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i would like to find One that i could please, One that is willing to teach me what i need to know and be patient with me.

People i know, and have known for years, have asked me how i know i like the D/s Community. my answer is always the same: i cannot reach my orgasm during vanilla sex, i have only ever reached my orgasm while masturbating and thinking of having a Domme/Dom controlling me, and while I am being controlled.

i'm a non-smoker and disease free. if You have any questions, feel free to contact me.

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1/8/2010 8:35:58 PM

I know, I haven't updated my journal in a long time. I really should remember to update this....

I've been feeling wheezy and achy for the past several days, I hope that I'm not actually getting anything more than a cold.

I've been feeling bad enough that I haven't wanted to do anything, I haven't even been cooking on my days to cook...


I love snow, I really do... but come on. I think it's snowed enough. I hate being cold(but like snow; I know, I'm odd) but I like to walk outside if I'm bundled up. I'd actually prefer to go walking/jogging while it's cold, so I don't over-heat, but I still have to be bundled up.

It's been snowing, on and off, all week. It's the most snow I've seen in several years, the South East is seriously unprepared for this much snow. It's 16 degrees here; I know others have it worse, but they were expecting it and used to their winters....
Anyways, enough ranting about the cold.

I hope that the people who don't have snow are doing well.

I hope everyone who has snow is doing well, also.


4/9/2009 7:18:07 PM
Ok, I don't know if I just keep forgetting... or keep getting distracted whenever I do think of doing it.

I've been meaning to call someone that I'm supposed to be in contact with...  I am in contact with her, I just keep "forgetting" to call her to talk to her.

It seems like everytime I pick up the phone to call someone, the phone rings in my hand. (That actually scares me into dropping the phone sometimes....) Then the next time that I get a chance to call anyone, the phone lines are down... or the breaker pops a switch... or someone in my family is still talking on the phone... or it rings again... or my nephews show up several days early and I have to watch them... I think Y/you get the picture...


I'm like "COME ON!!!!" It is so frustrating! All I need to do is make one little phone call... ONE!
Then I just walk off and remember at midnight that I was supposed to call.

3/27/2009 6:56:58 PM
I was finally able to get my internet fixed!!! I was so happy when I got it back, but I had to postpone getting online because I had to cook dinner. It wasn't my night to cook but since the one who was supposed to cook was in town, I ended up cooking. I need to find that BBQ recipe so I can put it up here. I will do that as soon as I find the book it was in...
My internet has been going up and down every few minutes for about half of this week. It has made for some screwy times while checking my email. It kept asking me if I wanted to permanently delete the trash folder, then the spam folder, then everything in my inbox got deleted.... only to find out today that Someone Important had sent me an email.... it made me feel bad, 'cause I think I accidentally deleted it...
Everything is fixed now though!!!!! Thank the Gods, I hate being without the internet. I mean, I know it isn't the end all, be all... but still! It keeps me connected to my high school friends(half of whom are actually still in high school... O.o), with my gaming buddies, and I even vent onto my sis-in-law through email.... I don't care if she actually reads them, I just need some outlet for all of it.

3/25/2009 5:17:21 PM

I'm not sick!!! WOOT! I hate being sick.......... -laughs- Ok, anyways... things are going good, better than this weekend, anyway. My internet is kinda wonky right now(it went out last night and still hasn't come back on), so I'm at the college library while my sis-in-law is in class. It was my night to cook, so I made BBQ like my brother wanted. He really loves it when I cook BBQ pork. I make a vinegar sauce that isn't too tangy. It has vinegar, water, salt, garlic, pepper, worshteshire sauce (I hate that word, I can never spell it right unless I have a dictionary with me... I was only off by one letter though!), and butter. Heat is all up and BAM!


Well, it actually calls for garlic salt but I use garlic... and salt. I'll put the recipe up here when I get home... if the internet is fixed. I don't put as much salt as it calls for though... I did that the first time and thought I'd tried to preserve my throat like they did in mediinstead of regular water)... it was so good. Better than the last couple of times I've made it... It seems to only get better though.
I'm making myself hungry....
Anyway, I'm sure you don't want to read the ramblings of a 19 year old who hasn't been on the internet all day... So, I'll go read my stories (which are on the internet...).
Oh, just a little note before I get off of here. I watched the movie Australia today. I loved it! The little boy was my favorite character, he was so full of life, he seemed to understand life better than half of the other characters. I would definitely recommend watching it, if you like that kind of movie. http://www.australiamovie.com/ is the link to the movie's website. I hope it actually shows up.... anyways.... See ya!


3/23/2009 12:26:28 AM
You want to know what really hurts me the most lately? Getting my hopes up. I work the races during race weekend in Bristol... and my manager/boss told me that while he was short the day before I called, he didn't think he would be short the rest of the weekend. He also told me that if he needed anyone, I could be by the phone at 8am the next morning.
I was up and ready to put my shoes on and walk out the door... by 7:45, I got up at 7:30 and took a quick(but thorough) shower and was dressed in 15 minutes. He never called.
I was really hoping that I could get some cash this weekend, but I was really hoping to just get out of this house and do something productive. Not much to do at the house, and not enough money to spare going to town on a regular basis. That is how I can't even get a job, let alone my drivers' license. I don't even have five minutes on my cellphone, it's prepaid.
So anyways, I've sat at the house. All weekend. Read enough sad sappy stories to let myself cry, got into a fight with my father and my brother at about 5am the other morning when they woke me up by fighting over a stupid fucking GAME (pardon the language). I also fell asleep while watching Resident Evil and woke up from a nightmare... (I also woke up hungry, which doesn't normally happen--I just didn't eat lunch because I was watching the movie and was going to eat afterwards.) Don't know why, I've seen the movie before and was fine. Of course, in this nightmare I was the Licker... it was disturbing. 

