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	About MasterLordguru Sensual Sadist. A Master of Mind, Defiler of Body, Corrupter of Soul. 31 yr. old Dominant male. I do not consider myself such a Dominant that I need to step on submissive souls and other Dom/Domme spirits becuase of insecurities. I believe we are all here to grow, to learn and find what we desire. Am I naive enough to believe that We wont find posers and cons here in this domain? Hardly. But I am one to give each person who chooses to share with me of themselves, the benefit of the doubt. This profile is actually for all to read and share. I would like to hear from those who are new to the lifestyle. I would like to hear from those who are old guards to the lifestyle. Dom/Domme's are asked to share their knowledge and questions. We are here for the greater whole of creating an amiable and respectful place for like minded souls. And I encourage any submissive who desires to know more of the Lord to come forth and ask. Current blog entries speak of something I truly believe in.. The Mind FUCK. It is something that most dont understand but it is part of who they are. I would encourage you take a moment and read it. You might be enlightened. Master Lord Guru Every few weeks I will put out my Mind fuck comment. It is meant to bring discusson to the forefront. And I have concluded that many truly feel this way.

It has been a bit over two weeks since my last repost. As I previously stated, I was preparing for a new adventure, a new moment and new experiences. And I got that in spades. So much has happened since last I typed out anything here.

I will start off by saying that this lifestyle is more than a passing fad. I am sure for many who visit this website and other sites of similiar mindsets, do so out of the need for Kink or hunt and prey on others for their own selfish reasons. I am here becuase I choose to be here to represent myself as best as possible. I am as genuine as I can be and if my words convey my true spirit, then those that have chosen to know me, know that It is I, Nelson G, who speaks with this passion and desire for this lifestyle.

Camp Crucible. What can I say? There are words and then there are a lack of words becuase they lack the proper intenstity and discription of what you expereinced. I am in the latter. I cannot truly convey the wonderful growth I felt during this weekend of decadence and sensual pleasures. Instant Gratification aside for many who were there, there were deep internal connections made and I felt that I was at home with the family I truly have lacked in a long time. Only my time with my RKS family have I felt that union, but being introduced to several genre's within the culture is very very profound. From Ponies, to littles, To Leather families and Sadist enthusiast, I found myself surrounded by a profound peace that I have found a home to visit away from home. And I will, each and every year that I have breathe.

TO much to actually type out, I do want to thank my Cabin mates of the Red Hand Klan and the new people I met and scened with. From one young Domme spirit with so much potential who not only allowed me to express my passion for floggers and canes, to the Domme who has lived 30 years in this life and who was impressed by my abilities to set up a kidnapping and set it up for her and her traveling lesbian bandwagon. (laughs) To the Transgender fluid clysdale who enjoyed the tips of my flogger.. to the wonderful Lean muscled Mare who took my sadistic nature and my co-tops wicked intentions in full stride. To My friend and Co-top who assisted me and I him in our three wonderful wicked scenes. To the two who who volunteered to be co-bottoms to me and to the young lass that ended my time at camp sitting on my lap, kissing and nuzzling and cuddling while making her squirm in blissful desires to my "talented" fingers.

And to top it off.. leaving camp, while a bit of a drop, leading to my Saturday evening event at RKS, where I was Ringmaster for our Kinky Karnival and we enjoyed the talents of the White Elephant Bulesque Society. It truly was a wonderful two weeks and that is why I haven't been on much. However, Working and re-connecting with my little wicked B, the initiative I have been working with, have been wonderful experiences. Re-establishing a connection to the lovely pup I play with, we are finally seeing eye to eye after months of Toxic energy.

I am in a good place. Its just sad.. that I dont have the ability to be everywhere. (laughs) From TES, To NELA, to TNG and the Crucible.. I have inviations but lack the time and ability to make it to each event.. but I will be going to Black Rose in October... and if possible, Master Taino's M/s Convention in DC in Augest. One can only hope...

Nelson G

Enjoying this wonderful day. The sun is out, the weather is warm, the breeze is cool. I woke up and said that I would go for a walk and I did. I went and watched a movie and came home and now will type what I did this weekend.

IT was a good weekend. I spent it with good friends and wonderful company. RKS again went beyond the call of duty and introduced BlueRixx as the Shibari specialist who would came from out of town and put on a wonderful show. His humor, his manner of teaching definetly struck a resonence with the varied members.

The night brough new players to the scene, brought new experiecnes to some and introduced a Double suspension that the pup and tink were part of due to the wonderful skills of BlueRixx. Many pictures were taken and many things were shared. I recieved two handmade canes from a fellow RKS member and I thank him profusely for it beucase I now need to break them in. (wicked grin) And I will.. soon.

Another thing, the introduction of A&A (a wonderful young couple who will find a place within the confines of the dungeon) and the pleasure of showing them how to use differetnt varieties of floggers and the experience of how a cane felt. Playing with a fellow RKS member with her Daddy Dom present was also very welcomed and sharing time with a few of the others who I know was well spent.

With less than 10 days, Camp Crucible. Still alot to prepare for. I do hope to be ready by next thursday for this. Well, Until my next post (hopefully before next thursday) be well.

Nelson G

A few hours from now.. Shibari workshop at RKS.. Presenter is BlueRixx (from collarme) He is an awesome Rope specialist and Just like Brett for the previous rope workshop, I'm looking forward to this event. Afterwords, Play party galore.. with many of the local community and those that I have assited in the past in play and conversation.

I may be going stag, I may even not be playing but I know one thing.. it will be an awesome night. Sadly, my friends were unable to find babysitters and so the couple and my co-worker were unable to come. Alas, I await Kinky Karnivel at the end of the month and of course Camp crucible. Registered and ready for many debauched and sadistic acts at hand.

Hmm.. may not have had a good week, but I'm going to end it on a good note.

Nelson G

A successful weekend. I was able to visit the play space and sit in on a "DM" training class. For those not familiar with public play spaces, a DM is a Dungeon Monitor who takes time to be the helpful hand for others members. They are there to make sure all is safe, sane and consensual and to assist in any capacity that is necessity while they are on duty. It was very educational on how we should be approaching others playing and how we make sure that their scenes are kept within the boundaries of the play space.

I shadowed two of the DM's that night. And while I didnt play, I did get to observe my pup play with her Ex and one of their mutual friends. It was the first time that their friend (Who I will call C-fro) made it to the space and although she was nervous, she took to it pretty well. She appreciated the kindness that many of our members exhibited and it made her feel at home. She ultimately ended up playing with pup and "Pat", and I even had a part by lending them my canes, a paddle and my knowledge in caning and flogging techniques. It was a very nice time indeed.

While T and R were not there, "J" and her Dom were and they had a very nice and soft sensual scene on one of the tables. "Talos" and his slave were defintely having an intense, and slightly rough scene, but she was able to take all he gave her and more. Even the board members were able to play and they had a very long but very intense scene, both helping the other and their mates.

I take great pride in seeing a community come together and enjoy and draw energy from each other. While there were other scenes that I was able ot observe and comment on with others, I enjoyed just being in their company. Playing or scening is not a necessity, although it is a wonderful thing. For the next party, which is a shibari workshop, A mutual friend BlueRixx will be holding the workshop and the pup will be his shibari pup. So that weekend, I am trying to see if I can bring a friend over so she can experience a shibari workshop. I dont exepct to play with her, but I do hope she draws from the enviornment.

Well, for now I end this but I will write more details in the near future.

Nelson G.

Off to a BD party at my local Karaoke bar for a good friend.. and then heading off to rach-cha-cha for a play party.. hmmm wonder if I can take on that offer and flog the "T" and see if J is available. I'm sure the pup will be available at one point.. after all she does crave the tips of those lashes..

Nelson G

I have been remissed. I have noticed that for the past few weeks I haven't commented much on my blog or reposted my mind fuck comments. Hmmm.. what a delimna.

Truthfully, I have been a bit under the weather. For weeks I didnt know what it was. From being injured to losing rapid weight, I think I finally have it figured out. First, I may be diabetic. Actually i'm sure i'm Diabetic. After all its a hereditary thing and I match all the symptons. I'm not scared becuase I know what I have to do to make sure I stay healthy. ANd I have many reasons to remain healthy.. from my own personal goals as a Man, to the need to make sure I enjoy the pleasures the world is providing with...to making sure that I dont put those I care for through pain and auguish. WEll, not that kind of pain.

This weekend will be another RKS event and in three weeks we will have a shibari workshop with special guest BlueRixx. If anyone has never seen his work, I can guarante his shibari work is top notch. And the fact that the pup I play with will be his rope bunny makes it more enjoyable. There is something so enticing to see a luscious curvacious woman in the throes of pleasure at the end of the rope. Not to mention that RKS is growing as a family and our members truly make you feel like you have a place.

A few weeks ago, I was given the treat of playing with a wonderful slave who I have had my eyes on for a while. And now that she has someone truly special in her life that fulfills some of her needs and provides her with a glow that I rarely see in people, I have been blessed by having an opportunity to warm her skin to my touch.. at the tip of my floggers, to the firmness of my hand and paddle, and the crack of my canes. Not to mention the quiet words expressed to her as I look at the joy she feels at the exquisite pleasures I'm providing. And she can take a mean session of single tail. Hmmmmm

I have also had the opportunity to share with other good friends. From flogging the wife of one of my friends, to playing with a few old lovers and still keeping an eye on the intiate who unfortunetly has to go to counseling due to her parents misunderstanding of her growing need to learn and live this life. Such narrow minded views in this world.

And finally... hopefully within the next two weeks I will be confirmed as going to Camp Crucible or as the pup would say.. campity Campity Camp.. (laughs). She will be attending with the mercy of Edninja who will be in total control of her submission during camp, but who understands that her Ex b/f and I will be there in attendence and we will have our moments to share special tender and phsyical moemnts with. (laughs) He is such a good Man, helping her with her need to be trained as a pony. (She's still a pup, and I won't let her forget that (WEG))

I do hope to be able to register by May 1st at the latest. We'll see. As they are coming to their cut off point. Until another time.. be well and I will post aboutt his upcoming weekend in a few days.

Nelson G

For the longest time, one of the most annoying tactics I have been bothered by were profiles that had photo glam shots as their presentation/main photo or those that think that selling their physical body or presenting certain assets as the only thing that matter to get attention.

However, after a recent situation, I am beginning to understand why so many woman do this. The young initate that I have been talking to/mentoring and who I introducted to Collarme.com so she could talk to other like minded subs and other Masters, posted a pic of herself.. a photo I took at the base of my bed when she was on her knees, her beautiful face and smile beaming up at me. This was a very simple picture and she wrote a very simple profile, with one or two blogs of her expereinces with me. I had no problem her saying my name and she was very happy, having met other men who were sincere in their effort in getting to know her. Oh, she got alot of wasted email space and I know many of the men who double talk here becuase of it, but she loved her profile.

However, back to why I understand the need for discretion, especially for many of the woman here.. sub/slave/switch or domme. It is becuase there is to much of a risk for some to be exposed to those who will never understand what they are. My initate, my young mentee is 18. Somehow, her parents found the profile. They confronted her, verbally abused her and attempted to coarce her from seeing me. They called her disgusting, perverted and of course, considered her mentally ill for enjoying the actions she was discovering were part of her. This annoys me. Understanding that she needs her family, I am not trying to create strife, but it does make things difficult for her. I'm not even worried about her parents "threats" toward me for being a older gentleman. (and the fact is, its not even my age, its my RACE that matters to these good "christian" people) I'm worried about how this might stifle the growth of the young B, in her own self confidence as a submissive.

I have not given up. I have still talked to her and met up with her. I will do my best to give her a foundation for this. No matter if our time is limited.. I will make sure she never EVER goes back to nilla. But with her own ability to play the innoccent, she will now know to double up on that Mask we need to put up for all those that will never truly understand what we are. And that my friends, is the saddest cost of it all.

This is just one of my own personal rants. And for those that in the past have felt that they are pressured to expose who they are... remember, words are what truly matter, as long as they are backed up with actions.

Nelson G.

Another long delay.. its been a month since I posted here and I truly have come to realize that in this month.. I have been having a bad time.
First I been ill. I haven't healed completely and may even be a bit more more ill than I realize. My stubborness has stopped me from going to see professional help but at this time, I'm ready to do it. I'm not 100 percent and havne't been for a while. And I need to be if I want to continue living a full life in this lifestyle.

Lets see, since the 22nd of feb.. I have spent three wonderful days with the pup on two seperate occassions. Before her departure to visit old friends and new friends, we shared a very intimate and passionate evening. I know however, that its a momentary thing. Each time I feel I'm getting closer, I realize, I need to make sure I dont.

