had been rehabbing a couple of houses i lucked into for cheap. sold the first one, second is on the market, and am pretty sure i am going to keep the third one. i really like being so close to Vegas. not so sure about the heat though. at this point in time, i don't see myself living here (near Henderson) full time. and i really don't want to sell my house in Ca. 

so i am not sure how i will be dividing my time between NV and CA

i have two more houses to finish in AZ, and i will be done with this group of houses. then i will figure it all out. i just hope i don't fall in love with one of the AZ houses or i will really have a tough time figuring it out. 

i have been sidelined a bit with a broken leg. 

Have shifted my business focus from custom furniture to buying and rehabbing houses to flip or rent. i would be interested in partnering up with a licensed real estate agent. An agent who happens to be a KH would be even better.

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35 months without orgasm. quickly approaching the 3 year mark. thinking about a Vegas trip to celebrate.

it is funny reading the profiles here from the ones who profess to be a financial domme. in the profile they will say things like how the average male is powerless against them, how they will be unable to control themselves and will give them all of their money and buy them gift cards and pay all of their bills. they will say they are so beautiful, and perfect, and magical that no one stands a chance when in their presence (or on cam, or just exchanging e-mails).

but in their journals, they always complain about the losers who wont pay, the losers who waste their time, the losers who wont do what they say and/or follow orders.

they claim to be perfect, beautiful and powerful, but they seek out losers.

they claim to be all powerful but cant even get a loser to do what they want.

someone claiming to be all powerful should not be on here complaining about the losers that they cannot get to do what they want them to do.

"I swear more and more idiots come on to these sites, READ THE PROFILE before you message someone."  --  anonymous profile

this person sent me a message telling me i was selected to be their pay pig, and this person has the nerve to tell others to read the profile first. if they had taken the time to heed their own advice, they never would have sent me the message. hypocrite.

why are there so many self professed "superior" goddesses on this site begging for cash from inferior (their words, not mine) males??

so Vegas kicked ass this weekend, hotter than shit, but still fun. every now and then, i invite people i meet on various fetish sites, even here if i find a real person here. this trip, three others went along. no play, no strings, just innocent fun and a chance to meet face to face with people who seem cool. friday night and saturday, gambling, food and a high roller suite. i always take care of the room, but i had such good luck at the tables that i took care of everything and still came home 11k up, after expenses. i don't bring strangers all the time, i am very choosy and careful with who goes and because it is no pressure, no expectations, anyone is welcome. sub, dom, male, female, in-between, gay, straight, in-between. just be a real person, just be cool, fun, easy-going. i never go looking for others to go, if i had a nice chat with someone at some point, i will put them on a mental list for future trips. if your profile has anything in it that even hints at pay pig, atm, amazon, paypal, findomme, or anything financial actually, there is no chance you will ever go along. generosity is voluntary, never expected. 

"So like this is how it's gonna work: you losers are going to send me amazon giftcards and paypal money transfers. If you're lucky, I'll send you my kik userID after I see my cash flowing into my account. If you're not lucky... well then you just got ripped off"  --anonymous profile

you just got ripped off....yup

"First of all, I'm actually genuine, unlike so many on this site."  --  anonymous profile

looks like they are turning on each other.

"I'm very much into the idea of pigs that pay to be ignored and are literally treated as a wallet, nothing more."  --  same profile

wow, sounds rewarding

"ugh come on now, Im a findomme! Dont fucking message me for anything else unless you are willing to open your wallet for me. Fucking useless pigs." -- anonymous profile

a "findomme" complaining about others being useless. here is the problem, when you deal with pigs, you are going to get muddy and covered in shit

"Wow, been flipping through profiles and have to say i see a lot of girls playing at being FinDommies. I can see where this has caused some hostility and frustration. It's aggravating for those of us who have made this their lifestyle."  -- anonymous profile

wow. even the "findommes" think the "findommes" are fake.

and it is a lifestyle? being a parasite is a lifestyle now. interesting.

"I hate losers, love money :)" -- anonymous profile (a teenager)

kind of funny that only losers would giver her money. so she has to deal with the people she hates to get what she loves. talk about selling out your standards. sad.

