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So little food for thought, My brain feels anorexic.
when it comes to attention, i am very high maintenance, i don't care what form it comes in text, email, phone call, command or physical touch as long as i get it constantly. The more control my owner has in my life, the more i feel loved, the more strict his his, the more he follows through the more i feel loved. the more i feel loved, the less likely i am to misbehave
Well I love to read, I enjoy learning about ancient civilizations, I crave knowledge and new experiences. I like to watch T.V, my favorite shows are South Park, Big Bang Theory, Game of Thrones Castle, Bones, My Name Is Earl, American Dad and Futurama. My favourite books are "To Kill A Mocking Bird", "The Ancient Future", "Rowan Of Rin" and the "game of thrones" series. My favorite cartoon strip is Garfeild. I was 17 when i first had sex, I married the first I slept with only to get divorced 8 months later. I've lived in 3 Different states, New South Wales, Tasmainia and Victoria. I have never gone over seas
I wanted to be a Vet or an Astronomer, now I want to be a full time submissive or a Occupational Health and Saftey Officer. But these days I am a BDSM Kink and Fetish E-book writer I've always wanted to learn how to shoot. I love riding horses. I hate the heat, and love the cold. I prefer Jeans and a black T-shirt to a fancy dress. I prefer silver to gold and I hate having my shoulders or arms restricted, it makes me panic
I like certain types of pain, but I will experience anything if it pleases "the One"
the consultant is back!! You got an issue or a problem come to me and we'll talk it out :) I'm here to help :) I'm here to listen Got a problem with a disobedient submissive and you don't know whats going on? ask me and I'll give you a woman's point of view. General Advice is also given to those who want it :)
Over the past I have learned that communication truly is the key to getting your point across and having needs met.
It must be noted that communication consists of talking and more importantly listening.
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HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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-a submissive will do anything for the Right Owner, given the neccessary attention, affection, correction and direction - Karina White. |
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Its hard for me to be submissive when i know the rest of the world is beneth me. |
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I have a strong urge that is spurred on from the hatred I have from those I used to call my family. I have no family and very few friends, (if I could even call them that) Some of us live in a world of darkness and hatred, for ourselves and those around us. It is the way we are wired, I have tried nurmerous types of therapy but nothing has worked. I am programmed for the way I am, Hating something yet embracing it because it brings us a strange sense of positivity is a hard thing to do. As Obedientnwilling said at the end of the day we are left with broken dreams and a wistful rememberance of what once was. Digging ones self out of a spiral of depression is extremely hard. I have never taken the easy route. I am a self-sabator, I know it but I can't help it. I have been in so many toxic and dangerous relationships (vanilla and BDSM based). For me, embracing the hate and the darkness that rules my world, is my sense of homostasis. I do not embrace positivity or happiness because in my mind I know it will not last, because past experiences have shown otherwise. Its not like I don't try to find happiness, I am just aware that it will not last. I am toxic, I am well aware of how my presence affects people. So I chose to shut myself out, I reject human contact because I feel like I will, in some way, poison them. I do not wish my darkness and inner evil to rub off on anyone else. Revealing the way I am is cathargic.
I believe that nobody will accept me for who and how I am, and if they did, I'd be asking them to get a psych evaluation because anyone who embraces the toxicity that is me is definitely not right in the head.
I refuse to be saved becaues I believe I am too far gone for someone to help.
My situation right now is Lose-Lose, there is nothing to be gained from trying to save me from myself because at the end of the day the evil I believe in is evil that manifests itself inside of me, I have a darkness and hatred generator inside me and I have no idea where the off switch is. |
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Being choked and fucked until you pass out is a very strange sensation. It was like one moment I was there then the next I wasn't. When I opened my eyes my head felt so light, my eyes couldn't focus on anything, it was like my brain was in overload/shutdown, my heart was racing and I couldn't control anything. I was scared because I didn't know what my body was doing. It took me about 5 minutes to feel "normal" . That is the first time I have ever been choked to the point of blacking out. I would definitely do it again and again and again. It was like one moment I was looking up into his eyes with his cock deep inside me then everything went black and when I opened my eyes I couldn't hear anything and I don't know if it was because he wasn't talking or if I simply just couldn't hear him. It took me a good 30 seconds to a minute to realise that I was empty and his cock wasn't inside me anymore. Again I don't know if my hearing came back or if he had just started talking but he was asking me to do things, like move, but I couldn't do it, my eyes couldn't focus and my limbs wouldn't cooperate. I finally managed to find my voice and told him I couldn't and I felt funny and that I just needed a minute for my head to clear, but he was persistent and I just kept shaking my head until he got fed up with my inability to move that he moved me himself, all I wanted to do was lay down, I tried to and he scolded me and told me no, he then knelt or sat on the bed in front of me holding me by the arm so I didn't tumble off the bed and guided my head towards his cock, I grabbed it round the base and steadied myself, he told me to suck it and I just shook my head I couldn't, my body and head still felt like they was spiraling but at least they had slowed down a bit. Again, sick of my inability to function like a good cock sucking cum should, he growled and turned me around on my hands and knees and slammed his hot hard thick cock into my still dripping wet cunt and started fucking me again, I was still in a bit of a daze, but the clouds were clearing quick. Soon he was plowing into me harder than he was before. He spat on my face then rubbed it all over my face and called me HIS dirty little fucking slut, unfortunately due to one of his friends knocking on the door and then barging in on us, announcing he'd been in a car accident and he needed to put some stuff in a spare room, we had to stop and leave it at that. But not before my amazing Man pushed himself into me hard and painfully, before brutally ripping himself out of me causing me yelp in pain, he rubbed his spit around my face and down my neck again and then pulled his pants back on and told me to clean myself up. It was a completely new experience, one that I endeavor to repeat over and over again. So, Thank You to my Amazing Owner and Boyfriend for fulfilling a longtime fantasy of mine, you are amazing and I love you with all heart, which has been yours since the start. |
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anyone wanna buy this for me?
http://www.ebay.com/itm/Crash-Bandicoot-1-2-3-CTR-Crash-Bash-Complete-Set-Black-Label-/130930816968?pt=Video_Games_Games&hash=item1e7c15b7c8 |
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I have a new number and a new yahoo ID, inbox me if you want it. I also have kik, snapchat, whatsapp, facebook messenger, facebook and yahoo messenger all on my phone so, I am contactable 24/7 :D |
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What Owning me lets you do to me (not for the faint of heart)
I want you to slap my ass till it's red, hold my arms so tight you leave bruises, cane my feet Till they bleed and fuck my ass till it tears and fist my cunt till it splits. Flog me till I'm covered in welts, choke me, slap my face, fuck my face till my jaw dislocates, pull my hair till my scalp hurts,, push me down on the floor and step on my head, spit on me and call me your filthy worthless fuckhole whore.
I want you to take me into the depths of my dirtiest, filthiest desires. I want you to fuck my face till I puke then push my face into the puke and call me a disgusting puking cunt. I want you to push my head into a toilet as you rape my holes.
