springtime, and soon it will be warm enough to take someone out into the forest preserve and throw them down in the mud and the leaves and ride their face until I am satisfied, and if they are really a good boy maybe I will bend them over a tree and take them with my harness.

Are you mine

Kneel before me
Endure for me
Scream for me
Bleed for me
Show me your worth
Protect me
Please me
Impress me
Bare your soul for me
Trust in me
Feel my claws on your back
Feel my teeth on your throat
Growl and show me your teeth back
Challenge me
Lose yourself in the pleasure of my touch
Lose yourself in the pain of my blade
Find peace at my feet
Find pride on my arm
Know you are wanted, cherished & loved
Know you belong only to me

I enjoy a great variety of play and sex, but above all I love role play.  Not all the time of course, sometimes we have to take off our masks and just be people but sometimes you can go places in character that you can't go as easily as yourself.  If you can be in character, if you can believe it then i will believe it too and we can have fantastic adventures together.

the best way to find the dominant woman of your dreams is to get out from behind the computer.  Tonight (saturday JAN 11th) I will be out at a slosh (a kinky social gathering) at Crave Bar and grill in arlington heights, in the upstairs room.  Starts at nine goes till two  The only expense is whatever food and drink you order  there is no play, it's just a chance to get out and meet other people with your interests in a safe environment.  Come say hi.

looking thru the emails I receive, sweet darling boys please do not contact me unless you are looking for flesh and blood real time relationships, I get so many messages and so little follow up

I am getting ready to leave for an event tonight.  While I am traveling with friends I am sad to be going yet again unescorted.  Where is my devoted Paladin to help me pack, to carry my bags, to entertain me in the dungeon and warm my bed at night?  sigh

I arrive at the scheduled time, he's left his door unlocked for me so I let myself in.  He is naked and kneeling on the floor, blonfolded.  I walk up quietly and touch him, he jumps.  "It's just me boy" I say.  He istantly calms at the sound of my voice.  It isn't going to remain just me, and he knows that.  The doorbell rings and I slip earmuffs on him before I answer.  He is now unable to see or clearly hear who is in the room with us, or even how many.  I chat pleasantly with my guests as I push the boy down into position.  I can feel his muscles tense, he is nervous maybe even afraid but he knows its my hands on him and obeys.  A girlfriend of mine gloves up and enters his tighter than usual asshole.  "Relax boy" I say loudly close to the earmuff so he can hear me.  He is stiff as steel, I pull one side off his ears and whisper "I will not leave you, relax".  He does, a bit, as she works him a bit, warming up his hole.

Now he feels someone kneel behind him and a hard cock presses against his hole.  I wonder ifhe can tell its flesh not silicone, but it doesnt matter I steady his shoulders and he is entered with out any idea of by whom.  My guest fucks him hard and fast, grabbing his hips with strong hands leaving no doubt in the boys mind that this is another man fucking him, for my amusement, for all of our amusement.  I am sitting in front of the boy, my hands on his shoulders as a silicone cock replaces the flesh one, hand held so again he has no real idea of who might be holding it.  I step away from him and he tenses, but doesn't move.  The flesh cock that was in his ass is now pressed to his lips and he understands and eagerly begins sucking, now another takes him with a harnessed dildo, a good sized one and with no mercy.  He is sandwiched between them, desperately trying to please both, and then again a switch, another flesh cock in his ass. 

The evening continues one after another, some flesh some silicone, he's not sure how many there have been, if its a few repaeting or a line of hard cocks filling his greedy ass over and over.  Cocks filling his mouth, the smell of sex filling his nose. 

I can see he is becomeing exhausted so I push him down flat on his stomach and lie ontop of him.  I use him as a pillow, a prop while I have my own fun with some of this lovely cock in the room, gripping him with my sharp nails as I cum.

