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It has been over a year now since we moved to Pennsylvania. I have to say that I absolutely love it here. I love our house, even with all its imperfections and things we want to change or improve upon. I love the weather and the countryside. I love the people I have met so far. But most of all, I love our relationship. There are always the ups and downs, but this time there is more than one person who really wants this. I cherish our time together as a family as much as I cherish our time together as a couple. I look forward to so many more wonderful years together. I look forward to all the experiences together we have yet to have. Ya lyublu tebya Bob! |
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Wow! I can't believe my last journal was about Connor's birth. It is amazing how quickly time flies. First I was home taking care of the little one, then I got a seasonal job that seemed to suck up most of my time and now I am working full-time for the Census for as long as that lasts. It seems like all I do is work and clean and sleep. Connor is growing fast and is just as cute as the day he was born. He is a very healthy 19 pounds and is rolling all over the house. We are not sure if he is going to crawl or go straight from rolling to walking. I took Bob out last night for an early birthday present to see Transiberian Orchestra. It was absolutely amazing! We are already looking forward to their next visit to Pittsburgh. I have missed chatting with my friends that I have met through CM and am hoping to try to get online a lot more often. I got a little discouraged the last time I was on because it seemed like most of the familiar faces were not around anymore, but I am going to give it another try. |
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Little Connor was born Saturday at 7:10 PM after 10 hours of labor. He was 8 pounds, 2 ounces and 21 inches long. He has strawberry blonde hair and steel blue eyes which daddy and I are both betting will turn brown like his dad's. Only time will tell there. He came out beautiful and perfect. He is a sweet little baby and rarely cries except when he is overly tired or hungry or getting his diaper changed. He seems to hate that.
Bob was amazing during the labor. He was supportive and wonderful as always. And seeing the tears in his eyes when his son was born was enough to make me cry. I love seeing him holding him in the rocking chair or changing his diaper. There is such a look of love that it chokes me up every time.
Bob also proposed on Saturday. Of course I said yes! All in all, even with the pain of labor and the stay in the hospital it was an amazing weekend! |
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Quick update to the journal: Connor is due the 3rd of September, but it looks like he will be an August baby after all. The doctor has decided that if he has not arrived on his own by Saturday August 29th, he is going to induce labor that morning. I am definitely more than ok with that! Only 8 more days at most until I have the munchkin. And I get to make sure I make it to the hospital in time for an epidural. Win/win!
We are almost ready for the little one. The only major things we still want/need are a pack and play for upstairs so he has a place to sleep and I would absolutely love a glider rocker. Not a necessity, but a definite desire!
There are some little things we need like a pump so I can leave the little one at home with Bob if I need to go out for anything on my own. |
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Things have been very busy since I moved. I haven't spent as much time online as I used to, even though I am not working at the moment. I've been spending a lot more of my down time with Bob or the family. Things have been slowly but surely coming together with the house. I haven't been in a hurry, and I am sure no matter how much we buy there will always be something else I think we need or want to add. It's funny, but this feels so much more like home than my house in San Antonio felt. I think that is mainly because Bob is here too. I don't dread coming home. I don't dread him coming home. It is a very wonderful thing.
We have about 5 more weeks until the baby is due. I am looking forward to being able to sleep normally again, even if it means waking up every few hours to feed the munchkin. I am definitely ready for the heartburn and aching hips and throwing up to go away. It isn't a constant or even every day thing, but I have kept the morning sickness throughout the entire pregnancy. Definitely not fun.
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Talk about busy. Life has been very hectic the last couple of weeks. I am very happily in Pennsylvania now though. Bob flew into SA on the 6th. It was so amazing to see him again, but I was also stressing because I was nowhere near done with the packing. So I didn't get to spend nearly as much time with him as I wanted to. But it was heaven getting to sleep in his arms again.
The trip itself was long and tiring. We left around noon on Friday the 8th after Bob and the boys loaded the truck. We drove til we got tired and spent that night in a hotel in Arkansas. The next night we drove straight through until my eyes started to lose focus. We ended up grabbing a few hours sleep at a rest area in Ohio and got to the house about 8 am on Sunday.
