AngelSighs

Fresh flowers in my apartment look so beautiful.  It's a gorgeous day today......at least I'm trying to make it so.

Working on homework and cooking for the week.  It's starting to smell yummy in here.

Plans changed and I'm adapting.  Homework and housecleaning........oh joy!

I'm a little frustrated.  I've got to get out of my comfort zone a bit.  I'm starting to live like an OLD woman and I don't like it much.  I'm TOO YOUNG to live this old already.

NOT planning on bungee jumping off a cliff anywhere, but I definitely need to shake things up some.

School is coming along.  With any luck, I graduate this semester.  I'm very excited about that.  Now only 2 more degrees......one at a time.

Getting unpacked and that's taking longer than I thought it would.  But things are shaping up slowly.

Trying to finish school this semester too.  It shouldn't be this hard to get an English class.....that part amazes me.

I'm finding that misunderstandings are a lot harder to work through online.  That's not something I anticipated and I don't like that very much.  I know the "short answer" is to be patient.  But I struggle with that part too.  No one has ever accused me of being patient......sigh.

Finally got my grade from my last class.  I got a "B".  I'm glad it's behind me.  Now to CLEP an English requirement and finally be able to GRADUATE!!!!

Just a few more weeks of study and then I'll see where it takes me.  I've wanted a college education as long as I can remember.  I'm so close.....

I'm done!  I think things went well tonight.  Took myself out for a nice dinner.........one you eat with a fork and not both hands.

My cell phone battery died after 10 minutes of talk time.  It's re-charging.  I'll be spending lunch tomorrow getting another one.

One more night till I'm finished with my project an his class. 

Still a few things to do for the presentation.  We ran through it twice and stayed late.  I'll be practicing my part tomorrow night again.  Meanwhile, I've got 2 slides to update and may have to create another one.  I'll be glad when this is behind me.  Just 2 more days.......

Getting some last minute things done for class.  I have to prepare my speech for tomorrow night's run through of our presentation.

Heading out of town for a bit today to celebrate my sister's birthday.  It's going to be sooooo much fun!

After tonight, only 2 classes left.  I need to do well on my piece of the presentation......

I only have two more weeks of classes until I'm through for the summer.  I can hardly wait to get this behind me.  Then I want to find some trouble to get into...........I need it.

WTH!?!  I came online to update my journal and found 2 journal entries missing on my profile.  They didn't reference anyone in a negative way.  The only person I've referenced that way isn't specific to him in any way.

So what gives?

I was accused of racism today because I expressed a PREFERENCE for a Caucasian Male in my profile.  Then they went on to spew so much HATE it was unbelievable.  I had two thoughts about that:

1.  They must be a TON OF FUN on a date with anyone other than their color.

2.  I don't think they paid attention when THEIR MAMA said "play nice with others"..

I'm still not used to my new schedule.  It seems the shank of the evening when I look up and realize it's almost 2 in the morning.  It'll take a little longer to adapt I guess.

It's going to be a great day tomorrow.  The heat is letting up a bit so I can drag the dog on a long walk after work tomorrow.

Sweet dreams......

I helped some friends move today.  While I was there, I found out a couple of things about a couple of other friends that not only surprised me, but are very troubling.  I'm concerned.

The weather was extremely hot for a move.  But we all got the truck unloaded and the things in their house.  Now all they have to do is shampoo the carpets before they can get everything set up and unpacked.  I don't envy them that.

I'm constantly amazed at how open and unselfish this community can be.  Let me give you an example of what I mean.

I have a classmate that is taking his nephew on a trip to NY for his graduation present.  I have a friend in NY that has graciously offered to show them around "behind the scenes" of a site that most people only get to see on TV. 

Tourists can only see it from the sidewalk unless they know someone inside.  My friend is offering to make this trip memorable for complete strangers (to him) simply because I mentioned it.

I've sent off an e-mail to my classmate hoping that he'll see it in time to actually connect with my friend during the trip.  It would make it a memorable experience for his nephew.

I'm meeting some amazing people in this lifestyle.  They share their knowledge, their experience, and ultimately themselves with me.  That's a rare and precious gift to give someone.  I'm very grateful to have such people in my life.  I hope I can be as open and unselfish for them too.

Just walked my dog before we get headed for sleep.  It was hot and muggy here today.  It's supposed to be as it's summer.  But we got a rain shower tonight that took away the mugginess a bit.

When Zoe and I were out walking, I looked up at the stars.  I was remembering when I was much younger and a sunny spring afternoon.  I'd been chasing my cousins around and we'd flopped on the ground under a tree.  We spent some time looking at the clouds and trying to decide what shapes the clouds were in at that moment. 

As I looked at the stars tonight, the world was quiet and perfect.  And who can deny how wonderful the stars look in a clear night sky?

I'm feeling restless.  I'm feeling like I don't have a direction, though my life is traveling in a direction that I've been in for a long time.  I'm second-guessing myself and that's not always good.

This isn't all about the sex for me.  It's about finding a balance between who I am in private and who I am in public.  I do have to balance both worlds. 

I know that life is full of choices.  But I don't think I can continue to choose to be LESS than I am to fit into someone's idea of what is right for me.  And by the way, who is it that makes up these stupid rules where I don't get a vote?  Who better to decide what's best for me than me?  After all, I live in this body. 

It is my mind, my heart, and my will that is at stake.  Don't I get a choice in how all of this happens?  Or do we truly all have a pre-destined fate?  Sometimes this debate makes my mind numb.

I am getting a lot of interest from those that don't read my profile.  I specify Dominant Male and get contacted by everyone under the sun, including those that believe I'm also bi- curious.  We all have a preference which is why we fill these things out. 

So, to those that might think I'll make an exception - Anyone other than what I've specified would be WASTING THEIR TIME. 

We all have enough challenges on our plates than to waste our time with someone that has no interest, don't you think?

I'm feeling great today.  I've been to the gym for the 1st time in a long time......so happy to get back there.  I had a good workout that left me "sexually humming".  I want to be VERY BAD tonight.

As the late Mae West used to say, "When I'm good, I'm very good.  When I'm BAD, I'm BETTER."  I want to be so bad it'll make your eyes cross.

I'm so excited.  I impressed my instructor at school tonight.  Do you have ANY IDEA how hard it is to impress a TECHNOLOGY INSTRUCTOR?  I'm feeling pretty good and geeky all at the same time.

Now to work on making my solution work......

