairs of thigh high boots from amazon.

Have another week till my order from bright and shiny arrives from Ukraine with a replacement black latex catsuit, purple latex catsuit with a purple latex cat hood, Smoky black latex catsuit with a smoky black latex cat hood.

Awaiting arrival from Moanspeak of 3 gags.

Awaiting the arrival from breathplayfactory of fuck sleeve gas mask, Alien gas mask with a Led bubbler bottle with holder.

Still waiting for a order from Oddia Black Bondage corset, Black Bondage belt variation 1, Black Bondage belt variation 2, Black

short latex gloves, Black latex toe socks.

All Christmas presents for producing great content.

The following stated by another Rubberist summarizes my passion:
Those that enjoy full rubber enclosure are into it because It's about being cut off from the outside world and being controlled in bondage, objectification. It also arouses by the feel of hot rubber on the skin, the aroma, the sound and the look.
Rubber envelopes and controls the senses and combined with bondage and breath control is a total experience
I love it.

Most will never understand a true slave especially what life made me.

I have existed for others and sacrificed for so many. I have served in so many ways in the lifestyle and in the military going to Austere environments facing the darkness and trying to save others. I was born with skill sets and still tried to find redemption after 12 deployments and then my 13th in ukraine with the Ukraine Foreign Legion till getting injured twice and being forced back stateside.

A slave exists because another wills you to exist.

Looking forward to arriving in Chicago for my birthday and going to Drinks night club for the Halloween Contest on the 26th as a Latex cat girl. Then do some latex shoots in Chicago. Then Fly back to CA Monday

Well its Go time for getting Latex up for Folsom Kink street fair in SF. To create content for the social media networks.

well i am booked to fly out thursday to Cologne, Germany. For the Fetish celebration. on the October 20th to the October 22nd I'm staying there till the October 24th. Hopefully looking forward to collaboration with some of the other content creators that'll be there in the other kinksters.

I'm leaving a few days short of my birthday on the 26th of October. I'll be looking to create some great content For my instagram, twitter, Tik Tok social media and my fansly site.

After the event as well as on the 23rd creating some more live streams and content visiting a few fetish store and kink clubs and the 24th before flying back to the states. as the rubber cat girl and rubber doll I am.

Well its week after the Montreal Fetish weekend and I can't help but to get depressed after being immersed in an environment which Is so conducive to acceptance.

Having some impact play with VagaBound in the VIP dungeons was a breath of fresh air and him doing the photo shoots for me on the streets of Montreal

And especially a City like Montreal that welcomes you so well being fetish and kink and being able to so freely excepted doing photo shoots around and on the streets of Montreal was inspiring.

I cannot wait till next year MFW 2025 to create more content and hopefully I find the owner as the Rubber sub and Rubber Doll i am that can consume me and complete my existence. Its been a long journey.

I am trying to concentrate on the next events that are ahead of me like Folsom Kink street fair SF September 29th 2024 and then DOMMETRIPS Cozumel Mexico October 5th to October 12th. As a early 57th birthday present.

Then I also have to find a costume ball or event for Halloween for September. To go full latex Cat hood, catsuit too. Need to keep the constant rush happening for the adrenaline rush and excitement showing the rubber doll in me. 

I am also have my attention on Claiming my tickets for MFW 2025 when they go on sale January and Fetish factory Florida Anniversary 5 day event 2025.

Well all my final arangement sorted today for going to DOMMETRIPS- Cozumel, Mexico October 5-12 2024 flights and Hotel reservation finalised. Looking forward to it.

128 Basic slave Rules

1. i will serve, obey and please my owner.
2. Above all else my primary focus shall be to please my owner hoping that He finds me pleasing in all that I do, whether i am in His presence or not. my owner knows of my potential, learning more about me in each day i am with Him. He trusts that i will act in accordance with what He perceives of my potential - He knows what is best for me and how important it is that i set a good example for other females who may be present around me.
3. i worship my owner 
4. i worship my owner body.
5. The power of my owner fills me with awe. Just the sheer thought of Him or the hearing of His voice gives me strength.
6. To receive pleasure i must earn it.
7. i worship my owner whip.
8. i trust my owner responsibilities, Her skills, Her hunger and needs, and Her concern for my safety, my emotional, psychological, social, sexual, and physical health.
9. i am nothing more than an of great value - an instrument owner will use to draw out His pleasures.
10. i will ask my owner for permission to satisfy whatever need i have before acting on it.
11. my body and mind are the property of my owner 
12. i must always give thanks to my owner for all i am given immediately after receiving what He has given me, for such things are gifts or privileges granted to me by Him.
13. i must be both specific and explicit in my speech.