Even though we were happy to get to the house on Sunday things were tough. We were all tired and there were extenuating circumstances that caused additional stress and worry. Thank goodness we worked through that though and slowly but surely we are getting things unpacked and getting settled in. There is so much to do, but at least we are not under the same time constraints as we were when we were packing. I will be very relieved though when I get to the bottom of that last box! At the rate I am going that may be a little while though.
Bob has been amazing through it all. It is so incredibly wonderful to be able to wake up to his face every morning (usually as he is coming home from work). To feel his arms around me at night. To be able to walk downstairs and put my arms around him and kiss him just because I want to. To go grocery shopping together or to the club or to run errands. It is also so wonderful to know that this is only the beginning. We have so much to look forward to doing together.
I love you darling. You mean more to me than you could ever know. |
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Wow, only 5 days til Bob flies into San Antonio and 7 days until we load the U-haul and head east. I got a bunch more boxes today. I am hoping they will finish the job. We are having a garage sale tomorrow with all the stuff we don't want to move that was too good to throw away. Unfortunately, I haven't finished the bedrooms yet, so I know there is stuff in them that should be in the garage sale, but it will just have to be dropped off at Goodwill or something. We finally got all the aluminum cans over to the recycle center and earned a whopping 24 dollars for them. Every little bit helps though. And that is one less thing cluttering my garage.
I am so excited, but also feeling quite a bit of stress to get everything done before next Friday. My last day at work is Monday morning from 1 am to 6 am. It will give me a lot more time to focus on the packing once I don't have to stop and head into work anymore. I just hope it is enough time. I know that once I get off at 2 this morning I will be working on getting everything organized for the garage sale in the morning. It's a lot of work, but I know that when we are pulling into our driveway in Pennsylvania it will all have been worth it. And the unpacking will be so much more fun than the packing has been! And a lot less stressful since I won't have to rush quite so much! |
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Almost done with the garage. I should finish it today with my merry band of helpers. I did a little work on my room tonight too only because I wanted the helpers to finish up what I need to do in the garage. Maybe if I work on my room as I get the chance I can finish it off ahead of schedule too! |
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I have been battling a bad cold that turned into a sinus infection for the past few weeks. It has made things tough, especially now that there are less than three weeks left until the move. My sleep has been all messed up. Either I am sleeping way too much or not nearly enough. Tonight I barely got in two hours before I was wide awake and unable to get back to sleep. Of course the pregnancy is not helping there either. Good thing I am not working tomorrow. I am planning on spending a good chunk of the day working on the garage. I have a ton of cans that need to be taken to the recycling center and so much more to go through. Once that is finished, I will head indoors and start on the munchkins' rooms. I am such a packrat that this is a bigger chore than I might like it to be! But seeing as how I work the next 6 days after this I need to get as much done on my one day off as I can. I want everything packed up when Bob gets here so we can just load the van and go. I am so excited for this journey to begin. It feels like I have waited my whole life for this man. He is my everything and I am so completely his. |
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The closing happened on Monday. That means that all the way across the country there is a house waiting for me to move in! I am so incredibly excited. Bob is getting the utilities changed over to his name. I am taking the munchkins to pick out paint colors on Thursday for their new rooms. We started organizing the garage. Spent a little over an hour on it yesterday and threw out an entire bag of trash already as well as some larger stuff that is sitting on the curb waiting for the bulk pickup. There is such a feeling of accomplishment there and yet there is so much more to do as well. I found some great toys to set aside for little Connor when he gets here as well as a car seat for when he gets out of the riding backward stage. I'm hoping I will come across some more maternity clothes as we dig through the remainder of the garage. Less than a month to go until the move! |
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We got great news today! We close on the house tomorrow. Now I am really getting excited! Tentative plans have Bob flying down here on the 6th to help us move. Now I really need to get off my behind and start getting things organized and packed. I am going to make myself set aside at least an hour a day (more if I can) toward that end. I have to start with the garage as we have bulk pickup here in just over a week and that is the perfect time to get rid of any big things I am not going to want to move. Once we have a plane ticket in hand, I will start my countdown! My very last countdown. That sounds so wonderful. |
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So things are really progressing with the house. The appraisal was fine. I had read so many horror stories about VA appraisers and their list of demands that I was a bit worried. But even the one thing I really thought they were going to ask to be added was not mentioned. The stairs down into the basement do not have a handrail. I nearly killed myself on them when we looked at the house, so I know it is something we need to add for my own safety. But I'm glad we get to do it in our own time and not have to have it done to close on the house. Anyway, all we are waiting on now is the title company. Closing will hopefully be next week sometime. The sooner the better so Bob can give notice on his apartment. Then he can take his time and move his stuff over during April.
