The 24th was my birthday. It was just so nice of my roommates and friends to forget. I'm just so angry right now. I don't know if I should scream, cry, or smack them with a hammer. I had only one little thing that I told each of them that I wanted and every single one of them disregarded it for the last 2 years. It really shows me how much I rate with my friends and I know even less on this site. Just gives me an outlet to bitch about it.

Well it has been almost a year since my last entry and I am still single. It is pretty bad that in a few days I will be turning 39 and I still don't have a good boi serving me. I have been approached by so many but have all ended up being assholes. Most will even beg for a date and then stand me up. Had 4 so called bois do this to me in one month's time. All I want is a good boi to own and to have serve me, is this really too hard of a deal? That one perfect boi for me that I could someday marry, what is wrong with all these so called bois? I just want to start screaming my head off due to all the bs, liers, and fakes I have met. So far there are too me f***ing cowards on here and nothing more than little fakes. When will the bs stop and people be honest with themselves and others?

I am really getting tired of all of the bs. Yet again I allow myself to reach out only to have my heart crushed. Do I need to just give up and forget about all the bs people out there saying one thing but only wanting to use someone? I don't know I am just at my wits end. How hard is it to find one good male slave to have in my life and will love me and stand with me. There are just too many fakes out there.