Sauteed scallops, mushrooms, and onions on a bed of rice, generously covered with a garlic and mushroom alfredo sauce. That was dinner tonight. I outdid myself with this simple to make dinner. Damn, I AM a great cook.

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Like many on here, I have an understanding vanilla partner (who knows I am on this site), but I don't have a Dom or Domme to participate in any BDSM activities, but the drive, needs, and wants are still there, so I occasionally engage in some self-bondage and S/M activities. It is sometimes a frustrating endeavour at best. For me, in the S/M part of servitude, it's all about edging past barriers, breaking past what I think I can take, eliminating safe words and relying on trust and pre-arranged liberal hard limits instead, this to push past barriers and experience a full-on rush that few others can withstand. Something that is entirely and frustratingly impossible in self-bondage.

For example, it is hard, if not impossible, to endure permanent, semi-permanent, or even long term chastity when I have ready access to the key. Men just aren't wired that way. If chastity is not enforceable by a second party, it's not going to happen.

Even self-CBT or nipple torture is frustrating in that one cannot push oneself past the edge with any degree of success. I have worked myself up to being able to endure alligator clamps (incredibly bitey and painful ones) on my nipples while securing my hands behind my back. Problem: I can undue my hands at any time, so when it starts to become unendurable (usually at around four minutes), instead of being forced to endure and suffer anyway in order to come through at the other end, I can, and thus do, take them off myself. In a way, that is the ultimate self abuse -- not able to achieve potential.

I read elswhere on this site in a Domme's journal (SylviaK in NYC) who claims to enforce permanent chastity -- once the lock goes on, fun time down below is over. She also enjoys some pretty severe CBT, which sounds invitingly interesting. She described a situation where a gagged, blindfolded, and kneeling sub's hands were secured behind his back, a spreader bar on his ankles, and a chain attached his collar to a hook on the ceiling, this to prevent him from sinking. Alligator clamps on his nipples were tied to the head of his cock, forcing it up and forcing his balls to be jutted out and freely exposed with nothing in the way. It turns out that she is quite fond of kicking a man's balls repeatedly until they are swollen and heavily discolored. It's kind of a hobby with her.

As severe as that sounds, it was a turn-on to read (I know, I must be a very sick and perverted bastard) as I wondered how long I could withstand such an assault. So I tried it -- the exact bondage and position and clamps, etc. It was my first experience with alligator clamps. That was severely painful enough, but, sadly, my balls hung out in the air, waiting for kicks that would never come, so I never experienced the self-discovery of pushing through that particular barrier.

Since it was self-bondage, I withstood around four or five minutes of my tits being on fire before I released myself.

I can only wonder if I was locked in that position, how long a Domme/Dom would have forced me to endure, ignoring my muffled pleas, and how many assaults upon my testicles I would have to endure. I hope it would be a hell of a lot longer than four minutes.

Fantasies. Longings. Desires. Achings for guilty pleasures (or painful displeasures, as it were). We all have them. Wanting to experience them in reality without being able to? It can be frustrating and it is not easy.

Best accidental laugh I've had on here in a while. On a Domme's bio page on this web site, the following paragraph was published:

"If you contact me you better have more to say than hello or a lame ass one line opening. If you can not address me with proper english and grammer do not address me at all."

Read it again a few times if you don't get it. It'll come to you.

hint: grammar is misspelled; English is a proper noun, always capitalized; punctuation -- several missing commas; should be "lame-assed," past tense and hyphenated. Well, I thought it was funny anyway.

There's a lot of whiney-assed Doms/Dommes on here that I would never think to contact.

Bios with stuff like "Read my profile, all of it, and don't respond to me unless you put X in the header/first sentence" or, even worse "I'm so tired of fakers/wannabes/one-liners/etc." as though they have just had a revelation and discovered that a lot of people on sites like this aren't entirely truthful. Welcome to the internet. People lie. Get used to it and get over it.

This sends a message, but it is not the one you intended. Any Dom/Domme that puts negative crap like that in their bio is someone I'm not sure is bright enough to be a Dom/Domme. You have spent all of this time on the internet and never realized how filled with idiots the world is? And you expect better here? And you think you are going to change that?

Moreover, you are not anyone's Dom/Domme yet. Nobody has negotiated anything. Nobody is bound by any of your so-called rules yet, so if I want to send a one-liner to you just because I liked something in your profile, I will. If you don't like it, you can always negotiate to spank me.

With my bitching about that, I'm just as guilty. That irony is not lost on me.