I AM ONLY INTERESTED IN YOUR MONEY!  --anonymous profile

this pretty much says it all. why would anyone send money to these jackholes??

"I find it quite amusing that these pathetic excuses of money pigs have the audacity to try and scam Me for free camming sessions." --anonymous (findomme) profile

a scammer complaining about being scammed? priceless. i just have no words for how funny that line is.

there was a house on one of the adjoining lots next to mine that i had purchased a while back. it was a teardown if the purpose was to make it livable. and i almost tore it down. but i had the idea to gut it, and give it a different purpose. it is now a pretty sophisticated and modern gym. the upstairs is now a recording studio with a live room, vocal booth, and a second iso booth for guitar overdubs or whatever. so if You are interested in holding my key, and music is Your hobby (like mine), know that i am trying to have everything on my property. work out, play, play music/record, live, work. 

"send amazon gift cards to XXXXX@XXXXXX dcom before you fucking dare message me." -- anonymous "findomme" (without even one picture, although they are all fake pics anyway)

is there anybody out there that sends cards to these "people"?? does anyone really send money to these "people" without exchanging as much as one word, in one e-mail?? does anyone really think that they will receive any reply after sending anything to them?? 

"I am getting tired of this site, it is full of time wasters" --anonymous "findomme"

I am guessing everything was going great until the check bounced

"I have no problem taking advantage of any feeble-minded, obsessed loser that comes crawling My way." unnamed CM profile

anyone can take advantage of a feeble-minded person, it really is not something to boast about or be proud of. thats like me being proud of taking a first grade math test and acing it.

so many profiles that state they are looking for weak, pathetic, worthless slaves. why would anyone want something that is worthless? is it because they are not strong enough to dominate a strong personality? i personally think that the owners of these profiles are not actually dominants/dommes/mistresses, or whatever they want to be called. i think they are just scam artists who are preying on the weak and desperate in order to steal their money. why else do they only have one fake pic, taken from a porn site, and say things like, "I am not like all of the other fakes here", "unlike the others, I am real".

i received a message from an internet beggar, i mean financial "domme". she (if it is a she) read the first line of my last entry. and stopped there to send me a message. she (?) said she (?) could use a finslave like me and we should talk.

i messaged her (?) back and asked if she (?) would like to know my rates.

she (?) read my message, went back and viewed my profile, and did not respond.

guys are not the only ones who read the first line and then send a completely stupid message.

tribute...funny word. i dont say i tributed the homeless guy on the street corner. whatever, call it a tribute if it helps you sleep at night.

i am now a financial slave. my time is valuable, if you want my attention, you will have to buy me something off my wishlist. if i determine your gift is acceptable, i will allow you to humiliate me via e-mail. if not, you can keep purchasing things off my wishlist until i deem you worthy of getting a second fake picture of me. if you want my attention, you better hurry, as financial slaves are few and far between and we can be very picky. and i can assure you that i am worth every cent. i am super hot, and spoiled. not like a four week old cucumber spoiled. but spoiled in that i like money that i didn't earn, spoiled. did i mention i am hot. well, i am. when you see me, (my picture, at least) you will lose all control of your fingers, they will instinctively purchase gift cards for me. you will be under my spell.

"I am a Financial Domme. I DO NOT accept any disrespect. I love to be spoiled and to dominate. I'm not sure of what else to put on here so that's all for now. And to those of you who think I am fake due to one photo. Give me time. You will have more than one, but unless you a my submissive, your not my priority."

i love these profiles! give this guy some money, and he will give you a second fake picture. oh happy day.

some help with CM translation. "I am an online only domme who is interested in financial domination" = i am a fat, lazy bum, dude pretending to be a female.

just about done with CM. just a bunch of guys, pretending to be girls, demanding gift cards and money.

i am here for something real. have come to the conclusion that probably is not going to happen here. CM is not for real people anymore it seems, just a website for scammers and lazy bums.

so exactly how does one dominate money? tie dollar bills spread eagle and flog them? and how do you rape a wallet? cram a dildo into a credit card slot? just asking because it seems as if 98% of the women here are "fin dommes". just don't get the whole thing.

