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You're, looking at the wrong profile... If your looking for a prince to sweep you off your feet.. Yes, there are people out there who will but they treat others like a prize. Prizes are rarely have lasting power. Great to earn and chase and own but they do not give you the same excitement ever again. If your looking for a solution for your problems. Yes problem solving can bind a relationship, once the problems are solved there is very little to hold a relationship together.. If your looking for become useless. Welcome to the pet rock theory, I wonder how many people still take care of thier pet rocks any more. If your looking for someone who just gets you. You need to able to comminicate so understanding can happen. Instance is never as good as taking the long way around., Sex and kink are easy to find. Finding someone who is willing to put in the time to create something special is hard to find.

Do you find the right submissive or do you create the right submissive. Training leading and forging. 

It chased a security bit that rolled under the washing machine..

I smiled, it pleased me.

Some submissive are like butterflies. They flutter into your life to be admired and enjoyed.  While there is a strong desire to cage them. They are best to let them go wild as that is what is best for them..

Some sit on my lap,

Some sit by my side.

Some sit by my feet.

Some sit very far away.  Laughs

What do you mean you Don't want to share your sub drop with me?  I don't  allow mime to experience sub drop on thier own.  The roller coast of emotions isnt fun to recover by yourself.  

Training, transformation and transitioning.  It not an easy path to take but these are not the glue that holds a relationship together.

Trust, building understanding loyalty and the willingness to invest time and effort. 

 

Time is the great truth revealer. If very little is risked it translate to very little value. 

 

I must be asking for the world. Understand compassion  and empathy and the ability to create a relationship and not to find it. 

Laughs. 

Why I do not train others? People are like a pandora's box. Once they are open, it is impossible to put them back in their box back to their orginal forms. 

They learn how to please and interact differently than your typical vanilla relationship. Once they are comfortable in the lifestyle, going back is hard to do. There is comfort in knowing what is expected and knowing what needs to be done to please and to perform add stability to a mess of a life.  

It difficult deal with those who are left alone without that strong influence in their life.  They tend to flounder a bit before they can create their own structure of a life. Relationship after care is more important than after care after a session. 

Your submission should be awesome. While there is no doubt that I can make your submission envious of others, I do warn you that others will come sniffing around in attempts to steal you away. Lazy people steal.  I create. You become art to be admired. 

If your submission inspires, I will create a nude bronze statue of you and donate that statue to a blind museum. So others would have an image of your naked body in their minds.  Lumps bumps warts and wrinkles.

Now that is inspiration. Laughs

The submission from a submissive should be a joyful event. 

Phyiscal maturity is easy to determine Emotional maturity is comes from dealing with the daily crap we go through and surviving.

I am not wise I just been through more than you. 

I was called a rare find today. 

I responded rare doesn't mean valuable.

Left socks are rare if they go missing.lol

Rare doesn't mean valuable..

Of course rare doesn't snap a collar and leash on you.

Rare doesn't delight in you panting and drooling.

Rare doesn't make your body ache..

Just give me a heart so I can give it the experience of burnning. 

Give me a soul that can thrive under my intensity. 

I am truly madding and quiet implusive. 

I drag souls with me to see what mischief we can get into.

 

I relate to those who struggle but I also realize that you can not help those who refuse to help themselves. Calling for help isn't the problem, it calling for help and refusing to accept help when it comes. 

 

Do not settle for less. Your happiness has value. Submission form misery is easy.  I do not take the easy path.

  Which Submission is sweeter from the mindless or the intelligence? 

Abandoned sub and slaves, it seems I always encounter those poor souls. I swear I could build a community of these lost souls.

 

You do realize that recovery time is going to take time right? An intense session does take time to recover. Some recover quicker than others. If you drain someone's emotional energy. It will take more that a drink, a warm blanket and a nap to recover..

If you let others who do not have your best interests at heart have a say in your life. You will never be that awesome person you can be. 

Of course I can solve a huge amount.of problems but problems are not the glue that holds a relationship together.  Truth does communication to create understanding does. 

A loyal sub is has an extreme value. A sub that wanders to the greener lawn isn't worth investing time in.

There a certain cruelty about teasing a person in chastity. The shaking, the drooling and the mumblings of begging for release. No you don't please me. You haven't suffer enough.  Your body hasn't reacted enough.  You have not sweated enough. You called me sweet and kind. Heck I am a curse.  

New years is the time for maids, cleaning task are abound. Service with a smile is a must! Clean and pressed uniforms..

May you Service at great parties! 

If you tell me you do anything for me, you will be tested, who is up for tap dancing? Laughs 

Poor slave,  wanting to be anything I want to be.  It will dress anyway I want it to be. It will do anything I want it to be.  Leading someone with no desires other than to please isn't as easy as it sounds. 

 

I know it sounds cruel but I am a clothes  tossing sob. This is horrible for those who clothes are important to them.  Going on a proper shopping spree means the worn out, the ugly clothes go away. 

A happy submissive sinks deeper into submission.

Slave undercover or yelling to the world this one is own?  Knowing which kind of slave you have is important. Some bloom with the added attention  others will run in fear for being exposed.. know which they are is important. Making the wrong choice will negatively affect how deep thier submission is toward you.

Some people just don't make good coffee tables. Laughs 

I Display mine not to show control more pride in owner ship.

Every one loves parties but few stay behind to clean up the mess.  Laughs. Those who break promises do not get an invite back. 

A structure life is not for everyone.  In the beginning the learning is steep. 

May you all be cursed with happiness and health.

 

If you can not build trust, your not ready for what comes next. 

It not the size or the age it about the sweet honest submission that flames the passions. 

Wrinkled old battle scared body that is sensitive to my touch is better than any youthful body that numb the sensation to touch.

Just because you wander off doesn't mean I am going to chase.  

While having nude submissive around constantly might be amusing. The reality is that any furniture that comes in contact will need to be cleaned more often.

Mental note, if you have too many naked submissives tied under a tree. They are going to attempt to have an orgy and blame you when they make a mess..  laughs  Merry Christmas..

You have to be this tall to ride this ride. Laughs.

Some people can not handle the word NO.

If you crowd your mind with fantasies, there is no room for reality. 

If you use your life to build walls and you got your goal. Screaming to the world that your lonely should be polite ignored. 

While cutting off underwear sounds kinky. Sometime it just means I grow tired of you wearing crappy underwear that doesn't fit or is causing you issues. Lol

If the goal is happiness, why do you self sabotage yourself  from achieving your goal? 

Just because you have a problem doesn't motivate me to step in and fix it. 

 

Some people can not handle being playful. It hard for them to submit to someone who think it fun to dress up a submissive. Their image is sitting on the floor in chains always.  

Cursed with happiness is a term I use to about being  happy and in order to get rid of it. It takes great effort. 

I refuse to hate what does not work out. I rather have them move on before they start trashing something that had great potential. 

So what kind of maid are you? 

Metal? Leather? Chain? Pain? Rubber? Naked? Leashed? Bondage? Suspended? Chased? Motorized?  

A good relationship makes you want to constantly interact with them. They are a bright spot in your life.  If you starve that relationship with the attention it deserves, who are you going to blame when it crashes and burns. 

Sometimes it not the orgasm that bind the relationship. Sometime it what comes afterwards.

 

What I offer is not for most people,  while some see it as a restricted life style. I see it a life filled with guide lines. 

Some people will eat highly processed food to an extent that it will negatively effect their health.  Having your submissive go to a nutritionist to give you better health is being responsible for what is yours. Teaching a submissive to have a balance life is not easy and it does take time but once you find yours. Making sure it going to last maximum amount of years is important.

 

Time has the ability to expose the truth.  Pretty words are just pretty words until they are backed up by the truth.

It is easy to judge and classify. It how our brain works in an attempt to cope with massive amounts of information. 

Pick your favorite color. Now try to judge and classify it. 

Your expectations and experience with the color is mixed in with your judgement. 

It a difficult to judge and classify the color. The more detail the answer the more of a chance of creating misunderstanding..

Sharing the experience of color is more of an effective way to create the understanding of color. 

 

Experiencing a relationships is different that reading about it. If a simple description of color can cause misunderstanding. The complexities of a great relationship is literally indescribable to create understanding. One must experience it. 

 

 

If your sub has issues with it's privates.  Using a vaccum chamber to make it grow is definitely a new hard limit. 

 

A great relationship is a source of joy and happiness. Yet people play games and they start to do damage to the thing they claim what they want. 

 

How strong is your Submission and does it grow with my dominates? 

The most well chosen words means very little if understanding hasn't been created. 

If I own you, this doesn't mean just the orgasm generating sections of your body. This means all of your faults and issues. Yes, I understand that issues and problems create a crumbling foundation for a relationship. 

 

Creating an environment where bdsm can happen isn't difficult. The biggest issue is protecting it from forces of the outside world and the forces from inside.  Drama and egos are toxic

I stare into it's soul. Trying to connect. It tells me what it think I want to know and not reality of want it is. It has learned through a tough life to lie to itself and others. I stare at it with it's wall that it has built.  Yes, walls keep you safe but it prevents you from connect to a soul you really want.  

Tearing down walls is scary for both parties. 

My Christmas tree farted. There a temptation to ignite the fart but I rather smell pine scent than burning farts laughs.

Suspension in ropes. Tied to a singular swivel point. Battery operated Xmas lights..

If you can balance the sub correctly, a riding crop can easily spin the sub around and around. 

Yea yea upside down would look cooler but that shorten the time frame for observation. 

I really need to create a leather harness so I can flip and twirl with easy.

Some relationships take very little effort. Unfortunately my relationships takes more time and effort. 

Intensity has it costs with time and effort.  Communication breeds understanding between souls. Yes, you have the right to limit those who interact with you but attempting to find what one wants and needs takes a huge amounts of time.

My kind of lifestyle is not for everyone. It consumes attention and energy that it can affect other relationships in your life and life events.

 

If I pinned you to the floor with your hands pin above your head, would it scare you or excited you? 

A great relationship is like art work. Beautiful to experince. Hard to produce. Criticized by many.  Laughs.

 

Never Hire someone you can not fire. Cooks, maids, gardeners, mechincs, programmer, electrical technicians, hvac people and the list goes on and on. 

A submissive who has poor skills is harder to fire. Much like bad performing relatives in business. Laughs..

 

Waiting isn't life.  Sharing the ups and downs is life. 

When forging a strong relationship, the question comes up of how much time do you have to invest in this relationship?  Little time and effort produces very poor results. 

If you do not invest the time, the relationship you want will be like chasing clouds.

 

For some the need for submission is greater that it's own sexual classification. Some people's submissions are a joyful event. Given support and a safe place, they bloom big and bright.  Never been a fan of dark fearful submission. 

 

It might sound creul to say but I do not wait for others to catch up. I am not stationary in life. I am constantly learning and growing. Yup I am a freaken moving target. I am a kind of person who grabs a hold and leads. I am not fearful of failure because I know recovery from horrible things is part of life. Who I am and what I am isn't for everyone one nor do I wish to be that way. 

Kink and sexual rapture is fun and enjoyable but building a solid relationship is more satisfying to me. It not the ropes, toys or fuels my passions. It the depends upon me and the responsibility of a sub's life which motivate and drives me in life. 

 

If you meow at me, I will put a bell around your neck. Laughs

Have I ink my subs? Only for breast reconstruction surgery. Breast cancer does a number on a subs self worth.   

Stepping on a oxygen hose is not breath control lol 

Farting in the intake on a breathing machine is only fun if the submissive laughs or complains. 

 

If surgery can be used to create a hole, surgery can be used to tighten one up. 

 

Is it cruel to feed your submissive food that gives it terrible gas just so you can fart.bomb friends and family. Laughs

Tape and tie bells on a sub, just so it can be trained to play Christmas music naked.  Jiggle for me!

Submission given is sweeter than taken.  It last longer and is stronger.

Hard path.  

 

Yes, there will be times when you feel like I just ran you over. Your demons and issues will become my delight in dealing with. Your issues and problems will run off to the hill naked clutching thier privates.  Laughs 

Why the skirt?  Easier to lift. Laughs

Got submission?  Laughs. 

If you tell me your a pig, I will play banjo music while you are greased and squealing. Laughs..

If I feed you beacon? Do I call you a cannibal? Laughs..

Remember a pig in a mud pit can't run very fast lol 

While I have great problem solving skills, problems are not a solid base to a relationship. 

Some of the easiest things you can say is very difficult to do. 

While this society produces many princesses, it produces very few princes. Thanks disney laughs.

Finding that winning lotto ticket is different than making that cash with hard work. 

It is easy to bind the legs open. It take someone special to hold them open when extreme orgasms are happening.

 

I lead, you follow. If you don't follow you will be left behind.  Is that a bad thing? Not in the slightest. Some people are like butterflies. Enjoy them while they are close and let them fly to find thier happiness.  

I am difficult to serve. 

If you think doing stuff for me is going to make me slow down and rest. That doesn't work. Cuddles work tho laughs

I am not superior, I just been through more than most.  Life moves forward so trying to connect with another is always been a moving target thing so this waiting game people play to attempt to catch up doesn't work. If you caught up to what was, you caught up with the ghost of what was.  So how do you keep up? Grab a hold and build a life together. Build a relationship. 

 

Is it a curse to ask your submissive to experience 10 thousand orgasms. I will have to push them around in a wheel chair afterwards. I will have to learn a new language of grunt and groans to communicate. There going to be a lot of drooling I bet. I will have to sponge bath them. Plan meals, dressing them everyday.  With that kind of experience I bet diapers are going to be needed. 

Just because you can, doesn't mean you should but if your going for the extremes be responsible for your behavior and actions.

 

Why the large mirror?  So that it can look in the mirror and admire the changes that are happening. Every submissive should have a extremely large closet.

There are many who desire that special relationship but few understand what it takes to have another human value the ground that you walk on.  

The reason why I rush about?  There is so much life to experince and so many adventures to have.  Waiting for another is extremely frustrating. Laughs

I mean really if you ask someone to show you thier issues, the are going to throw up a huge wall and tell you to go away. Laughs

 

I wished the ex sub  a happy birthday. 82 is an amazing age to reach.

I use to joke with it about having it carved in stone naked and donating the art work to a blind museum. So blind people will know what wrinkles it had. 

If your privates are now my stress ball release toys, how would deal with it? Would you smile or run for the hills? 

Nutritionist are used to make sure your eating healthy. I change your life style cause your bad habits are slowly killing you. 

You wearing a cowboy hat and boots is just for amusement and maybe Christmas cards laughs

Just because I bound your wrists behind your back and fold you over the sofa doesn't mean there going to be sexual activities.  Sometimes I just want a little peace and quiet. Laughs..

While I can not erase the hell you been through, I can change your future. Hope is amazing that way. It a hard path I choose not because it is simple, it is because it give me a chance to live the life I want to. 

Life no matter how long is always too short.  

Being the responsible type, I have to make sure you are in a safe place to grow I that way. 

I would be much of a leader and  protector if I put what is mine in harms way.

Some people just can not keep up and wander off. Laughs

There is just something deliciously rude about legs being tied wide open. The quivering voice of a submissive begging for any attention. The need just driving them slowly mad spending hours being exposed. How cruel it would be if subspace was denied. 

The extra padding under the carpet isn't for the comfort of my feet but comfort of an older submissive. 

Someone needs a short leash. Laughs. Dam thing keeps wandering off. 

You would think that a cabin in the woods would allow a person the ability to have outside orgasmic screams without too much troubles. Laughs. 

If your  cabin has a view, you be surprised how far sound can travel. Expect a visit from concern neighbors, forest Rangers, the police and odd stares from the locals.. laughs.

Once the shaking screaming and hate Peter's out, then come the hope and dreams

There is something to be said about adding jingle bells with rope harnesses during the holiday season. 

 

How to make yours dress well.  Dress them funny. 

I do not doubt my ability to train and transform but I do doubt the ability of some to stay afterwards. 

The destruction of you will never be my goal, you being happy to submit is my goal. Fear and anger are effective tools but painting a canvass with minium color ls is self limiting.  

Do not put me on a high mountain top and bow at my feet.  I will roll down the hill laughs. A good life is a fully engaged life. 

I shine brightly in dealing with responsibilities. 

You deserve to be happy, do not allow anyone tell you otherwise. 

If you suspend someone in a skirt make sure the dress isn't too long.  You miss the surprise look when you blow up the skirt with the electric leaf blower.

Miss opertunities will give you regrets, laughs

So you have nude photos of yourself, do you really think that is going to keep a relationship based person interested for long? Laughs

Training and transformation isn't a walk in the park. It a hard path to choose but the rewards are amazing.

If your scared of making the wrong choices you won't be brave enough to leap when you need to.

There is something special when you grab yours and put them on the counter. The heat, the heart racing and the  wild look are better in person than read on line. 

 If you trap your mind in a book, you miss the life you could have had. 

There is a difference between being a reader of a book compared to being the muse for the book to be written.

What do you mean nude bungee jumping is a hard limit?  

If you deal with hardened souls, binding them high is rather boring. Drop them a few feet bounded in ropes and suddenly their senses are highten. 

It is all  fun and games until the sub ends with pee up thier nose. The hazards of upside down bondage. 

 

If your future is bright the shadows of the past fade in time.

If you want intensity, you have to be ready for it. 

If you leap from relationship to relationship and are never alone, when you find someone special you might be too busy to spend the time to create that relationship you want.

Do not let fear and hate dictate the life you want to be happy.

 

Yes, you can scream loud but can you create understanding?  Entertaining news isn't very entertaining or news worthy

 laughs. 

What makes us strong isn't those easy sunny days, we get stronger by the storms that the world send our way. We will survive this and we will all get stronger. Keep your friends close and protect what is important to us. 

Gothic clown nurse, Time to chalk up something new to somebody's list of hard no on.  So you think Your mommy dresses you funny just wait until the sheer blown panic sets when you are sent shopping dressed in something that will draw attention to you and most likely end up on some website. Laughs.  Remember the internet is forever. 

With passion come creative kink. Metal maid, metal uniform, task performanced in time with metal music. 

 

What kind of maid are you? If you do not know, you need to find out.  Now strike a pose metal maid. Laughs

Welcome to the bdsm version of a life coach. Laughs

You can not lead from behind, leading from the front will cause you troubles. You can not assign everyone's opinions at the same level. You have to trust your gut and forge ahead and be an adult when things fail. 

It a troublesome and painful life at times but it the only way that have a full life with very little regrets.

 

There is something fun about tossing refrigerator magnetics on to metal underwear. 

Bottle opener on metal underwear. Kind of a fun thing for parties. 

I do not expect you to endure the things i have in store for you, I expect you to fail spectacularly but with failure comes growth and strength. Weakness is the fear of trying. 

 

If I smack your ass, how high would you jump and what would you do to get another smack? Laughs.

Unloyal ones get the life they truly deserve. 

 

Of course you have problems, we all do. It how we handle them that makes is who and what we are. Yes I can grind you down but if you represent my time, effort and skills. A useless meat puppet is an insult of who and what I am. 

 

Do not let your issues and problems be that chain to bind you to a life you do not want. 

Of course I expect you to fail. Do you really think you could succeed every single time?  Harshness and punishment doesn’t mean I do not care. It means I know you can do better than you think you can. If you dictate your own ceilings aren't you putting limits on what could and should be? 

Why to bondage? Have you ever over stimulated someone? They buck pretty dam hard. Laughs

Rigging is an art form it strans and moves with the person. Thin ropes thick ropes and of course there the colors.  Tie point and pivot points.

It the adult version of arts and crafts with sexual tension mixed in. It easy to find a willing subject but sharping your craft on a temporary subject is well just that temporary. 

 

Can you tap dance? 

How good is your research skill on under water power generation systems? 

Could you buck a woody doll off your back in a humbler with a remote sex toy in you? 

 

Be awesome and amazing.  Do not travel alone in life. Some Experinces only come once in your lifetime. Sharing them with the right relationship make a life a bit of heaven.

People assume I am too soft and too friendly. I am one of those who follow the hard path in life. An open pair of legs won't impress me. Being mine does equate having an easy life. Ruling by fear and hate is easy for me. What I search for is not easy. I am not fearful of failure nor hate. Why am i supportive of what is mine? Cause it makes the submission a heck of alot sweeter. 

You can not learn from easy and perfect is boring and delusional. Life is full of emotions and passion is amazing. 

The ability of improvement is important. The ability to create understanding. Knowing how to build a relationship. These are important to me.

The lovely tourment of orgasms is an art form but it in celebration of a great relationship. Way too many want to take the easy way. Celebration without the hardest work you ever been through.

It is amazing to reduce yours into an exhausted lump of sweaty mush and instead of it crawling away.. it crawls towards you and croaks at you one word again. 

I know I ask alot and demand a lot and running toward the hills is easy but than again I am not looking for easy. Laughs

So you like to be humiliated? Making a mold of your privates and creating an odd looking jackolantern is certainly amusing.  

 

What do you mean wearing cat ears and singing soft kitty is a hard limit? Laughs

 

So you think your broken?  What you think as broken I find interesting. 

So you ashamed of your nakeness? That is your judgment not mine. Do not project  your faulty judgements on to me.

Too big, too small? As long as you smile when you feel my touch, it doesn't matter.

A ball gage isn't just to shut you up, it allows you to think before you speak. Choose your words well think of thier impact and review the results.  Do you create understanding or put another brick in the wall?

What I do to you is addictive, I keep your eyes open so you can judge if this is the kind of life you want.

If you are tied in ropes, sometimes people pass gas. Do not try to light those farts, trips to the er is never fun. 

 

Are your  responsibly enough to handle things when they go wrong? 

Some people are like  butterflies, enjoy them while they are in the hear and now.

Submission from a lowly broken soul is easy. Submission from an awesome amazing person is dam hard but worth the struggle.

Servicing me does not equate to abandonment of the things and causes that you hold dear to your heart. 

 

It is easy to share your sexuality but it so hard for someone to share the bad parts of it's personality. 

 

Short term verse long term. Shall we talk about retirement? Where are ypu going to buried?  Funeral costs? Life insurance? Long term care? Aftercare after sessions? After care of at the end of the relationship?  Many people desire subs kneeling at thier feet. Few are responsible enough to take care of them long term. 

Fear will tie you to the life your have and not life you want. 

So it like being restrained. I dragged it to take a sand bath. I teased it and said look there a dog peeing on the trash can. It panicked and i laughed.  No there wasn't a real dog. Dog can't give you consent lol

If you Increase the sensitivity of your submissive's skin, holding hands can be very amusing. 

If your a joy to be around, people will flock to you. 

There is nothing like a pointed stick to do a proper inspection. Something flexible but yet strong enough to give a poke when needed. Something wide enough to be use as a thump but small enough to give a sting to correct bad behaviors.

 

It's not the duration that counts, it the dedication and the desire to stay on task which is important.

In control or an attempt to have some influence over the random crap that flows through a life.  Laughs 

While I am capable and responsible enough to implement my influence to guide a person to a better life, this can not be the bases of a relationship. 

 

If you were sleeping and i decided to play with your body I wonder what kind of dreams you will have. 

Glow in the dark body paint makes a simple Halloween ghost very interesting. Laughs

If you amp up the connection with yours and it wants to crawl into your clothes just to be naked skin to skin, it kind of your fault. Laughs

A session is like building a roller coaster. A life style is like building an amusement park. 

 

 Be someone's source of happiness and joy. Scrafice only to the ones who appericate.

 

 

It just not getting control of another which is important but it also being responsible for the results of taking control. 

The potential for growth, the ability to create understanding, apperication of time and effort is greater than a pair of legs opening up and hoping your going to find someone or ones special. 

People tell me thier body shape and size, like that is going dictate how they submit. Lol

 

Sorry, I am not interested in training other people Doms, Subs or Slaves. While others may state that I am losing a opportunity for kink, I look at  it as creating free time to invest my energy into someone special. 

A stone carving of your naked body on display in a museum of the blind. How many blind people will know what your body shape is like? 

A wall of silicone molds of your privates on the wall maybe a little pump to get them all oozing..

Xmas cards with your orgasm face might be amusing.

 

Some stumble across thier one. Others find compatible one. Others change to attract one. 

It is another ball park to create yours.

With struggles and walking the hard path. Life has greater meaning..

It not always easy to create an environment so you can be who you are but it well worth the struggles. 

 

If I fail to train you, is it really your fault? Since I am the responsible type, the fault is on my shoulders. 

So you think you can not keep up?  Laughs  what do you think training is for? 

Some people are easily lead by a collar. Others you just have to tie them to a furniture dolly and pulled along naked.

The perfect foot stool. Now where is that remote control? Hey foot stools are supposed to be quiet and not leaking.

Laughs.

Been asked what I can do and be for you.

Response. 

Succeed in being happy.

With Extreme Emotional releases it wears out the soul.  Crying screaming bawling the emotional out pour is amazing. 

All without pain or sexual components. A great sub is an open book. Interactions are though provoking. A great model inspires masterpieces of art.  

Be amazing and stay curious. 

 

Yes, Yes, I can make a cage that you can sleep under my bed.. but sleeping intertwined is a treat.

Tits up and be the reason why your god get worried.

 

When things begin to grenade apart, emotional maturity show the most. 

I know I know I generally never post about politics but I do grow tired of the parties of hate and the tiresome ways they attempt to attempt of manipulation. If you can not build a bridge and build respect you should not be in the poltical system that also ring true in bdsm relationships.

If my goal was kink and sex, my life would be a whole lot simpler. Laughs

Do I just go after broken ones? I do not think so at least that is not my intentions. Problems do not make for a great foundation for a relationship. Problems get solved and suddenly there is nothing to work on together. 

Words spoke in sincerity and in truth, should always be valued but stolen words spoken,  are hallow and those people should avoided. 

Intensity is not because I want to nor need too. It is inspired to do so. 

When DS relationship matures with time, it becomes an art form.

Doing what we do and being who we are, you would figure that judgemental attitudes should be tempered but no. You just end up with smaller groups of judgement people..laughs.

Before having grand ideas of changing society, shouldn't you have the knowledge and the ability to create one? 

The wonderful internet is the grand social experiment on how humans react towards each each others. 

 

What my kink? 

I am a freaken happiness junkie.. laughs

With most things practices and hard work create wonderful results. Yet there are those who seek that perfect relationship without doing any work.  

Is there the one or shouldn't you seek one that is willing to grow with you. 

If you are going to crawl down that rabbit hole, I am going to dress you like a bunny!

Laughs. What do you mean, too much is wrong with you and that is just another excuse for you to run.  How are you going to run when your bounded to me and I delight in chasing your demons that plaque your life.  You hug your demons so close cause you do not know how to be without them. 

 

Blind folding is a blessing to be earned. There is something to be said about recording sessions.  Not for masterbation material nor to share it with the world. More of a self discovery of who and what you are and is this is the path way you want to be. What are you feeling? What is motivating you,  is there something you could have done better?  Imagine if your sessions were improving every single time. Better aftercare? I did not like this but I loved that and of course can we do something longer? 

I demand more from you, not because i want to see you fail but because i know you can succeed..

 

If howling at the moon eases your pain, we might have something in common. 

 

If the world knew the kinkiest thing have done, would you run and hang your head in shame or would post and brag about it? 

 

Did you know extreme commitment has requirements that need to happen before requests are even considered? 

Intensity demands understanding. Responsible requires trust. A great relationship equals mind blowing sessions. Passion and compassion are on the same side of the coin.

Trust found isn’t the same as trust earned.

Greatness is not found it is grown and earned. 

If your relationship died, did you starve it? Did you take it for granted? 

Some people fill thier lives with made up stories instead of really experiencing them. I feel sorry for them. A life filled with imagination is just a hallow life. 

I am not your source of your next made up adventures, I choose to be alone rather than to waste time.

Following someone else's teachings isn't following your own self discovery.  Most people can act but few really understand about being.

Alone gives one opportunities. A full and busy life limits what truly amazing things you can accomplish.

 

Many people desire the person at thier feet but they do not understand how to get a person there. 

Can you cook and clean?

Can you communicate to create understanding? 

Can you share the monsters in your head? 

Can I play with you in ways that make other people to runaway?

Can you live a life where you never shower alone?

Can you live a life where not only your privates are not your own but your brain is not yours also?

 

If you can not fight for what you need and allow the world to steal it away from you. Who fault is it when your find yourself alone? 

Would you rather find that great relationship or create it?

Why many can go 90 mph down the road. Steering and braking is important to have to go where you want to go and brakes makes sure ypu stick on the road. 

Do you keep your broken toys? If they are n loved very well of course.

There comes a time when things become irreplaceable. Train well Train hard.

There a reason why your urn is sitting on the shelf.

People think I have to grind someone down so that they can follow. Heck I pick them up so they can keep up. Laughs

I rather have it show me it's ability to learn and understand compared to naked pictures.

 

So you won't do this or that. Well I respect that request but honestly there are more terrifying things I can do to you without it showing up on a xray.  Your therapist will look at you as a source of money and most likey name a condition after you.  Laughs

With great power comes a greater responsibility. How to make a room full of submissives scatter. Walk in and state I am bored.. laughs

Lots of people can not endure but that is OK. 

I walk on egg shells so I don't shatter people around me. 

 

Passible or non Passable? Ears perk. Side ways look.

In this judgmental world, bounded by hate, run by mob rule.

You seek approval of these people?  You just have to be you. Lump bumps warts and all. It is more pleasant to deal with the truth than a masked one. I do not seek approval, I seek the truth and understanding. Some are just not capable of it. Arguements only work if both parties come into it to seek common understanding. 

I understand it tough to stand up for yourself but sometimes you have to to protect the relationship you have worked so hard to get a real submissive truely works hard to find ways to submit and a dominant works hard so that submission is easier to do.

Remember eye hooks in the ceiling are fun but eye hooks max weight rating lessen when the load is at an angle.

Words that seem to upset some. 

Make me a sandwich..

I am voting for...

Get ready in XX minutes

Where do you want to eat?

Does it matter what the world thinks of your relationship? 

If you going to ride a bike, your going to have to eat a lot of bugs. If you going to hang around bdsm people, someone is going to look at your brain as play ground.  It may never happen but some one will think it.

 

If you avoid and hide from the world I understand but if you hide from me, you endanger the relationship. A lot of people can not create the relationship they want and need. Old cursed damage prevents people from holding out their souls to be bound to another. 

 

I do not steal another person's submissive.

Asking me to lie is a major red flag.

Can't I find someone close? Of course I can a bit of an ill fit but I can cure those issues. Evil grin.

Of course i demand everything you got. That included those dark secrets you never told anyone about. The things that turn you into the wonderful drooling mess. The cracks and failures that drive others away seem to attract me. 

What I do is addictive and I warn potential partners about the things I am capable of. I am not afraid of failures or problems. I am just not built that way. Any of my exs should be thought of kindly. 

I am the keeper of many dark secrets. I am your Safe port where you can cry to the heavens. Healing is a process. Expression is good for the soul. This doesn't feed the ego, it draws another soul closer. That patch of ground at my feet grows in value. 

While I appericate the opportunity to have a session, without the relationship component,  sessions will start to feel like masterbation using another person as a tool. Fun but lacks in satisfaction.  Just because I can doesn't mean it will happen.

You know when you are getting older when your Safe word is cramp!

Just because you sign up for bondage it does not mean your going to get an orgasm. 

While pallet wrap sounds like fun, heat exhaustion should not be a part of that fun.

While duct tape can be fun, removing the glue from the clothing underneath is a real pain.

You know there are people allergic to the glues in tape.

 Safe words are important but if you play to a point when the mind can not produce words other forms of communication is needed.

Actors and actresses will bow out when the curtains are closed.

It not access to the body I need it access to your brain I seek.

 

Since I can manufacture bdsm toys and furniture, you would have thought I would have a warehouse full. Nope, why? Would I keep used toys? 

Memmories of sessions past should never be thought of during present sessions.

Inspiration comes from what is current.

Being an intensive junkie,  it a good thing to avoid Friday night, weekend end submissives. It not the session which causes issues, it the aftercare recovery length time wise. Healing the body is easy compared to the mental state. Some people take a much longer time to recover 

Coffee analogy. Laughs..

Making that perfect cup takes time and effort.  Instant coffee is never good as the really stuff. It take time to make, find and buy that perfect maid outfit.  Proper high heels with legs tied close enough to shuffle with small steps. Part of serving coffee is knowing it is more than just coffee. Presentation enhances the experince.  Servicing coffee is an art form. Many want the experience of being served but few understands how to make it happen.  

 

 

Some people walk with style and grace, other people walk like a zombie. Other people walk like a cat on a leash. Laughs

A muffled orgasm is not as fun as a scream your lungs out orgasm. Ear protection is important. 

I have been accused many times of being controlling. General I laugh it off. Other people's opinions only have value if I give it value.

But I happy to explain the who what and where..

I have dealt with others with mental issues. Now keeping someone sane isnt always easy but those techniques does will work well with submissives.  Sleep is important. A structer life brings focus.. creating a more effective submissive is more fun. No more guessing what needs to be done. It is explained and been taught how it is done. A better life, a more focus life..

Making a submissive wear jiggle bells and taking them shopping is always fun..adding a shock collar makes waiting in line at star bucks a blast. Now is that the remote for the collar or the remote for the anal plug?  Laughs

So many people want but very few prepare to get what they want.  

Sometimes it a blessing that they run off.. they are not ready for what is offered to them.

You need time and you need to put in the effort. If you want someone to get you, you got to have conversations that create understanding. 

If you think orgasms and pain are the only tools in my tool box. You poor thing you still have a lot to learn.