Otherwise, everything was normal. Just... fine.

3/15/2009 5:45:57 AM
I have a migraine. I've had it since Friday and it is just now starting to go away.

 On the other hand, I'm still looking for a job. I'm talking to someone I like(she's really nice), I've met some good friends on here, and if I could remember to keep checking my email, people would quit thinking that I forgot them.

I Beta (edit stories) for fanfiction, I also read fanfiction. I went to the library the other day and found an author who might be really good, if I ever get to her books...

My ex called my phone the other day, I picked it up and answered before I checked the ID... He decided to rant and rave at me for us breaking up. He was drunk, very drunk. I got him to tell me why he had called me, and apparently him and his newest girlfriend broke up. Serves him right for wanting to get high all the time, it's the reason I left him. I told him that not every girl wants to get high... I think he was crying when we hung up.

Maybe I should go back to psychology... I don't know.

2/28/2009 1:52:11 AM



I've been away from the site for a little over ten days. If Y/you have sent me a message in the past ten days, I will get to Y/you as soon as I can... or I won't, depends on what mood I'm in I guess....

Everything is going good. Still looking for a job though, still looking for a permanent Dom/me or Mistress/Master.

I got a new book!!

It's by Kim Harrison. White Witch, Black Curse is what it's called, I've read the first books from the series and I think they are fantasic. Right up there with Laurell K. Hamilton's Anita Blake series.

My favorite character out of the Anita Blake series is Nathaniel, then Edward.

For some reason I think those two would make a great couple...

For those of you that are uneducated in Anita Blake: Nathaniel is a wereleopard stripper who works for Jean Claude(Master Vampire of St. Louis). Edward is a hired assassin known as Death.

Both are really sexy....

Nathaniel is a submissive who has no limits(he literally will not say no, at least at first when Anita meets him) and is into heavy S/M. (In one book, he willingly let the ones he was playing with stick swords through him... unfortunately, things went wrong (deadly wrong) and they had to stop and the swords ended up embedded in his skin because of his were healing abilities.)

Edward is a sadistic bastard who really needs an outlet other than hired killing... or not so hired killing, as the case is sometimes.

Now, if only Edward was gay or at least bisexual. (Nathaniel is bisexual.)

I just realized after all that rambling about Edward and Nathaniel that I started on a whole different topic than what I ended up with....

It is a sign of my rare hyperactive moments that I started rambling. These moments usually happen when I have been staying up late, getting up early, and not eating enough... all in one day.


2/17/2009 4:19:24 PM

What is up with "Are you collared yet?"

I hate that, so much. I'm not just an animal, and I am not just a piece of meat!

For anyone who actually reads these: If you leave me a one liner, or just want to talk about sex in general, DON'T EVEN BOTHER!!!!

I am sick and tired of people not wanting to know about ME, not just what I like in bed.

I will delete any message that I don't find satisfactory. I will respond (politely) to any that are satisfactory but those I'm not really interested in.

If you don't make an effort, neither will I.


2/16/2009 11:32:28 PM
Oh, I keep forgetting to update my journal. Someone is probably thinking that something bad happened in my family. No, not yet. My father got out of the hospital on my birthday, Feb 13, he had been put in the night before. They changed some of his meds but he's doing fine.

Um, let's see.... I'm trying to figure out how my laptop's cam works (it's new so it could take awhile) because my nephew ran off with the battery charger... with my batteries for my digital camera still in it charging... And I can't find the new pack of AA batteries that I bought not that long ago. Which reminds me that I need to buy a pack of AAA also...

Anyway, I'll let you guess where all my batteries end up going (besides the remotes for the TV, DVD player, VCR, and CD player.). -wink, wink-

Um.... what else could I put here....

.........

Not a clue, I'm all out of things to talk about at the moment.

... I take that back. Books.

No, wait. Better not get me started on that.

I'll go to bed now.

Goodnight.

2/13/2009 5:58:08 AM
I have some good news and I have some more bad news.

Good News: Today is my birthday, I am officially 19 years old.

Bad News: My father was put in the hospital yesterday because his blood sugar was between 500 and 600. I had to quit college to get a job... (my whole family is broke, there are nine people in the house, six are adults, and none of us have jobs) and it doesn't help that I might be coming down with a cold or something....

2/9/2009 6:29:01 PM
I think I might have found what I was looking for. I'm not going to talk about it though, it could jinx whats happening. I have class in the morning, I might take my laptop to class with me though.

Just so you know, positive reinforcement is good. Let's me know what is what, ya know?

Oh, and to those who have emailed me using CM, I am sorry if I haven't gotten back to you with greetings of some kind.... I have a lot of mail... a lot. Seriously, I have more email here than I get at my yahoo account.

2/7/2009 10:27:41 PM
While talking about myself in a sub mindset I will write it out as i... other than that, English class rules out and it is automatically I....

I heard a friend talking about giving her boyfriend a coldjob... I was confused at first, not really sure if I heard what I thought I had. I asked her about it and then decided that I might like something like that. I experimented with ice the other day, and while I am not into a lot of pain, it left a very delicious ache as it melted... of course, I made sure I had a towel to catch my mess. I thought about trying it anal as well, but decided that I needed to take my time. I might try it soon. i have found that several people here are really nice, and while i am sure that the S/M side of BDSM is great... i know that it is not for me. i don't like a lot of pain. It's weird because I'm getting a tattoo right under my collarbone. Aquarius. That is all it will be... for now. It might be my only one.

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 Age: 47
 Lewisville, Texas