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I am continually surprised by the things that happen here... Ce la vie!
What a tease that was.. and I thought it was going so interestingly..
Laughter and motion keep it all moving along. |
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" A body is docile that may be subjected, used, transformed and improved." -Foucault |
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Now is such a beautiful time in My life. I'm excited to wake up every morning..well maybe not the bounce out of bed kind of excited.. but excited none the less |
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I saw a post today that I wish I could turn into required reading for boys:
"It would be really really helpful and time saving to me, if a man describes himself as a sub, he would actually expect to submit. If he wants to be a sexual bottom, he should just say that. There are times when a sexual bottom for the length of a scene is exciting and hot and you can send them home. However, if a man claims to be a submissive, he should be prepared to follow through beyond the scene with check ins, journaling, perform the duties and readings assigned and so on.
Please don't show up late, without tasks completed, a hard on and call yourself a submissive male. It is a very big waste of time and energy on my part. Having put a lot of thought and energy into a scene, designing the tasks to challenge your personal growth, to elicite excitement within you when you are away from me and to have taken the time to implant you in my thoughts during that time, it is very insulting for the 'claimed' sub to show up with taudry excuses after having accepted the task/ position of submissive.
As a Domme, I can tell you boys. We want to care for you. Even want to indulge you. and we want to to it within a recipricol relationship. Make it worth our while as much as it will be for you. :)"
It was on another forum "f life".. I don't know the author, but I just thought she said this well.
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I have been keeping Myself super busy so that when I am completed with this portion of the PLAN I can focus all My energies and attention on service training.
Finishing up this last little semester has been brutal, but I got a 104% on one of My final exams today. I guess the fact that I am graduating with honors should make the pain and suffering worth it.
I'm not easily distracted. I am supremely focused. If I didn't want to pounce on the something shiny that I've been talking to then maybe this would be an easier trial of patience. When the rubber meets the road, if it ever does, we shall see what transpires.
The process always stalls at the begining for the ones who are full of shit...hehehe |
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I seriously am in need of a masochist who doesn't mind light house cleaning duties. I just want a little torture time before I fall exhausted into bed at night...lol |
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It so figures that the starter on my car goes out the afternoon before I plan to drive to a Rope and Rigging play party in North Carolina... This sux!! |
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In the blue veil of the night... I lay waiting to seize your timid flesh.... |
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I am behind on My correspondence here. When I get a moment I will answer you few that have followed instructions. |
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I was browsing through some of the fab female submissive profiles on here and noticed that some of them say " I was a Domme once.. but I've been broken".. What the hell does that mean? How do you break someone of being dominant if they are? I mean no amount of anyone's convincing is going to magically turn Me into a submisive.. and that's not bragging..anyone who has ever met Me could tell you that in 5 minuets.. so..wouldn't it just be better to say you like to switch than to indicate that a person can somehow be broken of thier whole personality with some strategically placed slaps and tickles? I mean I guess that must be where those "Dominant Men" get the idea that it's possible if they come out with thier dick swangin' big enough...lol
I am just curious.. anyone have any interesting thoughts on this? |
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My last weekend in NYC was delicious, inspiring and busy. Now back to the grind..
Every time I open my inbox it is full of messages from males who can not follow a simple simple instruction made clear in My profile.. some of them are cute..but if you can't follow directions you aren't going to hear a peep from Me. Besides. I think I've caught one I want to focus some attention on.
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Sleepless in East Tennessee...with an eye roving towards the Big Apple...
I'm going back up there next month... The Idyll continues...
Work work work..save save save...travel and collect bling... fun times!!
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I think it is highly entertaining that people get their kicks out of sending Me silly messages that I would not ever respond to.
If you don't like My profile, bugger off. And ofcourse, If I was a Goddess diety with super human abilities, I would simply vaporze *you*. I? will continue to enjoy the veil of fantasy. I thought that is what this was about, making your fantasy interactions reality...and I do frequently.I love My lifestyle and My fabulous travels and friends all around the world. If being educated- both secularly and in the BDSM realm, financially secure, happy about My body, and emotionally stable means I have My head up My own ass then I guess I do. And I don't really give a damn who knows that.
I have never been one to weigh heavily the opinions of people not invested in My actual face to face life.
New York is proving to be one awesome thing after another, just as I expected it to be.?
I think I'm going to come back next month, and continue to apply My reality to the fresh skin of My new conquest.
Ciao.