saw a profile of someone who said they want to lead their "slaves" to bankruptcy.

is this really what guys want??

it is starting to get too cold for outdoor bondage (and my favorite, caning). nothing wrong with moving it indoors, but it is nice to look up and see the stars when i am seeing stars.

i propose we change the name of this site to collarmybankaccount.com

i find it funny for some strange reason that there are so many blatantly obvious scammer profiles lately complaining about all the fake profiles on CM. i am so thankful i live in a country where hypocrisy can exist so unmolested and uncontested. i am pretty sure this entry will get my profile booted. if so, so be it. it wasnt that fun while it lasted. 

my KH came over this morning with the same friend She brought 3 weeks ago. Her friend wanted to test my ability to handle corporal. we chose to do it outside, and they tied me between two trees. my KH just pulled up a chair and watched, didnt participate and didnt remove my tube. Her friend put me through my paces with a variety of whips, floggers, paddles, crops and canes. She has one hell of a swing. She finished up and we all went to lunch. it was there that She let me know that She wanted to explore the possibility of moving out here. She is self employed also and needs to see if She could start over out here and build up a new practice. She wants to meet when schedules permit and see if get along vanilla as well. She said whether or not She takes me as Her sub, She still wants to move as She hates it where She lives and wants to be near Her childhood friend again (my KH). She is very independent and wants to be self-sufficient, which i can totally respect. with that in mind, i was a little reluctant to offer Her my guest house until She was able to support Herself, but i did, and She declined as i suspected She would. i hope She understands my offer did not have any strings attached or any reciprocation expected. it was a purely innocent offer. She did mention that the corporal today and the teasing a few weeks ago were mild in comparison to how She usually likes to play. good to know, i think.

my KH brought over a friend today that wanted to know what it was like to tease a slave who has not had an orgasm in over a year. i grilled up some steaks, made them a great lunch. we ate outside under the trees and had a nice conversation. then it was up to the playroom where i found myself strapped onto the cross. it turns out She is an expert tease who has always allowed Her subs to relieve themselves after She teased them. She was always too nice to deny them, but still had wondered what it would be like to tease someone who was already desperate. now She knows. She must have teased me for at least two hours, She had to take a few breaks here and there as i was getting too close and just the slightest touch was about to push me over the edge. She made sure to let me know that She always let all Her other subs have an orgasm, but there was no way i was getting one today. She left me so desperately horny that i would blow a yak for an orgasm.

so it has been a year and 7+ months since my last orgasm. and it has been about 2 months since i have had any pleasurable, human contact on my penis. 

i think it would be interesting to spend the next year in denial, but teased without mercy on a daily basis. i have spent the last year and a half without orgasm and only occasional teasing. i think it would be a great test to ramp up the teasing to an unbearable level, and sustain that for an entire year. a year added to what i have already served would be my longest period of denial to date. and i am all about expanding and testing my limits. i have no doubt it would be tough, but i also have no doubt i could handle it. and after the year is up?? maybe continue and make it an even three years?? 

first things first, one step at a time. i need to find a willing tormentor...

so my last orgasm was in Oct. 2010. in Dec. 2010, my KH informed me that there would be no more teasing. She would still come over once a week as usual for cleaning, but would not be any teasing, anymore. She was trying to speed up the process of me finding a permanent Mistress. She does not want to rush me into a bad decision, just motivate me.
in that time, i have met with several women. with 2 of them, things progressed to the point where my KH had given them access to my key. as mentioned in my profile, my key is in a wall safe at my house. so my KH just has to give them the code to open it.
so i have not had an orgasm in 17 months, and in the last 15 months i have had human hand to penis contact with 2 women, and it has been five months since the last time i have had any contact.
most chastity slaves crave the next orgasm, i would be more than happy with just some teasing. i would be happy with a human hand gripping my penis instead of a steel tube.
i am not complaining, i chose this. my KH will give me the code to my safe if i really wanted it. i had thought that this level of commitment would impress a potential Mistress. i have had lots of compliments from lots of people all over the world. but am still searching. but it is ok, i would rather wait for the right situation.

