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beanzbayliss
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 Looking for a Dom who will be my best friend, as well as my owner & lover. I have the heartfelt willingness to explore in faith. Faith in my Master and his plan for me. For me it's all about the development of my submission to be the very best I can be, to transcend barriers, embracing pain, pleasure and passion,enjoying all that bdsm-D/s can give us, including the deep link between a master & a slave.
Am not wanting a boring hohum exhistance anymore but would like to embrace a real sense of adventure. I am open to friendships of a non sexual nature, since friends are very good to have. Seeking a
magnetic personality,you must be very honest, fair & openminded, not attached, genuinely interested in bdsm-D/s, have intelligence & a sense of humour. You must be cute, sexy & attractive to me must be single as am not willing to hurt anyone else or play the part of the other woman,be part of a harem, or be kept in the closet.I hope to find someone interested in pushing my limits& having my boundries moved. I want a Master who sees me as a whole human, not just an arse to be beaten, etc.
Am looking for a deep, intence meeting of the minds, a relationship which involves activities outside of the scene, play, friendship,fun times out and about with deep attachments but with consideration to the fact i am still finding myself at present am not sure i'm ready to find my life partner, Dom would need to be a believer in safe sex, safe words and open to explore new areas with fairly inexperienced sub. If you are part of a cpl or do not meet the parameters of my topics do not waste my time and yours by contacting me
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have been spending alot of time exploring chastity sites and have found many interesting and intrigueing stories. one writter in particular i feel an affinity towards her descriptions of her feelings towards her submission to her Master. being near my Master these days i get no greater pleasure then laying at his feet with my head resting in his lap feeling that closness and subservience being his pet and at his command for his every whim. |
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Well its been an interesting week to say the least. The train trip down to get my peicings went in a blur of excitement. was so turned on by the prospect of Sir being able to lock me up:)Not being a pain slut once there i bagan to have a little apprehentionbut it was nothing to worry about didnt even hurt. found walking down the stairs at first a little challenging as peicings caught on each other. the w'end that followed was just wonderful being spent with Sir, except for that tiny moment when the rope caught on my peicing heheeh.Each time i am with him i am over whelmed with the need to do anything for him.Once i returned home my contentment still lasted knowing we were on our way towards some exciting chasity play. i couldnt stop surfing the net for piecing suppliers and piecing galleries checking out others piecings.Following Sirs orders of toughening up my nipples has been challanging as the minute i pinch them its like a switch to my pussy is turned on and all i want is penetration which i am presently not allowed. On the night i had permission to play i surprised myself by not being able to cum. When i got close my mind flashed up that my orgasim belonged to sir and was like an instand ice bath.Waking the next morning to hyper sensitive skin where even the satin of my sheets was abrasive. I am still having very broken sleep patterns which i put down to my forever being horny at the moment but is a small price to pay in serving Sir to the best of my ability and meeting all challanges he sets for me. |
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Am much happier with my resolve atm am coping so much better in so many ways but so much worst in others. Can't beleive my restraint. But i so do not want to disappoint Sir again, it was so crushing knowing i had failed and that it would reflect on him. Now i have my punishment to face when we meet again. Having the knowledge of what the punishment maybe with held is playing on my mind too, it is titilating and teriffying at the same time. |
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am very disappointed within myself. i was capable only of with standing temptation as long as it was out of reach. once Sir permitted a certain amount being a hedonist i couldn't help but want to take it further. i dread disappointing my Sir with my report, luckily i am able to tell him i did not cross the line and orgasim without permission but it is poor consilation for me at the moment. |
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have yet to feel the full impact of the challenge layed down for me, i guess i'm fortunated hat life has throw other obsticles in my way to keep me distracted enough for task to as yet not greatly impeed me. thats not to say if given the opportunity i would not just willingly but would whole heartedly jump at chance to end celebacy if master suggested <grin> |
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saw more pictures of genital peicings used for chasity today was very exciting thinking bout my peicings being done, i hope they turn out as sexy as ones i've seen. i also hope i'm not to much of a woss while having them done would hate to be an embaressment to Sir. am also worried bout how painful peicings will be afterwards have been asure will be fine to drive etc but am still worried as am certainly not a pain slut |
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day 2 of task and sensitivity from play yesturday has me on edge but not overwelming so, this is probably mainly due to me not feeling 100% thanx 2 this lousy flu. but even so each time i accidently brush my hand across my chest my nipples are imediately errect and aching. So far the stratergy of keeping the toys in the boot out of my temptation is working:) Being involved in conversations about geting peicings is also very titilating but my natural fear of the unknown is keeping me grounded |
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well i've had a week of extreme highs and extreme lows. it has made me contemplate how important open communication is within a D/s relationship, as even though i thought we were open bout things we misunderstood so much which ofcouse caused greif... but now we are back on same page with each other i feel much more serene in my submission. being set tasks that recently would have made me baulk and rebel, fill me with anticipation and a renewed delight in pleasing my Dom in any small way |
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well here's to one way of crashing back down to earth. should of known it was all going to well to be true. i wish i'd been able to stick to my normal stance of no emotional involvement saves them being crushed. live and learn i guess. been told its not worth it if you don't take a chance but you can only take so much heart ache in one life time. i finally decide after all these years to try again and where has it gotten me? the worst part is i still can't walk away though i know i mean nothing but fun. a girl should have more self respect. |
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Though i am fearful still of where this may lead and of the intensity of what i am feeling i don't want to run from it. I am compelled in fact to see where this journey may take me. Be it iminate heart break, humiliation or degrigation its worth the risk to finding out. As i have never felt so in touch with another individual before. Its like he has a window to my soul and everytime i look at him i just drown in his eyes and am will ing to do whatever he asks of me.To serve him brings me so much joy it is scary in itself. |
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i have been asked to contemplate what submission means to me well..... To me submission is in giving to the one you chose and who choses you your greatest gift yourself not just for an instant. To me submission means being blessed with the priviledge of honoring the right Man in every way, every day. Learning to control your responces as to obey him and give yourself wholely. I am not a slave i still have choice and i chose to give myself to my Dom. Yes i can be bratty but in taming myself and having him tame me makes my gift all the more precious.i see many of my traits as my positives ... funny, playful, cheeky, intelligent, creative, honest, loyal, diligent, supportive. Now on the other side of the coin... can be tenacious, impatient, outspoken, petulant, reactive, act without forethought, brash and yes again bratty.
