MelenaWept

Curious.....about who's around.. Possibly looking for friendship... Nothing more.

He is my Master, He is my everything. When he hurts, i am in agony. When He bleeds, i drip over the sheets and onto him. Together we cannot be stopped, and seperate we are a complete fucking mess. We're both messes in general, but I guess thats why we love each other so much... The things that nobody else appreciates within us - we love within ourselves, and each other. i'm his Alyce and He's my Cheshyre - always looking over my shoulder and into the rabbit hole even if it's to protect me from the horrors inside. i trust him implicitly, and i hope to Gawd that he trusts me the same.

Things have lost a lot of color in the past few years, and Grey has over taken my life. i really thought i was dead in all of the wrong places until he took me in and made me whole. He gave me my glitter back. He gave me all the colors, plus a few new ones. For that i am forever grateful.

*sighs* i'm still trying so hard to be a good girl, but it's turning out so much harder than i thought. My mouth gets me into trouble ALL the time. i never even realized i had a problem with attitude and now i'm having to re-learn a lot of things. Respect is something we are both so big on, and i know that i let him down all the time. i've always been one of those people that had to touch the stove and burn the shit out of myself before i'd take my hand off - EVEN if you told me it was scorching to begin with. i want to please him in all things and i know i have to get control of my mouth. *sighs* it's frustrating because sometimes i don't even know what the hell is coming out of it until it's too late. i constantly have to resist the urge to be bad just to push my limits. i never knew it would be this hard, that i could be so stubborn. NEEDLESSLY stubborn... but..

i'm trying, i'm trying so hard, and i know that He sees that. He's the only one who does. i am devoted to him in all things, and I try to show him this in all ways.

Haha.. i just might need some help...

~alyce~