Crying is a tool and well as screaming.  Stripped of your manners and sanity what would left? a mental session needs some pretty intense aftercare. 

I don't train other people's projects, I rather concentrate on my own. 

The wants and needs makes us go crazy. That is why people in isolation are always a bit odd. Isolation is a punishment. Corner time, cage time, being ignored all tend to affect people so much.  These social media companies are like drug dealers feed us and creating want and need. 

Now let's add the social needs with sexual kink needs. How strong of a bond can be created?  Happiness is stronger that rope and chain.

 

Lots of people say they are but few prepare for it. Laughs

 

Grabbing the privates on a submissive tends to make them focus and doesn't let thier mind wander too far off track. Laughs

If your moldable and trainable being that perfect fit isn't an issues.

Grab your privates and run.  Laughs

Trained for a moment and now your an expert? Oh hardly, laughs 

Are you submissive enough? Can you be trained to perform well? Are you loyal?  Can you communicate to create understanding? 

The fear of addiction keeps some from experiencing everything that can happen. 

A short answer.

? What wil i be.

Answer back..

Happy.

Sometime safe words just don't work, common sense needs to kick in. Being responsible is important, Especially when the other is in subspace. 

What do you mean, you can not keep up. If i have influence from way over here, how are you going to handle being closer.

 

Saw a hucow today and all I thought was I need a bag of magic beans. Lol

I have received a message of I will do anything for you. While many are willing to jump in my life during the fun times, I see many run off during the roll your sleeves up and we got work to do times.  If I am more that capable of collecting trophies but trophies are only fun when you get them afterwards they sit on a shelf and get dusty.

While there are many who will party with you, there are fewer who will help you setup for an event and even fewer who will help you clean up afterwards. I like hanging out after wards, you meet a better class of people. 

 

6 hour drive? Hmm 6 hours In a trunk?  Laughs

Are you compatible? Laughs I can train you to become what I want and need. 

The better question  would be:

Can you learn and grow?

Do you communicate well enough to create understanding?

Do you have the time to invest?

Does your submissive nature increase or decrease before during or after?

Are you one of those who looking for the act and the Dom is just a prop?

While acting pales against having the real thing, what are your goals.

How will you react if your passions  go into over drive?

 

When relationships end, the responsibility thing is to ween the person off of you.  The stronger the relationship, the need for aftercare is important.

Points for emotional maturity..

So how did you end up naked in a car? That right you dressed in something that is horrible and there was a clothes donation bin nearby.

 

A slave will typical state in a conversation that they have been trained by xyz person or persons. So your trained to someone else's standards. Being denied the opportunity to trained someone to ones own standards is disappointing.

I train to keep on a permanent bases. If I move, I take what is mine with me. One of the reasons why I do not train some one just because they want me to.  Time moves forward. Opportunities open and closes. It would be a shame if you find what you need and want and you had no time to invest..

You want me to what?  Of course I can solve your life issues and problems. I thrive being responsible but issues and problems are not a good basis of a long term relationship.

 

You are no prize and your social communication skills are laughable. You have no respect and all you know is that you want. 

What is more important is that can you listen and can to stick with someone who going demand things that you will fail at. 

This make most people grab their privates and run towards the hills. I am not for everyone. I bare the scars of many things that has gone wrong. 

Becareful what you wish for. Cause wanting is stronger that having.

That little spot of ground at my feet,  it has value and worth. Strangers who kneel there do not have a clue that  being there can cause drama. 

If your food is trying to kill you, of course I will get involded, a responsible person does those kinds of things. You want what is yours to have a long and healthy life. 

 

I get asked how many adult toys do I have. None. Why? New relationship, new toys.

When people don't show up or ghost. I celebrate, why? They have self eliminated themselves out of my life and I can spend that time into something else. 

Fleeing thought, I wonder if the meaning of the name Karen has universal meaning?

Some people get upset at others even tho they are not involded in that relationship. Do you know how funny it sounds when someone complains about others? 

If they are happy, leave them alone.  (Of course they are adults).

 

Inspired to post.  Some people run from failure. I run towards. When the tide of troubles grow deep a person true nature shows up.  The crack and flaws that make us human show up but yet there is something to admire when trouble is brewing. The wonderful defective person is the 1st person to show up.  

Pretty is sweet to look at but loyalty is 1000 percent better.

So you like to be humiliated?, so sing the I am a tiny weenie song on command. 

The results one very red face slave. Laughs 

Labels are quick way to  handle massive amounts of ... but labels are not customized to the individual. If your serious about life, love and kink, you deal with and understand the individual. 

 

Understand the flaws and cracks that make us human. Perfection is boring, dull and predictable. Life isn't predictable. 

 

I am a strong influence. It just my nature. Compartmentalizing relationships has never work well with me.

How can one be passionate about a fractional person or a imaginary person.

 

For some aftercare is a blanket, gatorade and time alone to process and recover. 

For others it is a whole lot of emotional crying, hugging, touching and a long session of a  confession of the soul. 

Connection and head space is important.  Communication and understanding is important not just during the session but before and afterwards.

I am not easily understood, I do not easy to get to know but than if life was easy we would not appericate it.

What do you mean you can not dance like a Korean cheerleader? Time to train!

Submission of a 20 something?  Lots of energy,  So many questions,  a hungry mind wanting to learn. Willing to accept any info as the truth. 

As I always say, your submission isn't always in a book or a web site.  My relationships are based upon the people who are involded. Others who  judge and have nothing to risk, their opinions should always be tempered. The goal should be happiness. What happens between two consenting adults that are happy. They should be wished well and ignored. 

 

The struggle to become who you are. For some it easy but for others is a freaken tough road to go but the funny thing about tough roads. They tend to polish the soul. Those souls are brighter and have greater depth. 

I do grow tired of those who won't start a relationship due to something they are waiting for. A strong bounded relationship is one where both have gone through the hardships of life. It so easy to find people when things are going well.

 

The health and care of yours. How serious are you? Low fat, low surgar and low salt is something to consider. Exercising regularly is important.  Emotional and spiritual stability is important. 

Oh there are times where people just wanted a session and the responsibilities would end when the session ended but no, I want long term and that is a hard path, I choose to go towards. 

Wrapped in shrink wrap is fun but not on a hot day. Heat stroke is a hard limit. Laughs

A well trained submissive is always in demand. If you do not prepare them to cope with that kind of attention. The like hood of them leaving is great.

 

If you train yours to greet you naked and in your position, understand that if you see them in public the urge to perform that form of greeting will still be present. Yea, I have cursed a few with that behavior. Laughs

 

No limits?  I rather not visit what is mine in the freaking mental ward. Some people just crumble under pressure. My happiness isn't built on crush souls.

 

I refuse to leave in my wake broken dreams, broken hearts  or broken people. I am usually stubborn about those things.

 

Short leash. Sometime you use a short leash to give the illusion of a chance to escape. It burns off more calories that way

Yes, I can lead but  what happens afterwards?  I don't want the slave wander around lost. Seen it before. I have heard the screams of a sad and lonely souls before. Aftercare sometimes it take time so that the slave can function by itself.

Recovery is not a 5 gallon bucket of ice cream and years of therapy. 

It is gone not sure where it has went but it is most definitely gone. Limits push to the point where the mind is still there but it just doesn't make sense anymore. Drooling and babbling is all it seems to be able to mustard. Spams come and go. It is sensitive to any touch and any stimulation just rips through it body.  It desperately hold onto a scarf dropping it will cause everything to stop and stubbornness won't allow it to let go. 

Becareful who you tangle with, do not allow dreams crushers and life sucks to steal parts of you away.

It is not question of  whether I have the ablity to train you but what comes afterwards that is more important. Submission is not the goal it a journey.  A session is not the goal it is a life experience. An exploration of who and what you are. 

It easy to find someone to uses you  but it not easy to find someone who going to appericate you and use you well enough that you grow in your submission.  

 

Sometimes it the little things that triggers pleasant memmories. Bending over a sub and using thier own clothes as  binding.  They jump around when you use thier privates as short leash. It not the act that I miss, it the jumping around which I find amusing. 

If your involded with another, move along and don't waste my time. 

What I do to people is extremely addictive. Structure, submission and managing sexual energy all take time and effort. There are many greedy people who will pretend to be single to get an experience. You cannot  build a great relationship based on a lie. Time has a habit of exposing the actors, actresses and role players. 

I am not going to wait until you get ready. Waiting and not being involded with the solution is just a waste of life and time that should be used to grow a relationship.

 

Do you really think people are going to wait until your perfect? Work hard on a relationships is a 2 person job. 

I rather have a person with faults and all than a perfect person.

There is something about the struggle that brings out the best in us.

 

 

Not everyone can handle a session. This includes pain and pleasure or both. Yes, I know one can know a person close enough to trigger responses that lead to the person passing out. It good to have thier phone number to make sure they are ok. Convincing them that going to bed is what they need. Passing out in front of a camera isn't restful at all.  Sometime fun has to be balanced with responsibilities.

I do not get hung up in labels but you have to be you. You don't define a label you define who you are. 

If I am not your emotional support? Why do I need you in my life? Some people can not handle being that close, it makes them run.

Cruel cruel cruel, it is one thing to send someone to grocery shipping for process food.  Send someone shopping for fresh veggies and protein.  Not so easy being sent out to buy fresh quality stuff.

Why is it crawling on the floor? Sign of respect? Sign of submission or maybe it crawls on the floor cause the legs have failed due to being played with too much. 

Drive the mind and the body will attempt to catch up.

It is one thing to create desire for what I can do. It is another to create a strong craving for relationship that took time and effort to create.

Basic 101. Can we create understanding? 

Of course I am not want you think I should be. Laughs 

But I am who I am.. to be what you want means I am acting lol. 

Some subs get happy when you tell them they are doing charity work. Like emptying out a truck for a some food drive.  Actions and words should always have weight. Relationships take time and effort.

Gaps of silences in a conversation is a good practice to learn.  The old fashion think before you speak. 

Since I don't allow others to mess with prospective slaves having them go quite help the typical emotion response when they communicate. 

Simply like saying to your self why are you attempting to influence me? 

Darn yapping puppies. Most are not worth time. Why? They lack being responsible and they lack the ability to have that strong relationship. 

The spot at my feet has value. If you show disrespect towards it. I have the right to kick you off. Don't waste my time. If you don't have what it takes.

Show me your worthiness and make me proud of you. I want I need that soul that I can scream to the world that one is mind.

Most others are like screaming puppies to me. I am not your solution to your problems. Yes, I can fix them but problems are not the basis anything long term.

I woke alone not because, I can not find just anyone. I walk alone cause I know when I find it. I can pour my time and energy into something that is special. My life isn't for everyone. My personality is rough around the edges. I. Do not seek perfection but the willingness to change for the better.  Dancing and singing take time and practice. Reading books is a hard no for some lol others read books like they have an empty soul. Lol.  Can you spend time in the garden? Can you howl at the moon?  Can you swing dance?  Have you had muscle cramps when you were rigged?   Health circulation, joints and nerves are important.  We all have personal baggage but if you can not handle the bumps in life.

And hold on tight to the relationship you help to create .why should someone spend time to build something that just goes poof. Laughs..

Go find your happiness.

I am not your prince nor I am your monster in life.

Do not follow me blindly. Do not try to mold me into something I am not. 

Do not bother me if you have a person in your life. It might curse you with a desire you cannot satisfy. 

Offers of sex and kink will be politely ignored. If that was my goal it would be  is easy to aquire. 

Do not follow where I go, I follow the hard path. It isn't easy life and it would cause most an unhappy existence.

 

We all go through life. If we allow others to steer where we go and what we do. You will find your self some place you don't want to be.

Pick carefully those you have in your life. Eyes wide open.  

Little naked sub got surprised by a bathroom door opening. So it bend down and threw up it arms with a fingers sticking up.

Why isn't that one mine? Simple it had a backup Dom, suddenly words of dedication turn meaninglessness.

 

Seems like a life time ago......

Little urn, little urn sitting on my shelf.

I wonder if the prayers I send to you are getting through?

The life you had was crazy. 

I friend zoned you before friend zone was a catch phrase. 

With all the things you had in your life, you needed a friend.

This digital site is like a virtual grave yard at times.

Visiting profiles reminded me of all those I have run across. 

I don't know what you told your brothers about our relationship 

But they gave me a little gift of you in an little urn. 

Rest well, rest in peace 

Some people sing during.. Some people pass out, some people talk in tongues, Some tinkle, some produce an amazing amount of self lubricant. Some people attempt to want to crawl into your skin to get closer, some stay in a safe corner to hide and others recover in the cage to be safe...

With grace and beauty as it walks.  A great relationship makes it seems effortless but once it is created it become of value.  Once it becomes so valuable, it can be stolen.  Once a  life of hope becomes darken, a certain sadness blankets the day. Time to recover and recreate something you know can create.

When I talk about people self eliminating..

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Laughs

It struggles so hard to be what the world wants it to be. Behind closed doors. 

I stripped it and broke down it walls.  It is truly naked and is like a raw nerve. 

I gave it acceptance to just to be what is it. 

Under obligation, I have been asked to go to a party. I growl and refuse. I don't like speaking to the great unwashed cause there is always some someone who is happy to sponge off other people's experiences and experiment on some hapless soul.

Are you at least responsible to take responsibility when things blow up in your face? 

Are you doing this in an attempt to fulfill or fix your own issues?  

People self eliminate themselves so quickly sometimes and poof they are gone. We're they even real?  Do not know. Do not care. 

 

Odd but an amusing conversation.

So you are a writer and are just communicating with me to get ideas for your book?

Great another hack attempting to write a porno. Insert excuses.  I have heard tons of reasons laughs.

So let me get this straight, you are going to attempt to write about someone's else life experience and spread your interpretation through out the world to make a buck. If you write based on stuff you made up and it causes damage to people are you going to be responsible enough to admit that you have negatively affected people?  Insert more excuses.  So it just a made up story from your brain to make a buck.  Just like a porno. 

There a difference from describing a spot on the ground, being given a spot on the ground and from actually earning that spot on the ground.

 

 

Noise making ball gags and a rubber band snapping. Sometimes it the simple things that keeps one happy.

How to scare off people.  Laughs.

Read a book and than summarize that  book.

Tap and ballroom dancing lessons.

Sing a song loud and clear. 

I have seen many of feet flee. Laughs

Of course, I can make you feel again. Yes, I understand what you do makes your emotional responses a bit muted. 

So if I understand the why, why can I not give you what you need.

What I do is addictive. It would be irresponsible to do and not think of what happens afterwards.

I do not move through life sailing on broken souls.

That little spot of ground at the feet is only has  importants if it is treated as what it is and not a prop..

If your mind isn't my most favorite play ground. There is something seriously wrong 

If you can not be my canvas, I am not the one for you. Life is more than surviving. It a celebration of existence..

 

But but I was what you wanted..  laughs did I ask ypu to be? No.

Why do I want someone who pretends or acts? Of course I can direct a scene but an act is an act.

Once you have locked into a soul with real responses. Acting is just a imagination of life.

Have fun and be real..

How to annoy?  Core a ball gage. Insert duck call.

Oh poor thing you can't reach sub space while quacking.

 

I have met some amazing people here in person from all walks of life.  

There a word that upset a lot of people, it called competition. 

Opportunities only open for a while and without proper attention. Those opportunities close.

It not a threat. It just life.  Building a relationship take time and effort, if you can't or won't. Searching to find someone who is willing is much easier than try to fix problems.  

 

Zero effort relationship are worth thier weight. 

If you have never fought for what is important to you? 

 

It easy to find someone to enjoy the good times. It the ones that stay with you through the bad times makes life worth living.

 

Of course I can push to it breaks, but what kind of life is a life filledwith broken souls?

 

Can you sing? Can you dance?  What Instruments do you play?

If I am inspired to dress you into something special would you dress for my enjoyment? 

Enjoyment for the moment or a structured composed picture? 

Pray for those who have never howled at the moon.  

It complains too much and yet it screams you don't listen. 

If your goal is to create understanding, screaming rarely works. Laughs. 

Ball gags will slow down and restrict communication but words with thought and meaning are better spoken compared to just human noise.

 

 

It cries cause It struggles with the life It wants to have compared with the life It has.  There is a certain cruelty to show someone what can be done now it faces a choice.  To have something you want compared to continue to live your same life..

It can't cook or clean and all it brings is an attitude.  You bring me a broken person in need of serious need of therapy.

And yet I am the problem. Laughs

If you sexual key a slave to get excited by socks, learn to lock your socks up and no shoving them in thier mouth just increases the issues. LoL

Never tell a high emotional strong individual how to react in a session.  Subs will sometimes talk to each other about a session they have even with  the same person. An experince this intense, I never recommend talking to a point  where some one decides to get judged. Nothing comes out good when this happens. 

A submissive who fails to please is a miserable creature.  Adding judgements of others creates explosive out comes.

 

 

It not to gathering of people to celebrate a holiday that gets to me. It what happens afterwards. The good byes, the missing of the bodies sleeping in the same bed room.  The house is put back together. A ton of memories were generated. Buying food for one is going to be tough.

I hope.your holidays were filled with some pretty intense people..

 

Holidays times are fun and exciting times.  Sometimes I reach out to old  subs and slaves and give them some course correcting advice. 

While connecting directly one on one does escape me from time to time, putting together a group is like falling off a log. So holiday are typically fun filled with activities. 

There is something festive about naked people and Christmas trees. 

Large buffet meals served by bondage maids. 

Eating off of naked bodies..

So have fun making topless cookies and squeeze enjoyment out of this holiday season.

How odd it is to create a relationship that on one hand it soul is mine to push and torment yet at the same time  to drive that person to seek that safe harbor into my arms.

If I become your drug of choice, will you seek a cure for the addiction? 

 

While I am capable of administrating therapy, and solving multiple problems at the same time. I am not here to be your therapist nor the solution to your life problems. Relationships based on solving your problems never last very long....

Lots of people want the good stuff but rare is the one who is willing to put in the work.

If the value of the little patch of ground at your feet can be gotten by just asking does it have great value? 

 

It make a request of me.  Don't spoil me. If your preparing for failure. Obvious there is a trust issue to address before things move forward.

It like art. It turns into a combination of what it is and what I can make it to become.  But the more time you invest the more of a value it has. 

 

If your trapped yourself in a life you don't want, why is it my responsibility to free you from the mess you made? 

 

If you stop leading your relationship. Your relationship will change.  It the reason why I don't allow that to happen. If you Abandon your leadership role who is really to blame? . Lead with responsibility. 

It wants my time and attention. Yet I do not give it any. It doesn’t have the time to build something solid. Why lose the opportunity to find what you need and waste it on something temporary.

 

I do admit, I am not for everyone. You have been you for all your life  I could generate a whole list of things to improve. Bad habits to break. Etc etc. It more easier to find a person with lower expectations. It the easier thing you can do.  But if no one presses your metal. You will never know.

Does the iron know if it being forged into  art? 

The older and cooler the iron the harder the iron must be beaten. 

Yes, most people have problems. Nature of life but you cannot build a life on problems and solutions.

 

Do I look like I react to promises of easy sexy?  Laughs.

 

It use to be I would take a person to the local bdsm event and see how they react.  Now I take them to the gym instead lol

I lead, you follow. If you can't follow, I wish you well and hope you find what you need. 

So why do i forced a zero sex policy?  Control?  Punishment?  Naaa 

To get a person to re focus on what is important.  Sometimes you have to abstain. 

Imagine a life without the things that dull you on how you react with life. 

Instance relationships never last, what do you mean life isn't porno laughs..

Life isn't a Disney story either.  If your not willing to invest the time why are you surprised when things don't work out..

If I push your sexual attributes to higher heights can you handle getting more attention?  Will it make you wander away? 

It wants something  serious but it shows disrespect. I wish it well and tell it to move along. Great relationship take time and effort. If your unwilling to spend time to bridge to create a bit of understanding. There is no way you can adapt to my world. My life is not easy and nor is it not suited for most people. 

In some relationship, the sub has to guess what is required in a relationship. Some view a list of requirements as a control issue.  There is something comforting in knowing what is expected. There is a huge learning curb to learn all that is required. It takes time and commitment. 

There are those who just want the good stuff.  Many want to have.at the feet experience but have no clue to get there..

Some people are just not ready to be tested on thier humanity. While I understand they what they want, this doesn't make it an obligation for me to give it to them. Don't ask to be guided or lead if you can follow or listen.. 

Some vanilla vegan was making comments about cows milk and talking how we should be milking humans.

I had to laugh, ran across someone special who pump out so much milk she donated to her local hospital. 

Milking someone into submission can be a wet and quiet fun experience.  

Just a funny side note, if you train yours to moo when they are smacked on the behind. Leaving a sport arena and smacking a butt will get a whole crowd of people mooing.  Laughs 

Yes, ropes and chains are fun but sometimes getting your submissive to just bounce around house is fun also.

 

Just another rambling post.  If you don't understand the reasons why please feel free to ignore me. I won't take offense. 

Sorry, you won't get the experience you want from me.  I have run across many boxers those who lives  are like little containers. If this is your lifestyle and it works for you. I am happy you found something that works for you. I know how I am, my influence is a whole life experience.

Meaning just trying to contain the experiences in a room is going to cause issues.

Jury duty. Yippee but I wasn't picked. I don't think the court want to know why I know so many of them.  Seen you before' Seen you and you. Laughs. 

I am stronger than the troubles you have had in your life but some have a strong grip on them. 

 

A weighted belt tends to make a person crawl on the floor.  A push to the side will make them stuck on the floor arms and leg waving about.

If you don't live in fear that I will take over your life. I am not scary enough for you.

Of course I can push beyond what you can handle but I don't want to leave behind broken people on my wake in life.

 

To create a life with someone is not as hard as it seems but  Protecting it is more difficult.

Well meaning friends will try to throw thier influence on your life.  Well this is all great and good if your relationships aligns with what you consider a happy life. Most people don't see the value of the little peice of ground around two feet. 

Omg and your naked too with all your attention focused on the person your with? 

These are concepts that are difficult to gr for many. 

People tend to see the kink and not the relationship..

 

The problem is if you amp up a person's sexuality. Instead of being ready for you at a moment notice. Typical they start searching for satisfaction some where else. 

Yes, given time and effort. I can invade your brain but honestly if your not willing to invest the time your don't deserve that kind of relationship.

Welcome to the Walmart fast food mentality of relationships. 

If course I can teach but teaching irresponsible people just creates waves of broken people.

If you don't listen to my stories, you will never figure me out. Laughs.

How much weight would you loose if I printed your orgasm face at the bottom of plate of food that you use? 

 

People think it odd that the carpet has extra thick padding. If you have peeps crawling on the floor from time to time. It makes sense. 

 

Manipulation, while some people flee from it others grovel to have it in its life.

 

It's life is a bit messed up. It struggles for Structure. So as i organize parts of it life.  It life becomes easier but problems don't make a great foundation for a relationship.  They looking for help with a problems and once help is received, They wonder off.

I know you expect me to chase you when you run but if you can not handle the the simple vanilla things. There is not much hope when the relationship gets intensly personal. So wish them well in whatever hole they hide in. You can't top from the bottom. You can not lead from behind. 

 

Inspire it to serve better. Attempt to create better communication skills so that understanding can happen. 

If I can not bring you out, you shouldn't be mine.

Hanging up during a conversation is grounds for termination. Lol if you think I am that replaceable please replace me. Free me to tangle with a soul who can handle what i server. I am sure there are big box stores that have what you need and want.

Tied tightly, it struggles  and  the ropes that bind it. Suddenly it passes gas and safeword out. It seems humiliation is a hard pass. Laughs

I love those clothes donations boxes. If your clothes offend in the box they go. 

How do you have a submissive?  After a strong and session, if you ask the question. . Again?  If they slowly crawl away. You just got your self a a kinky person. Laughs

Control is more than just stripping you of Control out of your own life. 

What next is important. Producing clueless people should never be the goal

 

It begs for me to take control of what it is and what it does. It willing to endure anything I give to it. The major red flag is that it has no clue of who i am.and what am I capable of. Submitting without vetting  just plain stinks of desperation.

Some people can not handle the intensities of a strong relationship. It is sad that it happens but failure is to be expected when seeking special relationships.  I am going to enjoy the extra time and energy. No more indulging in to the submissive's mind and life. It has grabbed it privates and is running towards the hills. I hope it recovers from opening it's pandora's box. Normally I would slow the influence so stopping wouldn't be so jarring to them but some just jump off.  I hope the land well..

If you live up to a label are you a label?  

Sometime the answer is no.  No isn't a cruel thing to say. It allows parties invold to move beyond what is in front of them to a possible of what can be some place else.

 

Your path isn't always my path.  For some people, a quiet person without any drama issues is desirable.  

I am not one of those, it is my nature to amp up the emotional response.  A quiet life isn't for me. I thrive on wonderful high passionate people. I tend to create them as I have been accused of.

I know what I do is dam addictive.  You need more than just a want. As the responsible type, there is the how is this going to effect you today and tomorrow. 

You would figure, if anyone show an interest that I would be welcoming.  I question your sanity and warn you about me.

What I do is addictive,  while some reduce emotional state, I tend to increase the emotional flow.  

It is easier to have a low energy relationship but I am the hard path kind of person. 

So pray for those who approach, they won't have it easy. 

 

Did you really lose yourself or are you blaming someone who discovered the real you? 

 

So what will happen to you once your passions consume you.

Yes, I know loneliness stinks but filling the void with another, you loose the chance of finding the person yoi need.

Opportunity are not always 24/7. Miss opportunities is just that missed.

Crazy and confused.  I keep repeating myself. You just have to be you. Not not what you think I want you to be. It addictive to crying in my arms and confessing to a life not lived well.  Do not live a life your cursed with but live the life you want too.

 

Can you cook and clean? Funny how many can not or won't. 

There are many offers for bodies to play with and yes I know what I do is addictive. Some people figure that since your an adult that you are adult enough to make that choice.  Being responsible means deal with what happens afterwards.

I warn people about me.  Not because I am brutal but because of the addictive nature of the things I do.

Leading is an addictive to a submissive..

The wonderful thing about scars is that there is a time period where they are sensitive to the touch. Using the echo effect training someone to have an orgasm by rubbing a scare is something fun to do on long winter nights. 

 

It's a small small world.  I feel eyes burning on my soul laughs. It always fun to run across a person that you had fun with A lifetime ago. Some people, Excuse themselves and run.  Some pretend they have never seen you but stare at you like the last peice of candy in the candy store.

I don't out the people. Life is difficult enough without the whole world being up in your business. Lol

I don't encourage you to be mine, I encourage you to be happy. Stronger than rope or chain.

Of course I am hated laughs. I exposed you to what you are to yourself. You can deny and call me names but you can't run away from truth you really are.

You can't keep my attention by your naked bits. Your truth is more interesting. Your struggles. Your failures and successes are more interesting.  

There a burden in knowing who you really are. I never tangle with angles. I have seen many who have cursed their life to live a life that was thrust upon themselves not the one they have chosen. Freeing a soul to choice a better life is hard but satisfying kink. 

Shave a person?

Wax a person? 

Or pluck the hairs off?

There is a difference.

The artist in me thinks I can create furry art work.

 

Confusion is the vanilla word for escape. Laughs

There is something within me that loves responsible and to be given  that great amount of trust to lead. 

Of course I will vet you,  why do I want to invest in something fake? Or being used as fantasy fodder? I avoid people who box thier lives cause I know I will tend to want to know every thing about you. This includes all those secrets you are attempting to die with. You are not going to have a fun time being secretive trying desperately to hold on. Letting go is amazing. Become a lock box of secrets is soul crushing. 

 

Failures happens, what happens next depends on the quality of the people involded.

 

There is something delicious about intensity. It emotions are on fire. Passion make life worth living.

People always want that person at their feet but many don't realize what it takes to get a person there.

 

So many souls that I can pick from, what sways my choice?  It the ability to put in effort, the struggle to learn and create understanding. 

The ability to put the relationship before the kink. 

 

Of course the relationship has to be stronger than normal, if all that is needed is to get along,  that kind of relationship is easy to achieve. If your leading there must be more understanding and trust involded.  Somepeople never get what they want cause they themselves are the limit.

A lot of people are like a Pandora's box. They want to be opened and explored. Before any activities happen, a judgment call has to be made. Can they handle what they will find with in themselves. Things that are capable of doing are extremely addictive. To leave a person alone with a new addiction is cruel and typically causes them to go wanting in dangerous places. 

To become a strong influence in another life, one has to be stronger than the events of thier past. How can you follow if events in your past  drive you in a different direction. This journey I lead in, has a lot of sadness, bitterness and anger.  Some people are never strong enough to completely let go. Letting go isn't the goal. It what happens afterwards which is more important. 

 

Your tied naked with your legs spread open.  Your waiting for something kinky or sexual to happen.  Unfortunately you ran across someone who not quiet stable. How are you going to explain why your privates look like some demented smurf?  It has eyes that seem to say why am I blue?  Laughs 

Everybody should have access to a sound proof room. 

Emotional expression in a room you feel safe is important. 

The release of anger and pain allow one to move forward expect a lot of cursing and crying. 

Some people are easy to please, I am not one of those.

I get offers of sex and kink all the time. Do you really think those offers are taken seriously?  

Show me you have the time and energy to invest to create a relationship that others will attempt to destroy. Show me your strength to be create understanding.

 

In order to make something look effortless it take time and effort. If you always take the easy way, you never know what you can achieve.

Are you here for the fun or here cause it cheaper than therapy?  

If I wire you up to a lie detector and ask you dark questions, I bet most will run.  Towards or from is your choice.

Beating a rug clean can make certain people jealous or wet.

What can cut short a bondage session?  Cooking beacon. Too much drool can be choking hazzard.

 

 

 

I am a  insert label.  You are a label?  Labels are the easy lazy way.  It is the brain attempt to create a short cut. 

The problem of replacing a name with a label is that the label is already pre-defined. The name is the perfect match to the person.  It is easy to build a relationship with a name.  If the name changes to the label it is no longer it's true self is different. How does one build a strong relationship with a label?  It so easy to build on something real rather a label.

 

Don't harrass vanillas, it turns them into wide eye puppy dogs.

Things have value, the harder you work for it, the more value it has.  This includes relationships. 

Not everyone is suitable to deal with a high intensity relationship. When things are going right, it is satisfying and pleasing. 

When things go wrong, it is addictive and destructive,a good therapist is recommended 

 

I won't compete with your past but I can affect your future.  If you keep popping out of sub space, is it cruel to kick you back in?

If your body still reacts and your mind screams no, do you think you will ever agree to the word. Again? 

If a 30 something ego thinks that I should be grateful, the reaction to the 21 plus is comical.

The 70 something grumbles away but show a much higher degree of submission.

A house full of lesbians, doesn't make me one.

While I have had multiple dommes as a submissive in my life. It doesn't mean I want one to keep. Teaching  a few lessons doesn't equate to wanting one in my life. 

 

Why do I play the long game? It easy to strike when the iron is hot when the wow effect is there. I play it slow because time has a way of revealing the truth. I know how disruptive my influence can be. I never take on those who are already involded. Why spend the time? I call it bdsm self pleasuring.  Fun but it never goes anywhere.  There are a lot of kinksters who would love to chew up your time, knowing that time and effort isn't going anywhere .

Over stimulation has some odd effaspects on a person.  Some become extremely angry and slashes out any attempts to calm a person down.

Some become these little creatures that just look for sexual play and they will happily play with themselves until they fall asleep.

Some will become snuggle bugs in blankets and soft toys. 

Some will just sit quietly desperately trying to process what they have gone through..

Some will just cry uncontrollable. Some cry happy other cry angry. 

Insert people are like a box of chocolate.. 

Screaming. Crying  pleading  attempts to bargain so many dark secrets, it spews out everything that it is and everything that it wants to be. So much anger and hate spews out. It quiet amazing what is bottled up.  While giving this kind of experience is amazing, it the what happens afterwards that you got to look out for for. Spoiling a mind has it pitfalls

If there is no struggle to be at feet of someone. Does the spot have any value.

If the things in your life are not acquired without struggle, do they really have value? 

If you want the easy way, I am not for you. 

If you know it all, there is no room to grow.  

Nothing public it says.. I laugh..

You running around being kinky and sexual active at work is the normal concern?  Really? Do you think I am stupid to allow negative things happen in your life?  

Why do I want what is mind being disadvantage at work? 

Taking a person back to school to take management course. Getting it a tutor to improve thier skill levels Is more my speed.

 

There a bit of ground by my feet. To most people it just a nondeive piece of dirt. It has no meaning to them. To the person who put in time and effort into being able to say that is my place under those feet. It has meaning and an extreme value. 

So when a person see a kneeling person at my feet. This doesn't mean that anyone is allowed at my feet. With a sense of value comes a zero tolerance to those who disrespect the spot.  Anger arises and issues start to form. 

If you going to recreate the Marlin Monroe train grate event with wind blowing up a dress.  Having lotions for the private bits is important.  Wind chafing privates should be a part of the scene.  

Why are you walking funny?  Why didn't you tell me during? The answer isn't I was having fun and didn't want to spoil it.  Not an acceptable answer..

I am not for you, if I can not bring out the best in you.  While yes I can degrade you to point where you have zero value. Destruction is easy. Creativity is much harder. 

If I took the easy way and made you submit through sexual or pain techniques. Do I really have you? Or did I just make you addicted to what I can do?

If I can not influence you from any where in the world. I am not for you.

If I can't make you value  that  little patch of ground at my feet, I am not for you.