so, a while back i had an idea for a new addition to my playspace. i finished it a few days ago and got the chance to try it out today. what it is, is a standing stock. but one which does not put me into a position where i am bent over. the stock drops down from the ceiling and is anchored by 4x4's at 45 degrees. it is very rigid. there are anchors in the floor for the ankles, spread out, of course. so this stock secures me into a standing spread eagle position, the top part of the holes for the hands are padded for long term use. like i said, it is rigid. i built it specifically for me, my height, so i dont know yet how well it will work for others who are not my height, will have to see when/if the time comes. it is right in the middle of the room, and because of how i made it, there is 360 degree access to whoever is in it (me). its rigidity also does not allow any twisting, so no "trying" to escape the next blow.

so my KH came over today, for my weekly cleaning and to help me test out the new stocks. She said She liked how "open" they made me. She said She could do anything anyone could want to do to someone. She started off with some ball kicking. She alternated between kicking me from the front and from behind. and with your legs spread out, there is no pulling your thighs together a bit to try and soften the blow. She moved on the the cane for a while before picking up a short and light bullwhip She made Herself. She said She chose the lighter whip because She wanted to target the ribcage on my sides. She said She had never tried that before. i have been hit there before (wrapping), but never had that spot been a target of repeated blows. it HURTS. but then, i like that sort of thing, so all is well. She gave it a two thumbs up and made me promise to build Her one whenever She gets a playspace of Her own. very fun day.

won another grand on my way to lunch. could not avoid this one machine on my was to the food court. i swear it grabbed me and sat me down. i guess i will be here awhile longer than i thought. if anyone here in Vegas wants to meet up for dinner tonight (my treat), that would make up for me being stood up yesterday. otherwise, i will just go home after i am done winning more money.

just cant seem to lose in Vegas, am leaving after i have some lunch. was supposed to meet someone here yesterday, but she flaked out on me. so i gambled instead, which turned out to be a good thing. winning a bunch of money kicks ass. i am tempted to buy something stupid and unnecessary to celebrate and make up for getting flaked out on. 

http://www.homesecuritystore.com/p-36-20700-biometric-fingerprint-wall-safe.aspx

this will be my new safe. on order, just waiting.

will keep using my old safe with my KH for now as i only see Her once a week or so and we are a little more than an hour apart. right now, i can call in an emergency, though as of yet, i have not had one emergency or need to get my tube off quickly, and get the combination to the safe to get to my key. but when i find a new, permanent Mistress, then i will put the new safe into action. i like the idea that the only way to my key is with the right finger. i cant even sit in front of it for hours trying to figure out the combination. the only way out without the right finger, is some power tools and a lot of time. i hope this level of commitment is appreciated. 

am thinking about a trip to vegas on the weekend of the 17th. will be getting a suite (vegas just isnt as fun without a suite). am always looking to meet new people and make new friends, so i will consider bringing some along, or meeting up with others while there. there are no expectations, just fun and gambling. as i mentioned, i will get a suite, so there is a place to crash if the comfort level is there, no pressure, no hard feelings if i have the suite all to myself. guys, girls, the more the merrier. i have not made this offer to the public before, so i dont know what to expect, and offer no guarantees. interested??

back to work again. had fun taking the last few months off. i have been killing it in Vegas lately, so i will be taking day trips during the week a couple of times a month until i start losing. but, time to get back to work, orders are waiting, shop needs some tweaking before it is 100% operational. a little reminder that life isnt always all fun and games.

i met a woman this weekend, who i had nothing in common with, but i was hypnotized by the way she carried herself, and her hair. normally i have no real hair preferences, but she had this incredible red hair and i have not been able to stop thinking about it since. i think i have a new fetish.

not only is my profile viewed by about 6-8, 23 y.o. straight female submissives a day, but they are ALL 5'5"

i would love to meet a 23 year old straight female submissive, but 5'5" is a deal breaker for me. why can't a 5'6" straight female submissive view my profile??? i could even go 5'2"-5'3", MAYBE 5'4", but 5'5" is just wrong, and therefore, a dealbreaker.