I want you to piss all over me and hold my mouth open, force me to choke on your piss. Then when I vomit again you rub my face into it again. Or even worse make me piss into a cup then pour it over my face. Make me degrade myself by making me repeat demeaning phrases that you come up with. I want you to steal and corrupt my innocence, slowly make me change, to the point that I enjoy being hit by you, making me enjoy things that I currently hate. Make me beg for things I'd never want done, make me beg for you to hit me over and over again, make me beg for you to fist my holes, put things in them, take pictures of random things sticking out of my cunt and ass. I want you to carve your name into my flesh, slowly and painfully, making me watch your eyes as you work, carving your mark of ownership into my body. Make me thank you when your finished, then turn me over and pull my hair up and carve your first name into the top of the back of my neck, then fuck me hard, as one of your friends fucks my throat violently, then switch ends, make me look up into your eyes, let me see the love of ownership you have for me I want you to use cell popping to embed a design into my shoulder and upper arm, the whole design filled with messages and codes that only have significance to us. I want you to cum on my food, no matter what it is, pull my head back and make me look up at you as you spit into my eyes then down throat every morning then tell me I am your property and your property alone and I'm your filthy fucking little cunt. Strip me naked then write demeaning words on my body then take pictures, then print them out and put them up in a room and when I forget my place you tie me up and place me in that room so I can look at all the ways, time and time again you've made me yours.
I want your cock being forced slowly but firmly into my cunt, with my hands tied tightly behind my back so I can't even try to push you away, you threaten to beat me severely if I even think of trying to kick you or try to use my feet to try and get away. Your cock slowly enters my tight, barely wet hole, laying on my back and hands with you holding my ankles up and to the side, you order me to hold your gaze so you can see the pain in my eyes. Your cock slowly stretches my cunt, unable to keep looking into your eyes I close my eyes and turn my head to the side, you react instantly, you let go of my ankles and spread my legs then with my legs on your shoulders you put one hand on my hip and the other around my throat and you push the rest of your length into me quickly, causing me to yelp in pain, you fuck me hard and fast, my ass bouncing painfully off your thighs, fucking me so hard I barely have time to take a breath. After a while you slow down, my cunt feels like its torn slightly but there is no blood, maybe it's just sore from the force of the pounding, you pull your cock from my cunt then pull me up to a kneeling position in front of you , then gathering my hair in your hand you put your cock on my lips and tell me to look up at you. As I do I open my mouth and your huge cock slides past my lips. You guide my head so I can only suck the head of your cock. I keep looking up at you and you call me a good little cunt and then tell me to lick your cock clean of my cunt juices and then make it wet because its going down my throat. You stop guiding my head and let me move of my own accord but still holding my hair so it doesn't get in the way. I lick your cock up and down the sides, tilting my head so I can lick the underside then the topside, before wrapping my lips around the head and start sucking again, slowly taking more and more of your thick cock into my mouth. Your cock starts to hit the back of my throat and you tell me you want to see me choke myself on your cock like a good whorecunt should. I keep sucking on your cock, gagging slightly as I suck your cock into my throat, you tell me I'm good cock sucking cunt, encouraging me to keep going, you put your other hand on the back of my neck and I stop, you take your hand off and slap me quickly, not too hard but hard enough to be a warning, telling me you didn't say I could stop. I start choking myself on your cock again but this time as your cock goes into my throat you force it a little deeper by pulling me closer by the back of my neck, you slowly take over the rhythm as my throat relaxes and opens up to your cock. You move your hand from the back of my neck to the side of my jaw, holding it open and keeping my head straight by tightening your grip on my hair you facefuck me faster, slowly building up speed and force till my head is moving violently fast. I can barely take a breath and soon I can't breath at all, till you force your cock all the way down my throat, pulling my head against you so hard and deep my nose is squashed against you. You let go of my hair and block my nose, you pant slightly and laugh as my struggles grow more frantic as I fight for air. I try to pull myself away by sliding off my heels but you pull me harder against you, I feel a blackness start to close in on me, you smile as you see me start to fade. Then at the -last second you let go and push me off you, I fall back landing on my side. You slap me hard, forcing me to take a deep breath in, I let out yelp then start taking deep breathes, you stroke my face and rub my neck, talking to me soothingly, telling me I did an excellent job and that you are proud to call me your propety, you keep talking to me soothingly as my breathing slowly comes back to normal, I open my eyes and look up at you, you smile and say 'there's my girl'. I smile weakly back and you sit me up and lean me against your chest, your skin is warm and I can hear your heartbeat. I close my eyes and start to drift off, until you grab the back of my neck and slowly push my head into a pillow, on my shoulders and knees with my ass in the air, I groan and start to struggle, you tell me to settle down, I've done such an amazing job and this is the last round, I groan again but I don't struggle. Holding me down by the back of my neck you spit into my asshole then suck on your finger to make it wet and then slowly push it into my even tighter little asshole, I arch my back in discomfort and you let go of my neck and stroke my back, relaxing and soothing me as you slowly finger my ass, you take your finger from my ass and put it up to my mouth along with the finger next to it, I slowly suck on your fingers, you rub my still glisteningly wet pussy with your other hand as I continue to suck on your fingers, you occasionally push them down my throat because you love the way I look when I gag. You stop rubbing my pussy and take your fingers out of my mouth and slowly push them into my tiny tight asshole, I groan and you push your pussyjuice coated fingers into my mouth and tell me to lick them clean, I do so immediately, and you keep slowly fingering my asshole, slowly stretching it. You then add a third finger which makes me arch my back again in discomfort, you take your fingers from my mouth and grip the back of my neck again. You spit on my asshole again and keep fingering it, telling me to push back against you, I do slowly and time it with your fingers, you start to increase your speed and I stop pushing back, I groan loudly and start to shift bit you just keep going faster, twisting and turning your fingers inside my hole, stretching it. You then stop and position yourself behind me you grip the head of your cock and place it at the entrance to my ass, you grip the back of my head tighter as you slowly push your cock into my ass, I shift and groan, arching my back, you dig your nails into my neck and warn me to keep still, I whimper as inch by inch your cock disappears into my ass. I breath deeply and slowly trying to stay relaxed. Eventually your entire cock is embedded in my ass, you ask me to tell you how it feels, I tell you it feels uncomfortable but it doesn't hurt, you push forward making me wince, you tell me again what a good girl I am and that you are proud to have me as your propety. You then start pulling your cock out before pushing it back in, slowly building up speed, I groan louder and arch my back, I tell you it hurts, you grab my hip and suddenly thrust into me hard and deep, causing me to let out a scream, you laugh and tell me you're sure it does. You thrust into me again causing me to yelp, your pace quickens and I start to beg you to slow down but my pleas fall on deaf ears, you fuck my ass harder and faster. Suddenly you pull me up by my hair and hold me against you, causing me to scream and struggle, being upright makes it hurt twice as much, you tell me to fuck myself on your cock, I whimper loudly and shake my head as a sob escapes my lips, you slap me and thrust hard into me, you love it when I cry. Tell me I'm even more beautiful when I cry then you order me again to fuck myself on your cock, I let out another sob and shake my head and say no, you slap my cunt and hiss in my ear, telling me that I know you hate that word, I yelp loudly and you slap my cunt again harder as you bite into my neck hard and tell me through your teeth to fuck myself on your cock, I struggle and you hold me tightly against you, my struggles inadvertently giving your cock the movement and pleasure you want, you slap my cunt again, this time right on my clit, this causing me to cry out loudly. You push 3 fingers into my cunt and tell me to ride your fingers, you lick my neck and whisper in my ear 'be a good girl for me, I want to see you squirt, show me how you squirt babygirl' you kiss me just under my ear and start finger fucking my cunt, you can feel you cock through the back wall of my cunt, you rub against it, your palm against my clit. The sensation is overwhelming and my need for more stimulation over rides my need to avoid pain, I slowly start bouncing, I can feel the pleasure my holes give you through your heavy moans and pants, you lick and kiss me just under my ear, driving me on 'that's my good girl, my good little cunt, ride that cock babygirl, just like that, you're such a good little fuckslut, my little whore' you groan and hiss into my ear. I bounce harder, your words are like pouring petrol on a fire drive my need and my want through the roof. I moan louder as I bounce myself harder and faster on your cock and fingers, you let go of my hair and wrap your hand around me, grabbing one of my tits and matching my rhythm, you pull me down and thrust into my ass, you fingerfuck and rub my clit harder, you can feel the heat radiate in and off my body. I yelp and scream in pleasure and tell you I'm going to cum, you grip my tit hard and bite into my ear 'beg me to let you cum whore' you hiss. 'please let me cum sir please! ' I yelp loudly over and over again, my words barely distinguishable. 'cum you dirty fucking cunt, cum for me my little whore! ' You growl into my ear. I cum, hard, for me its like everything slows down and intensifies, my body feels like a supernova exploding, my body erupts like a volcano, in slow motion I can see my pussy juice and cum spraying out from my cunt like a majestic waterfall. All I feel is complete and utter serenity, I can't hear a thing. Then I come crashing back to earth, I'm screaming in violent uncontrollable pleasure, every inch of my skin feels like its burning with the intense pleasure, my cunt keeps erupting like a volcano, my cum like hot streams of clear lava, covering the sheets, it feels like its never going to end, then I remember your there, I was so lost in my own pleasure I had become a singularity. I stop squinting but I don't stop cumming, you pull your fingers from me and let release your vice like grip on my tit and push me forward moving over the top of me you thrust into me, pounding my ass harder and deeper. Pain ripping through by body, balancing out my intense pleasure, frying my senses. I can only moan and pant in pleasure and pain, my brain not being able to register which is which.