I'm feeling particularly naughty tonight.  It could be all the focus on school recently.  I've been doing what I "should" and not what I "want".  There's got to be a reward in there somewhere.......sigh.

I feel your eyes watching me.....and kneel before you quietly looking up into your eyes....I can feel the heat from your skin....I wait patiently for you to begin our next chapter knowing that I am safe in your care........ 

I woke up with a headache, but can't help feeling that today is going to be a beautiful day.  I wish I could spend the day in bed.......I feel like being a very bad girl today.....or maybe that's actually a very good girl, depending on your point of view.  I want to have a bit of fun today....... 

I'm SNOOPY DANCING!!  I PASSED BOTH CLASSES!!!

I'm hoping that I get my degree for Christmas.  Now if I could just find THE RIGHT DOM, Christmas would be all wrapped up with a BIG RED BOW!!!

I'm soooooo excited!

Going to start one of the Final Exam parts in a few minutes.  I'm as nervous as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs.  Need some good thoughts and prayers would help too.

I got a 95 on my term paper and presentation.......whew!  What a relief!  Now all I have to do is one more class and then two Final Exams!  I might just graduate this year after all.

Getting too many married men looking for a thrill. . . . . .

What happens when you get "found out"?

Married men always think it won't happen to them. . . .(shakes head in amazement)

Just a quick note......buried under homework.....for a few more weeks.

I'm tired.......looking forward to finishing this semester.

I took a class for fun today. Sometimes you have to do something fun to feed your soul.

I'm learning to STRIP......from a STRIPPER.  The class is fun and the young woman teaching it is amazing.  She is funny, thoughtful, and insightful in teaching those of us that are a little less "limber", alternate methods that allow us to be graceful......and sexy too.

Can't wait to go on the field trip on Friday..........Yes, I'm going to a Strip Club.  It promises to be amusing, educational, and entertaining.  I'm so excited.......

Nose to the grindstone.........starting to get a pointy nose.

I hope all this educational effort pays off...........

I learn something new every day.  For instance..........

April is STD Awareness Month.

May is Masturbation Month.

August is Anal Month - going to become MY favorite month.

Celery, cranberries, watermelon, and pineapple juice is good for the taste of semen.

I appreciate when people browse my profile.  I do wonder sometimes what goes through their minds though......I'm so curious about people.

Been busy with the vanilla side of Life.  Hope to get back to normal shortly.  Meanwhile, I dream about a kinky Dom with a kinky mind......

Why do I get the feeling that many "Doms" have adopted the attitude - ".....if you can't be with the One you Love, Love the One you're with...."?

 It's an old song that keeps running through my head when I see some of the messages I'm receiving.......curious. 

Looking things over.........listening carefully........are the words true?  Are they real?  Is there a sense of humor out there?

Life is always interesting, if nothing else.  Going to do a little practicing of some skills this weekend.  I hope that one day, my Dom will appreciate them.  Sigh........

Passed my mid-term.  Now I get to up-end my life on Spring Break to be ready for adding a class and continuing on with the rest of the semester.  I'm going to be here more in the next few weeks.

Do you remember a time when you were so excited about meeting someone that you almost couldn't breathe? 

Do you remember that when you met them, it was as if your brain had taken a vacation?

Do you remember not being able to do much beyond stare and grin?

I want that again.......

While exploring your sexuality is a sign of an inquisitive mind, what about the other aspects?  Isn't it important to connect on an emotional and mental plane too?

Maybe I'm overthinking this.....but, I don't think so.  You have to have more than just a sexual interest to keep the mind engaged or at least curious about where the relationship goes next, right?  Otherwise you might as well be having vanilla sex the same way every night of your life........predictable and boring on so many levels. 

It seems a shame really that the Art of Flirting is dying.  I've seen what passes for flirting currently and it's just so........yuk!

Flirting is both a mental exercise and an expression of appreciation.  When it's done well, it's not at all obvious.  Done badly it comes off as a "tacky" sexual proposition.

But when a man or a woman takes the time to truly appreciate the person that they're with by giving a meaningful compliment, it makes their being together that much more memorable. Flirting is honest, subtle, and sincere.

When you can find someone that flirts really well, you can have an absolutely wonderful communication that is so much more than mere words.  It's also so very romantic.

My Imaginary Sir -

I'm having a pretty good evening.  Work settled down a bit.

I had a chance to get tied up in my rope class yesterday.  The decorative part of the class was good and the knots used make a very pretty arrangement.  I saw some "rope bikinis" yesterday that were beautiful.  It was a beautiful way to use rope.  I had a good time and learned a lot.

Well, I was thinking about you and wanted you to know what's going on with me.  I sometimes wonder how things will turn out, but that's something to ponder another day.  Right now, I'm doing what I'm supposed to do........learn new skills, practice old ones, and stay focused on FINDING YOU.

 Your obedient Sub,  AngelSighs

My imaginary Sir -

Well today started out pretty good.  I heard from a new friend and the friendship is probably over already. 

Seems that he falls into that category of person that wants to see naked pictures right away before any relationship is really in place. Since our relationship is about trust, I can't trust someone that demands nude pictures of me on the Internet.  Someone gets mad......the next thing you know they've done something unforgivable and it can't be undone.

You can't recall words once they're spoken,

You can't recall hurtful things once they're done

.....and most people don't take "the high road" when they are displeased with you.  They try to hurt you in the most despicable ways possible.

So, whether or not I retain the friendship, I'm taking "the high road".  No, I won't name names........it's not necessary.  But I won't be able to trust them again.....and that part hurts.

I AM a Lady in Public.....behind closed doors, I'm YOURS.  The value I have to you is all about the pride you have in me and my actions as they reflect on YOU.  I won't embarass you by making myself less than a Lady in Public.  Some won't understand that.....but I guess that's because they're not meant to understand it.......BUT YOU DO.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

My imaginary Sir -

I was thinking about you when I woke up this morning.  I was warm and sleepy and thinking it would be a perfect time to get kinky.......with you.

I have a busy day today with chores and homework.  But, I'll be thinking of you.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I seem to confuse those that have chosen to get to know me by first reading my journals.  So maybe I need to clarify something.

Right now, my "Sir" is ENTIRELY IMAGINARY. 

I am NOT:

collared.......under consideration......going steady (if anyone still uses that term anymore)........having a significant other.......dating exclusively.........have a steady boyfriend (I AM STRAIGHT)..........in a committed relationship of ANY kind..........engaged OR married --- I AM A FREE-AGENT as it were.