how frustrating

in my time here browsing profiles, one of the recurring frustrations from Dommes is subs who send one line messages. my experience here has been the same. its not that i dont like one line messages. i always welcome a conversation, even if it is started by one line, or even one word. i dont even care if the person who sends me a on line message says on thier profile that they themselves dont respond to one line messages. but it is just rude to open communication with a one line request and not respond when i have complied with that request. a simple "thanks, but no thanks", or possibly a "not interested". i dont care what the reason is, i wont take any offence. now i do understand that there are subs out there, (actually they can be anyone, male or female, sub or dom), who do not know how to take no for an answer. so for everyones future reference, i am not one of them. you can tell me no, not interested, whatever. i will go my own way and wish you well. 

i find it odd that all of a sudden, my profile is viewed several times a day by different female submissives, the part that is odd is that they are all 23 years old. is it because the only demographic i appeal to is 23 year old female submissives?? could they be fake profiles, some devious attempt to try and steer others to view them and in the process become so enraptured with thier profile that we cannot help ourselves but participate in whatever scam they are trying to attempt. i will take one for the team and visit one of the profiles to see what is up. if i start sending money uncontrollably to ghana or nigeria, please slap me and bring me to my senses.

so glad i made the decision to take some time off this year. i had always fit in fun time around work and spent too much time at work. i now appreciate how important it is to balance the two better than i have in the past. it is getting time for me to get back to work and i still have things to finish up with the new wiring before i can finish setting up and get working again.

but i had an opportunity this year to visit quite a few places i have never been to before, meet a lot of new people, experience some new things, make some new friends and learn some things about myself.

i have learned that even though i have put so much into my home, business and playspace, i need to be more open to relocation as there are more opportunities out there for me if i dont limit them to just california. i have been waiting for everything to come to me, i had the "if you build it they will come" mindset. with that said, i would hate to leave what i have built here, but i have learned that a good opportunity should not be dismissed because of geography.

why is it so hard to find a woman who just wants to use me as her personal atm?? i think i may be having such a hard time finding my greedy little bank card because they dont appreciate my brand of humor and sarcasm, but i could be wrong...

just got back from vegas today, stayed a while longer than expected. met some fun people, won a nice chunk of change, couldnt ask for more. but i guess i am because i am going back in a few days for another round of "what happens in vegas..."

i am still checking in here, so dont let my travels stop you from sending a message if interested.

am going to be in Vegas april 8-10, can stay longer if i am having too much fun to go home. anyone interested in meeting me while i am there? i have a killer suite at the MGM. interested in meeting for play or just friends.

after several meetings, not much has materialized. two insisted i relocate, even though both me and my KH were upfront and clear that i am seeking someone who wants to share my life here. one was just interested in my playspace and spent more time trying to figure out how much money she could make using it for her clients, than she did talking to me. i dont mind sharing my playspace, in fact i enjoy sharing it. the more the merrier. but i dont want untold numbers of strangers knowing where i live and what i have here. safety first.

i am not afraid to get my hands dirty, i remodeled my house myself, most days i am in my shop covered in sawdust. i like doing basic repairs on my cars (brakes, alternators, water pumps, etc), i enjoy welding and doing my own yardwork. one potential Mistress i met, thought that was gross and i should never do my own work, too dirty. i should hire others to do it. She wanted someone in an Armani suit on a daily basis. not a good match there.

One potential Mistress and i got along really good, but neither one of us saw each other as the "one", we have become friends and have left the door open to the possibility that our attraction to each other might happen at a later date, but are not forcing it and have agreed to see others and just remain friends.

One did not like the peace and quiet, and complained the whole time she was here.

so my search goes on. i guess i need an "earthy" type of person. not afraid of the peace, quiet, privacy and the natural setting. i love to have friends over, enjoy some play time. then fire up the grill, cook some steaks and enjoy dinner under the stars. then a few drinks or some more play time, whatever. i have plenty of space for those who prefer to stay the night and head home the next day. i need to find someone who thinks this sounds like a good thing.

