Wow! Been a long time since my last post. And it has been work, work and more work...

But I do miss so much the fun of a new meeting, of a new virtual encounter. The tingling sensation in a suddenly dry mouth, a tongue that touches a willing lip, willing to be bitten or to whisper something hard in a soft way.

The excitement in the exploration of a new body, foreign but so familiar. The excitement on your own exposure. Playing with yourself for the fun of another and watching a body twitching and growing in desire.

You know what I mean, don't you?

Take care and have fun

Oh, the shyness and the feeling of awkwardness that strikes when being with someone new, even "cyber" new... The frustration and disappointment when things don't connect.

All is worthwhile when you find that body or that voice that, playing on skype, says or does just the right thing. You just feel it in your cock. Or in your heart.

Sometimes I feel somewhat frustrated in my D/s life. And being a switch is not easy, you know?

Being perceived as an alpha male, I usually get lots of attention from both man and woman,and that has provided me with the opportunity to play my dominant side. People expect me to take control, and I do, and both end up getting a lot of pleasure out of it.

But when I want to surrender to someone (oh, this strange switch side of me) , I find it harder somehow. Older, mature, self-confident partners who doesn't get intimidated by my own self-confidence are somewhat harder to find.

And either they end up shouting "obey!!!" out of their despair, and shouting in despair is a big turn-off for me (well, if the despair is for cock sucking, and i am in my D mood, it can be a big turn-on - just love to get sucked ;-) ) or just end up giving up and start to show submissiveness - its ok, but when I feel in my s mood - bummer...

Starting to feel like a really bad case of definitive top that ends up topping from the bottom. Or just obsessing over a chimera?

Are you for real, playful, fun and assertive, and out there for me? My equal?

A journal... Been a long time since I wrote anything journal"ish". Mainly a test, to see how it goes.

Don't mind me saying this. folks, but some of you (but not you, of course!) are so... f***ing serious!!!

Life's a brief party, the neighbor has called the cops and you are still worried about finding the 'right' guy/gal/couple?

Laugh and have fun - if you are afraid, play cyber, like a teen (or like me ;-). Who will know? Who will judge? And if someone does, who wants to be around someone like that?

I like people, with their weaknesses and fears and kinks... Real and cyber, tall and short, fat and skinny, black and white... Fun people, who is horny and likes to see and get others horny too. And who loves to laugh before, after and in between.

Have fun, folks! And if you want, have fun with me!