Finally everyone has had their fill, and I say my thank yous and goodnights and show my guests out.  He is still laying on the floor, covered in sweat & lube.  I take off his earmuffs, and after lowering the light his blindfold.  He blinks and greatfully takes the water I offer.  After a few minutes he asks meekly,"how many?"  I smile and simply tell him "enough"  perhaps I will let him know at some point but for tonight, he has no idea, he was my hole, my nameless faceless hole, offered up to my friends as a party favor.  I can see he's wondering if it was people he knows, how many men, how many women.  But he doesn't ask anymore questions, he curls up beside me and lays his head in my lap.  "thank you, my Lady" he say.  "you were a good boy, and you're very welcome" I reply.  I am humbled by his trust in me.

He doesn’t normally submit, but he needs to and he trusts me.  I don’t order him to strip as I’d usually do with my boys; I let him take his time.  As I fasten him to the cross I ask if he is comfortable, I can feel his tension.  I start by touching him, just touching my fingers, my hands down his back over his ass, feeling, sensing the skin and the restraint underneath.  I grab a soft flogger, deerskin, its sensual in its touch and I wield it accordingly.  I wake up the skin, bring the blood to the surface, and bring up the heat, the emotion.  He is silent, unmoved.  I switch to the elk, thicker, thuddy something he can feel echo thru him, a light stroke followed by a heavier one, and then a heavier one still.  In between I touch, I feel, my hand is cool on warmer skin, soft and caressing in between the thud of the flogger.  Still he is silent.  I move to the bullhide, hard with no give and this one brings pink into red, but no discernible marks, not yet.  I vary my speed my intensity hard then less so, always touching in between, always keeping that connection.  He grunts with the hits now, more from the impact than any real pain, and there is sweat with the heat.  I drop the flogger and press myself to his back , my hands around gripping his chest.  “Will you break for me?”  No answer.  I grab a cane, and tap tap tap his ass.  A little harder, then a little softer, touching, pinching in between.  He jumps at the harder strokes.  And in the grunts I hear the anger, the pain, not what I’m inflicting but what he came to me to release.  Its holding firm, it has no intention of leaving.  I hit harder and growl in his ear “Will you break for me?”   “Fuck you?” not yet, no not yet.  It time to change things up, and the bucket of ice I have brought holds just the thing, a flogger made of ball chain.  I don’t hit with it, I just drag it over his back, his ass, over the heated skin.  I swear I can hear it sizzle.  The slap, an open palm hit, to the ass, to the shoulder.  Icey metal and then my very warm hand, slap, sting, slap.  He jumps in earnest now, pulling against the bonds.  Swearing at me, angry but not enraged.  “Will you break for me?”  “Bite me” wrong answer, and I do.  I bite hard.  Sharp teeth into tender flesh.  I bite, and I scratch and he screams. “ Break for me” I say with a hand on his throat.  “Never” no implements now, just me, my hands, my fists, my fingernails.  He shakes the cross trying to get lose, I press my body to him “Let go” then I punch, I hit I pinch “let go” his words make no sense, incoherent, anger, and fight.  “Let go , I will catch you”  and I hit, and I slap and I grab his throat and bite his shoulder and he does, he falls.  Into my arms, its an inch maybe two that his actual body drops, but I can feel the release, the weight as it settles against me.  I am flooded with the honor of this submission, of this total trust, and then I hear it the sobbing, the pain, releasing, gone, let go.  “I have you, let it all go”  he sinks even more into me and every muscle it seems relaxes, the cross holds us up and I hold him, I hold him and let him cry.  It’s only a few moments before he can stand and I release the bonds, we settle on the floor and he lays his head in my lap.  No words are needed,   We stay there for a while, quiet, safe.  “That was what I needed” he tells me.  “I took courage” I say, “It took trust”  he smiles.  We may not talk about it again, but it was amazing and I was happy to help.