Some of my thoughts are very hard to put into words.
i am searching for a Dom 2b best friend, as well as owner, and lover. Once found i am happy for right Dom to use my body however they like. Together in our D/s journey i hope totranscend barriers, embracing pain, pleasure and passion, enjoying all that bdsm-D/s can give us, including the deep link between a master & a sub. Looking to find that deep intense meeting of the minds. To find someone
Interested in pushing my limits& having my boundaries moved. I want my Master to see me as a whole human, not just an arse to be beaten, etc. I guess i'm not for those who are seriously into whips and paddles and EEEK to pins and things! Having said that, I do need discipline on occasions. *sigh* and am more then willing to admit i deserve it at times but i pride myself in preforming as elequently as possible for my Master when in public as i see myself as a extention of him and would never wish to tarnish his standing and shame him in any way. In his proud of me , i find pride. |
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am begining to feel scared, where is my normal strength of self to just walk away. i don't need or want emotions. i hope its all just an illusion caused by to many drinks hehehehe. in the cold light of reality will all be good and i can go about being my normal bratty self and being safe and secure in the knowlegde that no one will get close enough. |
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Here's looking for trouble a bored and horny brat on the loose. i just know myself to well, once bored and restless like this i always tend to compromise and saettle for less then what i really want maybe i should just quit the scene for awhile while i get through this mood. naaaaa. that would make me worst with no outlet at all. well suppose i'll just have to hope for the best. |
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mmmmm back to being single AGAIN grrrrrrrrrrrr lol well can't have to much stagnating i guess, time to reavaluate what i'm after i guess. is asking for it all too much naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa just greedy i guess but hell why not:) |
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a munch has been organised for the 23 july at the Story bridge hotel at lunch time. this is to welcome Sir Wiz and Inspire to their visit of Brissy so all feel welcomed to come and meet them |
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hiya all ya singles and newbies out there
myself and a couple good subbie types got together today and decided to become proactive in meeting Domes and have posted on various groups in Brissy of interest in having a singles and newbie munch.
we have picked the 7 May, Noon at the caxton hotel, caxton st
RSVP to me here if you are interested
Ta Gail aka no1single alias thebrat |
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Of late many have asked what exactly am I looking for. Though as yet I can not be 100% certain of what I seek I do know some aspects of the one I seek.
To start with I need that instant erotic magnetic attraction and though I am not obsessed with body image or anything, looks do count. The Dom I will find one day may not be classically good looking but will exhibit an aura that fascinates me and compels me to be theirs. Once that is found the semantics of how they wish to be served can then be discussed and soft and hard limits negotiated. My greatest pleasure will be in pleasing the one I serve. |
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since i have not been able as yet to find the one for me am now turning towards my other BDSM interests for further exploration and for obtaining some satisfaction as i await. have made several contacts in relation to these interests. have made a great friend of person experienced in rope art who doesnt have a problem with my eagerness to experience without sexual conotations. also have been fortunate to find a local who is experienced in making fetish wear in leather and chain my favs and made friends with a person involved in photography so my exhibitionism is sure going to have some out let :). this should make the waiting less frustrating in the least and loads of fun in the mean time |
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am i too picky? has my past D/S relationship left me with too high an expectation. so many offers but know one have i felt that conection with instantaniously. if i cant have it all i don't want it am sick of compromissing what i want. am sub not stupid...... |
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been letting myself down by varying from my path, at least i have discovered one thing about myself . cannot find true satisfaction without a true Dom playing around in vannila just leaves me wanting...... |
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