Finally Happy!

I got to try out my new floggers on Friday night.  Yay!  laurie isn't into pain, so I went easy on her the first time.  *smiles*  Thanks to MzBitch for making me such a wonderful pair of floggers.  I also used my newer dragon's tail on her, so thanks to DAA for making that for me.  I am so fortunate.  I have fantastic friends, and a wonderful subbie.   She is under contract with me until July.  There really are very comparable to a cute subbie helplessly chained and cuffed to a bed and at my mercy.  I will remember her shivers and gasp, moans and groans, and pleadings for a long, long time.

So, I wasn't getting the results I wanted with my current profile.  I decided it was because I'd been listed as a submissive for so long that some may have trouble seeing me as anything but.  So I disabled this account for a while and created a new one.  EveryDesire.  My profile said:

I am your every desire.

I require total surrender.

About me:  My name is Princess to you.  I enjoy total devotion, freely given.  I believe in safe, sane, and consensual.  I will respect limits, but I will not play with or own someone who's limits are unreasonable.  Naturally I prefer no limits.  I have no romantic relationships at the moment, but I do have limits on my available time.  I am gender blind.

About you: You will be submissive or slave.  You will enjoy service and providing pleasure.  You will not be overly concerned with your own fetishes or desires.  You have a need to experience D/s on a mental and emotional level.

I do not care what you look like, what you drive, where you live, or what your job is.  I require you to be single, or to be free enough that your significant other is willing to meet with me.  I also require that the person is mature enough for power exchange, responsible enough to deal with life, and old enough to be legal by law.  Over 21 is preferred.  Younger than 45 is also preferred.  You must be able to transport yourself, and if you are not local, you must be able to visit at least twice monthly for no less than 48 hours.  If you have questions, feel free to ask. 

I didn't post any pictures with it, but I still got email.  Thoughtful emails from actual people.  More than just the idiots that want to know my cup size.  Its odd how simply changing my name and font changes perceptions of me.  I am the same person, on both accounts, nothing changed that.  Yet the responses were so different. 

Happy Birthday to my chrissie!

Pulled this from the journal of Perscitus, with his permission of course:
Raise your right hand and repeat after me:
"I hereby solemnly swear not to call any Tom, Dick and Harry Master or Sir on CM. I understand that doing so may lead to serious embarrassment as the person my end up being of the same sex or a horny teenager on a power trip. Furthermore, I understand that such titles are earned and not instantly granted. I will not give out my phone number unless I have spoken to him a few times by blocking my number and calling him because my prospect dominant has my best interest at heart and will understand my concerns about psychos. I will not travel out of my comfort zone or meet him at his house for the first time. I will only meet him in a safe public place for the first couple of times to make sure he is who he says he is. I will not send nude pictures of myself because I have no idea where these pictures my end up and how they may come back to hunt me in the future. I will not get on the cam and perform embarrassing acts as I have no idea who is on the other end or where the feed may have been rerouted to. I will question him if he instructs me to only call him between 9-5 and never on weekends because that just sounds fishy! Last but not least, I promise to follow my God given female instinct because my past experiences shows 9 out of 10 it has been spot on! So help me God..."

You may now be seated and continue to read through 1000s of junk mail from true "Masters" on CM

Alright people, it is long past time someone is honest with you and stop coddling and trying to be politically correct.  You claim you want to be valued, then BE VALUABLE.  If you behave like you can be bought out of a quarter machine, that's how you will be treated.  No matter how cute the plastic ring you got out of that machine is, the ruby is better.  Still full of flash and fire, a passionate stone, but classy.  It is also the jewel that gets worn for the important occasions.  I have heard guys/girls complain about people that are happy to have sex with them, but won't date them.  Perhaps they act like the plastic ring, good to go to McDonalds, but not for the family dinners.  The ones that are fun to go out with, but not good enough to marry.  If you are behaving like a ruby, and still being treated like plastic perhaps you are trying to date a tacky person.  Someone that doesn't have a basic understanding of manners.  Raise the bar, and know you are worth someone that makes an effort to keep their standards high too.  No one wants someone that will settle for anyone.  Keep this thought in mind too, its not in how you look, I've personally seen some really nice fakes.  Its still fake though, it will tarnish and fade, the real ruby is inside, a classiness that isn't faked.  The real stone won't fade, won't lose its worth.  Can change its settings, and still be the real thing, beautiful and classy. 

Holy cow!  Just in case my profile isn't clear enough, because I have a sneeking feeling that it isn't due to the mail I get, here goes.....  I am soooo not interested in being a playtoy for someone, even if the official label is "friend".  Hope that cleared up any confusion. 