meeting with prospective Mistresses this week/weekend. a couple of them set up by my KH, one i met here on CM and one i met on another site. i have a meeting thursday, friday, sunday, monday and tuesday. each of them know i am interviewing with others, we (my KH and i) have been up front with all of them. i am reallly hoping something good comes out of all of this. my location has been the problem, usually. there is no walking to the corner for a cup of coffee. need to find someone who enjoys the privacy and does not mind the 10-15 minute drive into civilization. it took me a while to get used to all the quiet and peace out here. i am not too worried, though. everyone has some degree of difficulty in finding compatible partners in life, kink, vanilla, gay, straight and even friends. good things come to those who wait. (it better be soon, because i am ready ) 

i have finished the jail/isolation cell in my playspace. it is a very real cell, fully plumbed with a toilet and sink, for long term lock up. there are 2 security, "dome" type cameras in the ceiling to moniter the prisoner, which can be displayed on the wall in the main play area, via a projector. this is as much for safety as it is for fun, because when the outer (solid) door is closed, the prisoner cannot be seen or heard, except by the camera. the prisoner is always monitored but they have the feeling of total isolation. the longest i have spent in there is about 8 hours, since i finished it. it is a very powerful feeling.

and, it has been over 30 days since a human hand, or any hand for that matter, has touched my penis. i dont even think in terms of my next orgasm. i just want to be touched again.

i have decided that no touching really sucks

one full day now of knowing i will not even be touched anymore and i am going crazy.

this is waaaay worse than the orgasm denial. i find myself desperate on day one. i have not felt like this since the first time someone took my key, only now this feels even worse.

so my KH stopped by for our weekly visit yesterday. we still meet about once a week, to remove the tube and keep clean. She usually gets in a little teasing before i am locked back up.

not anymore. She informed me yesterday that there will no longer be any teasing. we will still meet for cleaning once a week, but there will be no touching, ever. She will just hose it off with some soap and water and then lock me back up.

She feels i will step up my search for a new Owner this way. no teasing, no touching will make me desperate, and i dont want any decisions made out of desperation, but this is what She decided, so that is the way it is. it is not like i wasnt looking already, i have been. just no luck yet.

i guess i'll just have to wait and see how 2011 turns out.

my friend is out, addition is done, life is back to normal.

i am almost finished with my current job and soon i will have tons of free time.

since my friend left, i have been able to put some more time into playspace improvements.

we are ahead of schedule on the addition and my friend should be out by next weekend.

which is good as he asks too many questions about the "mystery" door that is always locked.

other than that, my situation has not changed. my keys are still held by the same KH. this is not a bad thing, but it is not ideal, for either of us. She is ready to move on, She has a new boyfriend and since i moved out here, we are kind of far apart and it is more difficult to find time to meet now. and me, i am ready to meet someone for a more permanent situation.

i have been in the middle of a big job that had taken away a lot of my time, which did not help in my search. but now that that is almost done, and with the sale of my house in OC, i find myself in a position where i am able to take some time off work after the beginning of the year. i wont have any distractions in finding my new Mistress.

so feel free to send me a message if interested :)

i am not able to entertain any play at my house and playspace for the time being.
i am taking advantage of the sale of my house in OC to do some upgrades and improvements to my shop/business. i have hired one of my oldest friends to do the construction of the addition. he is living at my house until this is done. i would prefer to do all this myself, but i have fallen behind schedule on my current job, and my friend is out of work, so it works out in both of our favors.
only problem is...my friend is very vanilla and i have not told him about my lifestyle, and i am having trouble keeping him out of the playspace over my shop. he keeps asking about what is up there and why i have it locked. i am running out of things to tell him.
but anyway, while he is here, play will be limited. i might be able to get in a saturday or sunday afternoon here and there while he goes home to take care of things there. but for the most part, no play.
a little inconvenient right now, but will not be forever. maybe 3 or 4 more weeks, at most, i hope.

guess i need to menion again that i do not cyber. i am strictly a real time, face to face, slave. not only am i not interested in cyber, i am even less interested in paying for cyber.
please dont send any messages asking if i want to be your online slave and please dont ask me to pay for cyber play.
anyone who knows me, knows that i am not cheap, but i wont send money to someone sitting behind a computer.
so again, please stop with the messages.
in the words of Latka Gravas, "thank you very much". if you dont know who Latka is, you should.