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ok so am about to close this account, its useless to me so I am giving it another month then closing for good as it has done me no good at all unfortunately... |
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What is the deal out there. I don't do casual, I don't fist, if i did i would say so.. if I wanted to play i would seek the safety of a dungeon with friends.
please read the profile and then put fingers to the keys.. or...................not |
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Well its coming up to memorial weekend, I hope you all out there have a good one.I am realising myself I have been on this site a long time and never really got past first base for some reason. Perhaps I am looking in all the wrong places *s*
I am the eternal optomist but that too is fast fading so as well as wishing you all a good w/e I shall take the opportunity to say... I wish you well in your search !!
Kiwi |
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Well the rapture passed with no change so i am thinking to continue my search*s*
Are you out there I ask myself !! |
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Did I say I was having interesting conversations. Yes i did. Well anyway I have spoken to some of you whom I would like to follow up with but am presently tied up.. *L* looking for a new contract, it occupies my mind to an extent that allows little else so once I am set i shall follow up with you. In the meantime please be aware I am still here and just quiet !! |
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Well, I am having a couple of interesting conversations through here which is a positive. On the negative side, I still am having those that don't read my profile obviously. If you read that and want to explore further and are willing to take the time to lay a base for that further exploration then good.. but no.. I am NOT into casual sexual encounters or casual BDSM encounters.
I am looking for LTR that goes all the way from social encounters with my family to what ever goes on in private behind closed doors, from as I have said swinging on the porch to the normal mundane bits of life.
I am not sure why some of you simply don't get it. Are my expectations too high, possibly this is true and if so then i do not apologise for it, why should i after all!!.
As to the rest, I continue to work and travel though right now I find I am back in Tx for a few days. i continue to look .. obviously... and continue to hope that out there somewhere is the other half of me or the Dom to my sub nature.. *s*.
On a final note, wishing you well and have a good day!!! |
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Well I am back and settled into Texas for now. I will be at work in Wyoming for a few months then goodness knows where after that but based in Tx from now on.
Still looking though I am beginning to see this might not be the way to do it after all.
But if wishing to make a connect please beep me I will respond as i can !! |
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Well I have had half my surgery, one hip replacement and having another in 2 months. I am very tired of sleeping on my back, I want to simply snuggle up in foetal on my side and sleep the night away and then get up without thinking about it.
I am loving NZ, loving seeing my family here though I miss my american family terribly. ( daughter, son in law and grandies). I am hoping to be able to travel between the 2 countries at some stage in the future if i can work it that way.
Back that way in the new year and right into american citizen app. *s* |
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Well I am currently in New Zealand for a few months. I came back in June on a whim really but to get medical treatment, also to see family and that sort of thing.
I am still looking. I am not sure why i can't connect with anybody. Its difficult because travel I guess, a lot and so hard to well spend the time developing anything though I would like to spend time even in cyber space, building something up with the right person. Even a conversation would be good. I have had those here before, it was a lot of fun.
anyway I guess i will plod on, I look in vanilla places as well. I want something real, real arms, real body to snuggle to in the night, a real person to enjoy my life with..
Where the hell are you ? You must be out there somewhere!! |
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Anybody interested in swinging out there. I am making a foray into the lifestyle as a sort of extention of this one and will be in Las Vegas in May.. I am pretty excited about, you can get information about by googling sinfulxpressions.info
In the meantime I am in Maine for a little longer than hope to head south again to Georgia and closer to my family. I am STILL looking, I don't know if it me or what but I don't seem to be able to make a connection. |
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Hmmm I have a video camera now maybe i should do a video entry for a change. |
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well I have not been here for while and am still kinda sorta looking. I am going to apologise now to anybody reading this who finds i do not answer mail. If i get mail from those out side the criteria then i generally discard it. I am looking as I said earlier primarily for a relationship in a power exchange setting. It may or may not involve anything further if you get my drift.
Anyway i wish you all happy xmas out there, its xmas not holidays... ugh i hate all that politicising of xmas.
I am about to go to maine for a few weeks and am looking forwards to that, winter in NE, I have never been there, won't be able to say that for much longer *s* |
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A quick entry now. I am currently in NM again, I feel as if I have been moved here or something , the last year or so of my life having been in Texas and here in NM. Not that I don't like it I just crave green grass and trees and well a place more like home.
My hip is still driving me nuts, I try to stay on top of it with pain meds but try to balance that with periods of NONE, that can be a big mistake specially when it comes to work, I discovered that to my detriment a few nights back, it was a little like torture I guess *shaking my head with a smile*.