In other news, I had an ultrasound on Wednesday and it is a boy! Or so the ultrasound tech said. Although she did take quite a few pictures that showed some very male looking body parts. And even better, he looks healthy. I am still waiting on some labwork to come back and for an amnio to be scheduled, but it seems like all is well with the little one. |
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So, step one is done. The offer we made on the house was counteroffered (is that a word?!). We then made another offer and it was accepted! The paperwork was signed and now it is on to the next step, which is the appraisal for the mortgage company. That is major so hopefully all goes well with it and they don't decide the house is worth tons less than we offered. Bob is stressing out and I am trying really hard not to get too excited too soon! I am so ready to move up there. It is starting to hit me that it could be soon though and I am anything but ready. There are about a million and 2 things I need to do to get ready for the move. So as the world's worst procrastinator, I need to get off my ass and start getting them done. |
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My trip was amazing, as always. There were some small issues. A slightly damaged bed (already fixed, at least for the moment). A double shift he had to work while I was there (thankfully it turned into a single shift instead). A call from home that kept me up and worried most of one night. A small issue involving garlic toast, flames and lots of smoke (let's just say I will leave the broiling of garlic toast up to him from now on). But there were so many wonderful moments that those little issues were more humorous than annoying. We played so much I am surprised we got anything else accomplished, but we did. We toured the three finalist houses. We discussed the pros and cons of each and came to a mutual decision on which one we are going to make an offer on. Now it is just hoping and praying that all goes well in the process. We did a little geocaching, in the snow no less. Bob found his first cache and it was just as much fun as I knew it would be to go geocaching with him. I can't wait until we can do it as a family. We went out to the VFW and I got to visit with some of his friends I had met before as well as meet a few new ones. I got to hit him in the butt with a snowball. We had a great (late) Valentine's celebration with dinner out at a nice restaurant followed by some more personal fun at home. All in all, it was an amazing trip. It was 10 times harder to leave than it has been before. I am beyond ready to be there for good. Keeping all my fingers (and toes) crossed that the rest of the home buying process goes smoothly and quickly. Wish us luck! |
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I leave for the airport in about 5 minutes. I am all packed and ready to go. I can't wait to see my Bob again. He is so very important to me. More so than I think he even realizes. I love that he is in my life. I can't wait until I am with him every day! For now I will cherish every single moment that I do get though. |
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Wow. Just realized I haven't updated this in a while. I am now 10 weeks along and starting to cool down on the morning sickness a little bit thank goodness. I am off to visit Bob on the 16th again. We are narrowing down the house hunt and getting ready to choose one to make an offer on. I just hope all goes smoothly after that! Otherwise back to square one and that I don't want if at all possible. I am horribly impatient about wanting to be there with him, but I also know we need to do it right. As for the baby, Bob is convinced it is a girl, my son wants it to be a boy, and I am pretty sure there are at least two in there by how much I am showing already! I sure hope I am wrong though! I need to get off my butt and find a doctor this week to at least follow the baby until the move. |
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Well, I turned 38 yesterday. I think I am now officially way too old to be pregnant. Or is that 40? Well, I feel too old anyway. 8 weeks down, 32 more to go. Wow, that makes it seem like forever away! But I know the time is going to fly because there is so much to do between now and then. I went to see Slumdog Millionaire tonight. Excellent movie! I highly recommend it. The dipped in poo scene is definitely not a good one for someone with a queasy stomach though! I met one of my favorite author's yesterday, Rick Riordan. He is right up there with Stephanie Meyer, J.K. Rowling, Laurell K. Hamilton, Cornelia Funke & Stephen King. He was very nice & entertaining too! |
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Since I have been back in Texas my family has battled a lice infestation and now a lovely flu that knocked me on my ass. I think things are starting to get back to normal. At least I hope so. My dad, however, is in the hospital with kidney stones and in some very serious pain while they decide how to handle the situation. I talked to him today and he sounds so bad. On the happier side, my honey has his tickets to come down on the 30th and we will be going to see the Spurs play New Orleans with the boys. We are all really looking forward to that. I am mostly looking forward to holding him in my arms again. |
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I am flying home today. Or rather back to Texas. Somehow, this feels more like home than the house I live in right now. I know it won't be too long before I am back here for good, but even if it were next week it would seem like a lifetime. As for the baby, we have decided on the name McKenna Maeve for a girl. I am deep in the clutches of pregnancy symptoms. I have morning sickness off and on throughout the day, heartburn whenever it decides it wants to strike, sometimes I feel so tired just a few hours after I get up and have to take a nap. Then there is the fun pain in my stomach muscles when I sneeze or cough or stretch just right. Other than that I am wonderful! |
