SurrenderSpirit

I've decided to take some time to do some deep, personal inquiry into my relationship with sex and relationship, and to that end I am now entering a period of intentional celibacy. I don't know how long it will last; we'll just have to see what shakes out. I welcome messages from friends and potential new connections, but I will not be actively looking for a play partner or relationship for the time being. I wish everyone the best of luck in getting your kink on! :)

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I've posted two pictures from my scene yesterday at SBI -- they're the last two in my profile. Here's the back story:

Once I had the full rubber latex suit on, with heavy boots and a rubber gas mask, Madame started strapping me into the elaborate bondage chair. By the time she was done, I could barely move a muscle (besides my fingers, which could have been put into mitts and latched down to the chair, but they wanted the full Rubber Look, so we stuck with the heavy rubber gloves), and even my breathing was a bit labored due to the gas mask and the tightness of the bonds around my neck and chest. The chair was designed for someone smaller than me, so it was a bit less than 100% comfortable. But what are you going to do? Bondage isn't always going to be comfortable.

Madame has a thing for French, so once she found out I spoke French near-fluently, she kept making me speak French throughout the scene. She had me doing the multiplication tables in French while she was hitting me with a crop, breaking my train of thought. Not easy to concentrate like that... Eventually, though, she settled on a CBT/T&D bit, where she used the Hitachi magic wand on my cock (through the rubber), finding that perfect spot that would get me to moan and writhe around in my bonds, then she hit my cock hard with a riding crop. Over and over she did this -- she loved my responsiveness, and enjoyed being in control of my sensations and responses. After each hard swat with the crop, the sensation would flow around my body, creating a visible effect that both she and the videographer noticed. I think it excited her! Within short order, all discomfort was forgotten and I was a writhing mess of sexual excitement and frustration. She could have gone on all night -- as could I! -- but eventually we had to close it down and go home.

All in all, it was great fun -- after many of the takes, we all broke down laughing, it was so ridiculous and bizarrely fun. I'm looking forward to the next shoot!

Looks like I'm doing another session at SBI. They want me to do a "heavy rubber" scene this Thursday with one of their regular Mistresses. Beyond that, I have no idea what's supposed to happen. Which might be the point. Pictures to come!

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Wow, over the last month or so I have been developing an amazing connection to a truly beautiful (inside and out) Goddess, Whom I met here on CM. It's a spiritual connection as well as a kinky connection, which I had hoped - but never really expected - to find on this site. Or much of anywhere, truth be told. Just feeling very grateful.

Just moved to Sebastopol (near Santa Rosa) recently, and still looking for some new playmates. Hopefully i won't have to drive down to SF every time i want to get my kinky rocks off. If you're in the area and would like to connect - for a scene or just to commiserate with a fellow kinkster - please hit me up.

Wow, I just had the most amazing Labor Day weekend I could ever have imagined. A whole group of us went to this guy's house near Sacramento, in which the very sophisticated dungeon is hidden behind a false wall/bookcase. While there I was put into two different straitjackets, mummified for three hours, strung up and flogged, strapped to a split bondage chair and forced to cum, plus a host of other kinky adventures. Pictures coming soon!

I met someone new recently - my first through CM. She is a beautiful and delightful Woman/Goddess. We spent 5 hours enjoying each other's company over tea, dinner, and some drinks, and it looks like W/we will get to play together sometime soon.

What was interesting for me was to see how i responded to Her energy; having been in a more dominant space recently (i know my profile says i'm submissive, but i do switch sometimes), i wasn't sure what would happen when i met Her. But Her Dominant energy is very natural - and too sweet to resist for long! I found myself easing back into submissiveness in what felt like a very natural give-and-take between us. I look forward to seeing where this particular rabbit-hole leads...

Had an amazing session with a local pro-Domme on Friday. Blew me away! I needed all of Saturday to recharge while in a comatose state. I attribute the power of that session both to Her amazing skill and beauty.

She played me so well, I just kept straining against the restraints for all I was worth. At one point the energy got so high and intense, my arms started to tingle (not from the restraints, mind you) and my mouth and lips actually went numb - I believe some Novocaine from some ancient dental work released back into my system. It's fascinating what can happen when all the channels are so open and pumping so much sexual energy through your body!

All in all, a very successful session. I can't wait to see what develops as I keep working the magick...