Anyway I have had some very nice mail its such a change to hear from Men who don't have this big expectatin or who do not sound as if they are doing me a favour. Believe me I don't need any favours. I have a good life and am surrounded with a loving family and friends, even if I do not get to see many of them week in week out, or month or year even we still pick up as if we last spoke yesterday, which is the way it should be.
So having said that if you read my profile and feel like reaching out , well great, it may be that we end up friends rather than taking it a step further.
gotta go get some snooze in for work later but will check back in in a day or two.. |
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Well I just cruised in for a look see. I dunno I am starting to think there is not a soul out there for me in fact and that I will just have to wait for the next go round. Maybe this life was all about lessons or something. Anyway I am about to head back to NM for a couple of months on a short assgnment
I have decided I just need to hole up in a nice house with a garden to fiddle in , with my things out of storage and around me and a Man would be nice as part of that picture but I am beginning to think not essential.
I crave to be Mastered but .....well que sera sera |
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well I got a bad diagnosis at the Dr's yesterday for my left hip which has been buggin the heck out of me. It has severe arthritis in it which was , well not that much of a suprise , just not pleasant to have it confirmed. I will not take this lying down though, will just have to make some adjustments to my life to work around it.
thats all the news in that line. Sat I start to drive back to Savannah and see the family so I am very excited about that and then April I start work in cali, I am terribly excited to just have work in fact in this awful recession.
Still looking as well for that elusive one which is difficult while I am moving about so much but.. I am trying to find a permanent placement in the SE which would make things so much easier.
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This is the deal I am looking for a relationship, that is as impt to me, no more impt that just being somebodys slave. Don't just be writing to me with an expectation that i will be dropping to your feet and lavishing affection on somebody i don't even know.
A relationship outside BDSM is what I am looking for as well. I want to be doing things with this person outside of the walls of the house. I have a family who will be wishing to meet with You who ever you are so the front must look vanilla.
I don't think I am asking too much, no more than anybody deserves in fact.
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well I am still in NM and will be here till next month then hopefully will head back to Ga after that as i am dying to see my family back there.
I really have not been active on here and am not sure why. i think the stresses and strains of work etc are taking their toll right now. I would like to find somebody though, I am simply not meant to be alone I have decided.
So if your out there I am here.. *L*
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Well I am in New Mexico right now till Feb 2009, when I will no doubt move east again.
Hope you all have a happy holidays... Xmas and all that as I am not politically correct when it comes to Xmas... I LOVE Xmas... will be working this year and sleeping the day away after a night shift but am on my own anyway so que sera sera.
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ok well I am currently in NZ but still logging in as you can see to
update things as i go along. Its wonderful to be home again even for
such a short time amd so i have pledged to do this much much more often
in the future. In fact planning next trip already.
As for my profile well I am still getting requests but will say this
again. I have stated my guide lines and am sticking to them as far as
age etc goes.
I think thats all I have to say right now so you all have a great day, i know i am going to !!!
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I am so excited its just 4 weeks till I fly home to NZ for my holiday, its coming so close now and I just can hardly wait. I am having a very enjoyable conversation with somebody on here but that does not preclude others from expressing interest as well.
Do NOT approach me if your not in my age specifications please. I am not interested in younger men, and if your submissive, I am not a switch or a Domme. I will write to you as slave/sub to slave/sub but thats it. I enjoy friendship as much as the next person in that regard.
thanks TK
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Well here I am again and its been a coons age since I said anything in this journal or acutally looked at the site to be honest. No excuses * chuckling* I am still in NM working. I was leaving 2 weeks ago but with the shortage here, basically no replacement nurses, well am still here in the heat and dust. My heart lies back in the south east though.
I am not really active not because I do not want to be but simply as I have a busy year ahead. Sept I go back to NZ for approx 5 weeks with my daughter and grandbabies so that is at the for front of my mind right now.
After that though i am wide open for well whatever comes my way. *smiling*
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oh My goodness I have not written in here for quite some time, though I did receive a message tonight that mentioned it so here I am again.
My problem is I move about so much, currently i am in NM working but as a travelling RN I move about every three months or so. I have travelled extensively in Cali and am now though looking more for TN, GA area as that is where my family is( daughter, son in law and grandkids),
I am also working 60 hour weeks right now, one thing about the Nursing shortage is there is definite job security*chuckles*, but anyway that means I am slack about answering my mail because I dream of sun and my bed... and thats about it... *wry smile*
I am still though looking for that elusive somebody to spend time with, my goals, my needs and my willingness to serve the right one have not of course changed..
*smiles and falls into bed*
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Well I am back on the site and still lookng for that elusive person. I have had a busy year but hope now to be able to spend a little more time journalling here.
