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I've received a great many wonderful messages. I try to answer them all. Be patient. I don't get on much until the evening.
But if you read my whole profile, and you're still here, good.
I'm making an effort to reply in a timely manner.
Just a heads up, for the time being, I am only here for friends. |
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There comes a point when you think about giving up. You think nothing good will ever happen. You reconcile yourself to living the same way you always have....
Then one day....
Fate intervenes...
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Spent an enjoyable morning on Skype with an old friend. How amazing is technology that I can touch base with a friend half a world away? I'm thankful for friends that care and recognize though I am not always at my best, I still give my best when I can. |
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Summer is just about over in Michigan. Volleyball is done. The nets are down. The boat is off the lake and I have to restring my rig for fishing next spring. With the colder weather approaching, what is a girl to do with herself?
Maybe I'll get a hunting license and try that, or maybe I'll learn to drive a snowmobile. |
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Loving the new job, hating the damn commute in the shitty weather. I wish I had a warm safe place to hide. |
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Today I think I'll dress in collar & cuffs while locked up in the closet. I need a day to remember what I am even if I'm alone. |
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First day of kids gone and I was sicker then hell all day. *sigh* I wish this would pass sooner rather then later :/ |
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Battling hard today. It's going to be a shit-tastic day. I already feel sick to my stomach. |
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Cutting all the bad from my life and allow the good things to heal me. If you find that you can't email me here, it's because I blocked you.
If your presence doesn't add to my life, then your absence will make no difference. |
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Starting back to the gym. Life is taking a toll on me. Going to work it out through working out. Hopefully, it helps! |
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I have never felt more invisible. |
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██ ████████ ██████ ██████████ ██ ████ ██ ████ ██████████ ██. ███ ███ This status has been found in violation of H.R. 3261, SOPA and Senate Bill 968, PIPA and has been removed. |
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Why are all the damn people on this site so short!?!?!?!
LOL!!! |
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The bindings of my prison are depleting my sanity. I just want to escape them and let the freedom wash away the wreckless nature I have and finally feel like ME again. |
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... a woman of substance...
but never subdued. |
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I've been asked a few questions.
1. Do you do poly? No. If I were, I would have it on my profile.
2. Do you like to be shared out? The ONLY hands touching me are those of my Owner. Period.
3. How do you identify yourself? Not being overly fond of labels, I'm a healthy mix of submissive woman, a Daddy Doms delightful babygirl and slowly progressing pain slut. I am a whore to my desires. I need to feed them often and with reckless abandon.
4. What are you looking for? At the moment, I wish for good friends (male and female). I never stuff myself into a design. I let life unravel and I make the best of the left overs. |
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So get this.
I am a n3rd. I am a total g33k. I've spent the last several days either playing Ninja Gaiden on my DS ~*~OR~*~ playing Tekken 5 on my PS2.
I am such a complete goof. I've fallen back in love with something I've been avoiding.
VIDEO GAMES! I'm currently searching for good games on Amazon, since my birthday is coming up VERY soon. *HINT HINT* So off I go to rock Chapter 5 of Ninja Gaiden and see what happens next.....
PS
BIRTHDAY IS SEPT 19 :D |
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My own proclivities towards my submission are sometimes wavering. I often lament my former self and wonder where she went and who this person is that is replacing her?
My new desire to serve and give of myself willingly is overriding everything else in my life. Submitting my mind is easy. He has my mind under His direct control and it bends to His will readily enough. Submitting my body is harder. I still feel uneasy when I undress and He looks at me not as who I was but who I am now. I am not the person I was when we started this. I am this womanchild who is slowly allowing the submissive to come forth and openly be seen.
My body is coming around to the rest of what I already am. Though its a struggle, I find myself aching to please His needs/desires and forgetting that I am a BBW (of sorts). I am not thin, I am not fat. I am a full figured girl and I am learning to love myself and accept that part of me.
I still hate to look in the mirror but as Ive learned, hating myself is hating what He loves most and I cant allow that. Just like harming myself (as I used to do) is like harming one of His prized posessions. Would He want me hurting His leather jacket, His favorite shoes? No, so why hurt something else He loves and cherishes? Ive made serious changes and turn abouts in regards to myself and His wishes. Its all so new but comes easily, when I least expect it.
Now its time to shower and get myself looking pretty, I have to go work in the tool room and charm the pants off all the Men that wander in. :) |
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I'm an IRCop here. I help with server related issues. If you require assistance, please find myself or the other IRCops in #IRCops. Thanks. |
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Ok so.. here goes. Upon cruising some profiles (for the mere fun of it) I found these:
Slave Rule One -All Freepersons are to be addressed as either Master or Mistress. If the sex of the Freeperson can not be determined from the name, Master is to be used until the gender is clarified.
Slave Rule Two - Serve Every Master or Mistress as if your well being depends on being pleasing.......it does.
Slave Rule Three - While a Freeperson may not always be right, they are, by definition, never WRONG. Slaves always have the last word in any disagreement..the words "Yes, Master"...
Slave Rule Four - Jealousy and Possessiveness have killed more slaves than disobedience.
Slave Rule Five - Slaves do not use the first person pronoun. There is not "I", "me" or "mine" in a slaves vocabulary.
Slave Rule Six - Perfection of Service and Submission is the goal, mere excellence will be tolerated.
Slave Rule Seven - Your collar carries the honor of your owner. Your attitude can make is as light as a feather or as heavy as a mountain.
Slave Rule Eight - If there are none requiring service, use the time to clean, cook, bake, practice serving techniques with your sisters or learn about Gor. Do not be idle.
Slave Rule Nine - Slaves possess nothing not given to them by their owner, including their name. What is given can be taken away. If you are entrusted to carry a name for an owner, or silks or jewelry, remember that these can be removed as easily as they were given.
Slave Rule Ten - The merest whim of your owner is your highest law. And lawbreakers are punished.
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Having found those, I question. I was someone before I ever thought of giving myself or letting another capture me, so am I not worthy to still be "I" or "me"? The answer is yes.
I had items before any were bestowed upon me. I had clothes and jewels.
My perfection comes from being myself and no one else.
My duties are always fulfilled long before I play.
I have no Master or Mistress but those I care enough about and love and respect enough to call them by a proper term of my own free will.
I am pleasing.. always..to myself and those I love and care for and respect. I dont care what anyone else thinks.
Who and what I am reflects on ME! I care for only a few folks whos opinions rank highly with me. You know who You are.
If I am not pleasing, then maybe, You just happen to have piss poor taste in submissives. |
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