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I lay in bed wrathing and wallowing in my suspicion, what is thus coming over me? What is thus contradiction I am facing?
The need, there was a time that I needed to have control. I needed to own everything. So I sought it out, and now I am an owner. An owner of many things and realized I have not even put a dent into my hunger, fore I am a bottomless pit and Im starving now for something else.
I feel like a starved animal and I lay here knowing that no nutrient, no supplement, no vitamin, no money, no power, NO alcohol, no drugs, no bud ..cant fill this hole.
You can see it, see it? Youre looking right thru me.
My heart pounds and as nothing does, not even a spared friendship, my eyed swell up, I wimper. I wimper because the need for someone, something to own control is far too heavy. I will sleep, and in the morning, continue my regular regimen, as for every passerby that walks into my life today ..I will ponder...Could that be him?
"I want to praise you like I should"
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