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Pan Female Mistress, 33,  Wilmington, North Carolina
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Though my status reflects my dominant nature, please dont take that to mean that I wouldnt absolutely love to be with a fellow dominant counterpart. Actually, that sounds quite appealing...

Ive been introduced to this site by a friend of mine, so I figured I would give it a shot. As my profile states, I am of the dominant nature and I havent had much luck in finding any submissives in the area. So if you think that youd enjoy licking my boots or anything else that I can think of, just shoot me a line. I think that a lot of people confuse me with some sort of twin most people seem to think that I am just a body without a brain. Rest assured, I most certainly do have a brain, and I use it quite often.I am done with onedegree and working on another, with the ultimate goal of attending medical school and being the best doctor that I can be.I speak my own mind I dont have to have someone dictate to me what I should do with my own life. This scares a lot of people...a woman who has her own voice. But I read very often and write incessantly, making my opinions known. I have always said that I would rather be smart than pretty, and so I succeeded. Like I always say, failure is not an option. I can hold a conversation about quantum theory and the paradox of Schrodingers cat as well as discuss Nietzsche and the god is dead theory. So bring on the intellectual conversation, not just the bdsm aspect that most people wont even delve into (even though they claim to live the lifestyle). My confidence in this site is quickly diminishing, for more than one reason. But the main reason is that Ive spoken with a lot of people, we get along well, and then I never hear from them again. I dont know what to think about that, and so I just stay in the shadows. But if its worth having, then its worth waiting for. And so I do...

Since I apparently suck at having a relationship with a sub, maybe I need a dominant guy....they seem to be a lot more loyal. Just a thought.)

I am very much a libertarian, so if you are on the Left side of politics you will more than likely hate me. I am who I am, and Im not going to change my views for a pretty face, no matter how submissive they are.

I have realized, over the course of the past few years, that I am a bit of a dichotomy of sorts. Then again, arent most of us? While I have a definite dominant nature, Im also very traditional with my beliefs. I am rather ravenous in the bedroom, but I am also the quintessential Southern belle. Just because I like to get a little rough with my man doesnt mean that I wont have dinner ready for him when he gets home. Think of me as a 1950s kind of girl with a dominant streak (which seems to be drifting more to a switch-like desire). Contrary to popular belief, I absolutely HATE feminism. Not the old-school version, in which women took care of their families and held down the fort. Im talking about the modern version, in which women treat men like shit and get offended when men open the doors for them. News flash...some of us actually still like it when men are a gentleman. I know I do, especially since it is such a rarity these days. So much more that i could discuss, but Ill leave Pandoras Box slightly open.











 Dominant Female


 North Carolina

 5' 0"






Actively Seeking:

Friends Only

 Lives For:

 Going to the Opera


 Musical Theater





 Massage (Getting)

 Mental Bondage

 Orgasm Denial

 Public Play


 Role Playing

 True Crime



 Intellectual Discourse

 Libertarian Politics



 Political Activism



 Goth Lifestyle

 Lifestyle BDSM

 Alternative Music

 Classical Music

 Heavy Metal Music

 Opera Music



 Antique Shows

 Art Galleries

 Fine Dining





 Horseback Riding


 Martial Arts



 Skate Boarding




 Genital Punishment


 Hair Pulling


 Medical Play

 Outdoor Bondage

 Sensory Deprivation





 Wax play



 Historical Shows

 Horror Movies


 Role Playing Games

 Art Collecting

 Body Art









 Conservative Politics








 Rock Music



 Amusement Parks

 Bar Hopping


 Bird Watching




 Garage Sales

 Renaissance Faires








 Surf Boarding



 Body Worship

 Breast Play


 Canes and Crops


 Corner Time


 Electrical Play


 Eye Contact Restrictions



 Knife Play

 Massage (Giving)

 Needle Play

 Obedience Training


 Arcade Games

 Card Games


 Eighties Music

 EMO Music


 Punk Rock Music




 Kick Boxing







 Curious About:

 Anal Play


 Masks (Wearing)





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Journal Entries:
1/16/2017 8:46:00 PM
If you are either going to send me the same message you send to other women or the same message you sent to me months before (even though we have already talked in depth), please go on to the next woman.  Seriously....that shit gets old fast.

Anyway, my profile says that I am just looking for friends, so I'm not sure why I'm getting those types of messages anyway.  Do you really think I would change my mind just to talk to someone who already leaves a bad taste in my mouth from their behavior?  Other women might, but I'm not desperate by any means.  If you have to ask why I am just looking for friends, examine the way you approach women and you should have your answer.

9/19/2016 7:37:27 AM
Wow, I haven't been here in forever!  Just wanted to log on to tell the few friends I still have here my good news:)

6/7/2016 9:08:17 PM
I enjoyed my time here, but all good things must come to an end:)  Since I do still have a few good friends on here, I may log in sporadically to communicate with them, but as for the "romantic" stuff, those needs are most assuredly taken care of.

2/27/2016 8:26:12 PM
I wonder if the men I associate with ever get this song stuck in their heads:

I may be 30, but most say I still look like a teenager.

2/15/2016 1:43:01 PM
You know you have been studying medicine way too long when you see one of the kink store models with a neck vein popping out and you are concerned for her safety because you think she might have JVD (jugular vein distention).

2/15/2016 12:41:31 PM
This song pretty much sums up my ideal bdsm relationship (since I'm also a hopeless romantic):

2/9/2016 10:31:22 PM
There comes a point where it's just not worth it anymore...I think I've finally reached that point.  Good luck to the rest of you out here.

2/9/2016 10:08:41 PM
That little check mark beside "dominant" is so close to being unchecked...but old habits are proving to die hard.

