chanty38

good evening everyone, I just got finished reading the last vampire , by whitley Strieber and I have to admit it is a pretty good read.I rather like the scence between Miriam and her slave Sarah in the back of their limo...had to get a glass of ice after that one...grins but I cant wait to find out what happens in the next book....safe journies everyone Huggies Chanty

Have you ever noticed that there are many shades of compromise and degrees of Dominance and Submission and maybe what you thought was gonna be has turned into something totally different then you expected.There has been a topic of a proposed dungeon munch in the area and I really hope its comes through as I'd love to see a bdsm dungeon in real life for the 1st time.

My birthday is coming around the bend again and as always I will blow out my candles and wish for the same thing I wish for every year! lol you never know I could get lucky!!! ..and a good game of pool would be really good bd present as well too!!

I often think where I was 12 years ago in the life style and where I'm at now..I wonder what it will be like in another 12 years from now?I have been reading the 12 shades of grey series..if only life could but only imitate some of these heart felt fantasies..though it was nice to see a book series that throws the day to day challanges that we must face in our vanilla lives despartly trying to merge it all where it is a well blended heart beat

ok so tomorrow is hump day(no pun intended) and I am glad my weekend will start early this week.(canada here I come)..I have been reading this book called 12 shades of sur render and its pretty good(lol but of coarse I switch the male figures in the stories to females becouse Im lesbian of coarse..but it is still a pretty good read ..so far)..I am window shopping for the set of 50 shades of grey book set of 3 for Christmas( lol you never know it could happen)..lol and I (of coarse)am always rereading some of my favorites like the beauty series by anne rice or 9 and half weeks is a classic in my books or the scavenger hunt by nisa donnelly(one of my favorites) Though, I can't quite fully grasp or totally understand the coppy of the story of O that I have because it is like set in a 2nd and 3rd person set frame of mind that gets  a little bit confussing at times..and I have to admit that I cant wait to hit walmartt his weekend &get the newest book in the house of night series called :hidden that just hit the shelves today.. and hopefully I will get to catch this new series Im hooked on called : once upon a time that comes on once a week (on Sundays)..lol last weekend I was still travling back to the states&didnt get back in time. Hopefully before I head out tomorrow I will have a chance(&the time) to get to my music library&gets some music off it for a new cd to lisen to while Im driving.(I love to drive with the windows down, wind blowing in your hair&face the music playing while your cruzing along jamming to the beat. I always feel so free or liberated...I love to drive)..Well, everyone have an awesome weekend..laugh,love play and as always safe journies everyone Chanty 

The weekend went ok and the movie was good.I have to admit that I really enjoyed the Frank slide interpertative center.I learned alot about the miners& the people from that time era, and after reliving somethings like that through other people stories and recolections it sure does put one's day to day life's experiences into a totally different perspective.(Can you imagine one mintue going to bed and having all your loved one's around you safe&secure...and then in a blink of an eye it's all gone..everything)

ok its been a long day& I am really both excited&apprehensive about the upcoming weekend. I can not wait to see the frank slide interperative center& I have wanted to go see the BC mountain range for ever(lol ok& I admit Im looking forward to hotel transylvania too) I am just a lil apprehensive about the meeting afterwards.I wish I had a place for all this nervous energy Ive had today,though sadly planting and gardening season is over with the weather turning so cold so quickly, so what to do for a good revamp for all this energy bulid up(lol w/o going for the chocolate)?..Have a good weekend everyone..Safe journies Chanty

Have you ever had a song that just sticks in your head for some reason? It like strikes a core for some reason...I keep singing this song by nickelback called: How you remind Me  wish I could figure out why my mind is clicking to it..hope you guys enjoy your weekend ..I off to Canada to look at the mountains as of tomorrow..safe journies everyone huggies Chanty

Have you evr got into trouble and didnt mean to? Have you ever said the wrong thing and didnt realize it untill it was already too late and then think why the heck did I do or say that?..what the heck was I tinking?  Why do we do this? Have you ever laughed as a nervous reaction or get cocky when your afraid, sad or feel some other emotion? Have you every woke up&realized things that used to be ok are changed or not ok to do anymore? ...like some imganary boundry or line has put it in place..Why? Why do we, as a human race do this? Why do we put up boarders and lines to our hearts, bodies and minds? (I mean in some way or the other we proberly have all been hurt or suffered throughout our life time in one way or the other) ..but why cant we just let it go? What are we, as indivuals, so afraid of? ..I wish the old clishe of :A mother's love is uncoditional  could& would be true for all of us that would& could have this uncoditional love in all of our relationships we have throughout our life

