Havent been here in a while- I had a few issues with a few of the people I have talked to- which just left me feeling like I had more important things to be doing than trying to meet someone who can scratch my itch and whos itch I can scratch ...

Still not sure what is going on - the few people I did meet- well lets just say- I have had some really great scenes- with tons of creativity- and that kinda spoils you for get on your knees and suck my cock types...

or i want to fuck that fat ass types...

I may have outlived my usefullness in this world- I can live out everyones fantasies- but I just am finding people boring these days- their fantasies are boring- they essentially want to fuck  being the end result- but they have no clue how to get me there for myself- yet seem to say - I really want the woman pleased first-

IT IS A STRONG POSSIBLITY- that is me- that is all messed up-

the whole wanting to suck pussy- finger pussy- lick pussy- just is sooooooooooooooooooooooo freaken boring to me- I had a dom tell me once- If I have to touch your pussy to make you wet- then I have no idea how to be a dom- and he was sooooo right-

Once you have had THAT kind of foreplay- someone wanting to lick /suck/ finger fuck my pussy to turn me on- just so desperatly turns me off.

I think it is me- once you have had true bdsm stimulation- the rest just seems like - a dud

I thought all people in bdsm were into all the "other" activities- first- I guess I was wrong- certainly isnt the first time ... most assuradly wont be the last.

I was chatting on yahoo with a person who I have not had more than a few one line conversations with- and he actually told me what to do with a business person I was meeting?

 Seriously?- peoples stupidity never ceases to flabbergast me. 

 Are people really that dumb- or do I just run across some of the most idiotic people taking up space on this planet? 

I think I am begining to lose my sense of humor over some of the mentality on here. 

 just a thought- DO NOT CLAIM INTELLIGENCE- then act like a narcissistic windbag without an ounce of sense

Been a while since I have been on here- thanks to all who wrote, and waited for my responses.  Life does happen sometimes - my trip down south has been delayed a bit for work - shouldnt surprise anyone- had an interesting talk about a rape fantasy with a person last night- man that is an exciting fantasy- I have done this several times and generally it turns out very hot-

The rape fantasy I like- is one where I can fight back - not to extreme or hurting anyone- but fight back a little bit- probably need a cowboy who can hog tie me up tight quickly lol to make it safe for everyone- but either way -

rape fantasies are like a quickie on steroids- not a lot of "love making" going on - but extremely great to get off to- and not have to experience all the "getting to know you awkwardness"... there is definitly something to be said for lifting up a skirt and sticking it in any hole to get off-

There are times for all the foreplay and all the kissing/ sucking/ yada yada yada- but also the flip of that- someone horny as hell just sticking it in my pussy fucking the shit out of me and walking away... when your a busy person this is great sex and saves a helluva a lot of time- men can litterally cum in under 15 minutes of fucking- and 15 minutes from cumming is never a bad thing

I got up a little bit ago much to my disdain- and was doing some papework and reading some profiles-

While some of the profiles I read are not for me- I did find some of them appearing to be honest.. and those are the people I would like to commend- whether the world likes your interests or not, I do find it refreshing that people are putting it out there to find their "one"...

I have to confess- I dont read profiles ever, but tonight might change that- again not everyone is for everyone- but I do like seeing others desires and what they look for.. maybe when I grow up LOL I will be one of those people looking for my one- and by the time I am done will be able to write a profile as honest and clear as I have seen a few be on here...

after reading my profile - you come at me with are you owned? or want to be my slave? or any such nonsense? seriously?  HOW DUMB CAN YOU BE

This has been a great week - other than a little bit of  cold..

Had a great day and a half up north- am seriously begining to reconsider this whole collar me thing-

while I feel I have been extremely clear with my expectations- and my lifestyle men and women on here are not getting it- stupidity?--- ignorance? denial? who knows

I am a once in a while type of girl- not a long term thing- what is so confusing about that?

I like it great- and hate all the baggage that goes with long term relationships----so there fore long term with me is pretty well out-  the minute you request something of me other than a scene- you will be  gone- not difficult- non - negotiable- 

I am going to share my favorite experience in bdsm.. this is my all time best birthday gift I ever received.  I was playing with a local.. we met once a month or every other month for omg... um.. 3 years.. he was a great dominant...

He called and said - lets go to an early dinner for your birthday.  I dont have a ton of time tonight but I would like to spend time with you..

He asked me to dress in a skirt - and button down shirt and blazer and black heels and thigh highs... I was happy that he had warned me.. as I am usually in pants in the work day- so I did.. and we met at my favorite steak house.  He opened my door we walked in he had made a reservation for a corner table near the back. 

