DaddyAndCarina

Male Dominant, 50

Male Dominant, 48

Female Submissive, 23, RESEDA CA SFV 818, California

Finding a play partner to add to our relationship is going to  prove more painstaking than I thought originally. Good thing he isnt in a hurry

If we have viewed your profile lately. It means either Master or myself has scanned it to see if you might have an interest in playing with us. If we didnt send you an Email it doesnt mean we are not interested.... Just that we are not pushy and were unsure if playing with a couple was on your agenda. He is more interested in my interaction with another female so if you are owned and allowed to play with one sex or both feel free to contact us. If you are free ( uncollared or unspoken for) and would like to play a bit send us an Email and let me know your desires and we will go  from there

Master and I  are looking for a girl for casual sexual play... She can be submissive or pain slut as well as he has told me I can continue to explore that side of me if I desire. Size not an issue ... Must be VERY bi.. Must realize this is NOT a full time situation Need someone sexually  open .... Not really sure of his actual plans He does have access to this name while we are screening as well Prefer someone within 100 miles or so maybe a little ways into LA would be fine too, He and I have talked of a casino trip Someone who has a Master that  allows her to play is fine to  we will abide by his rules. Tho the rules and what  we desire in play should meld.

Okokokok.....  So I havent been around much  lately.....  New meds  feeling yucky no tolerence for foolish things I see here most times.... When  you  Master works in an industry that is always on high alert  timing seems to  suck canal water.....  Oh well ...  having been sick so much  lately   I dont know what  my  preformance level would have been up to  ... but space sure would  ease the pain I have been dealing with. Not being use to being sick and/or in pain  sure makes dealing with it alot harder.....  On the better side of this  my  garden is doing wonderfully  Yellow squash abound and  some peppers are beginning to peek out. Mint was slow starting but growing great now. Raining right now and I am wishing the storm a year or so back hadnt taken out the awning... I would be sitting out there sipping a nice cup of tea and watching  mother natures fireworks display. It has rained enough for  the yuck to   be out of the air and rain ... maybe I shoud just drop the towel and sit outside anyway  nothing like fresh rain water on skin and hair :-)   night all ... Thanks to  those of  you  who have noticed I was missing

Well I have been gone awhile ... Several factors for that  Flu and now on top of it and ugly  cold but I did come back here and there I have not abandoned our profile. Well I was glancing through the profiles that  have  viewed ours and in one of them I  found this ". I'm not a sadist and am not in search of a slave  I prefer a woman with a mind of her own, but who prefers to yield all control to me. It's a voluntarily, freely given submission that appeals to me. Not a mindless, boring twit. If you're intelligent and submissive, you just might be the one. My picture/s will follow if we hit it off.*  Well of course you  know  how I  feel  about what I  consider stupid statements. Now ... Is he saying because I am a slave ... I am a mindless boring twit ? Maybe... Maybe not but it is what I read it to be and as many things ones comprehension of it, is the importance. I do not believe by any  means I am a mindless twit at all, I  love the water but that doesnt make me a fish either. Why are there so many comments like that  here..... Do people really not understand just what it takes to  be a slave. I make my choices as does anyone else Master would not enjoy me if I obeyed mindlessly ... it is important only that I  do follow his rules and obey  always....  that isnt hard as making a choice to  go  back with him took thought and in turn dedication to him ALL involved REAL true thought.  BTW  this comes from a married male  who because he is married  has to have some one in a very  close range ...   Married is fine  I am  married as is Master ....  but he has no  problem driving the two hours it takes to come see me :-)I will hush  now

Well Master and I discussed branding the other day....... And much to my surprize I found out there were not one ...  but likely three heading my way. One visible to him only in most situations one always visable and one  depending on the clothing visable.. Never crossed my  mind to think about how I felt about it ... it is what he desires and it will come to pass.   I am extremely content with the way things are forming between us. Sometimes I feel he still has minor doubts about somethings, because I have bucked them so to speak in the past. But I have learned many things about myself in the past few months. the main one is that even when we were split up the reason I couldnt even begin to find another is because I was still owned by Master. Tells me that i still have the desire and need to please him in HIS way. I have learned that I truly have no fears of being humilated by him in any way..... Unless I was to act out in public ... and well that one just isnt happening. I know that what  would happen at that point would be something I just dont want to  know about.   I know that I am now and have been HIS property to  do with as he sees fit. there isnt a choice in this matter, Last choice I made really was to message him in December. I truly look forward to wearing His marks.... And literally having him mark HIS bitch.   Hah Daddy's Lil Bitch... I have truly come to love being called that. Thus his marking his territory from tattoo's to brands to GS seems appropriate.

