I am only interested in r/l at this point. I don't have time for online really. I don't have alot of time for r/l actually....but would be more inclined to it then online at this time in my life. I don't want anything too serious (thought not totally against it either)....but neither do I want one night stands and the like. I search for a companion to share my play with, when I do go out and play. Let's try friendship first (with a bit of fun).....and go from there. If you can handle that from a switch that is a BBW.....let's talk.
Antique Shows (Beginner)
Bird Watching (Beginner)
Fine Dining (Beginner)
Going to the Opera (Beginner)
Renaissance Faires (Beginner)
4/4/2011 10:33:15 AM
Been having a very good time in my 'switchyness'....I know that isn't a real word....but threw it in there anyway. *grins* Still learning and growing in the r/l side of my dominant nature. And working on getting a toy bag together....though it is slow going since I am in school and not working so money can be tight. But, it is going to be a work in progress.....which is fine. Still searching for r/l partners to play with at local community gatherings. It can be hard to do at times, but I am enjoying it when I do get the chance. Hopefully, I will be able to find a steady play partner to switch with. That is my hope anyway. But, it will happen when it happens and that is fine. I don't want to rush into anything with anyone.
9/19/2010 12:37:11 PM
Alright...update. I am now a switch. Well...always was really...but, decided that I would allow that side of me to be shown now. Why? Because while I love being a submissive....part of me is a Dominant as well. Two sides of the same coin. Will see what happens. I think many people in my local community will have a hard time believing in this change. *chuckles*
9/9/2008 7:25:19 PM
long time since girl spoke. not alot going on really. enjoying going to see F/friends in lifestyle in r/l. great P/people in local community and that is always something girl can depend on finding when girl has chance to go. no possibilities of ownership for girl yet. but no big deal.....not desperate at any rate. girl will wait....seems it gets easier now. no longer this huge hurry in girl to find 'One' Master......which is nice. girl is online and offline (when girl can)....just enjoying learning and growing within her own skin.
4/14/2008 12:55:53 AM
ok...this one lied....to self if nothing else. this one has been going on line.....mostly because r/l is proving to be very very quiet on BDSM front. this one also misses Gor....so....is trying out places in Gor. seems though, this one just gets caught up in drama. why does there always have to drama? this one just wants to find Dom/Master to serve and please....is that asking for to much? this one doesn't want to fight with other kajira for Masters attentions. life is to short to get all this drama going and not enjoy what is there to be had. what should this one do then. sometimes this one gets so tired of being true to self....because O/others want ALL attention from E/everyone around T/them. drama Q/queens and K/kings.....can't live with T/them....can't shoot T/them.....lol
1/13/2008 10:09:59 PM
this one hopes A/all had wonderously happy new year and holidays. this one has been thinking alot about this lifestyle and what she wants out of it. her r/l life is still without BDSM influences for most part. no Dominant to be seen with possibilities for this one. but this one was not so upset about that this past holiday season....perhaps because this one was to busy with vanilla issues. this one wonders though.....if this lifestyle will ever produce Dominant that this one can relate to and relates to this one. when this one first started in r/l lifestyle....there was joke going around with some of us new r/l submissives. seemed every sub that we talked to.....stated it took them three years to find the "One". well......it is coming up on three years for this one. and while it would be great to find the "One"....this one is not holding her breath anymore. this one is resigned to being alone......or maybe with vanilla. does that mean this one is giving up? maybe.....maybe not.....this one is unsure. this one is still contemplating.....and still going to as many BDSM functions in r/l that this one can go to. this one is NOT going online much anymore....because it seems that all she gets online is false promises and players that only want sex. there is so much more to this lifestyle then just sex.....at least....that is this one's thoughts.....