I am not your fodder for your role playing games..

I always warn those who want to tangle with me.  You would think I would delight in those who want to experience what I got to offer. The stuff I do is addictive.  Eyes wide open. Open handed. Hard path.

If we are successfully in what we do, we leave a positive mark on the souls we touch.

So why don't i have my own dungeon, a gathering of like minded people? Good question. The stuff I do is like an art form. The relationships I build are like gold to me. I tend to amplifier a person's tendency to be who they are. How to dress and how to act become like a dance between the souls.  There is something comforting in know how to behave, how to dress and how to act. When your in a great relationship it is amazing 

So why no gatherings?  Instead of creating one owns thing or own art form people tend to copy. Instead of being inspired and doing things that expand and strengthen the relationship. It becomes a 50 shades of copy cats. So many people want to have a sexual tiger by the tail but don't understand the work involded to get a person there. Even the most broken person  can be absolutely amazing. Even in a wheel chair. 

Nothing more sickening watching others use your skill development with someone amazing and have it reduced to some cheap pick up line. 

 

Some interactions will leave a impression like a foot print on a sandy desert. Hard to see soon to be forgotten. 

Others will leave a permanent mark even tho you haven't met.

The no test.. red flag..

If you say No and No isn't respected. This isn't one you should be tangling with. 

Shouting your opinions only works if someone listens.

 

Sorry but if you want to lead in this relationship, that position is already filled already.

Yes, I am more than capable of finding a nice place to eat.

If I am capable to make you walk funny the day after so taking care of food needs is pretty simple.

I have had very large people in my life. While making them drop weight is easy.. it keeping them loyal afterwards which is hard.

 

Side ways dog look. Laughs

If your unhappy with a site, why do people feel the need to say so and  leave? 

To ask for empathy shouldn't you have some? 

Guarantee you will hit clinkers and clunkers in this world but why do you let these people dictate your behavior?

Given enough time, lairs will expose themselves. Cannot build something real on vapor ware.

1st impressions matter.  If I grab hard and squeeze, I bet you will remember what ever I say, even if it's the grocery list. 

People who judge others are no concern of mine. I only listen to people I respect.

I don't need a rope bunny, I got a long list of non sexual people to play with. 

When I warn you about me, this it is not bragging. Just making sure you know what your getting into.

I rather have a real person flaws and all compared to a person who is trying to live up to a label.

 

I am just me. If your looking for perfection, the door is that way.  I do not role-playing. Real is way to enjoyable for me. You have to be more than a willing victim. Bad acting will get you ignored. If I can not make you feel something from across the country. I am not the one for you. 

How many years does it take to have someone forget? Ran across a rope bunny. Trust was built. The negotiations started. Tie down points were discussed. A spotter was presented. Goals were discussed different materials, sizes of ropes. How knotts react under stress. While it was naked, there wouldn't be any sex. It was a basic fact finding mission. 

Safe words and warning signs were talked about.  Blood circulation, nerve pinching, cramping issues. Lots of can you feel this kind of stuff.  How fast can it be cut down. Where the nearest hospital. Do you know how to get there. 

Blankets, stuff to rehydrate to be touched afterward or to be left alone to recover.  How to deal with cramps.  How long of a session. There a lot of before and after stuff to deal with. 

So after 3 sessions, I found out what my curious mind wanted to know. 22 years later I am at an event. The people were kind enough to get me a chair. I typically bring newbies who are curious. They get the Nickle tour.  It a little cold at this place cause when people start showing up. The air conditioner can't compensate fast enough. 

In a chair arms folded. Diffently not this Dom of Doms kind of stands.  More like is he homeless and should we call the cops. Laughs.

Half awake I see a head of hair at my feet. Oh brother, I am not part of the tour.  Being at my feet causes issues. Slaves and subs do get jealous. Just what I need is drama at my feet. I state there are much younger Dom and tour guides who will be happy to communicate with you. Please get up and enjoy what this place provides.  

I get the responses that it missing me at that it had sessions with me.  Decades ago? It should have moved on by now. I must have made a bigger impact in it's life. It is married and it partner knows about me.  While it was fun to look backwards..life is lived forwards. I don't play with married people.  A Strong influence is a disruptive at best.

How cruel is it to give an experience that it cannot experience by itself? 

 

Don't let the bad stuff that happens in your life dictate the kind of life your living now. 

 

Wounds heal? 

Scars fade?

Emotional trauma can be a  life time thing.. laughs

Pain turn sideways is humor.

Sex is easy.  Kink is easy. Getting someone addictive to you is easy.

Ebbs and flows cycles happen. 

Finding things out about you through clicking words is 101 bdsm. Lol

 

It's back.  Sometime I wonder where it goes. Sometime i wonder if it thinks it a frog in a pot of slow boiling water. 

Frog soup. Lol

I think it was in a corner desperately trying to rub off the mark I left on It's soul.

Yup that is a sex joke. 

I warn it about being a pandora's box. It my obligation to warn it about me.

It has a bright soul let's see if I can brighten up the sky with it.

 

It a dark journey I travel. Telling a woman that you trained a woman to be more feminine. You got to be strong enough to deal with the hate. If I train and inspire most will just wander off and will attempt to come back later to find that door closed.  Que being hated once again. 

I have heard pretty words but so many know the words but thier words have zero meaning.  It basically pretty noises. 

It screams it wants to be understood but yet it plays the game of hiding who and what it is. If it puts in the effort, it will be understood, if not it just misses the opportunity to be understood. In the game of hide in seek, finding a new person who want to be found is easier than finding someone who doesn't want to be found. 

I don't make it easy because I know life is hard. Buying friendship isn't the same as having a friend. 

I never keep old toys. When your focus on one, memory of others are just a distraction. 

 

Thank God!  Dodged another red flag laughs. 

It says it only looking for a friend.  Yet it telling me about it's sexuality.  I don't look at friends and think there is a possible sexual encounters to be had. 

It was attempting to get information from me back handedly. I wonder why it could not just asked straight out.

But then again it not mine and I shouldn't attempt to correct it. 

If you can not approach without simple common respect. I recommend researching the subject of how to make and have a friend. 

What we do is addictive. The delightful pleasure that we create to the wicked pain we can deliver. The ebbs and flow are fun to navigate.

There are many who love the good stuff that we are capable of. We influence what we consider ours. Either to have them experience what it feels to be under foot or to strive to be better in life. 

 

The act without the relationship doesn't do it for me. It like putting a great amount of effort and getting a simple thank you and one is pondering yes you created an amazing experience but one is once left alone. What was the point again?  Giving someone a highly charged emotional event for what purpose?  Sometime it best to leave those purposeless encounters alone to find someone special who can just put up with my bad habits..laughs

Funny how some slaves pushes to get a reaction. I normally send it a few red flags so it will wonder off.

I am not your Master do not attempt to waste my personal energy. I reserve that kind of attention and energy to a person who is dedicated to a relationship. 

 

A little peice of fluff came knocking at my door. Hello fluff.

It brags about itself. Pretty words that have no meaning are just pretty noises.

Actions and the ability to create history attract more interest than colorful speeches..

 

To be intuned with another, it a comfy feeling but yet for some it scares them quiet a bit. Especially to those who hide who and what they are..

Sex and kink are easy to find an accomplish. It that wonderful relationship that is a full time up hill battle. 

It not my thing to lower another's person self worth so I can feel superior.  There is something quiet delicious decadent about submission of a person who got thier stuff together. 

I love pouring in time and effort to create a living breathing peice of art but with anything of value. They tend to chase or be chased by others.  Can't judge loyalty by looks. 

Pretty words only have meaning if they are spoken in truth.

I rather not leave it with emotional scars and decades of therapy. 

Easy path. Follow the flow, create cookie cutter submissives. 

Hard path, take people as individuals. Bring out the best. Use happiness as a binding agent. Use the relationship as a source of joy and happiness. 

It it is unsettling for some to see a hanging submissive break out in song while being cropped. 

Add fuel to the passion and yours will run to serve you. 

Why, yes I have had people get upset at me.  It seems that thiers regular means to get satisfaction no longer works for them. 

 

Push to exhaustion. It's mind is sprung. It crawls because the legs are unsteady. Fear, angry and crying afterwards. There are times when you have to deal with extreme hatred and yet it is held close. Being forced to rehydrate. Kept warm until all of those hormones finally run It's course.

These emotional charged events makes me think fondly of the old days. Just simple orgasms. 

 

So what is worse. Trapped by fear? Or trapped by happiness. Fear allow you to escape. Most people do not run from happiness.

 

A little book worm, reads but it takes someone special to experience and experiment. 

Reading someone else's life isn't the same of experience a life. 

Reading about an orgasm isn't the same as having one.

 

Mind warping sessions. While I enjoy administrating them, I got to be picky who I tangle with. What I do always tends to leave a mark on the soul I tangle with. I do warn people I have too. I think what I do tends to make people a little crazy. 

 

A little lump of clay.  Like any artist, you put time and effort into it to represent an expression for passion. 

The funny thing about adding value into a lump.  It becomes more valuable. People take notice. Once that happens, it gets more attention and gets drawn away. 

You start to question, why add value into lumps of clays you find along the way.

And To suggest that sessions should continue without the relationship part is just comical to me.

If I your mine and I leave the state, I am going to drag your sorry ass with me. 

If you complain do not spoil me, I take that your are looking for an exit.

If your worried what others might think, you not concentrating on what is in front of you.

 

Do I want your pictures? No. I rather have your submission. If you offer me holes, I rather have your soul.

I never tired of playing with ropes. Do I take pictures of my creations? Somethings just need to be experienced 

If your focus on getting the right picture. It steal focus on the task on hand. Distractions pull you away from the experience. 

Are you enjoying the concert or are you busy trying to capture the past?

 

If your panning for gold, you need to put the work in and go to the places that have gold. 

Who are you hurting when you limit your scope of your search. 

While I am honored that you wish to get a tattoo of my mark on your body.  Marks should represent what has been accomplished and not what you wish they will be in the future..

Without a personal growth, your just going through the actions. It doesn't feed the passions. 

 

I have been offered bodies before but honestly it thier mind which adds fire to this old soul.

Thier mind is my play ground. Thier life us under my influence. Their's happiness is my responsibility.

I lead, they trust and we communicate. Of course it is stronge enough to lead itself. I am not attracted to bimbos.

Speaking the truth is easier for I am hard on liars. I am like a cat in that way.  I do enjoy tormenting them until the truth comes out.

 

Nothing is more sweeter than being in tuned. When sessions become and expressions of the relationship.  While I have run across many who want. It is rare to find those who want to put in the effort.  Can you open up to that depth?  Many have lost the ability to do so along the way..

Instead of living the life you could, many are living the life they are cursed with. 

Of courses I lead. It is in my nature to to  do so but if your looking for a 50 50 relationship. I am not interested. If I concentrate and build a relationship based on being reliable and responsible with trust and communication.  Imagine being questioned on my ability to lead?  While there are many who want and seek a 50 50 type of relationship. If you actively refuse to follow, this will give both parties a bitter taste in the relationship. 

Of course I read profiles, do you really think it wise to choose based upon a picture? Laughs

Do I find crazy people or do I just make them? To be honest a bit of both. 

Can you survive what I put you through and how will that affect you? 

If i break walls and stop destructive coping behaviors, typical reaction is that, I will end up with a very clingy crying person.  I typically warn people what is coming up. 

This typically scares most people. 

Wounds heal, scars fade but emotional events typically last a lifetime. 

 

Just because you want to tangle with this old soul doesn't mean you get an automatic yes.

I refuse to leave broken people in my wake just because it what they want.

I take pride in ownership. 

What comes afterwards? I know what I do is very addictive, it changes people's lives. It pumps passion and energy. There are some extreme highs and if I am not careful with people they will spend a life time trying to fill that box that been opened. 

Do I really need someone who just wants me cause of the things I can do for them? 

 

What comes afterwards? I know what I do is very addictive, it changes people's lives. It pumps passion and energy. There are some extreme highs and if I am not careful with people they will spend a life time trying to fill that box that been opened. 

Do I really need someone who just wants me cause of the things I can do for them? 

 

I am unsuited for those who have a container life.

It is not that I can not push you until you break.. it is do I have the skill to have you heal after wards..

It makes a difference ropes tied inward verses rope tied out wards

Some people's expectations of others, simply eliminate possibilities until the chances of finding equates to a single digit of success. Do you feel lucky? 

Don't expect me to live up to your Disney dreams. If you can not work towards what you want and need, I dont need laziness in my life. 

 

If I can not bring out the best in you, I am an ill fit and you must travel on.

 

What I do is addictive. Yet I get approached for what I can do for them and rarely what they can do for me.  Not only do I realize that the human body has ebbs and flows but life has them also. Relationships take hard work. Yet few are willing to put in the time. Sometimes you don't find your perfect one but you find the one who is willing to consume thier life to become the perfect fit. No regrets we live life forwards. 

Of course everyone here isn't your prefect match and yes it get discouraging but if you don't seek the likelihood that what you need will fall into your lap is remote.  Now explain to me how your going to win the lotto without buying a ticket? 

 

Let me get this straight you want a dominant but you want him to have zero influence in your life.  May suggest looking for a submissive instead or perhaps a nice switch. Laughs

I think it is done. There are no reach out any more. It profile is de active here. It doesn't reach out nor does it share anymore.

It is my hope that it has found what it needs. Some people are just not ready for what I offer.  When that choice has been made, support is given until it isn't needed anymore.  I have run across too many broken ones. It hard to describe to some why.  Consider it more life after care after a rough session.  Emotional and spiritual separation take time.  

 

I know special when feel it. Sometime special is only temporary. So many excuses not create something stronger. So much fear. Living safe will insure that the same life you lead will still be the same. 

Passion, chances and changes come with a cost. It will trigger fears and the desire to find that safe place.

The life you want rarely comes to those who sit and wait. Relationships are opportunities and almost never available 24/7.

To find someone to build something special isn't easy.

Of course i can give a person a structure life.  There are benefits in having a structured life.

But, you can not build a relationship on just a need. 

If I can not influence you from where I am to where you are. I am not the one for you.  I am attracted to strong personality but strong people hate the idea of letting go. It scares them to the core. Letting go and trusting  is almost impossible when life hasn't been kind to you. 

You can not buy trust and or understanding. It is a hard path to go this way.  There are those who seek perfection hoping perfection will get them where they want to be. Without going through storms and tough times, one tends not to appericate the nature of life.  

Do I have submissives in my life?   Short answer  is Yes, I do but a submissive friend isn't owned  by me nor do I have a desire to see them  naked.  I tend to teach life lessons. It not an over night thing. It a long term thing I do. I never put a person on a diet. It always a change of life style. If a person is happier with the new lifestyle it is natural for them to stick with it. 

When dealing with people who are highly emotional. Giving them the tools to better cope with their life is much better than having them carry a leash to me. 

There a difference between being forced to endure compared to  be excited to participate. One wants to crawl up ones own self, the other is delighted to be part of.

It easy to run away from something you endure, it very hard to leave something that you are a part of..

If you got a vanilla partner, move along.  My kind of influence will give you relationship stress. I like being intensive I enjoy knowing what you think and delight is creating a stronger relationship. I am addictive. It is one of the reasons why when a relationship ends, I have a weaning off period. 

I stay true to myself so don't expect me to follow the definitions in your head. I am not perfect nor do I expect you to be.  While I am capable of many things, I am not a solution to your problems.  I do get upset when you think you have to be better ro tangle with me.  So if you have issued and problems. Going quiet is a good way of loosing that tight connection. 

What do I look for in a submissive?

Simple someone who can put up with me. 

I warn people about the pandora's box effect. People read alot isn't the same as life experiences.

I have been approached by multitudes of long distance people and even tho I can influence them from a far. They can not give me what I need from a long distance away.  There is something to be said about 2 people sleeping in a single bed holding on together so you don't fall out of bed. 

 

What base my decisions on a slave by body type? Laughs. I base my choice on the ability to listen and communicate. 

I who can mold and create so base my choice on age or body shape not very likely. 

I don't want a blank mind. 

 

It screams teach me,  why are you asking me? To use my techniques for your own wants and desires? 

While I am very good with solutions, I am not your solution to your problem. Problems are not a good foundation for any relationship.

I don't play well with people who wear masks " non physical"  I tend to rip them off and expose them to themselves to show them what they really are.  Thick walls don't scare me.  There is a reason why I warn those who are wanting to tangle with this old soul. 

 

If your mine, Never expect to shower alone. I will check for lumps and bumps. If I find anything, it an automatic trip to the doctors.

 

Let me get this straight, you want me to know your soul like a well read book. To know your darkest secrets. To give you a meaningful life filled with emotional satisfaction. To feed your spiritual needs. And than crank it up to a higher lever more than you can accomplish by yourself or through current relationships.  

I am box opener.  I typical warn people about me.  If I was just satisfied by sex or kink, I would easily found someone suitable. Yes, I desire control and the ability to explore who and what you are. Yes, I know I can mold you into what I want but force never is permanent and I like to think the effort I pour into something amazing is permanent. To guide and to grow is a harder path but well worth the effort. 

Can not base a heavy choice on some adult picture. Can't build something permanent on naked pictures. There is something to be said about someone who is really happy to serve. Yes. Attitude matters.and not just the act. 

I like those who struggle to understand and thise who struggle to communicate. They try harder to create understanding.

 

 

What do you mean your too old to be spanked? 

While I am many things, I am not the solution to your problems. Problems don't scare me but problems should never be the base of a relationship.

If I can't make you amazing, you really shouldn't be mine. 

Walk with pride and purpose. They is greatness in belonging. 

 

I really do love inspiring a person to serve well. Communicate is important. Creating understanding is even more important.

Thank God for ball gags. Laughs  I have dealt with people who transition.  Both ways. There was one who kept its balls in a jar and tried to gift them to me.  I have never asked Santa for balls for Christmas lol. Remember it not the transition which isn't important, it what comes next..

Merry Christmas, may your presents not be a pandora's box.

We exist for such a short time in life. So be amazing.

As things wind down a d/s relationship, I send words of encouragement for a few weeks afterwards even tho most likely I am talking to dead air.  It is not an attempt to bring a person back to the relationship. I rather not steal a person's ability to have another relationship in the future.

It is like art, how it is dress, how it acts. Make up is important.  Being Happy while Serving.  Dressing to impress in leather or lace. 

I am not a prince, I have some serious faults. If your a frog looking to be kissed, I am not the one. 

Asking me what I will do with you is a crap shoot cause. I don't put people in categories, scary right to represent you as you and not as a group..

I have had herds of humans.  I still have that tendency finding me alone is rare, unless I am chasing a one. There a certain delight in finding one. There advantages of multiples is better support but everyone needs to put effort into us or it simply falls apart.

Managing a group can be frustrating beyond belief but it has it rewards. Happiness is the goal..

 

Passion in the things you do. Passion in the soul you keep. 

Don't let crappy people steal your thunder.  Your happiness is worth fighting for.

Move along move along. I am not your wank material.  I have zero interest in fueling your fantasies. I don't want to be in your play or book.

Zero interest in being interviewed for show or podcast. Your hang ups are yours unless your mine. 

 

With so many things that can go wrong, why oh why do we try again? Simple, when it is working, it is amazing.

 

The things I do binds their's souls to me. So to say I am into one kink or another isn't quite correct. Kink isn't my goal. My life would be easier if it was. I walk the hard path. 

If your not true to yourself, finding that solidly thing you want is impossible. Pretty words with no weight are just pretty noises.

It found something real and i know it got scared and ran.  There is something to be said about it grabbing its privates and running for the hills.

There was no naked pictures involded, there were no sessions or orgasms. Just simple conversations of who it was and what I am. 

I am scary to some..laughs

Some people don't understand the attraction.. it scares them and confuses them.  Music rings a tone in a person's soul. Good relationships rings true also.

Never celebrated the end of something always celebrated the possibilities.

There is something nice about sleeping in a middle of a pack. Yea the snoring can be an issue. Sleeping on the side get people wondering what side you favor. There is drama about who sleeps where.  But after a while, the pack settles down arms and legs everywhere. It like sleeping in a human blanket. In cold winter nights I miss that..

I have said when things are going great it rarely tells you what kind of person your dealing with.

It when relationships end and the emotional connection is shut off that this is the time you can tell what kind of person your dealing with.

I have ran internet based bdsm rooms and I have hosted brick and motar bdsm events. While I would have love to say, that I have seen more happy couples compared to broken souls.  I can't say that.  I was approached by a group to run a compound for recovering slaves and submissives.  I did declined but sometimes I wonder if I took the wrong path. 

Because of so many broken souls of the past. My end of my relationships tend to be more of the sorry and be happy kind. 

When to sleep, when to wake up, when to shower, what to eat, what to dress, when to exercise, when to work, when to play, when to study, when to read and of  course when to serve.

People might think I am a control freak and frankly I rare care what others think.

I have seen submissive bloom with a little structure in thier life.  

I know what my influence does to couples in relationships.  As want and need become a roaring passion. That neat little box start to melt and holes and cracks just doesn't contain any more.  It easy to say, it won't happen but I rather leave happy people in my wake than broken meat puppets who left to stare out into space.

If you can't stand being hated, this life I lead isn't for you. Laughs.

Of course you going to get push back and have emotional spewing out like a drunkard who has drank too much. Emotional spewing. 

You turned my xxx into a yyy. People got to blame someone. Laughs

Lets fling open all of those emotional scars you so cleverly hide from everyone. You know  poking a beehive is safer right? 

Once you have cried and screamed enough, what part of you is left over?  

Your only mine, if your having nothing left to give and yet u give me the gift of nothing. 

If I can not make you more that what you are, obviously I am the wrong one for you. 

If your are so addicted to me, will you be able to stand what you become? 

If your so intune with my needs and wants can you stand having me intone with you? 

Pitty the one who tangles with me, it going to have a hard life on a hard path. 

Can you walk better? Can you behave better?  Can you talk better? Can you write better?  Can you eat better?  Did you finish reading that book? 

Given intensity over time, the walls will break.  The craziness of you will be exposed to another soul. It is safer to run and hide and pretend that it never happened but the easy road rarely get you where you want to go. How much would you risk to get what you want?

If you find it hard to kick me out of your head than I must be doing a good job. Some people are more afraid of what they are than what they may become. If you use your words to paint lies, how do you build anything long lasting on the the truth? If you can't let go of the ground you hold so tightly with it doesn't matter how hard I kick your ass, you will never get air born. While making a maid out fit out of metal, will get you a lot of attention at the local bdsm meeting. If you don't prepare yours go deal with amount of attention, expect a lot of drama. If you never prepare for that something special who is to blame when it leaves?  Yes, I am older and yes i see the lies and yes understand why you spew them out. 

They is just something funny about a rubber slave and giving them something that gives them Gass beforehand.

 

If you busy your life with the wrong relationships you run the risk of loosing the relationship you want. 

If you sacrifice someone else's happiness to be that filler relationship so you don't want to be alone. What does that say about you?

Yes being alone is hard but it does provide opportunities to really invest your self into something you desire and truly want.

 

You can not have your cake and eat it too. If you want that extra ordinary intensive relationship, you can't side chick it. Yet people do it all the time. 

If you don't make the time to have that something special, who is really to blame? 

A lot of people want but if you do not work to make it happen. The odds of it coming true is rarer.

 

 

 

It's mind and body are my play ground. The way it carry itself reflaspects my influence.  It starts to become art. It blooms under my guidance and teachings. We work hard so that the voice it hears is just me in its head. The sessions are not for punishment but to strengthen the relationship. I push it not to see it fail but to show it can handle and amazing amounts of emotions. I invade it's other relationship not to isolated or not remove but to improve. I am not threatened by other relationships. I work hard to heightened feelings and emotions. A soul in fire is very warm and bright..

Be you and be a positive influence..

And always be awesome especially when the crap hits the fan..

To compare or nor to compare. Either way if your nor careful. You will get yourself into trouble. 

Freedom to be yourself, doesn't mean you will be happy. If you over eat your favorite candy to a point where it is not special anymore. Given a bit of structure of when and where you eat your candy. The want of the candy stays strong and the passion for your candy continues on. 

This is what a bit of structure can do for you. 

Some people hide from the hard work it takes to create a strong relationship. There are no short cuts. The better you become. The more you have to deal with others people trying to steal the relationship you put your time into. The grass is always greener on the otherside because it design to attract someone who wanders off.  It not design to create the relationship you desire. 

 

What I do is people is addictive. The sex, the kink, the structure, the training and of course the passion.

Feeding the emotions, the physical and the spiritual. Are things I understand. Things in balance tend to make the people who tangle with you happy.

Giving structure.  A normal sleep cycle help having energy in the day to do what needs to be done. Eating a proper meal at proper times balance out blood surgar issues. 

Someone who doesn't know anything and refuses to learn is a burden.

 

Remote and far away is so unsatisfactory. 

The cues we receive when close are so much more that seeing kink and sexual acts..

The leaning inwards when closen

The body melting inwards.

 

Many people want the good stuff but few are willing to put in the work go make it happen.  laziness and shortcuts are pretty lies compared to hardworking and honest effort.

Easy money? Is worth less than hard earn cash. 

Easy relationships never challenge you to be better.

Easy sex doesn't give you that strong emotional attachment.

 

If you know so little about me, offering yourself to me get my mind thinking that your skills in picking someone good is a bit off.

 

If I am your source of security, guidance,fun, excitement and leadership, you better bring more to us than a great big hole in your soul. Laughs.

It is not always about getting you to that point. It about how it affaspects you afterwards.

Opportunity for great relationships don't last forever. Good people are always in demand. 

I have very little in common with people who lives have gone smoothly. It seems they lack a certain apperication of life.

If you fill your life with person who isn't the one. Do you blame the one when that opportunity that never happens? Being prepared makes sense.

We are so use to instance. Hungry just go to a store, sleepy just go to your bed. Bored just turn in the TV. You want a dominant just spread your legs and hope you might get a good one.  Rarely is instant appericated. Growing your own food brings a apperication to the labor and time it takes to fill your belly. Building your own shelter to sleep safely at night bring apperication to what it takes to have a safe shelter.  In the vanilla world, instance relationships rarely work add d/s to a relationship and things tend to get amp up and intense. 

When dealing with the newbies and their desires to have that special relationship, I must remember newbies make mistakes constantly. Training them to be that wonderful submissive means dealing with a butt load of fustration at times.

 

Are you shamed of your submission? Do you hide your submission behind closed doors? Only in your bedroom? Only in your fantasies 

?. While I understand that for some the shame of it makes thier submission what it is for them.

I am kind of person who loves say that one is mine. Mind body and soul and see it beam with pride. 

Some people are so ashamed of their bodies that they avoid being naked at all costs but submission isn't just a nude thing. It a trust in the leadership and the relationship thing.

The body that responds to my touch is far superior to the perfect looking body.

It not the wonderful times that make the relationship strong. It when things go horribly wrong that test who and what we are and the strength of our relationships.

While social skill and communications is important, touch is also important.  Why touch something that doesn't react or feel?  I just don't see the appeal. There is something to be said about having the ability to steam another person's glasses or having that person delight in your touch. 

Someone worthy of being stolen.  When time and effort is applied to create a great relationshipx there are those who will always attempt to steal it away instead of putting in the time and effort in.  A great submissive is always tempted to be stolen. 

Laughs taking me to church is not such a good idea. So a bunch.of them are sharing experiences welcoming newbie and such. I politely pass the inquiries that happen at these places. Was accused of being shy and reserved. I really don't care what others think of me. Well the person who took me to this church was trying to convince others. I can take care of myself quite well.  I said to the group. A lot of you have that odd submissive attitude. 

Freaken now i am swamped with people wanting me to speak. I talked about the hard path. The need to pick a good leader. The better the leader the more submissive nature can come out. I was asked to speak again but I politely said no.

To preach about a life is nit the same as living a life one wants 

If your busy at work and don't give time to a relationship. Are you really shock to have that relationship  fall apart?

Many scream they want the good stuff. Males, females, trans, gays, bi etc etc..

Life isn't a Disney fairy tail nor is it a porno. There are no short cuts 

Put in the time and effort. Take the hard road. Know who you are and be brave enough to show yourself..

 

There an old saying. To thy own self be true. 

While most people can act to be accepted as they pretend to be.

How do you find something real and solid if the people are just acting. 

Lots of people are happy to waste your emotions and time for there own amusement.

It one of the reasons why I grumble at the attitude of this is only the internet or I am in it just for fun.

 

A lot of people scream come explore me.  

Life is like a box of chocolate...

Nope.

Exploring some of you are like a box of Bertie Bott's beans..

Hmm ear wax...

Laughs

 

There a correlation?  Really?  There correlation of your naked body compared to how deep your submission is? 

To say it is your body part size must be equal to the depth of your submission is funny to think about and more ridiculous to see it in print.

The prefect naked submission isnt the one who is physically naked. It is the one who will to remove that mask they use to met others with.

That naked imperfect one with all of the flaws showing who it really is.

 

And knowing is half the battle..

There is something to be said about knowing when to eat, what to eat, what to wear.what your doing for that day.

There are those who scream that too much control but a healthy diet keeps the blood sugar from spiking. Knowing what you need to do.

Knowing what to do. Keeps your car maintenance. Your house clean. Keeps your medical needs up to date Among other things.

When sex and kink are the only focus,  people tend treat others like human sex toys.

Like most people with toys, they tend to lose interest on them after time.  The owners tend to search for what is new and exciting.

 

If you don't know who and what you are. How do you build a strong relationship? 

Exploring what you are is a mine field. You never know what is going to be under that next rock you tip over.

Some people are happy to waste your time to figure out who they really are. 

Typically I warn people who want to get involded with me.  I am not a only bedroom type of person.

I have warn people about exploring thier own pandora's box. I have spent a life time looking beyond people's masks.

People with heath issues don't scare me but I do grow tried of creating something nice just for it to end too soon. 

People with mental issues don't bother me.  Structure and a schedule life real tends to make those issues a lot more manageable. There comes a time when your voice in thier head becomes louder and stronger.

There is something to be said about giving a person a structured life. They know what they are doing every day. Given goals and lessons to be learned. 

Do you really think I judge your submission on your looks? Do you really think I care? 

I don't want to hear what you think I want to hear. Words without value are just lies..

 

If you don't prepare yours to be Famous, your going to have issues when the attention of fame happens.

If you think nurses, lawyers, police personal, and CEOs submissives are trouble some,  someone who is recognized on the street brings a whole new world of craziness. 

Keeping a person grounded with all the stuff that happens is hard work. There are so many forces that tear at the relationship. Staying strong to the relationship is difficult at best. When the world screams here is the easy way, it hard to have one take the fulling hard way.

You need strength to endure. Training that doesn't require effort is worth very little.

 

If I bind your soul to me, it doesn't mean you lose yourself. It means you become something greater than being alone.

Their are those who are self destructive and search for any reason to not to have something they want and need. If your shoring up the simple basis of a relationship. How do you build above the simple to the complex it like building a tree house with a beaver. 

 

Relationship represent time, effort, energy, trust , communication and understanding. A good dynamics is worth the fustration and pain caused along the way.  It has to have worth. It need to grow. It needs to be protective by the things and people who tear at it. 

There a raw strength that is needed. This isn't for the weak. If you don't scrafice for what you want, who will? I have heard 1000 excuses. This isn't new. Being a newbie really is a disadvantage.  How do you build strong relationship with the unknown? I rattle and ramble to the extent of being confusing for a reason. I do not make it easy or simple. This profile isn't designed to attract the maximum amount of people. It a scream  into the darkness of the unknown of a tortured soul that refuses to be broken by the crap that gets thrown to it. 

But you have no toys..  of course I don't have  toys gathering dust in a box.

Why not?  Simple. When the relationship ends the toys goes with them. I never keep them.

New relationships need a clean state.  How can you look forward When your thinking of the past.

 

Time effort and energy makes relationships worth something. 

Ignore it, abuse it, use it and soon it will be worth exactly what you put into it.

 

So you want to be a part of my life?  I always warn people. If you seek the easy life I am not someone you should tangle with.  I will break walls and strip off masks. Your faults and insecurities will be exposed.  I have had a few who would grab thier  privates and run for the hills..

There are those who think relationship just happen, I am not one of those. I enjoy pouring time and effort. It is an artform to influence and mold a person into something God darn special.  

I realize when you create. There will be a long list of others who will love to steal what you create. They see the value of what has been created .  It like watching an adult moive that displays the act and never the relationship. In my past I have had several incomplete works of art. There a certain fustration to know it can be better but it is not. 

 

Well yea, I can train it to clean and cook but those skills are easy to accomplish.

Now amping up it sexuality to be more attractive is fun but some can not be loyal  with that much attention.

Typically they ended up being someone's trophy. If you make something special, the more likely it will be stolen..

If I can affect your life from so far away, imagine the connection up close.

I seek strength and passion. Honestly empathy the ability to listen and understand. 

There a lot of effort and time that will need to be invested. 

I don't seek perfection but I do seek the ability to improve.

Do not put me on a petal stool. I do not want to be your God. 

 

We do tend to get discouraged when things go wrong but once you find someone who can match your passions. All the past failures fade int9 the nothingness where they belong. 

We should be the captins of our boats and not leaves. My best advice is to prepare for the next relationship.

Even with the best intentions and honesty. Things don't always work out.  Great relationship take time and effort.  Without the investment of time. A great relationship will never happen..

Too busy for a relationship?  So it moves on.