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I am not sure this is the right avenue for me really and wonder if others feel the same way. Anyway I have family coming to stay through June so will not exactly be active on this site through that time. Though having said that I will continue to answer mail recieved. Thanks |
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ok when I speak of married men I mean too I am not interested in you if your married. I am looking for a LTR and married man and LTR somehow does not go together. I am looking for friends as well though so there you go... |
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Well what can I say, I am about to start meeting people off this site. I hope it goes well for both Our sakes. Last time I met some body off here it was a disaster in fact. He turned out to be married and sporting a photo on here that was at least 20 years out of date where as I had been painfully honest about myself. Anyway that was 3 years ago and quite put me off for this long.
I really am not in a hurry as I believe that the right person will come along eventually and that out there is somebody for everybody and even if the Ones I meet on here end to be friends only then I have gained from it.. |
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Do not bother to waste your time sending me any email or anything else if your under 50 basically I am not interested. Specially not interested in 20somethings younger than my own daughter who have nothing nice to say. |
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I am not answering mail from male subs, or one liners, one word emails.
I am serious in this quest, but I will say this, until I meet somebody who accepts me in person as I am, and I have ascertained that we *click* and he is not some user, yes I have been there before, then I will not be calling anybody master or any other thing of that nature.
whew long sentence sorry...
I have spoken to a couple of men who sound very nice and I would hope to speak to further.
I tried downloading yahoo messenger but it makes my computer run funny, I have msn and will share it with those I wish to speak with further.
I work 12 hour shifts x 4 days a week so do not check in on those days as the days is long enough with out turning on tv or computer, so if you do not hear from me right away please be patient. |
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I just filled out more of the interests etc, I left the BDSM ones alone pretty much as I have not had a lot of experience, enough to say..like it love it hate it etc. |
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Well I have not written in here for a long long time, I was in fact not active on this site for a while. I was with a Mistress in a protective relationship for a while and still remain friends with her. I lived with a Dom for a while but that has not worked out for either of us in the way we wanted it to. Now I am fancy free again. I am recitent and will be more careful this time about as all is not always as it seems, unfortunately. |
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Well I was taken away over the weekend in the opposite direction to that I had planned .. tentatively that is. Anyway, I went to a munch it was a small group but I really enjoyed it, my first munch. I have been to play parties and demo's etc but no munches.
I had fun!.. *smiling* |
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ok I have chilled over night and find myself back here to say.. if you wish to *meet* the other parts of my family their profiles are Cantesa and petg52 on here.. *s* |
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ok I have had it, I have had it with insults and bull shit and fragile male ego's. I am beginning to think there are only wanna be's out there after all and its better to try to meet somebody at a munch or gathering.
Unless you READ the profile I have posted and agree with what I am saying, at least in part well do not bother to mail me.
I have HAD it!!!.. I will not be insulted, I will not be PUT DOWN like some dog..
edited to add..My Mistress approved of this entry.. |
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I am going to be more proactive from now on. I have been in a sleep work cycle of late. I work 12 hour shifts so do nothing when working but sleep and work as its too wearying to try to do anymore, but I have started to settle in to it.
Now i would like to start concentrating on getting to know you more, and me as part of that... |
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I am feeling frustrated as there have been a few problems with my living arrangements whilst near work, please bear with me whilst I sort out internet access etc there. I would like to communicate more but am not sure whether it is just my nervousness that is helping me make *excuses*, well I am I guess as I am nervous about it. I fear not being *good* enough. |
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well I am moved and start my new job next week. I will be commuting for a while between addresses which will be a bit of a pain but my work is about 3 hours from my home. I know... weird but that was all I could get that was not having to sign a permenent contract.. *twitches*.
I can see I will have to install yahoo messenger as most seem to have that where as I rely in icq and msn so I will do that and then hopefully as can ease a step further forward.
Please bear with me I am a little nervous about this though keen and so am probably going slower than normal about things. |
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I am back now from NZ and about to make a move again. I will be back into answering mail by the end of the week I would think. I am keen to now really start to get to know You and see if a match can be made so I can start my service to You. |
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I am leaving for an oversea's trip for a bit so will not be about as much over the next 4 weeks..back on deck early may though I will pop in here now and then.. |
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I feel in a pink mood tonight so picked pink to background my journalling, I guess thats better than a blue mood! *L*
Not at all sure what I will write about in here long term but will start off by saying this. I have not had so many replies nor *spoken* to so many Dominants as I have on this site, its very refreshing to be honest, I was beginning to think there was a lot wrong with me. I know I am not perfect in many many ways but surely I am worth something in anothers eyes.. *smiling* as indeed from the discourse so far I see I am right. |
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