Sincerlydefiant

First Munch for the State Line Area Group also known as SAM was a huge success:)..Enjoyed meeting some new people as well as seeing sum familar faces:)

Looking forward to next Month!!!

hmmmmmmmmmmm....................the tempataion to go pro is a heavy contemplation at the moment, as my time is very valuable these days.

Complete Honesty................is it really that fucking much to expect?

andddddddddddddddddddddd......................................another one bites the dust!

~sigh~

I am currently training a submissive and am once again embracing a Mistress role in a TPE relationship.

Hope everyone's having a safe n happy Halloween!

hmmm...I have a lot going through my head perhaps Ill share when I'm not busy getting ready for work, on this hot humid sticky night.. ugh

shares a thought* Only when you completely empty yourself can you find clarity within:)

I am many things rolled into one and sometimes get torn between them all.... lets do us both a favor and do not attempt to put me in a box and Ill return the favor. I am active in the lifestyle,this is not an online fantasy. I am known by many however am very selective and picky on whom I actually engage with on a more intimate level. I relish in M/s and D/s relationships. Now with all that being said do not be discouraged, I am pretty friendly and open to all possibility's just realistic and I guard my heart fiercely. I act as a leader,protector and mentor for many. I am always open to make new friends and enjoy various conversation.

:)

it hurts so much:(

so many tantalizing things Im curious about yet

Well Ill be working at the stroke of Midnight this evening:(

hmmmm........now who can I get to cum be my Security,and keep me company tonight?

Anyways i hope everyone else has a Happy New Year!

The emptiness within is so lonely :(

I need you so badly, why cant you need me just as much?

 *sheds a tear*

Did someone say...

Halloween party!

Invite open to local Rockford area kinksters in the lifestyle:)

*also a Birthday party for little Miss Vixen turning 21*

customes strongly encouraged:)

Id say this pretty much sums up how I feel today.....

 I just want to get on all fours throw my ass in the air and grind against a hard cock like a bitch in heat!

mmmmm....*cock worship*..how my mouth waters!

So many thoughts I keep to myself, as my conflictions bound me:(

As I sit here with random thoughts boucing through my head I come to the thought of submission and what it means to me.Im finding it means different things for different people.So I'll share some thoughts for a moment.I do not believe Ive truly submitted to anyone including my 1st and former Master which  (had time been on our side) Im sure I would have rendered myself completly to.have I kneeled before another yes in force and out of respect.however thats just submitting in a physical sense,   submitting is much deeper . . I believe to truly submit I will lay everything that I hold within at someones feet..The only thing is i will NOT just do this for anybody so regardless if your cock is the biggest in the world or youve owned 20 slaves or you have a dungeon full of  toys none of that impresses me and will only get u so far..If your really intrested try getting to know me and make a connection..theres an idea!..anyways just some thoughts on the subject.