For some formal training with defined starts and stop with goal works out well. This is one of the easiest ways of training. It is simple and easy but if you know anything about me is that simple and easy isn't the typical path I take. To inspire someone to change their behavior is a lot more difficult. To inspire a person to have passion for that spot at my feet make that spot priceless. It's not the spot but thr effort to get there. 

 

If you train a sub to have an orgasm when it sneezes, will the sub embrace allergy season? 

Little torment soul that has fought hard to survive. Has a deeper apperication towards life.  It take a long time to build that trust to have it hold my hand and allow me to lead it. These things do not happen over night but when they do It is amazing. 

Offers of sex come rolling in just to be my submissive for a little while. Like that is going to get me interested to invest time effort and energy into a temporary relationship. I do not want to waste time on something I know that just here briefly. There is great possibility with long term and I do admit that long term can be scarey. 

If I strip your mask off and break your walls down and show you what you really are. When you not worried about what others might think of you. When those clever little filters no longer function. 

What will you see when you take a look at yourself. 

I have said this many of time keep your passions high. Avoid the things and people who drain the passion from you.

 

I understand the desire for someone remote but if you connect with a person you can push them to a point where they have past out in front of the camera/computer. Calling an ablulance is not the kind of experince most want to have.

If I am more addictive than your addictions. What makes you think you are free to go?  If your brain and emotional state is geared towards me it would be very hard to leave a relationship. I don't want to create a wake of broken souls and people needing serious therapy.  The closer you fly to the sun, the more responsibility one must be..

For looks or for feel?

While I do understand the reasons why someone will get surgery, the desire to look like the  image in your brain is strong with most..

But.

I rather have someone who is responsive to my touch compared looking perfect.

What I do is addictive in nature rewarding depending behavior and creating that lost in a relationship kind of event.

If there is honesty with trust creating understanding. It a pretty sweet thing to experience. 

But with issues it becomes damaging frustrating and self destructive.  It can cause the inability to create another deep relationship.

 

 

I am not your next thrill.  You figure I would delight in something new in my life. Energy like a person who had expresso for the 1st time.

People who are into thrills are always looking for the next one and the next one.

How do you build something that will last if they keep running off. 

Blonde, brunette, red head, tall, short, thin, thick, soft and squeeze? 

How do I pick someone to be in my life? 

Can they communicate..

Can they create understanding..

Can they grow trust..

Can they put up with me..

Pretty words don't mean nothing without action.

There is something to be said about cupping a face and having that person snuggle in.

There is something special about just touching and feeling that body lean.into you.

 

Solutions to your problems isn't a good base for a great relationship.

While cranking up your kink to the extreme is much easier compared to having a plan for what happens afterwards.

Do you really want someone who follows everyone? 

If I am more scary than the demons in your head,  are you sure you can be happy alone in your head? 

If competition brings out the best in a person, why do we tangle with each other one on one.

Sometimes I wish my filters were stronger. Laughs

 

Rattling again..

What centric are you?  Some are chase centric, they are only happy if someone is chasing them. 

Some are victim centric. The whole world is coming to get me..

Some are plotical or even sports centric..

Some are pain centered or humiliation center and of course sexual centric.

Some are submissive centric. 

These things I do I know are extremely addictive in nature. Great harm can occur if your not careful. 

So even tho I got people who want around me. I have to be picky cause I don't want to have a life littered with meat puppets and people in need of serious therapy.  

It not the color of the face or the size how I decide. It the reaction to the touch and the how bright the face glows.

Lunch time! 

It claims it passable. I don't care.

It old, it's iinexperienced it has a thousand and one reasons not too..

Don't care.

The more important thing is does it light up when I touch it.

Is it sensitive ro my touch.

Does it trust me to lead. 

Can it be honest not only to me but to itself.

Can it community to create understanding..

Bounce one ball in a D/s dog park and suddenly other dogs want to join on the fun.  It can be a fun pack experince. 

Toss many balls at the same place  suddenly lots of people get upset to the point where they ask you not to come back..

 

Instance relationship.. laughs are you kidding me?

Do you understand how much time trust and effort it takes to build that kind of fairytale relationship your looking for? 

Understanding takes a lot of communication.

Long lasting trust takes work and effort. 

I am not interested in a meat puppet. 

I am into creating something special that has value..

 

I am not easy.. laughs.  

Pretty words are just pretty lies without real actions..

How does a picture capture the submissive nature of a person? 

Isn't makeup just a lie of what you are and not what is real? 

If you design a test that everyone fails, the smart ones know not to take the test in the 1st place.

The prefect one doesn't exist but if your lucky you find a person who is willing work with you. 

If you want the easy life, please move along. You can't be awesome being a lump..

It isn't molding a person into sometimes that is hard. It is having them want to stay once the changes have been made..

Police offices make very interesting submissives, nurses are extremely kinky, Ceo and Cfo keep thinking money can buy you a Dom.  Laughs

 

To whoever volunteers to go through this journal posts, thanks..

It seem I am able to post journal entries once again.

While many on here want to have a one on one relationship, there are advantages to a group setting. 

An extra set of eyes comes in handy when using rope for bondage. Especially if the subject isn't familiar or something new is being tried.

More hands on deck when ropes need to be cut off quickly. 

 

Being one of mine is a struggle. It not an intentional thing but in order to grow to become more. It rarely an easy path.

One has to have strength to become better. Dedication to a goal is a must. The ability to keep trying to communicate especially when there Is a failure.

With so many distraction of this world, it hard to stay focus and protect what is important in the long run..

I am not interested in being your ideas of being perfect. Perfection lacks growth and exploration of who and what we are. 

You need to have the ability to grow.  To trust and to communicate. 

Kink and orgasms are easy. Working functional relationships are hard. 

Do you find a diamond or take a lump of coal and squeeze? I am a squeezer. Laughs

Do you find a diamond or take a lump of coal and squeeze? I am a squeeze. Laughs

Pole or hole centric..

If one make a transgender person pole centric, how will that transgender ever be satisfied with bottom surgery?.

There are transgenders who will op out of having bottom surgery because the partner influences them to be pole centric and not hole centric.

In the strive to be the same as everyone, people tend to wipe put what is special and unique about oneself.

Here we go again. Passionate to serve or passable  ?

prettiest thing on the block or the kindness of a soul? 

Is it the biggest or the most sensitive to my touch that matters..

 

It screams just tell me what you want me to be. Best friend, wife, lover, slut anything to please. Just to be apart and to belong.

Breathe and whoo little blank sheet of paper.

Building a bridge that crosses two peaks is easy.

Building a bridge to into a void is hard. 

 

So you got demons in your pandora's box? Laughs.. now what kind of person would I be if I could convince them to help me with you. Laughs

The gift of acceptance. It is intoxicating.. breath. You don't have to be the best label. You just have to be you..

 

 

Tangling with me can be a blessing or a curse..

Opening up your pandora's box and saying look at all those issues I can play with..

I am more frightening that the issues that plague you. 

Yea, soft and moldable clay is easy to create but lumpy hard clay brings out a challenge and makes the success much more enjoyable.

 

 

Rather be served by something worthy for an hour that a life time of worthlessness.

I do enjoy creating the struggle to become something of value.

 

 

Having a 20 something tell you about sex is  just hilarious.

So you discovered sex, congrats. Laughs.

When a newbie wants to know everything? I look at them oddly. How do you squeeze in a life time of experience into brain who isn't ready to understand or comprehend what it is experiencing..

So you have dark desires. Well of course you do, your on this website laughs.

Some people are like bugs, you shine a light and poof they scatter.

Others are like a deer in the head lights.

You are not the center of existence. If you where, I have strong words to say to you about this imperfect world. Laughs

If you spoil yours' to a point where their normal toys just don't give them the satisfaction  they need to function.

It a bit cruel to watch them slowly go crazy.

 

I don't do temporary.  Sex and kink with no string doesn't interest me. Building a great relationship take time. There a certain fustration in spending time into something that is your forever just to be hear..

Thanks and now that i am more desirable I am going out to the world. 

 

 

While there a certain joy about having naked people wandering around the house, there a side of me that is thinking. I wonder if I can get that ass smell out of the sofas and the floor. Laughs..

A home should never smell like a dam locker room. 

If your naked on a table as part of the decoration.  Passing gas isn't acceptable.

Why is the decoration changing colors?   Why is there wax?  I really don't think burning ass hair is very appetizing..

 

If I don't know all of those dark secrets that never see the light of day. There is something wrong with the relationship.

While it fun to turn someone's fantasy into reality. It another to inspire them to create more. Down the rabbit hole? 

More like create a bottomless rabbit hole. 

If I can't amp up your desires to serve, to be adventurous. To be passionate about life. I am not the one for you..

Yes there are those who desire bimbos and meat puppets. I am not one of those.

 

Someone asked how they would fit into my life..

They mentioned cooking cleaning and laundry...

Laughs 

I am not going to have a brilliant and bright soul flipping burgers to do so would be very stupid on my part..

So what behind your mask that you have a tight grip on?  Your coping mechanism? Your fears and insecurities?  Can you really stand what you are and what you have become.  Are you that afraind??  That shameful?  In the world that you have created and desperately attempted to control and cope with. Can you even look at yourself?  Are you too damaged?  Has your bad experiences consumed what you are and left you a live nerve ending. Just reacting and coping?  Has your desires and addictions consumed you so that you just can't feel anymore?  

Life is more than just the desperate desire to not feel anymore.  

 

If I can just light a soul on fire, imagine the heights it could reach.

Pandora's box, I don't chase prey down to ravish it until there is nothing left. 

Being responsible to me means that I do understand the addictive nature of what I do to others.

I do not worry about the ones who have left. I am only need to concern with the one that stays.

Having holes and parts that orgasm does equates to having a great relationship.

People focus of the slaves and submissive naked on the floor. They fail to realize what it takes to have a strong alpha type to trust you enough so that they can let go and be that happy naked person on the floor ready to serve up to their ability..

It not how strong the orgasms are, it about how strong the relationship is. 

If I don't know you like the back of my hand.  There is a serious problems that need to be addressed.

Nothing greater than taming a strong willed highly emotional person.

Oh you think taming equals breaking them?  

There is no joy in dealing with an empty soul..

I enjoy building trust and understanding.. i tend to make those around me a bit more crazier.

 

Like jet fuel to the fire.  

 

If your involded with someone.. congratulations but I am not interested in you.

I am uninterested in training other people's partners, slaves or subs. The basic that one is yours don't be lazy..

I am not fodder for your books, research or fuel for your role playing.

I am not your backup plan. 

I am not perfect but i do have passion for life..

If I can't set your soul on fire, I am smart enough to let you go so you can get what you need..

Your misery isn't  fun nor does it add fuel to my passions. 

Happiness is addictive and will make you put up with stuff any sane person would run from.

 

I don't created bimbos or meat puppets.

 

I have never asked or demanded to take over a person's life but i tend to end up there..

People can't function very well with little sleep. Keeping a person in a sleep cycle that they can function better during the day us important..

Eating right is important.  How fo you expect to be at your peak if your having issues with low blood sugar?

Some people's fashion sense has a lot to be desired. I don't think the homeless look will ever be in fashion.

Being messy and disorganized Waste time and effort. A project or goal will take more time just in finding what you need.

Learn how to effectively communicate is important. If people can not understand you, how can you express your needs and wants. 

Developing emotional is important. It allows you pick your self up after something gone wrong 

Exercise keeps a body strong. It allows for a better life..

Got to have trust an island of a person is rarely a happy soul. 

 

Purpose, focus, passion, pride in accomplishment, safety, following leadership, trust, communication.

These are important to me before you are naked face down and ass up on a spot on the floor.

 

If you have no trust to give and no respect. Why tangle with me?

Yes, I have the ability to fix a lot of personal issues that you may have but you cannot build a relationship based on problems.

It the desire to please that counts more that 10 gigs of naked pictures you have..

I am not an e ticket ride. 

 

Some people are cursed with an experience that affaspects them for life..

One has to be stronger than the demons that plague another person soul. 

I do understand that the stuff that I do that I am.going to hated for life. 

I understand the human condition that wants to be special and one of a kind..

A person can be  traumatized to a point where they become me centered.  The world for them circles around them. Rarely do they see how thier action affect others.. it takes time and effort to javelin those turtles pop thier heads back up..

Never base a relationship on problems and issues. 

Once the problems are solved, you get a thanks and off they go. 

 

How can you compete against my history of what I have done? 

You don't you move forward and blaze your own path.

Applying transitioning techniques to a female, you tend to end up with a female who is always going to be chased by those who couldn't see the diamond in the rough. 

If I know you can dress better, expect your crappy clothes to be tossed.

Putting your working arms in a cast means I am going to have fun feeding you. It makes going convert going to the bathroom negotiation time. 

Head held high and walk with grace. Don't walk like a spoiled grumpy person. 

 

The hard path screams at you that you are alive.

Failure happens but success is when you are able to get back up.

Perfect mean there is no room to grow.

Beauty can be it's own trap.

And easy life is rarely satisfying 

 

There is a certain security in structured life.  Goals are reached, a lot of unknowns are now known. 

The simple things..

When to sleep and when to awake..

Knowing what to dress and what to eat

 

There are times when I just won’t engage in a conversation. 

If your in a relationship even an open one. I know the issues of my influence on person is not going to end pretty or happy. 

Someone has to be responsible.

Yes, I read profiles and it is your right to not engage in long distance. You have to be a bit crazy and have a lot of trust. Some don't have that.

If you have want to be nothing but a meat puppet, there are a lot who would want that. That isn't me. It the coming to America hopping and barking woman thing.  Laughs

 

 

Humiliation is an art form..

Too much and the natural instincts to run kick in.

Not enough and there is no emotional response.

Too often and immunity sets in.

In waves like a storm roaring in and out of one's life is the best

If you invite me into your head and I chase your demons away. You do know your going to be left with me in your head.

Frying pan or fire laughs.

 

 

Laughs, i was accused of being controlling.

You found me where? 

I am old and have dealt with lots of peeps issues.

When your blood surgar is all over the place, it is time to regulate what you eat and when you eat and how much you eat.

Is this controlling or just making sure health is maintained.

With a regular sleeping pattern, a person can better handle what they need to take care of..

How many hours of sleep do you function best at? 

Knowing what your going to eat makes meal prep easier.

Knowing what you need to accomplish makes you better prepared for it.

And the list of stuff is long and frustrating people or people looking in complain about the control.

Laughs

Spot on the floor. 

It just a spot on the floor. It has very little meaning for most.

Why does this spot have any value? 

Why should you be naked at this spot? 

Common sense say it should wear clothes to cover up.

Expose your body for judgment? How scary. 

There is safety away from the spot and fully clothed.

Others might see you naked exposed on your spot.

There a certain bravery that it needs to be there.

It not the spot that has value near a set of feet. 

It the relationship and history to get a person there that is the value.

Some spots on the ground are priceless..

It's just a different way of living.

 

So your into humiliation. Humiliation is an wonderful art form.

It maybe as simple as asking will this fit? 

Or making a t shirt of someone's orgasm face. 

The joys of post orgasm questions verses pre orgasm questions.

If you don't dress enough to please a quick stop at the clothes donation box comes in handy..

Being responsible means  knowing what to do afterwards.

If you take peeple down the path of over stimulation and  dependent of who they are based on your alpha drive, sending them back into the vanilla world can be cruel.

It is like opening a pandora's box than leaving it on it's own.

Breast and implants.

Little transgender ask me about them. 

My advice..

Doesn't matter what size they are.

I rather play with ones that are sensitive to my touch.

Surgery Doesn't promote sensitivity..

 

 

 

Some day your prince will come?  Laugh while you been taught this. Life teaches another lessons.

Remember my opinions don't mean nothing.

Move along move along..

 

But but I could have so many at my feet if I taught them.

Blah.  Teaching the ways I want them to behave won't set them up for the next person.

I am not a ride at Disneyland laughs.

I am not interested in adding fuel to your cosplay role playing ways.

Laugh to got to be a little crazy to get involded and been through a bit of heck.

 

A little something told me I would be surprised to tell me what it was into. 

Told it, If your in a relationship and approach me as a single. 

I am not interested in a person I can steal away. 

I tend to be intense and have a habit of amplifying clinginess.

I like mine to be happy and motivated to serve. 

When a pup wanders through a crowd attempting to get someone  to pull its finger.  Everyone knows what the pup is attempting.

Never assume a person is going to react the same.

Grabbing the finger and squeezing hard, put the panic fear in them like a trap animal.

Pulling them closer, I am in kicking distance. 

Now it is desperately trying to avoiding being kicked and is trapped by it's own finger.

I let go and laughed and told it, those fart pranks were old when I was a kid.

Every time it came in ear shot, I would say give me your finger.. it would run off like most pups do..

Now I have something I can use to make it run away.

 

It says it into humiliation..

So I dyed it's body hair bright pink. 

It avoids me now. Laughs.

I should have shaved the words I am so pretty on it hairy body.

 

 

I am not into locking someone up and throwing away the key. 

While I am capable of feeding a gold fish in a bowl, I don't find goldfish very interesting or amusing.

 

If you remove makeup from a lesbian, they tend to go tomboy on you. 

If you remove  makeup from a heterosexual, they get happy they don't have to wear makeup.

If you remove makeup from a male homosexual, as long as it not thier concealer. They can live with it.

Removing makeup from a transgender,  oh my god!!. the world is coming to an end.

Laughs..

Can you cook? Can you clean? Can you dress to please? Can you create understanding? Can you resolve issues?

Can you tell me when something goes numb when your in ropes? 

Can you be strong enough to be just you with all your faults.

 

 

 

I am not interested in making you feel bad about yourself. In this world you have to be tough enough so that negative people won't have an effect on you.  There a certain amount of stubbornness and metal toughness you have to be just to be you.  There are those who coping mechs are to transfer bad energy from them to someone else.  Your a victim thus you go through life making other victims. 

It one of the reasons when take on someone for a relationship. Having the ability to be who you are is important. Being unaffected against those who are way too happy to break you down.  These are more important things than kink and sex. 

 

So what kind of person do I produce?  Good question. 

I produce fighters. Line in the sand person. A person who has enormous  strengths to go after the evils that this world produces. To teach inner strength and a balance of life.  

A purpose for something greater and a passion for life that others notices. 

It not the sex or the kink. It the trust and the smile afterwards 

Pushed beyond limits, a heap of naked humanity is left. The highly charged emotional state come in.

The curtain of who and what you are comes to light. That pandora's box has been open and exposed to be seen.

One tends to find a lot of fear and many lost in purpose looking for direction. 

It not the sex or the kink. I enjoy what comes after.  I know iam odd and weird but I am happy who I am. 

Study and practice harder become a better you. 

If you cannot spend the time to get to know someone, do you really need them mucking around in your head?

If your not mine, I am not your source of bdsm knowledge nor am I your teacher. 

Telling me your going to settle for me, means you need to keep looking.

 

Instance hook up and meet ups. Really? not even interested. I rather not compete with your fantasy of who I am. I am not an actor I am just me. Actors and Actresses can feed you all the things you are craving for but in the end. It is just an act. After the show, you are left with just a memory of what should have been real. They are still a waste of time effort and life.

Time is the great truth revealer. 

I was offered a body to do as I wished. I thank them and moved on.

I have people with authorities wanting to be mine but i am one of those who like pointing and saying with pride that one is mine.

I don't tangle with other's if they have a relationship. I know my nature. I tend to create very needed people. Relationships is an art form and once things click. It quiet amazing but things never go right when a person starts to compare.

I understand many here have a great need but a great need isn't always a great foundation for something special..

If your seeking perfection, keep seeking. Laughs.

I seeking something that can handle the rough spots in life. If life knock you down and you can get up quickly. This is something worthy to tangle with. 

If you make your own drama, you won't stand a chance. I kick those people out of my life to achieve a quieter and peaceful experience in life.

I surround my self with those who make bridges not burn them down. 

If nobody gets you, maybe it is you and perhaps seeking therapy will give you the tools to create understanding between you and others. 

I am all human, with all the typical flaws. 

How much work are you willing to invest to be the person you are?

I always been attracted to souls who take the hard road to be who they are.

Do the right thing and be hated or do the easy thing? I am hated. 

The nice thing about being older is realizing that most others opinions means crap.

Being responsible is being accountable to your self and your actions..

Breaking is easy.. creating is hard. 

Keeping your passions high is as important as life itself.

If you amp up a person, you have to understand that it will get more attention. 

If it is not use to intense attention  sooner or later, it will wander off.

Grass is always greener syndrome. 

If you close that door. Doors don't open up again or someone has taken it's place. 

 

Old person rattling? I have always rattled on laughs.

The rough experiences make a person stronger but it shouldn't dictate which path we go through life.

We would never have learned to walk if that 1st fall dictated our choices. 

Communication is not just talking, it is bridging understanding. 

Irresponsible people do Irresponsible things. You should not be shock when Irresponsible people start acting Irresponsible. 

 

Pushed too hard, it experiences overload. It grs it coping mechanisms desperately trying to preserve what it was who it was. It is desperately trying to keep anything that was once it was. Under constant pressure every wall every experience just melts away. It just trying to cope with the here and now. It now just concentrates on the here and now.  The past has lost it grip and the ability to influence it's life.  It is just a live nerve. Now the question becomes, what does it become now?  Slut or Saint?  Freedom to fly or a caged trophy? 

There that side of me that love to open pandora's boxes but some boxes need to stay shut. 

Some people are like pandora's box.  Opening them up doesn't always means it a good event like Christmas presents. Lol

Sometime you end up slaying their demons but this doesn't mean once they are at peace that they will stay.  

Sometime the only thing that you end up with after a relationship is memories.

Still don't understand dismissing something that is mine.

If I move I take what is mine with me.

If I put time and effort into something, it worth something. Discarding it doesn't make sense to me.

 

The joys of micromanagement means you never going to get an answer to the question where do you want to eat.  Laughs

Welcome to picking out what it dresses like every day.

What it eats and when it goes to the bathroom.

It takes time to train and organize a messy life.

It take time and effort to straight out all of it mental and physical issues.

And once it is back on track with a functional life.

The typical thanks and goodbye happens. 

What a big time sink laughs

Been told if I make them insecure they will stick around but I don't tangle with people to give them issues.

Merry freaken Christmas.

May the chains that bind you free your soul.

May you reach the sexual heights you desire.

Being a submissive doesn't mean your docile.

A bright and passionate soul beats out any body shape.

A non passable transwoman who struggles so hard to be desirable that they can teach lesbians to be better lesbians. 

A Gay person understands the hate just for being themselves. Being Gay is not a choice, it just who you are.

Time doesn't heal all wounds. Sometime it curses our lives down a path we did not ask for.

Some people can't handle the intensity, others take In delight of ramping it up.

Remember it is better to cut the ropes off when nerves are being pinched.  You can always buy more ropes. 

Cause and effect.

If you train yours to have mutiple orgasms like a freaken fountain. Expect to buy more beds and bedding materials.

If you leave yours in a box for too long your going have to Expect there will be poop in the box.

If you train yours to be a bimbo don't ask it about tax issues

If you transition a male into a female. Trust me some one is going to hate you for that.

If you transition a female into a male. Trust me a lot more women are going to hate you.

If you training a pet, sometimes it will chew up your stuff for attention.

If you train a pet to go outside, it will piss off the gardener.

 

 

Bdsm equipment, I don't collect them. I enjoy making what I used. I don't reuse old toys on new relationships.

I rather create a fresh memory with a new peice of equipment that have that fresh memory compete with something from the past.

 

 

I understand the addictive nature of the things I do. We are social animals punishment is removing the social needs we crave. There is a reason why isolation is a form of punishment.

So if I am the source of intense passion and control. The results of removing that kind of influence quickly is always never good. 

Permanent damage isn't my goal. 

If I wanted sex or kink, it would be so easy but no i want someone who is tough enough to survive failures and grow from them.

Scars you get from life makes you more interesting. 

 

Some whine about problems. 

Others post about it..

Than there are those who roll up thier sleeves..

 

Laughs

I am not your therapist. I am not your solution nor am I your ATM. 

If you can't trust me leave. 

If I am not good for you, run.

If your looking for an escape I am not even close to being a knight.

My kind of relationship, takes time effort and a lot of thankless work.

Knowing how to cook and clean is as important as listening and  being emotionally stable.

 

Yea this old soul can still attract a 20 something laughs but I am old and appericate those who have battle wounds that life have inflicted on them.  The people who struggle and clung on to life are more passionate about life. Rough and tumble. We carry our scars with pride. 

Submission is more than just being tied and having orgasms.

Sometime it is hating to tap dancing naked but you do it anyways.

 

How you serve is more important than your looks. 

How you please is more important than the shape of your body. 

How you react around me is more important than terabytes of naked photos of you.

 

To serve me is to scream out my name in fustration. Laughs

It not your body that interests me. It the art I can create with it. 

If I have done well,  you will be desired and chased and not an meat puppet or a pet rock.

Dealing with me is a full time job. Laughs

Time to celebrate, Journals are back.

The older you are the stronger influence you need to have effective change.

 

I see an unhappy soul and I have an urge to fix it. But once fixed they move on..
Don t curse people with your own issues. They have enough on their own.. If I can't sculpture you naked and put that in a gallery.. your not for me.
Conversion therapy is a bogus. They claim. Turning gay people straight. Yet those same people are afraid we are turning straight people gay.. Kind of bogus.. laugh
Begging pleading screaming Stripped of your freaken walls.. Your lies fall on to deaf ears.. Your fake promises are noises,,, You can't act your way out.. You have nothing to bargain with.. How are you going to deal with a reality that you will have to endure.. Scream and no one hears Cry and no one cares. All you have to do is survive until and maybe you can build your walls to cover the raw nerve you become.. Sanity has left the building and emotions are running rampaging unchecked.. Can you ever be the same? Would you ever want to be?
People ask me why it doesn't upset me when people grab their privates and run for the hills.. Wouldn't you rather spend time with those who want that special relationship? Why should I chase those who are not willing to work hard to have something special.. My life continues with or without them.. door open and doors close.. nature of life.. never worry about the one who got away. Always celebrate the one you got..
If your not honest, how do you expect to find what your looking for? People wonder why I am so clueless when it comes to moives and tv shows.. Simple I find a real person more interesting.. I rather spend the time rigging up a person. Every body is different and it take time and an artistic eye to make a piece of human art.. I spend time exploring who and what you are.. Giving you tasks to complete and giving you structure you crave..p Spend time influncing get who and what you are.. Finding new ways to amuse us and push limits. I can take your ears off about those who I was lucky enough to experince a very close relationship. But ask me about the latest moive or who acts in them. I will give you look of who cares.. Laughs
So you want someone to get who and what you are.. It's starts by communication.. If you hide away, People are willing to ignore who and what you are. Over comming shyness isn't easy but it is necessary if you seek a better life you are living..
If you tickle a tail long enough.. Don't be surprise if you get claws and bite marks..
I hear frustrations of others a lot.. Don't let the fool and idiots keep you from the happiness you seek.. There a reason why you have to be strong... To find what you need and to hang on to it when you find it..
Do you know what your doing today, Tomorrow or the next day? Structure allows you to know what your doing and when your doing it. Much like knowing your going to church on sundays..
I rather have you show me your trust than your nake body.. I rather know what in your heart than what your kinks. I rather know your honest with me than to tell me pretty lies.
Breath and relax and focus on what is important to you. Do not let other people curse you with their own issues.
I demand the best out of you cause I know your capable of it. I teach you cause I know you can learn. I expect you to fail and to get right back up again.
It declared it's devotion to me. I raised an eye brow in disbelief. It said it would do any kinky sexual desire my dark mind could think of. It said it would endure a life time of pain. I asked for proof. Anything anything. It would post naked videos to prove it self. I told it i was going to send it back to college and send it to music class after school and on the weekends dance class so it will know how to move with grace. It grabbed it's privates and ran towards the hills. Who would have thought school was it's hard limit.
Transforming the easy part is dealing with the day to day afterwards is hard.
Amping up your already high sex drive is like adding jet fuel to a camp fire. Just need to be cautious that you don't melt down in the process..
I wield a lot of power not because I enjoy the power. I wield that kind of power cause some people's demons are really that strong.
I have to stay strong to keep those demons in your head away. I bring clam and order. It is my nature.
Rules protocols and structure is important. It gives comfort in knowing where you should be and what you need to be doing.
It is Easter, now how many vibrating eggs can I stick up in there? Did You know they have odd vibrating carrot sex toys? Bunny in bondage. Laughs
This picture represents your desires? You know that person in the picture can be you.. Have you ever seen a person grab their privates and run towards the hills? Laughs
What have you accomplished in your life? Don't know? I got plans for you. I laugh and they run towards the hills. Do i chase after them? No not even a step. Why? I know the kind of life I lead isn't for everyone. If they run early it means they are not going to be around when life gets tough and starts to begin to have real value. It not my job to give you a life of comfort. It it is my job to give you a life you can look back and be proud of. Even naked at my feet. If not that your naked at my feet that counts. It is how in the the heck you got thier which is important..
Good ones too far away or just to lazy to travel.. Laughs German slaves are fun in an nonsense kind of way. Kiwi slaves have sparks and a great amount of passion.. Aussie slaves are direct an have a unique sense of humor. Canadian slaves eat a lot less than the American counter parts. Ugrain slaves try pretty hard to please. Swedish slaves are not afraid of hard work and love to party. Iceland slaves will do about anything to avoid boredom. I always appreciate those who travel far to find what they want and need. I always take it as a sign of great passion for what they want..
If I just needed a wet hole or 18hr bjs, that I could find quiet easily. I need the trust. I need to lead. I need to have a extremely deep relationship. Clinginess is a plus in my book. I enjoy the obssevice compulsive nature of who I am. Coming up with new ways of bongage is quiet fun for me.
Yea yea push you until you break blah blah blah. It is what happens afterwards which is more important. Find the one who going be responsible enough to put you back together afterwards. I see a sea of broken souls. So I roll up my sleeves..
Major changes in who and what you are equals major conflicts and an extreme amount of struggling. This path isn't for those who want to find happiness. It is a path for those who struggle to acquire it.
Rip Craig list personal. I suspect there is going to be an increase in members here..
I wonder if my words fall on deaf ears. Relationship before the kink. Given time the truth does come out..
Scream my name and make me smile...
I don't care how ugly or fat you are. Service and submission are more important factors..
Don't care how famous or smart you are. I seek submission.. Face down ass up..
Zero interest in lazy people. Find me a person who understands that a great relationship take a lot of time and effort. I enjoy the intensity, the fustration and the clinginess. Delights of taking the hard path.. The value of something is different between found it, earned it, and made it. Made it is always harder and has a higher level of value..
So you want to give me your body.. Yawns... The real fun is when I am in your head..
At a function. 6 subs at my feet. I am holding court. I am attracting attention. It doesn't matter who meets you at a function or who is at your feet. It matters who you leave with.
Someone once thought that sending me a picture would get me interested in them. If I want a picture of you, I would take it myself face to face and in person.
If you send out message of i like your profile. You better have read it before sending me a message. A lie is never a good base for a relationship..
So you don't know what you are? Given enough pressure. The truth comes out really quickly.
ice cold hands. Vanilla will run away and scream that is cold. A submissive will hate it but it will put up with it the discomfort. A slave will see my cold hands and will warm them up.
I live to be put in charge of who and what you are.. I delight in bring out the best in you.. I smach your ass when your lazy. I growl at those who try to tear you apart. I don't live to control you.. I live to see the best you can be.. The hard road..
Being wanted and needed. Are you a joy to be around? Do you leave a person emotional drained or do you leave a person wanting to see you again. Being naked and always orgasmic isn't a sure fire method of getting that relationship you want.. Short cuts rarely work and seldom last..
Making you into something useless doesn't suit me at all. Some people just eat others souls and turns them into poop. The long hard path means with an artist eye you enhance what is there and create something better than you found it. Yes, I can create a meat puppet but shoving a hand up a meat puppet. Well it is like talking to yourself. Soon or later talking to yourself just makes you a little crazy like in the sitting on the other side of the bus kind of way. I rather inspire craziness than to be crazy..
Push to the limits. What will we find behind your walls. The hell you created your self or the piece of heaven you created to share..
If you can be sway and influnced by someone's bags of fat, drooling hole or some ugly wrinkled thing, what does that say about you? If you can be sway by trust, communication and loyalty, this speak volumes of who and what you are. These things are important for any long term relationship, But unfortunately you can't take a snap shot of them. Laughs..
It's funny how some will give you their bodies, Until you stop by a European waxing salon.

