I have a wonderful man in my life, and I am not looking for anything more than friends. If that is too much to ask, please move on to the next profile.
Please make sure to read my journal, as it will give you an insight into what I am and am not looking for.
I'm honestly not sure what I'm looking for at this time. Perhaps romance, perhaps a D/s relationship, perhaps just some simple play time. Things in my life are constantly changing, and I am trying to flow with that change. If you think you can flow with that change as well, feel free to send me a message. I am a modern day gypsy and might be willing to relocate for the right situation.
I'm pretty much laid back and fun, trust easily, love deeply, laugh out loud, dance and sing at every opportunity, and love living life to its fullest. Just know that once you break my trust, that's one hard bridge to build back. I've been hurt a lot, but I give everyone a chance, and sometimes will give a second chance.
I'll never lie to you and expect the same respect to be shown to me. I don't expect you to tell me everything at once, but I do expect honesty. I don't abide by liars. End of story.
I love music, and I love to write. Horseback riding is a passion I do not get to fulfill nearly as often as I would like to. I'd rather text than talk on the phone, but I'd rather voice chat than type on the computer. I'm tidy but not a neat freak. I used to read all the time, and now don't really have time to do so. I work from home doing web design, graphic art, and internet DJing, so if I'm slow to respond, I'm probably working. I'm working on going into the army, so if I'm not online, I'm probably out running, walking, or doing something around the house.
I am a bundle of contradictions, an old soul in a young body. I've been told most of my life I was born in the wrong era, and perhaps they are right.
Want to know more? Ask me.
11/15/2010 1:20:47 AM
While I wait to go into the Navy, I am working a part time job. It is also November, which means it is NaNoWriMo time. If you don't know what that is, it means that I am working to write a 50,000+ word novel in 30 days.
What does this mean for you, the reader of this journal. This means that I more than likely will not log on to CollarMe very often. This also means that it may take me some time to answer your messages. Just because I check CM, does not mean I will take the time to answer right this very second. If you do not know the meaning of the word patience, please pass on to the next profile.
Thank you for your time
Senga
11/4/2010 9:20:57 AM
Well, I passed tape the other day for the navy. That means I meet height and weight requirements. I am now working to fill out all my paperwork, and go to MEPS sometime next week or the week after. I don't know how much longer I'll be in Texas.
10/27/2010 12:22:01 AM
I still believe in fairy tale love, and love at first sight. I believe in the good in all people. I believe that everyone is deserving of trust and respect, until they prove otherwise. I believe that people can change. I believe that everything happens for a reason, even if we don't know what the reason is right away.
I believe that history repeats itself if we forget it. I believe that good things come to those who wait, though sometimes that wait seems far too long. I believe in karma, and the three fold law. I believe that you can choose your family, and sometimes blood really isn't thicker than water. I believe that the opposite of love isn't hate, but fear. I believe that jealousy is a form of fear, and trust is the foundation of love. I believe in paying it forward, helping your fellow man, and being kind to all creatures, big and small. I believe that if you truly fall in love with someone, you can't ever fully fall out of love with them, and that there will always be a place for them in your heart.
I believe that love is the most powerful emotion in the world. It can build us up, and break us down, bring us together, and tear us apart. I believe that there is no limit on how much you can love, or how many people you can love, because your heart isn't a cup, it can't be filled, it can only grow to encompass more love. I believe it takes far too much energy to hate, that it is easier to forgive, but that doesn't mean you have to forget.
I believe that we all create our own reality, because no one can see the world through another's eyes. I believe that seeing is not believing, but that believingis seeing. I believe we are all put on this earth for a reason, a purpose. I believe that we all change the world in some way, if only to make one person smile for one minute on one day. I believe that a smile has the power to save a life. I believe in the power of positive thought, and on the flip side, the power of negative thought as well. I believe that you really can speak something into existence.
I believe that no job is beneath you if you really want to work. I believe that if you want something, you should work for it. I believe that anything that is really worth having is worth working for. I do not believe in having anything handed to me on a silver platter. I believe that love has many faces, and that none is more important than another. I believe that no act of kindness is a waste of time.
I believe in dancing in the rain, and singing along to the radio. I believe that music and art of all kinds are gifts from the gods. I believe that everyone should learn to read and write. I believe that you should watch at least one sunrise a month, and as many sunsets as you can. I believe that when one door closes, another really does open up. I believe that death isn't an ending, but just another beginning. I believe in waking each day with the thought that today will be better than yesterday, and worse than tomorrow. In this way, I believe that every day will be better than the last and that my last day on earth will be my very best.
I believe that family of all kinds, chosen or blood, is important. I believe that you should tell those you care about just how much you love them. I do not believe in going to bed angry. I would rather stay awake all night to resolve an issue than go to bed mad. You never know if you'll wake up tomorrow.
These are my fundamental beliefs. This may be added to in the future, but these are the beliefs that I try to build my world around. What do you believe?
10/25/2010 11:29:38 AM
My life is about to change once again. I leave Wednesday to head to Texas so that I can get ready to go into the military. I don't know how long I'll be in Texas, or what I'll be looking for there. Right now I'm just trying to focus on getting into the military and starting my career there. I may or may not head out for play time, or look into the local scene. It all depends on my goals, and what it's going to take to reach them. Nothing and no one is going to stop me from reaching them this time.
8/30/2010 12:35:28 PM
Why does everyone think money is everything? Why do you have to be going out to get dressed up? Sometimes you can turn your own kitchen into the most romantic restaurant. Life is about the simple pleasures. If you can't dress up for a night in, and enjoy a simple meal with good company, you're focused on the wrong things.