ok it's been a while since I journaled so here goes: I understand we are BDSM,though we do have a vanilla part of our lives in there to: so,where does it all fit? Where do we find the balance? how do you not miss the things that were regularly part of your life? And do we realize that every relationship we have in our journey of life will be different from the last one( from your mother, to your kids to your aunts to your friends etc all those relationships are all different&varried and change throught your or their life time),so how do you truely adapt to what goes on the inside in your mind's eye as you deal with the dynamics of these different changes and varations?...EX: I've not had my ass beat or a true BDSM session in 4 years and although to me that might seem like a long time though to another it would be a twinkling of an eye..how do you deal with that? What do you do with that energy or release that we all need from time to time?(I mean sure you can bandaid it by gardening, or sewing or writing etc..but what do you do with it when the bandais wears off? And sure lots of us would love to go to a secret Eden, maybe live 24 -7 they way we have always dreamed in our thoughts&minds but we can't as life gets in the way..like we have jobs, or kids,responsibilities, presure of daily demands and deadlines,relationship, different& more relationships etc etc etc(Ex I would love to go to a munch to meet new people& hang out with others in our life styles on a regular basis,though we hardly ever get up to great falls let alone any other of the big towns or cities that host munches etc..And you try to block it out or to keep yourself incredibly bussy but there it is eating at your heart&soul..wishing to serve or please but instead you have grocery lists, laundry, meetings appointments and what have you & then your stuck & wishing you could turnit off so your soul&body wouldnt ache for things (it seems that can not be aprt of your regular/daily life.Sure you do whatever you can in daily lives to incorporate our BDSM life style into your daily activities as much as possible...for ex you might lay thier clothes  out or serve them dinner or quietly sit at their feet why you  watch tv,but what do you do with that desire to feel the strap or belt across your skin or to feel those restraints against your flesh? I wish i knew the answer. I was always taught& felt that it is our goal to please Our dominants or the Ones we love..how do you do this when it is the opposite of what you are? (for example say you were a hugger& loved to get&give big ol bear hugs..but come to find out the person you are in love with or with doesnt like hugs .. How do you deal with that need within side you so that you still please them but dont feel the ache or need for he hugs?)...just a thought & a question out there for who ever might be listening..safe journies everyone& I hope evryone had a fablous summer&that the up coming Holidays (in the next few months) rock incredibly awesome for Everyone ..chanty

I can't wait June will finally be here and only a lil bit of time (knock on wood) remains till I get to go To WA to visit family&friends. I get to see my mentor while in WA and it has been years and I am excited and a lil bit nervous.(I have wanted to go  on A visit to WA for years but something has always came up.(I am always drawn to WA for some reason.I feel/believe there is some reason I am sposto return there.)I wish it could be for a longer visit,but i am thankfull for what I get. I would love to have a day trip to the beach while in WA,though that is on the opposite side of where I will be visiting,so I dont know if that is a possibility. Have any of you ever felt this drawn feeling Im talking about.Why do we get these feelings, and what do they mean? I have learned recently to listen to my gut or instict feelings more accuratly/or often as they are usually head on (lol or atleast in the general direction in which I should travel.) Well, for the past 2 days I have been working steady to get my garden& flower bed& green house finished and online(&things retransplanted that had been started from mere seedlings) and barly got everything secured &covered before  the snow hit this memorial day weekend...please cross your fingers that everything keeps warm&cozzy enough untill this cold passes.I hope everyone has A wonderfull memorial day weekend.be safe...and may everyone have happy fullfilled journies with lots of laughter& sunshine to fill their days!!! ... Chanty

Morning everyone, have you ever missed that peace? You know that quiet stillness when it is just you and that Other. Maybe your peace is kneeled quietly at another's side happy to just be with them..Maybe Your peace is looking down on Your little one happy that it just you &her/him   you know what Im talking about right? you fell the electricity all in the air& around you as you walk in the room and then you see them& everything freezes stop (like in slow motion) and as you get closer to them it all falls away ..you hear thier breath that sigh of complete as your hear thier heart race&flutter becouse youve entered the room..and when you sit dn beside them or kneel dn @there feet somehow you feel complet& you can truely breth again..and you look around and all you see is them..in that moment/in that time all there is is the two..that are one    just  a though..what do Y/you think?...safe journeys E/everyone huggies Chanty

grins, a lil bit of tortue in the morning is always a good thing. Morning everyone.It is definatly a Monday moring for me.The temperature is starting to drop futher and there is a blanket of snow covering the  roads(and the plows arent quite out yet) with a nice cool, crisp breeze..So this is definatly a morning  for the Jams (grooves) to keep it going.  (cause what I would really like to do is crawl back in bed and cuddle with someone..lol so, the jams it is then..lol as I cant do that winks as I got stuff to do)I like all kinds of music. I mean all kinds(this is a list of tunes on one of the the cd's I burned this Morning ):too close (by Next), Christmas Tree (by Lady GaGa), Your body is a wonderland (by John Mayer), All I want is You (by The Cars), The way you love me (by Faith Hill), Genie in the bottle (by Christina Agilera), Conga (by Gloria Estefan), Here(In Your arms) (by hellogoodbye), In my Head ( by Jason Derulo), Shiny Disco Ball (by who da funk), Starstruck (by Lady GaGa), I miss You ( a tecno mix), on the floor (by Britney Spears), Dynamite(by Taio Cruz), round& round (by Selena Gomez), California Girls (by Katy perry), I'll Dance Alone (tecno version), Headstrong (by Trapt), Break Your Heart (by Taio Cruz), The Lion sleeps tonight (from the Lion King sound track),Two Pina Coladas (by garth Brooks) and Fishin in the Dark ( by The Nitty Gritty Band)...So, what kind of music do You all like,what keeps your blood pumping and your body grovin?..I hope E/everyone has a wonderfull morning!Well, I am off to appointments & errands..Be well and safe  and awesome journeys everyone...Chanty