Well I have enjoyed online time with Sir tho his works schedule seems almost defeating. The one thing I have going for me in this seemingly endless quest of paitence, is that I know his touch and I know what he does to me... And yes he is worth that wait..... Now do I whimper or whine in need at times .... Yes, but lucklyhe understand my  make up and he knows there are things I need to feel to heal the past and begin anew

This link takes you  to Literotica.com it is one of the erotic stories I wrote when I was with Daddy last time. Was recently submitted and accepted   http://www.literotica.com/stories/showstory.php?id=193701

I was working on my  trust entry to my journal and as I read back on it I realize that this section is part of how I know I  can gauge what is to  come with him even in a very serious issues such  as this ... but this to  is more of what I will call ......... Punishing with out damaging Well here goes with  what  is in my mind about upcoming punishment. One he is Daddy as well as Master,  Daddy will not let the punishment pass as it is important to my over all growth. Would I see it as weak if he didnt follow through ... Nope nothing about  him is weak, I would wonder if he was concerned about my  growth if he didnt follow through. Do I  think three years is to long to keep a punishment  on hold ... Not at all the memeories of what happened are as clear  now as when they  happened  the emotions have just settle in me more. Trust is the key here... I know at some point my ability to sit in a comfortable manner is going to  be highly effected. But I also know when he gets here he is not going to strip me and start beating my ass. He will access all of the things going on and then he will decide exactly how he is going to handle it. Once he decides where that  phase needs to go he will still watch. I know when this is finally  completed I  will have learned and grown and will be  more tightly bound to him than  any  rope or chain could possibly provide

Okay this one I have been putting off a bit, not because I didnt want to write it only because I needed to be in the right frame of mind to write it. And since I just spent the last 30 minutes exploring this, I am in the right frame of mind. Clit enlargement ..... When Master began talking about it I really wasnt sure how I felt about it. So as normal if I dont know about something I research it. Well the more I researched the less I found out. One page had some start up info. So off to purchase a snake bite kit I went. (trust me get more than one they  just arent made for that kinda abuse) Any way  back to the exploration.... I think about the first two weeks it was just that  exploration.  I learned  that  for the most part women shouldnt experience penis envy as we have our own... nice little small one that  is so  sensative the least little touch  can send us over the edge and into the grandmother of orgasm.   The snake bite kit has two sizes of suction cups, one about fits the clit itself perfectly the other a bit larger I like the feelings both create. Most times I  try to  stay focused on just the purpose of enlarging my clit but other times ..... well  the sensations and needs over come what I am supposed to be doing.  In order to  start working on the clit enlargement I use the kits 4-6  times a day no more than ten  minutes ( when it turns into  masturbation tho  I have gone as long as 30 minutes giving clit a chance to relax a bit during that time. I know there are certain dangers in doing this so I have to be careful. Thus why the time limits are important to  recognize. I was never all that  in tune so  to  speak with  an orgasm, was more into pleasuring partner.  With Master.... that  came to a screaching halt. and I  believe that is why he wants my clit enlarged. I am finding that it can have varied effects. All of which  drive me crazy at times. Sometimes I will cum simply getting the clit into the suction cup fully extending it. When I say  fully...  I  dont think it is to the level it will be but about an inch at this point. Sometimes tho I  get so envolved with  exploring the changes that I  dont  get hmm well excited....  I found at those times a little olive oil keeps things going and is eventually  absorbed into the skin.  Some days I  find it stays more swollen than others. I do not know if it is growing I do know it is more sensative each time I  use the suction on it and it is coming out more quickly.  If I  have used it as a masturbation tool either deliberatly or on accident  for several hours even sitting can be interesting. I knwo there are changes even at this point but how long term with  the method I am using at the momemt. I cant tell you  that since  I have started on this my need/desire to  cum has increased probally 100% or more. I am paying as much  attention  to how my  body  reacts to this as I do to how his body  responds to my  touch. I  have learned more about my clit than i  have ever known , and I still laugh when I  think  of my  reation to  finding out that  working the clit with  suction to  your orgasm is probally  as close as a female can come  to knowing want a BJ feels like. I am even learning the differences in the consitancy of my  vaginal fluids at certain times.... I will also say  even if you  didnt want the clit enlarged this is a good tool to  understand more the workings of your bodys sexual functions Well this is the close of this post I will try to  do  weekly posts on the progress or more if I have other earth quaking changes post completed 2/21/08 1:19 AM