It should be naked but never afraid. Fear is a great motivator to get someone to do something. It is easy to inspire fear. But I don't take the easy route. I rather inspire you to be mine that to use power and fear to motivate your submission.
If it cries for attention and you them a path for special attention. If they refuse that path, I tend to give them time but like most opertunities. It changes over time.. Life is amazing but I hate waiting due to life is short..
Cause and effect. If you don't put effort into your job, you run the risk of being fired as you should be.
Odd how it made a request not to speak with me again. Sure not a problem, Post it's comment on it's profile so if I ever run across it again. I won't talk to it.. Put it on hide so it won't show up on any search.... Put it on block so it won't clutter my mail box... It asked, I fullfilled it's request and Now it complains.. I find a great amount of humor in it's fullfulling of it's request...
Stripped of who and what you pretend to be, what is left? There are some who have nothing left. Who and what they are have been forgotten and forsaken.. They can only offer nothing cause there is nothing left. Poor meat puppet. They are just needed holes with nothing to give...
When did m.o.n.k.e.y. become a censored word? Laughs
Control freak? I laugh. Nope There are benefits in keeping on time. Diets are easier to deal with. Eating 6 small meals a day keeps blood sugars more level. Proper amount of sleep keeps a person health. Planned meals makes it easier to shop and manage the foodv you buy. Dressing to please, it shortens the time to pick out clothes to wear. There is security in knowing what you need to accomplish during the day and knowing what you need to do for the week.. The is an advantage in knowing that what you do is pleasing. Your partner functions better happier. A person who serves well, is a source of joy and that improves and makes the relationship stronger and tighter. Some see it as control but I see it as a result of trust in the relationship.
A good submissive, is always more fun and entertaining than the crap is on tv. There are ropes and bondage positions to try. There are tasks that need to be accomplished.. Nude dancing comes to mind. There is something fun about correcting a body pose with a cane. Head up arms straight and 1 2 3 4
Ice cold hands.. The screams when I warmth them up on you... I smile
Doesn't understands why a lesbian sub tried to get a sexual response from me. It's not mine. I don't take kindly to being subjected to other people's strange ideas. Lesbian thought it could push my buttons. Welcome to reality. I kicked it's privates and walked to a trash can and threw out my shoes. Pain in the ass. I miss my shoes.
Having strong influnce, I see the great good it can create. I also see the destructive nature of a strong influnce when applied without a care of consequent.
Never fall in love.. Always cursed with love.. People fall out of love.. Curses take extra ordinary effort to remove the curse.........
Correcting bad behavior. Sometime it as simple as saying no, don't do that. Other time you have to be creative. Dance teaches where your body is in space. Body location is important to when you walk about. Some people walk like thier spines are made of cooked spaghetti. Step it up one two three..
If you fill your life with people who do not care. You will have a life filled with crappy experinces. I rather be alone than have a life filled with crappy people.
I grow tired of passive aggressive vanilla people. I invade their personal space look them straight in the eye and tell them. I don't find their behavior acceptable and they better fix. While people don't like being told what to do. I rather not suffer other peoples crappy behaviors.
There a little town in Italy that sells houses for a buck but you have to spend 25k in three years to improve the house you bought.. I was thinking i could have a few house submissives live there. Interesting though maybe something to dwell on.
The more you become unreliable the more easier you are to be replaced. It is easy to fake something to the person who has never had real..
Just because you want sex, doesn't mean it will happen..
Tied in ropes naked and so wet that it drips on the floor.. Safe word was invoked . Ropes where cut loose and a blanket was wrapped around it. It wanted to continue the session.. It didn't happen. It offered many sexual things to continue.. It was told no. It just wanted to know that if it used it's safe word that things would stop. I look at it as a failure of having enough trust to know that with out experimenting. More trust exercises are needed before this kind of event ever happens again but I know it will find something easier,.
It said it's a no limit slave. So I used a little hair dye and gave it a pink eyebrow.. Eyebrows coloration is now a hard limit..
So many want to be that prize on the shelf. Prizes on a shelf typical just attract dust. I don't want something that needs to be dusted off every few months. Lol
Addictive to what I do to you isn't the same as being in love..
My mind is a dark and scary place. That is why I come up with so many ways to keep you on your toes. There is something fun about cutting off clothes and tossing them in the fire. It makes space in the closet and you can go shopping afterwards..
Sometimes you find a little broken something discarded and forgotten. You spend time and effort fixing it. It than spreads it wings and flys away. That is the nature of broken things. Sometime all you get is a glimpse of what could be. This is the curse of the fixer.
Relationships takes an investment of time and effort. If you invest so little of yourself you will surely reap the small return.
Under water breathing Through a tube. Imagine all the smell one can share. Did you know certain smell are now someone hard limit.
It seems someone is attempting to read and make sense of my journal. I wish them luck. Ask questions if you need too.
Saying your a bad girl and asking for punishment is just to vanilla for me. Rewarding that behavior is just going to cause issues in the long run.
New year, new tasks, new ways of training. A year of new hope..
Sing for me. I want to hear your soul.. No cheating I don't want to hear other people's songs. I want to hear yours. Sing to me your feelings. Sing to me your fears and hopes..
If you don't keep up I will run you over if your not mine. If your mine I will tie you to a moving dolly and make you into a human pull toy. Keep up.
It screams, I will do anything to be yours...

I told it to be great.

I told it to be strong.

I told it to be smart.

I told it to be amazing.

I told it learn from it's failures.

I told it to never lie to it's heart..


Life is pretty amazing. Merry Christmas. Find and keep your happiness.
Look so like CS is having issues with thier private messaging system. See you should have given me your cellphone number.. Laughs..
Some little fluffy of a thing is seeking a Master... Now seeking a master is different from seeking me... It looks for the idea of what it define as a master... It doesn't seek who I am .. I do not live up to the label.. I live to be me,,
There is comfort in protocol, Understanding what is expect mean there no need to guess what you need to be doing at what time..
So what do I expect from you? I replied greatness.
No thank you, I pass.. An old group who I use to lead wants me to lead once again. They offered me control of something I created years ago. I went my way when safety protocols were ignore due to hotness and cuteness. Safety is my line in the sand. They offered me a choice of newbies to train, access to a work shop to build equipment, a place hold events. They said they would let me lead the group as I have done in the past. If I wanted a group to lead, I would have built another group to lead. You need passion to do what makes you happy. I rather pour passion into one. It is much more personal and satisfying. So I say.. No thank you, I pass..
It show me it's naked body... I kick it in the privates... If I didn't ask for it. Your just using your nakedness as a tool.. Put your stinking clothes back on. You can be naked on my terms not on yours terms...
You offer me sex as much as I want and yet I pass.. You offer me money to spend on stuff I desire and yet I pass.. You offer me you and it peeks my interest. You offer me you striving to create a happy life with me You offer me trust in my judgment. You offer me commincation from the heart.. And it peeks my interests
So you are into humiliation.. Let's take a picture of your face having an orgasm. Make a wonderful t shirt image. I hear crickets..
If you are not mine, it isn't my job to make it easier for you.
Most people avoid the struggles in life. Why go the hard way when you can go the easy way? If you truly listen to a soul who has been through hell, they understand and appreciate life so much so compared to those who had it easy.
Some people can not wait to come home to thier happy home. Others can't wait to leave thier home. The question i ask are you a joy to come home to?
create your happiness or find it? If you find it, you can lose it.. If you create it, it can be destroyed...
Body hair can be dyed pink.
odd hard limit.. Math problems. The smell of garlic. Weights in the shoe. Mustard/tooth paste as lubricant Feather dusters. Slow internet access..
Funny how someone who just reads my profile wants to become mine. Your life must really suck if a few words makes you want to give up your life to run to me without knowing who i am. Big life changes needs deeper thought before leaving what you have to what you want. I am a responsible person. I won't let you run away from your responsibilities. Just not in my nature. So those who think they can run away with me to escape your responsibilities , should run pass me.
A slut to one man isn't the same as a slut to all men.
You can't stay the same and grow as a human being
Never put the kink above the person.
Happiness is the strongest binding material. People who are happy are willing to put up with alot.
I know many who have a gaint list of people they have been trained. For them it is like a degree from a university. I always ask. Does the training from the past really make you ready for what your future reality will be.
Do you find your path or do you blaze your own? Found happiness is not as sweet as created happiness
I typical temper myself when dealing with vanilla people. I tend to freak out people. The in your face invade your personal space. Call you on your shit attitude is where i am most comfortable. It not that i want to control vanilla people. I just want to make sure they understand my point.
Once a strong relationship is built. The kink can happen easily.
Now it easy to drive a person into madness but can you bring them back.. you really don't want to known for creating crazy people.
I know my influence is strong. I dont do people who are already marriednor own. My influence can be intense and i dont do well with people who box up different aspects of who and what they are.
remove it's need for food clothing and shelter and i free up it's time. Doesn't it spend it free time to please the person who has done this or does it become more self center looking for new ways to please it self? Do you hope to tumble upon a that great relationship you hope for or do you take the hard path and create what you want and need. Too many Cinderellas laughs Stay a frog, you get more kisses that way...
If you don't speak out, it means you agree on what is being said or done.. While the squeaky wheel get the oil, a noise fuck get a ball gag and a swat. She was so beautiful that made her ugly just so that she couldn't use her beauty as an excuse. Sometime you are tied up upside down not because you desired it. It just that I find it amusing. I like those drive up charity clothing drop off boxes. If the way you dress doesn't please me, I can make a donation. Sometime I do something memorable like having you tie your bra to the arm of a rail road crossing gaurd.. Yes, I was the first person to honk. You turn such a lovely shade of red. I can give you an orgasm from across the net. Imagine what will happen if you were closer.. Some people go to an event, I rather create one..
Life is short, do something amazing. There are so many who just wait to experince life. Waiting sucks! There a differences from going to an event and creating an event. Find someone who makes you want to rush off to bed. Some relationships give your a chance to grow and become what you can be. Some relationships just suck your life away.
Be carful what you wish for. Dreaming of something is different from having. If you give your mind away, it never comes back the same. Experiences changes people more than they are willing to admit too.
Can you follow simple instructions or are you the type looking for excuses and loop holes?
can you cook? and can you clean? Odd simple questions.. It doesn't mean I can't cook or clean. It a question of whether you can or not,,,
The day after Halloween, I still miss the little submissive who sits in the urn on my shelf. It was a Halloween baby. When I got involded in its life, I saw it needed a friend desperately. I became it's friend so no matter what kind of shit it gotten into It would allways have a safe place. Why didnt I make it mine? Simple there wasn't enough trust and commincation to create that kind of relationship. Even vanillia people around her saw she was having issues. Boy did it suffer through life and every time I growled at it for fucking up and its life in would run and hide until the next emergency. I think it was killed by someone pretending to be a Master and his two woman who followed his shit. While this pretend master I think got away with her murder, He did not on the next. All three are now serving life without parole. Even tho it was never mine, I still miss I from time to time. I still send messages to it's profile knowing it will never respond.. I still remember it words shortly before it died. Don't worry, I know what I am doing.
When driven to a point where self masterbation isn't an effective way to satisfy your need and hunger. Your search suddenly becomes frantic. Your flying without a net. It can be epic or tragic. Depends on who your pick. Pick wisely.
Driven to point of madness. Having your mind screaming about the relationship you having. Floating on a sea of your passions. Your sexuality isn't under your control. You are being driven and played with. Your emotions are flowing and just experience the intensity. Your addiction to this kind of experience is real. Fear is great to hold on to what is left of you. Do you fly or stay safe. I warn about Pandora's box. The lost of one self. Do you experience the hard road of life experience or do you stay safe.
I always admire those who try harder to get things accomplished. Working harder to become something you want to be is a good sign. So many people looking for perfection and oh so few willing to work towards it.
Given enough stress inducing highly sexual stimulation. I hear so many promises and confessions. These dark deep confessions will tend to make the subject want to flee. Sometimes when another learns what is truely in the heart of another. It doesn't bind them but it puts a wedge between.
Yes, the smell of bacon can become someone's hard limit. A little rope and a ring gag plus the smell of cooking bacon equals a large amounts of drool. Oh you want a piece of bacon? Drool drool drool.. Laughs what a mess
If I call would you come running? If I need you will you be there? If we create happiness would you allow a thief to steal it? If we struggle would you flee? If you see drama would you squash it? If there was no music would you sing? If there was no hope would you create it?
Are curses real? Yes, very much so. I have known and seen people leave something they enjoy and love with a passion at one time. You been lied too, you been cheated on, you experience some terrible heart break. I understand these events are rough when you open your heart. I have experinced these things and most likely you have too. Ok so the other person is an idiot and scum. I get that fact.. So why do you allow someone you currently hate have influnce in your life? Life is short.. Don't like terrible people have influnce on your life. Fight for your happiness. It is worth it...
Some one got into my personal space.. I looked straight into its eyes and just stared it down. I don't put up with that kind of crap.. Laughs
Sing for me and let me see your heart. Dance for me and let me see your joy. Scream for me so I know it is I you need. Show me your old wounds so we can heal them. I am stronger than your addictions. There is more to a slap in the face than most understand. There is more to bondage than just rope. I truely seek a soul who can submit on my terms not theirs. Your death leave me alone and wandering.... I yell into the wind because the soul needs to scream. I howl at the moon cause the emotions need to escape. I take the hard road cause it gives me riches that the lazy will never understand. I will push you till you break cause I understand it will make you better for the experince. I write here cause I understand nothing is perment and these thoughts will just evaporate into the nothing it came from.
A little meat puppet wanted me to rule it's life with pain fear and torment. It wanted little or no human thought. It wanted a life time of humiliation. Why the offfer is interesting. It isnt for me. I like when it runs towards me and not away from me.
With strong influnce many things are possible, many things can be changed. How you eat, walk, dress and talk, not to mention how you think. Your sexuality can be amplified to the extreme so that your thought are just center on the next orgams, chastity can be applied where you spend time trying not to think of sex and orgasms.
As it's medication was changed, it desire for sex changed from several times a year to basically once a year. Typically you would think this would end that kind of relationship. Nope. My sense of responsibility didn't change. So what did kill the relationship? Simple. The lies it told. Can not build a relationship based on lies. Tried many of time to correct that bad behavior. It was happy with the lies it told. So now it and it's lies are now happily living in prison.
So it says has a strong sex drive? I giggle. Morning orgasms.. wakey wakey.. Shower orgasms.. did you know ky reactivates in the shower. So your nice and clean, surpise off comes your towel and more orgams back to the shower you go. Laughs. Cooking breakfast more orgasms. No cooking bacon naked. Yes, you need to sit down you don't look rested. Doing the dishes. Yes, it means more orgasms. Back to the shower you need to go.. Another surpise attack. Boy, you take a lot of showers and you nap a lot. Laughs
I know my personality and what my influence does to a person. I push and I push hard. Trying to deal with me is a full time kind of event. I don't do well with others who are involded with others.
It showed me it's privates to get a reaction. I kicked it hard between the legs. I wonder if that was the reaction it wanted. Odd how some think showing of the privates is some magical key to get what they want.
Work hard on the relationship becuase you understand the worth of it. Protect it cause there are so many who would love to see it fail. Don't believe in instant. Instant is never as good as something hard earn or fought form
Show me your privates and you might find what kind of reaction you get to a stun gun. I wonder who will show them twice after the fact Or third
Does fat bother me? No, I take on fat as a challenge. I could just put you in a cage and just put you on a starvation diet. But it just means when you are let out you will just eat more and will end up bigger. I could have your stomach stapled or have most of it removed. It will work a little while but if you know the statics you know it is far from a sure thing. The most effective way? Life style change. That tends to work. Good habits equals a non food reward. Bad habits.. Oh you just don't want to go there.. Laughs.
It a pile of mush crying and sobbing.. Now you wonder how did it get there to that point. How a relatively sane and normal person become a lump of emotional mush. Time and experince create coping mechanisms. start removing them and the raw emotions start to flow. They say confession is good for the soul, They say a person secrets should be locked away. They say hidden and suppressed parts shouldn't be messed with cause it has that public image to project. Remove these flood gates and expect the raw emotional energy to flow. Love anger depression jealousy state being expressed. Soon all that emotional energy has been spent. When it express all of what it is feelings all of who it is and hopes to be. The crying starts to flow..
it take trust to give someone an orgams so strong that though leaves thier head.
Cook to please. Dress to please. Clean to please. While these sound simple to do, it is amazing how many can not accomplish these simple things.
on the hottest day of the year... If I dipped my arms in an ice cold bucket until they hurt with cold.. If I hugged you , would you flee from the shock or would you sink into my arms.. The nice thing about ropes is that can absorb sweat. Well if they can absorb sweat, they can also absorb Smells. It would be interesting to train a reaction to a smell. How fun would that be..
When I hear "I am search for my perfect person", I  steer clear.

Someone who instantly gets you and know who and what you are..
Is different from the person who struggles to know ever little thing about you.

The struggle make the relationship better..

Honestly when is instance ever has been good as the long road kind of experience.
I admire those who work to hard to get where they need to go.
Part of who i am is always the explorer. I explore who and what others are. I have demanded more from certian others not to see them fail. I do so cause i have a firm belief that they can rise to the demands i put on them.
Sure sure no limit person. Tied naked and all sorts of positions taking photographics where nothing is hidden. Paint them so they look like a clown and it's an instance new hard limit.. Ha!
Been offered money to get involded with a person. Been offered a motorcycle. Been offered a rent free house. I am insulted by offers like these. Currently someone offered me a body part? Now what in the heck am i going to do with a freaken body part? Make private part stew? Eeeewww laughs.. These kinds of offers are just attempts to get around the hard work it takes to create a real strong real strong relationship.
It is one thing to put a person in a chastity device, most can handle that but the constant teasing tends to drive people a bit mad.
There is a lot i can do. But with all i have done and will do. The same basic question comes up. Will there be more happiness afterwards.
Being responsible tends to make me cautious. I know that my influence is disruptive for other people especially those who compartmentalize thier lives.
Typical we invest 8 hours a day into a job.. What happens when you invest all your time into a relationship.
I hear pretty words a lot.. If your words have no meaning than they are just pretty words that have no meaning,,
Submission based on truth is a beautiful thing. Don't tell me what I want to hear.. If i wanted to see you naked, i would rip off your clothes personally.. If you want something bad enough, it is comforting to know you will fight for it. This is more important than what you look like naked. Part of the journey with me is exploring who and what you are. address Show me your demons that lurk in your soul. I enjoy a good fight..
Someone approached my friend and want to know if he wanted to get married for money. Yes there are people out there who will give you money to become legal in this country. They kept upping the price. He finally said if he was going to get married under those terms. He was gong to turn the woman into a sex slave. They went quiet and finally went away. As my friend was telling me this story, I was thinking. I think I am a bad influence on my vanilla friend. Laughs.
Mental note. Dont press a vanilla's buttons. I got into a vanilla's personal space today. I told it, your social behavior was unacceptable and that i know your going to remember this incident for a while. So reflect on who you show to the public before the rest of us have to deal with you. It peed in its pants. That wasn't my intent.
Dispense happiness and fun.. and than the world will come knocking. But if you need help moving only than will you find your those worthy of dispensing happiness and fun too.. Laughs
if the question of can you cook and can you clean doesn't come up in a conversation, the relationship is going to be short.
A whole body Shave? Oh heck no! A plucking is in order. Hair by hair.
It whines in frustration, it's sexual advances are turn down. Those types typically wanders off and look for someone else where those things will work. Show me your mind who and what you are. Show me what you are and not what you pretend to be. Show me you understand what it takes to walk the hard path. Show me that you know how to avoid being cursed by the bad crap that has happened in your life. Competition with ghosts in your head makes it difficult to create a future. Show me you can build a relationship and not look for that instantaneous one. Show me you know how to protect your relationship from others who want to fuck with it. These odd things are more important that your age race or that naked body you possess.
You can build something great with time and effort..
A smart person knows you shouldn't open every Pandora's box you are presented. When you walk through life, one should not leave a trail of broken souls and open boxes. A meat puppet without a hand shoved up it's butt is just a sad skin wrapper crumbled to the floor.
A smart person knows you shouldn't open every Pandora's box you are presented. When you walk through life, one should not leave a trail of broken souls and open boxes. A meat puppet without a hand shoved up it's butt is just a sad skin wrapper crumbled to the floor.
I write this as a random voice in the darkness we call the net. I do not write this to see you naked or to start a relationship with you. I write this cause I have a odd sense speaking my mind and giving out random bits of advice, Take it or not, tis not matter. Read this or delete this unread. It doesn't matter. Sometime a responsible person just needs to speak even tho nobody listens. There will always be asshole and bastards in this world. We know what the fuck they are. They waste our time and consume our life for thier own selfish reasons. They give us grief and attempt to play with our emotions. We understand the emotional pain they inflict on us. As a relatively smart person, why do we give these kinds of horrbible human beings any kind of say of what we do or feel in life. They are garbage and as garbage they should have zero influnce in our lives. They shouldn't have an impact on our future relationship. Ok you been duped into wasting your time but don't let these bastards have an influnce on who you are and where your going in life. sometime you have to take the hard path to get what you want. Happiness isn't always easy but it is worth fighting for..
Too much orgasms. Can slowly drive the sanity out of a person.. Is that such a bad thing to do?
I was told.. I will serve you for your pleasure... I been offered this kind of service before from others.. If I was just center on my own pleasures, I would have jumped on the opertunity.. Serve for us, to make us stronger. Serve for us, to create a stronger relationship. Serve for us, to create a happier life.
it lays on the floor totally spend. It has reached total exhaustion. Some people see the things that are done to reach that point. I tend to see the relationship that made a event like this possible.. So many people are cart frist people..
Do you fight for your happiness? Do you struggle to be you. These are qualities i look for.. I don't base my forever relationship based on boobs, butts, holes or cocks.. I based it on how hard you fight to be happy. How you defend your relationship your loyalty and trustworthiness.
Easy to say.. Fucken hard to do.. If you say your body is mine, I take it seriously but typically it is not what they were thinking.. I take it for a walk just to see how it can handle a little physical exercise will do. I look how it walks. Does it shuffle along or does it walk with purpose. A walk should not be like dragging a cat along. If the feet roll to the side, corrective shoes will be bought and used.. Just a simple walk and a conversation about relationships typicall become the norm.. Walks with a goal comes next. Some sort of view destination. As walks become easy. A back pack is introduce. Weight is increased over time.. Hiking trips are now part of the routine of it's life. But as simple as this activity is I have heard that walking is on thier hard list.. Laughs
It shows me it's privates and masterbate to get my attention. It sends me naked pictures of it doing objects. Really? Is that how you attract my attention? Go find someone that those things you do are attractive and leave me alone.. Show me your desire to serve by becoming a better person.. Show me that you can be loyal and work hard to earn and keep trust.. Show me that you can communicate what is real and not what is expected.. Show me that you can build a life and destroy lives around you. Show me you have a passion for life.. Show me your soul faults and all. Show me the battle scars you earn from fighting to survive in this world.. I know I ask too much..
Driven to maddness by it desires to reach satisfaction. You tend to lose one self. Take an quiet anchored soul and cut it free to be driven to madness. That soul will search for that experience again and again. The want has morphed into a need. Expect to be hated for what you turn it into. Expect to be needed at any cost. When opening someone's Pandora's box always expect a few demons.. Be strong and be prepared..
It screams cause it has to not because it wants too. It grabs the bed because it doesn't want to be knocked off the bed again.. It shows me it secrets cause it wants a tighter bound.. It shows me the nasty parts of it self cause it wants my acceptance. It amp up it's sexuality cause it know it pleases me. It offers itself to me cause it knows I am responsible enough to take care of it. It doesn't play games becuase it understand by being real it will find real.
The more set in the ways you are the greater and stronger influnce is needed. The more thicker those walls you have the harder you need to break through them. I been accuse of being extraordinary cruel and mean. I say no. I am just breaking those barriers that you created and prevent you of having the life you so desperately wanted. I been called controlling because I gave structure to an unstructured life. I gave it structure so it can reach it goals and desires. I never promised a stress free and struggle free life but I do promise a life with the goal of creating happiness.
It is easy to find a person for sex. It is easier to find a person for kinky sex. It is easy to find someone to willing to be your rope bunny. It is easy to find someone who is willing to change thier sex for you.. Now finding someone who wants to build a life with you and go through all the ups and downs isn't so easy.. Finding someone who is willing to cope with your personality the field suddenly shrinks.. Laughs.. There a difference between finding happiness and creating happiness... One take hard work...
Why are your pants ripped and torn to shreds? Simple fact. Pants are not for you.
Sometimes people be moan the fact that a relationship has failed. A failure teaches us that we can survive quiet a bit of emotional pain and still survive to find another relationship. Finding the one or the right situation isnt easy but by only going through the pain do we find the one we need and want. Have hope...
I push you higher so that your submission is sweeter..
Pink and blue body hair.. found someones new limit.
A submissive as me what my skill level was. I asked for it's hand and played with it for over an hour. The poor thing was hot and sweaty and had turn to mush.. It had to use the bathroom to masterbate and wash up afterwards.. I told it I didn't give it permission to masterbate. It's face turn very red. I laughed and it grovel and ask for forgiveness.. I told it. It wasn't mine. Laughs
I have seen and know what happens when you open up some else's Pandora's box without being the support that is needed to handle what you find in the box, Nothing good comes from being irresponsible.
I am that kind of person who says in public. That one over there is mine.
I was told I was too far away. The last two who said that are now living in the same country same state and same city. Laughs.I am old and know most of the excuses. Did i correct it? Nope...not mine to correct. Just wish it well and let it search for what it wants and needs.
Under the stress of too many orgams or no orgasms would your true self come to light or would you just be driven to madness?
Calling me on the phone and masterbating isn't a way to catch my attention silly person. Funny how most scream this is my need but have zero knowledge of mine. Driven by the your own needs there are those who forget how to serve.
I threw a ball.. It bounced in front of it. Zero reaction.. It just waits to be told what to do. It motivation is just an orgasm. I thank it for it's time wished it well and send it away..
An ex wants back into my life, i said no. I took on a 300plus person and made them lose more than 1/2 themself. I made the need for me stonger than food. It couldn't handle the new out side attention. It wanted the easy life. It took off and left the relationship. It has swollen up again and is begging to comeback. I have zero interest in repeating the past. If your more than willing to toss out the relationship, if is obviously had very little value to you. Some doors are slammed shut and will never be open again. It is time it realize this fact and move on..
Some people pretend to be a hero others are. Some people scream look at me. Others are noticed by thier peers. Some people blame others for thier problems. Other dig down and find solutions. Life is short be amazing.. be epic
Certain things still haunt me today.. The words of dead submissive. Don't worry about me, I got a good handle on things. She was buried at sea.. Her brother gave me a bit of her ashes. She sits on my shelf.. I know how terrible Ms is it took away some one I cared about, wheel chair bound and on oxygen. I know about breast cancer and the strong need to follow up treatments. Rip. I knew about leaf.. It got married to someone and now has to cope with being in a poly situation, I know this wasn't the life it wanted. I am sad for it. I know the craziness.. Not the good kind. And how it robbed a person of what should have been and what could have been. This wasn't the life you wanted. I wonder if you will end up in prision or end up in a mental ward again?
Fake this and fake that. If it comes close enough i can train it to be real. It will hate me for the rest of my life and I can live with that. I can't train something if it runs nake into the hills grabbing it privates. Maybe someday i can even train those too. Laughs
You can't live life looking backwards. Yes you can have regrets but you can't change the past. You can cope with it affects on you in the present but you can not change it.. Try to live a happy life in whatever form it us in..
So what kind of person am i looking for. Glad you asked.. What sex? Oh it doesn't matter surgery and hormone therapy can fix a lot of issues. Laughs.. What size boobs? Do you really think bags of fat sway me to one way or the other? Bags of fat. Oh yea great bases of a deep and meaningful relationship.. not.. Dick size? Chop it off or turn it inside out? maybe use a vacuum and make the person walk bow legged? How many bags of saline can we inject there another great way to have a relationship. Pain is addictive.. do i want to be your go to guy for your pain fix? Do I want someone addicted to what i can do to them? Do i really need someone who just wants me for pain? It the same as with screaming pleading wet orgasms. Lets build an great relationship on orgasms. As stupid as that sounds, People try to make this happens. Two points.. do you have a brain and can i earn they right to lead you through life.
Many screams force me to.... Like i have nothing better to do than to force you to do something you want to be done anyways. Break you. You you really think a broken human is all that sexy or useful? I find broken people all the time..broken people are plentiful and easy to find. Do you know much time and effort it takes to tell someone when to eat what to eat. When to go to the bathroom. What to do all the time? It chews up a lot of time just to deal with the little things. Some people just love to consume another's person time. For what sex? Laughs
If your looking for something real.. Don't use something fake to attract something real. Crash and burn baby, just crash and burn...
I walk the hard path and I walk alone. I don't create stories but I do inspire them. I don't look for the easy way or the easy lay. I have been promised souls before. I believe in working hard even in a relationship. Hiding who you are in dark corners doesn't do you much good, I will show you the horrible terrible things that make who I am before I will show you the best of what I am. I do leave most people alone with thier Pandora's box closed. I pitty the ones I have opened. I have seen more people grab thier privates and run for the hills that I can count. I have amped up someone sexuality just to put them in chastity. Giving someone a extreme experince makes them into stalkers.
It still puzzles me that after you invest that amount of time that moving is what brings the end of that relationship. If i move i take what is mine with me. I don't leave it behind to get lost in trying to cope without me. If you leave something behind it must be considered having little or no value. If it was on the same par as the air i breathe. Dam it i am going to take it with me where ever i go..
One of the simple things I do is to have a submissive tell me what they have for a meal. You be suprise how this simple request has many grab thier privates and run towards the hills. Sure give me your body, mind and soul but tell me what you had for dinner makes you freak out and run off. I find that amusing laughs. Dinner must be a hard limit.
Submission is a funny thing. It can not be judged by the size of it breasts or the length of it's cock. It can not be judge by the sexual appetite or the lengths of what one will do to another. Submission can not be judge by the biological sex or the strive to go against what nature has dictated. tellIng the truth is far differene from telling what another person wants to hear. Do I have a session with every person who wants to have a session with me? Oh hell no. I am old and wise enough to know that some Pandora's boxes should always remain shut. If you can grow a sexual desire in someone that escape isn't possible. You will end up with a person who will stalk you and will do anything to have you back in their life. Power can be very intoxicating, you can create a mindless person who just thinks about sex and how to please. You can create meat puppets who will do anything for you to please. I still think it is a waste to create a meat puppet. They don't think they just do. Puppet rarely add a thing to a relationship, they just follow and fulfill commands, I take the hard road which scared of most people. I understand that in order to take control of someone. You have to be stronger than thier habits and addictions. The older the person the harder it is to become stronger Than their old addictions and old behaviors.Breaking walls through the Internet can be done but it takes time and effort . A lot of people are looking for the porno version. Screw the story line and the relationship and let's get to the good stuff. Many people want to have that person naked at thier feet but few understand what it takes to make that happen.
So why do I go out of my way to upset and piss off with someone I am interested. With anger comes the truth.. Get someone angery enough and their core nature comes out.. How they fight back how much can they dish out all spills out.. Are they self destructive or do you have to get a restraining order later on.. These are good points to know..
I get offers from people to train them over the net.. If I did accept those people offers, I could have more than a dozen people listening and behaving the way I wish them too. Now for some that is perfectly ok. If this makes you happy.. Go for it.. Once you created a relationship and have someone in your life, this kind of activities don't hold much interest. A submissive tied in ropes with an o ring in it's mouth being teased with the smell and taste of food is just one of the many unquie and fun things to do. It's is amazing the amount of drool a body can produce.
Sometime you just need to step up and be the person you can be instead of being the person you are..
Sometimes you find a really fucked up soul of a person. I wonder if a trip to the police is in order. I know therapy is in desperate need for any chance for them to be happy. Consensual is agreement between two people. Consensual is not, i give you a place to stay and food to eat and now your let me fuck you and beat you whenever i want too. There are so many that take advantage of some poor soul just looking to survive in life. Some people build their happiness based upon the misery of others.
How strong is your influence? Is it strong enough to break someone's addictions? It it strong enough to free someone from the horrible past that they had? Is it strong enough to create permanent changes?
Some crave structure and yet still want their freedom to do anything they wish. There is a certain security in knowing what is expected from you and where you need to be. Knowing what you need to accomplish that day and how to go about it. It makes for a easier life. Like knowing what to make for food every day, you know what to buy to make it happen. Now this isnt the same as going down to the local market and just picking what your hungry for, a plan meal is always easy to make. Now consider if your life was like this. You have a certain structure in your life and you knew how your going to go there and the steps you needed to take.
You would think that a picture of a naked person would catch my eye.. Nope a person who displays being responsible catches my eye.
How far would you go to have that relationship you want? How far would you travel? What would you scarfice to have that perfect life? After you found it, how would you keep it strong?
To know what your doing every single day.. To know what you eat. To know what you wear. To know how you feel. To know every last bit of you in the dark corners you hide in. While there is quiet a few who ask for this. Rarely can they stand that much of it and scream for personal space.
Can not base a relationship on your problems. I solve problems and there will a be a time when the problems go away. Once the problems are gone so is the relationship. I could be one of those people who drag out the problems knowing that it the problems that make the person stay but if I not the kind who will trick a person to stay. I understand the addictive nature of the things I do. It one of the reasons why I move slow. It is why I say happiness is the strongest binding material.
Simple question.. How do you please? On this site you run across so many different people, that think they only way to please is to get naked and have sex. Some people only please another when they get what they want. Males to female state they will do anything to become female. If there is desire for long term, there got to be more than transitioning to hold a relationship in place. Some please by enjoying humiliation, from the simple as hold up a large cucumber and asking do you think this will fit. To the complex as sending them back to school for a phd and traing them to be a slut at the same time. Some please by allow you to control them not only in the bedroom but with dealing with thier families and coworkers at work. Some please by working hard and making money so that there is more time available to do the things that bring pleasure. There are so many ways to please that goes beyond the pain and pleasure..
While you can dance naked under the light of a full moon, having some one there to whisk you away when the cops show up isnt a bad thing.
If you can't scream to the world that a person is yours. Your just fooling around..
earn the right to be at my feet and i will spend a life time binding your soul to mine. There are so many events that will suck and kill the passion for the things you love to do. You have to strong enough tonot let that happen.. I admire those who want to be something they are not. It a dam hard struggle. It a dam hard life. You have to admire those who walk the hard road the hard path. I like those who scrafice a part of life to be who they are. Yes you loose years of your life to be who you want to be..
How crazy would you become you were not allowed to orgasm for a day.. a week.. a month.. How cray would you become if every orgasm included a post orgasm torment? How far will you go to please someone?
It asked me what happened after the Pandora's box has been open. I do know it will affect you. I dont know how these changes will affect you. If you can not face your fears and your issues, please keep your box closed..
It says. I rather not have a say in anything.. I laugh.. Be careful what you wish for.. No say in the clothing you wear. No say in the food you eat. No say when to sleep or awake. No say when to exercise, No say in what you should think. No say in how you deal with your family, friends or relatives. No say in the job you will get. No say in the school or career you will go into. No say in when can reviece pleasure or pain. No say in what you think. No say in who you are or what you are. No say in body modifications. No say in tattoos. No say in brandings. No say in shaving and waxing of body hair.. No say in what tasks you are told to do.. Are you really sure you want to have no say.. Laughs
It is easy to claim to own someone. It is another to hear yours make claim that it belong to you. It is so very evil of a person who uses happiness and love in a way to bind a soul to person. Rarely do you hear that one is too happuy so they had to leave.. Why search the internet for what you want. The perverted self eliminate them selves. They are looking for the next thrill for an orgasm. The researchers want to study you for their own amusement or to create a character out of you for some role playing story or a piece of erotic story they are writting. The actors/actresses will say the right things and do the right things but when the curtains close, reality hits and it just words and actions to get a person to involded in something fake. The clueless. I always wonder how you build a relationship with a person who doesn't know them selves or what they are. The egotistical. I read so many book and been with so many people. I must be an expert and i am going to tell you how you should act and feel. Laughs. The escape artist. I hate my life and i want you to make a new one for me. This types and many more show themselves to you if you have eyes open. This shield that the internet provides really show what kind of person you are.. Smile laughs.. try to have a happy life and avoid the time sinkers out there. Thank god most self eliminate them selves so quickly..
Without strictness where is the structure it so desires, So many people produce excuses, one tends to tire of hearing them. Instead of producing excuses, produce results. On time, under budget and done well. Some people think if they give an excuse, thier failure is suddenly is wiped cleaned. Failure is still a failure even if the excuse is acceptable. Sometime a quick punishment is more desirable compare to the alternatives. Do you really want to hear about failures of the rest of your life? Compare this with a quick swat on the behind and the incident is now consider closed. What is more worse being reminded time and time again about your failures or a simple punishment to correct or modify a behavior...
Laughs stumbled across a profile and sent a message to them of saying i wished they found what they were looking for. Not that i wanted them but you get to a point in life where you see traveler looking for something.. Well can't send that message. It proofed. Laughs..
if your push someone's sexuality desires to the stronger side of things, there comes a point when they can not find satisfaction by them selves. Porn, toys and other common devices won't give them the satisfaction they need or want. Sometime giving a taste of something to a person your not going to spend a lifetime of satisfaction will send them on a path of searching for that satisfaction through other means. Just because someone is willing doesn't mean you should.
You warn someone that what you will be doing to them can be highly addictive. If they become addictive to you is it still your fault?
It tries to gets my attention by showing me it privates. It got offended when it got greeted by a foot in the face and a shove. life gives you many choices. Some good others bad. Do you really think i am going to dedicate my life and energy just because of your privates? Yea i am going to create this wonderful and trusting relationship based onnthe shape of your privates. Show me passion for the things that you do. Show me you can create a bridge between two enemies. Show me loyalties based upon what is good for the relationship. Show me your responsible enough to handle the stuff i am slinging. Show me you trust in my word and dedication to happiness. I know i demand a lot but happiness is worth it.
So an it wants me to sell it's artwork.. It looking to make a profit off of my contacts and the people I know.. Give a person enough time and their true nature shows up. Go sell your wares on your own and stop asking others to peddle your crap...
It walks like a cat being dragged on a leash. Do I really need something being dragged along the floor when I walk?
Sometime one is asked to write a story. There is a great difference between writting one and living an adventure.
If i amp up your urges, how crazy will you become? Under the influence of your urges. Would you strive to serve more or forget all that was taught to you to seek out satisfaction ?
There are those who seek perfection. It is not the same from those who create perfection. Finder look.. creators make.
It is one thing to tell someone what they are capable of doing. It is another thing to show them what they can do.
While your fantasies may become reality. It takes a strong person to deal with the fall out of what has happen and what you have become.
I don't have a miracle way to fix some of you but through hard work and effort things can change. Funny how when you mention hard work People scatter..
Do you know how hard it is to train someone to change thier nature? This isnt easy. It a great big pain in the ass to do so. To make it permanent part of who and what they are isnt easy. No isnt as simple as flipping a switch it take time understanding and reinforcement on many levels to make it so..
Do you really think showing off your privates will get you what you want? Maybe it time to whip out the ping ball shooter. Extra points for flinching, twitching, begging and screaming..
My stalker is going back into the hospital again. I had high hopes this time it would learn to stay on its meds.
Mean rotten and a corrupting Influence. Failure is an option. If you only make little mistakes you never test who you really are. Huge epic mistakes teach you who you really are and what you are capable of doing. A life with no pain is a dull life. Thoses who climb mountains understand this concept. If it takes fire to forge something useful out of iron. What does it take to forge a extra ordinary relationship? Do you really think it just happens? Funny how some people think relationships are such easy things to accomplish. It take hard work. These kinds of relationships that take good hard effort to accomplish are worth the pain and udder mind numbing fustration.. Actors and actresses just fake it to pretend. They will look into something real to pretend and to emulated what they have seen. They never put in the god dam effort into something that is so freaken important as a relationship. I find those who ask me.. Did you read that book.. Blah blah blah.. If you emulate a book is it really you? Self exploration of who and what you are in important. It is one thing to turn someone into a basket case. It is the hard road when you push someone to be better than what they thought you they were.. Self improvement is the up hill battle. It the hard road. Turning something to nothing is easy. Life is hard.. Death is easy.
Given enough time the truth will shine..