Pounding my ass with all your weight, fucking me as if it was the only thing that kept the earth rotating. I can hear your animalistic grunts and pants as you plow yourself into me, over and over again, your nails digging into my neck and even deeper into my hip. You pull yourself from me and flip me over. I can still barely breath from my orgasm but you pull me up and shove your cock down my throat anyway, filling my stomach with your seed, there is so much cum, I have to swallow over and over again or I'd drown. You let out a triumphant cry as you drain your balls into your property. I suck the last of your cum from your cock. We are both covered in sweat and the sheets are soaked with my cum. I feel light headed as I fall back, you gather your composure before standing up and slowly making your way to the bathroom, you dry yourself off from my cunt juice and our sweat and wash your face. Before grabbing a towel for me and wrapping me up in it and taking me to the spare room, you hold me up as you dry me off then place me in bed then slide in next to me, wrapping yourself around me like a cocoon 'you are my property, my one, my all, mine to use, mine to abuse, mine to fuck, mine to rape, mine to love, mine to cherish, I will never let you go and I will never let you leave me. Even when your nothing but a pile of dust, you will still belong to me then as much as you belong to me now. Should anyone try to even attempt to take you away from me I will kill them. You are mine and only mine. My slave, my pet ' I fall asleep in your arms, comforted by your words and the safety and stability you bring, I squeeze your hand one last time before I slip into dreamland.
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I now have kik, snapchat, and whatsapp and facebook chat on my phone...so yeah I got no excuse not to talk to anyone now lol |
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Just a question that's been floating around my head. Do women find fat men attractive? I've been wondering because a lot of guys say that bigger chicks can be hot...just curious if it works with the genders reversed. Personally fat guys even overly tubby guys aren't appealing to me at all, but then again I'm a shallow cunt. |
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Submission is not a gift. In and of itself, submission is nothing except potential. What it is, is irrelevant. What it can be, is breathtaking. |
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I could just imagine you making my so wet that my juices drip out onto the chair, you could call me your dirty dripping cunt. Then untie me and tying my hands behind my back, make me lick my cunt juices off the chair. Then make me follow you on my knees, calling me filthy names, into the lounge room. You untie my hands and then blindfold me and tell me to kneel in the middle of the room with my legs spread. you then put duct tape over my mouth and order me to masturbate for you. You sit on a lounge and watch me fuck myself. You hand me a dildo and tell me to lay over the arm of the couch and fuck myself. I fuck myself until you are satisfied i'm wet enough. You tell me to stay bent over arm of the couch and not to move. You then get a flogger and start flogging me hard across my legs and ass. you see my juices continue to drip and with out telling me, push my head into the couch and start fucking my cunt hard, slamming my hips into the side of the couch. You then rip off the tape and pull me back by my hair and spit on my face then tell me to open my mouth, then you spit down throat and slap me as I swallow it. You then turn me around so my knees are on the seat and you start fucking my face again, holding my throat feeling your cock slide in and out. You then pick up the dildo, pushing your cock deep into throat you fuck me with the dildo, till I squirt every where. Gagging on your cock. You fuck my throat till I nearly vomit. You then stop and pull me down the hall way. And put my head over the toilet and fuck my face until I puke. Calling me the worst names you can think of, you keep making me puke with your cock, slapping my face. You then make me clean your cock, and then rinse my mouth out with water before throwing me down and forcing your cock into my ass, making me scream and you keep fucking it and fucking it, listening to me scream and cry. Before pulling out and cumming on my face. Then dragging me into the back yard and putting me in my cage that has a kennel in it just for me, you tie me to the kennel and leave me, calling me your good little bitch, saying you have to go out for a while and you don't want me going anywhere. And when you come back your cum still be better be on my face or you will beat me most severely. ================================================= Seems like I'd been sitting out there chained to that kennel with my Owners cum on face, the sun was going down, and it was starting to get pretty cold. I didn't like going inside the kennel, it was small and cramped and last time I was in there the blanket wasn't thick enough and I was sore for days. But the night chill started to come through, so I didn't have a choice. The cum on my face had dried and I really wanted to wipe it off, the smell of fresh cum is intoxicating but 3 hour old dry cum? Not as pleasant. I crawled into the kennel expecting to find the crappy blanket in there but I was surprised to find a nice foam mattress AND a thick blanket. I immediately curled up and wrapped the blanket around me. Looking out of the door of my kennel. I chuckled at myself at how I would look to an outsider. A tiny girl with cum on her face chained up in a cage, curled up in a kennel. I kept listening out for his car, thinking he would be home soon, the sun was fading fast and soon in was dark...I sat up slightly and looked around. Where could he be? He said he'd only be gone for a little while. Why isn't he back yet. The minutes turned into hours...I finally understood why he'd gone the extra distance, he was making me sleep outside like a dog, I battled with his decision in my head wondering why he would do it, how he could do it, I fell asleep with disconcerting thoughts in my head.