On her return, I made sure to give her a very seriously sadistic session at the Dungeon. I flogged her intensely and caned her and permitted another of the Local Doms to torture her nipples with a Tens unit. It actually made her cry and thus our night ended.. but it was something that was necessary. I feel that sometimes I am to light on her because I do honestly enjoy seeing her smile and glow with pleasure. It infuses me with her energy and passion. However, I do realize, that she unfortunetly sometimes over extends herself being who she is.. and thus, I get lost in the shuffle.

As for my other play partner, I have caused strife in her life with her loved ones. THey have discovered that I have been training her and have found that she lives for this mentality. Tey think its an illness and have attempted to step between us and have her go to a Dr to talk about her "perverse and wicked thoughts". I feel aggravation toward this, beucase she is not ill. Its such a shame that so many people are narrow minded. Her friends, her family.. they see my race as an issue, more than the age. Thats what really steams me. At 31, to be looked at for my skin color or nationality, shows a deep resonence of the inner prejudice that people have.

My days have felt long and lonely. Honestly, I feel most alive when I'm in the company of one who desires to be the canvas to my brushstroke. At the Dungeon I come to life.. I feel complete, as I have found my place and calling. And in this, I have come to realize, I need one to call My OWN.

Its time for me to move on.. I am tired. And a Tired person makes mistakes. Let this not be one..

Another week of entertaining thoughts & ideas. Still trying to figure out how I can manage Camp Crucible in May. Hmmmm..

With all thats happened recently on my front, I'm just hoping I have the energy and the will to complete the task that are at hand. But I will take a moment off to say.. ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW IS HERE AGAIN!!!! Thats right for all you wild and crazy people.. RIT is holding it yet again, this evening at 830pm.. And I'm bringing TWO.. count them.. TWO Virgins. The wicked and debuach B (who is proving to be an insatiable little wench) and a good friend from the nilla world, who I will just call S. She's a young 19 year old vixen, who if more than willing to wear something frilly and sexy. And Hmmm... If only she could be converted. (laughs) But alas, I will not. She is someone who's a friend and nothing more.

Well, it will be B and the Pup, my friend "S" and myself.. and all the other lovely people that usually show up at these events. Tommorrow, I'll be celebrating my friends 28th birthday. Ah, a two room suite with jacuzzi, unlimtied porn movies and bubbly.. (okay its not fair to imply there is anything between us, as there isn't and wont be.. but hey.. I'll have my tarot cards & floggers for her friends who might.. MIGHT be intruiged in getting to know what i"m about)

Sunday..Recovery.. and work. But Then, with the pup heading off to the west coast, I will try to find time to visit the dungeon and hopefully bring a friend to visit the space. Oh well, we'll find out. UNtil next time...

Nelson G.

The past few weeks have been a contrast of high and low's. From spending time with the wonderful pup and the initiate B, who I am currently going to be seeing in a few... to the low's of finding my account in the negative due to being a co-signer to my ex's now REPOED car... I find myself wondering what is going on to make life such a rollercoaster ride.

I spent some time last week with the pup and enjoyed her company. Helping her with her taxes (truthfully, all I did was type things in as she had her hands tied behind her back and pretty much was helpless), We also cleaned up her room and then we defintely got into a good hard scene, one which played on my sadistic sensual spirit and fed of her masochoistic slave like mind. Our time was short but intense and it was as enjoyable as the first time I took the pup on her first interaction with me.

I also spent time with the young B (the Initiate for those who are not familiar) She and I necked and made out in a car. As she is young and inexpereinced, this was a first and from her own lips, she enjoyed the moment as it was cut short due to her being at work. However we made up for it on Sunday with a quiet moment, watching a movie and getting rather frisky.

During the weekend, I approached a person at my local Karoake Bar that I suspected has a mindset. Little did I know, how right I was. She has the sub spirit and she was suprised how easily I urged her to speak to me about it. We talked in a very loud and full bar and while it could not be as in depth as I would have desired, I got alot out of her, including how her relationship with her husband worked. And her friend, clearly a bit tipsy, made subtle references to her desires to know more about this lifestyle. I will keep you abreast on this situation as perhaps future conversations will give an insight on what they seek.

I also made time to meet up with someone who I had chatted with for over a year and who has been to a local play dungeon here in syracuse, located at a mutual aquitences home. Somehow we have missed each other each and every time, but this time, we met at a local coffee shop and it went well, even though in a moment of Laurel and Hardy, I spilled coffee down my pants. Hot as it was, it missed my most initimate and sensitive areas, though my thigh was slightly burned/scalded. Lucky for me.. I got concern instead of laughter. I met her and her love and they both presented a true dynamic of switch/sub couple. They plan on meeting me again as they now owe me a cup of java.

Well, this is monday.. and in about an hour, B will be here. She is to get a very firm spanking and perhaps a bit of flogging. Unforutenly where I reside isnt very condusive to a flogging. Hmmmm... perhaps one day soon, I'll take her to the Dungeon.

Nelson G.

After my last post, I realized I had forgotten another dynamic to my current high mood of good feelings (if not tiredness).

On Monday, I was able to take some time to spend it with the young initiate. She is such a very willing and apt pupil. She is more kitten than pup, and she is a young brat that desires more discipline than she would care to admit.

As it was, it wasn't our usual 3 to 4 hours of being together, but more like a good 2 hours (she was running late for a tattoo she was getting on her wrist) This little one (who I will refer to as B), realized from the moment she came over that she was in trouble. This was due to the fact that on friday, she met up with me and the pup for a cup of java and she immediately showed her bratty self to me. Deep inside I realized she was testing me to gauge my reaction but she didnt realize how serious I was in the breach of protocol.

She came over and immediately we got into our usual conversation. After a while, she attempted to please me as she craves to do, but pulling her hair, she came to realize, I was going to deprive her of the joy she desired. Moaning and panting, she tried to shake of the fact that I was being serious. After making her admit to why she was being bratty and what caused her to be so openly challenging of my word, the fact that she realzied that I understood her game, deflated her slightly. However, knowing the skill and desire that B has, I gave her a just reward, the lovely taste that she desired on her lips, in her mouth and the joy of knowning that she was back in my good graces.

It was a quiet but sensual moment. Where usually I am hard on her.. (not as hard as I should be as I'm slowly breaking her into this world and mindset), we laid and relaxed.. cuddling and relaxing.. enjoying each others company. One of the things I'm trying to bring to the forefront is that even as a submissive, it is not unheard of to be given attention and ministrations that are beyond the physical. There is a mental and spiritual need for acceptance.

B is a very wonderful little one. She is learning quite well and I am proud to know that even through she wants to run ahead several hundred feet ahead of me, that she is being patient and walking a foot behind me, with me guiding the way and not the other way around.

One other thing about B, she is someone who has issues saying no. She did meet someone else off collarme (which she of course told me about prior to meeting them) and although she desired to serve and please as is her nature, she was unconfortable by this "Dom's" approach. A man who is double her age, and could not keep his hands to himself in public, expresses a weakness of flesh. Sliding hands into a person's panties, unless agreed and specified in negotations prior to set meeting, is not a Dom like but a very horn dog mentality.
While I am one of many who claim labels and titles (and my own name is a joke more than anything).. I understand that a man's true worth in this is his own self control. To have met a person for less than an hour and present yourself in such fashion is in my mind, a clue to the truth self, and not the mask that most are willing to put. As Men, we need to confort and provide a foundation of security if we desire their trust and submission. And that is to be achieved through open dialouge, not as the "GOD-given" right many deem themselves worthy of. But thats my own two cents..

Nelson G.

Today is the 12th of February, two day's before that dreaded holidays most Men realize is not meant in any way, shape or form, a day for them. It?s about sharing and giving honor to the female of the species. The Beloved, the Thrall, the Passionate second or third or fourth in our lives. (Chuckles) I digress. Valentines Day is for the fairer sex. And for those who truly do not reflect the care and affection you should all other 365 days.

Well, I wrote my last blog on the 9th, the day I headed of to the Play party. The day started on a quiet note, I woke up and took care of home matters. I assisted some of my family with shopping. I then picked up my wonderful friend Wildgirl8, who is someone that also partakes in the joy of the society we both are members of. RKS has made us feel very welcomed over the months and now as members, we share with very good people who are truly passionate about this lifestyle and mental connection.

I arrived to meet up with the wonderful playful pup that has honored me in the past by being a wonderful scene partner and someone I can share my craft with. She is the willing canvas that draws my passion to work with my floggers, paddles & canes. It is a joy to watch her dress and she wore a wonderful little piece... a silky red nightie, her Corset and white thigh high stockings in her 6 inch "fuck-me" pumps. A true joy to watch and help dress up.

We made it to RKS for their annual leather and lace party for the special day of V. We enjoyed interacting with a wide group of people and there was a good turn out and new people who were there. It felt good to guide the pup by her leash into the play floor. There we observed for a few minutes wonderful scenes. However, my focus was on working her over. It had honestly been three long months since we had publicly scened at the Dungeon. Walking her toward the whipping post, I attached her wrist to the top of the post over her head and ankle cuffed her to the base of the post. Keeping her in her heels, I knew this would hurt after a while, as anyone who wears these shoes know... they are not meant to be used for long term standing. But it was either that, or caning her feet. and she was not ready for that... "YET"

Getting her into the mindset, I spoke words of encouragement and blindfolded her so she could focus on my ministrations. Working her with an assortment of our tools, I took her up and down the path of pain and pleasure. It was a welcomed avenue for her. The joy that radiated of her as I worked her over. We got a good response, which she was not aware of as others observed us from a fair distance and murmured words of approval. This originally spurred me but soon it faded as my focus was just on this wonderful canvas, one who took it with much ado and craved more. After flipping her over so I could work on her back, I also got her to ask me to take her shoes off which she realized would lead to her feet being caned. She didn?t murmur much more than acceptance that what I desired this night was to be.

After a wonderful hour or so (time seems too dissipated after a while) I took her to the public sit down area to relax. Guiding her by her leash and blindfolded still, We walked and sat down to cool down and re-hydrate ourselves. We talked to our mutual Friends W and M. They are a solid honest relationship, not just M/s, but boyfriend/girlfriend. They are young and it seemed something was troubling them. They sat with us, talked and we agreed to work in a co scene together. Both M and the pup were eager to please. Guiding them back in, we let them observe a mutual friend of ours, sadie and her Master work on the same whipping post I had put the pup through her paces.

While they observed, W and I discussed what we would like to see this evening. I envisioned using the padded cage and a spanking bench. W agreed and then bending the pup over the spanking bench but attaching her wrist to M wrist who was bent over the cage, we kept them tied wrist to wrist.. leaning across each of their objects and looking at each other.. to draw of each others energy. With the assistance of one of the DM's, Devon, who had this wonderful Heavy flogger, we had them tied down and positioned so their bottoms were well exposed and their backs were well spread out. Tying their legs afterwards, they were completely at our mercy and it was wonderful. As a reward, The DM who assisted us was given a moment to use his heavy flogger on the pup, who took it well and felt it as a beginning warm up for the next 90 minutes of non-stop working them over.

As we started, the music was deep and melodic.. it helped to my erotic rhythmic caning. From Cane, to Crop, to flogger.. to paddle to edge play. Back to spanking and pinching and hair pulling. Their moans of pleasure, their yelps of pain and excitement.. was music to our ears. M was paddled and flogged and while she is sometimes hard to read, she truly enjoyed. W and I exchanged several times during the 90 minutes, working on the others play partner. Sadie's Master even got in on the pup, as He was in a sadistic mood and wanted to work his mark onto her willing body. And The DM, came back to assist in using a single tail, a true weapon of the craft and left several beautiful streaked welts on her bottom.

We ended the night with both the wonderful girls oohing and aahing in painful pleasure. The cool down was very relaxing and then we headed off on our own ways. The rest of the evening (as it was already 230am) was just spent cooling down, having something to bite to fulfill our hunger and re-hydrating ourselves before we blissfully ended up going to sleep.

I enjoy these sojourn's I take to the dungeon. And it makes it much more enjoyable to know I have shared it with someone who truly revels in my passion. The time for this is limited as Life doesn?t always give much opportunity and with current circumstances being what they are, these moments might be even further to come. But I look back at this with a smile, knowing, that all one needs is their passion, their wit and their skill to make such things possible.

I can't wait Till Camp Crucible in May. Pan-sexual passion and wicked intentions aside, I know I need a weeks worth of a lifetime of experiences. I wonder if the pup is available? (wicked grin)

Nelson G.

I could rant here about alot of the negative things going on currently in my life. I can rant about some of the things that are coming back to haunt me from my past. But I want to put this on a positive note.

Last night was to be Rocky Horror Picture show night. Due to a misunderstanding between the troupe and the location they were performing, the performence was cancelled to be made up on the 22nd of this month. I truly was looking forward to it as I needed time to laugh.