11/26/2007 7:27:30 PM
again this one has let this journal go far to long. life has ways of grabbing girl's attention and not letting go. much is going on in r/l world that must be taken care of. unfortunately, nothing in r/l world is BDSM oriented....*sighs*.....it would be nice to have some fun occasionally and relax (bound and used under strong hands). this one has not even had time for online BDSM in any form. but r/l comes first.....this one hopes though that A/all online and off in this deliciously wonderous community are doing well and hopes she will be able to join Y/you A/all whether in words or realtime soon. *smiles*
9/1/2007 1:40:18 AM
it has been long since this one wrote anything in this journal. this one has been so busy in r/l vanilla world that this girl has not been able to be in r/l BDSM world much. this one has went back online again to keep in touch with slave within.....yet at every turn online....this one has met with Dom's that only want cyber. that is not what this one seeks.....why do Dom's online (and no...this one doesn't mean ALL Dom's online)....seem only to wish cyber immediately and don't seem to want to get to know that person that would serve Them? is this one just meeting up with HNG's? is that what 95% of Dom's online are? it is quite disheartening if this is so....
7/28/2006 9:27:42 PM
this one has been getting some very wonderful time in training with a few Doms that this girl knows and trusts. it has opened her eyes so much to this wondrous thing called submission. with each new session that this one has in training.....a girl finds new aspects of herself and her submission that makes her reel in pleasure and awe. life truly is wondrous when things like this happen......
4/15/2006 1:17:23 AM
wow...it has been a while since this one put anything in this journal. this one is still searching for the 'right' Dom. but this one is not desperate by any means....the need to serve strong...the need to serve the right One....stronger.
something this one wonders on....why do most of the Dom's this one meets....treat heavyset females so cruelly? do They think that those that have more 'presense'....have less feelings?
8/8/2005 8:24:12 PM
this one is happy to say that a girl has indeed met some nice Dom's now.....though for one reason or another none of Them have been right for this one to train with.
a girl wonders if she is being to picky.....or is that something that a girl should continue being....not settling....but striving to find the 'right' Dom for a girl.
the need to serve still burns bright....yet the 'right' Dom is as hard to find as ever....
will this one ever find Him?
7/3/2005 5:24:12 PM
this one has reached a turning point.....where this one has decided to not look for a Dom. seems all a girl finds....are People without true interest in this one....People that find fault in a girl's actions (whether honest mistakes or in need of keeping safe)....or People that this one finds are unsafe. perhaps....if this one stops looking....this one will not get so depressed over the fact that there are so few good Dom's out there.....or so it seems.
sometimes....it seems like this one should just go and look in the vanilla community again....and forget this lifestyle.....but...is that being true to this one....or....just being lonely?
6/20/2005 8:54:35 PM
now that this one has had a taste of the lifestyle (having had a small scene with a Dom).....a girl sees that she indeed wants more. a girl's desire to experience more....is enough to drive this one mad....as a girl has yet to meet a Dom who can train this one at this time....time and proximity factors play such a huge role in things at this point. so a girl waits.....though admittedly....impatiently...*blushes*....for a Dom that will train this one.....and remember what the words, "Safe, sane, consensual" mean while doing it.
5/24/2005 11:32:35 AM
it truly amazes this one on how many Doms want this one to push forwards in this lifestyle and not be safe. to throw caution to the wind and jump into the arms of any Dom that comes along. yet....should not the submissives as well as the Dom/me's practice safety measures upon meeting new people? this one will wait....and be safe. also....another thing that amazes this one....is how people want to try to claim things about Y/you and place names of 'player' or state that you are 'not truly interested in the lifestyle' on you only because you clearly do not wish to do as T/they desire or do not act as T/they believe you should. just cause this one seeks something other then T/them for whatever reason or behaves in a manner that doesn't fit their ideals...does that mean that this one is a player...or that a girl is NOT interested in this lifestyle? a girl thinks not...
5/12/2005 10:43:43 PM
this girl sits and wonders about so many things still. having met a couple of Doms now in r/l.....yet not having had any scenes or play time. there is a fine line between knowing that safety is paramount.....and wanting to serve so very badly that safety seems only to hold her back from service. this one's new saying she goes by to balance the two in her mind, "One day at a time"........