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OK, it is official! What I had suspected for the last 2 weeks is correct. I am pregnant. Bob and I are going to have a baby! We did the EPT today and it was definitely a plus. That and the fact that I have been experiencing morning sickness for the past couple weeks confirm it. According to the computer, the due date will be September 3rd. We already have a name picked out for a boy. It will be Connor James. The girl's name is a little less set in stone, but I think we are getting close. We are both very excited. |
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Tomorrow morning I will be boarding a plane to Pittsburgh, via Nashville. I am so very excited to see my honey. This love is the most incredible I have ever felt. He is my soulmate. My pet. My Sir. My lover. My best friend. My confidante. My cheering section. My support. My fantasy. My dream. My reality. He is the most understanding, considerate man I have ever known. I can see the love he has for me in his eyes. I can hear it in his voice. I can feel it in his touch. And every action he takes just reinforces that love. I feel so blessed to have found him. And not only to have found him, but to have recognized in him all the amazing qualities that he has. I love you darling. You are mine. And I am yours. Always. |
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Happy New Year's! Only 5 more days now until I travel north to the snowy tundra. Bob has to work Monday night, so Tuesday will be spent mostly in bed I am guessing. That is just awful, isn't it?! Such a sacrifice, but I know he is worth it. ;-) But Wednesday we have tickets to see AC/DC in concert and a hotel room near the concert venue. Should be tons of fun! Then the rest of the week is up in the air, but I am sure we will have a great time as always. I am so happy I have some extra time with him this time around, even if he has to work Saturday night. Life is good, plans are being made, and I should have some happy news to share soon. |
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10 more days til I see my honey! I am getting more and more excited as the time gets closer. And I am very excited I will get a little more time with him this time. And my return flight is leaving at a normal hour so we can sleep in a little bit, or wake up early and enjoy each other's company a bit before we have to head out to the airport! In other good news, I found out Sunday night that I was being asked to stay on at work, but converted from a full-time position to an on-call position. So now my hours are more screwed up than they were before, but at least I still have a job and money coming in! Always a plus. Another plus is since I get to pretty much pick my own hours (from the shifts available), I can take all the time I will be in PA off and not have any issues or repercussions at work. Got to love that! |
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There are 16 days til I get to see Bob again. I will be there a couple more days this time. Very excited to get a little extra time. There is never enough time with him it seems. Right now I am waiting to see if my seasonal job becomes something permanent or if I am back to job hunting again. Tonight is my last scheduled day and I am supposed to find out tonight. Talk about stressful. I hate not knowing. Even better, I found out they let quite a few people go yesterday when I was there working overtime. So, should I be happy that I wasn't let go? Hmmmmmm... Anyway, I am looking forward to the next few days to get my Christmas shopping done and my cards & packages sent out. Yes, they will be late. But anyone who truly knows me knows if they get their presents in the same year they were bought they are on time! |
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It seems every goodbye gets harder to say. This time I was brainstorming trying to think of a way I could stay there. Even though there are only 23 days til I see him again, it seems like a lifetime. We were planning on waiting until next summer for one of us to make the move, but it seems like we are going to move those plans up a bit. I have convinced myself that the reasons we were waiting are not as strong as the reasons why I don't want to wait any longer. I have waited so long for him. I don't want to wait any longer than I have to to start our lives together. |
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I am here in Pennsylvania and in less than 24 hours will be on my way back to San Antonio. It is amazing how quickly the time flies when I am here. I love every second that we get to spend together though. We opened presents yesterday and I loved watching him open my gifts to him just as much as I loved seeing what he had got for me. He is so incredible and loving and I know that soon I will be counting the days again until I can be back here in his arms. |
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In just 25 minutes it will be only 6 days until I see my sweetie again. I am so incredibly excited. I have been feeling a bit down lately, but he has been nothing but supportive and understanding. I got out of the house and met with a friend for coffee today and that along with a nice long chat with another friend by phone helped cheer me up. I tend to let myself worry too much about things that are so out of my control. |
