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I have been into the scene for a long time though have had my attempts at vanilla relationships and wont do so again.

I have an interest in induced lactation and have begun the process already even though I am currently not in a relationship.

My interests within the lifestyle are too varied to list and my limits are few. 

I do have masochistic tendencies and would want these met as well as the emotional/intellectual need to be a slave.   It is far more about the mental than physical but I find that I do eventually need that stimulus as well if it is left untended for too great a period of time.


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2/19/2009 10:26:52 AM
Life has settled into a new routine; work, work and more work.  It fills the hours and helps me forget how quiet the house is now that the kids have gone.

It has also enabled me to purchase a few toys so it cannot be all bad, right?

It is a beautiful day here and I am fortunate in that I work from home, who else can sit and enjoy the sunshine and fresh air this way and still earn a living.

I keep in constant contact with the kids and even though I miss them terribly it is wonderful to hear how happy they are at the moment. 

2/9/2009 2:48:59 PM
I have learned this year that life can change in a heart beat, literally.  My children's father died from a heart attack aged 44.  It was hard, as even though he and I were divorced he had still been my husband for a number of years.

If I thought that got the year off to a bad start was I ever wrong.  His family paid for the kids to return to New Zealand for the funeral and now the kids wont come back. 

I am at a cross roads in my life that I never wished to be in and spend more time than I care to admit thinking about it all.

12/1/2008 3:50:51 PM
There is some truth to the saying it never rains but it pours.  My car broke down last night at the grocery store.  After paying $73 for a 6 mile tow it is now parked in the driveway.  This naturally meant I could not get my son to school today because he is doing AEP and not allowed in the mainstream school.  Today was meant to have been his last day but I had no way to get him there.

I have negotiated with his principal all day and finally organised for him to do In School Suspension tomorrow and then call it quits.  This will mean he can resume catching the school bus as of tomorrow.  Of course he is throwing an absolute fit and saying he refuses to do ISS and wont go to school.   I feel a Domme moment coming on!

As for the car after having spent most of the day trying to source a part I have managed to order one online, there goes another $50.  Now I will just have to wait 3 - 5 business days for it to arrive.  I have found a mechanic that will come out and do the repair, 2 hours labor, for $20 per hour.    So including towing that is a grand total of $163 just because my key wont turn in the ignition.

Today has been terrible with work, I have earned so little I have not even paid for the car part, let alone anything else.  I can only pray that tomorrow is better.

It is days like this that I just feel like giving up, and on days like this as frustrated as I get with my kids I am thankful to them.  Without them I would not have a reason to continue this daily fight for survival.

Things will get better, I know they will.  I can get citizenship in a little over a year and at least then we can get food stamps and perhaps some other kinds of aid.

For now though I just get through one day at a time, praying each night that tomorrow will be a little better than today.

11/26/2008 10:09:49 AM
For a while there it looked as if the kids and I might have people to spend thanksgiving with.  We were 'supposedly' invited to join my daughter's friend and her family both today and tomorrow.  After going to the pre-arranged meeting place and waiting for 45 minutes we gave up and came home.

The mood is very flat in the house now, this really stole the heart out of us all.  We were looking forward not only to the food but having the company of others on the holiday instead of it being just the three of us.  It is at times like this that it sucks not having any family.

10/22/2008 5:46:28 AM
Well the whole xmas thing took a nose dive financially this week but it is looking up again today.  I managed to work until 2am last night [or should that be this morning] so things are a little brighter again.



Tired does not begin to describe me this morning though. 

We are trying to integrate the kids kittens into the household, our cat is not keen on the idea so today i am the official 'cat caregiver' while the kids are at school.   God help me if they come home to find we are down a kitten.

Anyway, no rest for the wicked as they say so time to get back to work.


10/19/2008 4:39:28 PM
I am very hormonal today and about ready to give up the search.  In fact I think I will put it on hold for a while.  

This is a busy time of year, particularly with kids wanting to celebrate Halloween and Xmas etc.  I will concentrate on those family activities more and less on finding a 'partner'.  This xmas will be our 2nd by ourselves, last xmas was hard on the kids and I promised myself that this year would be a lot better for them.  It is already shaping up to be, I have put in lots of extra hours so that I can purchase gifts I know they will truly want.  Now it is a case of saving for the special foods that everyone wants for these holiday meals. 

I am proud of what I have accomplished as far as gifts for the kids, a year ago I would not have thought it possible.  

-chuckles-  As down as I am today, thinking about the kids has as always put a smile on my face.  They have had an incredibly busy weekend and my house rang with the sounds of kids laughter and banter. 

10/18/2008 6:01:39 PM
It has been hard today to stick to my schedule.  I am really tired and would rather be laying down catching up on sleep than pumping.

I have forced myself to do it though and despite my tiredness am pleased that i did.

The biggest problem is simply keeping myself motivated because right now this is being done for myself rather than someone else.  I need to try and remember that eventually it will be for someone else and the effort will have been worthwhile.

10/14/2008 7:20:15 PM
someone from CM has suggested I used udder butter on my nipples to help with the tenderness.   As strange as it is going to feel using an animal product on my body I have ordered some today.  Each time I pump now they are becoming more sensitive and tonight even hours after having pumped the touch of my clothing on them feels like a small electric shock. 

i must admit it does serve to keep me feeling turned on which is not always a bad thing

10/14/2008 6:52:33 AM
my nipples are becoming more tender with every passing day.  i had forgotten just how tender they would get.  I have just finished pumping and I do not even want to touch them.

i need to change my pumping schedule, things have changed here at home which mean i can no longer pump first thing in the morning so i need to shift everything around so that i am getting in the required number of session.

i cannot wait until the day i look down and see that very first droplet of milk clinging to one of my nipples.  from everything i have read this could happen within a month or so as long as i stick to my routine.  it could have been faster if i was taking the herbs as well but finances will not allow for that, and also while i am unowned there is no pressing need for the actual lactation to begin


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Angelmary005
 
 Age: 24
  Wyoming