But my writing to my "Imaginary Sir" is about the kind of relationship that I HOPE TO HAVE with a Dom someday.  For me, sharing my thoughts with him is important to how we interact in the vanilla side of our lives as much as the kinky side.  HE has to understand my thoughts and my heart for our relationship to work well.  He's NOT a mind reader.......I have to tell Him if He's to know.

When I'm in a committed relationship, my significant other is ALWAYS FIRST in my thoughts and in the things I do during the day.  HE is my SOLE FOCUS........everything else is secondary to HIM.  I've ALWAYS been this way.......it's who I am in my heart.

But more that all that, my writings to "my imaginary Sir" are about being able to OPEN up to another person.  I MUST BE willing to chance being hurt when I open myself up to a relationship if it's going to have the potential to be truly special.  I believe that Julia Robert's character in Steel Magnolias said it best:  "I'd rather have 30 minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special."  You can't have something special if you're not willing to risk getting hurt.

So for those that are thinking about approaching me........if my profile is of interest to you, then take a chance.  "Nothing ventured, nothing gained."  I will at least respond to an e-mail to let you know what I think.  I don't like to hurt people, so if you're expecting me to stomp all over your feelings........it's not going to happen.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs 

Sir -

I know.  I was supposed to go to sleep early.  Well, I got caught up in reading again and just now noticed the time.

I wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you today.  You're a part of every part of my day.  I don't know if that makes sense or not, but it's the way of things.  I'm constantly thinking of ways to please you and surprise you.  You're on my mind a lot.......probably more than is good for me, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

You're the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about as I drift off to sleep......which is where I'm headed now.  I'll dream of you........will you think of me I wonder?

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I had a good time at the ceremony today.  My aunt was radiant as my father escorted her to her husband.  It was a beautiful ceremony.

I had a chance to see all 3 of my grandsons and they are gorgeous.  I even held the littlest so his Mom and Dad could eat.  He's so adorable.

I also had a chance to have dinner out with my little sister and my niece.  We had a great time catching up on the family happenings that I miss living away from them.

I'm back home now and will get my homework started shortly.  I know that I've been a bit slack on that recently, but it's been due to being sick.  I will be better about that in the coming weeks.

I'm thinking about you as I get started.  I hope that brings a smile to your face as much as it's bringing a GRIN to mine.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I'm excited today.  I'm going to a family event out of town.  My aunt and uncle are renewing their vows today.  They'll be married 35 years this week and my aunt is finally going to have a "church wedding".

Weddings and births give me hope for the future.  Births give me hope as it's a new life and that's always so exciting.  Weddings give me hope because two people are taking a "leap of faith".  That leap of faith is all about the love they have for each other and their desire to build a life together no matter Life's obstacles.  That faith and risk are a hope that their shared future will be so much better than a future either would have alone.  OK, so I'm a bit sappy today........I'm enjoying it.

So know that I will be thinking of YOU today as I go through the preparations, travel, and the event.  That kind devotion is what I feel for you.

As I've heard my aunt say over the years:  "If he ever decides to leave me, he'll have to tell me WHERE WE'RE GOING so I know how to pack for the BOTH of us."  It always makes me smile to hear it.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I was thinking of you and wanted you to know it.  I know that we have a lot of ground to cover in learning about each other.  I accept that.  I also know that what we learn about each other may sometimes be difficult to hear, but even the difficulties define who we are as people.  I want to know you as a person first.  I want to know what makes you "tick" and what "ticks you off".

But I also want to know your heart as well as your mind.  Your heart influences your mind for so many things.  I want to know what your heart looks like.  More to come........

Your obedient Sub,  AngelSighs

Sir -

I'm feeling so good today.  My strep is gone and the last of my cold seems to be going too.  It looks like I can go to the family event this weekend and that makes me happy.

I feel lighthearted and free today.  Today is going to be a good day and I'm hoping you're enjoying it where you are too.  I wish I could curl up with you this morning, even if only for a few minutes.  It's a great way for me to start my day and I hope it would please you.

Be good to yourself Sir,

AngelSighs

Sir -

I added two pics to my profile.  The "green" one is of me in a Vacuum Bed.  It felt AMAZING.  I will find a way to do this one again.

The last one is of me being suspended for the first time.  I have been rope bound before, but never suspended.  I'm afraid of heights so this was a HUGE DEAL FOR ME.  I was suspended upside down too.  My friends looked out for me.  I had a GOOD TIME being suspended and look forward to DOING THAT AGAIN!

Just had to share this with you after the upload.  Be good to yourself Sir until we chat again.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I'm feeling better today, though a bit tired.  I'm going back to the Dr. tomorrow for a check up.  I can't go to the family event this weekend if I'm still sick.  I really don't want to miss it, but can't afford to make some of the elderly in my family sick.

I had a Wally World run today for some supplies.  I have a vaporizer and a thermometer.  I'm having more congestion at night, so I thought it might help.

So, if you were a real person instead of my "imaginary Dom", I'd be asking you what it is you want me to do now?  I'm being VERY GOOD, but would enjoy an opportunity to curl up next to you.......sigh.

A friend of mine got married for the 2nd time within a year.  I sent over my congrats.  He's a wonderful guy, but not meant for me.  I'm hoping this marriage makes him very happy as he does deserve happiness.

I also received some pictures I've been waiting to post.  I hope to have a few of them up this evening so you can see some of my recent activities.

I have to get Zoe walked before continuing my homework.  I'm going to attempt to get to bed early.  I need the rest.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I'm working on laundry right now and trying to figure out how soon I can go back to bed.  I'm working on studying for my quiz for this week. 

I woke up tired, but can't figure out why.  But, the GOOD NEWS is that I'm starting to feel quite a bit better.  I'm not excited about going back to work tomorrow as I'm still so tired, but maybe a good night's sleep will put everything right again.

I'm hoping that your day has been good.  I hope that you have enjoyed yourself today. I'll look forward to our conversation tomorrow.

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

I had dinner with my youngest tonight.  We had a wonderful time and have made plans to get together again next weekend for another family event and then dinner with relatives.  It will be fun.

But, after getting back in tonight, I was sick again.  So, I'm hoping another round of meds tomorrow morning will help end this.  It's just getting OLD.