I was awoken by the sound of my cage door opening. I opened my eyes and looked up at him, the sun had barely risen. I wanted to say something but couldn't. At least he came back a voice in the back of my head said. He came in and bent down and touched my face. He could feel his dried cum on my face. He smiled and suddenly all the anger I felt for him leaving me there was gone, he unchained me and pulled me gently from the kennel and took me inside. I clung onto him as if he was my lifeline and I never wanted to be apart from him again. He carried me down the hallway to the bathroom, there was a warm bath waiting for me, and he slowly eased me into it. I closed my eyes and allowed my head to go under, I still felt his hands on my body. i went to rise up but I couldn't, he was holding me under, I pushed at his hands but he pushed me down harder. Panic hit my like a freight train and I thrashed around madly, he finally let me up, I came up coughing and spluttering, I immediately jumped out of the bath. And left grabbing a towel off the rack and wrapping it around me. I shut myself in a room still gasping for air, what the fuck was that about. I heard the door open and I turn around. ''You never run from me'' he said calmly and coldly taking slow steps towards me. ''you nearly fucking drowned me!'' i yelp at him taking steps back. ''your life is mine'' as quick as a flash the towel was gone and his hand was in my hair pulling it hard, grabbing both my wrists and pulling them behind my back '' you never run from me' he let go of my hair and started slapping my ass and thighs but to him it wasn't enough, he grabbed a belt and wrapped it around my wrists and tethered it to the end of the bed. And grabbed another belt, he has malice on his mind. She ran. She knew better. He lashed the belt down on me, catching my thigh. The pain was blinding, he did it again and again, I moved with every blow. Which ment he got me in a different spot every time. My back, my other thigh, my ribs, the back of my legs. But the most painful one by far was when he pulled my body away from the bed by my ankle, stretching me taunt and did 4 quick sharp blows criss-crossing down from my chest to lower abdomen, he flipped me over and did the same to my back. I don't know if I lost consciousness, if I blacked out or if the pain was so intense my brain just shut down. But my next fully conscious feeling was being in his arms, wrapped up, I felt tape and gauze on various parts of my body. ''you will never run again will you?'' I couldn't see him but I could feel him, hear him, sense him. ''I will never run again, ever'' ''you are mine?'' ''till I die''
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Well it all starts with me being at home alone, DJ is at my parents place for the weekend and I'm having some me time, I'm watching TV, most likely a cartoon or maybe even game of thrones, and I'm having dinner. There is a knock at the door and I mute the tv and go and answer it. There is a note on the ground saying ''all alone tonight? How lucky for me'' I look around but there is no sign of anyone, so I shut the door and lock it and go back to eating and watching tv, the rest of the night passes without anything else happening, I then have a shower and go to bed, I lay in bed thinking about my day but I can't sleep so I take an endone which sends me off almost straight away. I'm out to the world, I don't hear anything, nothing disturbs me until I think I feel a weight lean in on the empty side of my bed, feeling and being lonely and under the influence of endone, I roll into the arms of someone, thinking its part of a dream i settle again quickly, who ever it is, caresses my body softly, explores it gently, making sure I don't wake but he enjoys the touch of my skin, how soft it is, he loves the way my hair flows down my back and over my shoulders, even in the dull moon light he can see my chest rising and falling. I roll back over to my side of the bed, for some reason this angers him and he tries to gently roll me back into his arms but I don't go. Something inside him silently snaps and his demeanor changes, he gets up quietly off the bed and walks over to the side I'm facing and bends down, watching my face as I sleep, how peaceful I look. His hand touches the side of my face then the side of my neck, his hand seems to feel as if it belongs around my neck, so slowly he wraps his hand around it, moving with my body as I roll onto my back almost willing him to go on. He carefully gets on top of me his hand still cradling my neck, then he starts to apply pressure, seeing how much he can use before my body reacts, but the endone has me out cold, he lets go of my neck and explores my chest and my stomach, my white skin seems to almost glow gently in the moonlight, he pinches my nipples, tugging on them gently, making a moan escape from me in my sleep, he does it again, my body starts to react to all his attention and caresses as my hips begin to move, my body craving it. He no longer wants me asleep, he's enjoyed my sleeping beauty, his hands get rougher on my skin, his palms pressing on my soft skin, causing me to stir, my eyes flicker and through a daze I see him, my brain not fully registering that he's there until I try to move and can't. Suddenly everything speeds up, I try to sit up, trying to push him off me but he laughs and pushes my back down, I try to sit up again, this makes him laugh harder as he enjoys his little game and pushes my down harder, before holding me down by my neck, putting his face very close to mine. I shut my eyes and turn my head away. He lets my neck go and grabs a handful of my hair and tilts my head back, exposing my throat, slapping me lightly, warningly telling me to open my eyes, I keep my eyes shut and he slaps harder, I open my eyes and he tightens his grip on my hair tilting my head further, painfully causing my back to arch, he bites and licks at neck, sending hot chills through my body. His other hand makes its way between my legs, where a considerable amount of moisture has collected, he starts rubbing my clit and pussy hard. Then he whispers in my ear. ''I'm going to make you mine and after tonight you will belong to me and only me for as long as you live'' He bites into my neck, causing me to cry out. My cries are like a shot of heroin for him, driving him on, he starts forcing fingers into my soaking wet pussy, my legs kick uselessly as he easily keeps them open, he finger fucks me with three fingers, making me feel pleasure and pain at the same time, this seems to go on for what seems like hours before he removes his fingers and rubs them on my face telling me that I'm going to make a good bitch for me. I go to say something but he slaps me, hard, I yelp and he slaps me again and again. Before getting back on top of me and putting a hand around my throat and the other in my hair, tilting my head back, forcing my mouth open and spitting down my throat, then he slaps me again, he rolls me over and pulls me to the side of the bed, my ass hanging off the edge, he grabs a flogger and starts flogging me, hard, the hardest I've ever been flogged, till I'm in tears but somehow I can't ask him to stop. He eventually stops, maybe his arm go tired, he grabs the back of my neck and pushes me up the bed, my ass exposed, my body shaking from the pain of the flogger, he then starts slapping my ass, turning it even redder. Holding me down on the bed by my neck, my ass in the air. He stops slapping it. My breath ragged and I'm still slightly sobbing, he tells me to stay still and I do. He grabs a blade and starts lightly running over my skin, making me break out in goosebumps, slowly he starts to apply more pressure and I can feel the blade start to cut into my skin, I can't help it and I move, he takes the blade off my skin and flips me over onto my back and slaps me so hard I see stars, ''I told you not to move!'' he hisses at me, he never raises his voice but his voice was so cold and deadly that it scared me just as much, i feel a coppery taste and I can tell he's split my lip. He pushes me into the mattress and slaps me again, dazing me. I lay there stunned. He takes advantage of this moment and grabs four lengths of chain, and ties each one of my limbs to each corner of the bed. The chains are uncomfortable and bite into my wrists and ankles but I can't move a millimeter. I'm laying, spread out looking up at my ceiling, my breathing heavy my pulse racing. I turn my head and see him holding the blade. ''I could kill you right now, I could end your life'' he reinforces his statement by putting the knife at the side of neck and nicking me, a small cut appears and starts to seep. '' but you are much too valuable for that'' he moves the blade to otherside and nicks me again. ''I'm going to make sure that you and everyone else knows that you are mine and mine only'' He lays the blade across my throat. He moves to the end of the room, getting something from a bag. ''do you know what cell popping is?'' he asks as he pulls out a blow torch and a thin metal rod. For the first time I find my voice ''please! Anything but that, I'll do anything for you but please not that!'' This makes him smile as also grabs some cloth tape from his bag ''oh sweety, you'll do anything for me anyway, this is just your one and only reminder that you will never get rid of me, I will never be far away and that you will always belong to me'' He puts a thick layer of cloth tape over my mouth, muffling my noise completely He sparks up the blow torch and heats up the end of the metal rod till its white hot, then presses it into the skin just above my left. The pain sears through my body, causing my lungs to scream into the tape. But my muffled screams don't deter him and he heats up the metal rod and presses it into my skin. It takes him at least an hour of reheating and pressing the rod into my skin, until his initials are embedded into my skin, neatly and professionally. He leaves the room and goes to the bathroom and comes back with a bowl of cold water and ice, he pulls some gauze and tape from his bag, and gently and tenderly cleans and dresses the engraving on my skin. He takes the tape off my mouth and looks into my eyes. My eyes are tired and i am mentally and physically worn out from the pain ''your my girl now'' he kisses me gently as he undoes the chains around my limbs. His hands rub all over my strained joints but not touching his engraving. He then set me up on all fours on the side of the bed, I am so tired that my front half falls and my head and chest rest on the bed and my ass stays in the air. ''that's my girl'' he starts to push his cock into my pussy that is slightly wet and starts to fuck me slowly. ''my pussy, my cunt, my whore'' his thrusts are hard and slow, pounding into me, he then reach forward and pulls me up by my hair ''if you ever betray me, I will make you walk down the main street naked, stand you on the steps of the police station and slit your throat'' he pushes me back down and takes his cock out of my pussy and starts pushing into my ass, I groan and pull myself forward, this makes him smile ''oh my little pet, I love it when you fight'' before he grabs my hips and firmly pulls me back onto his cock, forcing it up my ass slowly. Then fucking it until the sun comes up, as the sun rises. He kneels me in front of him pulls my hair into a ponytail with his hand and slowly fucks my face, I look up at him, he takes his cock from my mouth and kisses me on the forehead ''My slave'' he slaps my face lightly then puts his cock back in my mouth, holding me by hair and my throat he fucks my face until he cums down my throat just as the suns rays enter the room. He lays me down next to me and wraps me up in his arms and we fall asleep. Owner and Owned. |
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I serve with my mind, heart and soul, not with my cunt, mouth and ass, why do people have an issue with that? |
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Why is it people insist on living in a false reality?
