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A Vanilla mixed with a 247 dynamic. TIH HOH
Real time, real life.
If you have and make the time, know how to balance life, work responsibility ,
and romance with leisure time, we may have a possibility .
If Lucille Ball, mixed with Maureen OHara and a wee bit of Donna Reed
appeals , then youve come to the right profile.
Im fit and would hope you are as well.
I have a reverence for our Constitution and fully support the First and second amendments.
Monogamous and expect the same.
No married couples
No married men
Single ONLY
If you are separated, you are still married. Please do not contact.Thank you ,
M.
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It has been years since I've been on here. I left because the ability to journal was no longer an option. Apparently it has been restored!!
This past Summer someone who first viewed me here, found me on Fet. He remembered my profile and reached out.
I was not looking to find someone. And pretty much saw myself as content to be alone. It was a fluke that I went on Fet , after 1.5 years. Just as I am on here for several years away. Presently, I am in a lovely dynamic, with a very good Dom. He and I see the world and more through similar lenses.
While a new dynamic, I feel so comfortable. We fit.
It is not easy to find someone who has similar, faith, politics, perspective on D/s ,
and compatibility, as well as have vanilla life be a great fit too. We have found the needle in the stack of needles!
I appreciate this man very much, and can see myself with him , I can see a future.
Tony I am yours, through thick and thin, I have your 6 and feel the same.
You have my heart ❤
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Put the rabbit down and step awaaaaaay from the grocery shelf.
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My goodness had a "Dom" text me and try to engage me in a discussion as to why I choose this.
He did not like my answer and proceeded to " inform " me on what the site was about as well as the lifestyle.
When I shared I disagreed, that everyone chooses and negotiates what one wants to make it , he became extremely condescending.
He was all about eroticism and sex.
I laughed and then he " dismissed " me!😆
Whew, I was so concerned he wouldn't
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Still learning and growing.
I wish growth would leave emotional pain behind.
Alas, it does not. I am stronger for it and will not allow
the same behavior from myself or others. Whether it be personal ,
familial or business.
M. |
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Almost done with work today.
Sitting out under the umbrella and enjoying our Indian Summer.
This weekend was supposed to be a camping trip.
It is not coming to fruition due to choices made.
So much going on instead.
I'm looking forward to class tonight and the dance tomorrow.
Then I'm heading away for the weekend !
Can't wait to see my friends!
M. |
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Lovely day.
Feeling the Autumn in the air and a wee excited.
Ready for the fireplace and snuggling down with a book.
Thinking about things.
When one least expects, something always happens.
Life throws us curves.
M. |
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I am learning g more and more about myself.
I'm learning to listen to my inner voice, albeit sometimes a bit slowly.
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As I sit here having my breaky, I ponder my journey that I have chosen. I have done a great deal of reading, interviewing, and I have a mentor. My mentor is from my divorce support group. He has been in the LS for over 30 years.
I bounce much off him and am grateful to have his ear and guidance. I also have a mentor who is a sub. She was my former boss. Love her to pieces and miss her physical presence in my work place We communicate regularly as well.
Fet Life has been immensely helpful as well. Reading some wonderful blogs has given me different perspectives and opened my mind .
"A Submmisive's Journey"
"SubMrs"
I uploaded a couple of books about submissiveness and prospective Doms. This has protected me and guided me as well. " BDSM Basics For Submmisive's " " 62Q "
I'm on my 10TH month of seeking personal knowledge and growth in the area of D/s How fortunate I am to have the opportunity to educate myself and communicate with so many people! M. |
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Having lunch and relaxing before I return to work.
So far day has been pleasant.
Keeping a low profile and seeking to out perform!
Later me, myself , and I are going swing dancing
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HOOT!
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It will be pleasurable as usual!!
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I am at my youngest daughter's place.
She recently had a birthday which we celebrated last eve.
I've come to appreciate our relationship more and more everyday.
When going through my separation and divorce, she was incredibly mature, loving and supportive.
Her father is still in his midlife crisis, and forgot her birthday.
He was focused on a vacation with his affair partner, she hadn't even crossed his mind, except to use her to care for a dog.
Fathers out there...never EVER forget your daughters.
You are being watched, and everything you do is noticed. You are the example of how a man should treat your daughter.
What she will choose, how she will commit.
It is the root of her self worth.
Be honest and forthright with her, no matter how uncomfortable.
As I am surrounded by terriers of minutia, I feel the comfort of what once was a whole family.
My dogs were separated due to the run away spouse.
Our family had five wee terriers. Seems like much, but we had land and a dog door!
I now only have two. Two others are with daughter and one went with wasband. He is here due to the vacation he is on with affair partner.
It is nice having them all together , even if just for a blink of an eye!
The sun is out occasionally today, and my spirit is lifting!
I must admit , the rain was truly a depressant.
I am still learning and growing.
Feeling my way cautiously while amazed by all the people I 'meet".
I have much to learn for I was in a very traditional marriage.
I was extremely sheltered and oh so naive.
I stayed at home to raise the children.
Trusted in my former to handle the finances, and to provide, protect , and be there.
Things turned out differently.
In hindsight, it truly is for the best.
Now I may go forth with joy!
I'm so pleased to have made a goal of mine to be education.
It has served me well.
I still believe in marriage , family.
I know communication and HOW one communicates is essential.
Tactful honesty is what makes fertile soil, the foundation of which only healthy growth may occur!
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I've "met" different men online and a few in person.
Still have not met a dominant man who is not narcissistic or focused primarily on the sexual aspect.
Don't misunderstand, sex IS a vital part of the special relationship between men and women. I am patient. |
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Days later the gent to whom I wrote about texted.
I was forthcoming about why I decided against any further contact.
He didn't want to accept it was his behavior not events which gave me serious pause.
I tried to share with him that standing a woman up , not communicating the date should be postponed, was inconsiddrate, dismissive, and disrespectful.
I shared what my triggers were, and not only did he disregard them but completely ignored my attempt at communicating the difference between a choice to not drop me a note and going dark.
I have boundaries, WE ALL have them.
It is not "rigid" if one sticks to them.
It is untrustworthy if another blatantly disregards them.
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Learned a bit about myself in the past two days...
It is so easy for someone to say
" let go of your past "
It is smug and at times self serving.
Two things were presented to me.
One, a married man who is caring for his wife with rapidly degenerating MS , asked if I would care to meet. Care to explore the possibility of a relationship.
It triggered feelings . As the one who was cheated on, one can imagine what went through my mind, heart, and the physical feelings of pain.
The second, someone with whom I'm getting to know, went silent at such an odd moment.
This too triggered feelings I did not wish to revisit.
Divorce is traumatic.
Deception too can be traumatic, if it was in one's life on a continuing basis. Deceptio is an octopus with far reaching tenticles.
Letting go, may occur or it may never occur.
One can let go of an individual, but a scar is left on a person's soul.
Healing is a slow process.
I choose to use the pain to seek knowledge.
To put into practice, this knowledge and to attain a new skillset.
I've learned what triggers my emotions.
I understand that I've several, and some which are serious.
The positive side to this?
I can separate my feelings in the present, step back and challenge myself.
I can think rather than react.
I can discuss.
I can avoid drama!
I can be a better me!
<3
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