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My visit to New York is only a little over 24 hours away. I am pleasantly booked up with the things I wanted to do.
I am so excited.. I just want to do a little dance... How I love the City!!
I will have two lovely escorts/tour guides to tool around with at various times.
My custom orders came in today... Life is pretty grand!!
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There is a lot to be said for exhaling slowly through the craziness until you get to the eye of the storm... Ashe..Ashe
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Next weekend (September4th-7th) I'm going to visit NYC.? I've got the days free until 5pm. Anyone like to be a metropolitan tour guide for a Domme from East Tennessee?
I would like to visit The Met especially.
Any suggestions for awesome brunch places would be appreciated.
THIS IS NOT: an attempt to get anyone to pay for anything. I have my own money honey. I don't need no damn sugar daddy. I just want to hang with someone who knows The City better than I do.
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I always wonder when I read a male subs profile: What is it they REALLY mean when they say they will serve a Mistress for Her pleasure??
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A Submissive Heart is the best and most precious thing in the world.?  ?.??.??.??.??.??.??.??.??.?
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Damn I am sleepy... That's what I get for staying up until 3am or later...
Today has proved to be rather productive.. I even squeezed in a morning swim!!
Qu?ico!
Might have to see what the rest of the month brings... this fall looks like it's going to be pleasantly occupied.
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She'll suck you dry,... she'll eat you alive,...the pressure is building at the base of your spine...Pray til you go blind,
?cuz nobody ever survives.....
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Aaaah, damn if this hot hot weather and the images in My head aren't making Me wet wet wet with ideas. Nothing in the world worse than being supremely aroused and solitary. The contrast of the chill air conditioning and the heat outside made my nipples instantly hard as glass when I got home from a sushi lunch with my friends... My face feels flushed.. I can't concentrate... sometimes all you want is a slow penetrating fuck in the middle of summer...
Ce la vie
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What an amazing "Welcome Home" ..hahahaha
It certainly is good to be back in the States among all who enjoy barbeque explosions,...and late night spanking
Ah, Tennessee! How I've missed you!!
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So, boys and girls, now that I am here.. let's get down to business
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??.??.??.??.??.??.??.??.??.?
I'm all packed and ready to go back home. I feel so torn. Costa Rica has definitely been good to Me these last 4 months!
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The anticipation of getting back to My crazy life is a bit overwhelming right now...I wonder If I'll be able to sleep....See you tomorrow good ole US of A!!
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To those who have been following My travels:
I will be back in the states on Saturday. I can't promise that I will have time to answer all of your messages until next week sometime, but I might read them..
I've just got so much going on getting ready to leave. Then, when I return I have to handle all the backed up correspondence and other stuff that comes with traveling for 4 months...
I hope you are all having a great week,..and I'll catch up when I can
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I so enjoy the luxury that others dream about.
I know that I am blessed beyond measure in most things. This is as I want it to be. I can appreciate the benefits and opportunities presented to Me. Opportunity knocks for everyone, you just have to reach out and grab it....
One of these days I will understand the Mystery....or maybe I won't. I am living in the moment and planning for the future as well. There is a limit to My patience and a twinkle in My eye tonight...
Sometimes Insomnia is a beautiful thing
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Costa Rica, we have had some good times my love, but I am ready to get the fuck out of here and go home. Good ole USA here I COME!!
The countdown begins. Three more weeks of traveling, and I am BACK BABY!! WHoot!
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Sometimes all I want are screams
?and moans in the dark
Sometimes All I want is a soft touch
and understanding arms
No one ever says you get what you want
Wonder when I'll wake up to the reality.
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I have eight weeks left before I return to the states from beautiful, exotic, sensuous and ironic Costa Rica. I am unsure if I want to leave so soon. I still feel like I just got here, but I think I can appreciate My time here so much more now. My comprehension of Spanish is growing by leaps and bounds.
I am glad I have things to look forward to when I return to Tennessee. There is always a new adventure for Me waiting in the plans just over the horizon. Right now It's just important to live in the moment...breath in the chill night air,... and ENJOY. Hasta Luego chickies!
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I wonder what the future holds like we all wonder. Life is such an adventure. I'm headed to Monteverde for the weekend.? Time for some yoga and relaxing with new friends.
People are such strange satellites. Cursorily passing each other, searching, experiencing and reflecting experiences. I am accomplishing more and more towards My secular goals, and maybe even towards the Mystcal... I am curious to see if there will be others to share in My bliss.
