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hello,... please if i don't know you or have not talked to you in emails don't ask me to be in your friends...or you mine...i am not interested in collecting pic's..nor having mine on someone's profile i don't know...thank you and good luck
first i am human and woman, if you can't respect and get to know that part of me then you will never see the slave within....


I added a new picture of myself...it was taken 2 weeks ago...2/1/2013

thank you for taking the time to read my profile
i am a mixture of things...I'm the good girl, the brat,little girl,slut (for the right one) and the bitch...i have many angles and curves that makes up who i am...i am independent..have a mind that i use...i can support myself ...i own a few of my own toys...i don't need a Master but i do want one...to me there is a big difference...i will not submit to you just because you say your a Master/Dom...you will have to earn that from me as i will have to earn your Dominance by getting to know the person that lives within both of us...i will give the respect that is given to me...

i have a strong will...and have a stubborn place within me...i am looking for someone that is strong in mind and will...that will be able to take control and rule over the brat..but will also enjoy her as well...someone that is willing to take the time to learn my mind before trying to take my body...Someone that is willing to take the time to find my soul...to set it free within His ownership with care and compassion...He will also allow me to get to know him as well mind heart and soul...i am a slave at heart...i truly need,want and desire to give over total control to the right One...

the journey of the last few years has been one of pain joy and growth....i have learned compassion tolerance and in truly giving all that i am...my heart has been broken and has mended...my eyes have been opened to things that bring joy as well as pain...i learned how to protect myself and how to share what i have been given by those before me....i have made many wonderful friends...and have had the privilege of being collared for a short time to a wonderful man that started my journey in a positive way...i will always think of Him with kindness...also i was owned and the property of a wonderful Master who has brought me to where i am today...i will always love and have a special place in my heart for Him....i have been lucky enough to stay friends with my last Master...He helps me to continue to grow though His wisdom and kindness. He is one of my best friends and the bond between us is stronger today than it was when i met Him almost 7 years ago...

The Master that i hope to find me will be loving kind,and compassionate. He will have the wisdom to know that not only am i a slave but also that there is a human side to me,that He will respect and care for. He will command His world with a firm but
gentle hand. He is a sadistic one at heart, as well as sensual. He will want to take the time to build a strong foundation that has the corner stones of friendship trust honesty and transparency. He will be strong within Himself and within the world around Him...He will be my best friend lover Master Daddy owner
3/19/2013 12:52:02 AM

March 21,2012 may I change that one day Dear Universe. Will you let me take his place...Can he return and take his place here on earth...He was just 28 and had so much more that he wanted to do for himself and his family...can you take away the pain...

2/23/2013 12:23:58 AM

i ordered a new book today...Protocols: A Variety of Views published by Power Exchange...come on Tuesday so i can start to read it...starting my book collection again...having lost the one's i had over time and moves....

10/19/2011 1:26:03 PM

I will be wearing purple will you??!!!


Millions of Americans wear purple on Spirit Day as a sign of support for lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) youth and to speak out against bullying. Spirit Day was started in 2010 by teenager Brittany McMillan as a response to the young people who had taken their own lives. Observed annually on October 20, individuals, schools, organizations, corporations, media professionals and celebrities wear purple, which symbolizes spirit on the rainbow flag. Getting involved is easy -- participants are asked to simply "go purple" on October 20 as we work to create a world in which LGBT teens are celebrated and accepted for who they are.

4/15/2011 6:16:30 PM

i will be heading for Seattle on the 25th...but don't you lovely folks forget the social and party every second friday of the month...they are way to cool and fun to miss...gonna miss all my friends here in LA bunches....

 

 

Help promote tolerance and love instead of hate....

12/18/2009 3:22:02 PM

 S/M and spirituality, what's important is that you have examined your own conscience and your soul and decided: This is my path. That doesn't mean you can't have some help or some company along the way, but the ultimate responsibility rests with you, along with the task of creating your own glory and meaning and power. Nobody's selling tickets to Leather Nirvana.