I was thinking about you tonight at dinner.  I was picturing your smile and it made me smile.  I'd enjoy spending time talking with you over dinner.  Connecting about the events of the day is so much better over dinner.  You can tell me the latest joke that you've heard and I can appreciate that you tell a wicked joke with no prompting.  LOL.  I like how intimate a conversation with you can be just talking about mundane things.

So I think I'm heading to bed to see if I can get over the last of this stuff.  Have to walk Zoe again before we head to bed.

Your devoted Sub, AngelSighs

Sir -

It's a BEAUTIFUL DAY outside today.  I took Zoe for a very long walk (1.4 miles) and we had a good time.  So I'm getting a bit more exercise today too.......LOL.  I'm opening up the blinds to let in the Sun.  Now if I could just figure out a natural way to sunbathe in the nude without getting arrested.....hmmmmmmm.  The Sun against my skin feels sooooo good.

I think I might be turning a corner on this sickness.  I'm running a fever and sweating it out off an on.  But I'm being careful and making sure that I hydrate and stay warm.  A headache because of a lack of hydration is just NOT COOL.

I have more laundry to do today.  As grandma used to say, "I swear we're either the cleanest people in 5 counties or the nastiest........."

I'm organizing my closet today.  It's time to purge again so that I can make room for SMALLER clothes.  The "up side" of being sick is that I'm not eating so I'm temporarily losing weight.  All I have to do is be careful when I start eating more solid foods again and I can keep that weight off...........I want to be ready for swimsuit season and that's going to take hard work.  I've never been afraid of hard work so it might work out.  I'm hopeful anyway.

But this purge is about more than clothes. 

I'M GETTING RID OF EVERYTHING I DON'T ABSOLUTELY LOVE OR NEED.  No sense in hoarding it when someone else can give it a "new home" and enjoy it.  I CAN be a very practical woman.  There are a lot of people with LESS.  I'm blessed that I have an ABUNDANCE and I'm very grateful.  But I need to pass on the OVERABUNDANCE so that I continue to have room for more in my Life. 

The purge is also about letting go of ideas or people that are no longer working for my life and making room for those that DO.  I have "toxic" people in my life and I have to let them go.  If I don't value the person I am, then how could you? You believe I have value and I have to believe that too......and show that.  I value my friends and want to keep them close.  I also want to make sure they know how much I appreciate what they bring to my life.  I've an "attitude of gratitude" today......and I'm nurturing that to make it grow.

Well, writing here isn't getting the work done.  I do so enjoy our chats though.  Know that I will be thinking of you often (and grinning) while I'm working today.  You won't need to spank me (sad face) to get me moving today...........but maybe we can talk about that in a play session for later (she said grinning widely and jumping up and down excitedly)?

Your obedient Sub, AngelSighs 

Sir -

 I need to keep you in the loop on my progress.  I'm so hungry I could eat the bricks off the building.  But, I'm being VERY good and pushing more liquids instead.......soups, Gatorade, tea w/honey (massive quantities), juices, and water.  When I'm feeling more normal, I'll move to more solid (and satisfying) foods.

My cell phone was returned today and service restored.  I will password protect it so that sensitive family pictures (children) don't make it out into the world.  I'm catching up with friends on it too.

I'm taking Zoe out for a walk shortly.  Then I have 2 hours of homework to complete before bed.  I'm also going to start some laundry so I can get ahead of that a bit.

My youngest is coming to town tomorrow night and we'll have a light dinner locally.  I haven't seen her in awhile and I'm going to have fun enjoying her company.  She's so funny she should write for SNL.  Then it will be another two hours of studying and then bedtime.

I'm trying to prepare for my next quiz and catch up on homework.  When I no longer feel like sleeping in my keyboard I may get more homework completed.

Sir, I feel your presence when I sleep.......watching over me.  I do feel safe and protected with you looking out for me. 

 Sleep well, AngelSighs

Sir -

If you were real instead of a pen-pal, I'd ask to spend some time in bed with you.....relaxing and cuddling.  My Strep throat is kicking my butt and I need the cuddling to keep me warm.

I wonder  - How would you treat illness for Your Sub?  Would I have the time to get enough rest to get over this?  Would I be "on my own" in getting through it?  I drive myself pretty hard and don't get enough rest when I'm sick.........or any other time either.

 I'm taking Zoe out for a walk shortly as I missed coming home at lunch today because of my Dr.'s appointment.  I'll warm myself some Chicken Noodle Soup to sip while I do my homework for tomorrow.  Then in bed by mid-night I hope.

Goodnight Sir.......I hope we BOTH sleep well.

Your Devoted Sub,

AngelSighs

I'm heading to see the Dr. again in a little while.  Another round of something to kill the strep and whatever else I have.  Yuk.

I've been contemplating something a trusted friend suggested.  She suggested that UNTIL I ACTUALLY HAVE A DOM, that I treat my journal entries as if I were speaking to HIM.  It's a concept I hadn't seriously considered.  But as she pointed out, what you put out into the world tends to come back to you..........but it's always come back to bite me where I DON'T want to be bit.  But, maybe a little faith in the process is what I need.

If He were here now, I'd want to cuddle up in His arms and just let Him hold me.  It's something special to feel protected AND cherished when you're sick.  I haven't had that since my mother passed away.  So now I'm weepy as well as sick.  ARGHHHHH

Two days left on my meds and I'm feeling like a train wreck again.  I'll give it the two remaining days.  But if not better, I'll contact the Dr.'s office again and see what they can do.

 I had the MOST AMAZING CONVERSATION with a gentleman Dom last night.  We texted until almost 5 a.m.  The conversation was FLIRTATIOUS and FUN! 

OK, women are verbal, men are visual.  But this DOM gave me the verbal that I NEEDED.  He intrigues me and I found it interesting that HE was willing to see to my verbal needs with NOTHING IN IT FOR HIM.  Amazing person and RARE from what I've met......You don't meet many that are willing to JUST HAVE FUN with a conversation. 

THIS IS THE KIND OF FLIRTATIOUS FUN THAT I GREW UP LOVING.......AND I STILL DO.

I'm finding that FLIRTING seems to have gone the way of the dinosaur.  That's unfortunate as I love a good flirtation.  It's as much a mental exercise as it is a verbal battle and expression of IDEAS THAT AREN'T CRUDE.  It was FUN.

Rope practice......what to say, what to say.  I had an EXCELLENT TIME!!!  I was bound today.  I was also SUSPENDED for the FIRST TIME.  I want to do that AGAIN!!!  It was a REALLY BIG DEAL for me.  I'm afraid of heights.  You'd never find me bungee jumping.