I reconnected however with a friend who needed a guiding and helping hand. She is going through alot and we talked in person as earlier in the day she snapped at me on the phone. So that did end well.

I did have the pup I play with meet my newest initiate. We sat at Borders and enjoyed talking to each other and it was a very interesting meeting. My lovely initiate, who is quite young, was being rather bratty and challenging in front of the pup. It was nice to have that change of pace. But she knows that come Monday when she comes to me for her session, that she will pay for her transgressions. IN the most intimate of ways of course.

Tonight, I will go to the RKS party. The pup will keep me company. We have not scened publicaly in almost three months time and I have a personal scene I want to work on. I feel another Marathon session coming. I will also spend the night and my intentions are obvious.. I am thirsting. And I need to satiate my thirst.

Positive energy. That is what I strive for. Lately the negative of the world.. at the strike of the New Year, at the induction of the chinese calander.. I have felt a great upheavel in the enviorment. I honestly have found myself on guard to many attacks.. both personal and impersonal. Emotionally this has been draining. But I blessed, in having several wonderful people in my life that inspire my blood to come to life and my mind to aspire to greatness. I do so look forward to my eventual departure of this realm.. but I'm making the best of it while I'm here.

Nelson G.

Wonderful evening at the Dungeon. Wonderful scenes. From the Cupping workshop to the Rough Body Play workshop. Both the demo girls were wonderful and both put alot of energy into it and the presenter EdNinjae was very good at bringing his style of play to the forefront. A man who is a caring Sadist and has passion for his work.

I enjoyed watching the rest of the scenes through the night.. several mummifications, several straight jackets scenes and yes, Good electric play from Tens-unit and Violent Wands. The suspension scene with mummification were nice as well as well as the Edge play from several of the Doms who are Edge Masters.

And to see a well trained little girl by her Daddy Dom.. she was very vocal and very creative in the use of the sign to be her trigger. I enjoyed it.

I did not play but I took alot out of this evening. I also realized I was more than fine not playing since I'm taking some Me TIME

Yes it was a good time. I will now wait till the 9th to play. I have decided the next two weeks are me time. Its not that I will avoid people, but I think, I need to recharge my batteries. I am finding a need to hibernate and then burst out running.. running to be free.

Okay, let me try this again. I have attempted to do this journal about 3 times and each time It got deleted or didnt go through.

Wonderful weekned coming up. Heading up to Rochester, to RKS and going to enjoy two wonderful workshops. One is a cupping class that might intergrate some fireplay. The other is defintely my type of workshop.. a Rough body play workshop with includes all the levels of physical, rough play... including the ripping of your partners articles of clothing. Always a good thing in my eyes.

On a serious note, I have been having quite a dificult time sleeping. Part of it has to be that my mind is scatterred and my sleeping habits are skewered. IT doenst make it easier that each time I see the pup, she has a skewered sleeping habit and we never sleep. or sleep way of kiltered.
Lets see.. outside of the Function this weekned, I Have had the joy of mentoring a young lass who seems to have a flair for this lifestyle. She is attentive, willing to listen if not a bit bratty. But brattiness is not a bad thing. Its just something to be honed and sculpted wiht patience and discipline.

I introducted her to this website and hopefully she'll get good information from other Sub/slaves, as well as Dommes and other Male Doms, as long as they are respectful. After all, she knows respect is a two way street. She knows as sub/slave, that she still needs to be respected as a person. Its a joy to find someone who wants to learn and desires to share of themselves with you.

I will update this journal in a few days. I will tell you all about this wonderful weekned. I also need to update my profile and defintely change a few pics. My vote is to keep 8 out of 15 pics. Vote for your favorites and let me know.

Nelson G.

SO here is my thought. Yes. what wicked actions cum to mind when one sits in his room and reads a book of sadistic erotica? Hmmmm.

I promised myself this year that I would not cheat myself of new experiences. And I have not. However, I do regret not attending F.F althought a few good friends defintely made it a memorable weekend.

This past year was a truly a learning & growing expereince. And I have become a more intense individual becuase of it. What I knew before, has not been reinforced and I now desire to OWN that slave that needs to be guided and harnessed and cherished. I need to feel that cold steel around her neck as I firmly hold on to that metal leash as I guide her across the floor as the possesison she is meant to be. And I desire other's to see her for what she is.. Treasured Pet, Desired Possession, wonderful Slave to her Lord and Master.

My name.. Master Lord Guru. Please.. we all know it was meant as a Joke. But I can't seem to dispell the joke enough. So I dont desire anymore fasle mask and will say it.. Nelson G. For any who reads my blogs, for those that know me as the Man I am, friends and aquitences and enemies alike.. It is Nelson G.

Hmmm.. such wicked decadent thoughts have run through my head these days. I desire my tattoo and I do hope my friend who does henna tattoo can design it to my liking. Even if she doesnt, I have an idea of how I desire it and I will have it by the beginning fo spring. That I swear.

Camp Crucible is on my agenda. I am going to it. And again let me emphasize that.. I AM GOING. Let that be no mistake.

Well, its almsot 1am.. and I need rest. My dream cycle is skewered and I need to commune with my dark self. May Thoth Grant you peace and may Morphues Grant you slumber and peace.

Nelson G.

Yes, it is January 4th. According to my history, back on Jan 4th, 1977, at 741am, a young man was born. And his journey Began.

As you have probably figured that Man was me. Today is my Birhtday and I will say to myself what others may or may not say to me..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Thank you Pup. For giving me a wondeful conversation. Thank you to my father who did call, My mother who did call early this morning. Thank you to all those that do remember. I am in a mood. IT happens. That time of year. But I will move on, and like the Ouroboros that will be tattoed on my flesh in the shape of the Infinity Ribbon, the Eternal Ankh and the Symbolisms of the Ying/Yang and the Three fluted symbol of the Triskilian. I feel a rebirth is happening.

It has been a wonderful end of the year, even with the filled drama of family. I look forward to 2008. New Growth, New Experiences. Who knows what road me and my favorite people will travel. Perhaps togehter, perhaps not. But I thank the road for leading me to them and them to me.

God.. its COLD. I really need to relocate. Something warmer.

Reposting the MIND FUCK-------------------The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.I do love to entice and seduce. I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new level of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

Black Rose was a wonderful event. A truly exquisite and informative learning experience. The wonderful people I met were people that I will look forward to seeing in future events. And yes, there will be future events. Camp Crucible is my next event. I will be there.

While things were not always structured in a fashion that I am use to, it was good to get out of the box and learn from so many craftsmen and artist. The people who were there, were Masters in their craft and even those who weren't brought a special type of energy that made the expereince so worthwhile.

Overjoyed with the friends I went with and left with. The lovely pup learned and got so much out of the weekend that the only thing we truly regret is that it had to end after three days (for her, two for me). Thats why Camp crucible is my goal.. 6 days... of pure unadulterated Hedonistic Bliss.

Mmmmm..... I can't wait to find a new canvas.

Okay the day before black rose begins.. all packed.. ready to go to work and head out to Rochester to head out with Torch... then meeting up with Rya and Brett/Sydney and Sadie... its going to be an awesome weekend.
I know I will end up meeting some good and wonderful people. I can't wait to expereince the joy of getting to know others in the lifesytle. This is what I personally am striving for.. growth and good times with good people.

The past is the past, the Lost is lost and the New is here. Revel in it.. Carpe Diem. Sieze the moment.. and make it yours.. be well.

M.L.G

Well, we're less than two weeks away from Black Rose. It is going to be an exciting time. Here I am sitting, before heading of to work but I needed to write this down before I left.

I enjoyed a wonderful and fun filled weekend with good friends, and good companions. We enjoyed a wonderful time at the play party. Being there with the wonderful pup Rya, is always an adventure. Joining us were our Friends M and T.. and our friends Wildgirl8 and Torch with his guest Candy and our new recruit to the lifestyle Rob. We enjoyed good times. Saw a wonderful wax play scene, edge play scene and then I had the opportunity to put the lovely Rya in a helpless over the head suspension.. (with feet on the ground unforuntely.. the wrist cuffs were not designed to hold all her weight) ...

But keeping her in that position, strung up and blindfolded, I went to work on her body.. front and back.. from down near hear feet to her neck... up an down, nipple clamps and all. She was paddled, she was cropped, she was flogged, she was spanked, she was bitten and clawed and choked.. and she took it all. Even in her most intense and pained moments, she didn't cry out to stop.. but to just voice her aunguish, to know she was at my mercy. To run the knife down her neck and her body.. to press it agianst her skin and have her whimper.. to feel her pulse running through her, at the edge of my fingertips.. that is pure pleausre.. to feel her her body shudder in delight & Fear.. that is pure wicked joy. And I revel in that.

Mmmm.. thinking about it makes me want it again. I think.. Tuesday evening I will have to re-enact it again. And if any read this and desire to be the canvas to my more wicked and sadistic needs, do not hesitate to ask.

M.L.G

Well its confirmed... BLACK ROSE, Here I come. And I have the pleasure of spending it with the lovely pup, Rya, a true believer and lover of the lifestyle. Torch, who has made this possible by actually being able to assist us with booking us a hotel room and his lovely guest honey-leather.. who I have yet to meet but have heard some very nice things about.

I do hope this finds you all well, It is a short note, nothing deep & profound but I will write something original soon. And repeat my "mind fuck post" .. be well and find shade to all.

Ah... another day.. another thought. Hump day has come and with it another hurdle has been achieved. This past weekend was a wonderful weekend. I got to spend it with good friends, with a wonderful pup and cherished moments.

I drove up with a friend from Syracuse who has become a recent member of RKS. Wildgirl8 to those who know her here on collarme.com... she was a fairygothMother. I was able to dress like a spectre and we ended up meeting with fellow RKS members Torch and his guest Candy. It was a wonderful meeting time for them three, but what made my weekend was that I had the lovely Pup, Rya at my beck and call. She was such a lovely sight.. in a very dark goth like catholic school girl motif. For that reason, I had lollipops and a ruler. Mmmm.. she was such a delight to have beside me. But that wasnt all. Two of our mutual friends.. W (who is male) and M (who is female), were able to join us. As RKS has now lowered their age to 18, it has allowed some younger members & this allowed "M" to be there.

As observers, they saw me enjoy Rya. I was a bit more sadistic than usual, but I knew it was time to let go of some of my own restraints.. as I have been to soft on the lovely pup. She was a trooper and took it with hardly a complaint. She truly looked exquisite, steel chains holding her in place; Crop, Paddle, flogger, hand and other assorted goodies used on her soft full bottom and her luscious breast. This of course enticed "M" to play and she and "W" decided to do so. It was a very very enticing and erotic scene.. "M" had "W" who was a naughty dominatrix type Police woman tied to the St. Andrews Cross and then a bench where he spanked and flogged her and cropped her..

He then suprised me by offering me an opporutnity to put my skills on her soft flesh and I did.. with much energy and pleausre. not only that but Rya and her got very erotically stimulated that both were put through their paces by both me and "W"

WE ended our scening after I tied and chained Rya on the school desk prop and had her bent over the desk while attaching her wrist, collar together and her ass sticking out.. where I truly went wicked.. with the crops coming down with the sound of hte music and other floggers in the play area.. I had her writhing in pleasure and pain.. (soft sigh) it was wonderful. That night.. we were able to all head out for a nice Nightcap at denny and back to a relaxing evenig.. overall a wonderful weekend..

Mmmmmm. I now know that I will be a member of RKS soon and I was thankful and appreciated the kind offers of the board members who offerred to Sponsor me. Greatly appreciated. I will defintely accept a sponsor and I will join soon so that I can have more growth and experience in a sound and safe enviorment. I look toward to the next Party I'm able to attend. With friends and good people like those I'm meeting, I am not 100 percent sure, there is no turning back from what I have desired. There is contentness in this moment of clarity.

Lately, many thoughts float through my head. And as I come online to check emails, respond to friends and new connectinos, I find myself being listless. I do not know why. I am truly in a good zone. I am connecting with genuine warm and affectionate people and have made new strides in my own personal growth. But I feel listless.

There is a routine that i'm going through. And it is actually part of my problem. I feel constrained, or stagnent. I know I'm not. That is what is weird. It may be that I"m still not at 100 percent. It is not an excuse but a possibility.

The last few weeks have been very enjoyable indeed. From connecting to the lovely pup, and introducing a few new people to a mentality and lifestyle they were not aware they could ingrain themselves... it has been highly productive. And as I refine some of my own skills and pick up and learn more skills, I am enjoying my immersion this time around after walking away 7 years ago. The year here on collarme.com has come and gone and as I hit my 18 months on this website, I can say without a shadow of a doubt that I have made some truly unique connections out here.

The following weeks to come will be rather interesting. I have been invited to BlackRose. I am wondering if its a feasible thing for me. I will do my best to make sure I put an effort to go.