" - Pat Califia, from the essay, "Shiny Sharp Things" in Speaking Sex to Power: The Politics of Queer Sexought so wanted to put it somewhere that i can find it again and again...and also share it with others...quote to give a moment of thought :)


6/26/2009 12:33:59 PM

a friend posted this on a different site...i asked if i could post it here and was given permission...it said so much and is so wonderfully written...i also believe it covers those of us that are slaves as well...hugs

Symbiosis by lovinglinda ©

Please don't think me weak because I am submissive. Please don't think me stupid because I am submissive. Please don't think me less than You because I am submissive

I am strong in many ways. I am able to bite my tongue and just answer, "Yes, Sir" I am able to politely and respectfully disagree. Even when You fail to show me respect even when You fail to respect me

I have the power to think I have the power to assimilate information just like everyone else I can and do think critically. I have not gone brain dead. Just because I serve

I am not less important than You because I serve You are not a bigger person because I allow You to control me. We are equals. Just on different sides of the same fence

but... without me and ones like me… You would have no power Your power is given to You because of us that serve Please respect what we give to You. For we do it with pride and honor We take pains to learn Your preferences. Your likes and dislikes. We take the time to listen to You and to obey You… We give honor to You. We need it to be given to us as well

We have pain when You hurt We have pain when we have failed You the hurt runs deep within us

Why do we serve? Why do we give this honor to You? Why do we spoil You? Why do we light up as You walk into the room?

Because we have needs as well and we look toward You to fill them

Your "needing to be served" is a perfect match to our "need to serve" but, we know that in reality You serve us far more than we serve You

Yes, You get to make the rules, but we trust that You are wise enough to know what we best need and place our needs above Your own

So who is the servant? We both are for You serve and care for our needs as we do Yours

If You think You can demand from us something we cannot give. You are wrong for we will break. We will learn to resent. we will seek comfort from Someone that will care for us but, that is not what we want we want You to open fully to us, to trust us as we have trusted You

We come to Your arms for comfort, for understanding, for clarity, for love, for honor, for kindness, for strength, for warmth, for peace and we find it all there and much more

We thank You for being there for us.

6/15/2009 6:35:22 PM
kinda funny how sometimes you have someone on IM ...you have their phone number and you know where they live...but you find yourself in a day of e-mails instead of using one of the other forms of communications you have with them...has life gotten so busy that we can't take the time to just have a quick conversation or is there some other reason we do such a thing...i am not one that usually likes to do the e-mail thing when talking...i would rather talk to someone on IM or the phone if i am unable to go see them for what ever reason...just seems more personal...you are able to express things better i believe also if something isn't said in the right way it can be corrected at the moment not later when the confusion has grown from one word said wrong or a sentence isn't worded the correct way...guess i just like the manner of being able to say things now not in the time it takes to read an e-mail back...guess i want that instant satisfaction...but i don't think so i would like to think it is i like the ability of it being a bit more personal...well after spending yet another day online doing what i have to do here...and also adding a day of e-mails back and forth to friends...and some IM chat also...just feels like i may have missed something...that could be important...something they needed from me...but i didn't see within the e-mails cause i didn't see between the lines kinda thing...silly i am sure but anyways i am going to hush now and go finish dinner :)
4/9/2009 3:43:34 PM
Today I called all my angels to my side…I asked them who would please  go  to watch over a very special friend  …all stepped forward and said please allow me the honor of going…so that I can wrap your love and care around them as they serve our country with courage strength  and pride…as I watched my angels step forward and each pelage to carry the message of love and care from me…to help in keeping care of the dear friend that  is love and care for safe and warm wrapped within their wings… So I asked them all to go…that I had my special angels on earth to keep me safe and warm…so my dear friend know that you are held with the love and care of a friend…the honor that the universe has given me in having such angels I share with you and the others that are doing what needs to be done…know that my love goes with you dear friend..feel it each day as you go about your day…may it hold you close and keep you safe to come home to all of us that love care and need you within our lives…our hearts hold you close as our souls are connected through the friendships that we share…each night and each morning when I talk to the universe I will ask for your safe return in as speedy manner as possible….i love you my dear friend…you will always hold a special place within my life…thank you for all that you do and all that you stand for…hugs kisses
11/20/2008 1:35:23 PM
as i read my e-mails i find myself once again being amazed at the fact that so many don't read the profile...they just look at the picture..and they lose all ability to use the head that resides on their shoulders...and the one between their legs becomes the one that they think with...not that i think i am a super model or anything special to look at...but i am cute enough to get the silly mails that occur because of this exchange of thinking modes...i find there is 3 separate categories of this type of e-mailer...
the first one is the submissive that hasn't been able to find the spacial thing within him/her self...and they ask for spankins beatings and such...so in the end just wind up getting embarassing e-mails back...or being ignored...where if they would resist allowing the wrong head from taking contorl of them...they would be able to find that qulity that would attract them a Mistress/Dom...and prevent them from asking a slave such as i am to do things to them...thus saving them being thought of as do-me-subs...also in the end they would gain more self respect...and that is one of the main things to make it through this life even in all sides of life...
the second type would be the Dom/FemDom that sends the e-mail to the sub/slave that is miles away, and they ask for play...well now if you have a flogger whip or cane that can travel miles and miles...i don't think i want to play with you anyways...just way to much we will call taht a hard limit...i am not saying that i might not meet the One for me and He isn't going to be a distance from me...but not going to happen on the first e-mail...i don't believe in love on the first mail...just can't see the eyes the hands the heart or the heat of His passions...so not e-mails im's and phone sex is out for me...but that is my own thing...so take it with the grain of salt that is on the table please...i don't want a fanatisy i want a real full time relationship with the ablity to see feel hear and touch you...not into a fair tale....
then there is the will you be my online sub/slave...hummm how does that work..how would you know if i really did what you told me to do such as go to bed or drink your tea...i could say i did it and not have...i could be cold and need your touch...thinking type is a bit different than the touch...i might be going throug a hard time and need my Dom's smell and engery...i might just need to look into my Master's eyes to reground me within the world...His taste to bring me into focus again...or hear His words of wisdom whispered into my ears...if something should go wrong with what i am doing for you...are you able to help me maybe get a proffesional to me in time...so for me again this is just my thoughts...how does it work and all those needs be met on both sides...each want need and desire is and felt on both sides...and most would be missed when put in type or on the phone...
For all three of the types if they stoped and read the profile they would know something of the girl or man they are just thinkin the pictures are lovely i have to meet her/him...stop and read it isn't really as hard as you small head is at this moment and time...find out if the other one is within your wants need desires so that there is a way to connedt with that person...
now i know i am going to be blasted because of what i write...as i have been over a picture i use to have...but sometimes i just have to wonder aloud
thank you for reading my rant...it is always good to find an outlet and let it go...
so thank you again..how your day or evening is super ans wonderful...
hugs
mary ellen