I live in the real world, I don't delude myself into believing in scenarios that just aren't practical.
An example of this would be what a man said during a correspondence with me.
"Do you know I will be naked around you most of the time I am with you?"
I can not measure the scale of the magnitude of eye rolling this comment brought.
It maybe practical for some people to spend their days roaming around the house naked.
But I'm a full time mum and I work, my son is with me the whole time ( I work when he is asleep). The man who was corresponding with me knew this, How or why he thought what he was going to do would work or somehow impress me, well only a higher power would know.
Please Gentleman can we please try and stay in reality?
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Intelligent Doms who can't spell intelligent...Kinda like looking through a colored window, you can see stuff but its the wrong color |
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Went to Naughty and Nice on Beaumont street this evening...wasn't expecting so many people there lol |
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Random thought - Am I the only one who thinks kinky sex and BDSM are completely different things?
I know the whole "doing kink-inclined" things during sex is a gray area for most people but I think regardless of the activities whether it be flogging, spanking, wax play,masturbation, even knife play (to a certain extent) during sex or a sexual activity isn't BDSM but just kinky sex.
For me BDSM is the mental aspect and kink is the physical side, neither of which are mutually exclusive (of course)
Speaking from experience, What someone does to you physically can affect you for a long time, but what someone does to you mentally can affect and stay with you forever. Some memories like actions, but for me more so, words can never be forgotten...no matter how hard you try |
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Well that was the closest thing I've had to a date recently...not bad |
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-interesting thought i came up with- Women getting wet when they get raped dates back to caveman times when there wasn't the availability for conversation or the ability to ask or decline. The female body developed over time to lubricate itself in order lessen pain. So just because a woman is wet doesn't mean she is mentally acceptable to sex.
-scientific fact -Also the the emotion that women feel when feeling sexual arousal also come from the same part of the brain that the emotion of fear comes from. Hence why women get wet when they get scared -scientific fact end - unless they piss themselves that just means the brain has fried and wires have been crossed. |
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Working for my Boss who is also my ex Owner...dedication to my craft, self imposed self-emotional masochism or pathetic? |
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Happy 24th Bday....now where the hell is my birthday floggings and spanks?!
Satan! come do your job!!! lol |
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Jesus may love you but I still think your a cunt...by the way Jesus doesn't exist...so your just a cunt and nobody loves you. |
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"No Scammers Please"...yeah like that's gonna stop them...lmao dumbass |
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Is it just me or is it every time I see the word "discreet" in a profile it immediately means they are looking for someone to cheat on their partner with? |
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Damn blowjob week...my boobs hurts |
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9vrP5lK1kI |
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So Done With This Lifestyle.
So Done With Being Used.
So Done With Being Fucked Over.
Its Like Nobody Values Me.
Like Nobody Values What I have To Offer.
Fuck All The Doms, Fuck The Lifestyle.
Fuck All The Liars, Fuck All The Fakes.
Fuck All The Users, Fuck All The Players.
I want my faith back! |
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I wish my life would go back to when I was happy.
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This site, just like MY submissive tendencies, is dead in the water. |
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I dub this year The Year of The Asshole. |
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Show me True Dominance and I will show you True Submission. |
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I gave you all of me, you fed my desire, you enabled my addiction, then you gave all the parts you took from and threw them back at me, yet now I feel I have gained nothing and lost everything. you were my stability, my strength, my desire, my lust. You brought peace to my otherwise chaotic life.
I want that back, I don't need it but I want it.Do not walk away from the best thing that could happen to the both of us. (apart from our kids)
You keep your word and I'll keep mine.
And when you say your going to call...fucking call.
I've stayed up until 6 a.m. for the past 4 nights waiting for your call....at least flick me a god damn text once in a while, is that too much too ask? |
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And a ray of hope is born |
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I'm falling, and not gracefully. It feels like a nightmare but its worse because I'm awake. The pain isn't easing...Its only getting worse.
The one time i didn't set up a safety net is the one time I really needed one.
Either He didn't know how much He mattered to me, or he knew and just didn't care as much as he might've.
I wish he'd given me more time...Some people would say he's the one who lost...they are wrong I lost and now I am lost.
The path used be so well lit...now I'm back to stumbling in the dark.
Some throw me a glow stick or a torch, a match or something.
That light at the end of the tunnel...Is the headlamp of an oncoming train. |
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LMAO i NEARLY PISSED MYSELF LAUGHING http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5K1RcKJVbHA |
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Life is back to normal :)
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FUck FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!
My Owner has been arrested, I don't know whats going on. I've puked twice and still in the process of trying not to have a complete panic attack.
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It's more than love. It's need. It's obsession. I have to have you, no matter what the cost. |
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Been staring at my phone for the past hour, mentally screaming "RING MOTHERFUCKER RING!!!!!" |
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- I'm a Gold Medalist Holder in Placer - Bridger
LMAO!!!!!
best laugh I've had today |
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if i'm as strong as you say i am why do have insecurities? Why is it even after you've told me you won't leave do i still worry so much that you will?
I want to believe everything you say, but my heart is afraid of being broken.
I don't serve with just my mind, i serve with my heart as well. I know what it means to be completely devoted and dedicated to someone. Which is why i have insecurities. All i need is for you to bare with me until you banish those away. I certainly hope you stay, like you say you will. |
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All that has been taken, all that has been stolen, is still mine, I'm just renting it to you, its up to me when the lease is up. |
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Do you have any idea how hard it is not to blab on about how much you wish you were with them?
How much you crave their touch on your skin?
How you would give almost anything to be in the same room as them?
It is extremely hard not press the issue.
I need him like I need air.
He's as significant as air; only unimportant when i'm not getting it, and I need it to survive.
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Respect the woman, desire the slut and cherish the little girl. Then You have the mind, the body and the soul
I actually think this holds more weight than people give credit for |
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Paint me blue and change my name to Felatio smurf |
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Take the mind first the body will follow forever.
Take the body first and the mind will run forever. |
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COZ I COULD
SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One (November 22 to December 21) Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offence forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying
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You never cause me stress.
Distress is a whole other matter :D |
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Very very few can go toe to toe with me and come out on top. You made the game enjoyable again. In the past week you have taught me so much, and I've absorbed every word. You weren't lying when you told me you built Strong Units. But as I've said to You before, soon you will build me up so strong that not even you will be able to tear me down and on that day I will have won, like I usually do. |
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I want you to lust me.
I want you to need me
I want you to crave me
I want you to show me things I never thought existed.
I want you to lead me into the darkness, so deep that it envelopes us both.
I want you to love me
I want you to desire me
I want you to destroy me
I want to be the one you rebuild
I want to be a staple in your diet.
I want to be everything you want
I want to be everything you need
I want to be the light in your darkness
I want to be the one you go to when you have a problem
I want to be the one you confide in
I want to be everything to you |
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I wonder if you think about me as often as I think about you
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It feels nice to have purpose again.