I woke up this day after a very hard slumber. I notice that my eyes are heavy, my mind is troubled and my body feels like lead. Fall is in the air and usually there is such joy in such a moment. And recalling my weekend, I feel suffused with pleasurable joy, however this day, HUMP day for many is truly like a huge ant hill that stands in my way...

I recall this weekend. Spending last thursday with the lovely pup that I have been sharing a wonderful bond with, I was able to make this pup lose herself in ways that she has been desiring & never achieved. And when one can be compared and complimented on their skill for helping one reach one of the deepest levels of need and release.. it does make a spirit SHINE. And this weekend, My soul was ablaze and my spirit was glowing. A wonderful experience indeed.

Spending time with some very good friends, sharing some very deep and personal moments, finding joy in lost opportunities and and understanding of new happiness. It was good to see two out of the Three Amigas and share a moment. Then off to visit the pup again, and a weekend of debuach joy. From one moment to another...

It started with her birthday Spanks. 8 people.. 23 spanks each time.. padded heart shaped leather paddle. After rubbing her down and changing her, walking back into the living room, only to find some of our guest already enjoying themselves. From being tied to a chair, strapped, whipped, paddled, cropped, flogged, slapped and choked.. to an introduction of a newbie into the lifestyle. His crash course was learning he was very much into the pleasing/subservient aspect of the lifestyle. Very VERY switchy. But he found joy in it. Having the attention of One True Domme, Two strong switches and one very relaxed pup, I cannot say he didnt have a shit eating grin on his face.

Truly, an improntu play party came out of this birthday party. The mix of people made this one of the best gatherings I have been at and being among friends and good aquitences made it easier for all. The confort level was very high. From flogging and cropping my pup, I had the luxary of flogging two ohter people that night and then two other people the following night.

Hmmmm. thinking about it, makes me crave the wicked touch of a nuaghty pup I know. I think I will have to see her again soon.

M.L.G

A short poem I wrote a few weeks back.. nothing special, but something that I felt was coming out.. hope you enjoy.

---Nelson

Unititled

Ashes to Dust, filling the air

Grinding and pounding that which is (not) fair

Pleasure inflamed to a pointed Tip

Whipping and flaying the willing flesh till it slowly rips

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Long strokes that build with a consistent beat

While those that observe it, sit on the edge of their seat

Powerful and direct, bringing to fore

The words that will echo throughout, ?More, More, Give me MORE?

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Lighted and charged with a firm loving hand,

With calloused hands that run over like the coarsest sands.

Caressed and cared for by his visceral gaze

Your mind ablaze and lost in torment within a labyrinth maze

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Home is where his hand directs;

His warmth enveloping your willing flesh

His eyes wandering to where you feed and satiate his passion.

As you count down the moments to the moment of action.

He takes you into his warm embrace.

And within his darkness, lights up as you gaze at his face.

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His words echo throughout your being.

?Mine you are, Mine you will be.

Let it be known, and they will be privileged to see.?

Within, you smile your secret smile as you realize

All you seek, you now have.

Home is where his hand guides you.

Home is where his WILL claims you should be.

Home is that feeling of steel on your neck,

?Home little one is a place that for you, as well as for me.?

Home is the place, where you know you?re finally free.?

As I get older, I realize how much this lifestyle, this mentality, this passion for being this creature of control, permeates my every thought and pore. It is like a caged animal ready to tense and pounce as soon as the door is open. And I must say.. It is wonderful.

To be on the edge of losing control, but still holding onto it by a fingernail. There is a thrill in knowing that as I wrap my fingers around one's neck.. or my hand comes down with the flogger/whip/paddle.. that they are at my mercy and that one moment of losing myself in my lust can truly give them a memory that will be emblazed in their minds eye. I am enjoying discovering new depths to my nature. I am truly cherishing these new paths as even through I have known and participated in this lifestyle off and on for 11 years, it goes to show that there is still so much to learn and delve into.

Fire play is my newest desire. It makes it easier that a pup of mine desires to know more about the sensations of it. But others that I have talked to would love to be under the loving embrace of the flickering strength of the flame. I will try to talk to those who are more adept at this skill and see what can be done to improve my skills in this area.

I also have this desire to own a single tail whip and Violent wand. Both are tools of the trade I desire for the simple reason that I am expanding my repotoire and I do have the willing canvas to practice on and introduce into.

mmmm.. I am craving flesh. Soft, supple, delectable flesh. To draw succor on.... to leave marks on.. to hear and feel the sting of my touch.. mmmm.. how long can you hold out?

M.L.G

A few days have gone by but thats how long its taken me to find the time to sit down and speak of whats on my mind.

This weekend went pretty much as was thought out and planned out. Meeting MasterRyde, a fellow gentleman and firm disciplinarian who truly gives credit to what we are striving for in this lifestyle, was truly a solid meeting. We established ourselves as Sadist, Men of like mind and desires who wanted to give our mutual Pup an experience she would well remember years from now.

The pup. She was beautiful as she always is. Her eyes were glowing with the unquenching fire of her passions. Guided and harnessed by two strong Mins and Souls, she was given a flogging that earned more than a fair share of approval from those observing. Even a warm and appreciative compliment was given to her by one of the older more crotchery board members, made her day. "You are a joy to watch" This brightened her day just as much as watching one of her friends get harnessed and put through her paces by her Master.

3 hours of play at the party. Three hours of play at the hotel. The pup got her bone and then some. She was used the way a pup desired to be used. Paddled, flogged, Cropped, spanked, choked. Close to two hours on the St. Andrews Cross. A good 30 minutes on the suspended platform. And then after we were able to put her through her paces, we went back to the hotel room where she truly earned stripes and bruises. And to finally lock her up in her cage for the well earned rest she earned.

This was just one weekend. There will be many more to cum. And cum they will.

M.L.G

Tonight is the Night. Ill as I have been, and even now with a dry cough, and a sometimes runny nose, I know I am not at 100 percent but I will overmedicate myself if necessary to be functional for this wonderful evening. Today, Pup Rya, MasterRyde and myself work in unision to fulfill some of our more baser and debuach needs.

It will be a night of valor and bravery, yes. thats what priates fought for, yes? Of course NOT!! It will be a night of conquest, booty and yes.. MORE BOOTY!! From Rags to Riches,, from Clothed to Rags.. Wenches and slaves alike.. argh.. a Harem of delights in a dungeon of sadistic pleasures. My concentration will be on the pup that brings me into this realm as she is Member and I am guess. And as MasterRyde and I have come to agree, this is not about us, but her. And we will enjoy what charms and wit she presents and then take what we both desire as the night concludes. What glorious divinine joys we are to experience from one who is made for such use.

Mmmm.. oh yes. Neither Rain or Sleet Or Snow, or Illness will keep this One from his appointed task... to whip and paddle and spank and flog this little pup from pillar to post, from plank to rack.. from Cross to the bed.. and MasterRyde helpful hands and devious mind working to make it so. I soooo look forward to this..

Good morning to all. It has been a very weird few weeks since last post. I have been able to see a lovely pup who now has another's slave name added to her own. It is a beautiful name and I can only congratulate her on such a worthy name. I will be spending sometime this weekned with her and the other Dom, a first for both of us. It should be an interesting meeting.

As for myself, I have been to a worked non stop, been to a play party here in Syracuse at my lovely friends house, she has a beuatiful dungeon set up.. and then went to a funeral this past monday.. only to almost die by falling asleep at the wheel and driving or the road. I also got very sick.. still am sick.. have a deep chest congestion and a stuffy head. My only hope is to be well enough for this weekend.

I have been thinking alot of the road that I am on. The fact is that I am not always pleased with the road that I travel, means that I have to take the proper steps to correct myself. I have made new aquietences, new friends and met some genuine souls that have lighted up some of the shadows of my life. But I must move on. My time is coming.. 31 is not that far away. I am ready for the next chapter in my life and continue my journey.

Mmmmm.. I think, I need something soft, something wet and something filling. Who can provide that for me?

M.L.G

At someone's request.. I am posting the "MIND FUCK".. I admit.. its been a few months.. so here we go..................................Reposting the MIND FUCK-------------------The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.I do love to entice and seduce. I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new level of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

Flesh to Flesh.. cheek to cheek.. Hand to throat. The pulsing of her passion... I feel it as I squeeze and her her soft moan.. her slight opening of the eyes as they flutter..

This weekend was beuatiful. Meeting a very wonderful young woman I have chatted with.. to feel her kisses and her passion. And as she offerred herself to me.. showering me with her affection and desire, I gently spoke the words.. "No". Her desire was still smoldering, her want was apparent, but I was going to remain true to my word... "No"..

I knew she would regret it. I need her to burn the other out of her system.. to get bored with his ways and his touch. Only then.. ONLY then, will she desire my touch so much more. And it will happen. That No was Yes.. but she is young, she wasnt' aware how she is being set up.. she will be taken.. willingly but without choice.

I went again to my trip.. to visit my lovely pup. And as always.. her passion burns.. her eyes light with desire and need is intense. She seeks my touch. It fulfills her. "Master" is the word that escapes her lips. I dont ask her to call me that. She does so becuase it is natural.. it is right. She is a pet, a lovely desired and adored cherished pet.. a slave in spirit and heart. When she spreads wantonly as the prize slut she is, she knows my appreication for her deepens. I dont call her those names just to call her names. I call her those names beucase it is what she desires, it is what fulfills her cravings.

I roughly take her.. over and over.. I revel in the deepness of the connection. She knows how strongly this connection is. She knows of my other desires, my passions and the other girls that I talk to and share with. She continues to tell me to do so.. as I tell her how I enjoy hearing of her enjoyments with others..

We are connected.. eye to eye.. mind to mind.. body to body.. and It is deep. Not just words spoken, or unspoken.. it is in the air.

She reads this.. I know she does.. And I hope the pup knows.. FEELS.. the need that builds in him. For it will be a while before he feels her away..a nd then.. he must share her with another who will be joining them. And while that is something he know's is bound to happen.. HE wants her.. just as the other wants her. but HE Is "Master". That makes the difference in all of this.

There is alot of to talk about and I will tommorrow.. Wonderful weekned.. mmmm.. can't wait till the end of this month.. great times galore.

As it is.. Two new pics... enjoy them.. tell me what you think.

Nelson

I thirst. I need to consume. I need to ravish. I need to pull hair, wrap my hand around someones neck and squeeze.. to see their eyes gaze at me in need and craving.. to feel the sting of their cheek on my palm.. their ass reddened by my hand and paddle and crop..

I need to hear the moans as I slide my fingers into them.. my mouth trailing the lengh of her body.. down and further down to draw succor from the essence of her pleasure.

I need flesh.. I crave it.. I want it. I am patient. I will have it. Again, and again and again.

IN the meanwhile, who is intruiged in wanting this?

M.L.G

Good evening to all..

Its been an intruiging two weeks and this one is not getting any easier. Spent a wonderful weekend, last one with a wonderful pet/slave that I have been fondly seeing when time permits and shared a very deep and magical time at a play party that made our connection much stronger for it. I look forward to the next play party where we could revel even more in our wants and needs but for now, have written what I saw that night when we were there. Only a few select will get to read this.. as it is very sensual and profound.

I was able to see this lovely creature again during the week and we shared a wonderful time doing two very simple nilla things.. a fair and a baseball game. She was game for both even though it was a compromise on her parts. This time, we shared a wonderful normal time together and nothing of the lifestyle got involved. It was very nice indeed.

As she is now elsewhere for the weekend, I am going to visit family. My time is very limited here so this is all I can type. but I will be back on Monday and then will talk a bit more about what is going on and what is up on my calander..

Peace be with you all.

M.L.G

Had a wonderful weekend. Details are to come but I wanted to pass a quick note to the one who invited me.

Thank you. For letting me dwell deeper into the mindset and enjoying what I knew was always more than just a thought. To act out my inner being and make it the reality it has always desired to be.

A lovely pet, a wonderful sub and a wicked delight. A friend of course, but oh so much more decadent desires to come to be.

And of course the wonderful people of the group who did make this soul feel welcomed. Ultimately, this expereince has let me rediscover a new road for my future travels.

Edited: Hello all. I wrote this post yesterday but it was pointed out that I was doing this in poor taste and I must agree. While I am amused by the whole concept, using the name of the person who typed this out is a bit child like and I admit it. I respectfully removed his name but if any desire to do me the favor of cutting and pasting this, email me for the childs name. Usually I dont react to tidbits like this but this once, I feel like just being a bit petty. (laughs) Thank you all for the kind words and yes, the real sincere words.

M.L.G
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Ah, a wonderful wonderful day. Its not HOT. Its cool. On the East coast, the high of 69. (How more perfect can that be) Going to spend some time relaxing and hitting the bookstore before heading of to work.