BUT, I had an amazing time being suspended UPSIDE DOWN.  I'm going to do that again........that I KNOW.  AMAZING....... 

My Lap Dancing Class was today.  I had a good time AND learned a lot, which was the whole point right?  LOL

I was extremely uncomfortable dancing on a stranger's lap.  It just felt weird, though he was very nice about it.  So now a group of us are going to a Gentleman's Club next week to see pros in action and pick up some tips before our next class.  I'm excited.

I'm looking for a practice partner among my friends and have to be careful about that.  I don't want to lead anyone on about this.  I just need someone that won't take advantage of the situation so I can practice.  I guess I can always practice with an empty chair, though I need the feedback from a person.  I'll figure it out.

Getting on my homework.

I'm finding that this lifestyle is a moving target.  Just about the time I think I've figured something out or understand something, I'm warned that there are no absolutes in it.  So those things I think I've figured out really could be smoke and mirrors.........or another truth.

But the Power Exchange has been on my mind this week as well as trying to define the kink that makes me tick.  So right now I'm horny and continuing to attempt to educate myself about this lifestyle.

Good thing I understand thinking "outside the box".....LOL

I've been doing some reading about lactation and bondage.  I'm curious about that on a womanly level.  I know what a woman feels when she lactates as I've done that before.  I'm not sure I understand it from a Dom's perspective.  It's something I think about.

I'm also so horny I could screw a Pepsi bottle with the cap on it........I know, Pepsi comes in cans now.  I remember an old saying that sooooo applies right now.  "rode hard and put away wet".  I realize that's a bad thing for a horse, though I'm not exactly sure why........but it's not so bad for a horny woman......  I need a solid pounding badly.......sigh.

I'm starting to consider what it might mean to be a sex slave........I need the relief. 

Still sleepy though I'm tired of the sick bed.  I need some pleasure when in bed and not just sleep.

Starting to feel a bit less sleepy.  Then again, I've slept most of the past 24 hours than I spent awake.

I'm getting dressed to get out in the sunshine for a bit.  OK, so I'm going to get the Sunday paper.  But, that counts too.  LOL

I'm so horny I could spend the day in bed.......and not asleep.

Strep throat sucks!  I'm going to dinner because I don't feel like cooking........and that's saying a lot.  I like to cook.

Got to dry my hair and get on the road........more later.

I've been sick the past three days.  I didn't want to make the entire office sick because I've been running a temperature.  I should be able to go back to work tomorrow.

But even sick, I've had an increased libido.  I sometimes wonder if that's a bad thing.......unless you have someone to share that libido with......

Played and still horny.  Hormones are in hyperdrive today.  I really could enjoy screwing the clock around.......sigh.

Can't stop thinking about the vacuum bed experience.  It was so incredibly hot.   I enjoyed a spanking bench for the first time.  It was hard to sit for a bit, but no bruises........just the way I like it.

The round-table discussion was good, but I had to leave early to get things ready for the party.  There were some things that were explained in more detail than I've been able to find online about the safety aspect that I really needed to hear. 

But what I've learned is that for every rule within this lifestyle there are at least three ways to get around/bend/break it to make things work for you.  So what's the point of having a rule again?  Confused, but working through it. 

I went to a Munch Brunch and by the time I left I was horny all over again.  I found out some kinky uses for some rather ordinary items that had my mind and body engaged on the SAME PAGE and it's HOT.

Got to walk Zoe so I can get some work, and some "self-play" completed.  A woman has to have SOME FUN in her life........

I had a full day.  I had a round-table discussion this afternoon.  Then came home and finished off the potato salad.  I was reminded that others were bringing food.  So I made German potato salad, and the deviled eggs.  I'll make the sausage balls another time soon to test the recipe.

But I had a chance to play at this party.  I got to climb into a latex envelope and they sucked the air out it.  It felt so amazing to be confined like that.

I also got to enjoy the Spanking Bench.  I had a friend warm my backside.  I had a good time. 

More soon.

A lot has happened since I last posted.  I found out that the Fire Department responded to a dumpster fire near my building on 12/30 and again on 1/1/12.  I left on 1/1/12 for a very important reason.....I needed to support family.

My oldest daughter made me a grandma for the third time.  I have a gorgeous grandson, 7 lbs. 7 oz., 19 inches long.  I won't list his name as his parents are "child naming challenged".  I love them, but the more grandchildren they give me, the MORE BIZARRE the names are getting.  My poor grandson is going to get his cute little behind kicked all over the playground.  Kids are cruel.

I start school again tonight.  I'm excited.  I love the smell of sharpened pencils/crayons.  No, I won't be using crayons, but will be using my new laptop for note taking. More in a bit.

Well, someone in the apartment building next door has something going on tonight.  The Fire Department has showed up.  Can't tell if they're hunks from here, but I've never met an ugly Fireman.......LOL.

Tonight I'm trying to get motivated.  I'm really NOT in the mood to unpack my apartment.  I want to go out and do something......see a movie, shop for a few "toys", but it's getting late and things are closing.

They say discipline is doing what you know you must even when you don't want to at the moment..........I'm sooooo lacking in discipline tonight.

Ordered a pizza and I'll get started.  I wish I had a better incentive for finishing this than just having it finished.....

But, when it's done, I'll find a suitable reward among my current toys.

I have been thinking all day about Rope and being bound.  I was at a Rope practice recently and can not get the pictures out of my mind today.  I have already booked the next two classes into my calendar as I am that excited about it.

I want to feel the Rope on my skin again.  I had such a nice time being tied.  I want that delicious feeling of being confined and completely within the control of someone else that I trust, even if that is only in a classroom environment.

I am still looking for that wonderful blend of Safe, Sane, and Consensual in a Dominant that likes the things I do.  Until I find him....sigh.

I was raised to believe in a right and wrong, or a black and white for my life.  It is not something that I have blindly followed throughout my life. No one has ever confused me with a lemming.  I constantly question things in my life to see if they still hold true over time.

I do not have a lot of grey areas in my life except when it comes to my heart.  My mind is logical, most of the time.  My heart - entirely illogical. :)

WHAT I KNOW TODAY:  I want ONE DOM that has the energy, intelligence, sense of humor, and heart to train someone that really wants to embrace this lifestyle.  I have no problem with friendships being a revolving door in my life.  Friendships grow and change over time and some are not meant to last a lifetime.  But, I do not want a revolving door of Doms in my life.

