MadamBellaShadow

FAREWELL TO THE GODDESS

She now sleeps into an eternity that I know not where.
An untimely death.
Her song and beautiful voice I will hear no more.
Her laughter and humor now gone from my life.
The fierce loyalty that she held toward friends and family,
But most of all a heart so full of love.
She was a champion of those in need from the abused animals to those of us hurting in some form.
Charity and devotion in her everyday life.
We go through life and rarely find one who "gets us" and she was my one.
My companion, best friend, confidant and the sister I never had.
Farewell my dear, my heart is broken, my hope is to see you on the other side....

Working against the clock….

These last few years I recognize my time here is fleeting.

Have I observed my time wisely?

Is there still yet time to rectify?

With youth gone, will my life learned wisdom pay off?

Haunting is the question, have I done what was needed of me?

My eyes focus to those before me

AllPlayWV Mardi Gras was a Record Breaking Success for West Virginia!

We had a record breaking attendance of 112 people for Mardi Gras for a lifestyle event here in West Virginia! We sold out rooms and had an entire lodge to ourselves. Costumes were fabulous and much eye candy for everyone, not to mention plenty of play, sex, dungeon furniture, contests, prizes, food. We even had a sybian for the ladies to enjoy and a love machine! Demonstrations, vendors and a class for those who are new.

People traveled from OH, PA and KY and all over WV.

So don't be shy and come out and join us! 

Madam, Owner & Founder of AllPlayWV

Announcement: ALLPLAYWV Presents Mardi Gras on March 17th.

If you like to party and enjoy TPE, BDSM, Swinging etc. Come join us for the party of the year. We have an entire lodge secured, lots of dungeon equipment, great Cajun food and much more. You can find us on fetl the place that also has life in the name. - places West Virginia in groups- then do a search for allplaywv. Join the group and make your reservation! Hope to see you there.

https://.com/groups/15370

Had a really enjoyable evening and night with lifestyle friends. Dinner and the party was splendid with the TAPE group. Met many new individuals and connected with those who I have not seen in three years.The energy massage and exchange that I received was just what I needed in addition to some decadent biting and clawing, not to mention some sensual feeding. Just all around yum!

To find one's self, one must lose one's self first.

State of the Spirit

Better to live in spirit dying than to die in spirit living.

Bella Shadow

"Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self." Cyril Connolly

Imagination

Sometimes a blank canvas of sorts

Stifled by our surroundings

Influences just not conducive

Hidden away beneath layers of thought

Waiting for a moment of opportune time

When we can bring forth the imagery

Expressions of our thinking into many forms

Unique and individual is the imagination

I am 55 today!

Fifty-five has learned to dream more wisely,
Inventing only what might come to pass.
For her the gifts of life are more than plenty,
Though at times she hears the distant brass
Yearning for what now has no reflection.

Fear not, for the moment is perfection,
In which one finds a mirror for one's fancy
Vast as time, inclusive as creation,
Eternity redacted to a glass.

We did not change as we grew older, we just became more clearly ourselves.

Harmony in Life

Is knowing creation

Is knowing procreation

Is knowing inspiration

Is knowing anticipation

Is knowing sensation

Is knowing observation

Is knowing gratification

Is knowing satisfaction

Is knowing moderation

Is knowing variation

Is knowing transformation

Is knowing substitution

Is knowing solution

Is knowing trepidation

Is knowing consternation

Is knowing humiliation

Is knowing domination

Focused

Harmony in one’s self

Balanced in life

Driven to achieve

Eyes on our goal

Never taking them away

Ability to dismiss distraction

The road maybe long

The paths winding

Stay on course

Stay focused!

Bella Shadow

Reflection of the Proclaimed Know it all

My anger is also going out to the self-appointed prophets and all- knowing Gurus who online post articles to define what a D/s, M/s or O/s is to be and your obscure and often asinine analyses.

What you don’t look at are the individuals who are just coming into learning and you have corrupted them with your pompous ass assumptions.

Bottom line there is NO cookbook! Each D/s, M/s or O/s individuals have to find their own way, what fits them and can create the bond they both seek.

I think there should be censorship of such proclaimed experts and proof that there are in fact some professional qualifications, before being allowed to pollute others with their narcissist views.

Today is one of great sadness for me and I weep deeply. I find myself at this crossroad in life. My prayers for purpose and direction, once thought answered but now gone. Must I sacrifice me in realizing this answer of prayer? Must I abandon my beliefs, perceptions and views in life and become what I am not in order to attain this gift? It has been such a conflict deep within me now for days that I have turned to anger and rage. I have released these feelings outward towards others when it is me who I am feeling this pure anger toward. I find myself focused on silly distractions in an attempt to ignore the matter at hand.  How can I be someone I am not just to selfishly grasp what I want? So close, but to exercise greed in order to have, although so tempting comes with high price. As with all interaction there has to be some compromise . While I can compromise, I cannot let all that I feel good in me die out of selfishness and want. My kindness, my tender heart, my expression, soft words, no desire for abuse of power, my need to breathe and feel all beauty in life is this the price I must pay? Is my God so cruel to dangle in front of me, to only take it away as a lesson? Was this a test to see if I can stand firm in what I see as good to only entirely abandon out of greed?

For those of you who seek negativity, cruelty, abuse of power, physical abuse and pain for the sake of them only, then please do not contact me for I am not the one you seek.

Struggle

Internal strife at what lies within

Conflicts so deep in our souls

Struggle to be who we are

It is how we grow

We must strive at who we are

We cannot accept what is contrary to our being

Then all that which is positive gone

Our perceptions destroyed

Our beliefs diminished

We will have lost our struggle within

Bella Shadow

Voices

The voices call to us

Silent to others they come from within

Listen intently and without distraction

Heed these messages

Spoken from wisdom

Conveyed with truth

For they have no other motivation

No agenda or unknown purpose

Worldly things of no consequence

Spirits from the afterlife whisper

Once with deep connection

Transcend beyond time and distance

Bella Shadow

Said I need somebody baby, Calm the storm, Calm the storm

Won't you be the one to calm the storm yeah

Won't you be the one to calm the storm darling, right now

Said I need somebody baby, Calm the storm, Calm the storm

Sometimes I try to, Calm the storm

Sometimes I want to, Calm the storm

Sometimes I wish I could, Calm the storm

Sometimes I try to, Calm the storm

Sometimes I need to, Calm the storm

Sometimes I feel like, Calm the storm

Sometimes I try to, Calm the storm....

Song "Calm the Storm" Graffiti 6. A must listen to smooth and sexy!

Power whispers for it has no reason to yell.

"Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none." William Shakespeare