This is your journey and exploration of who and what you are.

Most advice should be chucked out of the window. Remember your life is important and your happiness is at stake.  

Life is about doing and not about what crap your going to do.

If i remove all conversation about what was on tv, computer and sports, what in the hell would you really have to say?

Finding a willing person to have sex or experience kink  is easy...

Finding a willing person who is dedicated to making you happy is hard.

You don't build a life long relationship based on nude body parts.

It is easy to submit on line cause you don't risk who and what you are but...
Very little power exchange equals very little real experience.

Zero risk.. Zero rewards...

There are plenty of people out there who just who want you use you for masturbation material.
Scream my name and curse my existence. Do what it takes to remove me out of your head. Fools open up that Pandora's box. Do you really want to deal with someone who is stronger than your addictions? One you experince something you can not un experince it. Can you cope with with what you have done? Can you live with it? Will it make you better or curse you for the rest of your life.. Rare is the person who takes responsiblity for the general shit that happens. Easy is the one who blames others
To serve with honor and respect. To rise to what ever life brings To meet challenges head on. Once you maked a jokes of things i preach. Why am i wasting my time on you? I could train you but if it is not ingrained in your soul. Your just pretending.
Pushed beyond your limits. What would you find past your limits? What stare back at you in the mirror? Some people should never open their Pandora's box. ..
If you don't want to listen, that is your right to do so but don't be surprised if I don't warn you about the pit falls along the way.. Role playing is like masterbation for the mind. While it is enjoyable, your still alone when everything is said and done. Some people can not have or handle real and the only can view what maybe through a store window. Some people are stupid enough to think once you found someone who can put up with your shit that the relationship work is done. Saying pretty words is great but it pales in comparison to real actions.
So you hate me. Like this is all of sort new to me? Laughs. Take a strong will person and bend them so your wants and needs. Being hated scorned and screamed at is nothing new. If i am stronger than your addictions and your demons run and hide when i am around. Do you really think you hating me is going to change who and what i am? Really? Laughs. Hard path and a hard road allows me to appreciate life more that most. It shows me a picture it found on the internet. I show it a picture of it real self. Suddlenly it goes quiet grabs it privates and runs to the hills to bury it's computer praying that it will never be hunted down. Some people use pictures to curry favor. If i want a naked picture of you i will strip you naked and take my own dam one. Laughs..
Training isnt suppose to be easy. It is suppose to yield results. Walk with grace not like some homeless person. If your fat, i will make you loose weight. If your fashion senses is from the walmart clearance rack, expect your clothes to be tossed out. Expect to have an exercise routine. Expect to learn how to please. You will be under stress cause you will not be in control. This is normal. I do expect you to communicate and speak your feelings. I dont expect to be love nor your fear. I do expect your trust. A naked slave at my feet. What can i do for you, it begs. Do research on creating hydrogen from methane and carbon dioxide. A naked slave at my feet. What can i do to earn money for you. Do research on up and coming ipo companies. Invest x amount. Stick profit in a 401k account with your name. I dont need a slave to make me money. Laughs. There is a very good reason why slaves grab their privates and run for the hills.
I rather hear about the demons in your head than know what your naked body looks like. I saw someone who like opera. Kind of interesting I know of a little opera house out in the middle of the desert.. sadly the woman who ran it has passed away recently. I hope her dream lives on without her. I hope where ever you maybe you are dancing for a large audience who appreciates your art.
Sometime i will block a person for what they write in their profiles, it is not cause i hate them or am tweaked for what they have written. I just know that they are looking for something i am not into it isnt a big thing. It just a way to prevent from running across their profiles again.
How to upset a 40 something introduce them to a 30 something. How to upset a 30 something introduce them to a 20 something. How to upset a 20 something introduce them to a 50 something. Laughs.. They say competition brings out the best in people funny how some people self destruct the relationship if they think they are in competition. You complete for most things in yourself your life. Yet completing for a relationship is looked down upon. Funny how that is.. Just something to think about..
I always liked the Internet. It shows the world your true nature given time.. Actors and actresses alway go away when the curtain falls. Cheaters alway cheat Time wasters will allways stall for time. Recognizing the ones who want a relationship isn't always easy but it is worth it. Happiness depends on it..
Driven crazy by too much or too little sex.. The results are still the same.. Craziness. How you deal with the craziness you created reflex on who is driving you mad..
Some submissives don't want to look at themselves in the bright light of the day.
They are afraid of what they will find. They are afraid of releasing things they can not control.  Some are deathly  afraid of the darkness they may find.

Scream loud is sometime the only way you are heard.

Sometime when you show them what and who they are, You will be hated for the rest of your life.


So many build that perfect trap to catch that perfect prey. The illusion no matter how pretty is still a trap.
Without experimentation, there is no learning to be accomplished. The fear of making mistakes prevent you to finding out what you can do and not do. Success in something the first time sometime is a failure. You learn so much more by the mistakes you make along away. So many point at mistakes and are judgmental. They are learning opportunities to be learned and understood. Find me a spirt who can admit to mistakes and I will show you a spirit that knows how to live.. 10,000 mistakes to make a light bulb.. Imagine if he quit after a few thousand.. It would be truely a darker night
Someone is interested in this old soul. It have given me it's phone number twice. I haven't call or text it yet. I do not know what is in it heart or head other than it's desire to serve me. Maybe i will have it text me what it eats and when it wakes and sleeps. Pretty dull and boring stuff but honestly it a submissive is willing to do boring and dull stuff. That is a good frist step.. It screams excite me. It is bored. I laughs not my duty to excite or be your entertainment. Go change the channel and get your easy simulation. Do waste my time. A hard path submissive knows to cherish fun time and knows how to work hard to earn those times.
I do not have a magic wand to make your wishes to come true but i can lead you on the hard path so that they may come true..
Do not expect me to give you false hope. I will not waste your time with such crap..
If you don't trust me don't follow me.. If you dont know what is in my heart, the exit is to the left.. Happiness is great bondage material. I rather see what in your head and heart before seeing you naked. So you have issues, we all do. Now tell me what your going to do to fix them. I am not your ex. Dont compare me with your ex. Eyes front..plan for the future..
Stripped of your beauty what would be left?
It is unfair to take an independent person and make them depend on you.. if you not going to keep them forever. Some of the strongest of people are the most sacred of being hurt..
Sometime the battle scars you had from past affects your future. The ability to make a person pass out from a too strong of an orgasm isn't bases of a great relationship.. Being the best slave isn't for the faint of heart or the wishy washy.. If your looking for someone who instantly gets you. Move along. You don't understand communications 101 yet. Yes, i have saved many of people but just becuase i saved them doesn't mean they are good relationship material. It means they are good in getting in trouble.. If i know i can make you happy. I know that relationship bond will be stronger than any rope, chain or cage...
It is one thing to free the demons that you kept burried for so long. It is totally different to train them to serve you.. I am Pandora you are the box. Do you really want to follow this path. Some people are happy with a full box. Yes. There is a difference from wanting and having.
How to make even the most well train submissive run... Here a weed puller and here is a bucket.. Go fill it up. Laughs Sometime those lovely speaches people say are just words with no meaning..
Just because you are under my care doesn't mean we are to going to have sex. Just because your tied naked suspended by ropes, doesn't mean i going to stick any into you this include any of my body parts..
Calling me and masterbating while I talk is not acceptable behavior. Stalking me on collarspace is not acceptable behavior either. Bugging other people I know will get you booted out of my life. Trying to wedge your self into my life? I don't think so Don't even try..
Saw a house. It a total gut job but for less than 25k it a steal. Now how many naked submissives could i keep there? Not many. There a big church next door and frankly i rather not be on the news... laughs.
Just because I like you, doesn't mean I am going to have sex with you. Just because you have urges doesn't mean everyone around you suddenly has the same urges. Life isnt like a porno or a romance novel. There is a better chance of you becoming a pro football star than marrying a prince or princes.. Saving yourself is alot quicker then waiting for someone else to pull you out of your own crap.
Some people should never have a pet. Poor thing is mistreated and it's existence is just trying to make it to the next day.
Does your orgasms serve me? Does your cumming make you a better submissive to me? Does your release bring make you strive harder to become mine? Does your sub space make you more loyal to me? Do you think really think those who strive to serve thier own needs first make great submissives?
It screams come chase me, You know this works out well if you are desirable.
If your not, well you are left alone.




What happen to your mind when it is pushed beyond it's limits? Does the maddness of the moment consumes your soul? Do you bargain for your freedom? Can you even form words to speak? Do you wonder who is screaming and discover it is you? Do you struggle to keep who you are so you dont get lost? If you run out of energy? Would you take care of until you woke. M.
Some people are too afraid to let me into thier mind. That is a good thing. Fear is important to have. Having strong influence over another is a responsible. Wit great power comes great responsibility. Something to think about when your in a hotel tied and bound. Exposed to what ever is coming up next. Laughs
I cranked up the relationship and it begged me to let it go. I never laid a hand on it. I never saw it naked.. It did scream get out of my head. I left it to its own devices and demons. even tho i wanted to stay. I still respect the safe word.
You ask me why I look for strength in a submissive. The weak give up and find the easy path. The strong while thier path is hard. Understand more about life compared to those who follow the easy way.. A intense strong relationship need strength without it. It just crumbles into dust. Pretty words have no meaning if the words are spoken untruthfully. My soul has been crushed. It is an extremely painful process but I am not dead yet and I refused to let someone else's failing cause me to fail in my life.. Strength of living the hard life..
Telling me what you think i want to know isn't the same as telling me the truth.
Oh the carnage! A box of vibrators and dildos dumped into a chipper shredder.. Why the destruction? It gives the opportunity to start fresh.. It gives the opportunity to create new memmories..
If you anger your demons.. do they torment you until you speak your safe word?
If I am your devil and your God, what kind of savior am I? Would your lost soul be in heaven or hell? If I wield strong influnce over you..would it dam you or save you? Power yielded without empathy or compassion is most dangerous.. Alway the caution approach.. I refuse to leave a trail of broken souls..
So you don't know what you are, don't know where you are going and you don't know who you are. We all been there. These qualities while true they may be makes building a forever relationship almost impossible. How do you form a relationship with a person who doesn't know these things. You build something special on a wobbly foundation and you blame everyone when things fall apart. Did you not see this coming?
Do you give your car keys to drunks and idiots to drive you home? Most people will say hell no.. Why do you let craptasic people influence your life and the direction it goes? I know we tend to avoid crap and the stress in dealting with crappy people but heck i not going to let crappy people have any say where i go in life. So what happen to a slave after it been dismissed? Is it left alone naked broke thrown outside to defend it self? This is where you you find out if your involded with a boy or dealing with a man. Emotional maturity is important when things don't go your way. You spend time creating trust so that they can lean on you and follow your lead. For whatever reasons things didnt workn out. What happenes next is important. Everything that it brought into the relationship is returned. This includes homes, cars and property. Relationship after care is important. Training what was once yours to have a reason regular routine so they can cope in life is important. Do you really want to kill and destroy what you considered your not that long ago? Do you leave in your wake happy people or crushed souls? Is this easy to do? Oh hell no. It is painful and stressful but hell life But who said life is easy going down the hard path..
They say confession is good for the soul. I ran cross some one who i knew 35 years ago. I gave it a stare and from across a large room filled with people. It blushed bright red. Must have made an impression oh so many years ago. Confession maybe good but running across someone you confessed to may not be. Laughs
Do you want me to lead or do you want someone to blame? If you want to be molded into someone else. There always comes a point when your blamed for who and what they are. It is to be expected. A lot of people look for someone to point a finger at instead of rolling up one's own sleeves and fixing it themselves..
if i turn you into something, I know I will be hated. It the nature of changing someone so radically compared to who they are now.. Do not expect the other side to welcome you with welcoming arms. Well maybe to throttle you laughs..
Training creates trust and guide lines.. It creates an understanding of what is expected.. When to eat how to dress how to walk and how to behave.. Creates an enviromental that shows a person what they can expect..
Training creates trust and guide lines.. It creates an understanding of what is expected.. When to eat how to dress how to walk and how to behave.. Creates an enviromental that shows a person what they can expect..
Crazed and confused. It tries to crawl but it's body just wont listen. The term falling down drunk always comes to mind but sexual overload gives one the same effects. A blanket and sips of warm Gatorade as the mind and body reconnects. The emotional waves start to flow.. Some are like little cuddle balls.. Others are like firey hell cats..
Pushed over the edge.. it's eyes rolled in it,s head.. It can't speak it just gurgles noises.. The normal flinging about is reduce to involuntary twitching. Sometime you have to wonder if they will come back to the land of sanity. Will their mind go completely blank and be left just an empty shell. Fluid leaking everywhere. Just a complete mess. There comes a time when the body just refuses to react to stimulation of any sorts..
If your going to brag about the stupid things you done and the long list of failures.. Don't be surprised if someone asks you about them.. Taking offense and taking off is just demonstrates a certain pride in your mistakes and failures. Some people have nothing in this world but these things and God forbid if there is an attempt to cure them of these issues.. Something you just got to wishe them well and move them along.. Some people are just stubborn in their convictions of making their life their own personal hells...
A treat for a pet.... a bag of peanuts. Why does a bag of peanuts get such a strong response? Well the squirrels love peanuts and the pet loves to chase the squirrels.
when you spread yourself thin, you become mediocre at everything.. This includes relationships. How can you hold on to special when it spread your self thinly.
Do you know what you seeK? Can you speak it so that others will know it. Running on assumptions is almost as bad as running blind.
when your service is beyond sexual base and beyond the need for new kink, that is when it become all good. With so little invested into any relationship, it can be easily tossed away.
Was asked to head up a community of submissives. While it a great honor, just had to say no. Being responsible for that many people with that many relationships? I think i will die from the stress of it all. I know i wouldn't be effective being spread out so thinly..
While I am capable of fixing most problems, it is not a bases for a relationship. A slave who strives to please is a blessing. Being a submissive doesn't mean you check your intelligents at the door.
Sometimes you have to rip some one out of their comfort zone, so they can grow and become something more and better.. Giving the gift to be happy isnt as easy as it sounds.. Easy to say hard to do..
If u stripped you if all that curses you, could you ever be free..
It sent it's boy to down load and translate my ramblings. It attempts to steal my essence of me. It will use my words to fool others and suck it into it's fantasy for it's own amusement.. When you create a false and imaginary world for your self. The farther you are from real. If all you have is false and imaginary, how do you find anything real.
When fake means real. Real looks at fake and ignores all the tricks that fake does to gets real's attention. Old real has gone through many hells by itself and by those it was lucky enough to meet. Pretty words with no meaning is just plain noise. Real is busy with a life. Fake is busy invent one.
How much have to lost by living under a rock? How much have you sacrificed to a lost cause? How much emotional pain do you have to endure to find someone worthy of a relationship. Lost souls sometime need to be found.
sometime demanding more from someone sounds cruel. How many of us really know our limits? Reaching an uncomfortable level and turning away is easy. Going beyond and seeing what you really can accomplish is that really cruel or allowing someone to not give an honest effort and turn away quickly is that truely cruel becuase they don't know they could accomplish more.
Regulating sleeping, eating and working patterns helps a person have a more structured life. There is comfort in knowing what is expected from you. Knowing where you should be gives a person direction to go if they become lost,
Don't you ever wonder who takes those pictures in profiles? If the camera person could talk, what would the camera person say? It is funny how some who offer you their body get so bent when you shave a few hundred calories off their diets. Sometimes all you need to scare a submissive off is just to mention that you include book reports in your sessions.
Sometime it is naked not because of a need for sex. It is naked because it is a reminder of where it belongs.
How can it serve when it refuses to understand. Can you keep a house clean? Can you cook? Are you even public ready? Don't you know how to dress? If you can't handle simple task, I dont need you.
No sex for a year that scatters a crowd. If you complain make that two. How difficult can you keep someone without sex..
Why do I talk about happiness, a happiness will bind a person to another which makes me escape almost impossible.
If I am lucky I will send you pic? It said. Not interested in pics with that attitude. Laughs. It can keep all of it's pics cause I have zero interest in them. Well I might have an interest if it was cold and I needed something to burn. Laughs.. Silly games that a silly it plays.
it reads my journal and makes comment in the text messages. How cute.. A year of chastity, I wonder what you would do if your were not allowed to have orgasms for a year? I bet you would grow upset and pissy about it.. Laughs. A year of teasing and tormenting it would make it upset and grumpy. it may start pulling away from my touch and not seek it. We shall see.. It it is addictive to my touch, it will strive to be touched.. Bondage isn't about always about physical restraints
It says it has no right to claim a spot next to me. Does this mean the spot is up for grabs. Escape clause and running towards the hill in 3 2 1.. Laughs..
I told it that ego will get it's self into trouble. It has spent years reading this journal. Reading is not the same as having the experience. The basic old concept of it is easy to say and it is hard to do. People who dabble in what they call the life style. Dont really have a grasp of what really going to happen. I always warn people about me cause I am a eyes wide open kind of person. I have lived through failed relationships before. It is never a pretty site. I grow cold and mechanical as things come to an end. I do not just leave or rant rave about the fail relationship. I make sure that the person who is with me can transition back away from me. To leave a it out in the cold not equipped to take care of them selves isn't responsible and it is in my nature to be. There is typically an assumption that this process is an attempt to patch things up which it is not. When the person can take care of themselves. I exit. I do not become friends. I just leave. It allows time to be freed up so they and I can have that time to find another.. While im hope it doesn't come to that, I tend to prepare for the what ifs in my life.
Roars with laughter. It complains i call it an it. Sometimes it is so easy to push it's switch. If your on fire from so far away. If you come closer do you think you will bust into flames like a moth? Time is a shows us great truths as long as we can observe them.
I have been yelling into the wind for years. Someone has answer back. Must be a cursed soul screaming to be expressed. Time will tell if it can handle intensity of a life lead by me. I expect great things from it not because it can but I know I can bring it out of it. I wonder how it going to handle being in chastity for a year. Dance with style and grace. 1 2 3 4.
You move like a pregnant yack.. Laughs Move quickly with purpose and with a sense of style. A nice fluid motion is like poetry. You on the other hand look like a dam pile of unwashed dirty clothes scruffling along. Laughs
Protocol is important. It reminds the sub, of it place. It also understands how things should be done and when. I was accused of being way too controlling once upon a time due to making a person follow a set pattern. When to wake.. It helped the person get back on a normally sleeping pattern. It helps the person mental state of being having regular sleeping time. I have dealt with people who have mental conditions before and I have found a set sleeping pattern makes a person function better through out the day. When to sleep is also applies. What to eat, if your eating habits are killing you, I will in restrictions in the stuff you eat.. It might be as simple as a salad frist before you eat your meal. It might mean 6 small meals a day instead of 3. I hate to see you loose eye sight your ability to walk. I buried a few people in my time due to unhealthy eating habits. Your life on kept on time. Simply put your time isn't on your own. If you watch tv 3 hours a day, that is 21 hours a week and more per year. If your life issues are taken care of it is ok to spend time doing some relaxing in front of the tv/ computer, but if you have issues that need to be addressed, running away and hiding in front of the tv isn't something you should be doing. Your job is giving you issues, yes, I said job. I know there are those who want a life in a cage being sexually used 24/7 turned into a mindless sex doll. I don't crave mindless people. I like a person with a brain, just how I am wired. Your mileage may differ. Back on topic. You have to be job ready, it amazing how many are not. I know of a employee who on his 1st day wore a hat saying to all the virgins thanks for nothing. Laugh he was not job ready. If more education is needed to advance you in a company you want to be in, It is important to do so. If you need mentoring, getting in contact and having a conversation with the experts in your field is important. Hiring a consultant can be very useful. Family issues, I haven't met anyone without baggage yet.. Laughs. Family therapy can give your submissive a better understanding of how to cope. Sometime the solution is to forgive so that they can move on. Sometime it is just a simple realization that they are expecting normally human responses from a person who isn't capable of a normal human response... I can go on blah blah blah and I haven't even gotten to the nake person nealimg at my feet part. Laughs. Many see that and say I want.. Few are willing to put in the work to make it happen or to keep that person there.. Going to howl at the moon.. I might be touched in the head as other accused me of but I am a happy SOB laughs
Some people just grab thier privates and run for the hills when you crank up on then intensity of a relationship. The fear of loosing one self is strong and scares many away.
I say your cursed. I dont say love. One falls easily out of love.. You really got to try hard to gender cursed. Laughs
Build you up or grind you down? Typical both happens at the same time. Why do I demand you to be a better person? Because i know what you can become.
I lead you follow. Sounds simple but as most simple sounding concepts it is hard to do. Doubt fears lack of commincation and lack of trust prevents most from following. If your going to lead, you will have know where your going too. This doesn't mean your relationship is rear wheel driven. Meaning the relationship is molded by the submissive.
Do you create someone into something else or do you make thier dark secrets come to life? Tied in some obscene position forced to have orgasm until the mind goes mad. Is it really forced? When the person tied seeked out this experince and negotiates terms of the session. They Sets up safe words and maybe even a spotter to prevent potential injuries.
If I push you harder or faster, it because I know you can take it. Life isnt about taking the easy way.
so many people screaming I am an individual yet they are looking for the same book defined person. Do you really want someone who is that easily influenced by books that tell them how they live and be? Yea that is going to get a person to know the real you.. Smiles
It is easy to speak the words but all those pretty words dont mean anything if there is no meaning to them.
Some people create their own drama and hell as a cry for help so that someone will care enough to save them.
Been reading other submissives requirements. I wonder if I applied the same standards to them. Laughs. How many languages do you speak and practice? How many Ph.D. Degrees do you have? Do you have a high paying job? Are you free from all mental issues? Can you cook well and cook healthy? Can you keep a house no matter how large neat as a pin? Can you be great parent? Can you drive well and understand that most cars need gas oil and antifreeze? Can you be sexually ready to go at with no advance notice? Are you approached by modeling agencies to become a model? Can't be too fat, can't be too thin. Can't nag. Nagging isn't communication. Got to have breast X size.. Got to have a behind X size.. Should know and understand all sexually positions. Can serve no matter what you feel like.. Can serve by being in pain. Willing to have body cramps while being tied up for hours at an end.. Laughs. Silly list.. Simple list.. Someone who can put up with me and create a happy life.
So how how can you tell when I found someone who is moldable and teachable? Simple.. This journal will come to a stop. My focus will be on that person.There won't be looking for something better. I will just roll up my sleeves and get to work on making something special. There is always that chance if you make something valuable that it will be stolen by someone who is lazy and would rather steal something special. I make it a plan. Once stolen never to be mine again. I had a few crying begging ones who fell for another person's pack of lies. Submissives speak of communication and trust, Once you make your choice to follow another. You done damage to something you had. It is never the same and will never be the same.
Not many can Stand the intensity of an all in loose your self type of relationship. Fear keep you from invest.. so many are so afraid of the emotional pain of failure. Why would anyone go through this hellish experince where your heart keeps on getting fucken ripped from your chest. How can you live pretending to be something your not so you can cover that self who feels like dieing every time you are cut to the very soul of your being.. We who scream in pain and bleed in our lives know that once we find real and find acceptance there is that happiness based on who and what we are. Those hellish experinces we suffer through are forgotten because of the completeness we feel now. Trust honesty communication happiness these are my tools to secure and bind a soul to mine..
Been here way too long. Offers of sex, gifts and other things come by. Why do these people do this? Perhaps it the only way they can get someone interested in them.
I don't want your submission just because I provide food clothing and shelter.
Many want the experience rarely do they want to put on the hard work on the relationship.. laffs
Some one wants to make a story with me. I rather live one than make one up.
If you offer me sex, back of the line you go. I am the kind of person who will put a boot in your face to kick you off. Just because a slave or submissive wants something sexual in nature doesn't mean it going to happen. Controlling a person due to sexual desires is topping. Slaves and submissive should never be the ones on top.. laughs..
Happiness doesn't come from living under a rock. Some people are looking for a solution to thier problems. This doesn't mean they want a relationship with you. They just want a solution to thier life.
Grabbed held and force to endure orgasms. It was turned into a lump of twitching flesh. Don't ask it, if it can not speak. Some god awful gurgling noise it just makes. Don't ask it to think cause rational though was stripped away a few hours ago. It just drools twitches and breathes. It just exists and it is trying to cope to what the hell just happen to it's body. It was turned into a raw nerve that just twitches uncontrollable.
I do make mistakes and some times it has costed me dearly but I am the responsible sort so I move forward learn from my mistakes and deal with the results from my mistakes.
A candle on a muffin. A little happy birthday song for a friend who has passed. Sometimes I wonder if if it knows that it's urn is being patted on it's head.
Why a half inch steel plate bolted to the floor? Cause if you wield a steel chair to a 1/4 inch steel plate it doesn't hold up to a screaming mad submissive. Anger? Upset? Mad? Why do I provoked this dark emotional response? It strips away thick walls of an old worn out slave. No bargaining.. just alot of crying screaming and cursing. Sex? Oh hell no. Not interested. It screams get out of my head. I laugh and said I warned you not to invite me in. Your ego will over shadow your common sense. Keep it in check. If you put a person through such a trauma experience. You know dam well it going to affect them. If it a positive experience they are going to stalk you for a long time.. If it is a negative experience they are going to grab thier privates and run towards the hills.
Curses are real. Do not let your past dictate what kind of future your going to have. Bad past experinces causes a person to shy away from something that was once found as fun and enjoyable. Awful and bad people in your life will curse you with bad memories. This will make it harder to have a happy life. It would be a shame if someone steals your happiness away.
We all have only so many heart beats until we are gone. How will you spend them? I have had more than one time a room full of lesbians. It doesn't make me one even if they were naked and listening to my instructions. if I am going camping with a group of submissives, it doesn't mean I am going to have any of them sleep in my tent but I am going to have the neatest campsite there..
If i sewed up your holes and remove that thing that gives you pleasure and you still struggled to find ways to be of service.. This speaks volumes of the devotion you have me. You want to be my source of pleasure, amusement and my muse. I just warn you that it isn't an easy path. There are so so many others who will give you that romance book version you seek. I am not one of them. I make mistakes by walking my own path and one of these days those mistakes will kill me. A life you live on your own terms is a better life lived on someone's make believe world.. Easy is the quickest way to hell..
What works well for one person is completely wrong for another.
Some people run away from death, other run towards. I won't help you run towards death. I am not interested in getting sucked into your madness.
Clinical depression mixed with sub drop isn't a combination.
If your going to say you have done horrible and terrible things, there is going to be someone who going to ask for proof.
Sometimes I hear the screams of a soul and I just reach out in an attempt to give a little comfort. No, I am not collecting them but I have been offered a few. Comfort is just that comfort and not to take advantage of. It is my nature to do things open palmed and not by force. Things are just more personal and permanent that way.
I am sorry that you do not get it. Others point at the person who sits by my feet as week. I laugh at them. They do not understand the amount of deep commincations it takes to get a strong normal person to sit at another's feet. Some think it is easy because it is an act of role playing. Actresses act the emotion and the act, they don't live it. There is a big difference between performance and being. While they look the same, they are not. Fear keeps actresses to keep on acting. They are darn right scared to find out who they really are and are deathly scared of seeing what or who will start right back them when they go searching. If you work hard to earn a spot in someone's life. It has value. So many people want that instance heartfelt deep relationship but refuse to invest who and what they are to get it. If your not willing to risk the horrible pain when things go horribly wrong. You will never find that strong connection you crave so much.. So many people scream I want and I need and yet refuse to invest who and what they are to get it. Sometime when you see people who run with masks and walls, I leave them becuase I see the results of exposing those who hide. Thier walls and masks are coping mechanisms and without them they have problems coping. It is cruel to strip a person of that and leave them exposed to the world like this. One of the reasons why i always deal with the forever. To do otherwise isn't the responsible thing to do..
Offering me a body part isnt the way to become mine. Like I need something weird floating in a jar. Laughs
Red rope or blue rope. If you were dressed like Alice in wonderland hanging upside down. Could you speak a few lines.. Do you think it will matter? Spin spin like a spider Alice. Do you think you will ever be free.. Perhaps a nice tea party is in order..
If I put you on a diet would you still stay loyal to a relationship. If I decide to fatten you up would you stay. If I make you exercise and go to the gym would you stay or flee. If I forced you to get a master's degree would you still be happy at my feet. If I kept you home and not working and total dependence on me would you spend your time plotting your escape. If I told you your going to make a career out of what your doing now. Will you long for the times you miss being bu my side. If someone try to steal you away would you run to the greener grasses or would you run towards home..
Do I destroy who and what you are to create a sub human who is looked down upon by the human race? Do push your alpha traits so that you react as an alpha to the everyone else but me. Do I push you to become a walking bill board of beauty to be admired by the world? Do I push you to become a doctor, a lawyer, a business owner or maybe I just push you to become more than you think you are? So many possibilities and so many options.
It takes skills to make great Danish pastries. It not an easy thing to do. It takes skills and practice. If this seemingly simple task is so hard to master, do you really think you can take on a task to please another? Some people are proud to create some one who can do sexual acts in front of anyone by just a command. For my self maybe a master pastery chief is more amusing to me.
So I asked,  How well can you tap dance?  Who knew tap dancing was a hard limit that makes a person run for the hills.. Laughs.