Maybe it's weird, but thinking about having a LTR with a Dom is almost like marriage in that you have to choose wisely and you sometimes don't know if you have until the end of your life.

So, as I continue to unpack my apartment and get ready for a New Year, I'm still pondering kink and what place it will have in my life in 2012.

XOXOXOXO Ya'll!

The weird thing about vacation at this time of year is that most of your friends are on vacation too.  So you end up missing each other as you try to tie up loose ends and take care of the things you really can't do during a regular work week.

Well Santa didn't bring me My Dom for Christmas.  He must have thought I meant next Christmas.  We'll see what happens.

I had a good time being around family and vegging out a bit.  I saw the movie "The Help".  It made me mad, sad, laugh a lot, and be very grateful that those times are behind us.

I also saw "The Girl That Played With Fire".  It's a very intense movie even for an action movie.  It's very good, but you'll need to make sure that you enjoy subtitles, unless you speak Swedish.

I'm on vacation as of today.  I only have to go in to work tomorrow to take care of 1 thing that can't be done today.  So I'll be monitoring from my cell as usual, but will be more available.

More later........

Dear Santa Claus -

I'm hoping you can help me with my Wish List this year.  I've been writing to you for many years and am beginning to get a bit discouraged.  I realize I sometimes DREAM BIG and forget to BE SPECIFIC, so I'll try to be more detailed this time.

I WANT A DOM FOR CHRISTMAS.  There's still time.  You have a whole day and I believe you can pull this off.  I've been talking to you about this for over a week and I've always believed in your magic.

The Dom's details:

1.  A Dominant, but not a jackass.  That's just ridiculous.  I can't respect someone that is ridiculous.

2.  A sense of humor with the ability to tell a good story.  I'm not thinking a liar here.  I don't like liars.

3.  Be tall.  I'm vertically challenged and often need help with things on tall shelves and in tall cabinets. 

4.  Is completely kissable and a good kisser...absolutely important.

5.  Is completely imaginative in providing instruction. 

6.  NOT "PERFECT".  I'm not.  Perfection is BORING and OVERRATED.

7.  Have nice strong hands......and know when to use them......and where.

8.  Be patient.  I'm a handful even when I'm working on improvement.

9.  Understand a Submissive's heart.  It really does hurt me to disappoint anyone.

10.  Understand that I LOVE TO FLIRT, particularly WITH HIM.

11.  Be a good disciplinarian.  I want to BE GOOD TO AND FOR HIM.

12.  Not looking to add to a "stable", but wants ONLY ONE SUBMISSIVE.

Well, I think I've covered the major points.  If he has a twinkle in his eye and a voice like Sam Elliott, that will be ok too.

So Santa, I'm counting on you.  I've been a VERY GOOD GIRL this year.  But that's always something I can change.

Sincerely,  

AngelSighs

When the lights go out at night, I want there to be ONLY ONE -- MY ONE.  I am trying to make sure that I present the REAL ME.  Being a submissive, I am all about service and could lose myself in the service side of this.  But if I do not have the inner strength to present who I am and what I bring to a Dominant, then what is the point of this whole thing?

I KNOW that I am a Submissive looking for that special Dominant that has the talent, patience, imagination, and drive to bring out the BEST ME for everything I do in SERVICE TO HIM.  I am neither an idiot nor a doormat.  I have both a brain and a backbone. I am capable of using both.  It is not about "multiple Dominants" it is about ONE. 

Though I will say that looking for THE ONE is a bit like cold calling for Sales -- 20 calls and 19 rejections to get to ONE that would be a "maybe".  I sooooo suck at sales.

But I am in a small way looking for a Dominant to take care of me.  I have to say that CAREFULLY as most would assume that means financially and they would be WRONG.  I make a decent living and have supported myself for many years.  That will not change.  The kind of care I mean is more in the way of physical/emotional support.  I want a Dominant that can and will administer discipline when necessary, but also the hugs and touching that my body, heart, and soul craves.  But I also want to be able to provide those things for HIM too.

When I start presenting these arguments in my head and begin arguing both sides, it is time to take a break.  Zoe wants to walk.

A lot of stuff is happening.  My oldest daughter is going through a tough time in trying to get the baby to finally make an appearance.  But, I may have to put up a web page to name him.  The names they've picked out are guaranteed to get his tiny behind kicked on the playground.

I've been busy with family this weekend.  A family Christmas party, one aunt coming out of the hospital, and visiting a funeral home for yet another.  Tough weekend.

I've got to get some laundry done. 

I've had a "first" this weekend.  I was tied up with rope for the first time....several times actually.  I had a good time and learned a LOT.

I was thinking about the rope practice that I attended over the weekend.  I've seen one of the instructors before and he does stunning work.  He showed a group of us (60+) some of the tying techniques.  A second instructor showed us a couple of other techniques.

I saw a woman suspended and the rope work she wore was stunning.  Her hair wasn't tied by rope, though I've heard of the technique.

I'm hoping to get tied up again soon........Some things you need to do more than once.......LOL

Zoe says she's tired.  Got to move her bed so she can sleep.  More soon.......

Well, I'm still waiting on the scoring for the Hands-On Final.  I just finished the Q/A portion and got an 80.  We'll see if I can pull a "C" out of this class.  I'm hopeful, but very, very doubtful.  A "D" would mean I'd repeat the class.  As my parent's used to say a "D" means "DIG".  We'll see.

SO.........I CAN COME OUT TO PLAY AGAIN.............after I clean and unpack my apartment.............and see if I can find Zoe a nice dog park.  I made her a promise.

I feel like "Snoopy dancing"!  Soooooo happy that's behind me.

Just blew the crap out of my hands-on Final exam.  It took me 4 hours to do that.  Just so you know I'm serious.......submitted 2 screen shots out of the 20 that make up the exam......Yep, I blew that one.

So happy that's over.  Next is to completely screw up the Q/A portion of the exam.  I have 2 hours to do that one and it's open-book.  I have a snowball's chance in a hot place of making that one work.

So depressed I may eat the Mango Sorbet for lunch.....oh wait, I'd have to work that off for a month.  I guess it's a turkey sandwich........

Going to take Zoe for a walk and blow out the cobwebs that is my mind right now.

Stayed late for a client issue -- 2 hours.  So I'm behind........again.

Getting ready to walk Zoe before I read for a little while.  I want to walk through some information before tomorrow's hands-on exam.