2/8/2016 9:31:42 PM
If you can't be straight up/honest with me from the beginning, please just pass me by.  We are all adults here...we should not have to constantly assume that every word out of another person is a lie, but it appears that it's come to that.  Please...someone prove me wrong.  Don't tell me things just because you think it's what I want to hear.  I'd much rather be heartbroken over the truth earlier than later...especially by the ones I once held to a higher standard.

11/19/2015 12:38:19 AM
When poor little boys don't get their way and then act like the little bitch they's just so precious.  And to think I came here for intellectual discourse...I shall just return to my beloved Nietzsche.  

6/13/2014 12:37:29 AM

Tried to have a conversation about trivium and quadrivium to no avail. Oh well, back to quantum mechanics and the many worlds theory. Might add some psychoanalytic theory into the mix for some interesting conversation.

4/28/2014 1:52:00 PM
I really wish our ages would update! Apparently, I was 24 for many years. :). Just noticed that and had to change it. No worries; I may be 28, but many people think I'm in high school.

4/16/2014 8:26:44 PM

Last day of residency until August!  16 hour days are fun, but I'm ready for a break.

3/18/2014 6:43:07 PM

I have written enough poetry to last a thousand lifetimes.  I only hope that my musings become a reality.  I am as willing as ever, perhaps even more so over this last week.  Of course, I lack my partner in crime.  While I am enamored with the idea of having a "pet," I dare say that I have also been entertaining the idea of seeing how I feel around an "equal," but that's a topic for a different day.  I shall see what the future holds and wait for the right one.  

12/17/2013 7:35:21 PM

Whenever I hear a joke that starts off with "it seems as though," I automatically think that it's my existentialist humor ruining the joke.  Nietzsche would be proud.  Of course, I have my own Beethoven joke that continues to make me chuckle to this very day, but that's another story entirely.  

11/21/2013 12:32:36 PM
Rant time over. Thankfully, I bounce back very quickly (you have to on this site) and all is well. I'm back to my nerdy self.

11/21/2013 11:56:40 AM

For the love of all that is holy and good, don't ever pour your heart out to anyone on here. It will backfire on you.  Just go in with the assumption that 99% of those you "encounter" on here really don't give a fuck about you, and your experience will be that much easier.  I apologize for the rant; just quite a bit frustrated because I thought that I had made true friends on here, only to be abandoned and forsaken yet again.  It is what it is, I suppose.  

11/19/2013 8:07:52 PM

Reading back on some of my old poems/short stories, I have discovered that I am far better at writing when I'm depressed than when I'm just ok.  I should be freakin' Edgar Allan Poe by now.  The emotions that I once felt sent a shiver down my spine just now.  

11/14/2013 7:42:23 PM

Apparently, I have a tendency to be philosophical quite often and that appears to bore most of the people on this site.  In a way, that is a good thing, because I won't have to work so hard once I'm giving anesthesia to my patients; they will have already been bored to sleep.:)

11/14/2013 12:04:20 PM

So many assholes posing as submissives on here, yet they wonder why I haven't picked a pet yet.  I am a very disciplined person, and expect the same of anyone I would have a relationship with.  If a person didn't command that of you, would you really believe that they're as dominant as they say they are?  How can I respect you when you go out of your way to insult me, even though I did nothing to provoke you?  I can take a wild guess as to who they voted for....

11/10/2013 8:40:21 PM

In all of my life, I have never lived by the "rule" that just because I have a dominant nature, I have to be a royal bitch.  Yes, some people are into that kind of thing and I can really act like one if I am provoked, but I am from the South and I fancy myself a lady.  With that being said, I have typically found that I get my way more when I am my sweet and hospitable self.  I only morph into bitch mode when I am very angry, and no one wants to be around for that, trust me.  That's not to say that I can't assert my dominance just because I am often ladylike; moreover, I think it's far more of a turn-on (at least, it is for me) to seduce someone and have them submit to you of their own volition because they can't resist your kindness than to have them submit to you because they are frightened.  There is much more psychology behind that, but that's for another day.  Just in case you are wondering, yes, I do have the Southern drawl.  :)

11/9/2013 8:06:58 PM

As a medical professional, I know it's physiologically impossible to die from boredom, but I think I'm close to death by ennui.

11/5/2013 5:54:19 PM

Oh Humbert Humbert, you poor soul.  

11/2/2013 7:23:23 PM

For some reason, I've found myself equating dominance to old vampire lore: you never take the last drop.  Everything up to that point is enough to leave one sated, lest it consume us to death.  Of course, there's a fetish for that all on its own.:)

7/28/2011 11:50:07 AM

I'm done.  The headaches just aren't worth it anymore.  I'm going to keep my account so that I can still talk to friends here, but that's it. 

7/5/2011 9:20:36 AM
If I get one more email from someone insisting that I'm a sub, I'm going to scream. I have never been nor ever will be a sub. That's like telling me that I need to convert to Islam. Neither will never happen. Just let people be themselves, not who you want them to be.

4/30/2011 1:39:15 PM

If you feel the need to talk down to me because you feel as though I'm an idiot just because I know who Schrodinger and Nietzsche are, please just keep your thoughts and opinions to yourself.  I know exactly who they are and what they are famous for; you don't have to reiterate it to me.  If you are so familiar with Schrodinger, please just be a good little cat and go sit in your box.  I know you're not the Ubermensch who is here to save us, as that is evidenced by your idiotic ramblings and unintelligent existence. Word to the wise...don't piss off a German woman; it's really not a good idea. 


Psychologically speaking, people who seek others out just to talk shit to them for no reason have their own insecurities.  Even though I'm dominant, I don't stoop to that pathetic level.  These people should get a life and learn how to speak to people with common courtesy and respect; otherwise, they shouldn't get mad when people respond in kind. 