When to sleep, when to wake, what to eat, what to say, what to do, what not to do, what to wear, how to sing, how to dance, how to walk, how to wait, how to drink, how to breath, how to go to the bathroom, how to bath, how to shave, how to prepare a meal, how to drive, how to live, how to obey, how to think, how to study, how to run, how to be loyal, how to be proud, how to be the best and how to hold yourself. So many how's and whens and we haven't even talked about sex yet. Laughs.. Maybe the kind of sex you seek may never come, you might have to spend your life trying to learn all of these other things frist.. Offer me free no strings sex and I will yawn at you. Offer me you to be the perfect bondage sub and I will pat you on the head and have you move along. Offer me gift and money and I will be insulted and you will never experience a touch from me. Offer me yourself and all of your friends and i will think why you would scrafice your friends. Offer me your problems to be solved and I will think you just looking for a solution to your problems and you will fail to see the person behind the fixes. So many offers that are so so wrong to create something lasting and forever. When I die because I know I will, I am the kind of person who can and will say with pride that one is mine in front of God.
Sometime when you give too much attention, the submissive is forced to break away. Too much of a good things isn't always a good thing. If you are too intense like the sun the submissive will burn under the intensity. There is a reason for the darkness needs to occur and rest must be taken.
The things we do to another human being can be so extremely addictive. Try to push away someone for their happy spot and see what kind of reaction your going to get.. Laughs
Now why would I need a radio when I can get someone who can sing me a tune while I drive?
If you make a claim to be than be it. Do not lie for attention. It will cause you problems and it will not get you what you want. Dont you want to be happy?
Do you build a shrine to what was/were or do you spend your life making and sharing adventures..
So what do you do with yours? Do you hide it away only to be brought out for use? Can you put it in a social setting and point it out to the crowd and say proudly that over there is mine? Do you dress it to impress or do you force it to dress like a homeless person? If you spent the time and the effort do you create something great can you deal with the fact that others will want to steal it away from you. While creating someone who is sought after and desired by others is easy, can you instill the desire to continue to be with you. If you decide to take this route. If you have someone who isn't use to the attention and the promises of greener grasses on the other side. Your efforts will be wasted, you just improved someone to be with someone else. I tend to avoid those who have problems because one the problems are solved. They move on. They do not stay. There is that selfishness of those who have problems, they look for a solution and do not care if they consume your time, your energy and your life to find thier solution,.. Just a few random thoughts to think about..
Sometime when someone you talked with doesn't reply at that moment a person's true self is relieved. Some get angry like the little spoiled children that they are. Some start thinking the worst like a major illness or even death. Some just delete and remove like the conversations they had were meaningless. Some just hold on to what was and live in the past. Some make a shrine to what was or what could have been. Some people have the wisdom just to wait and see what happens.
I sent a message to someone who I know will never respond. Most of her ashes were given to the sea. Kind of hard to respond when your gone. Even tho she is gone. I miss her and her habits.
When you cycle a person between orgasms and pain. You have to realize this kind of sessions is mind altering one..
Cycling, No, I don't mean the riding the bike kind. There are those who seek a structured life because if they are left to themselves, they cycle between great highs and lows. During these times thier mental stability becomes unstable. I have seen these people search out those who can give them structure to give themselves the stability they seek. There are relationships based upon the mental need of structure and not they typical need of companionship and love. Knowing what you want and keeping your eyes open is important if you are searching for one type of relationship or another.
Living close to the edge mean you have a certain understanding about life and what is important. Passion and inspiration for life is important to me
Just because I know the truth about you doesn't mean I going to call you on it. Some people can not function without their lies and untruths. It is not my job to correct those people. I just avoid them..
What do you mean a bra isn't a handle? Laughs..
Many people speak beautiful words. You have to wonder if they really know the meaning of those words.
It that time of year again, time for a flu shot. It time once again to stack the person giving the shot compared to my own needle skills. Laughs.
If your trying to attract someone into your life. Being difficult and full of trouble isn't very attractive. While I can get most people out of their hells that they have created for themselves, a lifetime pulling your sorry ass out of trouble all the time isn't a life goal for me.. Laughs
Forcing someone into being something they are not is a waste of time and effort especially when they are so many wanting and willing to be. Forcing just results in fucken up human beings. I know the world already has an over abundant of them. I don't need to add to the world's problems..
If you spend your life wishing and not doing, you dont get very far in your life. Opportunities come and go. Life waits for no man nor woman. Life is about experiences and the relationships we build. Reading about them and spending time wanting and wishing doesn't make them reality. Roll up your sleeves and put in the work and create the life you want.
When you reach that mental,sexual and physical limit, If you are asked again?  Do you open up and take what is coming or do you crawl and hide? 

Laughs
Walk a little straighter and a little faster. You will get there sooner and it is better exercise.
Busy work? No, I hate non constructive busy work. Write down what you did today. Write all the little things you have done. Yes, I know this sounds like busy work. After the day is done, look at what you wrote and see what kind of changes you can do to make it easier or more simple to do. Write a weeks worth of what you have done and see where your time is being spent. You might be suprise how much time you invest in something that isn't important has it should be.. Time management is the art of knowing what you done and how to improve it.
How do you live your life? Do you watch others live their lives? What would your life be if you really lived your life. Develope skills to do the things you wanted. Accomplish loft goals. While it great to watch great moments. Wouldn't it be something else to experince and accomplish them...
It pretty easy to exit a relationship and It isnt easy trying to rekindle what was.
Life isn't easy and it is made worse by those who use others for their own entertainment.

Sometimes you see something real. It makes me smile..
Screaming only works if there is someone there to give a crap. Laughs
I am not the kind who wants to make every sub I meet mine. Some people who want to be at my feet should never be allowed. i am a responsible type , I know when being there is just going to cause you great amount of problems and grief. I won't have a relationship based upon the destruction of your happiness to fulfill mine. It a personal choice of mine. Others may do other wise.
Is or is not. Simple, after an exhausting session ask for more. Beyond it limits a relationship survive on trust.
This isn't the first time that my scribbling and badly abused English language scribing has been attempted to be transcribed and indexed. I find it amusing reading about experinces and writting them down just pales compared to experincing them.. You know? Some people are just too scared to live and they are thinking if I read about t. Will know about it.. It is hard to describe those what the fuck moments you experince in life. The sudden rush of joy and the hellish moments when it all goes south. Those who experince life understand this quiet well.. Live love and fight fr your happiness. I didn't say read about it.. Laughs
You take someone with a strong sexual appetite and you amp it up. You throw gas on thier desires. Greater orgasms and deeper satisfaction. Sex isn't just an event it becomes a life style. One has to be smart enough to understand that this kind of lifestyle isn't for everyone. It does clashes with other types of life style.
How long do you have on this plane of existence. Laughs I sound like some acid tripping hippie which I am not. Your existence with this life you lead is limited. You will someday cease to exist. Knowing this how do you conduct yourself to squeeze the passion out of life? Do you invest time in following some made up story line in someone else's made up world? Do you get the high score in some game created to just give you entertainment? Who did you affect today? How much closer are you to your happiness. Are you on the right path for a happy life or one filled with a hellish existence. Some day instead of stumbling across your happiness you will spend the time to create that long life time happiness. Happiness attracts happiness. Defend your fight for it.. Your only here for a blink of an eye..
There is the physical bondage, the endless rope, the chains that weigh a ton, the endless ways to bind a body into a pleasing shape. These are just tools to bind a soul to a person. There is no instance binding agent. There is no quick road. It is a hrad road that takes dedication and effort. These are hard to find in this instance world and the got to have it now. I mean who really want to wait a year or two to get bound? So many want that instance trust that instance full commincation, some people in thier drive to get what they want, take the short cuts, only find that the short cuts just makes thier dreams and wishes slip through thier fingers...
If you let life bog you down and steal time away from the relationship you build, what does that say about you? There is always someone who is willing to steal your time away. You have to say no to these types. They will suck up your time and energy and give you nothing in return. Kick them to the curb. While this sounds cruel and mean, we are talking about your happiness and if you don't fight for it, who will?
If you scream you want to left alone and the result of that you are cut off from the relationship you wanted so desperately in your life. Who is to blame that you got what you wanted? If you were left and replaced, why blame the person? In the search of find your own happiness, people can grow so selfish.
Background checks. It amazing how these words scatters people and makes them run into the hills. Laughs Who would have thought a background check would be such a hard limit. Smiles
Once the screaming is over, what comes next. After it's desires are filled, the true nature of a person rears it's head. The actors and actresses of the role playing kind of people come out and revert to who they really are. They pretend to be something they are not to experince something real. For them, the goal of getting what they want justifies thier behavior of acting and role playing. They typically search for something real to connect with something real but yet they only offer thier abilities to act a part and not who and what they are. Sometime they acted so much that who and what they are, they are lost to fantasy who they pretend to be. They scream they are looking for real and yet they don't know who they are anymore. They made thier own little hell. Kind of sad really. Just an observation.
Stripped of the walls you built around yourself. When reality strikes you and your facing the true you and not the person you pretend to be. What will be left? Most grabs thier privates and run to the hills too scared to look in the mirror to horrified to know what they really are.
Yes, you can be driven to madness by your wants and needs. Given a great taste of what could be and what can be. Thanks flames of desire can drive a person to madness. Taking a person who has a strong sexual nature and increasing their desires can result in a need you may not be able to handle the results. Some people will open that Pandora's box no matter how bad the results ...
Yes, you can be driven to madness by your wants and needs. Given a great taste of what could be and what can be. Thanks flames of desire can drive a person to madness. Taking a person who has a strong sexual nature and increasing their desires can result in a need you may not be able to handle the results. Some people will open that Pandora's box no matter how bad the results ...
I typical warn people about me. I tend to scare off most who approach me. I was asked why. I have found most people have a Pandora box. Opening thier box is a life changing event that is typically highly addictive. It take a normal person and creates a strong need and want for this kind of relationship, yes, relationships can be as addictive as drugs. Have you heard the phrase anything for love? Leaving a person with nothing but want and hope is cruel. It is not a positive influnce kind of move.
It is easy to exist. It is harder to be happy and exist..
Someone wanted to pray at my feet. I have told them they have to earn that place. I think I scared them off. I am not here to feed your fantasies nor to provide you with ideals for a play,book or role playing ideas.
Some people are not worth putting in time and effort into them. They just steal your tme and draw upon your emotional energy. It is good to be selfish with your time. There are way too many who want t steal your time for thier own selfish needs and amusements..
It's mind goes fuzzy and it just makes noise as it tries to communicate. Sexual sensory overload tends to rob it of the ability to talk and walk. When you pull it hair and look it in the eyes, once you speak the word "Again?" It always interesting to see what happens, Next some curl into a ball ,others crawl into a cage and a very few roll over and open up for what comes next.
If you fill your life with people and stuff. It doesn't mean you getting what you want out of life. It just means you have a full life. On the way to the pursuit of happiness, distraction are abound.
Laziness isnt something I find attractive. It is a good repellent laughs. If you put high amounts of energy into relationship and get little back. The question becomes, do I attempted to cure this flaw or do I find a replacement. Life is full of choices.
It is funny how a vanilla person wants to experience who and what I am but wants to remain in control. Perhaps they should find an actor who can act the part. If you dont want to build the trust to experience who I am. I have zero interest in letting you experience who and what I am. You need to be at this height to enjoy the ride. Laughs.
if you want a relationship based upon your own needs and not the needs of us. There is no us. All relationship need time and effort. When you sense there is no effort on the other party to create an understanding. When your interest starts to dwindle down to zero, do you attempt to fix it or do you let nature take its course and allow it to go away. Life is about choices. Chances are not forever. You have to take it when it is present. Once it goes way. It never comes back. It the nature of chances..
It screams it wants be to at my feet. If I was driven by other people wants, the ground at me feet would be covered in people who want from me.
in order to correct someone's bad habits. One need to recognize it. Being told of an event is all well and good but having to ask about the results of the event afterwards puts a person into the habit of asking. I understand this is a way to seek attention but playing games like this shows me that when you have news, you tend to keep those things to yourself and not share them. This kind of habit is unacceptable and drives the relationship apart and not together.
In this life you will be exposed to craptastic people. It the nature of some just to be that way. They are more than willing to create there own hell and share it with you.  Remember this is your life and you should not allow those people to have an influence over your life. Do not let some one curse you with a life you do not want or need.

Stay strong and carry on.   
Dress well and walk with grace. Do not clump along. Be something with style. Stop being a slob by mess. Use your time well. Understand that life will have it up and downs. It how you handle your self during the rough patches that defines a person. Be that better person I know you are.
There are people who just want to be turn into something useless. I don't have a use for useless things in my life. Useless things are just lumps. Lumps are not amusing or inspiring, They are just lumps who goals are to become useless. Why waste time on a lump? There are much more interesting things to spend my time on..
Some people complain that nobody gets them. Creating understanding between people is hard work. You need to have skills to create that understanding. The other person has to put in effort for this to happen or you are just screaming into the wind. The hard road is working towards understanding the easy road is pointing fingers blaming them and hiding under a rock.
I hear a soul screaming it is echoing through my being. Once you experinced a great emotional expression. What is left? Are you just empty and desperate wanting to be filled with anything cause the nothing is just more frightening than the issue? Are you just something trying to live at any means or are you something special worthy of time and effort? Are you just a happiness junkie? Taking shot of anything, just to attempt to cope for another day? Can you be of service? Can you performed when told? Do you have what it takes to take dark journies into what you really are? Some roads are just not for you no matter how desperate you want to go down them. Some road you just don't know until you go down them..
broken screaming and crying the foolish ones run away and the smart ones get to work.
Hold a mirror up to a person and show them the darkness of thier soul. It changes thier outlook on life. For the better or for the worse? Good question to ask the person who is holding the mirror. Sometimes leaving a person in ignorance is best cause the truth is to scarey to face...
I hear the screams of lonely souls make me into anything you want me to be. Use me anyway you want me to be. Change me and mold me I want to be in your life. So so desperate to be used in any fashion. Thier want has consumed who and what they are. Soon all that is left is the desire to be anything just to be with you.
Sometmes past lessons in life will teach you to never in the hell will you do that again but sometime the horrible things you learned in the past was a result of bad behaviors of others in your life. Don't loose your passions due to others bad behaviors. It will suck the life right out of you.. Happy 4th. Remeber happiness is worth fighting for and even dieing for.
Life isn't fair but it does give you a chance to be happy..
It is easy to change oneself to fit the image in another person's mind. While a connection is made to another human being, it is not a real connection. Someone is acting to be that image in your head and not being themself. Trapping another to be in your life is easy. Having someone who wants to be in your life based upon really are is the hard path. The hard path doesn't guarantee you will get what you want but it does give you a better chance in finding and keeping something extremely special...
Sometimes coming across as being mean just means I refuse to enable your bad behavior. While it enabling you is an easy thing to do. I know it isnt the right thing to do.
Ran across someone I knew so long ago. It stirs memories. Not sure if it is a good thing or not. A death of a friend is hard to relive. Hindsight is always so clear. I tend to remember the good suff and tend to forget the bad stuff. We all need closure. I hope this brings some. At least the person has a lifetime sentence without the possibility of parole..
someone threaten to tone it down for me? Laughs I say amp it up and set that dam bar higher. Growth typically isn't as easy and as simple as just growing. Sometime there is a great amount of frustration and pain involded. Saying to someone you expect pain and frustration normally send people running away grabbing thier privates. The ones that stay grow and learn and the ones that run Only know how to flee. So are you a runner or do you like frustration and pain. Laughs
Yes I can pour more time into a person and make them more valuable but valuable doesn't mean that thier sense of loyalty will grow stronger. It just means they are worth more. So many want this or that. Very few spend the time to figure how to really be of service. How do you serve when all you see is your self your wants and your needs.
While i have no problem of you sinking into your own hellish version of life on this planet, I do not like the idea of you sucking everyone into your drama. Blah blah blah excuse excuse. Some people just love not only creating their own hell, they are so self center that they must share it with everyone around them.
Sometimes you just have to put on the black cowboy hat not becuase your evil and have a wish to do bad things. Sometime you put the black hat on to do the right thing that going to upset a lot of people who get away doing bad things for so long that it is ok for them to act that way..
I have to be strong. I do not tolerate attempts to make me weaker. A hard life will chew you out and spit you out if your weak. I have to be strong. I have to be stronger than your addictions as cruel as that sounds. I can not have you go down that hell of a path that doesn't lead to long term happiness.I have to be strong. I need to protect what is mind from those who want to destroy the happiness that is created. Those who throw thier influence to cause drama and weaken a strong relationship. Those who throw doubts and create issues will be quickly and bluntly dealt with.I have to be strong for that. I have to be strong to lead us to happier times and avoid the typical pit falls in life of getting to comfy in a relationship and not putting in the 100 percent effort a great relationship needs. I need to be strong so I can be leaned on in those horrible times when everything else is coming crashing down. I need to be strong. I need to be strong. I need to be strong...
So your dead to me. It doesn't mean you are dead to the world. It just mean your dead to me. Call me names, I don't care. Cause your dead to me. Don't follow me or try to stay in contact. Do not try to get me to reminisce the past because life is meant to live forwards. Called me horrible names cause I won't keep you as a friend. Cause your dead to me. I won't grieve about the lost. I will move forward like you should. I wont have you fill my life with your issues. I won't be asking you to be a part of my life. I seek freedom to find my special. You should too even if your dead to me..
Left alone isnt a good thing. some wonder off.. others are easily distracted by the new and shiney. ties are testing. Observation of effort become apparent..
Some sessions can be as simple as a hand full of coloring books and a big box of crayons.
If you are going to lead, you better god dam take full responsiblites of the crap that follows. Blaming the situation or other people just makes you look like the idiot you are. Laughs..
It is aways fun to go to a hardware store and grab a clamp and give a look. Some run off.. Some cover up and very few presents you something to be clamped.. Laughs
Rattling words into the great internet space.. Sooner or later.. Your words will get harvested and processed. It is one thing to read words. It is another to live them..
If the effects of my influnce has gotten you swollen from over a thousand miles away.. Just think of what is going to happen when your closer to me. Think about the intensity. Think aboult all those dark corners of your self your going to compelled to expose. What will you too if your orgasms don't calm your passions down but just increase your desires? What will happen if your toys become useless in the pursue of satisfaction? So what will be left of you once you are consumed by your passions? As time tics by the obsession to a relationship that slowly consumes you. Pandora box is a temptation. Keep your self safe in a box or open the the box and never be the same again..
Some asked who i follow? While it is nice to see other people's journey, this is my life and my journey. Lump bump warts and all. I created my own little heaven and hell. Thier experince is for them. I create my own.
Screams are not just for cries for help. Screams can come from great emotional release. Expression of the soul to let go. To scream to the heavens about some dark deed done to you. That emotional release frees you and loosen the emotional baggage that ties you to a spot in your past.. Life is lived forwards. The past can not be changed..
Painting a group of people with a broad brush, strips the people from being individuals. Generalization reduces people to a common theme. Promoting these stereotypes and weaving them into jokes, shows a certain disregard of the person.
Letting go of old pain isn't as easy as it sounds. Sometime you have to let go so that you can continue on to find what makes you happy and not becuase you forgive the horrible crap that happen to you..
I run across those who live a life that is expected from them and not who they are. Talk about living and making your own hell..
People with great need are consumed by it. They will look upon you as a solution to thier probles and not as a person to travel through life with.
If you are not you, who are you? If you are this actor or actress who plays a role. Do you not dispense create emotional pain. What does that speak of you and who you are. Ignore me. It ok. I don't have to live your life. It is your life and the choices and the behaviors that make you are on your own head. It just an observation on my part. So many selfish people inflicting pain on to others all in the name of self amusement.. How odd. How selfish. How sad.. We all have run across those types and perhaps we were the focus of someone's amusement for a while. It best to forget it and move on. An act is just an act and it was never real. Things that are not realy should be forgotten like so many dreams we have had in our sleep..
The past can curse you to a future you do not want.. It is not easy to unhook your self from a past that was thrusted upon you. Why does an influnce need to be strong,, Why does the light need to be so bright.. Some souls just wander aimlessly without guidance.. some guidance just needs to be strong to get where you need to be..
Some collars are thin little strips of leather. 
Some collars keep the head held high.
Some collars are used like little leashes..
There is something to be said about a heavy metal chain and a pad lock.
Eyes grow wide when you take the key and grind it flat.

Laughs
Some people stumble upon a connection and hope it fits. Forging a connection is something else.. Compared to growing a connection..
Dress to please..service with a smile.. Bend at the waist. Walk in high heels. Generate happiness as you serve it binds you to a relationship you want..
A captured soul always a choice to escape..a committed soul always stays to makes sure happiness continue to grow.
If your behavior drives you to someplace unhappy, knowing that you need to change your behavior and doing it is sometime two different things. Sometime a stronger influnce is needed and anytime you have a strong influnce in your life expect it to cause you more issues. Old behaviors want to stay the same there a resistance to change.
There are people who have such a high amount of want that are blinded by the want. There relationship is base on that want and the drive to satisfaction. Thier interest in another is not who you are but what you can do for them.
If happiness is the goal why do some fight so hard against it and complain when they don't have enough of it in thier life? Connect with someone and build a rich and deep relationship if that what you know you want..
While I can force you to do something, I rather inspire you to do them instead. What easy road compared to the hard road..
Another day bring more possibilities, what are you going to do today? Do you another day just trying to get through it or are you going to spend it just living it. Days come and days go. A lot of days are forgotten into the past. There are days that person can remeber for the rest of thier life. So are you going to have one of those days you will soon forget or will you have a day that you can stick in your mind? Do something great and amazing.
Tore down and reduced to a pile. It's emotions are spend. Its energy has gone away. It was consumed. It's silly games have been exposed as games. Those games didn't protect it from the reality and the truth. It is just one used tired nerve ending. It awakens and the word again is used. A loan groan is heard and it passes out again. It got more than it has bargain for. It is the nature of reality to the crap one dreams about. Pushed broken and made to perform under stress. Do you shine or do you hide. Doesn't matter really. It is what it is. Nature of life. I rattle, sometime i make sense other times it is best just to label me and go on your way.
A session can be therapeutic but it can open door that you may never be able to close once open. Sometimes when someone really take a look at you. They find things in you that are not quiet pleasant but they are a part of you. Some people find that serving with out self exploration is a much easier task compared to letting someone take a real look at you..
Do you dance with the desires you are having or do you dance with the longing of what you had once upon a time. Pandora 's box.. sometime all you are left with is hope..
If you find the life you want, when something terrible goes wrong you lost what you found. If you build a life you want, if it is damaged. You can rebuild it. While I could push your sexuality limits, the is no point if there is no future.
finding someone who is a solution to your problem isnt the same as finding someone for a long term relationship..
If you are never tested.and pushed, how will you know what your capable of?
A pair of slaves from Africa. Really now? Had German, Swedish, Aussie,kiwi, Russian, Norway and Canada. Never from Africa they tend to send picture you can find on the web.. Laughs
Sometime you choose the hard road because it squeezes more out of life. I know special when I see it. This doesn't mean I want to posse it. this doesn't mean I want to have a relationship with it. this doesn't mean I want to steal it away to lock it up. This doesn't mean I want to destroy it if I can't have it. Just an acknowledgement that is is there and that it exists.
On the edge of Pandora's box? Some people should not ever open that box. Live a life of not knowing or Live of life of strong cravings.
The perfect slave. Has to be hot and in perfect playboy playmate body shape. Has to have a money to burn and have their own home paid for. Has to have a master's degree in several real subjects. Has to have perfect health. Has to be fluent in several languages. Has to be able to listen and take orders. Has to be highly sexual at a moment notice. Has to be around when wanted and not be seen or heard if not needed. For those who search for this type of slave, good luck your going to needed it.. laughs.. Playmates are air brushed. They are not real. Most people work hard for the dollars they have. You dont get money buy burning it. If you want someone to relocate to you, a person who owns thier own home isnt going just pick up and leave.. While a master degree is a sign of commitment to education, a master's degree does mean your a fun and engaging person to build a strong relationship with. It just means your well versed in a certain subject matter. Perfect health? Please, we all have funky werid shit that our body do from time to time. While learning a new language is fun. Language is about communication. Sometime the struggle to understand each other is more impressive than having that feather in your cap. a mindless person taking orders. While at first seems like a dream but telling someone to breath all the time gets old really quick. Sexual at a moment notice. There is a joy in finding what creates a sexual mood in another person. If you short cut the process of finding out how another person is turn on, you miss out in finding the different ways it can happen. Life is about sharing experiences. How do you share when they are not there? Yes, you can tell someone about an experience of seeing a blue sky or a star filled sky but it is just not the same.. Now get off my lawn. I got people to chase and life experiences to have.. Laughs
Just because your naked upside down in ropes doesn't mean there going to be pain or sex. Don't assume just because your naked and your want something to happen that it going to happen. Sometime bondage is just that bondage.
Saw a submissive in a restaurant.. I just stared at it. it came over and kneel on the floor by my feet.. The vanillas with me were a in shock.. I asked it.. did you earn that spot at my feet? it said no.. I asked it was owned? it said yes.. I told it it wasn't mine and to go back to its dinner.. Was there a connection there? Yes but I dont steal from others..
There are many who seek and want perfection. I call them the lazy ones. If you stumble across the perfect one, you haven't put into the hard work to create your version of perfection. Are you a finder or a builder? Most look for that perfect relationship, the hard road is building that perfect relationship.
Some people run fast but yet they never gain any distance. You need traction and know where your going to get there. Some people are just prisoners of thier own device.. Nothing like creating your own hell to keep you trapped and never finding what you need..
With most typical interviews, the person typically puff themselves up and put on a air of what they want to be and not who they really are.. I want to know the horrible and terrible things about you. There is an old story about a man growing oak trees. He use to beat the oak trees. Kind of odd to beat up a tree. Well a great storm came up and the tree survived the storm. An easy life is great and wonderful but it makes you ill prepared to handle the storms in life. I have met many fragile souls that fall apart by the l ittles bumps in the road.
Driven crazy by too much or too little, you get to see what inside. Oh my how you hide and pretend. Reality has a way of reaching you and slapping you in your face. Some people should never open that Pandora's box. Ignorance is blessful to some and it brings them happiness not knowing. It would be cruel to leave a person with an open box. If the more knowledge you know, the more you realize what little you know and a little knowledge is dangerous, the more i learn and grow means I get more dangerous the more I learn. Laughs..
With emotions running to each extreme, you know you will hit the I hate you stage.. How dare you break my walls. How dare you tell me what to do. How dare you behave that way towards me.. If you never reach those extremes, you really never hit those limits now have you?
Sometime you have to make sure your voice is louder than they voices they hear in thier head.. If you give me you.. I wont stand for your self destructive nature.. There are only a few slaves that understand the art of servicing. If you use money and power to attract something to you.. do you really want what shows up.. laughs.. After pushing someone to thier limits, a true submissive will light up when you tell them..Again. Do you really want a relationship that is stronger than your addictions?
What do you mean a bra isn't a handle? If your going to an extreme to get some one's attention, at least have something important to say. Ripping your clothes off doesn't always means your going to get some. Sometime ugly clothes just need to be destroyed. Naked and afraid the tv show is where people turn native animals into poop.
I still send messages out there to a profile I know that will never return my messages.. RIP. Years have gone on and yet I still send you messages. Not as many as I use too but there are times when something strikes a cord. A memory of what once has been come like lighting through my brain. Something happy and than come the realization of the fact you are gone. I am unsettled by unexpected departure of this earth by you. your death still doesn't settle with me. Those bad people you tangled with all three of them got life in prison with no parole. It doesn't bring you back. Your words of don't worry I know what I am doing haunt me.. Every time I tried to help and fix. You would get upset and kicked me out of your life.. Can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. Sometime life is painful and it can be like a hell.. Life is lead by going forward and sometime you just need to go through hell to get there..
If you cast your net wide and far are you going get what you really need and want?
When someone complains not to spoil them so much because they fear thier sex toys will become ineffective, I grow fustrated cause it limits what I like to do. I am investing my time, my energy and my life into another human being, dam straight, I am picky. Just because I agree to bind you in ropes, it doesn't mean there going to be any sex. I don't care if you wet and horny. Yes, I understand you have a fetish or a thing you like to do but you can't based a relationship just on that only thing.
I don't fit in a neat square box. I know there are those who seek someone who fits nicely in a little neat box. The bedroom types. I know my nature and I know what my nature does to those who attempts to put me in that little neat little box. I enjoy being an influnce on all aspects on a person's life. This scares off many cause they need to contain an event to one place and one nice and neat little box. They fear that the more influnce the less they have a say in thier own life and they refuse to let go cause it always been disappointing and things have horribly gone wrong in so many different levels..
Do I save you or do I put you in peril? Depends on how you look at things. some people should never go down that rabbit hole. It just leads to an unhappy and tormented life. If I push your emotional limits would you ever be the same? What happens if the need I strived to grow consume you? What would be left of you if this doesn't work out. THeses are we important things that rattle in my head.
Some people freak out when food is introduced. I really don't understand why they get upset. I have had over weight and diabetic people in my life. Being the kind of person who enjoys being responsible, the health of the one I take care of is important to me.
Little paw gloves and some cat ears. Poor little thing is not allowed to talk. It tries so hard to meow and communicate a message. It gets frustrated and has to play with a ball of yarn. It tries to claw a corner of the sofa. It get treated to spray bottle. It get fed in a little pink bowl on the floor.. It naps on the couch.. I wonder.. Why does it travel so far away just to experince this.. It seems to be happy as it wanders off back to it life..
So you been trained by this person or that person, well good for you. Now if I was the kind of person who wanted to benefit from a pretrain person, This might be appealing but honestly, I like training. I like the details. I like the lows and highs. There is a point when service is like watch a piece of human artwork. Every moment being aware of what your hands are doing how your body is positioned. Yes, even how you are breathing. Training has time and effort invested into a person. It is truely an art form.
It is one thing kneeling in front of someone on some nice thick carpet..it is another thing to have someone kneeling on a bed of dried peas.
Truely having a person is an extreme delight. It more than having the ablitiy to direct another person to do kinky things. It more than training a person to endure the most painful experiences. It more than orgasms that feel like your soul is ripped fro your body. It more than having someone who will do things for you. I have seen the desperation of those wanting to be own loved and cherished. Some people spend a life time looking for special, instead of walking the hard road and creating it. There are no real shortcuts to achieving special. It is fraught with the shiney shiney of something new. Why spend the time when it is so easy to get something new syndrome. How do you connect to another? Just on one level or do you invest time and energy to connect in more than just one level? Do you value the relationship more than your own sense of right and wrong? If you understand that your influnces does affect people and thier relationships. How can you allow another who has their own be consumed by it. Give someone a safe place to be who they are. Ignite a person soul to have great passions. This kind of life isn't for everyone but it a well lived one. It is easy to find a greedy soul, it hard to find a kind one but it is worth it..
Training someone to value the opinion of those worthy is important
When the things you do to another human causes addiction problems.. it can be dangerous for both parties..
When the things you do to another human causes addiction problems.. it can be dangerous for both parties..
There are those who will want you for what you got. There are those who want you for what you do. There are those who want you for thier own selfish needs. There are those who want the free life without work. There are those who scream understand me and do not communicate. Yes, I understand want and need but I rather not spend my life just feeding that want and need. There are no instance relationships just add water..you have to work on and for the things you want and need. It makes for a more passionate life. What is life without passion, just someone who is waiting for death to claim them... Dont be one of those who live under a rock.m
Trying to post tends to make duplicate empty journal entries. Odd.. Being the responsible type means you just take care of things without asking. Tagger hit our street sign. I took my ladder and my paint remover just to clean the paint off the street sign. As I was on the top of the ladder the local police came by and asked me what I was doing. I just looked at him and said I am taking care of my neighborhood. Yes, I know the local city will clean up this mess in a week but I can keep the street clean in hours if need be.
If I punish you, it means I have hopes you will improve.
Don't tell me how submissive you are. Tell me about your hopes and dreams..
The prefect submissive? I am.not.even interested. Why? A smooth life is a dull life. How do you have passion when everything is easy? Easy means there is no challenge and a life with no challenge. How do you value something that has no challenges?
Sometime we reduce a person to a crying heap of biomass, just to get closer to what they are. Just to allow them to have that emotional release they need. Yes, I said need and not want. There are those who have so much emotional baggage that is prevents them from having the life they want. That great emotional release allows them to function without being self destructive.
If you too busy worrying about what others think and your image, you lose yourself and the ability to be you..
There are those who are emotionally spread out thinly. Thier emotional support system is based upon numerous sources. While these does give the Constance emotional support they need, it doesn't give them any deep emotional involvement they crave. Part of the many compared to part to the few so to speak. They are safe in thier little environment they created for them self but they don't have the time or emotional energy to make a strong connection due to the draw and need to maintain all these smaller emotional support relationships. Understanding what your doing and where you want to be is part of self exploration and knowing who and what you are. Going forward to what you want is better than just existing and just wanting something and not doing anything to get thier.
some people are forced to live a life they are not happy in. Theses poor miserable souls cry the loudest. They become self destructive. One need a firm, quick action or these poor souls just create their own hells. One can not lose focus or be lazy in the relationship. One has to be relationship focused. While hope for a quick fix, normally this isn't the case. Someday you have to just roll up the sleeves and get to work.
if you crank up someone sexual addiction be sure your able to satisfy the hunger you created. A frustrated person soon tires of being frustrated and leaves to fill the void you created. Of course, if it is your goal to make this person leave you than carry one. There are those who have no want or need for sexual satisfaction. They are truly not turn on sexually at all. They are just happy little non sexual people, happy to serve but just not in a sexual way. But even tho they are like, this doesn't mean that free you to have a sexual relationship with another. Just be cause someone has no sexual interest doesn't mean they are not jealous of your time not spent with them.
A little sub was complaining, I told them of one of my filters.
No sex for 6 months and No kink for a year.
The perverts will look for something easier. They will find  easier low hanging fruit.
Actors and actresses can only act for a short time..
Perverts will look for easier ways to get themselves off..
Crazies will cycle before the year is up.
The grass is always greener crowd will jump ship long before the year is up.
The catfish will run out of information or grow bored.