When you get the privelege of your Syr's correction does it fill you,do you feel completed, do you feel whole and one as Thier mark/touch hits your back,thighs calfs,etc.Years ago when I was dissaplened I remembered every lash every sting every thrust of the paddle,crop, belt,etc and I  even remember the last two swats & how it felt and filled me up as She steped into  Hyr swing.There was nothing like it in the world. I felt complete,whole,peace,love,guidance...& I was so proud of my Syr's handiwork upon my flesh..&that she took the time to care,to love,to disaplen& correct me

then years laters I remember my trainer clearing a whole house just to give me swats  that I earned

(Now that says something about a dominant!! think about it)

what are some of your experiences,what do you think, what do you feel,what completes you or makes you feel whole?

be well& safe journies Chanty

Or maybe Your going out on the town with your Mistress(Dominant) and a few of her friends and your think why is she making me wear this tight leather laced up vest of Hers.(when shortly you figure out why..&winks lol that dommes can cheat at times) Maybe your playing a game of pool or foose ball or maybe even darts and you are trying oh so hard to consentrate and just as your about to throw your dart or slide you stick .She comes in behind youu to reach around and block your slide  Her breth ticking your ear lobe:Do you think you'll make this shot girl? her lil pouty face apearing in front of you..You dont really want to make this shot do you..and after these words some how you get lost within her..you cant hear  the words anymore.You just feel Hr within side you and then you feel Her body touch you ..or maybe just her hand graze upon you and(thank goodness she has you pinned against that table or wall or you would so colpase..)lol needless you would miss your shot or throw(winks and you really wanted to win cause the winnergets double rewards etc tonight)

as they were walking through the hardware store her eyes marvled at all the wonderous things she saw.As her trainer watched her with curious interest she see the girls eyes pause at the cattle ward and then advert her eyes to something else( as internally the girl trys to deal with the feelings this one thing swirls within her) The next thing she know her Mistress is behind her,She can feel Hyr presence.Her breath is upon her neck.she hears Hyr Slow wispering,comanding desisive voice....What are you thinking of girl?as the girl looks dn she sees the wand within Hyr trainer's hand..and She wispers: are you ready?..she barely breathes out a Yes Maam when it hits her(she can barly brethe). then .her flesh comes alive.everything is so much at once..so intense,every feeling every emotion..she feels alive like she exploding..and she feel her Trainers arms around her as She kisses her forehead and whispers "good gorl" but next time ask before you cum (lol and then as her face turns beet red and she feels so safe& loved and everything all in one..she barely finds her voice and says Yes Maam(as she trys to keep her knees from going weak..and she wants to scream thank you Mistress for helping this one come back alive and feel within again..but winks the Mistress already knew and squeezes her arms tighter

As I was watching a movie today it reminded me again that even though there is change within the world,much still remains the same(or just repeats itself).I would love to see more lesbian or BDSM movies with positive and happy endings.(And I would adore/lol ultimatly love to see a lesbian BDSm movie end happily so maybe for once others could truely understand about our world..which I truely believe "Fits" just right.(Can you imagine a movie with our our vanilla world dealings along with showing our private BDSM side.Like maybe a true story of how a DOminant and thier sub or slave first met.Maybe tell alil bit of thier journey...show them a lil bit of the connection,the peace,the love...anyway just a thought..how about you guys and girls what would be your perfect movie? what would you want in it? what would you want other to think and feel as they,re leaving that thetre after the credits roll by?

there once was this little girl peacefully in her place

 gazing up at her One within thier own lil space

She looked dn opon her lilone her heart beating within a fire

 with the rays of the golden sun's  attire

As she looked upon her  lil girl

 thier breth catching within their  own lil swirl

She asks:where are your thoughts my littlest one

does your heart beat within our eternal sun

Syr,I was just thinking of the times and stages

that we all must  go through as the human race is

Why do things change you hear her timid voice ask

we complete the chores,the house work&give everything of who we are with Your happiness our only task

though as I look around this big old world of ours

all I see is people coming to arms

Dont they understand the simplest of peace

is to be within loving arms or the safety of your loved Ones feet

why do we put up so many walls

when all we want to do is crawl

why are we afraid to feel  and touch

why does life have to be so ill and always in a rush

      (... A work/poem in process... Chanty  )