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I braved the Black Friday crowds and got a couple things this morning. My little one needed a winter coat and they had a nice one at Wal-mart for only $8. And I actually picked up a couple presents too. Nothing big, but little stuff that the price was too good on to pass up. But I was tired from working all night and didn't feel up to an all morning shopping trip like I would normally do on the day after Thanksgiving. It is now only 11 days until I see my beloved. In ways it seems like every day is crawling by and in other ways it is flying by. Either way, the day when I get to see him in person again will be a very happy day for us. Yesterday was very tough for me. It was our first Thanksgiving together and yet we had to spend it apart. It was wonderful to be able to talk with him on the phone and text during the night while we were both at work though. There are no doubts in my mind that he and I will be together next Thanksgiving and that was the big thing to get me through. I love you so much Bob. You have brought a joy into my life that I have never felt before. Every day that passes brings us closer to the day when I will be there for good. |
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Two more weeks until I return to see my beloved Bob! I am so incredibly excited and anxious. We had such an amazing time last time. I am so looking forward to it. And I am leaving earlier in the day this time so I will get there earlier (unless there are weather issues). Praying for clear skies and runways! No fog or ice or snow! Flying through Detroit on my way there. I have been picking up some overtime this week at work and if I thought I was busy before, wow! But I figure the more OT I work the more money I have for Christmas. I don't do the credit card thing. If I can't afford it, it isn't getting bought. I bought myself a warmer jacket to wear when I visit PA in December. Mine was definitely meant for early fall maybe up there! Or most anytime here in Texas. |
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Wow! I am back in San Antonio and although I knew even before I got to Pennsylvania that the visit was going to be wonderful, it surpassed any possible expectations I had. I loved every single moment from the time I was coming down the escalator and saw him waiting at the bottom before he saw me. Seeing his face light up when he finally saw me on that crowded escalator was so amazing. Hugging and kissing him and just holding him in my arms when I got to the bottom was even more amazing. Although I should have been exhausted from my trip and lack of sleep the night before, seeing him perked me right up. We ate at Red Lobster, did a little shopping and headed back to his house. I guess because I knew how short the visit was going to be, I savored every single moment. My love for him continues to grow each and every day. He is everything I have ever wanted and so much more. As soon as we have the tickets, I will start counting down again. And this countdown will be even shorter than the last. I love that best of all. I miss him incredibly, but I keep myself going by reminding myself of just how wonderful it will be when I don't have to leave after a few days. |
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My bags are packed. I am ready to go. My honey has a Veteran's Day ceremony today that he is part of. I will call him one last time before I get on the plane. Then I am on my way! Right now I am waiting for the last clothes I washed to dry, then I will head out the door. I have missed you so much my love! I can't wait to touch you and hold you and kiss you when I get off that plane! You are the most amazing man I have ever known and I count my blessings each and every day that I have you in my life. See you soon! |
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Just a quick entry as I have a million and a half things to do today. I work in a few hours and I am so not ready for my trip tomorrow. I am so incredibly excited! I haven't seen my baby in almost two months and it feels like so much longer. For some reason I am nervous even though he has seen me in person and knows me better than probably any other person in the world. I know everything will be incredible, but still...Wish me luck! If all goes well I will have new pics to post when I get back. Last time I forgot all about pictures until it was almost too late! Was a little busy thinking about other things. |
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Only one more week until I fly to Pennsylvania. I haven't flown in 7 years. I have to work the night before I fly out and have a parent teacher conference the morning I fly out, so I am really hoping to be able to sleep a bit on the plane. Otherwise I think I will spend the whole first night sleeping and that would be a shame! |
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I entered a raffle for a basket of goodies from Tempations when I was at the Fetish Balll. They announced the winner at the end of the night and it wasn't me. But I guess he never answered the email they sent him so they drew a new name and it was mine! So I have a really cool basket of goodies to try out. Lots of little samples of flavored lubes and a vanilla condom, body candy that I am very excited to try, a vibrating bath sponge, a sensual massage dvd that Bob is very happy about, a cd with sexy music on it, a blindfold and silk ties that may just come in handy someday soon, and a great candle. On a closely related topic Bob and I are still doing wonderfully despite others' "concerns" for our relationship. We are making plans now for a December visit & a January visit. Bob has tickets for AC/DC and I am very excited to be able to go with him. I am so glad we are increasing the frequency of the visits. These last two months have felt like a lifetime. I miss him so much and am so ready to be in his arms again. I feel like the luckiest woman in the world. He is everything I have ever wanted and more. |