To feel needed, appreciated.
It brings me great comfrot that i can enlighten someones day just by being myself, to not have to hold back.
Its comforting to know that I have met me who truely enjoys who I am and what i stand for.
I am greatful for the opportunity to be able to give everything I have yet it still seems like nothing.
To have a connection with someone who makes you feel alive just by breathing the same air.
Although being held up so high makes a fall all the more scarier.
Please don't let me fall.
I've never been one to have someone else hold me up. But with you, everything seems right, even the things that intrensically wrong.
Please don't take advantage of what you have found and opened up inside me.
To You i would never give it all but its good to know that if you wanted my all, you could take it so easily.
You enjoy the fighter in me, You craver her, you crave who I am and what i stand for.
Again, please don't let this fighter crash and burn, Like so many have let happen before you. |
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Come as soon as you get a cam everyone expects you to get naked infront of them?
Its called Modesty and Intergrity. I have it. |
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Don't you love that enlightened feeling when you finally start playing and dealing with someone on your own level. |
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Why is it some Dominants/Masters don't like submissives/slaves who have a self esteem and respect for themselves.
I don't see the appeal in Dominating something that rolls over when its told to, where is the challenge in that?
Wouldn't in be more satisfying to have a woman who is strong and independant relinquish control of herself to you?
I am a submissive Alpha Female. What does that mean?
It means I will not have my will bent by some dimwitted, muscled up jerk who can't put together a full sentence. I am strong, I am defiant, I am independant and I will not settle for someone who is beneath me mentally.
Being physically Dominant towards me is only %25 of what it takes to control me.
I am smart and intelligent as if your a dumbass and can only think with your cock, then I am better than you, I am strong than you and I will NOT give up control to you.
It takes more than brawn to control my brain.
Sure muscles and tattooes maybe the attraction but its not going to keep me at your feet. It isn't all about you, it isn't all about me. Its about us and how we can fulfill the void we each have in our lives, Mentally and Physically. |
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A real Master is one who inspires submission from one who is strong in her identity, personality and sense of self.
Having heard that, I say Nobody will ever take my submission the only way they have it is if I give it to them |
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How do I determin Dominance?
Its in His voice, Its in His eyes and its in His attitude. |
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Does every man want to make a porno or is just the guys I sleep with?
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LMD tidbit #2
Don't spank me if you plan on apologising for the handprints you leave, its extremely off putting. And it ruins the illusion that you actually had control of me. |
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info tidbit from LMD #1
Just like you can't make a ho a housewife you can't turn a man-whore into a husband. |
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I'm taking a LONG Hiatus, cheers to my friends, I'll chat with you in a few months time. |
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I am happy to announce that "period week" will now be called "blow job week" |
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Happy Bday to me :D
23 :P |
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Master has asked me to search for another girl to play with us.
You would be played with, but you would also be expected to help out by taking photos and helping me worship Masters cock, as well as doing duties that come with being a slave. It will be fun and exciting, just know that i am Masters number 1 girl, you will be number 2, you must understand this as its imperitive that you don't get idea's above your station |
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and just like that the bubble is popped |
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My Master made sex special again, and that is the deepest feeling i've felt so far |
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when something is already established it makes life so mucg better, i know my rules, my goals and my expectations that are required of me for me to be at my best.
I feel that i have reached a point of completely clarity.
If this relationship ends i will forever be greatful for the new experiences and life lessons but mostly i will be thankful for having been given the chance to show my true self to someone who understood and more significantly appreciated what i have to offer. Also given, for lack of a better word training, training to make me a better slave and overall a better person.
In the very short time i had the priveledge to be under my Masters roof. during that time i never felt scared, afriad, or used in a bad way. I never felt confused or unheard.
Fir me this is what i've always been looking for, its simple, it feels natural. It is perfect.
-Don't think, don't question, don't pause.
Just have faith and trust in Master, because its all about him.
Pleasing him gives me a feeling of please that can never be surpassed.
The 4 days had absolutely been amazing.
My master made me feel completely free even when i was tied up, the photos will always be a reminder of the control he had over me.
I put all my faith, trust and belief in him, and i wasn't let down.
He made me feel used but still wanted, useless yet still needed.
From him i learnt the true meaning of the word toy, and i will forever be thankful for it.
I honestly believe that i wouldn't've beem able to experience the things i did if had chosen anybody else to serve.
To him i give my all, there will never be any confusion as to what my role in life is now that He is in it.
Growing up o always thought the word 'i love you' were the words i wanted to hear from the main man in my life but now i will be just as, for lack of a better word, chuffed (lol) with the words 'good girl' or even better 'good slave'.
The praise and attention i get from him will always mean the world to me. |
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The definition of a toy, it gets played with when the owner wants to, when the owner doesn't want to play with the toy the toy is put down, if the toy is lucky the owner will put it where he can still see it, if the toy is valuable the owner will never forget about it. The toy is an object for use, it isn't loved but it is cared for and at times needed. The toy is an object, a plaything for amusement and stress relief, the toy exists to make the owner happy, that is its only duty, its only purpose. I am a very lucky toy |
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The smallest things can feel like such an achievement, tonight was one of those things, I felt so comfortable, so relaxed, i wasn't nervous or stressed out like I thought i would be.
the devotion and admiration i feel for my Master is never ending. He makes me feel like my submission is important and apprieciated, There is no better feeling...well there will be in a weeks time :D |
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A Milestone...never thought i would get through one of those, turns out i did and i am a better slave for it. I give all my appreciation to My Lord for giving me the confidence to get me through it, He truely is the best man alive.
He helped me prove my dedication to him, and i thank him deeply for it. Thank You My Lord, you truely are my God. |
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To find someone you've been looking for can be a wonderous thing. To feel as dedicated and fullfilled as i do is amazing, its so elating. My feelings, emotions, actions and drives are now on the same path, the path to My New Master Jake, he is my God, my saviour, my One. Never have i felt such a strong determination to serve and behave as i do towards him, never have i felt the need to better myself to strive towards excellence. To make him proud to call me his slave, his property. I am and forever will be eternally greatful to have such a man in my life, i am determined to serve his cock, and obey him. To worship them both equally as my striving life force, every drop of His cum is a blessing to me. He is my God i am His slave, his cock is my place of worship and this is something nobody will ever be able to take away from me, there is not one person on this earth alive or dead who could shake the faith, love and affection I have for My God, My Master, my reason for existance. |
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i was just thinking (as i do lol)
If a millionare comes up to you and tells you he/she wants to take care of you, buy you things and give you everything you wanted, wouldn't you test them for the first few days at least?
Wouldn't you look at the way they dressed and carried themselves? Wouldn't you look at their watch and what kind of car they drove?
of course you'd ask how they came to be a millionare but as i said wouldn't you test them?
Let me know if anyone gets the metaphore i'm trying to get across |
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Pathetic Impotent Maladjusted Pig
LMAO!!!! |
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yay just ordered my tail :D yay me |
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so its three a.m. in the morning, my tooth is driving me crazy and I can't sleep, eh what am I going to do? :(
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oh my god i have never felt this horny in ages, god i'd give anything to have a cock up my ass or jammed down my throat! |
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ever felt the ambiguation of shame and pride? I have :P |
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son of a bitch he mind raped me...i have one chat with him and he makes my mind his bitch...oh well good thing he hasn't texted me this morning....oh Otis you still enthrall me, mental mind games are exciting and intruiging. I am still peeling of the sticky postits from my brain.
Good thing i'm mentally strong or i would be so screwed lol |
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so freaking bored so anyone wanna take me to a bar and get a drink, or give me $30 so i can get a pack of smokes?