4/27/2011 4:57:10 PM

This lifestyle is becoming more and more of a pain than a joy.  What once was so invigorating is now so lifeless.  If I'm not being compared to someone who is a supermodel, I get the run around from people who have no desire to do anything other than hide behind the computer.  I don't think that most men are cognizant of the fact that women do not want to hear all about another woman.  It's an insult to us and we don't want to compete with their little fantasy.  Yet men insist on doing this anyway. I have no doubts that women do it as well, but it's not something a woman wants to hear from someone she is interested in.  It sours the entire mood.  Then again, what do I know?  I am, after all, "just a kid."

4/14/2011 7:48:33 PM

Tax Day rally tomorrow{#}  Since I've had no luck on here as of late, at least my political world is booming.  Hopefully the rally and being able to see "Atlas Shrugged" will help to ease the despondency that seems to be plaguing me. 




Capitalists are always Right, Marxists are always Left.  Remember that.

4/5/2011 10:16:39 PM

There is something so utterly beautiful about the pale, quiet guys that makes me remember just how dark I am and how much I miss their sweet surrender.  It's been my experience that the quiet ones are extremely intelligent, and intelligence is certainly top on my list of admirable qualities.  Come out, come out, wherever you are.

4/5/2011 10:03:32 PM

Seems as though I've been forsaken by the last person I would have expected.  What a shock...

4/1/2011 7:33:05 PM

Hope to spend some much needed time at my shooting range back home with my beloved rifle.  Ah, sweet ballistic, I have missed you so!

3/30/2011 5:44:28 PM

I went to the hospital today. After a long series of tests and diagnostic procedures, the doctor finally delivered my fate. He said that I am highly allergic to bullshit and that the only cure is to vaccinate me with a large dose of truth and reason. Otherwise, the prognosis is bleak.
I wrote this on one of my pages earlier, but no one seemed to get a good laugh.  Is my humor really that odd?

3/30/2011 1:50:38 PM

If I don't respond to your messages right away, please do not take it personally.  I have been very busy for the last couple of days and have had a lot on my plate.  I've noticed several people freaking out because I haven't replied, and I'm not trying to ignore anyone.  If you're in that much a hurry to find someone at this very instant, I suggest you move on if you can't wait a day or so.

3/23/2011 6:55:33 AM

Don't you just hate it when you are listening to a wonderful musical composition, become completely enamored with it, and then it ends and you have to come back to reality?  I think that if I could listen to Wagner, Beethoven, and Mozart all day I'd be a much happier person.  Damn this mundane existence!

3/17/2011 8:19:40 PM

Perhaps I was wrong to search for a pet, while I should have been searching for a like-minded accomplice.  One conundrum after another, it seems.  I do enjoy the submissive mentality of a few select people who aren't pompous jackasses, but more and more have I been intrigued by a fellow dominant counterpart.  I can't label myself as a switch, as I have no desire of submitting, but the thought of the mutual desire of power between myself and another does have a certain appeal. 

3/16/2011 2:11:56 PM

Ah, how "Ride of the Valkyries" puts me in such a good mood!

3/15/2011 3:53:09 PM

Woke up unusually late from what appears to have been a rather delirious sleep.  A bit despondent in the fact that this sleep is far more interesting than my waking hours, but such is life.  "To sleep, perchance to dream," as it were.   

3/14/2011 5:59:20 PM

No, I'm not a switch.  Please don't insult me by insisting that I am.  You do not know me, and you know nothing of my desires.  Don't attempt to flatter yourself by trying to be omniscient.  You do not have to be a complete bitch to be dominant, and if you do, then you're already trying way too hard.  Just because a person has manners doesn't mean they are not dominant; moreover, it means that they were actually brought up correctly.  If you don't agree, that's fine, but don't try to change my mind just to suit your agenda.

3/14/2011 3:29:02 PM

It's come to my attention that some submissives on here have only been attracted to me because they think I'm fat.  I never in my life thought that I was, but apparently that seems to be the consensus here.  When you get talked down to even worse than a slave does, there's a problem.  At least I had the courtesy to treat my pets with some sort of respect, but it does not seem to be reciprocated.  No, I am not a toothpick, but I am hardly a whale.  This will be a shorter journal, mostly because I am seething with anger and can't even formulate it into words right now.  Those of you who actually know me are able to understand that this is truly serious, since I usually have no problem speaking my mind.  At least the vanilla world has manners, not a bunch of so-called submissives who have to talk down to a person simply because they don't get their way.

3/8/2011 7:09:49 PM

These generic emails really need to stop.  How do people expect you to take them seriously when they send out the same flirtatious email to practically every woman on this site?


For all of you who actually have the decency to approach someone in a more dignified way, thank you.

3/4/2011 8:15:47 PM

"Humanity," if I can even call it that, really disgusts me.  Only a spineless coward would hurt a defenseless animal.  I'm not a PETA freak by any means, but it really does speak to one's sociopathy when they beat the hell out of/mutilate an animal that has done nothing to them.  Yes, I hunt for my food, but I eat what I kill and I don't do it to get a thrill. I also do it as quickly as possible so the animal will not have to suffer. Anyone who beats an animal and then laughs about it is a fucking coward.  If you want to beat on something, just go run your head into a building and save the rest of us the trouble of running you into it ourselves.


I know this won't sit well with a good percentage of people on here, as quite a number of people here are far sicker than anyone should legally be.  I'm certainly no prude, but I think that taking your frustrations out on something so innocent is beyond fucked up.  At least in the bdsm world we have willing counterparts.  I am no stranger to violence, but I have never hurt someone who didn't deserve it/wanted it.  People can come after each other with a gun or a knife...a 3 week old puppy really isn't much of a threat (and if he does threaten you, you are already beyond any kind of psychiatric help).

3/4/2011 4:21:21 PM

Going down the familiar path of introspection yet again.  Should prove to be a rather interesting night.  Seems as though I've rediscovered my muse. 