Hmm two in one day what can I say I have things to say and this is my place to talk all I  want .... So here goes .... TRUST.... and important word here well in this lifestyle. In one story I will tell you much about both sides of the trust coin. ( I am working on getting Master's input as well)   At times there are outside factors in what  you  believe and what you dont believe.... At one point I had this lapse of brain function and I began to doubt his words... Ex slave of His  told me alot of things (wasnt supposed to  chat with her I will tell the out come of that in a bit) some of them being off the wall others being  things that I had felt  but tried to ignore.    So the fact that there was just enough truth in what she said I  began to doubt BUT, instead of going to Him with it then I let it brew. Which at a later time blew up in my face. Well somethng came out then after I had talked to her .... not even sure I remember what but it showed fully I had talked to her. OH wait I remember SHE told Him.    When He found out ... I  should say for the most part all hell broke loose. I was pretty sure it was over.... But once He calmed down we semi talked ... it was so labored on both sides it was almost impossible to get past or so I thought. He agreed to come down and talk...( I should have paid attention to  this when it happened later I realized exactly what it meant that He had) I believe when things are ended it should be face to face.   Well honestly I felt destroyed. And I really had no intention of letting it show. Fat chance of that, he always sensed everything. (When I  think  about it everything about that day only built some forms of trust taking it deeper and higher at the same time.) I sat in the car for a minute attempting to  regain any composure I thought  might have slipped out on the drive.     It seemed as tho he read me before I  got in his car. He took my hands and looked into my eyes and I melted yet again. He let me get everything out, and said nothing for a bit, I  think I was really waiting for it all to cave in. But it didnt he didnt beat my ass he didnt yell he didnt even speak in a manner that was cross.   He pulled me to  him kissed me one of those kisses that  almost drains you  of life .... And told me he would follow me to the house to drop off my car. We had lunch and the rest of the afternoon He spent tormenting me on on the beach... In the end tho not allowing me his orgasm.  He had made his point and never showed how angry he had been with me. The trust that came from that has survived us splitting up and almost three years apart. I take part of the blame for the things that led up to our parting, But It wasnt all me He allowed a person to interfere as well, and his holding  what  He had been told in caused him to draw away from me, didnt understand it but I dealt with it.    After being told in a chat room he had said he had no slave ... Well I lost it in the time I was with Him I had never done anything for  that to be said ... especially since I at that point had not been released.  Well long story short .. it wasnt pretty  I walked away and tried not to look back. Coming back to him was in some ways very  easy and others hard. I just didnt  know if  what  had happened could really be repaired. But as I have said before if we wanted it to work we both had to come back with  a clean slate. Not wiped clean totally, tho  because I know things I said to him and running like I did have to  be dealt with I was his at that time. Even if it was said different in my  mind  until the moment I closed the door I was his. So yes it is his right to  punish for my actions then as I  didnt ask for release I  just walked away. I am not looking forward to  dealing with the punishment phase I know is coming. but I know ... Why he is doing it, as with a child in some cases a submisisve or a slave is no different in how she treated. You have to  follow through with anything  you say. In this case there were two wrongs... But as we all know it doesnt make a right. He admitted his wrongs, I now have to deal with the normal course of mine. I feel  the worst two  things i did when leaving was how I talked to him and the fact I  didnt allow him to express his feelings and/or reasonings. I dont think I would have listened at that time, But those two things are major nono's in my view. Okay  I  just pulled out a pretty good section of this  because although it deals with  trust it more deals with  my feelings about his punishments it can be found in journal dated 2/21/2008 1:48:13 AM Okay back to trusting him. One thing I had to  come to  terms with  was would I trust his word. And  what  came from that was having to let go of hurt feelings so that I  could learn to  trust him again in that aspect, if I dont let go of it it will eat me alive and there wouild be no reason to  continue.(adding to  this  but saving to make sure my comp doesnt eat it)

