Find me in the cam room perving
lol

Lifes a bitch but hey we all know this .

I just did the most amazing thing i was horny so i decided to use my bullet on my clit .
Then i was thinking about a play scence i had done playing at night just of the freeway but as i was thinking about Sir teasing and not letting me cum he made me beg him so much and the answer was no do not .
I changed his answer and was instantly cumming and the best one ever , took my mind and body so long to settle it ware me out for hours .

awesome

Is Master close to knocking on my door ?

I so do hope so .

Inside us there is something that has no name,
that something is what we are.
Jose  Saramago .

I need to find me an ongoing play partner but i want someone that keeps in touch , a good morning txt or i am thinking about you and wanted to say hi .
Its like when you have a partner that only touches you when he wants sex .
WHAT A TURN OFF .LOL

Contact doesnt cost that much does it . And it keeps the mind turning and tuned to you thinking of all the naughty fun things one likes to do .

So if this is a hard limit for you just keep walking by your not for me .

I crave to belong to one..... mind , body and soul and i want him to feel the same . Just think how exciting that would be .

I am not interested in any one from overseas so dont contact me .

I have said i am no longer looking but hey one never knows whats around the corner .
I have always got my eyes open you just never know your luck but having said that if your not in it for the long haul you dont have a chance , so dont contact me with false hopes and dreams i want a man of my own and i do have interests out side of Bdsm and i have a life also .

No longer looking for anyone .
Just here for chat with friends .

I have a son , call him bagage if you like but he comes FIRST.
If this will be a problem to you don't contact me .
 

I am a bit puzzled , i have this love to please to submit .
I found my submission at a deep level with one i was seeing .
But that doesn't mean it could not be the same with another does it ?

Time for a change or maybe just a break .
I Will still drop in from time to time to say hi to friends .
Take care everyone .

For someone who perfered a smile .
I hope this works for you .

 What a nice day it has turned out to be the rain has stopped the sun is shining what other surprises will it bring ?

Master Ian yes thank you Sir ,i do love my cutting i keep touching and looking in the mirror and checking your handy work out.

Had a great Mothers day  lovely gifts from my kids to start the day , then of to see Master Ian for a lovely afternoon meeting new friends.

Who would have thought sharing Master could be so much fun .
And Thank you for sharing you time with me i know you are a busy man .

Also learnt not to disobey , but i am finding i am warming to Masters Canes.  
Thank You Master Ian XXX

Where are all the tall sexy men hiding ?

Mind games .

How scary and fun they can be .

How can i discribe the way i feel ?

How do i thank the person that has me feeling this way ?

Why am i feeling this way ?

Has a lot to do with my wonderful Trainer and the things now experinced .

You scare and excite me , tease and torment me .
You use and abuse me. punish and train me .
Thank you Master Ian

Weekends can be so lonely and its only friday .


Bugga me .

My Lord was home for the night last night.
We had our first play night since i have started my training with Master Ian .


My Lord seemed most pleased with the out come as was i .

Thanking Master Ian for His time and effort  That He has put into my training .

Master Ian ,
How can i ever thank You for taking me on .
I have experinced so much in so short a time .
 But more importantly You have taught me things i must learn to be the submissive i know i can be .
Master Ian You are far the best Master i could ever hope to find and i hope to make you very proud in time .
My pain will be Your pleasure .
Thank You Master .

So my life has now taken a path that i have so long waited for .

I may tell more in time it is early days yet .

 Happy

Valentines

Day

Just here to chat with friends .

Sorry everyone that last post was a bit muchy must have been feeling very lonely .
Time to get real or just be realistic this is not the place to find that man who wants love etc .

AND I AM NOT INTERESTED IN OVERSEAS YET TO FIND ONE FROM THERE THAT IS REAL THE LAST 2 HAD THE SAME PICTURES .

I want a man to call my own , one i can spend time with and one that has the time to spend with me .
Sick of the lonely weekends .
This man will also love me as i would him .
Are you out there ?
Can you be mine ?
Will you love and care for me ?