Now, this particular blog is in response to a wonderful WONDERFUL man that I have had the joy of poking with a Electric Cattle prod, becuase he probably needs some guidence and I'm asking any who read my blog to take a moment and repost this to him via an email. After all.. he was able to convey his negative words toward me without giving me the proper time to respond to him, prior to his BLOCKING me. I'm sure it was an oversight on his part. (laughs) Okay.. here is what I did. In response to a very creative (Okay I'm making that up, as I dont think theres creative energy in a person like him).. email he sent to a very lovely lass I know, I sent a very enjoyable and pleasing email to him, telling him in an articular fashion.. what he should do to grow up. And this my friends is the response I got..

(NAME HELD OUT IN RESPECT TO RULES OF COLLARME.COM on 8/20/07 at 7:17 AM:

	All you faggots in NY are the same FAGGOTS and n!gger lovers i would put you on your knees just like the whore.Have a great day PUNK.(cutting out his name again) Okay so I thought that perhaps.. just perhaps I could respond to him in another very articulate letter but guess what the child did? He did the same thing he did to my friend when she told him in (let me tell you, they were kind words that clearly were not going to affect a child like him) He blocked her. And so.. here is my response to his very well thought out email.. if anyone can cut and paste it and send it to him.. let him know that your only passing a note from another and that if he truly desires to exchange his highly skilled verboise reportaire with me, I'd be more than happy to return the favor. Thank you.

my response to his email

Wow.. a very articulate, riddled laced response. Nothing of what I expected. CLearly Master (choose a letter, again, not going to use his child like name) doesn't stand for an M.D. Are we sure its Master and not sissy D? Or Mrs D?
I know.. I know.. Little white cock sniffing Baby D?

The word faggot rolls of your tounge with such passioned vehemence. Listen, we understand. As a young white boy in the south surrounded by the Virile Black speciman in a time of unrest and retribution, I am sure that your own questioning of your desires frightens you. Here on collarme.com, there is a very big support group for the little white boys who desire Real men to show them how its done.

Honestly, nothing you said was shocking. I doubt you can expand your vocubulary past the words you have use. Seriously.. I lived in the south once. And the lack of true education is not suprising. Faggots, n!gger lovers, whore and punk? Seriously, no better comebacks? no true witticisms? Didnt Daddy scrub that mouth out with soap? (Okay.. I'm sure the white milky substance in your mouth wasn't soap, but it may explain your anger) Listen, son.. I like yah. No seriously, I do. I'm sure if we clean you up very nicely, we can make a good sissy out of you. I"m sure that one of our good and well raised wigga's would like a nice southern piece of ass like yourself. Me? I'll settle for that nice pup that I you decided to insult. Multi-orgasmic and truly desirable.. hmmm. Its a shame.. you could have tapped that with proper time.. but you have no patience for this lifestyle.

This is the problem with you and your kind. This is not a kink. This is a lifestyle. This is a very wonderful life with many many benefits, not a fantasy you use to jerk off because you remember all the wicked things that happened to you and your sisters and mother from an abusive, alcholic father or step father. Thats right, I'm sure its one of the two. After all, when its easy to take and claim.. its not truly worth the effort is it?

Pass a hello to your loving family. I am sure they have come to terms with what you are. Here.. have a bite.

The Lord Above, the Midnight Sun.

Joy is an infusion of all things coming into sync.. the wave matching total equilibrium.

My life is JOY. There is much peace and tranquality in my mindset. There is choas in the horizen. I see it. AND I await its torrential downpour.

Do not mistake the fact that the scales must be balance. I am reveling in my good forture. The people who have truly entered my life that have infused me with an unlimited amount of energy, and given me the foundation for the growth of my craft, who have become the willing canvas to my sadistic needs and touch.

I know that many DOMS feel a need to Domineer and CONTROL every object of their lives. And in that process they lose a part of themselves. and forget the joy of the road.. the joy of the journey and the growth that comes from it. I have been told in the past that DOMS sometimes feel threathend by another's abilities. I dont see how this shoudl be the case.

Imagine, a world that you know EVERYTHING.. and I mean EVERYTHING. So tell me.. where is the challenge? Where is the motivation? What hope of growth comes from KNOWING everything> There is none.. it is hopeless and a chasm and like the eternal Ouroboros.. you end up eating you own tail until there is nothing left.

I admire other DOMS. SOme who truly are skilled, I respect and admire and even stand in awe. I am good in my particular subject. I have my way of being the Strong Will man that I am. I bend what I Need to by will, not physical domineering. I am a True Master of the Mind. And when I hear exploits of other Dom's/Masters and the talents they have with their whip, their paddles, their floggers.. their presentations.. their casual sadistic detachment.. their ability to come up with very creative ways to bring the basic of needs to the forefront in ways never considered before.. I am truly TRULY impressed. Becuase it is a talent that I have not honed and even if I did, I would tilt my head to one who LIVES for it.

To all my fellow DOMS.. I Salute you as AC/DC would say. And to those lovely slaves/subs/pets/(countless names) I say.. be free, die young and live 4ever. Hmmm.. thats a slogon. I think a Lilin might like that.. (Murmers as he fades into the darkened shadows)

Slave. Slave spirit. Slave Soul. The facets of one who is truly slave to the lifestyle differ with each person you ask and those who see differences within the levels of submission. A submissive is not a slave. And not all Slaves are submissive. Yes, its true. Not all slaves are submissive.

What has led me to believe this? Becuase slaves have an innate sense to please and bring pleasure to those they service. It is not a need to submit, but a drive to give of themselves unselfishly. A submissive has to give of themselves with a conscious effort, because it is a choice to give up their control.

That being said, I have met true submissives, and true slaves in my life. And in my most recent of days, the special submissive that I know has become slave.. Slave in spirit, Slave in heart and Slave soul to the force of my will, has put a smile on my face that is infectious.

The last two weeks have been very.. enticing indeed. Pup & slave, submissive inclined thoughts from those who desire to give to their inner cravings.. and the possibility of a few more connections in the lifestyle have made me look at my particular path and realize that I'm doing the right things. Now I just need to find that extra oomph to finish my delayed projects.

Motivation has always been the key to our successes. I unfortunetly have allowed external agents to have affected me to the point where I allowed my own progress to stall. And then those that desired to influenace or motivate me did so in such ways that resentment came to light. And I dont feel that i need to waste my time and energy resenting those that desired to help me.

So many thoughts in my mind. Focusing on the few things that will make a different in my life.. thats what I"m doing. Hmmm.. the warmth is slowly fading. Which is fine, but the problem with this is that Winter will be setting in.

Thank you for the touches. For the Kisses. For the intimate sounds that left your body.. from mouth to your most sweetest centers. Yes, I enjoy the control and I took control that is MINE by right of being who I am. It was a pleasure to inflame your lust, to make you lose yourself to your slave c*nt.. and make yourself available to my wicked decadent ways. And it was Natural to give in to my contol. For that alone, You have earned my respect.

Ah.. the days are not fast enough. I need an adventure. I need create of lust & passion. I need fire.

Mmmm.. there have been some very good days and some humdrum days lately. But I am glad to know that I am ALIVE.

And for those that remind me that LIFE is experiencing, taking, conquering and finding your place in life needs fulfillment in the mental, physical and spiritual means.. thank you.

I must thank the special pup that has thorougly reminded me that timing is everything. And all things have a place and a moment. And when you lost that moment, .. Dont give up.. Just make a new MOMENT.

New pics on my profile. And a reminder for those who have never EVER read my Mind Fuck moment.. that This is why I am who I am..

(Repost)

The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked, one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the physical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none.

In the processs of being mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self. I do love to entice and seduce. I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality.

Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new level of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar
"tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and Mind of one who is truly mind fucked.

I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord. Yes that is ego speaking, but Its more than just talk. Let me show you. Come into my domain.

The end of the summer is close. Oh yes, its only Augest 2nd. But doesnt it feel like summer has come and gone? Sure its 95 right now outside my door. And the humidity reminds you its summer. But Gods, the summer is flying.

Joy is a rare thing to experience and I realize that I have not been "enjoying" myself as much as I desire. For a while, I was but then one falls into a rut of routine. And thats a shame.

I do know one thing however, Once The fall is here, I will not be around. Online that is. I will probalby be working 10 to 14 hour days becuase I do need to focus on making a progression forward in my life. I have enjoyed the lull in my life to the amount that I can, it is time to move forth.. Alone if need be.

This is a bit of tangent, but I have come to understand that I desire affection. I desire to touch, caress and feel my charge at the tip of my fingers and at hte tip of my tounge. When one cringes at touch, can't give even a simple hug or a kiss, that is an unacceptable format for me. I am deserving of the affection that I desire. I bestow my gift of appreciation and my warmth and of course, my knowledge and skill. So is it wrong to desire affection?

Mmmm.. going to head out today. Going to enjoy a quiet day, read a good book and drink some java. And observe human interaction. And then go to work. I may go for a ride tommorrow. The north country sounds inviting.

May you all find shade this warm day. And stay hydrated.

Ah, a Beautiful Saturday morning here in CNY. I look at the sky and although it is slightly grey, there is a hint of blue and Sun. It is slightly warm but not to hot. A good day for a drive. and So I will drive.

I look in and smile at some of the new profiles that are popping out and shake my head at some of the ones that are so shallow and so visual at first that you wonder, is this how they feel they need to captivate and enchant someone? And while I am sure that there are many who will immediately trip over their feet to get their attention with the simple word greetings of .. "HI. Hello, How are you, What are you looking for, Hey baby, .. Hey sexy.. Talk to me B!tch, C*nt, Wh*re... " I wonder, how many here are true in their lack of words? How many are sincere about their wishes.

Profiles with depth, that may have no pics, that speak with profound depth about one's needs, wants desires.. with hopes conveyed and passions spoke of, these are the type of profiles that truly speak of the worthy and the honored. So here I am, posting a blog about it, becuase I feel.. a kinship to those who are true to themselves and their lives.

Ah.. why are days like this such a rarity? Freedom is ever fleeting.. even our lives are enslaved by the societal standards we seek. How can a Gypsy Soul ever find his/her place in this world?

Ah, many stray thoughts these days. I find myself enjoying the days and nights in a new mentality. I find myself restless, pent up energy and fury, waiting to be unleashed. I find myself wanting and craving a new sensation. And yet, I find myself at ease with my approach to things.

Lately, the mentor, the guide, the spirit shaman has come out. He has been approached from all fronts. Friends, Family, close associates and even long lost acquaintances, who have found they need to talk, to vent, to ask for guidance and acceptance. I have been approached to Mentor and train a few. And I have approached one or two about similar offers. It is strange that when you don?t really expect it, things just fall into place. I don?t know exactly what has happened that has aligned the stars. I have reconnected with some old souls who I did not expect to touch the way I thought I would. From a good friend, to an ex lover and even an old co-worker who didn?t get along with me, each has stepped into my life and asked for my help in their own way. And I find myself in that familiar role that I revel in and enjoy.

My current situation on collarme.com however is fickle. I have had two wonderful connections that are slowly blossoming to a level of depth and profound growth. And yet, I have had been told that my nature is not to their liking from one that I truly looked forward to perhaps having at the tip of my tongue and at the sting of my crop. Alas, all roads don?t always lead in the same direction and I have told them that I do wish them the best. After all, we cannot be all too every person that comes into our lives. The summer is coming along and it is now gained full steam. It is coming to an end. Who knows what winter will bring? I know one thing.. I am not hibernating. My hearth will be warm and inviting, and my bed will be filled. The question is who has the courage to kneel at its base?

How times fly. July already and halfway through. Each time i look at my calander, I realize that time stands still for no one. It has been a good 3 weeeks since I was last able to practive my craft. No one to spank, no one to tease and torture, no one to mind fuck. Yes, there are those that I occassionally talk to. But talking is tiresome after a while. Especially when you have it boiling in you. I desire to taste, I crave to control and need to have that passion brought to the surface. My occasional play partner has been ill and it has been hard to get togther with my pet due to scheduling. As much as I love to work, sometimes it does take away from my pleasures.

This summer has been interesteding. I have been able to visit family and see a few friends. I have expanded my network and look forward to a few more connections. And yes, it may seem tedious but I do love to interact on collarme.com and see what else is out there. I await for the next set of minds to bring forth the Darkness that springs from my soul. May you find peace and shade.

Blessed heat. Gods.. it is churning and its going to get worse as the week goes on. Why is it that it seems when things are going bad, things are at their extremes? Weather its heat or just to damn cold.

As I continue down this road, I am making choices that to some may not seem logical in their minds. I however understand that no matter what happens, I answer to one person and that is myself. I know why I do the things I do and when I explain it out of courtasy, it is not my fault if someone doesnt seem to comprehend or accept the answer. I dont lie to myself about my faults. I dont lie to others about my faults.