Time is a great truth reveler.

If you make a mess of your life, why do you expect another to clean it up? If you clean up someone messy life, why do you expect them to stay in your life? If the grass is always greener someplace else, rarely does one put in the time and effort to make thier own little patch of green, greener. Many speak with pretty words, rare is the one who actions speak louder than thier words.
If I implanted breast implants into a male sub, do you think he would just hide in the corner and play with himself?
Out of the box solution or do you build what you need or want.. It speaks greatly of who and what you are.. do you seek a great relationship or do you build one... Why do you allow someone to suck the passion out of your life..
Do you ask for a happy life or do you earn a happy life? Are your steps in life are gong towards your goal and dreams or away? Is life the biggest optical in your path or is it you? While fear keeps us safe it also keeps us from experincing new things. If you haven't gone a little insane while having sex, your just not in the same league..
Some people strive to have a rich and happy life.. others just hunt for more victims..
Do you really think boobs and a hole will get you through life?
So you had an orgasm. Well who cares, people been having them for a very long time. It isnt special and we dont need to tell the press or the pope about it. Now most remember the frist orgasm, it was special to you. A bit of the unknown and a bit of fear makes things special. Now most have accomplished having orgasms but few have accomplished working hard to make them special. Do this do that and presto orgasm. Expanding how you reach makes a lot more special ones.
Negative influences can give lessen your chances... If you allow the negative people thier influence to affect your life. You chances of finding yours is lessened. You find someone interesting and you greet them with a lazy attuitue and when asked about your self you point them to a website or link.. Now really who wants someone who only put minimum effort into something ? There isnt much interest in low energy low passion people. This place and others can curse you if you are not careful..
People who struggle through life are a lot more interesting and have a greater apperication of life.
If I move, I take what is mine with me. I do not leave it alone. It just something I do. If your relationship is worthless and what you consider yours is worthless, I suppose you could just walk away. Death has a way of putting a stronger value on the person you call yours. I tend to hear how thier last relationship was so great and than they moved. This is always a curious to me if you find something great, why leave it.
The concept of being someone's everything. It a mighty big job to be someone's everything. Adding bdsm concepts to the typical relationship naturally intensifies the relation. Being someone's everything just become more complicated. Considering the people one finds in is life style, it not one in a million shot, the odds become much greater in finding a person who is your everything. Compromises can occur to accomplish a relations but compromises leads to someone who ends up lacking. Dealing with people who typical do not have the typical normal vanillia upbringing, it isn't typical that they can handle the large job of being someone's everything. Typically it is not there fault, they are typically survivors of events beyond thier control. Having the typical male gene of needing to fix. I tend to build polly relationships. So instead of a 2 person building a relationship, it is a three person relationship. The relationship is a lot more complicated and a lot more harder work. So why? The amount of energy is simply amazing. Things that are lacking can be more easily compensated for. Tasks are easier and simpler to accomplish. If everything is working an amazing experince compare with the constant struggle..
Years and years ago it had a session from me. It was with me long enough that I knew it moods and emotions like my own. I applied what I knew and gave it a lot of time and effort. It decided to close the door and move on. No ill words were though or spoken. Like a book it just came to an end. It seems that these experiences that it had received has haunted it. It wants what was. I told it, you can not take a snap shot in time and relive it. You are not the same and neither am I. One can only live life forwards and if you live it with passion, you lived it well. Some people chase what was once and forget what they have in front of them.
Very few can endure. So many want the instance life. Do you know what it takes to build something great? Do you understand what the hard road is and the satisfaction you received for a something you put honest time and effort into? Some success comes from your failures when you brush your self off and continue on. Do you realy live a life or are you faking it? Who are you cheating when you do? What does that say about you? There are many things that are easy to say but hard to do. Do you have what it takes to work hard and endure.. Rattling thoughts from someone off center but is very happy in his skin..
It seems the last of the three was sentenced to life to prison without parole.. I wonder if they believe in an afterlife of sorts. I wonder what thier God will say to them. I wonder if thier dead victims will extract revenge on them. People are dead due to the excuse of well this is bdsm and the lifestyle. Just because you are what you are doesn't mean it gives you the right to terminate another person's existence. If you don't value life, don't suck anyone into your hell your making for yourself.
Not quite human, not quite pet, not quite one way or the other. Its should makes sense..
Some people hide in the shadows..afraid that they may be discovered what they truly are.. I use pleasure and pain to demand the best from you. That in itself scares the crap out of most.
If no one demands the best from you, how do you what is your best? Life is filled with traps called the easy way. Are you sure the easy way is not robbing you of something truly worthwhile? Life is littered with tragic stories of those who took the easy way.
a pile of rope that once held someone tight.. Now sits in little short peices. The submissive pulled in a direction that wasn't planned. It is amazing what the body can do under stress. A limb was changing colors. Out come out the rope cutters. I chopped the person out.what took hours to weaver is now sits on the floor. I ignore the submissive. I made the choice when everything comes to an end. Instead of being cradled in ropes, the submissive is now giving me the evil eye. Was this a failure? Not in my eyes. Just another opertuity for another design change. When things go wrong. It shows me what kind of person I am dealing with. As it walks out the door, it calls me a tease and grumbles away.
Found someone's limit.. I called them kiddo.. smiles laughs
If I dont know what your doing today. There isnt a lot of hope that I will decide that you will be mine. I know there are those who can neatly box a person in and make them fit into thier life. Your only going to fit here and your only going to act this way there. I am just not build that way. This doesn't mean I going to tie you naked in the middle of a presidential event on live tv and just fuck you silly in front of live cameras. Going to jail isnt and dealing with the drama it will cause just isnt very appealing to me.
It says it can not sing or play a musical instrument. I can change that. Show me what in your soul. Sing for me.
There are those who will act a certain way in order to have a relationship. They been acting this way and that way for a very long time. They have lost who they really are.. Thier need to have something special has warp who and what they are. So if you don't know who you are and you change your spots to acquire a lie of a relationship, do you really think your going to find something real and solid to build your happiness?!
Easy road is to setup rules and apply punishment for enforcement. hard road is holding them accountable for thier actions and give them an understanding of what will happen if they continue with thier actions. Everyone wants to have thier words to have weight and meaning. Trying to connect by repeating your self over and over just results on words being more worthless as time goes forward.
I ran across someone who stated they were in this life style all thier adult life.. I kind of wonder without a choice, how do you know this is the path you want to be in? Were they real? Who know just some odd soul.
Just because I can see the image in your head of what you want doesn't mean I going to change to fit that image. Images are unreal and are never based in reality..
Sometime I ask for a leap of faith, to see a reaction. Reactions, tell me a lot about a person.
I wonder if I can teach a soul to dance.. We shall see...
So many princesses looking for a prince, one has to wonder what in the heck is a prince doing on a bdsm site? Laughs..
If I don't frustrate the living crap out of you from time to time, there is something wrong.. We are a desert eating kind of culture, We want it now and we want desert frist. With out passion, life is just trying to get through it. Just trying to exist for another day.
We eat. It makes one of the primal things we all do. Controlling someone's food intake is important. Sounds simple? Monday x Tuesday y and Wednesday z etc. While a fixed meal plan sound simple, it isnt. We thrive on variety and what is fresh and in season. The out of season or items picked green isnt very good. A meal based upon a farmers market what is fresh is a meal that takes more time but is healthier for you in the long run. Feeding junk food to your submissive is just going to get you someone with poor health.
I could trick someone to be naked at my feet but tricks are for kids.. I could pay for someone to be at my feet but that personn is motivated by money.. I could give away the spot at the frist person who wants it.. What does that say about the space at your feet? Things have value and this includes relationships. How much do you value yours? Hi ow much do you value the space at your feet
The mind wanders... I could amp up that person.. I could give it a happy life.. I could train and influnce it to become something more special.. I could give it the courage and security to completely let go.. I could make it's relationships stronger.. I could push it to a higher level.. I could amp up it passion for life. There a lot I could do. I wonder how deep of a rabbit hole it can go? Control, influence, training, trust, commincation, loyalty and passion these are the things that are important. In the drive for happiness, laziness isn't something anyone needs.
If you sign up for bondage, don't get upset if there is no sex before, during or afterwards..
Dressing to please.. Some people never learn or accomplish this feat. Some people have no style or haven't found what works for them. Sometime you need to do a little training because of the sudden rush of attention. The old story of the grass is greener on the other side because of the bs.
If your not responsible for your own behavior, who is? Sometime a person needs to put the blame on someone in order to be come what they want. They need that escape clause. In their mind, they can still lie to themselves and call them self normal. It is the other who makes me do these dark and shameful things. They cling on to the image that they are fit into that neat little normal box. Omg the shame of being you, blaming others for being what is really you.. Laughs
I get opportunities to start a relationship.. I look at what they are seeking. Some seek just an experince , other seek long term and other have not a clue. Since I am long term, I look how that person might fit into my life. Do they have the time to put into a relationship? Relationship dies due to the lack of time. If a relationship is that important to you, I wonder how many hours do you put into it?
So you want a happy life? Find someone who wants to have a life with you. You will be tested in horrible ways. It hard to remember that happiness is the goal.. So many things will distract you.. Short cuts to happiness will give you a hell you may not recover from.. Some people will fuck with you just for there own amusement. Sometime you have to fight other for your happiness.. Sometime you have to fight yourself.. All the crap you have to go through will seem like a bad dream you will forget about.. Once you know what you got is real, solid and not going away. You can create that life you want.. Happy life..
What do you mean a bra isnt a handy control device? Pulling on the back strap is a good warning device. a snap is a good ways of saying I am not happy with your behavior. a.good grip on the back side of the bra and a skateboard is a fun way to get around. A good grip in the front is a good temp collar. Pulling on the shoulder straps makes a good boobies marionette..
Why the older sub? They understand reality relationships and have experince. Newbie have a fantasy to fulfill. They want you as long as you fulfill thier fantasy. Barbie syndrome even occurs in the bdsm world. Laughs. I have lived through my own hell and have helped other with thier own hells. It gives me an odd perspective of life. If you inivte a strong influnce into your life, if your seasoned by life you understand that your actions will have unforeseen results.
A ream of paper and a few pens. I have been told, these are a horrible items for a session. This is beyond cruel. Tell me about you. It sounds like a simple question but how do you fill a ream of paper with nothing but you in it? It not an easy task, it is a lot to ask from someone. Some will try to game the question. The trash can is a place for those.. It is amazing to see the results of those who rise up to the challenge but those people are rare.
I am such a mean and terrible person, I forced it's eye's upon it's own soul.
As far back as it could go, I pushed it to relive the good and the bad.
Tell me your pains and joys. Tell the dark places you hide.

Sometime the loudest cries of pain are never from physical pains. 
It is from the mental anguish on experience in life.

The expression of that much pain does have an affect.  With emotional support and a little guiding, It does get better. 

It has mellowed because of the hell it has been through. If I give it a safe harbor and the emotional support it needs, I am sure I can fire up it's passion. Would that make my life easier? Oh hell no.. Than why? A life of passion and fire is a well lived life.. Do you want that little shaking toy dog on a leash or do you want that tiger on the leash? Yea the tiger might decide to eat me but life isn't about playing it safe. It about really living..
So you been cursed with a terrible experience, why do let someone do that to you? if you can not overcome that experience, you will carry it with you for the rest o f your life. Now your handicapped in reaching your happiness..
A New year and a new beginning for some.. Perhaps hope for some.. Others it will be the same thing different day grind. Some will stay safe under that rock they live under. Some will play the got to catch up game because they missed so much before. Some wont find what they need because they don't know how to ask. Some will be fed a line of BS just because it what people do to trick you in to sex. Some will just use you and spit you out. Rare are the ones who will spend the time to create trust and understand. Do you really understand what your behavior and action does to your life? Have a hard look at your life and ask yourself.. Is this getting me to the heaven I seek or am I just creating a hell around me? Happy new year in 2016. Learn to live life fully and well.
If you create a hunger in someone soul, you should be responsible enough to satisfy it. A good relationship is highly addictive.
If all you offer is sex.. move along I am not the one for you.. I am relationship based.. I am a hard road kind of person.. I the kind of person who will find your faults and still claim you. I will frustrate and piss you off. I will find different ways to push you to your limits.. I am not for everyone. I won't fit inside the mold in your head.. If your looking for the easy way out. Take your sorry ass out of my life. I have no use for you. If your model cute go and find someone who wants a trophy. I have zero interest in models. They live a life of easy and never appreciate what hell can bring.. If you dont know what you look like tied upside down naked, we are not a match.. If you never had cramps from being tied too long, your not going to cut it in my world. Dont care how many toys you have or who has trained you or which group of perverted you belong too. I dont get impressed that way..
So someone wants me to transform them into... Blah blah blah.. Slight crazed laughter. I am capable of doing many things and what was requested I am more than capable of doing. It was consumed by it own wants and needs. It has no idea of mine. It can not be service in my life because it doesn't know my life. Silly little person. Odd how some people think if they give free and easy sex that this wil get them Time with me..
Even after the relationship is dead and gone, there is some part of me that still considers them mine. Odd how that is. I put in that much effort into something you want to work tends to make it impossible to return to the feeling of it being unowned.
happiness is in short supply. I hope you find yours.. Merry Christmas..
If you scare someone it tends to bring out thier true nature put someone in panic mod and all those pretty words melt away and you are Dealt with the turth..
Human ashes and tattoo ink. It a nice way to remember someone who has died. There is a certain permanent thing about that I do appericate.
Happiness can be simple It can be a bag of yarn balls and a saucer of cream. It can be a soft warm spot in front of a fire places. A pat on the head and a nap. You wouldn't think someone would drive over 300 miles just to experince that.
I look for strenght because I travel a hard road. If you allow fakes and fools to distract you from what your looking for, you just allowed a fake or fool to have influence in your life. They should have zero influence and zero impact on your life. If your looking for yours dont let them curse you with a bad day. Dont let them make you hesitant to invest in real-time relationships you want. Happiness is worth fighting for.. dont let them steal away your opportunities for your happiness.
You have to be the same in order to get along? Oh hell no.. What do you learn from being the same? Very little.. How does that challenge you in your life? Not very.. How can you create this strong relationship? Not very easy.. Finding a good a great fit into your life means finding a fit not the same.
My hands are cold. Some will give you gloves to wear.. Some will give you coffee to drink. Some will give you tea.. Some will not care and walk away.. A few will stick your hands on the warmest bits they got.. Just to be of service. Smiles
If you put time and effort into a relationship, it is worth something. I find it easy to bring a vanilla person into a D/S relationship. Given comfort security and trust. They are willing to step into the darker side of things. You explore who they are and what they are capable of. Never forgetting relationship is first before anything else. Trust and communication, allows me to explore a very special person. I do love the deep connections I make. It is one of the reasons why I am here and not on some generic site. It is frustrating when someone who is desperate for a connection, try to force to be who they think you want to be instead of just being who they really are. Love a person or an image? How do you build upon something that is not real?
401k and a heath plan for a slave? These and many things you talk about when your in it for the long run..
Happiness is a drug. It makes you put up with shit you wouldn't normally do. Comminication is the key so that people will get you. Great relationship are not found but are created when both parties put work into it.
Woman have the God given right to nag? I have zero tolerance for people who nag. If you only know how to nag to commincation expect to wear a ball gag until I can figure out a way a way to train you so that you can commincate in a better fashion.
There are those who lead in thier life. They make head way and reach the goals they seek. There are those who exist, thier life is a change of events of things that affect them and influnce thier life..
Some people needs become so great that they become self centered. This doesn't allow the exchange of exploring each other's wants and needs. I hear the words I want you and need you. This always triggers the simple word of why? A place to run too cause you can not handle your life? You can not afford to live the lifestyle you want so seek someone to give it too you. You are tired of being the supportive one and your looking to be supported. You have a life problem that you need to someone's help with. The reasons are long list and most of them are horrible reasons to have a relationship. There a big differences from I want a better life and the phrase we can have a better life.
If you separate the sexual aspects of D/s suddenly a website full of people narrow down to almost none. If the mind is the perfect play ground to play in, does showing off naked body parts really show off the what kind of brain you have? Transformation of a person is a hard and up hill battle. It is not a path for someone looking for the easy way. It is also not a good idea to make transformation a bases of the relationship. Failure and problems wil occur afterwards. If You know your a strong influence, don't tangle with someone who life will collapse under your influnce. A past life filled with broken people in your wake is no way to live. If I can not say with pride to the world, This one is mine. There is something seriously wrong with the relationship. If I want naked pictures of you, I am not going to ask. I am going to strip you naked and take them my self. Most would accept a naked kneeling person in front of them. I would be thinking why is this naked person trying to influence my choices in life. Do you really think a major life choice should be influence by a nake body? I could behave in ways to attract someone but I rather show my true nature to someone than pretend and trick someone to get involved. Flowers candy rocks and metal are gifts that are given but it good to understand the why behind it. Sometime I do things I know that I am going to be hated for. Just because I know they are the right things to do.
Time reveals a lot of truths. It just takes way too much time.. :p Are you really trying to base your relationship on bags of fat? ;p Yes, I can make you do dark things but it more fun to inspire you to do them instead. They said bed need replace every 8 years. If your active make that every year or two. If your untruthful to yourself finding your happiness get a lot tougher.. Some will mold you into nothing cause they are destruction based. Scars are proof that you know how to live. Scars on the heart shows that you know how to love. Rejection is part of life, live with it Death is proof that life is only temporary. Don't forget to growl at those who waste your time. Jealous and bored people rather see you like themselves instead of learning to create there own fun and investing themselves in a relationship. You can be scared of life or live it..
Routines little learned behaviors gives a person comfort. Comfort with in routines give a person the knowledge of what is expected of them. some people don't do well having too much freedom. There is comfort in knowing at this date and time I am expected to carry out this task. Know what to do to please and when is important. It keeps a person on track. I tell you to do things not because I am not capable of doing them myself. I just love giving you that structure life you so desperately want.
You have to be a bit mean to egde a soul to what it wants and needs. Frustration and lead to anger rather quickly. Wanting can turn to hate quickly. Bargaining typically happens. If you let me I will do xyz of course that never works. Expect high blood pressure. Expect high amount of screaming energy. If your into bondage expect the ties to be tested extremely. You will be the suprise in strength even from the Rolliest of polliest of people. You have to becareful some people can pull joint out. The ER is not a fun place to visit.
Yes, I am hated and I am Ok with that.

The easy path is go with the flow to get what you want. Taking the hard path means a more harder existence but a better appreciation of life and strong relationships. 

If I don't fit into that neat little box you created in your mind. I am ok with that.
I just don't bend that way. Do you want real or fake in your life? 

When you lead, You will stumble from time to time.  It is want you do after you stumble that speaks of who and what you are. Say No to someone and see how they react. It cut through all the B.S. you sometime encounter in life.

If you attract someone with your body parts, Don't get upset when your relationship is built upon that.

A zero picture profile is better than a None existence journal.

If you nothing good to say about an Ex,  You are not taking responsibilities for your own actions.

If you scream no one gets you, Ask yourself what did you do to create understanding?  Did you point and scream like some kid? Did you use information in your head to tear them apart?  Did you go on a rampage to tear them a new one? 

If nobody stick around you, no one is going to understand you.



I am happiest when I am building. I tend to build a little world around the one I take care of. Yes, i know could just let reality come and dictate what is or is not. But hell, I am happiness driven And reality dictates that life is about survival at all costs. I like the kinder world I create.
Transformation don't bother me but they do bring up issues. Increase amount of attention is a real test of character. Temptation is extremely high to leave. They typically take the easy way out.
If you have a desire to belong.. I deal with any other issues that might exist or come up later..
One can argue a point but with out the goal of understanding the argument become usless.
Thanks to all who make life liveable. Burnt turkeys to those who share thier hells.
Sometime I go quiet just to listen to the bullshit that some people sling. Given enough time a person true nature comes to the top. Sometime doing right makes you the most hated person. If you pull someone from thier own little hells , sometime they try to recreate thier own little hell once again.
Life in prison was handed down to a pair of scum, a few days ago..maybe the third will get the same. Under the guised of bdsm these trio was convicted of murder.
Simple questions... Are you happy? Are you fulfilled? Do you have a passion for the things you do? If your not happy why are you not? Are you in your own way of being happy? Funny how many people want happiness and yet they stop themselves from being happy..
How much do you allow others to influence you? A screaming cursing person is a frustrated soul. Do you allow that kind of person suck up your time and emotion energy? It not worth getting upset or agitated. Some people just need to be ignore and left in the past to be forgotten.
Sometime I see a soul and I just pat it on the head wish it well and let it wonder off to find it's happiness.. Once in a while I get a bloody stub back but mostly it been a positive experience..
I dig into it soul. I leave a mark. I live to become a stronger and stronger influnce in your life. I push you to become the better version of yourself. I make you take a hard look at yourself. I force you to be what you desire. I force you to share those dark and hidden things you have in your soul. I can make you scream so loud you run out of breath. I understand that the things I do to you is very addictive. Addiction makes a person scrafice themselves just to have it. I am not a prize. I am living my life as I see fit. I know where I am going and I am enjoying influnce others I have encountered.
How to make a no limit slave run away... Push it in ways it never imagine it could be pushed. It came to me broken and with many bad habits. It claimed it was a no limit slave. I took it to the doctors to have it checked out. It was put through a battery of test and was poke and prodded. It has a slight heart condition. It wasn't happy to find that out. I took away it coffee and removed process surgar from it's diet. It went through with draws for two weeks. The morning exercise routines were rough on it. Jogging to the local gym and spending 30 minutes on various machines with a walk back to home. I know what was the last straw. It was the books I told it to read and the one page summaries it had to write. Who would have thought writting a report was it's hard limit.
Trained is not the same as is. I can train you to act one way or another. It is not the same as just being who and what you are. I can train you to be have empathy but it not the same as being empathic. If I strip all of what you hold on to as a security blanket, what would you find when you look into the mirror? Are you scared what may stare back at you? If all you offer is sex, what kind of response are you going to get? How can you handle intensity if you have a fear of going forwards? Learn from your past and do not let it control your future.. Do forget to fight for your happiness
Saying no to someone really shows what kind of person your dealing with. Pretty words and fake promises are the stock and trade of some. Once you say no, it interesting how they react.. The bad attitude..the angry..the lashing out. Do you really want a life with someone like that? No thank you..
A smart person uses thier intelligences as shield. It thier security blanket. They have a death grip on it. It you remove that part from them you find a very fearful person inside.
So tell me.. What kind of happiness will you find if you allow crappy people to dictate which direction your life goes? Crappy people should have zero say in your life. They should be wiped and flush and forgotten. This is why I say fight for your happiness and don't let crappy people steal it from you.. Happy life.
Saw another soul struggling.. I gave it a few kind words... What was my motive? Sex? Naaa. Kink? Naa. Striking a conversation? Naa. Naked pictures? Oh hell no.. In this angry mean world, a few kinds words to bright a person's day is a good thing to do. It puts a little postive energy out there.
If you train someone to associate orgasms with pubic hair plucking, there going to come a time when the hairs are no longer there.
Funny, how I rattle on here and rarely raise and eyebrow. And yet at a party, I am rattling on about d/s relationships and I grow an audience with tons of questions.. The dynamics of face to face is too real for some.
Some people are just toxic and very unfun to be around. Toxic people spread their hate and angry to those around them. They give those the who come in contact with them a bad day. Who really wants that in thier life?
Just because you see something special doesn't mean you reach for it and grab it. Sometime you just admire it and let it flutter past you. An eternity of being pin in a glass case or a blink of an eye existance. Life has many choices..
When things don't go your way.... I like those times. Why? It an opportunity to see who you really are and who are theses you are dealing with.People who have gone through thier hells or other people hells have a unique view point in life. They have a certain appreciation of the importants of life and relationships.
Happy Halloween.. I know traditionally this is a wonderful night to have fun. For me it a day a grieving for a lost soul I knew once upon a time. To all the tricksters and treaters have fun and be safe.
Some souls are bright. They are like bright little stars.. Some souls are ugly. I petty them. It is said we make our own little heaven and our own little hells. Some people turn themselves ugly in a way that no makeup or change of dress can change them. Sad little hellish life they lead.
The stream of idiots and fools are never-ending. You can spend a lifetime pointing them out.. Or you can concentrate on finding building and creating your happiness.. Do allow others to steal your energy and time away from.you? I already posted enough on this subject smiles.. Off to create a little happy mayhem...
Hail hail to the great label god. Laughs.. At some dungeon event some thing silly comes to annoy me. It an ego driven self satisfaction kind of soul.. submissive yea right.. more like a buzzing fly... it rattle the lenght of time and drops names and events as to try to impress.. silly ego.. blah blah blah.. It rattles the latest trending bdsm terms blah blah blah.. Buzz buzz buzz.. I look at it and say.. your not mine.. go to someone who cares.. Silly youth ego. Takes it as a challenge.. It rattle the rules and states how great lives up to the .. insert label... If you strive to be that in which you define as a label. Why would I have any interest in you? Since I take people on who they are and what they are. Why would I spend time getting involded with a label? Labels are for people who dont want to get to know you. Some people dont take no very well.. laughs..
What gender is your soul? Some people.are too sacred to look in the mirror because they dont know what will look back at them.. There are those who denies them selves of who and what they are..they look for those who can force them to be what they know they are.. It the ability to be without the accountability. Their escape route.. I am.not that I was just forced to be that.
Some people just want to be an empty shell with no thought and no feelings. While I am capable of making that happen, it does not something for me,, Some people want to forced into doing and acting a certain way, I am old enough to know if I force after a time they will revert back to what they are. If I inspire them, they will try harder and changes will be more permanent. Some people think this is a way for free and cheap sex. I can find sex and that that includes kinky sex BUT I search for something better. I could have a harum of slaves, if I never question their need or want to submit but since motive is important to me and those who wish to submit are not throw aways, this isn't the path I choose. I look for someone moldable, where I can have great trust and communication with. If your a have a worthy dream, I will push you to accomplish it. There is certain amount of pride watching someone that is yours getting a master degree, being on stage singing, going to medical school and just becoming someone of worth in general. I typically take the hard path, so if this isn't what you seek. It best for you to grab your privates and run to the hills.. I know happiness is the best bondage material out there. I search for someone who know it, grows it and protect it to the death. While this might not your thing but this is mine. I define me and take responsiblity for my actions or inactions. It just how I roll. Happy life..
Tpe slaves? There are two who just got convicted of murder including the dumb idiot who put them up to it in san Diego. Long may they stay in prison.I hope they get life.
I was having dinner at a resturant. I really shouldn't tease vanillia people.. Laughs What is ds? Do you get off on beating some one? How can you get pleasure in tormenting someone? Blah blah blah.. Typical uninformed vanilla .. Laughs Let me demonstrate, I said being greeted with wide eyes. What is your favorite desert? German chocolate cake.. It replies.. So I order the cake.. I told it, you can op out of this at any time if anything I do makes you feel uncomfortable. Trust and commincation is important. So the cake shows up and it try's to dig into the cake. I move the plate away and say. I am going to show you how to get a little more enjoyment out of your cake. So I ask it to descripe the cake The shape and form and how it is pleasing to it eye. I ask about the pleasant memmories it had about the cake. I ask about the texture of the cake.. I asked about how it remembers how that kind of cake taste like.. I ask how does the cake smell? What does the aroma reminds you of.. I said now take a small bite of cake and let it sit on your tongue. Now slowly chew the piece of cake and feel the flavor spread through your mouth. Now tell me I asked how was the little piece of cake? It said it was great and I shouldn't have tease it with cake. I said you now have a new experince about the German chocolate cake. If I didn't tease you with the cake you wouldn't not have had this experince. If I didn't influnce you on how to eat the cake you would not have the experince you just had. Exploration of one self and having experinces is part of life. You just found out if you took your time to enjoy cake you would have a better experince. You know know just a little more about yourself.. And if you noticed, there was no beatings and you could have op out at anytime.. There was trust and commincation and you came away from this with a positive experince. Now go enjoy your cake.
Pandora's box.. If your give someone a great sexual experince that is stronger than the one they can get with a toy or them selves. You curse someone with a strong hunger that they can not satisfy by them selves. So off they search looking for satisfaction.. and they say real life zombie's don't exist.. Laughs
Telling someone who thinks they are special that they are replaceable.. Anger is normally the frist response. Fear of the truth will send them running. The tear down and burn them into the ground reaction is common also. When you start messing with the one and only concept in some people's heads. Expect a lot of negative feed back.
While most gladly accept someone naked at the feet of them. I don't it cheapens that spot. It a spot that has witness much greatness and much failures. Extreme happiness and devastating sorrow. To give that spot away is a great disrespect to those who tried tobe in that stop and those who earned the right to be in that spot.
No is a great word. It prevents drama, it prevents you from becoming involded in drama. It helps prevents drama. It might even save your life.. No I am not going to bail you out of jail. No I am not going to put up with your drug addictions. No i am not going to train your submissive. No I am not going to waste my time on your role playing fantasy world. no I am not going to help you cheat on your partner. no I am not going to teach your irresponsible ass how to trick people.
Yes, I am more than capable of having a vanillia relationship. They just don't bring the intensity that a d/s relationship does. I must know where your heart and head are. I like knowing that you are striving to make this relationship strong happy and healthy. I like being intensity into a relationship. I just know most can not stand that kind of level of intensity. I need to remeber to not to come down on a person with a ton of bricks. Too much too soon just becomes way too overwhelming.
Some people to think they are some sort of prize like in one of those carnival games. You spend your money to get a chance to win that prize. The funny thing about prizes is that once won, there is no more effort needed to acquire it. The prize tends to sit on the shelf collecting dust. Find me a person who is not a prize. Who is willing to invest into a relationship to make that happy life. Someone willing to defend thier happiness. Now you have that real prize.. Happiness is the best bondage material
No matter how great an actress or actor it maybe.. it is still pretend and still is make believe. I rather have a real person with major faults and issues than a perfectly acting submissive.
Some people speak words to listen too and yet others just produce human noise..
Influences, there are those who are a positive and negative influence in your life. A good strong look at those around you is important. Removing those negative influences or minimizing thier affects is important to Having a better life.
Do you walk the path that others have or do you blaze your own trails? Dealing with an older submissive, there are time when they wish you walk the same path as others. They want you to be that image in their minds so badly that if your smart and listen you can follow the path that other have left in their minds.. Frankly I am not that kind of person. I blaze my own trails. There going to be tons of mistakes made along away. It is one of the hazards of blazing. Knowing how to deal with mistakes is important. You never learn anything by being perfect. Most people can't handle mistakes they tend to blow up. Do they ever learn?
Sometime you have no choice but to go to war and to fight but with age comes a little wisdom. Sometime you have to wonder who is the bigger fool? The one who starts a war or the one who get sucked into participating into it. You don't have to play thier game. Sometime you have to be strong enough to say I am not playing your game cause it is a waste of my time and efforts. And life goes on.. Have a happy life..
Don't clutter your life with things and stuff that don't bring you the happiness you seek. A home full of stuff doesn't allow new things to be brought in. A busy life doesn't allow anyone new to be welcomed in.. Filling your self mind with silly things does allow you to concentrated on the important things. Don't let clutter, stuff and people steal away bits and pieces of your life. Happiness is serious business.