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"Freedom is only a hallucination that sleeps on the edge of the place where you go when you dream..."- Anathema
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We are off to hike in Corcovado this weekend. It is the only virgin rainforest in Costa Rica and the habitat of jaguars and macaws and all sorts of other weird looking things. I'm excited! After that we are going snorkeling and swimming off the shore of la Isla del Ca?Ca?sland).
My life is so blessed... now to find someone twisted to share it with...hehehe |
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So now I've got this darling tempting Me ever so much. Makes Me miss the states a bit more. I bet the three months will go by before I know it and then I'll be wondering how I will ever get enough.
Ah, Costa Rica...you are both frustrating and beautiful.? I wish I could be here and there at the same time.
I know, shame on Me for getting a wee bit excited.. after all aren't W/we all here in the hopes that S/someone tantalizing will fill U/us with a flutter of danger?? Mystery, proposition, hope, intensity, passion and deviant practices all rolled in to one.... Vamos a Ver
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It's makes Me sad to be in the tropics and not get to really harass dat ass for this long..who knew I would be this frustrated about it..lol |
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I am a Female Lifestyle Dominant. I suppose I knew it would be even more difficult to find what I'm looking for in actual Reality. The dynamic and relationships between a Woman and Her pets is so complex and takes more than a month of messages, a few months more of phone calls, and one or two intense visits to develop properly.
I don't want a McDonalds-happy-meal slave or submissive. I'm not looking for the fast sloppy and easy way. I want the Love and Fear of a real person who adores Me because I AM ME along with the added benefit of My experience and knowledge in the BDSM realm.
Todo el mundo desea felizidad. Who knew fulfilment would be so long in coming....
I search still for that whisper of delight. |
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Costa Rica is freaking amazing! I totally love it here and already know that I will be sad when I go back home. The University of Costa Rica has just as many students as the University of Tennessee does, but most of them don't speak english. I've been here about 10 days and am supposed to be going out dancing this weekend with a student that lives here with my host family (she's costa rican though)
Went to Manuel Antonio Beach last weekend. The sand was so hot it burnt My feet. But was beautiful ( see picture I posted in my Photos here if you care.)
All the food is freshly grown and the only thing I've had here that is the least bit processed is tequila and condensed milk in my coffee... by the way the coffee is like the strongest best coffee I've ever had.
They got it right down here.. it really is "Pura Vida" or PURE LIFE!!! |
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I am sitting in Hartsfield-Jackson International in Atlanta at 1:00am. They are killing Me with the damn floor buffer. I fucking HATE traveling.. but I LOVE arriving at the destination. I can not wait to touch down in San Jos?As hot and humid and crazy as things are bound to be, I think anything is better than trying to get some sleep in this noisy ass airport. My goddess! When oh when can a Sister get a private jet?.....lol |
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ATTENTION: A REMINDER
I am leaving the country for the next four months. I will be staying in San Jose, Costa Rica from March 1st until July 3rd. When I return, I will intensify My search and begin to sift through My list of *SERIOUS* applicants. I am open to messaging at the current time but will not be considering anyone to begin training until at least August. |
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Bliss ensues quickly when you know where to look for it. I know the weekend has yet to begin but, Happy Valentines Day!
I know I will have one..tehe |
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ATTENTION EVERYONE:
I am leaving for Costa Rica on March 1st, 2010. I will not be returning to the states until July 3rd, 2010. I will be checking My messages here frequently until I leave, but after that I won't know what My 'net access will be until I reach the new accommodations.
Anyone that I have been speaking with is welcome to continue messaging Me of course, but be aware that it may take Me a few days to respond depending on My schedule-etc., When I return to the states during the summer I will be increasing the seriousness of My requirements for service. I am looking for someone(s) who is(are) interested in beginning training in August of this year. |
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The view from the farm in the middle of the night was enchanted. The pristine snow glowing under a high and full moon. The trees looked like thin brittle black fingers arching towards the sky. I breathed in the frigid air and squeezed the shivering boy-bitch next to Me just a bit closer. What a special memory to have created. What an auspicious beginning to the journey.
My weekend was filled with silly giggles, snuggles, bites , pinches, slaps and shudders. I think I could get used to that kind of adventure. I confess to being pleasantly enthralled, but am living only in the intensity of the moment with no expectations to cloud My judgement.
