looking for a mistress that will make me give blowjobs

my new year resolution is to suck a cock in 2013, a big cock, a big hard throbbing cock

I been thinking about  something I have thought about since jr high in the  P.E. looker room ,the 1st time I seen so many big cocks,, most all bigger than mine, I could  not keep my eyes off the biggest ones , I have thought about sucking one ever since then, and that was 1974, and I have always thought about it , I think i want to try and give a blowjob. Am I a sissy