3/3/2011 1:29:31 PM

That pleasure which is at once the most pure, the most elevating and the most intense, is derived, I maintain, from the contemplation of the beautiful.

Edgar Allan Poe

3/3/2011 12:06:02 PM

Forget a hot, naked body.  I'd rather have someone with intelligence any day.  Looks can come and go, but one's intellect lasts forever (or at least until senility sets in). 

3/2/2011 11:22:59 PM

"But as, in ethics, evil is a consequence of good, so, in fact, out of joy is sorrow born. Either the memory of past bliss is the anguish of to-day, or the agonies which are have their origin in the ecstasies which might have been"


Quoted by the first man I ever fell in love with, my dear sweet Poe

3/2/2011 10:46:34 PM

Making a cake at 1:30 in the morning...I really am crazy!

3/2/2011 8:43:07 PM

My idea of a project car is coming back into view.  I might be "just a girl" to some, but I can work on cars and shoot a rifle just like any man.  Being short only makes it easier to army-man crawl through the fields on my stomach and hide in inconspicuous places.  ;)

3/1/2011 10:26:21 PM

Wow, I just realized that my political views are definitely in the minority here...seems as though I've lost most of my "friends" on here as a result of my affiliation.  I can count on one hand the number of libertarian friends I have here....seems as though the pompous liberals here think they're too good for the rest of us (a thought that in itself makes me want to puke).  If that's the way you feel, go enjoy your little president, because he's surely not mine.  I make no apologies for what I believe in.  I can't help it if others are too high and mighty to talk to someone just because of a difference in political views.  If I did the same thing to them, they'd have a hissy fit. 


Mike, if you're reading this, I'm sure you're having a very good laugh right about now.  It's good to have at least one ally here. 

3/1/2011 12:04:54 PM

Perhaps I really should find another dominant person to play with, since I'm not having much luck with submissives.  Not to say that I would end up submitting, but at least I would have some passion.  Aside from that, I have noticed that I seem to get along more with people of the same mindset.  This is quite the conundrum. 

3/1/2011 11:37:02 AM

Had a "120 Days of Sodom" type dream last night.  Freud would have had a field day with me. 

2/28/2011 6:31:14 PM

Genteel women suppose that those things do not really exist about which it is impossible to talk in polite company.


It's just one of those Nietzsche-quoting days.  It feels good to be back to my old self.

2/27/2011 6:07:05 PM

It seems as though a lot of people on here ask for my Yahoo messenger ID, but then stop talking to me after I give it to them.  It's going to be a fun night deleting people who never speak to me.  I left this site for almost 3 I remember why.  If you really do want to talk to me, please have the courtesy to say something worthwhile, as opposed to asking if I will watch you on cam.  Trust me, there is nothing that you can do on cam that will turn me on.  I used to work in the adult industry and I have seen it all.  Seeing a guy's junk flop back and forth does not turn me on in the slightest.  If you get mad just because I ignore the same generic message that you have sent to a thousand other people, maybe you should sit back and think about why someone wouldn't respond to someone who didn't have the decency to send them a genuine message. 


On another note, I've realized that people ask for my opinion and then are upset when I give it to them.  If you don't want my honest answer, just don't ask.  It really is that simple.  I'm not here to sugarcoat my feelings for anyone. 


In hindsight, all of the above really should go without saying.  However, based on many of the messages that have popped up in my inbox as of late, it actually does need to be said. 

2/26/2011 11:22:28 AM

Not sure how I managed it, but I sprained my ankle AND tore a huge gash right over the bone.  What's so sad about this is that I really have no clue how I did it. 

2/25/2011 9:10:07 PM

"My queen, my wife, my love"


The sweetest words ever spoken by a man.  Yes, I'm back on my Leonidas kick again.  To be sure there has to be one like him out there. 

2/25/2011 6:24:16 PM

My profile says dominant, not submissive or slave.  Please don't assume that you have what it takes to make me submit to you; I assure you that you don't. 

2/25/2011 4:01:23 PM

Yet another night at home.  At least I have my textbooks with very small letters and graphic images of surgery to browse through.  I may not have a pet to play with, but after spending so much time at home with my books I'm going to be one hell of a doctor!

2/24/2011 11:44:04 PM

It's time to break one of the corsets out:)  Should be a perfect match for my latex skirt and thigh-high boots.  Looks like my gothic side has returned.  Preppy didn't seem to suit me anyway.

2/24/2011 4:47:53 PM

After experiencing so much mental frustration on this site, medical school shall prove to be a breeze!


I never thought that intelligence would be a hindrance, but it seems as though the stereotypical "you must be blonde and anorexic before I will talk to you" mindset runs rampant. 


Of course, once I get those beautiful two letters behind my name, they will flock like sheep.  In the interim, I can only focus on what I have the power to change. 

2/23/2011 12:32:53 AM

Watching "300" and being reminded of my affinity for Leonidas.  He was loyal to the end in regards to his queen.  Between him and Eric Draven, there is certainly no question of neverending loyalty.  We should all be so lucky.  Where's a good Spartan when you need him?

2/22/2011 10:58:54 AM

For all of you little "submissives" out there who feel the need to constantly tell me how ugly and disgusting you think I am, please take a look in the mirror.  As the mirror instantly begins to break, please allow the shards of glass to mutilate your face some more.  Then maybe you will be as unattractive as you say I am.  If you really think I'm that horrible to look at, why are you even looking?  You might as well go somewhere else if you're just attempting to elevate your self-esteem while putting someone else down.  I did major in psychology my first time in college, so I do know many of the tricks of a demented mind. 


I can be the sweetest person in the world, but when you insult me out of the blue for no particular reason (or because I haven't had time to respond), expect a comeback.


I always say that something worth having is worth waiting for.  If that truly is the case, I have one hell of a pet in my future.