After that, I'll take Zoe on a long walk before sitting down to the Q/A part.  Once I finish it, everyone in 5 counties will be able to hear me shout.

Sleepy and ready to just go to bed, but Zoe's needs have to come first.  She can walk herself, but who would walk me?  LOL

Taking a hot shower before bed too.  I really need the stress relief.

Zoe's ready to go............more later.

Anticipation - the thing that drives you nuts when you think too long and too hard about it.

That's my Final Exam........anticipation of the most important thing for me this semester.  I really want it to go well.

But I'm tired.  I want to have some FUN.  I'm turning into a hermit and that's just NOT who I want to be.  I may never be "the life of the party", but I don't want to be a "stick in the mud" either.

I'm going to have a glass of wine and a hot bath.  Take a little stress out of my life for a bit before bed.

I need to run by the store....................

I sat down to answer some e-mail and now it's 3 hours later.  I don't know how to write a Reader's Digest Condensed Version of anything.

I'm starting to have panic attacks about my Final.  I'm going to schedule it, take it, and see how well I do.  I know I'm not going to ace it, but I'm still hoping for a good grade.  Six hours for a Final exam is a bit extreme.

I'm going to get back into the gym after this class is over too.  I've really missed my gym time.

I've signed up for a Stripping/Lap Dance class.  I'm going to learn something fun for a change.

Zoe's telling me she wants me to move her bed to the bedroom so she can sleep.  I guess we're going to bed now.

Sweet dreams all......

"December 7th, a day that will live in infamy."

For those that have served or are serving this country - Thank you!  I appreciate your service.  --   A Grateful American

I don't know where the thought came from, but I had a picture in my head that has bugged me all day.   I had to make it "real".  I now have it posted on my profile.  I love these shoes, and I usually prefer to go barefoot.  I know.  That's not logical.  So - I'm female......it's OK.

OK, OK, OK.....I'm going.  Heading back to the books now that I've posted to my profile.

I'm struggling this week already.  I'm so tired I can hardly hold my eyes open.  That's making studying difficult.  Right now, I'm praying for a "C" in this class.  I really don't want to have to take it again. 

But, I've been approached by some online that have been very critical.  Just yesterday I was asked, after providing my picture, if I had Cancer.  I answered No and was promptly dismissed.  Shows that people don't always read journals when they peek at profiles.......if they READ that far. 

That's sad, but I figure that if you're not going to get to know someone, then maybe it's good they kept on moving.  I've met some nice people here, but some really strange people too.  It takes all of us to make a world I suppose.

I'm heading to sleep, but wanted to note that it's already Monday and I feel like I've lived a year today.  As Scarlett would say "Tomorrow is another day."  I hope to make the most of it.

Zoe says "Goodnight All".

This weekend and into next week, it's about finishing this very difficult class.  I won't be on here much, but will monitor from my cell phone.  So if I don't respond to you right away, please forgive me and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

I've had some thoughts I've been "chewing on" recently.  Sometimes writing them down helps me settle some things in my mind and my heart.

I've spent most of the past 35 years trying to get a college degree.  I've done that through divorce, raising children as a single parent (and struggling), and watching my Mom die slowly from lung cancer (smoker).  So I can condense most of what I know to this............it's TIME I LIVED MY LIFE.

So at this stage of my life, it's ALL ABOUT ME.  It's about what I "bring to the table" as a human being --- ALL my talents, my education, my wacky sense of humor, my compassion, my cooking skills (pretty good cook - double-crusted homemade chicken pot pie), my common sense (important too), my EXTREMELY curious nature, and MY HEART.  While this stage of my life is about me, I want to include a partner in my life of some kind that enjoys the kinds of kinky things I do. 

I wasn't raised to live with a man without benefit of marriage.  I don't know that I'd do a "move on in" kind of relationship.  I'm struggling with this part.

I remember growing up and spending time in my Mom's hometown during the Viet Nam era in southern MI.  During the early 60's there was an older couple that lived together without marriage.  Everyone in town knew them and EVERYONE in town talked about them.  After 30 years together, he dumped her.  I don't know that it was any easier for her just living with him than if she'd been married to him for all that time. 

But I know that while the women in my family weren't raised that way, many of them have lived with a man either with or without marriage.  Having been financially devastated by divorce and successfully recovered from that, I'm seeing where that can make sense.  But I'm still old-fashioned enough to want that for me.......ONE PERSON, FULLY COMMITTED TO ME, AS I WOULD BE TO HIM.

I KNOW that I'm a submissive in and out of the bedroom.  I tend to put other people's needs ahead of my own, and always have.  So I know I want that "ah moment" at the end of the day.  That moment when I'm just standing circled in HIS arms and just breathing him in......and knowing that I'm HIS. 

I'm not sure I can describe that feeling.  It's like watching the sunset when the beautiful shades of orange, coral, and pink merge into the blues of the night sky.  There's that moment of awe at how beautiful the world is, and how insignificant we as humans are in it.....

I know that I have a limited time on this planet.  NO ONE gets off this planet alive except for astronauts......and even that's a crap shoot.  I want to make my time count for something and preferably with someone.  I sometimes think more highly of people than they deserve.  I've already wasted a huge amount of my life on things or people that weren't what I thought they were.  But I can't see myself living as if everyone is undeserving on my time or attention either.  So I'll probably always make these mistakes.

So I'm still pondering these things this week.  I've got to take Zoe for a walk now and then back to the books.

More later...........

Trying again.

I have finished the LAST of the Chapter Labs for this class.  I uploaded them half an hour ago.  I have 2 chapter questions (will be posted on Thursday), a quiz, and the Final. 

I'm so happy I could dance.....and I'll have to take another class for that.  I don't have a head for the steps.  It's mathematical which is why I suck at it. 

I'm taking the dog out shortly and then I'm heading to bed.  I'm very tired.....but VERY HAPPY.

Now if I could just get some time to play.  I seriously need some FUN in my life......... 

I've been to the gym.......Life is good again.  Hormones are starting to even out, I no longer want to beat my instructor over the head with my textbook, and I feel pretty good.  Now if only I had a chance to play.

I need some SERIOUS PLAY TIME after this is all over.  I wish I could come out to play.  I need the endorphin rush.

I found out yesterday after another fruitless homework session that the instructor had updated our Lab sheets..........and didn't bother to mention it to anyone.  There just aren't words for how I feel about that.