I have been told I have been selfish pretty recently. Looking back at my life, I have to say they have a really bad assessment of my "selfishness". However, as I ingrain myself more and more into the mindset of the Man I know is now here, I realize.. I have to be selfish. becuase no one is looking out for me. Not my family, not my friends, not my love ones or pets. Oh they "look" out for me of course, when it concerns something within their sphere of existence and they believe it will affect them. So Yes, if someone calls me selfish, why should I dispute it? If they can't see the selfless part of me, why should I waste my precious air and time to try to correct them? Because if I have to point it out, it takes away from the selflessness I exhibit.

Overall, things are well. The weather is warming up much more and My ground is stabalizing And if those close to me can't see it, I shall chafe it like the wheat on a field. Until next time.

Ever have a phase in your life where you feel that what you do isnt enough? Or that the things in your life just dont fall into place as you would like them to? Where everything you touch goes wrong?

This is where I'm at right now. I have been a jinx, a bad luck charm and even saying the wrong things to the wrong people. From family to friends, from loved ones to those special ones, it seems every turn I take just is the wrong one and I dig a bigger ditch and keep dragging others in.

Dont you sometimes feel that no matter how hard you try to say the right things, that it just doesnt convey across properly? The way something is said can affect so many things and I think that I may have erred recently by hurting someone that is very special to me. And for that, I am sorry. Becasue I'm the one who's suppose to know better and I must admit, I'm letting a side of me out that should not be out. This has been my sin this day. And damn it if I will allow it to ruin what I'm working on.

Yes this is a rant. But even I need to rant once in a while.

M.L.G

I was making the point to a friend that lately I have been feeling angst ridden. Not a becoming trait in one who is suppose to be in control. Frustrations abound, I can't pinpoint why I am on edge. I know that things have not been ideal in all ways I want but it shouldnt take away from the overall fact that I'm usually content.

But why am I frustrated? Why am I antsy? What fired burn in me that I feel the need to torch and raze the foundations of my life? For once I am at a loss for words. It is one of the reasons that I have not put my words down on paper or screen. I have had no spark to motivate the fire that burns. This is not to say that my life is empty. I do have good people and loved ones that I can depend on. But this is something internal. and it is not easy for me to express this outward to them. I realize my own temper has been flaring more than usual.

The Sadist in me needs an outlet. I need to bring hurt and pain and dwell in the aunguish of another. I need a canvas. On the flipside, I am enjoying the attention of a lovely pet and I know that I provide a stable outlet for her and have provided with her a foundation that lets her be who she is. And for that I take great pride. the Mentor in me is living its dream and I am truly finding passion there.

My apologies for the few who have read my blog recently and found nothing new or creative. Perhaps this summer will give me more time to grow in my craft and there will be new stories to tell.

Reposting, a Repost..
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Reposting the Mind FUCK::Reposting the MIND FUCK-------------------The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.I do love to entice and seduce.

I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new level of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

The 300. Yes. I'm a Frank Miller Fan. There is a Noir of dark passion and fury in his writing and in his perspective of the world. And yes. even though most things that are hyped are usually full of crap.. this one worked. It was eloquent in its discriptive scenes and the unspoken words between the King and queen. And yes.. Hell Hath no Fury like the woman scorned/betrayed.

I know. this truly has nothing to do with BDSM. but this is my blog and I can post what I desire. I'm glad things are well here. We are beginning to thaw out here in CNY. Thank the GODS.

Well its a nice feature. the Who's VIEWING ME Feature. I like it. And i try to respond to anyone who's viewing me.. including some of the Dom's. Who knows why they were looking but hey, how are we to know unless we ask? After all, do I not advocate growth through our conversations and sharing of knowledge?

It has been a few weeks of enjoyment for me. I dont think I have been this content in a long time. I'm enjoying each day as its something new and exciting. And I look forward to the days here at my work place come to an end. There is so much I want to do. I want to travel, see new sights, meet new people. I want to see what new changes the time will bring. I desire to visit Chicago, Florida, New Orleans, Texas, Oregon, Washington, Maine, Michigan, Ohio.. All the other states I haven't visited and yes.. even work for a good friend if time permits. I want to go see family and good friends from HS and college.

Ah, it always comes down to funds and responsibilities. (slight shrug) I'll have to figure it out. Oh well. be well and may you all have a good day. (For those who read this profile actually)

M.L.G

Realized that I added about 3 new photos and while the collarme.com website either approves or denies them.. I have no picture on my profile. I do hope that people will be able to read the words and wait for those pictures to come up.. otherwise.. (laughs) I dont think I'm up and runing as a pic. Oh well..

I worked a 14 hour day last night. SO I went home and took a nap. A good friend called me to see how I was doing and I appreciated it. It was a kind gesture in a society and world where kind gestures are looked up with scrutiny. And we must wonder.. why is that?

When one approaches people in today's society, the world view (And Its a generalization but one steeped with empircal proof) is that we must put our guards up becuase this is a doggy dog world, where ultimately you are responsible for your choices and there are many who are looking for an edge to take things to their advantage. It is true with most interactions we make. Not just in the nilla world but in the BDSM world as well.

Kindness might as well be a foriegn concept to many in our lives. Men/woman while different on biological levels and even in chemistry inducements in the body, somehow still pertain kindness as soemthing we must look up on with suspicion. We are jaded and hurt by the ways others in the past have disabused us, taken advantage of us or perhaps evne manipulated us. So each new experience is pepperred with the mindset of the past, weather we see it or not.

The reason I mention this? I read profile.. just read them. I sometimes take a moment to look through the words expressed in a blog to see what is currently (or at that point in their lives) their mindset is and how it relects with teh here and now. And on occassion I respond to an email and send one my own. I tend to take each experience as a new one. However, I am just as guilty of peppering kindness with cynicism. And for that.. I apologize. To my friend, who truly is special and kind and warm and very giving. maternal and all.. I say thank you. For calling me. For letting me know how you were. For telling me your thoughts were on me and how I handled my 14 hours at work. Thank you.

As for the others.. I thank you as well. For your kind words, or your unspoken ones.. for brutal honesty and subtle hints. (chuckles) I thank you. For it reminds me, that we still have a long way to go.

One thing I have recently come to terms with in my own mind is the thin line between confidence and arrogance. Years ago, I had neither. These days, I am flourishing in my own growth, in my own experiences. Thus, My cofidence level has been as high as any I have ever experienced in my life.

Thus, the question. When does Confidence border into arrogance? I have in jest stated with a sincere amount of inner belief that it is partially true.. that I am a sexy beast. (grins) One thing that any who has discovered me as a person, not just words on a screen, but a real person outside this online world world, is that I am probably one of the most laid back people you'll meet. Not to mention that I can laugh at myself. That is why I question if my confidence can border on arrogance?

Well that being said.. I am glad to see the streets ago after all the snow. I need a vacation however. Anyone has any ideas?

M.L.G

Using a Dilbert Quote, (yes, can you imagine getting something profound from a newspaper editorial cartoon).. "my philosophy is that anything worth doing is too hard"

I read this quote the other day and I chuckled. When you think about it in the context of the work place, it expresses the lack of discipline that most people have to continue doing their work properly. That people fall into their constant humdrum of work and go with a steady beat becuase its what is expected of them. But.. in the context of our lifestyle, (And yes, it is a personal choice to live a lifestyle. I know many people look at BDSM and just assume its a roll, but its more than that. Its your soul. It is your heart and mind. You can honesty see the truth of those words. when you have someone constantly trying to create strife and not find harmony) .... in our lifestye.. this quote shows something refreshing.

So many claim to be Dom's. SO many Want to find that "Master/Mistress" in them because they have discovered within themselves that they enjoy the "kink" that comes with this. And it also expresses the fire that we all have in us. But to be a true believer and an actualizer of this potential, one must put effort. one must make it a priority in their life. AND for most.. both the Dom/Top or sub/bottom.. anything that is worth doing is too hard. Alot of those that come here talk about wnating to be this "person". But where is the effort?
Effort is time. And if it hard. So if one is not willing to do anyting for it, is it worth the time invested? My question is rhetoric but nevertheless. something to perhaps think about. At least for those who read my blogs. (Grins)

Honest people use no rhetoric;
Rhetoric is not honesty.
Enlightened people are not cultured;
Culture is not enlightenment.
Content people are not wealthy;
Wealth is not contentment.

So the sage does not serve himself;
The more he does for others, the more he is satisfied;
The more he gives, the more he receives.
Nature flourishes at the expense of no one;
So the sage benefits all men and contends with none.

-Verse 81 from "The Tao Te Ching" as written by Lao Tzu

I recently recieved a short msg that was sent to me by someone here at collarme.com who wanted to voice an opinion on some of the particulars of my blog. And following the policy that is dicated by the wonderful site, I am not posting a name or a negative comment toward them. I'm just asking those who do take the time to read my profile, my blogs .. if this is something that they would agree with. perhaps my approach, frank, direct and honest, is not as appreciated as I once thought. perhaps the needs and one liners of the true intellectuals that prowl this enviorment are taken with more credence? Perhaps.. however.. here is what was sent to me..
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"""good lord..get over yourself already..youre a kid..could you even respect anyone who would swallow that bs in your journal? """
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Now, my question is in true genuine curiousity.. if what i say is the expletive that someone would believe it is.. would you even bother to respond to me? what is the goal? to shame me? to guilt me? To "correct" Me? To "Save" me? I am curious.
Since the blog doenst permit for any true questions.. I ask for a private email. If not, i dont know if this is something I should post on teh wonderful forums, considering I read them and an amused that sometimes things are beaten down like a dead horse.

thank you for your time.. Enjoy your days.. May you all find shade and warmth on this winter afternoon.

Reposting the Mind FUCK::
Reposting the MIND FUCK-------------------The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.I do love to entice and seduce. I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new level of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

Cold. Extreme Bitter, teeth chattering, metal tearing kind of Cold. The wind so strong that I can hear it blow through every crack of the home. Welcome to the WINTER in CNY.

Well, again it has been a while since I posted. I have been doing well. Life continues at leasurely pace.. one that I have established for myself. I have talked to a good core of people over the last few weeks. And in exchanging our mindset, and our thoughts no various topics, found an inner connection that is truly a genuine effect. Where this will go, I cannot say. I will say however, that the Lord is always open to the possibiliites of existence. I take life one day a time, no expectations or assumptions.

Some people may say that this is a crass belief. I on the other hand believe that we all have certain roads we must travel. that doesn't mean that your road will not deviate due to obstacle, pitfall or just plain old boredom. Our lives may be linear on a physical level.. we breathe, we move, we go forth. but that doesnt mean that ideoloigcally, or spiritually one has to remain the same. I come into this with the hindsight that its been a while since I have been truly contempt with my place in this world.
I am contempt. I am pleased. And I am enjoying what it gives me. The Good, The Bad, The FUGGLY.

Perhaps one day soon I will find a new path. (smiles) perhaps I'll continue on my present course for a while longer.

an Intruiging few weeks. I have not posted since the New Years but its been hectic. Well, being ill, working and heading out of town...

Actually that is why i'm here. Heading out of town for a week to visit my blood. My brother and my niece.. going to be back in a week. For those who do pay attention to my profile, either my blogs or my emails. this is the just a fair warning. I am not one to be negligent to a response so I do apologize for any delays anyone experiences.

I appreicate the candor from those I have come to call Dom gentleman or Domme ladies. And for those male/female sub/slaves who have been curious enough to share a bit about themselves, the Lord appreicates your time and patience.

Peace keep you all, and may you find shade and warmth during this cold front through the country. Of to work heating people up.

I am not pining. I am anticipating. I am looking forward. I am contemplating. As this year has come to an end.. alot of things have been rushed forward. And it is rather interesting.

I have enjoyed the new found passion I thought I had lost. I have become truly the spirit I desired, forged in steel and tempered in darkness. I have made new lovers, new friends, new connections. I have reconnected with old flames, old lovees and passions and old friends.

Hmm.. it was weird. I ran into someone that I had not seen in 8 years. Since last time we saw each other.. when I was a young pup of 21 and she was the older but very willing submissive to guide me into my core. at 40.. she has changed. She has become a Domme. She has come to accept the fact that she is no longer the sub she once was. She is pleased and happy with her new life.. with a husband and true friends. She looks better, she feels better. And She has invited me to witness her St Andrews cross. (soft chuckles) Oh Joy...

I do know someone who desires to be on that cross. ANd I will get her to come with me when me and Dawn decide to place her on it. (smiles) It is good to feel at home.. at peace with my choice.