2/20/2011 4:53:22 PM

Is it really so wrong to crave a night of wild, unadulterated passion without having to worry about breaking a submissive in half?  To be sure there are some out there who are able to hold their own instead of just lying there.  Is it really such an oxymoron to crave someone who does as they are told, while also bringing you to the point of no return?  Seems as though my quest for any orgasm whatsoever remains a solo project.:(


Come out, come out, wherever you are. 

2/20/2011 9:52:36 AM

What's the point of flattering words if they are not backed with sincerity?  It doesn't bother me so much that guys on here are just trying to get a quick thrill....what does bother me is the fact that they try to hide their true intentions.  That may work with others, but it is far from an effective tactic as far as I'm concerned.  What makes it even worse is when I finally start to enjoy talking with someone, only to discover that is all it really is...a bunch of talk.  I know patience is a virtue, but damn.  When older guys act like nothing more than a little boy, it really is time to move on and save yourself the heartache of continuing a search for someone who doesn't exist.  That being said, I hope my feelings are crystal clear (but, of course, they won't be).  It seems that everything I say falls on deaf ears anyway.  Far too much time to waste to beat someone into submission who has ulterior motives. 

2/19/2011 8:31:05 PM

I never in my life imagined that being a nympho was a bad thing, but apparently it is very frustrating when those carnal desires go unrequited.  Pity, no one's up for the challenge. :(  It seems as though that's yet another feat I have to handle myself.

2/17/2011 8:18:48 PM

It's come to my attention that, for most people on this site, I am nothing more than something to get off on.  I'm not sure when submissives decided that they should be the ones getting pleased while I just stand there, but apparently I missed that memo.  All this "lifestyle" is for them is an excuse to talk to a girl dressed in all black, hoping that the girl will reciprocate and allow them to get themselves off.  If that's all this is about, then I was right to leave in the first place.  There have been a few people who have shown genuine interest, but mostly it's just some random guys sending the same message over and over, with the statement that I must not be "dominant enough" since I don't want to adhere to their whims.  Last time I checked, this lifestyle doesn't revolve around letting a submissive get their way.  If so, what the hell is the point?  It seems as though a lot of people here think that I am too nice.  However, I believe that being dominant does not excuse poor manners.  Those who think you have to always be rude simply have no sense of decency.  I'll probably get cussed out for this (what's new), but I really do not care anymore.  If you have the audacity to come on to me like I'm a piece of meat, don't expect a pleasant reply.

2/14/2011 10:19:26 PM

I wonder how many guys on here send women the same message....almost doesn't seem worth it to even bother.

1/30/2011 3:27:55 PM

In case I don't respond as quickly as I usually do, it's nothing personal.  I do stay logged in all day, but sometimes I'm not at my laptop.  I'm very heavily involved with some political dealings at the moment, but I do manage to have some free time to sneak away.  No, I'm not running for office or anything of that nature; moreover, I'm just involved in a few political groups of which I'm the organizer.  Rest assured, I will get back to you as soon as I can.

1/28/2011 7:49:16 PM

Mmmm,  in the midst of scouring the net for good 'ol MRE's.  I may look girly-girly at times, but I'm definitely a tomboy when I need to be.  I'd take guns and ammo over makeup any day.

12/20/2007 2:59:49 PM
I swear, if I have any more submissives try to "demand" something of me, I shall scream!  Yes, it's really getting that bad.

12/13/2007 6:28:00 AM
To those who have tried to email, I apologize for my delay, as I have been back home to attend my grandfather's funeral.

12/9/2007 8:11:58 PM
Everyone should check out

It rocks:)

12/2/2007 9:51:53 PM
I have been playing with my new flogger, and I really do love the swooshing sound it makes right before I'm about to whip someone.:)  Now, if I only had someone to whip;)

12/2/2007 12:59:55 AM
Planning a much needed vacation, any suggestions on a good spot?

12/1/2007 5:14:49 AM
Hmm so now I have been blocked on here by someone that "allegedly" loves me.  Wow, that makes so much sense.  They tell me to message them to straighten things out, and then they block me.  Haha, that's just so funny.  And this person that claims to love me has just written that they are getting married so some domme on here, well all I can say is congratulations, better her than me.  First of all, I would never want someone whose love is that fleeting to begin with.  Second of all, if they really did love me, as they claim, then why in the hell would they call me a whore?  Apparently, on this site you are called a whore if you DON'T sleep with anyone.  But of course, that's typical in today's society anyway.  The guys on here that are actually gentlemen, you have my utmost respect, because there are so few of you left.  I suppose this kinda reverts back to my last post.  I apologize for the redundancy, but as long as it continues to happen, I will still write about it.  As I say, the beatings will continue until morale improves.  haha like that will ever happen.   I know a lot of people probably read my posts and think that I've flipped my lid or something, and that's ok.  I'd rather have the guts to speak my mind about something than to be like the vast majority of society and just go along with whatever is popular at the time.  Wow, I really went off on a tangent there.  I initially started writing just to post about the one who keeps slandering me, and then delved into a whole different facet of depravity.  Looks like my work is done!