Well It is Reserved its accomodation at Hotel Zero, VIP passes x3 for Montreal Fetish Weekend and flights booked.

I had guests fetish Model friends from the UK and another Dom who was claiming it till something happened to him coming all with it.

Now it feels lost that it might be going to this event by itself. Till it finds it feet there and hopefully like other Newbie first timers to this MFW event we get thru The Meet and Greet cocktail first night event on the 29th August and meet others to connect with especially for the play parties.

Well it is Trying to place some tasking together to keep focus on towards Folsom Fair kink fair in San Francisco September 2023 to get it Fancysteel Pony Harness and Head halter and bit and Reins, Pony HoofS boots, full Tack together, Rubber catsuit, Fancysteel chastity belt again all saved up for.

So the concept of await it third UKraine war surgery doesn't Beat it down. 

Well its a different thing now for therapy and to make better quality bondage gear again with a guarantee that no store or fetish maker Gives. As alot dont stand by there workmanship as it is a skilled craftsmans that if it makes quality gear of the best leather and hardware it should out last your slave or submissive. If it doesnt it has failed. So it guarantees to always replace free of charge restraints and other bondage gear it makes.

It see so many out there making quality bondage gear and charging ridiculous prices. It wanted a Pony Harness and the price was Ridiculous $1500. It has to laugh.

Well, the 2nd order of it Leather working tools have arrived from Amazon.

Give it the third time in it life Rebuilding its Leather making workshop.

And in the next fortnight, got a third order that has to go in. And that should see it. Build the tools and the workshop that it needs to start making. What It needs And wants And to rebuild it inventory.

it uses the highest grade harness US latigo leather as used in the Saddle and Harness industry on the market and heavy metal hardware, Post screw rivets and with reinforced with leather sewing machine for extra strength for secure durablity.

Well, it thought it was heading back to Australia by. February. To spend about three months between. The Gold Coast, QLD. And Sydney. It was invited by another dom to spend time on his horse ranch out there, just to recover and to focus on.

Where It need to be, whether the enticement might be to stay, and not go back to the US.

Time can only tell. It don't see myself anywhere for some time. So trying to find my feet. So many dominants that don't understand how to really truly have a slave.

It's been difficult after It lossing Rosco My PTSD service dog.

And then four months under consideration to the rubber doctor. Who turned out to be? Someone that has a lot of issues. And having a lucky escape. It allowed him. To get inside it. To imprint on it. And Royally **** **** it.

His clear deions  was mind **** It had a hard decision to make. Wether except the crimes that he committed. And that he was willing to commit further the atrocities. It was hard to walk away from him.

Even though, as his rubber slave, he wanted to make it an accessory to his crimes and put it at risk.

As a former medical surgeon. In the military. It had a moral obligation. And it own code of honor which conflicted with his to Do No Harm to those that as Surgeon we are there to heal the sick and the affirmed.

Scared off the Dom that It was presently Under consideration too.
A Civvie that he didnt keep it confidence and discussed things about it without checking with it first Especially about it Military deployments and active duty.
He went to a friend as a sounding board he trusted that person told him that he should run away as fast as he can because of what it has been involved with and committed too on its old life. How fucked up it is mentally and physically because of wars deploying and willingness to sacrificing its life for the greater good to make a difference.
He told his friend that It works as a Prostitute to survive after another Dom it sacrificed its careers for to be totally focused on him and later he was found out to be a closet serial killer.
And all the medical treatments and surgerys ahead of it.

He turned out to be a frightened little rabbit that breaching it trust was the betrayal was so big he knew It couldn't forgive him.

Presently screening and vetting 43 prospective owners from US, UK, Australia.
Two are former military.
They are the first two it has gone to voice communication. Most presently.
Building up trust is a very important before even a physical meeting to see if they truly know how to have a real slave.
Its cautious after being in this Lifestyle for 37 years.
And being a former Collarspace mentor and Collarspace admin.
Dealt with far too many craziness and right nutters.

It Posted on it profile a small number of edited photos by the LA photographer that did the Photo Shoot in San Fransisco with it. 

Have a professional photographer Boudoir and Bondage shoot in San Francisco tomorrow at 1100am.

Looking forward to it.

Well it is excited tomorrow it has it photo shoot consultation over phone for the upcoming Boudoir photo shoot session makeup, hair, wardrobe for a new Portfolio and its addition into a San Francisco Magazine. This is definitely my year finally after all the lose and tragedies experienced.