Ah, to have the opportunity to swing that little one from the ceiling... such dreams I've been having...lol |
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I'm headed into Lexington, KY this weekend to celebrate and visit some of My people. So excited. I think there might be something there to distract Me for a bit, a little delicious morsel from Louisville that I want to wrap My fist around...*le sigh* I will eat him alive and leave him trembling...
Costa Rica is only 4 weeks away. I can not contain My growing excitement. |
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Intensity strings Me through this week in a subtle and incessant manner. There is an ache that pulls Me toward the weeks end like a ticklish string, beckoning, wiggling and chortling along through the days. Saturday, how I wish to rush headlong into that morning. |
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I know the feeling that grips a Goddess when She's discovered a new and interesting temptation. I've been through it many times. It's like the ground swell before a great quake, or a sea of torrid and visceral emotion cresting before the break of a tidal wave that brutalizes everything in it's path.
I feel Myself being sucked into that riptide again, and wonder if the need will be fulfilled..... |
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Lately I've been wandering in the dark nights with a spot of insomnia. The House is quiet and the snow glitters in the neutral frostbite of winter night. I feel an ache for the tropical winds, and I wonder if i will complain about the humid cloying warmth after a few weeks of being there, but I tend to doubt it. Costa Rica... so close, so far.
My days are brightened with the soft nervous giggles of possibility, but we'll see we'll see. This particular distraction makes the feral rise up inside Me like a tide. I wish to reserve judgement, it's all fun and games until I get My hands tangled in your hair in a demanding kung-fu grip..haha.
Real life is so much better than internet jackassery, but who is really brave enough to take that plunge. I'm interested to embrace the hope that My imagination isn't running wylde. I will breathe through each passing hour in anticipation and relief until I leave the ground. Adventure awaits in more than one arena. Let's do it. |
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HAPPY NEW YEAR ! Let your freak flag fly for like two minuets..lol |
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Happy holidays Kinky People! I hope you have someone out there to keep you warm! |
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I admit to a mild disappointment..but I suppose we are all looking for a specific special prize in the rough. Good luck out there. Keep warm. |
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My my, how I love holidays. I have been certainly enjoying the relaxation of this week and the ability to profile surf a bit more than normal. I've got to get My student visa for Costa Rica all situated next. Hooray!
Too bad I don't have a pet here to finish off this tedious straightening of the house. I've managed to get My part mostly done. I'll be finished by the afternoon, and then off to Makino's we go!
Tomorrow a dinner party-which I still have to prep for- and monday an exhibition demo play for a fellow Lady of Excellence. ( I'm thrilled She chose Me to give Her girl a good hard work over...tehe Bliss Bliss!!) |
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Going out tonight, such a relief!
I had one of the girls come and clean My bathroom yesterday, afterwards I gave her a nice firm spanking as a reward and then made her crawl around on the floor like a tasty little slut..hehe I am certainly enjoying life. |
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Once Upon a Time.....
In the windswept cold
where the evergreen trembles
lost in the dark night
an ululation call, longing
forlorn and hopeful ache
across the green and rock bare frost..
waits an ocean away
inside a warmth
so fine
heat and breath
a bower of lovely design
an ache so full
sharp
satisfaction
out of reach
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Thank Goddess for the end of the semester! Costa Rica here I come!!
oh, and get well soon Craigy! |
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is having a give away! Yay! Check it out:
http://.com/sit_on_santas_lap |
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Things are so interesting. I wonder if it will go anyplace to explore the possibilities. Life is long. Adventure is close at hand. I am having fun riding the wave of reality. Let's play, let's dance. Let's explore the changes and twists of life. Let's have a True Romance.... |
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I am thinking for now, that I will seek mostly friendship from those I meet here. Otherwise things get exhausting and too caught up in expectation. I want to get to know someone before I let them permanently into My life. I believe that to be a fair thing. I will verify who I Am quickly, if desired, but I don't care to message back and forth *quite* a bit after that. I'm not in a hurry. The right one(s) will be willing to go through the steps and take the time to know Me. It might take some time, but that is perfectly acceptable. |
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I was having some issue with the messages on here recently, to anyone I sent multiple messages to, Forgive My Luddite tendencies..lol |
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I dare not be excited about the prospects. We'll see what shakes out in the long run. The ebb and flow of life is only varied by the punctuation of real and deep experience. I embrace the beginning and ending of all things as they come or go, and hope for a sense of permanence somewhere hidden in the hectic fray. A soft giggle in the night is something that I crave to hear.. |
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