11/27/2007 3:28:49 PM
This little rant is probably going to get a lot of disgusting replies, but I don't care, I'm going to speak my mind.  A lot of women that I have met ( not just on here but in general)  state over and over that they want to be treated just like men, as far as equality goes.  That's well and good, but what pisses me off is when THEY expect men to open the door for them, take them out, and all of the other nice things that few men still do.  They bitch about how chivalry is dead...well, they are the ones who killed it.  When a man is sweet enough to open the door for them, they say "I can do it myself".  Well, common sense says that you can, but I think you should just say thank you and smile, because not many guys will do that anymore, and you should appreciate it instead of being an uppity bitch.  And all the women that expect a guy to buy you whatever you want, I'm surprised you haven't had a nosebleed from your nose being so stuck up in the air.  I will be the first one to admit it that yes, I do have a lot of nice things.  And yes, some of my things are from men.  But it's not because I told them that the only way I will pay them any attention is if they buy me everything I want.  Whenever I get anything from a guy, it's because they want me to have it, not because I demanded it. Actually, I would much rather receive something as a surprise or whatever as opposed to asking for it because then I would feel special enough that they thought of me to get me something without me even asking for it. And I at least know how to say thank you and let them know that I appreciated it.  If I were in their shoes and I bought someone something and they didn't even say thank you, I'd feel like shit.  I don't care if you're submissive, dominant, whatever; there is absolutely nothing wrong with having the decency to make your appreciation known.  Ok, I have probably said more than enough, just wanted to say thank you to all the guys out there who don't ever get it to hear it.  Not all of us women are like that, and I sincerely apologize for the ones that are.  Hell, someone's got to apologize for the insolence of others.  Might as well be me.:)

11/17/2007 10:08:43 PM
Just curious, I have a question:  would anyone else agree with me that it's very rude for a submissive to call a domme a bitch, just because the domme is busy and can't drop everything to attend to a whiny little thing?

I've come to the conclusion that a lot of people who think they are submissives are nothing more than spoiled brats who resort to insults when they don't get their way.  Once again, this is not relevant to those out there who aren't this way.

11/17/2007 9:52:04 PM
This site grows more and more frustrating every day....if I'm such a "so-called domme", then why do I still keep getting messages?  For those out there who know me, they can attest to the fact that I can back myself up.  And if someone thinks otherwise, then why message me to begin with? 

11/17/2007 3:41:26 PM

Is it really so bad for a domme to have a contract?  Or is it just the fakes who don't think it's necessary?

11/16/2007 9:58:46 PM
Do you ever feel as though you're not good enough?  When someone claims to be in love with you, yet you see in the past they have been far more adamant about their emotions to someone else than they have been with you?  Yeah, it does hurt.  I know everyone thinks that us dommes aren't supposed to care, but this one does.  And where does it get me?  Brokenhearted each and every time.  Yes, there are some good submissives here, and yes, I do appreciate those of you who are.  But to play with one's heart is the most sadistic thing of all, even worse than topping from the bottom.  It destroys any lack of faith that this person might have had, turning it into pure hatred.  Maybe what my subconscious wanted was a steady submissive boyfriend, but that will obviously never happen.  Everything is fine and dandy, up to the point where the submissive ( if I can use the term loosely) decides that they have found something better.  Apparently I was wrong in assuming that the domme was supposed to be the highlight of their life.  Obviously the term "devotion" has many different connotations, and the most popular one is being devoted until someone else catches their eye.  If that is what this lifestyle is all about, then those of you who like this emotional masochism can have it.  I quit.  I suppose I'll just dominate the hell out of myself since that's usually what I end up with anyway.

Disclaimer:  for those of you that I actually still talk to, this was not directed towards you, so forgive my rant.  You know who you are, so please do not think that I am mad at you, 'tis not the case.

11/14/2007 12:48:31 PM
My new sex toy store is open and ready for business!  Let me know if you are interested.

11/10/2007 8:19:13 PM
In vino veritas.

11/10/2007 8:17:15 PM
Death of originality proves to be imminent on this site....what a pity.

11/9/2007 8:02:06 PM
I think that everyone should read "The Prince" by Machiavelli.  This is my second time reading it, it really does aid in my strategy.:)

11/8/2007 4:44:18 AM
The new pics should be up soon.

11/5/2007 10:50:58 PM
Sometimes I think I should just be submissive, as it seems like most of them are usually the ones to get their way.  Not all of them, but quite a few.  Not to mention their atrocious attitude.

11/3/2007 7:27:40 PM
I've realized now that I have failed miserably as a domme, since I can't even keep those who submit to me from wandering away.  'Tis the worst feeling in the world, the feeling of utter failure.

10/26/2007 7:15:53 AM
Apparently I am in the minority here, but I don't understand why people put pictures of others on their profile....just stop being a fake already.  Why would you want people to assume that it's you on your profile picture if it's really not, unless you are that insecure about yourself?

10/25/2007 5:11:58 AM
Sometimes I think that I am too dark for people on here...a lot of people don't like blood, and I love it...tends to present a problem.

10/24/2007 8:07:44 PM
I honestly think that there are only a select handful of people on this site ( well, people in general, to be exact) who actually mean what they say when speaking to another person.  So many people have claimed to be interested in me ( or love me, for that matter) only to toss me to the curb over the next few days.  Fickleness really does not work with me, but I have learned that it controls the vast majority of this alleged civilized society.  I used to let it really get to me, until I realized that almost everyone was like that.  That's how I am able to get over people so easily, I don't allow myself to become attached to them.  Hell, I don't allow myself to get attached to anyone.  So if someone labels themself as a submissive just to get my attention, only to attempt to hurt me in the end, they are only wasting their own time.  You see, it's really hard to play someone who used to do the playing...;)  In the end, the joke is inevitably on them.  So many people have said that I am too sweet to be a mistress, but I have proven on many accounts just how sadistic I can be.  Not to say I'm really not sweet, because I am.  I just think that the punishment should fit the crime.  But that's just my opinion, one that obviously counts for naught...

10/22/2007 11:50:43 PM
Pfft, what a joke.  Someone claims to want to marry you or whatever, and the next day you are chopped liver.  I'm too old for all of this shit, and I refuse to deal with it anymore.  I really don't even care if I never dominate anyone ever again, it doesn't seem to be worth it anymore when I have to deal with lies and other people's satisfaction over my own.  For the rare people on here that are truly sincere, I apologize for this rant, as it was in no way directed towards you.

10/22/2007 11:38:09 PM
Is it so wrong to be in love with someone even after they ignore you?