I'm up for anything, well not anything, just drinks and a chat lol |
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Looking for something very specific completely not D/s related well it might but thats up to you.
Online Roleplay - must be detailed, precise, plausable and realistic
I will be a werewolf pup you will be a Vampire. You will kidnap me, use me, abuse me, if possible be just like James out of twilight, if you do not know do not ask. |
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Fuck You Centerlink, Fuck You Newcastle Bus Service and Fuck You rain! |
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Criss Angel would be my ultimate Dom |
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I'm sure anothere psychotic, creepy guy will eventually cross my path again, it only took 7 years for the first one, so god knows how longs its going to take to find another
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I curled up on the bed, my face still stinging my eyes puffy and red from crying.
my fear had subsided but my pain hadn't. He said he would be back, i didn't doubt that at all.
I decided I wouldn't be here if he did, I grabbed my room key and headed out, in my panic i accidently ran on to the road and got hit by a car. The end |
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international flight, i didn't like flying to being with so this was a big step. I boarded the plane and to my seat next to a window. the flight took forever, it seemed like eternity, little did I knoew that my fun vacation was going to be the turning point of my existance. I landed in California, it was just how it looked in the postcards, blue skys sand beaches and the nice heat of the sun. i hailed a cab and headed to my hotel, i got out of the cab and headed into my prebooked hotel room. I was planning on going to go see the sights and get used to that amazing american accent. The was a knock at my door, i though it might've been room service. It wasn't. This was the moment that changed my life, my role and my perspective. standing in the door way was a 6ft2 muscular man. a shiver ran down my spine. cruel, unforgiving brown eyes. a tattoo high on his right bicep. Rex. my mouth and throat went dry, this was the beginning of the end. he walked past me and I shut the door, my hand along with my entire body was shaking, just his very presence made me feel weak, i was not prepared, i was not in the right head space, I had come to California as a pit stop before i was heading to Atlanta to catch up with friends. I was not expecting Him. after my initial shock wore off i wondered how on earth he knew where to find me...I mentally slapped myself, facebook, my blog, anywhere online i frequented, i had told just about everyone where I was going, where i would be staying, i remember the last message i sent to him was "who knows, we might run into each other lol" laugh at loud? not now. I remember the conversations we used to have, it all surrounded one thing, I needed him, I wanted him, i craved him. i often whined that i would never be able to feel his grip on my neck or his belt on my back. I bite my lip, i knew i was going to feel his hands, his feet, his belt and anything other impliment he decided to use. The fear felt so strong now I thought I was going to be sick, you never really know how big 6ft3 is until its towering over you with a smile that scare the shit out satan himself. I was in trouble, i knew he knew it and he was relishing it. He could sense my fear, hell i wasn't doing very well at hiding it. my fear had added fuel to what was already a very open hot flame that was spurring on his need to hurt, to inflict pain, to listen to the helpless screams of his victim. my fight or flight instinct had well and truely kicked in, the door was shut and I knew with his physique that his reflexes seriously outdid my own. I wanted to run, hide. but my brain kept me rooted to the spot i watched him. This was a dangerous man, I knew it, and yet i still came to California because my brain wanted to face this, but now that he was right there infront of me, i wished that I had gone straight to Atlanta...too late now. In a flash his hand was around my throat cutting off my right to breath, he literally picked me up my throat and threw me onto the double bed, i was in shock. I scooted up to the very top of the bed, my heart was beating in my throat. he stood at the foot of the bed and surveyed his new victem, he was going to enjoy stripping me of everything i had, my mental state, my beliefs, my morals, and my sense of being human. He grabbed both my ankles and pulled me down to the end of the bed and grabbed me by my throat, he had already worked out that it was the quickest way to immobilize me. He slapped me across the face, i let out a loud yelp and tried to sheild myself but it was pointless, he just grabs both my hands with one of his and pinned my legs to the edge of the bed with his weight and continued to slap me, it wasn't long before i was in tears, sobbing uncontrolably, my face was so sore and red, it felt like my lip had been split. he then told me to stay where I was and that he would be back, then he left, closing the door behind him, this was only the start. What had just happened was a mere fairy tale compared to what was to come in the coming months. Soon i would truely know what it meant to be a painwhore. |
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Funny how speaking to someone new can bring up old memories, old fantasies and even reignite something inside of you that you thought you had lost.
Reconnecting with something that was so close to your core being can rock you to the very center of your psychi.
It has certainly taken me for a spin. my brain doesn't know up from down but it knows right from wrong
In my mind Dreams and Nightmares have become one. its like standing on the side of a boat and ahead of me is a shark cage with a great white circling it..should I jump in and feel the rush or stay on the boat and miss out..fuck it I'm gonna jump in. |
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how come everytime I follow an order I immediately get ignored? I mean what the hell?!?!?!
FFS if you want to run my life do it...don't leave me hanging wondering what the hell I should do next |
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I understand why women seek rape...what they really want to experience is brute force...the more serious side of rough sex...I don't think most comprehend that rape doesn't mean being taken by a 6ft2 strappingly handsome man.....rape usually comes from either seedy men who haven't had a shower in days...or worse overweight nasty men, its never what they choose or imagine Rape isn't a choice, its a crime. Rough sex on the other hand can have the illusion but the one key difference is the girl gets to choose who takes her that way. |
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just got an interesting message...I would like to restate my opinion...there is no such thing a sane, happy slave...in my book body mutation (not modification) isn't sane |
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my mind is as deep as the deepest ocean, yours is as deep as the fish bowl in my bedroom |
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just my brain ticking over again, I've come to the realization that these days there is no such thing as a slave. if I go by everyone's definition of a slave, a slave has no limits...well I've yet to meet anyone who doesn't have at least one limit.
Limits are completely reasonable. But to say you have no limits is absolute crap. Even the most discusting shit that not even the nastiest fucker out there would do is still considered a limit. EVERYONE has a limit, therefore the is no such thing as a slave.
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It takes more than you have to tame me, deal with it.
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Choke me
Spank me
Pull my hair
Tell me what a naughty girl I am if you dare.
Strip me
Flog me
Sweep me off my feet
These are the days I will find complete
Love me
Adore me
Cherish me
Because with out you I can never be all I can be |
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getting into DaddyDom/Daughter fetish, I find intruiging since I never had a father who was around to raise me |
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Strip me and whip me And tear me apart Pull down the walls of this black broken heart Thrill me and grill me And tell me I rock Rip out the throats of the ones that we mock Laugh at me joke at me Call me your names I cant be fucked with your childish games Tempt me and tease me And tie me in chains Run away looking for someone to blame Undress me caress me Suck out my soul When we are done well no longer be whole Stroke me and choke me Stop up my air Tie me with razor wire to a chair Wrap me and slap me Please just make me moan Do me and dump me on the devils throne Cut me you prick And suck my blood dry What ever you do make sure that I cry My pain is my your pleasure You make me so weak But youre the only person who ever loved this freak undo my shoes Come on now babyWe've got nothing to lose!