its a goreous summer day and a friend has invited me over for the afternoon, we relax a bit in the pool and then he grills us up some lunch.  We chat about control and pleasure, both of us are tops but each exploring different ways of seeing the other side.  For me it is to give up control, not something I often do.  We talk about liits, likes and desire and then head down into hi dungeon, we both strip out of our swimwear and I get up on the table, a large bondage table with attachment points and a bar above with thigh straps.  I do not want to be bound but I am okay with the thigh straps, so i lay back on the cool vinyl and let me legs rest in the straps.  He stands for what feels like an eternity staring at me, open and exposed.  then he starts to cares my pussy with a gloved hand, slowly tenderly touching every inch of me.  "do you taste as good as you look?" he asks and before I can answer his tounge traces the path of his fingers, and his fingers begin to explore me inside.  I am greatful for the thigh straps and now think maybe restraint would have been a good idea as my body seems to squirm against my will.  I am panting and moaning in time with his more rapid flicks of the tounge.  then he reaches into the box of toys and removes the Njoy pure wand, its cold and heavy and as it enters me I scream as it almost instantly makes me cum. he move it back and forth against my G spot while continuing to show my clit no mercy with his tounge and is that teeth I feel, so gently nibbling at me?  Another orgasm rocks me, and before I can tap out for a rest a third.  I am screaming and writhing in exctasy as he changes to a dildo, the softer silicone allowing him to thrust hard and deep without hurting me.  He bites my thighs and hips and I swear i hear him growling as I cum again and again. 

He releases my now limp legs from the harnesses and rolls me onto my stomach, I have no resistance left to offer but as all I am receiving is pleasure why would I want to.  He reaxhes under me and raises me up onto my knees, squeezing and kneaading my breasts.  I can feel the heat of his body above/behind me and then he begins to bite my neck and shoulders.  Deep powerful bites that I can feel all thru me.  I orgasm from the biting alone but I want more and I buck my hips back so he knows.  He starts to enter me, but so slowly, so terribly wonderfully slowly it feels as if I am being filled to the brim.  Then back out, slow and delberate he begins to fuck me.  deep and hard but never fast enough, and I find myself whimpering, pleading without words.  I am not one who begs bt if I could find language i just might right now.  Deep strokes, hard bites and strong hands bracing my shoulders keeping me from buckking and changing th speed.  The tease becomes to much and he rear back gripping my hips and fucking furiously.  I have lost track of how many times I have cum, lost track of everything and anything, I just feel.  at some point he cums with  roar but i am in a bit of a blur and when he releases my hips I collapse into a pile of cum and happy. 

I guess giving up control isn't so bad, once in awhile

the boy has been good lately and tonight i offer hima treat, my hubby and his girl will be joining us to play.  He answers the door naked and I walk in, followed by the two of them.  I can see he is both suprised and pleased but he says nothing, good boy.  We sit and chat for a bit all of us, as I lay out the toys.  Our girl has been curious about fisting and asks if the boy will be able to take her hands, which are very small.  I say I do believe he will and She & I begin fingering his greedy ass hole warming him up.  Hubby doesn't wish to be left out and walks over the the boys face and smacks him with his dick. "its not gonna suck itself" he says and the boys begins eagerly slurping away while us gals each insert gloved and lubed fingers deep inside him. He gets a nice motion, back and forth sucking and being fingered and we now each have two fingers in him, pulling in either direction making his hole start to gape.  He moans as we curl our fingers back and forth hitting every sensitive nerve he has.  Lets see what you can handle boy I tell him and step back to watch as she slides her four fingers in, slowly so slowly and then out and then back but this time with her thumb, she moves at a snails pace pulling on his balls with her other hand.  I can see him tense with anticipation, whimpering around a very happy dick.  finally her entire hand is in, she turns it a bit from side to side.  small motions feel intense and she doesn't have to do much to make him squirm.  his enjoyment must be improving his prefomance as hubby starts to moan appreciatively.  watching this makes me far to hot to stand around so I shed my clothes and we reposition.  I lay on the bed, the boy on all fours beside me, I work his ass and balls with my hands as our girl get between my legs and begins to pleasure me with her very skilled tongue and my favorite toy, hubby gets behind her and begins to fuck her and we all move in time with each other. 