10/21/2007 8:15:38 PM
Submissives really confuse me sometimes.  They claim to want to surrender themselves to someone else, for them to tell them what to do.  And yet they are the ones who make most of the demands.  I just don't understand.  Hehe, maybe I should be the submissive one then....just a thought.

10/20/2007 2:42:01 PM
Went to Oktoberfest today, and had a tremendous time.  It's been a while since I had a bratwurst, and I see what I've been missing.  Was planning on getting tickets for the wedding show next weekend, but I don't really have a reason to now.  But I do plan on going to the transfer day at the college.:)

10/17/2007 12:16:28 AM
It's minute you think you're going to give up, and then you realize that the person you were meant to be with was under your nose the whole time.:)  Love you Loki.:)

10/16/2007 8:58:42 PM
My pet is really the best thing in the whole world, and I'm crazy about him.  Simply beside myself with joy.  Ich liebe dich, meine liebe.:)

10/15/2007 2:11:44 PM
Sometimes I really think that I should just be a lesbian, instead of just bi....

10/14/2007 6:57:25 AM
Hmm, let's see...apparently a lot of people seem to think that my pictures look a bit submissive.  Yes, you're right, they do.  It's called having a creative side.  Did you ever stop to think that maybe I thought the angles looked pretty interesting?  After all, I do work for SuicideGirls, it's part of my job to have different poses.  Believe me, I have no trouble putting someone in their place, and it's not wise to try to convince me that I'm something I'm not, because it will not work.  If people want to assume that I'm submissive or whatever, that's fine.  But don't try to convince me that I am.  I could really care less what you think, the people who actually know me can vouch for the fact that I have no submissive tendencies whatsoever.  I suppose a lot of so-called dommes on here seem to think that you have to be a complete bitch to get what you want.  And yet I'm rather sweet, and still get what I want. Perhaps they are the ones who should be more creative....

10/13/2007 5:20:24 PM
Hmmm...why do people send you an email on here, and then ignore you?  It's insane, and it's really getting redundant.

10/8/2007 2:05:24 AM
Countdown to my beloved Oktoberfest, ich liebe.:)

10/7/2007 8:37:19 PM
I'm really wanting to take some new fetish pictures to add to my gallery.  It'll mostly just be for myself, and am certainly capable of maintaining anonymity for anyone if that's what they wished.  Basically, I just need someone to help me.

10/2/2007 7:56:19 PM
I leave for ATL on Thursday, I'm counting down.  w00t w00t

10/2/2007 12:54:23 PM
So, I quit school today.  It's quite sad.

9/30/2007 10:56:07 AM
Es ist mein Geburtstag, so jetzt ich ist die grossen 22.

9/30/2007 8:31:38 AM
Happy Birthday to me!:)

9/26/2007 5:10:20 AM
Today...the beginning of the end.

9/21/2007 9:17:53 PM
Ok, yet another one said he wanted to "fuck" me, knowing I hate that word.  So I had to scream, as I said I would.  WTF?  No gentlemen left, I take it?  It's really quite sad, if I were ever to meet such a figment of my imagination I would indeed be smitten.

9/21/2007 7:10:21 PM
Plotting my revenge against the one who raped me.....what a fun task.

9/20/2007 10:31:32 AM
So, I've had sex for the last time.  I'll miss it, but since it no longer means anything to me, what's the point?

9/19/2007 5:12:18 PM
I swear, if one more guy says he wants to "fuck" me, I will scream.  Not all of us women on here are sluts, some of us are actually ladies and would like to be treated as such. 

9/18/2007 10:34:20 PM
Ok, so I haven't given up completely...

9/16/2007 8:29:51 PM
Frustration takes its toll upon us all...some of us just more than others.

9/11/2007 12:45:27 PM
Exhausted by the whole thing...I refuse to be lied to anymore.  If anyone cares to talk to me, consider it a challenge, because from now on I shall not be so fast to speak.

9/9/2007 4:40:57 AM
Hmmm, I really should start traveling every weekend.  Now, if I only had places to go.....

9/7/2007 9:02:51 AM
Leaving for Baltimore today.:)

9/6/2007 2:57:59 PM
What the hell is up with people telling me to stop messaging them, when I've never even messaged them to begin with?  How rude...

9/6/2007 11:54:28 AM
My beloved Pavarotti suffers now from "debitum naturae", for those of you who know Latin.:(  I'm deeply saddened.

9/2/2007 3:27:19 PM
Hmmm, been thinking, since I am the one who gets used and lied to so much, maybe I should be the submissive one.  On the other hand, I would never treat any of my submissives that way.  There is a thing called manners.

9/2/2007 12:41:57 PM
Hmm, so apparently me getting raped is very funny...damn jerks.

9/2/2007 12:38:31 PM
After what happened last night, I highly doubt I will be going out with anyone in the near future.  And yes, that's a bad thing.

9/1/2007 2:08:59 PM
Haha, the so-called submissives and slaves on here really amuse me.  Apparently topping from the bottom is a requirement on this site.  Pity, really.

8/31/2007 11:15:24 AM
Once again, someone claimed to love me, now they completely ignore me.  They can just get bent as far as I'm concerned, I don't have time for infantile behavior.  Either you like me or you don't, not going to waste my time chasing after someone that obviously doesn't care.  I stopped doing that a long time ago.

8/30/2007 6:42:42 PM
Heartbroken...I just don't know what to do...blah.  I'm not a quitter, but I'm just so disenchanted.  I can't stand to be lied to again, it's just too much. 

8/26/2007 6:21:10 PM
Haha, I wonder if I put my naked pics up here, if I would get as much attention as others on this site....Negative attention is not necessarily better than no attention at all.

8/26/2007 6:17:25 PM
Just an observation, but there are a lot of narcissistic egomaniacal submissives on this site.  Since when were looks deemed as the deciding factor when looking for a domme?  Doesn't make much sense...