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Just got home from the Temple of Flesh Fetish Ball. Talk about an amazing time! I had so much fun. I got there just after it started and while everything was interesting, there was hardly anyone there. But as the night went on, more and more people came and it was soon a mass of really crazy and varied types of people. Everyone from those in furry animal costumes to transexuals, to women with men on leashes to men with women on leashes to lesbian couples, to people in nun costumes, to you name it. I got to watch a great demonstration where a woman had clamps put on her inner thighs and then was paddled. Then the clamps were removed and her ass and thighs were completely covered in hot wax. Very interesting to watch. Women were flogged and spanked. Men were whipped. I was invited to come to a private demonstration of a violet wand next week sometime. After seeing tons of women running around with their breasts bared after their nipples were covered in liquid latex I finally decided to get mine done. I had a friend take a picture so if it comes back good I will add it to my profile. I had to take my corset off to get the latex done. So I left it off and changed into a dress I had brought along in case I got tired of the corset. I just left the top down so my latex could air dry. Then I decided I liked the look, so I didn't put it back up until I left. There was a funny but cheesy play. The host was a transexual who was absolutely hilarious. The music was great. The vendors were interesting. I was wishing I actually had some money to spend! Oh well, maybe next time. All in all, it was a great experience and I definitely want to go again sometime. I would love to go with Bob too so we could play on the equipment or maybe even in the voyeur room! |
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The last couple of days have been a whirlwind of activity. I feel like I need a vacation! Or at least some time to stop and smell the flowers. It's funny, when I am busy, I want a break. When I have nothing going on, I wish I were busier. Just can't be happy with what I have, can I? Oh well. Things with Bob are still wonderful, even though our talks have been fit in between other activities going on in our lives. When I get a moment to just sit and reflect, I think that I am so incredibly lucky to have someone who doesn't get upset that sometimes life gets in the way of our being able to spend as much time as we might like with each other. He never complains. We make time for each other, even if it is a few minutes here or there throughout the day. I can't wait until I get to fly up there and spend uninterrupted time with him. Just the two of us. Someone asked me recently if I realized just how hard it is to find someone like him. Yes, I do realize it. I have realized it since his first long email telling me all the things he thought I might find to be negative about him. But he has reinforced just how rare a man he is every single day since we met. I am incredibly lucky and I will do everything I can to make sure he knows just how special I find him every single day of our lives together. |
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Yay! We have tickets now for me to fly to Pennsylvania! I leave here the afternoon of the 11th of November and will be there for 3 wonderful days! I will be flying back the morning of the 14th in order to be able to work that night. Life is very, very good right now. I miss him so much. 3 days is not going to be enough, but at least neither of us has to work this time around. Just time to enjoy each other. Only 28 more days! I love countdowns. |
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I took the munchkins to a Health & Wellness Fair today. We had so much fun sampling different "healthy" foods, playing games, and just enjoying some time out of the house. Both of my youngest won bike helmets. We left with tons of goodies and recipes and coupons. I called and talked with Bob for a good ten minutes while we were there and learned that he is capable of sleeptalking as he didn't remember the conversation later! I ended the night by eating an ice cream sundae with chocolate chips, peanut butter sauce, chocolate sauce and cherries. Good thing I did a lot of walking today! |
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My computer decided it hated me or something so I have been offline for the past several days. I think it may have had a problem with me spilling water on the keyboard. I don't know why. Anyway, today it is miraculously working again, so I will try not to anger it and hope it stays working! I knew I was addicted, but this definitely drove that point home! I hated not being able to read my emails and post on the boards. I also hated not being able to see my Bob on webcam. I missed that the most. On the good news side I just found out that I can swap my Saturday off for Thursday off the week I am flying to PA, so I will get to spend 3 days with my honey instead of just 2. That was very happy news for me! I can't wait to see you again my love! |
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We went for another 3 mile walk yesterday, although most of mine was more like a hike than a walk. Love those rough trails with all the rocks and roots on them. And hills. Can't forget the hills. Then the munchkins and I went out and did another couple miles today. It wasn't quite as good of a workout, but it definitely got the heart going! And we saw a baby bunny as well as another roadrunner today. I have to remember to take my camera next time. |
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Started getting back into our walking routine yesterday. I have lost 9 pounds since we started. Pretty good considering I haven't walked since just before he came down to visit. Yesterday we went about 3 miles, talking on the phone while we walked. I decided to walk in a nature park instead of on the street because of the 88 degree temperature. I saw 5 deer, lots of birds, squirrels and the high point was a roadrunner that walked across the path. Very cool! |