Did I ever in my wildest dream think I would say one day I was a no limits slave .... No , I  didnt even accept the fact I was slave till  I was with Master the first time. The fact that I say no limits comes from the fact I trust Him not to hurt me. Push me til I  cry, likely, push me till I beg him to stop, yes. Will he ? Maybe depending on the way He reads my  body not my mouth  I want Him to push the limits .... for Him and myself, so much of me has been locked away so long it aches to  come out to the dimly lit world again. But I only want it with Him, I have kept it locked up so long, if I didnt trust him  it would likely not be out now. Well that isnt entirely true, He saw it last time we were together and knew I wasn't ready then. Master is a very even tempered man, He doesnt raise his voice,  and when he is upset the tone changes, not raises. This is part of the reason I am no limits with him. The other is he simply is allowing no limits this time and I accepted that coming back. Another aside of trusting Him is that he will not do to me or subject me too. This time coming back to Him means I  have more restraints on me .... and that  I  learn to  be restrained as it is something I really didnt like.  It means being marked where HE wants me marked. Also will mean more than one mark. Means being broken, old habits  bad memories and being brought back as one with Him and as HIS. It meant that I was going relearn what hard ass was.... I called Him that  last time ...  but we both know that  hard ass is a good thing for me. Does me being no limits mean I am any  better or worse than another? No it just means I am being what He desires and what I need to be for me to  be complete. And it means I have a whole new world open to me in His hands

I have left this a bit the last few days... Hadnt really been feeling well and not  into  thinking to  write ... I have been working on a post for here about the clit enlarging  but since an update to my microsoft ate it and a large part of a story I have been working on it a little at a time. Story upset me more than this did ... The info  on the clit enlargement is pretty  easy it is all factual. I have however found out that the snake bite kit  that Walmart sells is probally one of the cheaper made ones  because it just doesnt hold up. That it is since I figured out how to make it do what it is supposed to be doing .... well hmm  and yes that is proving truly interesting ... Can we say I  sit on the edge of my seat ALOT.....  More later

Making Floggers (Carina) Making floggers for me is a hobby, started out a long time ago when I couldnt afford the things I wanted. Well I  didnt like the smell of leather and I am a sensation junky so about everything I touched became a potential flogger.   There have been a few in my time of making them that I would never have handed some one I was with. But I will hand Daddy two of these types of floggers. I know what  these floggers can do to my skin.... But with him I have no fears abut how they will be handled. I am actually looking forward to  learning about the pain aspects of this again with him.   Making floggers is something I feel  lets out some of my creativity and a way to share with him  my desires. I had a fairly good business at one time selling these.... They  are pretty primal, and likely more so now since my arthritis is taking over.... But it isnt always about how it looks as to what it feels like.  Floggers can go from mild to wild .. I will add some pictures of the ones I make ....  Got an odd flogger you  want made ... Likely I wont laugh if you  contact me about making it

Greetings one and all. Will give you a little about Master and I for now I am sure he will have his own thoughts to add here as well at times. But for now you are stuck with me. As Some of you  know He and I  were together before... Wasn't a pretty  split up but we recently found our way back together. I had a lot of baggage the last time I couldnt let go of and he believed some one I told him  would be trouble for us ... So short version is we split. In December we came back together the odd reason was  that I finally made it into legitmate print and i wanted to  share it with him.... i was mad at him again because I couldn't. All this time I missed him and couldn't find any one like him. I was pretty  sure I wasnt going to... I logged on to  an old name and there he was. I  think it took me ten minutes to decide to message him ... And well long stort short we are beginning again.   When I came back this time inside I knew things had to  change if i wanted to  make this work. And then something inside changed, I was more willing to be what he knew I was and what I felt I was. Coming back to him wasnt hard there were some things I never lost with  him and the main was the trust in his way of handling me.  In this journal in time you will read of the road to complete slavery to him as I have asked him to completely retrain me. When I let go  of the baggage I had I felt it was the place I needed to start with him. We will share this road with all who come by and take time to read.

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