I put a nice size plug in the boys hole to free up my hand for his dick, no gentle hand job here I pull and twist it, smacking his balls in time with whats happening to me.  He love rough CBT and the plug is hitting his P spot just right.  Its hard to focus as I am almost over whelmed by the amazing licking and toy fucking I am receiving and I can feel more than hear her moans of pleaure from what she's getting.  We move faster, harder in time with one another and the energy flowing between us all is almost tangible.  Waves of pleasure rise and swell over me and i can feel the boys balls pulling tighter and tighter.  Gripping her hips with almost feverish intensity hubby growls to us that its time and then we are there, all of us, cumming together, for what seems like forever.  We kind of collaspe for a bit into a puppy pile, sweaty satisfied and feeling like something truely special has just occured.

Sheepishly the boy pulls him self out from us and goes to get drinks, as we all start to recover he gathers up the toys to wash, and the used gloves and condoms to discard. 

Hubby and his girl thank him for a lovely time and kiss me goodbye, this has been a special treat for them as well.  the boy is happy but I want him to remember who he serves so I take his greedy hole a time or two more with my strap on before i allow him to dress me and make my good bye as well.  Sometimes three is a crowd but sometimes four is a party :)

"he lays on the table, naked and blindfolded.  he's so nervous I can almost taste it, and its adorable.  I hand him the contact probe for the violet wand.  'if at any point it gets to intense, simply drop this'  he nods and gulps.  i turn the wand on, you can hear it buzzing.  I run my finger up his thigh, the electricity arcs between us, he jumps but mostly from suprise.  At this setting it doesn't hurt at all, more like static that shock.  I continue to trace his smooth muscular body with my finger tips, almost tickling him with sparks.  I turn the power up just a bit, still not enought to hurt but much more attention getting.  I kiss him gently enjoying the sparks between our lips.  I run my hand down his chest just missing his cock and laughing as it almost jumps trying to feel my touch.  'patience boy'  I slip a satin glove over one hand so I can touch him with out spark and stroke his now pulsing cock.  I hold it firm with my gloved hand and bring my bare hand close enough to arc.  he whimpers but pushes into it. 'perhaps something more intense?' and before he can respond I have a metal banjo pick on my thumb, now the arc goes to metal and the sensation is almost like a whip, but it doesn't leave so much as a red mark so I know he's okay.  I run my electrified claw down his side and over his tensed thighs.  with my other hand I slip off the glove and grab the mylar flogger, so innocent without electricity it becomes almost alive with a charge.  gently, teasingly I tickle him with it.  he moans and I see a glisten of precum.  'so soon boy?' I encircle him with my hand not quite touching but allowing the electricty of the violet wand to stroke him.  'not until I say so"  I remind him, he wimpers a plea but I am not feeling generous.  The violet wand is so gentle and I promised realy electro torture tonight.  Do you know what this sound is I ask as I hold the stun gun up to his ear.  He jumps and I knwo he recognizes it from our negotiations earlier, he'd said it wasn't off limits but he really didn't want it.  I stroke him with my full hand now and I can feel him clench in an effort not to cum.  If you cum without permission I will put this to your balls boy, I can taste his terror, its delicious.  Ask for it on your thigh and you can cum, I stroke harder.  ask me to hit you with the stun gun in your thigh and you may cum.  I spit in my hand and now stroke him wet.  I can see the battle he's fighting with himself and I am so proud of his restraint, but i will win, I always win :) please he whispers breathlessly, please what boy, please ma'am hit me with the stun gun, are you sure, yes please ma'am please he hisses thru gritted teeth his orgasm seconds away.  okay boy CUM NOW and as I jam the stun gun into his thigh he releases, streams of hot cum covering us both.  I pull the stun gun away and he twitches in both pleasure and pain.  thank you, he breathes, thank you ma'am.  What a good boy, what a very good boy"

