No training or experiance to speak of, but my earliest fantasies were of bondage and the like. I am looking for a Dom with experiance, someone who I can learn from. Looks are important, to a point, but if you have personality thats much more important.
As an added note... I have young children. I am not interested in being a house slave or anything of the sort.
8/15/2006 2:15:38 PM
So I have been thinking.. what do I want when it comes to the Bdsm lifestyle.. what appeals to me and what doesn't. I have decided that at the moment having a Master/slave persay relationship is not something I am looking for. I am more interesting in the S & M part of it all the bondage, the pain and ect, lol. A bit of D/s but not to the extreme. Maybe I shouldn't be on this site then, lol.. but oh well this is what I decided while I was sleeping.
8/10/2006 1:58:39 AM
I hate journals.. lol.. Ok so what am I thinking at 3 am.. I am thinking it is way to late to be up... and I need to get some sleep. and now its 4 am and I am finally finishing this up.
ok.. so love.. what is it.. and would I know it if it hit me in the face.. do I trust myself to find it.. to be open to it and not run away when I do see it? ok so feeling a bit violent at the moment... and I need to go to bed. So good night all.
8/9/2006 12:44:51 PM
Thinking life would be easier if I would allow myself to trust people.. why can't I do that.. why do I push people away because I am uncomfortable with the fact that they want to be close to me? I am worthy of being loved I know, but I don't trust anyones motives...I need phycological counsling, lol
8/7/2006 5:23:10 PM
Ok.. don't do journals often. Thinking today about how fast some things move. What do I really want.. do I even have a clue? I sometimes wonder if I know anything about myself at all... when asked questions about myself I don't know what to say most of the time. When asked what I want the only thing I can think of is to be happy.. but what will make me happy.. no clue, lol.. God we women are confusing aren't they? Or maybe its just me.
No training or experiance to speak of, but my earliest fantasies were of bondage and the like. I am looking for a Dom with experiance, someone who I can learn from. Looks are important, to a point, but if you have personality thats much more important. 
ok so feeling a bit violent at the moment... and I need to go to bed. So good night all.