That said, its always fun to read the profiels, do some of the forums.. I do sometimes wonder, why some people can not be forthcoming. OH, I know.. its hard to figure out the real people from teh fakes and posers. If people took a moment to read profiles, read blogs, they may get a better understanding of a person. And again.. to judge me by my own Poly nature.. (soft shakes of my head) It shows the limited perspective there is to life. I am not here to convince you that I am the way.. but to say that one wont talk to you just becuase of who and what you are.. (shakes head) It is sad.
Happy New Year to all.. and Peace to all this evening.

Master Lord Guru

Reposting the MIND FUCK
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The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.I do love to entice and seduce.

I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new level of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.

I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

A question. Is it wrong to be forth coming? Is it wrong to state your honest intentions when asked what it is you seek or desire? I usually will hear "Of course" "Yes" and "that's how it should be".

But the reality is different from the theory and practice. Most people (and that includes many in our particular lifestyle and mindset, not ALL).. are built to deny the truth even when its put in front of them. Skepticism is usually the reaction you will get. The reason? We are all built around a house of subterfuge, deception, lies and manipulatinos. Weather they are physical, emotional, pyschological or financial.. we are all surrounded by this palpatable belief that there is a con abound. I wonder if when Socrates decided to teach through the socratic method of questioning each and every point, if he took into consideration that people would built a whole world of skepticism and existantalism.

This doesn't sounds like a something that should go into a BDSM blog, but It was on my mind and I felt like speaking about it. Currently, I enjoy the person I am even though during this time of year, during this particular season, I do find myself in a darker than usual mood. Its a cominbation of things and thus, as long as I recognize it, I can cope with it.

But why begin about truth and lies? becuase they both go hand in hand. I like to think I am a frank honest person. And I admit, I do seek things that will ultimately benefit me, becuase one, I am deserving of it. And Two, I am worthy of it. But what makes me laugh and shake my head is when someone who claims to be truthful (and no, it has nothing to do with anything on collarme.com) can come up with a bunch of hogwash and expect me to believe it. Its funny.. I give them enough belief that I am falling for it but all I'm doing is giving a bit more of the noose for them to strange themselves with. It use to hurt, now I just shake my head and realize that those who claim to be trustworthiness usually have the deepest ways of keeping a lie.

So, saying that, what does that say about me? I did start this off with, I do believe I'm trustworthy. So in your eyes, am I? Only up to you to decide.

Master Lord Guru

That time of year. Cold, wet, chilled. A time for many to be down and depressed and for others to find a new purpose in life. I'm not a fan of December. I have never been. I have lost loved ones. I have had parents seperated during the holidays. I have lost an Ex and Engaged an Ex during the holidays. I have had family go to jail during this time. It is not the best of memories for me. However, each year I try to look at the postive.

This year was a great year of rebirth for me. I did things I had put on hold and never experiecned before in my growth. But the year is coming to an end and I must honestly say I look forward and yet, trepidently, look forth to the 31st of this month, at 11:59 as it means 2007 is here.

My goal is a simple one in 2007. LIFE anew. To start the new year with a 30th one on this realm. To finally take care of some of the other things I put on the back burner. To continue to grow in my knowledge, in my experiences and to grant those that desire what little I can give them.. the benefit of the small amount of wisdom I do possess.

I seek contentness in mind and body. And I seek to make some darker desires come true. Join me in this jounrny.

Master Lord Guru

Life slowly moves at its own pace. Sometimes, we go along with the ride, other times we fight and rage against it.

This Morning, on Nov 28th, The world has finally taken my last living grandparent. I may not have had a connection to my maternal grandmother but she was still my family.

On this day, I honor her memory. And I blow my horn in hopes that for all the pain and hurt she caused or suffered, that time has not invited her to a better world and happier place.

To find shade and warmth.. we all must accept the embrace of the dark cold clammy hand of death.

M.L.G

Over the past few weeks I have come on collarme.com and not really taken a moment to type into my blog. Part of it has to do with the fact that nothing truly worthwhile has happened. I have gone back to work. I have worked at a crossroads in my life and walk down a particular bridge to see where it may lead me. It has been nothing to special but its has been enjoyable.

One thing I have noticed when I come online is the lack of true depth and passion that people claim they have. I find it hard to find fire and true wit when I communicate with people online and even in real life. I tend to believe this is becuase we have become so jaded with what is presented to us on a daily basis.

I read profiles here on collarme.com usually on a lark. And when I do, I find that some of the ones with photo's lack any type of depth or true passion. And that some of the ones that have no pics present the depth of their needs. But even those are rare and far and few.

I am a mental person. I believe in the power of mental imagery and shapes that come to life. For some people this is a truly an art they lack. Its all about the physical manifestation of their phyiscal needs. The MIND FUCK. I talk about this, I breath this, I am this. Its not about SEX. Its about becoming the Incarnate of the Dark shadows that permeate our being. I am the Incarnate of that being.

I currently met two people of collarme.com. One who is local, was truly a wonderful woman. She and I sat and drank coffee but clearly we both knew that the spark that we both seeked was not in the other. She was cordial, she was polite but she never truly felt confortable enough to open up and allow the possibility to be there. I can't blame her. I was not what she was seeking and I accepted that. But I am much better for knowing it in person and knowing it for what it was.

Another person, from collarme.com.. who shared of her nature and needs was relocating. During her journey, she took a risk. She took a chance to do something out of her norm and spectrum of security. I took this deep into consideration. Our meeting was mutual, it was desired and it was cherished. We both knew what we desired, The inner longing was released. The Beast came to life and the chains of freedom were cast. We shared a wonderful tear of time and made sure the pleasures of all things were possible. Insatiable, primal, lustful.. we both delved into your core and manifested it into the reality. And while there are many things that would continue to keep it from being more than a moment, we both got something out of it. Her, her inner longing to be free as the little one she is.. and I, as the Man who is worthy of the Name I am. A Master.. A Lord.. A Guru... and Daddy.

Life is about the moment. Take hold of it, shake it and make sure you are confortable with it. No remorse, no shame, no guilt. WE are able to make choices to bring fortht the truth of ourselves.

For those who I respond to.. who's emails I have sent or recieved.. I thank you. For those who I email and never have the common courtasy of getting a response from them.. I wish you the best. Remember, when one says they are one thing and cannot be respectful or cordial, ask yourself.. why your hunt continues with no results or with the kind of results that ultimately do not please you. Karma is a bitch.. and I have her leashed to my wrist.

May you all find warmth and shade this day. It is cold here in the North country.. and its not getting any prettier. But alas.. like any rebirth.. Spring will be here soon enough.. Soon Enough...

Master Lord Guru

crossroads. Divergent paths, meeting at a point, where one must make a choice to walk down a path. Or does one?

The road less Traveled is a Poem by Robert Frost. When I was younger, I was truly fascinated by the poem as it expressed a mindset that many of us have each and every day but yet.. we never fulfill the journy. We stand there, at the crossroad and see all these different branches and in that process alone, we stay there, contemplating which way to go. But in doing so, we remain rooted to this wayward point. Fear, Anger, Contentness, Happiness, Sadness, Indignation and many other emotions sometimes keep us at bay from making a decision and thus, we remain at crossroads.

Crossroads. I am on my own Divergent path. I am tired of existance or lack of existance. Stoic resolve has replaced my emotional state. My crossroads have been my prison and it is time to make a choice. For how can one claim to be Master of their domain, when a choice can be so hard to make?

I have been slightly off center for a while. IN fact, for a long while. It is like the man who walks into the house of mirrors and it is under a red glow so you can't see which way is up or down. But now, my choices have cleared and I am bound to break that mirror. Who believe in the 7 years of bad luck? If so.. believe me that Its not true.

Hmmmm... I enjoy this forum. I enjoy the true connissours of this life who have embraced their nature and have shared it with me. I also find solace with those who have not an inkling but are at their own crossroads, trying to do the best they can to make a choice.

While this is a rant, it is also to express a deep thanks for those who have expressed themselves fully and forwardly to me. Some of us have made a deep connection, others we have had a passing by and then continued. It is like the two cars on the road. You can have them run into each other thus causing much hurt and aunguish. You can have them park and share a moment, talking or arguing but never the less get back in their cars and go in their own directions. Or They can actually just drive by each other.. nodding or waving at the others as the continue on their own seperate journy. Sometimes, They merge and go in the same direction.

I will be departing to visit family> But when I get back and I will, I believe a clearer path will be available to me. And I will take my leap. May I land where I land. But I know one thing. Its crisp and bright and the days are shorter, but they are oh so much brighter.

The Lord, the Master, The Guru
M.L.G The Midnight Son.

Fall is now here. The Sun is bright as the days get shorter. The leaves are beginning to turn that lovely shade of orange, yellow and red. The air is crisp and the temperture cooler. It is a beuatiful time of year.

My time up in the Norht County is now coming to an end. Winter is beginning to push in its icy reach. Warmth needs to take a back seat but that does not mean that one cannot enjoy the icy breathe of the season outside and the warmth hearth inside the home.

It has been an interesting few months. I have found some very like minded souls that I communicate here on collarme.com and like some who have stated, distnace makes no difference.. and I concur. To have like minded spirits across the oceans only show that our world is not as darkened and hidden in the shadows as many who dont understand us would like us to be. Acceptence of who and what we are is becoming more commonplace. The only thing I notice is the amount of those who use this nature in us, weather the Dom or sub and will disabuse the trust given. we are here to give a bit about ourselves with the belief that we are in a nourishing safe enviorment. If some abuse this and do harm, it makes it harder for the majority to find the comforts and security we all seek.

I know that sometimes one can type words on a screen and it seems tedious and repititive. Others see words and phrases and can sometimes jump to a conclusion that isn't always based on fact. If this happens with my words, I understand and do apologize. If ever my words may not come acrosss as I desire them, please do ask me directly and I will be more than happy to clarify the point. There is no topic that is off limits.
The Lord looks forward to open dialouge. Please come in.. and share.

M.L.G

This is a repeat of a post back in July. It is the appraoch to the Mind fuck.

The Mind FUCK. For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.I do love to entice and seduce. I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new levEl of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it. I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

I am Male. I am Man. To some, this is a simple fact. To others, it is something I must prove.
Let me assure you, I am not online to assure anyone of anything. I speak from my mind and my soul. I share of myself as I expect others to share of themselves. To call into question if I am a Man or a Dom is the person's right. But even then, I am not here to jump through another person's hoops. That is my right and choice.

Why am I starting like this? Well, it is intruiging when there are people who immediately start of a conversation with, You aren't who you are suppose to be and then accuse me of being someone else. IS it my fault if my words may sound similiar to another? Is it my fault that in a world full of 6 billion souls, words may sound similiar? Or is it just that words, no matter how many different ways you put them , when the thought behind them is the same, may sound alike? (Case in point, these last three sentences)

Collarme.com has provided a forum that I visit once in a while. I have not been online much as I have been gone on the weekends in the real time assisting a friend. And I soon will have to go back to the grind of the every day workman. But I am glad when I come back online and find a few emails from those that have found me an acceptable mind to share with. But then to have it ruined by a ignorant child, especialy when the accusation was unjust, it can rub me the wrong way. I admit that I am Male. That can and sometimes imply we are insensitive and in some cases, pricks, dicks and jerk off's . Well, guess what? Men and woman depending on the situation, can be the worst of the worst. Judge us for our current actions, not for the actions of the past.

Again, This is a slight rant. So now I can get past this and move on. Until another time.

M.L.G

Reading my own words over the last few days, I feel like I should read what I'm typing. How many typo's am I making? Damn.

Here I am, typing 80 to 85 wpm and what is happening is that i"m not proofreading my own work and thus it looks like a uneducated lout is writing my words.

Forgive me for making these mistakes. It does make it hard to convince anyone that your able to hold your own conversation when you can't even correct your words on paper or screen.

Hmmm.. I think I need to reevaluate my typing. Monday I'll be back and I'll start to respond to the few emails I recieved. Thank you for your patience.

Master Lord Guru aka The Midnight Son.

One of the most interesting things I have discovered recently on this website.. you can tell when and if someone read your emails. There are times hwne you think, I know I emailed them.. did they read it. But until a few minutes ago, I didnt realize there was a way to see if anyone actually did.

Its a shame when you write on you're email... "If I am not to your liking, I will understand that. I am not to everyones liking. Just be cordial and courtous and respond with an answer".. and no one responds.

I admit my own thoughts on certain levels of relationships and certain philosphies about what I desire. But that does not mean a person is just words on a screen. Words are somethings inadequate becuase they are written or put on a screen and there is no way to convey the emotions, feelings or passion of them without hearing the depth of the words in the inflections of the voice.

I speak from the heart. Honest and sincere. For some that is a frightening. But if that is truly a problem, then hey.. continue on your way. Theres nothing for you here.

Master Lord Guru

Recovering from a long hard weekend. Helping out my friend and his birthday bash, lets just say theres a reason why I restrain myself from losing control. Even as intoxicated as I allowed myself to get, I knew all I did and made sure I did not take advantage of one who would have easily succumbed to any advances.

