I drive by several barns each day as I travel to and from work.  There's something intriguing about them; something mysterious.  Standing alone in the field, isolated from other buildings.  I'd love to step inside sometime...

I've always wanted to own a hobby farm and a chunk of property, but we can't do that with just the two of us (working full time).

So, in the spirit of my decision to keep adding to my journal since my return, here is another peak into what makes me tick!

One of the things that I have found compelling and interesting to pursue at this point is being a service sub for the right lady.  The idea of just running errands, or doing chores in service of a dominant woman is really appealing - especially without any sexual expectations on my part.  I think it is about being in a submissive mindset, knowing that I am serving and wanting to please the right woman.

I feel like the structure of service would be fulfilling for me at this time.

I hope the right woman reads this, and reaches out. 

DON'T MSG ME OR LOOK FOR ME IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR A 3-HOLE SLAVE, NEEDING VAGINAL PENETRATION OR LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO BR*ED WITH YOU. I AM NOT KEEN IN BEING FUCK VAGINALLY BY A MAN, AND I AM NOT INTO RAW. AND I AM NOT KEEN ON ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH DIAPERS. ALL OF THESE ARE HARD LIMITS!!!!

There's a distinct difference in meeting a person when they "think" they are something vs. KNOWING they are something!   

I'm seek to build a complex fortress and santuary on a foundation that co-creates (nothing without one another and always in regard) and PROVEN ability to pivot -  building something from nothing but from what's been left behind.

Transforming into a NEW life!

It will exceed expectations!  Be instantly recognized.  A witness more than once.  There's my testimony.  No, I'm not religious. 

I remain optimistic in finding the one(s) that can get behind My Vision.  And is inspired to support My Life.  He will believe in Me when others might not.  No way out. 

A life born with a creative, powerful, confidently spirited woman that's answering her call to lay down certain life lessons -- privately and publically.  Personally and professionally. 

The topic I speak to is still extremely taboo with people in cultures all around the world. 

Broadly, addressing mental health and wellness. 

The relationship MUST be with dual agency and BINDING.

I am nothing without him. 

Profound.

Not Born Yesterday. 

Reputation rebirth.

Oh! The places you'll go!  -Suess

The Final Chapter.

...still shaking men's bones by questions that leave them to becoming a cowardly ghost!

Submission, to me, is not weakness. It is a conscious and freely given choice to trust another person with parts of myself that I do not give easily.

My submission is something I choose, not something that is taken from me. It is given because I trust the person receiving it, because I feel safe enough to be vulnerable, and because I believe that my Dominant will treat what I give with care, respect, and responsibility.

Submission does not mean that I lose my voice, my identity, or my ability to make decisions for myself. I remain a whole person with thoughts, feelings, boundaries, needs, desires, and opinions. I should be able to speak honestly, ask questions, disagree, and say no when something falls outside of what we have mutually agreed upon.

For me, submission is about trusting someone enough to let them lead while knowing that they will never stop listening.

It is giving my Dominant the opportunity to guide me, challenge me, teach me, and sometimes push me outside of my comfort zone—but never at the expense of my wellbeing or dignity.

Submission also means accountability. If I give someone authority within our relationship, I have a responsibility to communicate honestly, uphold the agreements we make, and take responsibility for my own actions. My Dominant has a corresponding responsibility to lead with integrity, communicate clearly, respect my boundaries, and protect the trust I have placed in them.

I believe submission should be built on consent, communication, trust, respect, honesty, and mutual care.

I don't want to submit because I am incapable of standing on my own. I want to submit because I am capable of standing on my own—and I am choosing to stand beside someone I trust enough to let them lead.

My submission is a gift, but it is not an unconditional surrender of myself.

It is a piece of myself that I willingly place into someone's hands and trust them to hold responsibly.

To me, the heart of submission is this:

I choose you.

I trust you.

I give willingly.

I remain myself.

And I expect you to honor what I have placed in your hands.

Nothing like burning yourself making chicken quesadillas for lunch for worker. I guess at least its a lil one...hahaha

Looking for a foot guy. Dom or sub.

Gentle and attentive is a must.

Pedicures, massages, and feet cuddles.

Serious inquiries, message me

I'm back.  Life has been really hard for me over the past year.  Not sure how long I will be back for as I am still dealing with alot.