 I let him have it......politely speaking.  I missed Thanksgiving (my favorite holiday), my youngest daughter's birthday (26) and I spent over 50 hours of my life trying to get this homework done while working full-time.  I also had a car accident due entirely to sleep deprivation over this class.  No one was hurt, but how much more do I need to "suffer" to complete this class?  I hope he felt like a SLUG.

But, I signed in again last night and FINALLY completed this week's Lab work.  I'm going to the gym for exercise and a steam after I walk my dog.

Then all I have to do is the reading...........all 12 chapters.  Final is two weeks from today and it's hand's on, limited directions.  So I'll be sleep deprived another two weeks.

Just wait until the semester is over.  I'll sleep for a week.....and then I'm looking for some SERIOUS FUN AND GAMES!!!! I need a cock to fondle, suck, and fuck to my heart's content!

OK.  So doing my homework for almost 6 days isn't working.  I'm tired, sleep-deprived, ticked off, and would LOVE to de-stress a bit.

I need a gym, steam room, massage, lips, hands, and a cock that can go forever.  That should put a SMALL DENT in my stress level.

Seriously though, school is causing major stress.  I've got 3 weeks until it's over for the semester.  Why do instructors feel that if you're not devoting 100% of your time to their class you can't possibly be learning anything?

My BTL (Bullshit Tolerance Level) is starting to CLIMB and it's supposed to REMAIN LOW.  I wonder if paddling the instructor is an option?

I'm going to walk the dog and then bed.  Oh wait, I've got to make it since I washed the sheets today.  More work and even less satisfaction.....bummer.

I received an e-mail today and my bruised toes were compared to an abortion.  Well, I've changed the picture to one of them before they were bruised, because they are normally much prettier.  I did find the abortion comparison a bit extreme though.

I don't care that much for tattoos, but I don't have any either.  I would never tell anyone that the tattoos are ugly as it's a matter of personal taste......and tastes vary.

I'm finding that people that are supposed to be "open-minded" have a lot of rather interesting prejudices........for a group that's supposed to be so "tolerant" of people being allowed to be "different". 

As Mama would say, "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all."   Besides, it's just good manners and GOOD MANNERS MATTER.

I'm in desperate need of some fun.  Besides, what's the use in being a sluts if you can't enjoy it?  Though I am an ethical sluts (Southern Lady Under Tremendous Stress).

I'm tired.  I'm horny.  I need a cock to suck and balls to fondle.  I want to curl up and spoon with just the right cock.

Heading to bed........alone.........sigh.

11-17-11

I've had THREE Monday's this week.  I'm hoping for either a Tuesday or Thursday tomorrow.  I realize that while "Murphy" is tap-dancing all over my week, someone else is having THE BEST WEEK OF THEIR LIVES.    It'll be my turn soon enough I hope.  If I dangle that carrot long enough, I might believe it.  LOL

The weather was GORGEOUS yesterday.  I really enjoyed walking Zoe in it.  It's getting colder today, so Winter is definitely heading our way.  Zoe will enjoy it, and I just bought a new coat, so I should enjoy it too.

Registered for another semester of school today and I have a better than average shot at finishing school this year.  That means one degree down, two to go.  There are worse ways to spend your time.

I've been really horny ALL DAY.  It was hard to focus on work.  It didn't help that I was chained to the phone so I couldn't take time out to "take care of things" either.  I'm going to feel better in just a little while......think about that for awhile.

I could enjoy wrapping my lips around a cock tonight......or balls.....I need some FUN SOON!!!

I'm tired, but still incredibly horny.  The weekend is supposed to have SOME FUN in it!

Still looking for that "ONE".  When he FINALLY shows up, he'll probably look like a unicorn......an elusive BEAST!

I've been so stressed from school stuff that I started cooking.  The bad part about that is that I'll be eating Gumbo forever based on the size of the pot I cooked.  I'll have to see if I can give some of it away.  I love Gumbo, but I don't want to eat it all week.

Well, I'm heading to bed so I can get up and do school all over again later today.  It's a real shame that the only thing I seem to be learning is that I have to OUTLAST THE BASTARDS!  I hope they're not waiting for me to blink!?!

The week went QUICK!!!  I blinked and it was Friday.  But, I'd rather be busy and engaged than bored out of my gourd.....pun intended.

I've been struggling with this chapter's homework.  From the notes on the site from the instructor, I'm not the only one struggling with it.  So I don't feel like a total idiot.

I've been thinking about kink all week. I need some free time to myself to gather my thoughts and feelings about it all since the party.  Life has been incredibly busy.

I've realized that I'm more a sensual sub than a pain sub.  That probably makes me less attractive to most on the site, but so be it.  Some things just are what they are. We all have to deal with reality eventually.  Better to know it up front than to find out later during play.  The disappointment for both parties would be a real downer.

I'm interested in the bondage side of this - both the physical and mental aspects.  The rope work I saw at the party was very different than what you see from a Boy Scout.  It was interesting that when I made that comment, the guy doing the rope work grinned and told me that he'd been an Eagle Scout.  His knots were very elegant and the woman that was tied up, well she was enjoying the Hell out of it.  His work was very pretty and the sapphire colored rope against her olive skin was photo-worthy.  I plan to do some more reading on Shibari.  It sounds interesting and after the party, the "ropes" have me engaged.

I have to do more homework tomorrow, so I'm going to miss the Needle Demo at the community center.  I know I don't want to be used as a pin-cushion, but I'd like to learn more about it.  It's a kink I'd like to understand better.  Most people avoid needles, but these folks seem to enjoy it.  I'd like to understand what that's like for them.

Heading to bed.  I'd enjoy a nice massage after this busy week.  I can think of a nice "payback" for the giver.  ;)

Well, I've been busy re-doing homework due to a glitch on the website.  Doing your homework once is bad enough - twice just sucks - and NOT in a nice way either.

I feel like I'm in exile this weekend.  I need to have a "little" fun this weekend to stay sane..............

10-24-11

I went to a kink party last night.  Everyone was warm and welcoming.  They went out of their way to introduce themselves.  That was very nice.

I learned a lot while I was there.  There was wax play, massages, violet wand play, flogging, cupping, needles, and some others that I probably didn't know about.  I also had the MOST INCREDIBLE neck massage ever.

I saw some incredible paddles, including one big enough to spank two people at the same time.  Very interesting, though I don't like paddles as much as I do bare-handed spankings.  It's all about touch for me. 

I look forward to attending my next party.....