While I'm at it, a few of you so called BBWs ought to seriously consider dropping one of the letters 'B.' Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and judging by looks is shallow, but claiming you are beautiful when small children could be traumatized by looking at you is a bit of a stretch and kind of trainwrecks your credibility in other parts of your bio page.

End of negative entry (and I won't be negative again).

A long time ago, I had a chastity device known as a Kali Teeth Bracelet. For the longest time, they weren't being made, but recently there are a few commercial outlets on the web that are making them again. 

It's a particularly sinister and VERY effective chastity control. I won't go into how it works, you either already know or you can use Google. 

What I also found was a remarkably inexpensive way to create your own using almost any standard chastity cage.  This can be used for punishment or for standard chastity security, provided that Master/Mistress has a bit of an evil/cruel streak. Just get the lower rings from any 20 oz. soft drink bottle and bend out the spikes so that they solidly point inwards, as shown in the last of my uploaded photos. There will be a top and a bottom once you have manipulated the spikes. 

Slide the rings onto your sub's cock one at a time. Best use is four of them (six or eight if you want to go beyond torturing the cock for bad thoughts and you wanty to go straight to torturing the soul). Bunch them up. You may have to use ice to get the shaft at its smallest. If you slide them on correctly, the spikes will be pointing somewhat upwards towards the head of the cock. This is good -- it means the rings will not be able to slide back off and that you will have to cut them off with a pair of scissors in order to remove them (which is fairly easy and safe as long as the cock is not erect). 

Then forget about the teeth rings as if they are not there. Lock your sub up in his standard, normal chastity device with the Kali rings on the shaft of his cock on the inside of the device. 

You now have total (and painful) mind control -- he will now have to use great effort in order to avoid thinking about things that would normally turn him on. One naughty thought and he will instantly feel like a car door has slammed on his cock. Take it from a sub, this kind of long-term mental control can be wonderful for a Dom/Domme. It trains the sub to avoid thoughts sexual imagery and to avoid selfish thoughts of his own sexual release. At first, there is unavoidable resentment, but as the sub accepts the situation, it can lead tyo a whole new level of servitude.

This can be used for long term, and don't let his whining fool you. I've worn a real Kali Teeth Bracelet for as long as three weeks and I could have gone longer. It wasn't pleasant, morning wood is a daily tear-fest, and service hygiene needs to be maintained about once a week, but it is do-able long-term without any injury. 

The soda-pop rings are easily as effective as the metal lockable version, provided of course that they are used in conjunction with a standard chastity cage so that your sub cannot access the rings.

Seems that a lot of profiles reference the plastic chastity devices, CB 2000 etc. I sent the following off to one Dom as unsolicited advice, but I thought it was noteworthy to share.

Sir:

As someone with a goodly amount of experience with chastity devices, i just wanted to tell you that the CB series of chastities are fairly useless, as it is very easy to wriggle the shaft in and out of. Any device that doesn't use a piercing is not secure.

The best one i've found for the money is the "ringmaster" that can be found at http://www.koalaswim.com/ko_male_chastity_master.htm

combined with a lockable PA piercing ring like that which can be found at #19 on the page http://www.chastitytube.com/device.html

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That PA lock uses a locking screw which can be modified into a breakaway screw if you wanted to create a permanent "you-ain't-never-getting-out" chastity. To do that, you almost cut the head of the screw off, then you tighten the screw until the head breaks off. The PA piercing lock is now permanently on unless the entire lock is cut off with a hacksaw.

But as to the CB 2000s and CB 3000s? I have owned both and they just aren't worth the plastic they are made of.

Do you want to see an AMAZING Dom entry? Sure you do.

Hats off and extreme envy goes out to Sir Mederk: http://www.collarme.com/personals/v/417248/details.htm



Now there's a Dom who knows what he wants and will take no shit before its time.

I would look forward to a one or two week contracted slave (not sub) situation with a nearby Dom/Domme (say within 150-200 miles or so), this so that I can be a better servant to my partner. You would have to consult with him to find out what his end objectives would be, but you would get a free labor willing servant for one or two weeks.

Caveat: I am in 24/7 chastity (see photo), my partner will continue to retain the only keys. That will not change and is non-negotiable.

If interested, please let me know and I'll put you in contact with my partner so that he can loan me out to you.

Anyone?

I had a pretty severe injury earlier this year, enough to knock me on my butt for most of this year.

I recovered almost fully, as fully as I am ever going to. You would never know it to look at me. I am very lucky, compared to some folks I know who have gone through horrendous suffering.

I've put on a few pounds as a result, so I am working now to shed those and get back to my slim build.