Nothing can set a man free like bondage at the hands of caring Lady, or can put him in any more extacy than having a loving sadist use his body as her canvas. 

My desire to serve continues to go unrequited, tomorrow the sun comes up on another new day and maybe that will be the day that I meet a Lady to give my unconditional submissiveness to, so that She may release her joy on me.

I have been uder an extreme amount of stress lately, and the best way that i have to deal with stress is to lose myself in submission to Ladies.  i have placed an ad elsewhere offering myself to Ladies as a canvas to experiment on, so now I wait and hope for that conection.

i had a Lady send me a note last night and by the time the night  was over She had released Herself with a flogger, 2 crops, and a whip.  While there is not a lot of personal chemistry there for many further meetings, but She is a Lday who requested my presence, and i am a man who NEEDS and HAS to serve.  Besides the marks She left look amazing  today.  The search goes on for that long term chemistry, until then i Have to serve who and when i am asked.

What a great day Sat. was!!  i got to spend the day with my son, played some tennis. 

Finished housework, took a short nap now to do some yardwork before it rains.  Clamps back on not a bad day off.

Today i have housework to do.  i wish that i was doing it for a friend who enjoyed telling me what She wanted done and expecting it to be finished to Her expectations, but alas i am not.  It seems i have not met that special friend or friends yet, each day holds out new hope.  So to make it more enjoyable i shall put clips on my nipples and think of how much i desire to serve Women of strenth who know what They want.

Another day passes, so sad!  Will i find a like minded Lady close to me to talk to and to SERVE?

Pain is not pain but joy when experianced at the hands of a Lady who is doing what She enjoys and wants when She wants to do it.  Anything else is nothing more than an orchestrated scene in which the submissive is expressing his wishes, he should have no wishes only trust in the Lady who chooses him.

As a submissive servant i just hope to be choosen and allowed to develop that trust, then prove myself.

When a Lady wishes to express herself physically, a true servant will present his body without making any suggestions or asking any questions because he gains his pleasure from allow Her to do as She wishes.

A true serveant serves because he chooses to and he knows the Lady enjoys either asking for or demanding what She desires. 

As i sit here i profess to be a little bit frustrated.  i have tried serveral times to deny my feelings about this way of life and understand now not only is that useless it is unhealthy.  i now choose to embrace the way i feel about Women.  i  am hoping to make some friends here, to meet some like-minded people.  i do not think that life is one constant "session", but rather a chance to serve a friend who believes the same way i do and enjoys the same things that i enjoy.  It just so happens that i enjoy serving the Woman i am with.  That could be anything from getting a glass of tea for her if we are watching TV, to making my body avaiable for Her to play with if She likes.  i could lie and say i am younger than i am or that i will do things that i would not just to get some responses, but that is not who i am.  i am an intelligent 52 year old man with many life expierences trying to meet some people to get to know, if it leads somewhere great, if not i have expanded my circle of friends.

i have not had but 3 people actually look at my profile, but i have had a couple of chats with a very nice lady, so there is some hope.  my idea of a great day would be to do some yardwork or housework for a Lady, cook Her a nice meal, kiss Her feet and go home.  If She wanted more awesome, but if not i have had a chance to serve that day.

A Woman's needs and pleasures are what are most important to me!

i sit here this morning hoping this will be the day i have contact with a Lady to serve.

i just took the clamps off my nipples after almost an hour, the rush on pain was amazing!

i would really like to meet one of the fine Ladies on this site.  i NEED to be trussed up, abused and to serve.