CharityL

Hello A/all

I want to thank E/everyone for thier replies and suggestions to get me a blog or website up, I think i will go with the website concept, i will keep E/everyone informed here, i am going to need more suggestions on what you will like to see on the website, yes i want your input. Some of the replies i recieved from the question of the day yesterday was awesome, some was funny but some brought really serious issues, questions and concerns up and i enjoyed talking to you about them.

Sad to say i did not go out to the bdsm club lastnight because i was just tired, so i guess that will have to wait for a few more days. I am taking friend request now as i was not in the past, but since i am getting ppl that is taking a liking to me i guess i will accept friendship from them. As you know i will not accept a sub that does not live in illinois but if you friend me and i accept, your responsibility is to be involved with the questions and going ons in the journal and talk to me, if you do not, i will take your ass off so fast, no since of having a person on your friends list that you do not talk to. With that said i want to thank yet another person for subscribing to my journal, i do like when ppl do that..:))



Quote of the day: A submissive has a desire to submit to the direction of another person.


There is a person that calls themselves submissive who prefers to seek out only casual contacts. This person is willing to submit only so far as to address their personal needs. Their orientation toward 'serving' the other person is almost nonexistent. They will have a list of personal needs and requirements and in large part do not care who fills them. These persons tend to be called the "DO ME" subs. In my opinion they are not submissives at all, not having the basic criteria of a 'desire to serve for the pleasure of another' that is the fundamental trait I identify as submissive and Dominant. For me personally, the 'do me sub' in my eyes is a vanilla person with a kink fetish desire.

Question of the day: The role of a Domme, what do you think it encompasses? Can a Domme go too far as far as being in a relationship with a sub?

Hello to A/all,

Want to thank the little slutty sub for subscribing to my journal. I don't think you will be disappointed in doing so as i have a lot of ideas running through my head about how to get all my lovely kinky fan club involved. I am not very computer savvy but i will like to get my own website or blog that i can allow anyone to be involved in a conversation or anything i have going on. I do want to be very involved in it and with anyone that wants to be a part of it but have to figure out how to go about it right. I thought i could start my own forum here but don't think i can or can i. Hmmm...I don't know but will look into all my options soon. If anyone is interested in helping me with any ideas, that will be very much appreciated.

Ok enough of that huh, smiles...Well yesterday i had a very nice day out, went and pampered myself, pedicure, manicure, eyebrows and hair done, then had a nice dinner at The Olive Garden, i know some ppl don't like olive garden, they think its too commercialized and has that feeling, well i happen to like olive garden, love the food and drinks and it has a nice atmosphere. Came back home, relaxed and fell asleep. I guess i was more tired than i thought because i fell asleep very quickly. Tonight the fun continues, I am going to check out a bdsm club on the northside to have fun first but to also see if i would like a membership there, most likely i will, heard a lot of nice things about them and i love to be involved in the lifestyle so my goal is to be a part of 3 bdsm clubs, i am part of one already so the other 2 is closely following.

Question of the day: If a submissive is allowed to go out, meet with a Domme, they go to have dinner and drinks, then afterwards proceed to go have a scene that she has thought out and put together to play out his fetishes, then they go thier seperate ways, tell me what did the Domme get out of it? If you say dinner and drinks, i didn't say who paid and if he did, i believe a Domme can pay for dinner and drinks herself. If you say his submission, but on whom terms of submission?

ok i know this is going ot get a lot of responses so lets do it..:))

Quote of the day:
I am a father, a friend, a lover, a brother and a son.
I am also a submissive.
Submissive is not all that I am, it is a PART of who I am.

I seen this in a submissives profile and just had to paste it here, I did let him know that, lol right before I posted it but, all I have to say is WOW! Tell me is there any sub out there that think like this….oh yes, that’s right, the one I got it from, shit better go back and say hi..lol. No but on a serious note, it’s what I believe every Mistress/Domme looks for in a sub. So i hope E/everyone enjoys this as much as i did.

i believe that Women are superior to men.

i believe that men exist to serve Women.

i believe that patriarchal societies have ruined the world.

i believe that matriarchy is the only path to redemption.

i believe the ground a Woman walks on should be worshipped and it should move a man to do so.

i believe that without a Woman to own me, i am not and never will be all that i can be.

i believe that a Woman without a male is and always will be just fine.?

i believe that the act of owning a slave is the most charitable and selfless thing a Woman can do.

A little story i wrote, called HERS

When i'm not in use, i go to the walk in closet where i'm kept, i kneel upon the pillow She leaves for me and i stare up at the picture of Her on the wall.  i lose myself.  How could i not lose myself when allowed to kneel and stare at Her picture, when i get to witness Her perfection, when i get to worship Her? 

i'll kneel here until She rings for me and calls me.  "Mine!"  She'll call.  i have no name, not anymore at least.  i used to, of course, but i've forgotten it now.  When She calls me, She calls me Mine, and when i need to refer to myself, i call myself Hers, or Yours.  She had a new friend over for tea a few days ago, and as i served it, She introduced me, telling Her guest, "This is Mine."