she's a cute little boi and I am trying her out, today she came over to play.  I start by ordering her to undress, nice and slowly.  Then I bend her over the table and run my hands, and just a little bit of finger nails over her back, ass and thighs.  I grip and pinch just enough to keep her from relaxing to much.  Then I put on my flogger gloves, a few gentle sweeps and we begin the warm up, nothing to intense just waking up the skin.  A nice pink backside wiggles in appreciation of my work.  Then I pull out a cane, a medium rattan, not terrible and I use it at only about half its strength.  a little harder with the lexan cane, and now I add an occasional slap to her very wet pussy.  She moans and pushes back into me.  I can feel the electricity in the air, and I like electricity so I plug in the violet wand and hand her the contact.  now as i trace my fingers over her sparks fly between us, a knife in my other hand intensifies the sensations and I scratch the word beautiful into her back.  and beautiful she is, struggling to hold still fighting her body to please me, so strong so lovely, I scratch the words strength just above her ass and begin fingering a now throbbing clit.  Turning off the wand as I grab my harness and lube my big pink strap on I ask if she's ready for me.  She's not used to penetration and whimpers just a little bit.  The fear is intoxicating, but i go slow, there's no need to rush, no need to break her.  I hold her hips and slowly work myelf all the way in, grinding my clit against the base of the strap on.  A little faster, then a little more, now we're both moaning and I grab the back of her neck and puh her face down into the table as we cum, me and then her almot together.  I let go and stumble back just a bit and she helps me to the couch.  "may i thank you?" she asks with eager and devoted eyes.  I slip off my harness and spread my legs as i lean back.  A greedy tongue licks and sucks at my clit while knowing fingers find my G spot.  My legs are over her shoulders as she kneels down on the floor infront of me, my black motorcycle boots digging just a bit into her back.  I squeeze with my thighs and grab her head pushing her face deeper into me, riding out orgasm after orgasm barely noticing that she is gasping for breath.  Finally I am satisfied and she can sit back and catch her breath.  "what a good Boi you are" I say with a sleepy happy smile.  She brings drinks and snacks in from the other room and settles next to me on the couch.  I wrap the blanket around us both while we recover and think this one may be a keeper.

"May we use sounds tonight Ma'am?"

certainly boy, I am always happy to consider his wishes when we play, even though ultimately it is about what I want.  So he lays back blindfolded and I take the new set of rosebud sounds out, he has my favorite music playing and i am happily fucking his dick with the small silver bulb on the end of the sound.  I need a better angle so I turn around and take him from the top, putting my kneees on either side of his head.  I move the lovely bulb in and out, enjoying how it looks entering his dick, and wishing he would get hard so I could climb on and get off.  His breathing picks up, I can't hear it but I can feel it, hot on my pussy.  Hmmmm since I'm there....  so I wiggle back and potion myself over his mouth and nose.  "get me off if you'd like to breathe boy" he begins to lick, eager and attentive while i slip the sound in and out of him.  He sucks my clit and sticks his tongue in and out of me.  I set the sound down and grab his balls and slightly more solid dick and squeeze them as I grind down on his face.  He's moaning underneath me, gasping for quick breaths as I writhe on him using his mouth as i please.   Now is the time I would wriggle down and ride his dick if it worked, but it is useless, to limp to please me.   I turn around and grip his head with my thighs.  Lick like you mean it boy! and he does, supporting me in his storng arms as I cum hard over his face.  He gently lifts me off of him finally able to take a full breath and thanks me for giving him my orgasm. 

A sip of my drink and we're ready to pull out the harness...

If only he was mine always, if only he fucked...

The perfect sub- 

the perfect sub will not submit to just anyone and understands the strenght it takes to kneel 

the perfect sub will be a happy self assured individual with a clear grasp of who they are 

the perfect sub will have interests beyond their kink 

the perfect sub will be as comfortable on my arm at a concert as under my heel in the dungeon 

the perfect sub will be someone whom I would call a friend even if they were not subbmissive to me 

the perfect sub will have needs and desires of their own, they will just be willing to put mine first 

the pefect sub will feel connected to me even if I can only physically see them once or twice a week 

the perfect sub will love me, know confidently that I love them and serve because they want to make my life easier, not for fear of rejection 

the perfect sub will accept punishment and correction in the constructive ad loving manner in which it is intended 

the perfect sub will have human frailties and flaws and understand that I will as well

the perfect sub will know that I have others in my life but feel secure knowing that thier place with me is unique and special 

the perfect sub will read this, smile and say yes that is me