I'd like to give a big hug and thank you to all that commented on my last journal entry.  Some of you gave really great advice.  *smiles*

You just can't be nice to people now days.  You write a friendly, platonic hello note, and suddenly you are either out to steal them from their Doms or you are soliciting for someone to make whoopie with.... just cuz I like your profile doesn't mean I wanna hook up.

hmmmm....so dislike being sick, out of work all last week and still not feeling great.

Happy New Year, what are some of your resolutions?  And your track record for keeping them?

Oh my Goodness!  for all of you that can't tell or didn't notice from my pictures, I am a fat girl.  I thought with all the pics I put up and the fact that I'm not afraid to talk about it people would know already.  Was not trying to mislead!  Sorry if you didn't know.

Well, I got silly...I colored my hair.  Its now this horrible color.  I've learned my lesson, I'm a blondie, I'm meant to be a blondie, I will not repeat this mistake.

Well, it has been a little while since I've written.  I've enjoyed keeping up with my friends on here, but I'm thinking of deleting the profile.  I am flattered by the interest really, but I really am taken.  So if you are just a friend and want to keep in contact, let me know.

Thank you for everyone that has mailed me lately, I'm officially off the market so to speak.  So friends may surely continue to email me, others please know that I'm happy in my present situation.

Please understand if you contact me that I am exploring a situation right now.  I'm really just interested in making new friends at this point.   Between helping newbies and exploring my own submission I have little time to play games with people.

I saw the same special someone again last night.  I got to cook and do a few dishes for him, pleased me to no end... Although I will admit that cooking in a single man's kitchen is not at all like cooking in mine.  Hopefully if I get to do it again I will be slightly more prepared.  *smiles* but he risk it and ate what I made, was still alive when I left.  

Some of you are great, I'm thrilled to have so many good friends.  At the same time though I wish for a local Dom to talk to.  Something that can actually go somewhere.  I really wish for more than online friendship.  Don't get me wrong, friends are wonderful, but its not the same.  To me, local does not mean, just anywhere in the south, or anywhere in the state.  It means somewhere that easily traveled to daily if need be.  Some people have different opinions of the word "local", so I thought I would clear up my perception of the word. 

I lost a friend today.  Its really hitting me hard.  It is my own fault, but I'm still bummed.

I'd really like to think that my encouragement is doing some good.  Some of you seem so lost, and I think that is the problem.  The good ones are getting tired of weeding the garden for the real flowers.  They leave the site or the lifestyle all together and all of us suffer for it.  As a group we are already looked down on by "polite society", we are demonized and tried to be made ashamed.  We really don't need people within creating negativity.  Some of us need to think beyond the hotel room and genitals to consider that a large portion of us are serious about the feelings as well as the physical aspects of the lifestyle.  None of us choose to be one way or another, we can't help that our minds and bodies scream for more than the "normal" relationships that vanilla have.  We have to be true to who we are, and we have to try to find someone that complements that.  That is hard enough to do, so just be upfront and honest about your intentions.  Honest in general is a good thing.  And if she or he is not someone that can handle what you have to offer, move on....  its a great big world, millions of people, not everyone is gonna like you.  Or if you are the type, you arent gonna nail everyone.  No reason to add all the drama and play all the games. 

I've tried to put my pictures back on my page, and I've contacted support already.  Having a bit of technical difficulty, so for those of you who have ask, hang in there....I'm working on it.  I've noticed that some people actually read blogs or journals before making contact.  I really appreciate the feed back I get from people.  I wish I could be more approachable while still making it clear that I'm not in the market for anything more than friends.  But its tough when friendliness is too often mistook for attraction.  Maybe I flirt too much, I don't know.  Everyone should feel free to message me, I'm an equal op FRIEND.  With that being said, I'd like to wish everyone luck in their search. 

Sometime within the last two days a very sweet man, who shall remain nameless, took two of my pictures from this site and created a very pretty work of art with them.  Yesterday he emailed me to show me this surprize he made.  My first reaction was not favorable.  I was really upset that someone would save my pictures from here and alter them in anyway.  This gentleman also posted them on flickr with my name.  I was furious.  The art was beautiful to me, but I still felt that he should have ask me first.  I would like to thank him now, for the effort he put into creating and for finding something he liked in my pictures.  I think that if he will allow it I may post one or two of them here one day. 

I will gone for the weekend.  I leave tonight and return on Tuesday, so if I take a while to write back please understand. 

I'm wondering if the problem is me.  It seems to me that there is one common thread in both my relationships that fail and friendships that go terribly wrong.  That thread of course is me.  So that leaves me with the thought that perhaps I am the reason.  Which would be fine if I knew how to correct the issue.  *sigh* so the question now is, what to do next?