am still thinking about how to fill this out.. I don't know that I really belong here, but I guess I have had, complex feelings of submission or maybe inferiority for a big part of my life, and have mostly tried to hide from them.  I haven't "done" anything in 'BDSM' ever, except maybe for one former relationship that was never about that really, but maybe had some elements and I still have a lot of confusion about.  I did eventually try to explore things a little bit online and met some other women, and one of them told me about this site and encouraged me to come here, so I am here and am trying to be open minded, although this is all intimidating.