8/14/2010 8:07:05 AM
So, I got a job. It's not the best job in the world, but it is a job, and for that I am proud. I've been without one and working from home for the past 7 1/2 months, and while it paid my phone bill, it didn't really pay anything else. I wasn't able to save any money. I'm now going to be able to save money and get a car, and car insurance, so forth and so on.
This means I probably won't be on as much. This doesn't mean I won't be checking my messages every day. It just means that if I don't respond right away, I probably read your message right before work and didn't have time to respond.
8/5/2010 2:18:11 PM
Perhaps I should write about things I am not looking for, since I've written about a few things I am.
I am not looking to move out of the country, or to move you into the country. I am not looking to be a "cumpig", a 24/7 slave, or a 24/7 Domme. I am not looking to be your trophy wife, sub, slut, or toy.
I am not particularly looking to be the third in a poly house, as I've done that, and right now it doesn't seem to fit my needs. That's not to say it's an impossibility, just that it's not my preference.
I am not looking to relocate out of state. I will if the right situation comes along, but again, not my preference. My family is here, I like being able to see them, I'd rather not move far again.
I am not looking to be a baby girl to someone twice my age. I am looking in a range of 10 years older than me at the most. I need someone I have things in common with, and while I do feel I am an old soul, my body is still young. My mind is still young. There's something that just makes me feel sleezy when people my parents' and grandparents' age are writing to me asking questions about my dirtiest fantasies. I'm sorry, I don't share those with my parents or grandparents, I'm not going to share them with you. I'm definitely not going to act upon them with you. I have nothing against people who are older than me. I just don't want to have sex with you, be your baby girl, your slut, or anything else you might seem to want me to be.
I am not looking for someone who can't be respectful in the first message they send me. I am a switch, not a sub. I am a person, a lady, and I deserve respect. Should I choose to enter into a relationship or play date with you, then negotiations may or may not include humiliation. Until then, try to be polite and act like you have the sense the gods gave a squirrel.
7/31/2010 3:59:55 PM
Perhaps someone can explain to me why it is that just because I do not label myself a dominant I am supposed to kneel and obey anyone who DOES refer to themselves as a dom during our first conversation. I'm sorry, but that's not the way I work. I am headstrong, and I am intelligent. I am a person first and foremost. My health comes before your want to see me on camera. No, I do not open my camera when I am eating. That may seem strange, but it's one of my little eccentricities. We all have them, get over it.
If it is our first conversation, do not deem yourself my Dominant. Do not act as though I am even under consideration. Do not try to order me to my knees, or order me to stand, strip, or in any other way reveal myself to you any further than I choose to do. You will get laughed at. You will be ignored. You will be told "no". If you persist, you will be ridiculed, ignored, told "no" and then blocked.
I am headstrong. I do not submit to just anyone. I do not bottom to just anyone. It takes a very strong person to dominate me, and no, I don't just mean physically. You must have mental strength to dominate me.
If you can't handle these things, please move on to the next profile.
7/30/2010 3:41:17 AM
The sun's coming up, and a new day has begun. Really, my day began about an hour and a half ago when I discovered the biggest brown recluse in the known or unknown multiverse crawling across my wall towards my bed. It was kill or be killed, so I killed the damn bug and threw it away. Now I'm a little paranoid that its spawn will try to come eat me in my sleep.
Okay, I don't really believe its spawn will hunt me down. But it was a really big spider and freaked me out a little bit (read: a LOT). No bug should be able to live for 10 years, let alone up to six months without food or water.
So, why am I writing about a bug? Because that's how my day began. Kill or be killed. That's the world we live in, I guess. Break hearts, or have your heart broken. Life would be simple if we all knew exactly who we were supposed to be with, and exactly when we were supposed to meet them. If we all knew exactly what to say, and when to say it.
Unfortunately, life is not simple. We don't know what to say, when to say it, or who to say it to. We just have to feel our way through it and hope we're doing it right.
I'm back on the journey of finding what I'm looking for, even though I'm not sure what that is. Who that is.
Who are you? I know I'm waiting for you, and perhaps actively searching for you now. I'd stopped my search for a while, because I was told if I just stopped looking, you would find me. You don't seem to be finding me, and sleeping alone gets old. Not waking up to a smiling face, a soft voice, a touch gets old. Not having someone to kill the ginormous spider stalking across the wall towards my bed gets old.
I know you're out there somewhere. Maybe we've passed each other in the street, or the grocery store. Maybe we've talked before. Or perhaps we've never been in any sort of proximity to each other. I know you're out there. You, the person who would kill deadly spiders for me. The person who'll smile and say "Go back to sleep."
Kill or be killed. Break hearts or have your heart broken. Maybe it doesn't have to be that way always. Maybe it's just for now.
11/14/2009 5:28:17 AM
Okay, so here's the long and short of it. i've just gotten out of a long term relationship. Actually, i've just gotten out of my third long term relationship in the past eight years. In eight years, i have not been single, save for a few weeks here, a month there, and now i see one of the places i may have (read: did) gone wrong. i'm not jumping into anything serious. i'm not looking for anything long term right now. Right now, i'm looking at me. Who am i? Who do i want to be? How do i want to get to the places i want to be?
i am reinventing myself, reminding myself it's okay to take care of myself first. Would i like companionship throughout this journey? Of course, we all would. Am i looking to be half of a couple again? No, not quite yet. i do find myself stimulated by conversations with others of like minds, and that amazes me. i can't remember the last time i had a four hour conversation with someone and DIDN'T get bored... until this morning.
You know, if i do find something that starts out as friendship, and develops into more later on down the road, i won't complain. Right now though, i'm just going to take it as it comes. No more rushing for this kitten. Don't see why i was in such a hurry anyway... One should never take life seriously, no one's getting out alive :)