It is now Wensday. I wont be here for a few days.. wont be back till Next monday. going up to Watertown NY to assist my friend at his restuarant again. It is nice to get away from Syracuse for a while. But it does cut into any type of social life I currently have.

I have enjoyed these past few weeks even though its been mostly working. I think its finidng a purpose to assist a friend that helps me these days. Right now, I am just trying to stabliize what decision I should make about relocaton and work.

My last post on polyamory got a few different responses. I understand that many people are not into the idea. I respect that. I dont judge anyone for their own personal beliefs. Its hard however to justify it to some becuase for me its an ideal sitaution, not a situation that I currently live in. I am sure that it would happen with those who are of like mind and desire the same. If they dont, things might be different. I just want those that are interested in me that this is one aspect of my personality and belief that may not always mesh with them. And anyway.. would life be exciting if one fulfilled every little thing that the other needed? There would be no need to grow, expand and explore.

Again, thats just my two cents. Take care folks.

M.L.G

Submission. It is a word bantered and thrown around here in the cyber world as easily as the word love. The act of submission is such a rare thing however to find. First becasue it is not an act. It is an art.
Submission can not be played at. Oh you can "role play" it. But its not real. Its not a possibility for those who have no true understanding to give in. It is something that comes from the soul.

Dominance. It also is a word sprouted out here from so many who believe they know what it is to be a Dominant. They think its telling and bullying a person into doing what they say. Those who play it, usually reveal themselves with time. For many who claim Dominance over others, its usually an insecure ego that is sheltered through an illussional shield of existance. They thinly veil their own selfish needs in the hopes that they are worthy of the title.

I type this for two reasons. I enjoy reading some of these blogs. Not that many use them. It seems its a waste of time for others. They find the other websites and post there. Is it that hard to cut and paste in this? It is not. But the truth is that so many claim they seek and search but ultimatley they judge harshly. (And I'm not using personal experience on this, just from what I have seen over time)

Some of the lovely folks I have met have described being accosted by those who have no respect for this life. Collarme.com is another website that provides us a forum but to many children come on. To many with issues that they cannot resolve out in the real world that seep into this domain come here and take it out on many who are geunine. Thus, the genuine ones leave and the fakes remain.

I typed out a post earlier this month about polyamory. I recieved a very positive spin on this and three negative ones. and usually that is okay. but one of the negative ones said that I live in a fantasy world if I could believe such a thing. I will say this, considering the state of this world, Is the fantasy world such a bad thing? (chuckles) And truth be told, what is reality but what your senses tell you? My senses tell me it is possible becuase I have seen it.. and heard of it. I may not have lived it but it is an aspiration of mine to make it my own reality. To judge me for a personal belief,well it tends to let me believe that may be a flaw that drives many away.

I dont usually rant, but today is a rant. It is becuase it gets tiring to justify your existance becuase it offends some people sensibilities. I understand the need for their belief, all I ask is for a tolerence of mine.

So what do you think? And please.. let the discourse run free...

M.L.G

Polyamory... that is my topic today.

I have found out over time that this world is a bane to so many. there are those in my life that I have been interested in and once they found out my concept of being polyamorous they tend to shy away. I understand that this is a hard topic and a hard existance for many. And I can't blame them.

I want to clear a misconception. I am not currently living a polyamorous lifestyle. I am intruiged by the prospect beceause it is my personal belief that noe one person fulfills all things. After all, we are by nature the most basic of animals.. We have the instincts of those that are of nature. We deny ourselves this by the structure of the "social" norm. We intergrate ourselves, fight out own inner cravings and resign ourselves to a life of drugery and illussion. We escape clairty by looking through a skewed looking glass.

Now I can say that I can act like everyone else and decieve myself from the true nature of the beast. I can say the right things at the right times, get into someone's pants, make them feel all loved and desired and then break their spirit and heart. But I dont, and that is becuase I when I am with someone I bestow upon them my grace, my desire and care. At no point, will I lie about my intentions.

I may desire it, but I dont live it at this time. So before one judges me as someone who you should not consider something with, think of it as this... can you deny something that may blossom you into something new that you did not realize? Can you deny something that might work out of fear that one part of it is not to your liking?

This is my rant. And I thank you for taking the time to read it.

Master Lord Guru

Bone Tired. That is the way to describe my body. It feels good to put it through its steps especially since the last few months have been a bit of a blur.

Summer is here and almost to its zenith and end. So Many birhtdays in Augest. I think alot of people were very very randy during the holiday seasons.. guess thats what alchohol does. Next weekend.. my friends birthday bash. I have not been drunk in a year. And I think that this time, I need to wind down and allow myself the lost of a bit of control. It can get rather trying when one has to be in control every moment. I trust my friends to the point where I can let go in their company.

Its been a while. So far from here I have heard from three lovely people. One I still talk on a somewhat serious level, although time seems to short sometimes. Most just dont find me to their liking. I read some of these profiles and I chuckle. I he vanity of most of us who believe we can see past hte physical. Some of us truly can. These "images" of what you seek sometimes do put a damper on your search becuase they can be so.. Wrong. Whats funny is that you can't tell them that becuase they you are atacking them.

What is my ideal woman is what I'm asked many times? Let me put it straight.. If it is a woman, considers itself a woman and speaks about being a woman and has a mindset that is open , honest and sincere and willing to learn, then thats is ideal. I seek a balance of the light and the darkness. I like to think of myself as the Man who is the incarnate of your shadows, I am the lust unfilfilled in your soul, I am the phsyical manifestation of your needs. So I'm .. pudgy and round. What makes a bag of stick better than meaty and round?

Ah, that is the question, but how many actually read this? That is the question.

M.L.G

Gods..

The weather up here can be a real suprise. It went from 90 even close to 100 degree days to a night where it was 58 degrees. It was cold! (shudders) This is what happens whne you dont have a body to lay next to. Of course.. being in a pulled out cabin up near Cape Vincent working made it hard to have somebody next to me.

So here I am again, reading the blogs, reading hte profiles and I see so many many "daddy" Searches going on. (soft chuckle) Since when have the little ones found the courage to come out and ask for daddies? (smiles) I actually am enjoying reading some of their profiles and desires. Some of them are .. a bit off of what a Daddy is. Others seek the Sadistic Daddy.. in order to give them the structure and control they desire and have lacked for years..

The younger ones are actually the cutest ones. They think that they have the ability to dictate terms to a Daddy. They think they will become a spoiled princess. (soft chuckle) And they call themselves submissives and slaves. So many confusing aspects.

As Kanye West has said it or.. did not say it.. "I ain't saying your a gold digger.." but when the words and comments suggest it.. (chuckles).. you probably are.

Have a good one folks.. the Lord will grant you his knowledge again very soon.

Looking forward to heading off this weekned. More prepared for the time consuming work. but .. feel good. Shaved, trimmed.. exfoliated. (chuckles) prepared to wear proper attired.. (shorts in a kitchen).. and now I'm aware of cold showers.

Reading some of these profiles, and I have found some very very amusing. Slaves that claim to be Diva's..subs that want to switch. Its always interesting to claim subservience in one manner and then say your not in another.

We are all differnet people. Differnet levels and different dychtomy's.. we look forward to challenging the status quo but nevertheless.. to claim one thing and then be another? That is misrepresentation.

My journy's here are rather entertainig. I actually wonder.. are any reading my profiles? or blog entries? who knows..

M.L.G

Another day, another dollar. Thats a saying as old as .. well, Mom's apple pie. Long weekend this past one. Worked myself to the bone. And its a good kind of weariness. Work is good. Honest work is even better.

I have been talking to a few friends lately about what choices I have made. I currently have come to terms with my nature. Even though I have been living part of this life for over 11 years, I never immersed myself into it as deeply as I knew I could go. I am finally at peace. It is strange however, when you read of the many that seek but yet never find wht they desire. Its like lost babes, who need to be swaddled. Dom, Master, Daddy.. the names are different but yet it comes down to one thing.. weather people can learn to trust each other and be true to their self and their own nature.

I continue my quiet search .. weather online or real life.. I enjoy reading and getting to know people. Be well all.

M.L.G

I type this becuase I am enjoying coming onto collarme. It has showm me a few new things and I am defintely pleased with the results.

I do see many young little "whores" online that make me laugh that have no direction or an understanding of the male mind. The truth is that so many want to be "sluts" "whores" "pets" but first they must learn to be woman. Woman who are liberated. For so many its about the Physical act of sex. What does that have to do with sex? Sex is a mental thing.. a very innate thing. The physical is wonderful but when you are mind fucked, it brings a new dimension.

The Mind FUCK.
For many the mind fuck is just a game. A game of expressions or visual aides that help enhance a sexual thought, desire or fantasy. But the "mind" fuck is much more in depth and level. It is the exploration of the darker needs of humanity.. the craven desires and pervese debauch ideologies we hear, and know but avoid to talk about and deny ourselves of.

When one is truly mind fucked.. one reaches a level that is more than just mental. It is a combination of the mental, the phsyical and even the spiritual. You are on all plains and yet on none. To be mind fucked, you probably get wet or hard, when one looks at you.. one speaks to you.. when one just smiles or blows air across the nerves of your earlobe, your neck.. you belly.. your wet or hardened self.

I do love to entice and seduce. I am by nature a Sensualist but also am a Sadist. Pain is an art as is sensuality. Sexuality is over rated. Most think that if you have a Cock, or a C*nt that you have power. No, that is not power. Usually that is giving someone power over you. Having a woman suck your cock, thats not power, thats the body needing release. Having a man go down on you,thats not power..thats just a much needed respite to give in to your pent up need. Truth is that Power is making that person realize that you bring them to a new levEl of pleasure by just being what they desire. You dont have to be the most fit man.. or the "Model" type woman.. you don't have to have the porn star "cock" or the Pornstar "tits".. just being you and making them realize that their pleasure stems from association and being with you, and that my friends is the epitome of being touched by the Hand and mind of one who truly "Mind" fucked you.

I do enjoy reading the "Exploits" Of many. But I do want to make things known for those who decide that I'm worth getting to know.. I am just one in the lifestyle.. I am of the polyamourous mindset and dont think you can tame me with your mouth or pussy or ass. You are toy, you are possession, you are hole. To be used, abused and taken.. that is your role in life. Remember that and you will have no problems. Speak your mind to me and I will enjoy and encourage that but know that certain things can get you into trouble. I am a Sensual Sadist who does enjoy the pleasure of bringing pain to those who desire it.

I am here.. I am Now.. I am the Lord.

July 7th...

During this summer.. as I have been exploring the options of my life, trying to find a new direction in which to use my skills, I have taken the opportunity to assist an old friend, a comrade who employed me when I first arrived to Syracuse and went to work for at Syracuse University. My friend has established a resturant up near Three Miles Bay and every weekend for the last month or so I have gone out to assist him on Saturdays and Sundays.

For his kindess I have found that assisting him brings me much contentness. It is good to see someone making their dreams come true. and having his own resturant was his own wish for the longest time. So here I am.. promoting his buisness.

I understand that many here will not know where three mile Bay is at. (smiles) As I see more downstate New Yorkers than Upstate or CNY people. But if your ever in Watertown Ny, go toward Cape Vincent and you will find Corby's Corner. It is a small place.. about 40 at most can eat there but its good food and very affordable prices.. Breakfest and lunch and during this summer.. dinners on Friday and Saturday.

I am off this Friday to head out htere. I will not be back till monday. but if any takes a moment to read my blog and respond.. I'll be happy to return the favor..

Peace and shade favor you all...

M.L.G

Monday, July 3rd.

Decided after months of hearing about collarme.com to come on and see what what this forum and people here are like. It is hard when most you just observe ar fakes in the 360 realm or the registry realm.

To many "tweeners", people who believe they know what they desire and yet are here to live out a fantastical version of what they believe this life is about. Glorified and amplified by movies, books and online drama.

I am here, just reading as of now. they say there are so many opportunities out here. Over the years, I have found a few and some have truly worked. Others have not. I enjoy reading a person's profile. I enjoy findout out about what they are about, and what they are goig through, about their experiences. Before I put my two cents in, I try to learn what are this persons likes and dislikes.. or as well as you can from a profile.

Some of the questions on this profile through me off. But no matter what, Its just a footprint of the person. This blog will probably not be read by most. The reason? We are visual creatures who want a pic. *looks at the empty spot in my profile* And even woman are as vain as men. (Smiles) I can truly be a very alluring person but unless I present that with that philosphy.. "I'll show you mine if you show me yours".. you wouldnt ever find out. Dont worry.. I'lll put that pic up there soon enough.

Peace be with you all. May Thoth Grant you wisdom and may you find shade this day.

Master Lord Guru

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