8/26/2007 2:18:48 PM
Very interesting, a so-called sub just told ME to grow up, after I'm the only one being mature in the conversation.WTF?  And people wonder why I call myself Miss Anthrope ( a play on the term "misanthrope").  People really make me wonder sometimes. 

8/25/2007 11:00:57 AM
Extremely pissed off at the moment.  This supposedly submissive and I have exchanged emails, and now he says that I am too young for him, even though he's known my age from the beginning.  He was the one who messaged me, so I just don't understand.  This is why I am so disenchanted with the whole thing.

8/25/2007 10:21:36 AM
After much deliberation, I'm taking a sabbatical away from this, way too many posers.

8/23/2007 4:58:47 PM
I must say farewell, as my self esteem plummets to join my despondency in the abyss below.:(

8/23/2007 1:50:08 PM
I have come to the conclusion that it's absolutely pointless.  Everyone keeps trying to change me, which defeats the purpose.  At least I am who I claim to be, not many on this site can say that.  And yet I am the one who is ostracized, go figure.

8/22/2007 1:54:47 PM
I absolutely DETEST being sick and having to miss school, it means that I am left here to my own devices, and my imagination is far too strong.  Perhaps I'd be better off if I didn't think so much and behaved like most of the other people on here.   But alas, that will never happen.

8/22/2007 1:39:01 PM
Some "little boys" on here really need to grow up and stop speaking such smut to me...if I wanted to be called such names, I'd go elsewhere.  Geez, if you claim to be submissive, then act like it, don't try to be all dominant when you don't get your way.

8/21/2007 11:50:33 AM
Hmm, so now I've been called the insults on this site ever end?

8/20/2007 12:31:54 PM
So, today I've been told that I'm not "pretty enough" to be a domme.  Sorry to be such a damn disappointment.

8/18/2007 11:58:36 AM
Putting my life into perspective really hurts, as I have found out lately.  All of my friends are married and have kids, and I have neither.  It seems as though the one thing I want is the one thing I can't have.

8/18/2007 8:48:16 AM
I was rather surprised when I walked into my German class yesterday and found out that no English was going to be spoken.  But I impressed my teacher by being the only person in the class able to speak it back.:)  School was so much fun, I had an extremely good day there.  Can't wait to go back on Monday.

8/17/2007 2:45:08 AM
Going back to school today, woohoo.  I've been so excited for the longest time, as I am bound and determined to graduate as valedictorian.:)

8/16/2007 5:15:21 AM
What is up with all of the financial dommes on here?  Is it really that lucrative of a "career"?  Kudos if you can get it to work for you.:)

8/15/2007 3:14:54 AM
The best thing for me to do is probably to abandon this search, all it has turned out to be is heartbreak, over and over again.  I just can't put myself through this every day, people leading me on, making me think that they are something that they are not.  And also, everyone trying to top from the bottom.  It just defeats the purpose of searching for someone who is actually what they claim to be.  And it's not just me that they are lying to, I've found out that they lie to alot of other girls on this site as well.  Just hard to believe what people on here say anymore.  So from now on, all my energy is going to be put towards focusing on med school, as that is going to keep me busy enough.  Unless someone on here thinks that they are up for the challenge of changing my mind.

8/13/2007 10:08:58 PM
Way too many people try to top from the bottom, what is that all about?  Just a thought.

8/13/2007 7:09:14 PM
Childish people on here really need to grow up....geez. Try to get some work done on the computer, people on IM buzzing me then calling me a bitch because I wouldn't respond...yeah that's real adult.  At least I was trying to do some work because I have a thing called a job...which is more than a lot of these people have obviously.

8/10/2007 8:14:16 PM
The scars that I wear inside are now quite physical...pity really.  When I said my heart was bleeding, I wasn't lying.

8/10/2007 6:51:13 PM
If anyone feels the need to talk to me, PLEASE don't lie about who you are.  It's very upsetting to become attached to someone, only to find out that the whole thing is a facade.  I don't care about what you do, how much money you have, or anything, I just want people to be honest with me.

8/10/2007 5:47:49 PM
First time I've ever cried over something like this...I now know the depths of despair one can feel after being in love and having your hopes completely obliterated.:((

8/10/2007 5:44:17 PM
I am completely and utterly stupid... My heart is broken.  I don't know what to do.  Can't believe this happened again.  I feel the worst now that I have ever felt in my life.

8/10/2007 3:12:06 PM
Tomorrow is the big day, as I can barely contain myself.  If only I can do something that will keep me patient until then.  But it will all be worth it.

8/8/2007 7:35:57 PM
I am missing him like crazy.  Never knew I could be this enamored over someone.

8/8/2007 2:47:39 PM
I am anticipating that this weekend will be the greatest one of my life.

8/7/2007 7:48:10 PM
Calmed down a great deal since last night, I was just upset that someone would even think to disrespect me.  All is well now, as I think of my little painmuffin.:D

8/6/2007 11:28:16 PM
Please excuse my French, for I never talk like this, but if some little bitch has something to say, then fucking say it to my goddamn face.

8/5/2007 5:16:57 PM
I have come to the conclusion, after giving it a good deal of thought, that there are quite a few people on here who enjoy living a facade.  This in turn makes it miserable for those of us here who are actually real.  Pity, really.

8/2/2007 7:14:00 PM
Desperately trying to get out and travel some, hopefully very soon.

7/31/2007 4:11:30 PM
Still trying to figure out why the last one left, wondering what I did wrong.  Though I do find it extremely frustrating that someone would get mad at me because I was in the hospital and wasn't able to get them their little toy.  Really shows how much they cared.

7/26/2007 7:20:37 AM
Still heartbroken over the recent turn of events.  But that's what I get for falling for someone.  I'll have to be more careful next time.

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