i never quite know how to express myself on these little boxes. Somehow it seems i end up either coming across as overly formal, or too goofy, oh well, as i have no gag on i'm not shutting up just yet. ;-) Perhaps one day i will work on a Reader's Digest condensed version of my profile.
to me, this thing that i do goes beyond the kinks (although of course, yes, i do enjoy those!) i find deeper satisfaction and enjoyment in the rituals, the spirituality i have found within this path i choose to walk... and myself. i am not actively seeking a play partner, or a Master. if i am lucky enough to find a Master , then so be it, i will thank the Fates if it is to be. Until that time, i will continue to seek friendships, for no matter how many years i have been exploring, i will never stop seeking to expand my knowledge and my mind. Only through speaking to others of their experiences can i learn about my own.
i need to feel challenged mentally and physically, or i start to feel restless and pent up. Those around me know i am very respectful and polite, seemingly used to various "high" protocols. i am open and honest, and look for the same qualities in others. If we cannot be ourselves.. then how can we find true, complete fulfillment? Only by taking the chance of baring ourselves to another, can we ultimately reach that level of intimacy and fulfillment.
i am extremely sensual, and am entirely comfortable with my own sexuality, my likes and dislikes, limits both hard and soft... though i tend to hide that side of myself until i feel safe and comfortable.. and unless there is a spark.. that side of me stays hidden.
i have always been told that i am extremely complex. i take that as a compliment. While it means i may be harder to understand, it also means One must take time with me, learning patiently of all my various facets. If that is too much work... then in the end... so am i ~smiling~ Everyone is complex, there are just differing degrees of complexity.
i am polite and respectful to All, unless actions show that respect is not warranted. If that offends, so be it.. my training runs deep, and it is an integral part of who and what i am. i will always strive to act like a lady, unless the situation deems otherwise. Please do not mistake my enjoyment of being a lady as weakness or timidness, as i am neither of those.
i find i avoid grouchy people, life is too fleeting to surround myself with those who can see only gloom about them. Everyone has good days and bad.. hopefully the good far outweighs the bad. Our bad days should not define our lives, they are but mere pebbles in the path we follow. Sorry Oscar the Grouch... you never were a favorite of mine ~grin~
Intelligent and articulate, i enjoy conversations on many levels and differing topics, and find myself drawn to others of a similar nature. Those willing to talk about anything and everything, who know how to hold a discussion, a sharing of thoughts and ideas spark my interest. It is becoming rare to find a good discussion that doesn't turn into a personal attack, or a "my way or no way" mentality. How sad.
i do have a dear friend and mentor that is my "protector". She is not my owner, but is there to keep me and my little pisces self from letting my emotions overwhelm my intellect. Hey, even people with brains forget to use them on occasion do they not? :D If not, please keep that to yourself so i can be happy in my delusions!
"Humor is an affirmation of dignity, a declaration of man's superiority to all that befalls him." - Romain Gary
"Life is a mystery to be lived. It is not a problem to be solved." Kierkegaard
