Searching for the light, after a long struggle. Each adversity only solidifies my conviction that I am deeply submissive and will only be happy after a complete and volitional relinquishment of my power, energy and soul to my One True Domme.
If it takes forever, I will wait forever. I simply have no choice, nor do I desire the alternative.
I am a sincere, divorced sub looking for a LTR with a caring, experienced, intelligent Domme. I could submit to the point of being a slave (at least in the sense I envision it) in the right relationship and after a sufficient period of time.
I am considered attractive, appealing and engaging. Although I am attracted to many types and ages of women, and prefer the mature and Rubenesque, I do not limit myself due to the uniqueness of what I seek. I am a successful professional and have the ability to relocate in the exceptional event that I meet Her.
I must be able to revel in Her psychic and analytic energy before I can release control, but once I do, the release is irrevocable and my submission immutable. Complete surrender is my only peace.
True submission is an energy exposed only within the confines of the level of trust obtainable in a LTR. True dominance can only exist when that complete trust is obtained. The exchange of that energy is critical to who I am. I am comfortable with both my masculinity and my submissiveness. I am also very service oriented.
Vanilla interests are wide ranging (modernism, art criticism, humanism, industrial technology, late Northern European Renaissance painting, bird hunting, African ritualism, extrasolar planets and American history, among other things) and conceptually important to the relationship I seek: She who can enjoy life in all its forms, but all within the framework of a D/s relationship.
The D/s dynamic is much more important to me than the S/m. That is to say I am not a pain slut, but am willing to grow in that area if it is important to Her. I enjoy my extant fetishes, but recognize them for what they are and do not let them predetermine my relationships. I also love deeply and tend to the romantic. I crave discipline but must, and will, laugh in akward moments.
My sense of humor is eclectic and off beat (think Mr. St. Hubbins (Spinal Tap) replacing Sir Galahad in Holy Grail). I can be intense and cavalier simultaneously. The complexity of the human condition fascinates me.
I know She is out there, I only hope She knows I am seeking.
I will find Her.
A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
(1876 - 1944)