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It's so hard to write these blurbs. While I'm well spoken, I find it difficult to write about myself. I also find it hard to write about what interests me, what I crave, because while I understand some of what it is, I still get embarrassed about it. (Yes, i'm a blusher.)
I've enjoyed serving in the past, took some time away, and am now looking for a local Dominant, who can push me both physically and mentally. I'd prefer someone strict, who will expect me to follow the rules he sets, who doesn't let me bat my eyes and talk my way around him. I don't mean to say that I disobey, because that's not the case. I just need to feel like my Dom is really in charge, that it's not just something he's doing to get in my pants.
Speaking of getting in my pants, I was recently asked if I could separate my submission, the mental and the physical. That is a tough question, to say the least. I've had it separated in the past, where it was just physical, and I was left wanting more. Remember those commercials that ended with "The mind is a terrible thing to waste"? Well, I find that I need the mental as much, if not more than the physical. Engage my mind, and my body will follow.
I have a family, my husband and kids, so discretion is VERY important. My husband does know about my desires, and yes, knows that I am looking for a Dominant to fulfill them. He himself doesn't have any Dom tendencies, which is why I look elsewhere. What he does enjoy is watching me with others. It doesn't mean that he's up in your junk watching, just that he likes being in the same room. He will attend all first meets with me (which actually allows me to be more comfortable as well), and this is non-negotiable. Beyond that, we can discuss as the time comes.
2017 Edit -
I have found what I've been looking for. I have a Dom (who, unfortunately isn't local, but gets me and gets in my head just the way I like) and we make the effort to be together several times a year. I have a boyfriend, who I used to play with, then we drifted because life was in the way, and we've recently reconnected. And, of course, I still have my husband, who is just as wonderful as he was when I last updated this.
I will still answer messages, I've made some wonderful friends over the years on here, and I'm not going to deny myself the opportunity to make more.
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I must learn not to be late! :) |
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I've got a grin that just won't quit today. |
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So.... I'm coming here to vent. I've just finished having email exchanges with two different Doms (one from Tennessee, and one from New York).
One of them told me that because I'm looking for local (and yes I know the prospects are few), I'll end up being controlled and fucked by a moose. That because I had the temerity to point out I'm looking for local, I'm an angry, bitter person.
Here's the deal folks. I've been around for a while. I know what I'm doing, what I want. And, just as importantly, I know what I don't want. I don't want an online relationship. I don't want a relationship where one or the other of us has to fly to see the other.
Does this mean that I only want a physical relationship. NO! It just means that I want someone local. And when a person emails me, from out of state, I do have to wonder why. Is it just because they want to be friends? Why? Is it that they think I'm so desperate, I'll set aside what I feel to be important?
I'm not desperate. I'm happily married. Yes, I have the urge to serve. Just because I have the cravings, doesn't mean I need to submit to anyone and everyone. I have the rights (and I exercise them) to talk with and email whomever I want.
That being said, I do try to respond to every email that I receive, even if it's a no thank you, or a why do you want to chat?. After todays flaming responses to my questions, I am seriously rethinking that. I've been told by many other subs and Doms that there's email filters for a reason. There's whole forum posts devoted to it.
Hmmmm.... Ranting does seem to make me feel better, lol... And I'm not establishing any filters yet. I do exchange emails with friends (both Dom and sub) from every state and out of the country. I'm more than willing to start friendships with out of staters, just not relationships. |
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I'm heading out early tomorrow for our cruise... I know I have many emails in the queue that I haven't gotten to, and I'm sorry. I've been rather busy lately :) Take care all, and I'll try to get back to everyone when I'm home again. |
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So, I've made a few friends on here, and feel safe posting a picture again.... Please, for those I haven't included in my circle of friends, don't suddenly start to like me for a photo.... I'm more than a naked picture, and if you can't like me for who I am, then don't bother. |
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Ok.... So i had to remove my picture... Someone i've been chatting with for over a year has told me that he was talking with a buddy who said he had played with me and my husband. And played with my husband's ex wife. And were comparing our styles. Now... What part of discretion did these two not understand? Not that i've played with either of these boys, since i like my men older generally speaking....
But my husband has asked that i remove all my pictures or put them private for now. If i feel that you're trustworthy and that this has a possibility of going somewhere, i will share discrete photos down the line. But for now... Pictures are gone! |
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