Sticks and stonesmay break my bones,but whips and chains excite me.So throw me down,tie me up,and show me how much you like me! |
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Courtesy of Speak People who say nothing is impossible have obviously never tried to slam a revolving door |
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People who say nothing is impossible have obviously never tried catching air in a net
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people who say nothing is impossible have obviously never tried to staple jelly to a tree. |
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He came to me one night. Explored my body, licked, sucked, swallowed! When satisfied, he left & I was hurt!!... Fu*king mosquito! |
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over the past few months I feel that I have grown up considerablely, Things that I used to find funny i now find them silly and immature, I think I'm moving into a new phase in my life, taking things more seriously and paying attention to what people really have to say and thinking about it before I give my opinion. I think its for the best, I still enjoy the fun stuff like whipped cream in a can and laughing at people when they hurt themselves so maybe I haven't changed that much but I do think Im getting more mature, but I'll let the people who know me be the judge of that. |
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Happy birthday to me :D 22 today |
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I can see why outsiders would see bdsm as just "kinky sex". I was talking with a friend about puppy play not long ago and my version of puppy play differed from his (each to their own) My Version of puppy play is me being a puppy, being in the headspace of a puppy, having fun chasing things barking and actually thinking that I am physically a pup. not showing my pussy on command, I like puppy play in its literal sense not as a kinky prelude to sex. just my opinion. Puppy play is a mental release for me, where I am able to forget about "human" worries, I'm only a puppy for maybe 20 mins if that, at a time because real life beckons, so when I am a puppy, I'm not a human dressed up as a puppy so a bloke can fuck a girl in a puppy suit.
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Just got out of hospital, spent a week in the frickin place, I got an infection then got gastro, now my hearts on fritz apparently ffs, this bitch just can't get a break |
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how come everytime I hear the words "that is all for now" it reminds me of being a minion in an evil lair that is trying to take over the world?
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I just found this while profile surfing, it made me wet instantly, it worries me lol
"One of my favorite things to do is to put one hand firmly against a woman's throat the other stroking her hair while we kiss deeply and then I slowly pull my lips away and assert "come get it, slut!" so she has to lean forward and choke herself against my firmly planted hand to get a kiss."
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After looking at a lot of profiles on here i find it strange that most people's opening line runs along the lines of " I don't really know what to put here" Or "I hate filling these things out"
The reason I find it strange is because I always thought BDSM was about communication, how can you say you know what your doing when you can't fill out a simple box describing yourself and what you want? |
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“I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
Marilyn Monroe |
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this is my last night on line for two weeks, if you have anything to say to me, say it now.
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God its annoying when you have to get something done yet people keep on interupting
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I ate too many fish fingers Bleh
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ever sneezed so hard you could swear to jeebus that the two halves of your brain were on opposite walls? its a strange feeling
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well I am proud to announce that my few weeks turned into a few months because shit hit the fan when I moved to my granddad's. his new woman kicked me out, I was homeless for two weeks then moved to Belmont through department of housing, stayed there for 2 and a half months, then moved to my current location two weeks ago and thanks to my room mate got the internet today, and thats what's been going on |
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Wont be online for few weeks moved back home
peace out!!
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Ok I leave at 4:30 Am, moving to Newcastle, stressed as hell, first time flying alone.
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Don't you think that if in a Dominant's profile they say that they are trying their hand at submission, that they should change their complete profile status by identifying themselves as a switch? food for thought.
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The move has been cancelled due to stupidity and poor planning on my part.
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R.I.P Devil my pet snake.
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Life is a sexually transmitted disease with a 100% mortality rate.
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Moving to Newcastle at the end of June.
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Looking for a man to help bring out my inner Puppy.
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Lets hear it for all the men who walked out of my life, due to my own stupidity! YAY!
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You had it, you lost it, you will never hear my voice, see my face or read my words ever again
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The doctors worked out how I got the infection, I had a miscarriage. just so ya'll know I don't want to talk about it
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Just an update on my physical health, I feel so weak that it takes a large effort just to get out of bed :(
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Well I was back in the emergency room last night because I was in pain, I still feel nauseous. the problem was that I had infection fluid in my womb, and after going back to the hospital I also have another UTI, so my life isn't going all that well at the moment :(
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Just got out of hospital, I have been in there for the past 3 days, I'm sick so I won't be on here all the time like I usually am.
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I just had someone have a go at me about my religion, Yes I know Wicca and Satanism are two different things! Wicca has been around way longer than Christianity, and Satanism is a way of life for me, if you honestly can't accept that then stay away from me and DON'T YOU DARE have a go at me for what I believe in!
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I want to go to New York, I want to see the tall buildings and the way the city lights up at night....ahhh dreams of being in the Big City.
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Oh MY GOD, People please, I am a submissive! I am not a slave! it says it on my profile, Submissive me...say it with me boys a girls. S-U-B-M-I-S-S-I-V-E One more time kidlets just so it sinks in. S-U-B-M-I-S-S-I-V-E
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The funny thing is, You reminded me of my father, it ended the same way too, we would still be talking if you were mature enough to actually talk it through with me.
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I am so sick of everyone's shit, fuckin men playin me, or telling me how to live my life when I haven't even verbally spoken to them. If You can't handle the fucking facts that, yeah I am a bitch, But I'm not your bitch, yeah I am defiant, but if you can' handle it then stay the fuck away from me, I don't want you in my life, I don't need you in my life. I am not here for you to dump all your personal problems on, I don't want to hear if you've had a bad day and you want to take it out on me, I am not your punching bag. if you don't have the decency for after care after you send my self esteem through the floor then I don't even want you near me.
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Its really upsetting when the people you thought cared about you, turn their backs on you when you need the most.
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Face it, You couldn't dominate me more than you could dominate that cheese sandwich.
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OMFG I have never been this horny in my life, its fucking rediculous!
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I am in such a good mood. BEST DREAM EVER!
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Still suffering from the mandatory 2:30 AM horny fit
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Its funny that when we find what have always wanted that we start second guessing ourselves wondering if we really are strong enough to take what life has given us, and by we and us I mean me.
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currently going through a madatory 2:30 AM uncontrollable horny fit
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Daddy's little girl??? nah That was my sister....I was the one they didn't want
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I'm not a slave, I will never be a slave, I am a submissive, age only determins how long we've been on the planet not our level of maturity. Age should have nothing to do with BDSM unless your older than my mother..then thats just creepy...yes I am a hypocrite
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Life is interesting....not really.
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Did you know there is only 5 Under 40 African American Doms in the whole of Australia on here? its fricken rediculous!
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To be Controlled, To have myself put in my place by any means necessary, through words and actions, commands and demands. To be Protected, To Know that I am in safe hands at all times even when doing the most dangerous things like fire play or knife play, Also to be stood up for when I can't stand up for myself. To be Used, To be used as an object whether it be a foot stool, a maid or a sex slave. To Be Abused, For the pleasure of the sadistic ones, to gladly be able to take pain in order to please others.
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I am soo Horny I'm like beyond on horny. I need sex, I need it so bad!
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I'm not a fucking photographer! I have a few pics thats it! be happy with that or don't bother to contact me, I don't feed the trolls!
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A good summary for Collarme.com
Said by Projectevo5 This is teh intarwebz. Where boys are men, women are men, and dateless nerds are now level 99 wizards, or in the case of CM, extremely experienced dominants.
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Why the fuck doesn't anyone know who Foamy is?!
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The walls that had fallen around me have now been rebuilt. I have, once again, sealed myself with a fortress waiting for my knight to come and free me.
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Mmmm a nice mug of hot chocolate, watching the time in North Carolina.
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I've come to a realization...Switches irritate me. in my opinion a switch is someone who sits on the fence, in my book You can only be one or the other. You can never really Dominate anyone if you have a tendency to be submissive, and you can never really submit to someone if you have a tendency to Dominate. Now this is just my opinion. Switch might work for you but it doesn't work for me, if you want to dominate me, PLEASE! PLEASE be a dominant! not a switch and certainly not a sub/slave. Male Supremacy is where I stand, hate or love it. I just love the thugs...not the pimps mind you but the thugs, you know the street talking, pants around the ass and that hard ass beat the cops attitude...mmm gotta get me some of that!and my pet peeve for the day is white boys trying to act like black men, I mean what the hell? bloody dumbshits
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