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Well, it has been almost a week and we are planning for me to go visit him in November. That seems like such a long time from now. I love that I have a new job now where I am working a 4 day work week and have 2 days off in a row. Otherwise it would be practically impossible for me to visit him. As it is, it will be a much shorter visit than his was. But I will deal with it because at the moment I have to. Can't wait until the visits are over and we are in the same state! Have I mentioned how much I hate long distance relationships?! Grrrrrrr.... |
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I have to say that the visit was all that I had hoped it would be and more. Bob is just as incredible in person as I knew he would be. He treated me like any woman would want to be treated. He made me feel loved and cherished. He is sweet and considerate and caring. It was very hard to let him go. Dropping him off at the airport was the hardest thing I have had to do in a very long time. I am already looking forward to the next visit. |
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Tomorrow is the day! My love is flying in and I will be meeting him at the airport. I have been giddy and excited all day. I feel like I am walking 10 feet off the ground. My life has definitely taken some interesting turns lately. And I hope that now I have it going in the right direction, the momentum will carry me along without too much problem. I feel like a kid on Christmas Eve. I am tired, but I know it will be a while before I can sleep. My heart is racing and my thoughts are scattered. Some people would say that is normal, me being a blonde and all! 8 beautiful days with the one that I love. I know I will think it is not nearly long enough, but it is a start. I can't wait to touch him, see him, kiss him, hug him! I feel like I have been waiting for this moment forever. |
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“The more you love, the more you can love—and the more intensely you love. Nor is there any limit on how many you can love. If a person had time enough, he could love all of that majority who are decent and just.”
- Robert Heinlein
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Time is just flying now. This coming Sunday I will be with my love. I will be waiting at the airport as he comes off his plane and makes his way down to where I am. It seems so surreal at the moment, but I know that reality will set in by the time I have to drop him back off at the airport to fly home. And I can only imagine how incredible the time in between will be. I have never anticipated something so much as I do this coming Sunday. Life is so incredible and amazing to me at this moment. I feel like I have won the lottery or something. Wish us luck. |
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Only 9 days left. Down to single digits! I have never been so excited in my life. OK, maybe when I was 9 and a half months pregnant and finally went into labor! I was so ready to have that little girl out of me! But this is a completely different kind of excitement. This feels like the first day of the rest of my life. I feel like I can quit floating from day to day and start moving in a particular direction. It is a very wonderful thing. Can't wait to see you my love! |
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Work is still going well. I got my first feedback today from my manager. She listened to three calls and I got 100% on all three of them. She told me she would like to use my calls as an example for future training classes. That was an amazing compliment. Especially since the day she recorded me was my first full day on the phones! I am so incredibly excited that in a couple of hours there will only be 10 days left until I get to hold my sweetheart in my arms. Everytime I think about it, which is often, my heart starts beating faster and my breathing gets ragged. It seems like it has been such a long time coming. The anticipation is killing me! |
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Only 2 weeks left until I see my love! I am so incredibly excited. A little nervous, but nothing I can't handle. I can't wait to see him in the airport. To hear his voice and see his smile and touch him. I can't wait to tell him just what he means to me, in person. I get more and more anxious as the time grows nearer. In a way it still feels so much like a dream. |
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I get some great emails from time to time. Usually funny ones that make me laugh. Or crazy ones that make me just a little worried about people. But recently I got one that was very sweet and good for my ego. An excerpt from it said "Pity. Shame. Misfortune. Such an utter calamity that you are no longer available. However, I wish you the greatest of happiness." |
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Argggh! 3 more miles today. I feel great though! And I took about 100 customer service calls on my first full day on the phone. And did a pretty good job if I do say so myself! Whooo hoooo! I already got lots of compliments from the ones who have been there a while. Only 16 more days til I see my baby! I am so excited and thrilled. It will be wonderful to finally get a chance to tell him how I feel in person. It never ceases to amaze me how wonderful he is. |
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I walked 3 more miles tonight, talking with my honey the whole way. It was very nice. Next time the munchkins are staying home though! Too much distraction. I took my first calls at work today, and it was kind of fun. Maybe this will work out ok after all! As the day gets closer to when he will be here, I am getting more and more anxious. At this rate I will be a basketcase when his plane actually lands. I hope I can still form coherent sentences! If not, kisses say a lot, right?! |
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Yay! I got a 98 on my test at work today. The only question I missed was because I didn't read it carefully enough. Grrrrrrr.......