ps empower yourself ...learn grow and become till the day you die...

9/26/2008 4:49:31 PM
i have been released from my Master..please understand that i am not looking still i am very deeply hurt from for the loss of Him and learning what i can do to repair what is wrong within me that would make me do the things i did...when one sabotage oneself then it is time to step back and work on the why's of such actions...and at this time i am doing that so please don't contact me if you are looking for anything other than a new friend only....
i am still in the healing process..but have started to move forward...i understand what was mine from what happened and i am fixing that...i am still friends with my Ex-Master and He will always be within my life..and i will always carry Him within my heart..thank you for all those that have supported me with loving kind emails and to all my wonderful friends that have held my hand and contuie to do so...as i walk the path that is before me...
11/29/2006 9:12:28 PM
ok just a fyi ...for those that have emailed me and those that will ask themselfs this question...no i was not drunk when the pic was taken...it was taken by my playmate of a year ago or so...after we had played for 4 hours...so not drunk persay...i was still in subspace....thank you it was a super wonderful evening...
11/4/2006 2:16:09 AM

today when talking to some friends in a chat room the question was asked ...if you are a masochist, dose that mean when your Master gives you pain..are you submitting less than one that isn't...well after a lot of thought i have come up with this....
one of my mentors one time told a story of the greatest submissive act His slave had done that week for him...now He is a sadistic one...and his slave is a sensual slave...
the story went this way...
when he had arrived home from work....she met him at the door...took his shoes and work pants and shirt off and place his robe and slippers on his feet...then lead him to the dinning room where his dinner was waiting...it was hot and there was his favorite drink of fresh brewed sun tea....she sat and had dinner with him allowing him to speak of his day...while he was having his desert she went off and fixed his bath....placing a relaxing oil in the water...this man was a shower taker for the most part...when he was done...she lead him to the bathroom took off the robe and slippers...washed his hair and back for him ...then left him to soak and relax...when he was done with the bath she come dried him off and again place the robe and slipper on him...leading him to the living room giving him his book and remote...snuggled up with him and just let him relax....at bedtime she covered him up and helped him to be comfortable...then climbed into bed with him and then purred like a kitten...
you see she had done something that she truly enjoyed doing...but that wasn't what my Mentor seen he seen that what she was doing come from her heart...if she had felt he wanted her to take his pain that night she would have...but what he needed wanted and desired was a relaxing evening just being...and that was what she gave him...
but again what he seen as her total act of submission was that it was coming from her heart...so no matter if it was something she enjoyed doing or something she didn't it was for his pleasure...
i guess what i have decided it isn't submission verse maschoisiam....because taking the pain or serving isn't a challenge if it is something that comes from your heart and soul...and this is what i hope to bring into the relationship i find...the giving up of total control...so that the energy we share can form the complete circle that is strong...in all things in our life....not just one or two parts of it....ok well i am done rambling now thank you for taking the time to read this...

 
RevealURSelf
 
 Age: 22
 Carthage, North Carolina