The guest looked at Her quizzically and asked, "What's his name?"

"A slave has no name," She replied, "it is simply Mine."

i must admit, i melt a little bit every time She explains it to someone.  It must be hard for them to imagine what i used to be, when i had a name.  When they witness my unquestioning and unlimited obedience to Her, i doubt they can picture me in a shirt and tie, with cell phone and a secretary.  Those days are long gone though, barely a memory to me and i doubt that any of my old self still shows when i'm looked upon..

These days, i rarely wear any kind of suit at all.  There's a collar for my neck and a collar for Her cock and balls and sometimes She'll decorate me in other ways as well, but most days, it's just the collars and nothing more.  i doubt the sharp eyes of shrewd businessman exist at all anymore.  That's been trained out of me.  The only purpose of my existence now is Her.

i'm quiet when i kneel here.  i mustn't disturb Her.  If i was needed, She would call and when i'm not needed, i come here and worship Her picture while i wait for use.  What more could a man ask for from life?  Surely not the daily grind of 9 to 5, the false sense of power and control that foolish males, like i used to be, cling to, no--this is the life i was meant for, born to, deserve.

She taught me all of this of course.  She taught me to release my pride and my ego to Her.  Now the only pride i have is pride in Her, and pride in my service to Her when She tells me i've been good.  And i have no ego.  Ego is part of the self, i have no self.  i am a part of Her now, i am Hers.  i once thought i was whole and i felt empty.  Now i am just the tiniest part of Her, and i am full. 

Sometimes, i kneel here for hours without being called.  If She takes a nap, or phones a friend and has no use for me, i simply kneel, worship and wait.  There is no selfishness in me anymore.  There is no me.  There is only Her and the small part of Her that She allows me to be.  my selfish thoughts now of things like pleasuring Her, bringing Her a glass of water, scrubbing the bathroom floor for Her.  These are things that make Her happy.  She is the whole, i am a part, my happiness is completely dependent on Hers.  i do my part to see to it that She is happy in any ways She calls upon me to do. 

i'm not mindless.  You may think i am from what i've described, but it's not so.  Though it is fair to say that my mind is not the one i had for those many years before Her.  She recognized the limitations of being male, of thinking completely for myself, of thinking with an inferior male brain.  She teaches me to think the way She wishes me to think now.  Sometimes She'll ask my opinion, and i must give Her my honest opinion of course because She sees my lies before i think them.  And often enough when i'm done speaking, if my answer was not pleasing to Her, She'll tell me why i was wrong, how i should change my thinking, and how to better use this mind of Hers in the future.  She is my Teacher. 

And school is always in session.  "It's not that Mine is stupid," She'll tell me, "it's just that you are only a male.  It's not the fault of Mine.  Mine is lucky to have Me to tell teach him what he should think."  i am of course, i am very lucky.  i've learned so much already.  i know i have a long way to go, but She is patient with Hers.  She knows men are born defective, taught that their defections are positive traits and ruined unless they are redeemed through the Ownership and teachings of a Woman.  Can you imagine a greater act of kindness than for a Woman to own a man and help him overcome himself?

It's no wonder as to why i obey Her without question, why i don't even think when She commands me, i simply act.  When a Woman owns a man, when She is being so kind to him, it is the highest form of disrespect to do anything but immediately obey and be thankful for the opportunity to do so.  i don't question Her motives, i'm not capable of always understanding them.  All i need to know is that She is right and obeying Her is right--no matter what the command.

i am lucky and fortunate to be Hers.  i wouldn't trade my life of service, obedience and submission to Her for anything.  If you gave me ten million dollars today, i'd give it Her to spend and i'd return to a life of scrubbing Her toilets and serving Her drinks.  That is true happiness.  When She looks at me and says, "Mmmm...Mine has been good," there is no euphoria that matches it.  And so i am...Hers.  Now and forever. 

And there is the bell.  It's time to go.  Mistress calls Hers.  It's time to serve!  It's time to serve Her!!!!

Yesterday i met with my sub i have been talking to for the last 2 weeks, it was a very nice meeting him and he is ohh sooo sensitive, (smiles wickedly) well W/we have to work on that, but he is such a obedient sub and does whatever he's told, i think this is going to be a very nice and long lasting D/s relationship.

Smiles and wink because I know you're peeking.

I want to wish all you slimy smelly boys a very scary Halloween. I will be staying in tonight giving out candy to all the sweet children but will be thinking in the back of my head "Damn, wish i was at a bdsm party" but oh well... I'm sure i can find one going on but actually i'm tired and going to rest tonight. Happy halloween E/everyone