I have made a few friends ,
 Just lost a close loved one .

So all that is left to say is i hope everyone has

A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND
 A HAPPY NEW YEAR .

Dreams .
What is a Dream ?
Something we want
something we hope to have .
Why do we dream ?
Is it so we can feel things we want but don't have .But then how do we know how they would feel like if we have never had them .
Dreaming .

Can one truely belong to another ?

Hey people if you are into big and beautiful you just have to check this site out .
http://www.hikarikesho.com/eng/portfolio.php?cat=1&sub=0&sl=5

I was lost for words .

Still having trouble understanding men .
Do any of you realy know what you want.
Short term
long term
online play
Relationship
no relationship .
Well i know what i seek and if you dont seek a relationship that shares anothers life you are not for me.
Got it .

Only here for chat with friends .

Hey people only looking for whats real and to me overseas cant be real so no point in messaging me i will not answer sorry

I have been a bit quick to judge one , i have also done my best to say i was rude and am sorry but messages are deleted without being read.
You know who you are and i am sorry and i was rude to judge you so quickly without thinking please forgive me . josaphine

Question time ;;;
Had a Dom tell me that the reason i could not find a Dom was more to do with my being over weight Then having kids in my care so tell ,

Does weight play a role in any BDSM relationships good or bad ???

Sadly its not to be the distance
 between us is just to great .

I wish him well.

I have been chating with a Strong Powerful Sensual Dom will he be the one for me .

To own me is to love me .

Ownership means so much more to me then just play dates.

So earn my trust and my submission will follow.

I have this feeling i need a change , maybe its time to try something new .
So what could that be .
Maybe its time for a nice girl in my life , maybe.

When i read this i had a giggle i hope it does the same for you .
Married life

After 20 years of marriage, a couple was lying in bed one evening, when the wife felt her husband begin to touch her in ways he hadn't in quite some time.

 It almost tickled as his fingers started at her neck, and then began moving down past the small of her back. He then slid his hand across her shoulders and neck, slowly worked it down over one breast, then the other, stopping just over her lower stomach.
He then proceeded to place his hand on her left inner arm, caressed past the side of her breast again, working down her side, passed gently over and then in between her buttock and down her leg to her calf.
He continued in the same manner on her right side, then suddenly stopped, rolled over and became silent.

 As she had become quite aroused by this caressing, she asked in a loving voice, 'That was wonderful. Why did you stop?'

'I found the remote,' he said.

Will that question didnt get much response so what next  mm , i will get back to you on that one when i work it out .
LOL

This time how do i put it well,
You can be both 

- in love with someone 
or
- love someone .

Which means the most?
Do they mean something different ?

Here is a question for you .
What would total submission be worth to one ?

I do miss having someone to hold me .

And to run there fingers though my hair .

Why are the simple things overlooked so offen .

I have decided to stop searching for a while so i am only here to chat with friends i have already thanks everyone for your interest over the last 6 months, josaphine xxx

Just read anothers journal about a hugg which is one size to fit all . Well it also costs nothing .

It is my day of birth so i wish you all a happy day

Jo

You men are so confusing do any of you really know what you want ?

Or maybe its me i
i just want to much 
hehe

I just want to thank all  who have contacted me over the last week or so it has been nice chatting and i feel i have gained a little  something from you all .
Thank you

Happy New Year very one .

This is the one nite of the year i did not want to spend alone so what happens i am alone again .     
 Somethings never change never mind.                                                                                                                                                                                                          

Time to move on i no longer want to sit in the past, its not healthy .
So i am going to make 2008 my year so watch out i may be coming your way hehe.
 

What a saying . 

 Keep your friends close and your enermies closer, 

Is that how it goes.

I wanted to add to my journal  the things i am feeling but all i feel is numb .Men nilla or other wise will i ever work you out.

I havent been able to do the right thing by the master i had .So i am told ,so i think i will only be looking for friends .