Oh well. My new schedule is making it more difficult for Bob and I to have the time to talk like we used to. We are having to be a bit more creative to get that time we crave with each other. He is so understanding and supportive though. I love that he understands we both have obligations and hobbies that take up some of our time and he doesn't feel neglected. He is an amazing man. I am a very lucky woman.
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The first day of my new job went really well. Training is fun. I think it will be a fun place to work. And I can wear jeans and a t-shirt every day. Got to love that! Walked another 3 miles tonight after work. I think I am finally losing a little weight. My ring almost slipped off my finger today! Just where I wanted to lose it, in the fingers! |
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Did three more miles today, along with all the walking I did shopping for back to school clothes and supplies. Even though my love had walked earlier in the day, he was sweet enough to talk with me on the phone while I walked. It made the time fly. I got a new job which I start on Monday. I had the final interview on Friday morning and not being a morning person Bob was wonderful enough to call me and wake me up so I wouldn't oversleep. He is so incredibly thoughtful. I feel so lucky to have him in my life. |
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I missed my walk yesterday because work started earlier than usual. So I made up for it today with another 3 miles at a little faster pace than the last few times. It was wonderful to talk with my love while I was walking. I especially loved all the heavy breathing! As the day gets closer I am getting more and more excited. In some ways it seems like I have waited forever. In others it feels like time is flying by. He is so incredibly special to me. |
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Tears come to my eyes.
Chills run down my spine.
Hearing his voice,
I am his, he is mine.
My heart beats so fast.
My hands start to tremble.
Could love be this easy?
It all seems so simple.
Fate has stepped in,
brought us together.
As if it knew
I could ask for no one better.
He is my love, my life, my heart.
My joy, my pain, my fun.
The best friend I could ask for.
My search is over. He is my one.
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I walked another 3 miles today. I have been trying to walk every other day at least to start getting in shape for the AT. Glad I have over a year to do it!
In less than one month I will get to see my sweetheart. We talk every day, but I am so looking forward to being able to reach out and touch him. As the time gets closer I get more and more impatient!
There is so much in store for us. I can't wait to see how the future unfolds. |
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I am so happy he is back and I have had the chance to see his face and hear his voice. I can never seem to get enough of him. We even started our training for the AT and talked while we were out walking today. It was great motivation for me and made the walk so much more enjoyable.
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My love is away for the weekend camping with family. I thought I would be strong, but it is tougher than I thought it would be. I miss our nightly talks and chats. I miss seeing his smile on the webcam. I keep listening to his old voice mails just so I can hear his voice...looking at his profile so I can see his face. Yup, I've got it bad. |
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Sometimes I wonder why I couldn't have met this incredible man sooner in my life so I could have spent more time with him. Then I think that maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't have appreciated just how wonderful he is if I hadn't kissed a few toads first! |
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Things are progressing well and I am absolutely happier than I have been in well, forever! I am loving life and loving that my sweetheart is coming to visit in September. There are certain things in life that are turning points. I think that the moment I get to hold him in my arms will be one of those and I can't wait. |
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I am very happy to say that I have met an absolutely incredible man here and am no longer searching.
I am always happy to make new friends though, so if that is what you are interested in, please send me an email!
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