We sat down I ordered a drink at his encouragement and we just chatted- He proceeded to tell me all the ways I have pleased him throughout our time together.  He told me things he loved and things he didnt love- but overall it was a wonderful conversation.  We must have chatted for two hours before we even ordered- we enjoyed dinner and I was quite disspointed that he hadnt tried any of his more public- things.. ie put nipple clamps on under the table.. have a vibrator inside of me- remote controlled... nothing.. I was almost a little dissapointed.. however I was enjoying my dinner.  We finished and we left.. He asked me to sit in his car to finish our conversation.  So I did.. I got in.. and he goes.. I am not ready for the night to be over-- want to go get a cup of coffee-.. I said sure- and I buckle up... I raised my right hand over my shoulder to get the seat belt and it got grabbed.. I instinctively pulled and it pulled right back and cuffs were immediatly placed on it.. and it was latched to  something behind my seat.. I turn back to look to my friend and he is there with a piece of duck tape that immediately goes over my mouth... He orders to me to put my left hand behind the seat. I do so.. Then a pair of those cataract glasses that have paint on the inside so you can see nothing are put on my face.  IN The parking lot my legs are spread.. I am told to scoot down and a small very powerful vibrator is placed inside of me and turned on high.  I am already quite moist... I know there is someone else in the car- I dont know who.. my friend begins to drive.  I have no idea where .. we drive for about 30 minutes we are on non highway roads - you can feel the gravel... My sensations are running wild... because this man knew my neck was such a huge turn on- the man behind me ( who smelled wonderful) began rubbing tickling touching my neck.. between that and the vibrator- I am on fire.. and dripping wet...

we arrive.. it is country quiet outside-  no sounds but a pretty good wind.. my hair is everywhere.. I am uncuffed told to sit still.. My door opens and I am escorted out of the car- man I feel soo good.. soo much like a lady.. I have no idea- no clue what is to come..but am extremely excited...

it is cold.. my shirt is unbuttoned .. my skirt is up over my belly and ass.. and I am blind... my nipples are tightening up... we walk not far a door is opened.. and it isnt much warmer inside- I feel two sets of hands on me.. the floor is very uneven.. and we must go down a small flight of stairs.. I feel very safe- with these two men .. the one of which Mr Smell good has not said a word. 

I am told to stop.. my arms are uncuffed by my friend- they are then tied together- and raised above my head.. my breasts are roped and around my waist is roped and it goes between my legs... A frightenly cold piece of steel touches my back and is hooked into the rope... I hear a lift and I am being lifted off the ground face down.  I am swinging... held by the ropes which are rubbing on my clits and my back is arched because my hands are still higher than the rest of me... I am shaky at first.. then am told to slow down my breathing and relax.. He says if you promise to stay silent I will take the duct tape off your mouth- now this is a double edged sword.  If I am going to be uncomfortable- I prefer to be gagged- because I cant stay silent.. so I shake my head no and decide to leave things this way... He says if I become too uncomfortable -I am to raise my pointer finger in the air.. I nod my head .

Mr smell good begins to touch me everywhere my breasts.. my pussy- he is fingering me twisting - shaking me all over... My friend begins to use his flogger on me.. he is striking me softly telling me this was the gift he wanted to give me... he wanted me to feel the flogger on every inch of my body- I raise my finger- as my warning- he says Kim- I know you dont like being flogged on the front of your body-- but I want you to trust me and try it.. I lower my finger-  I figure after this I might as well try it.. I have never allowed it before.

His flogging is gentle at first- his voice soothing.. he is talking me right into subspace.. varying times and distances on the flogging... it has been a long while he is telling me how red my back side is and how much that pleases him.. he stands in front me so I can see how big he has gotten while flogging me- that makes me want to go further.  I litterally feel as though I am floating.. I see the scene without being there-.. I go deeper and deeper.. I hear his voice.. but it is distant now- I am so warm and I was soooo cold before... I am swinging.. flying in my mind.. and suddenly I feel a hard hot cock rip into dripping wet pussy.. because I am swinging.. he is using my hips to maneuver me... it is not my friend-- I dont care it feels soooo goood... I am still being flogged- he is fucking me harder and harder.. I am shuddering shaking- and crying all at the same time... the flogging continues long after I cum- I dont know what end is up what is happening... then it stops... my friends voice- mr smell good.. all communication stops.. as far as time line- I have no idea- cum is dripping out of me.. and I am stilll.. I start to squirm

Mr smell good speaks his first word to me- Hello Kimberly  OMG - It was the first dominant who had brought me back after I was severely hurt in a scene gone wrong... I hadnt played with him in forever..I hadnt seen him in soo long.. tears were coming emotions overwhelmed me... I raised my finger.. they both said duct tape off? I nodded..

I was crying so hard.. they took it off.. and said oops we are not over you must be quiet now... I was devastated- I wanted to see him and talk so badly- but was a mess ... they lowered me down.. helped me stand... and asked if I could continue they were enjoying themselves..

I said oh yes sirs... they stood me against a rough walll and another flogging session began.. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it was sooooo beautiful.. my mind wandered to so many things in my life when i was young and had felt this safe and taken care of...

I was having a hard time being quiet.. they both said make as much noise as you like.. we want to hear you.. every breath was a sound.. it was so incredible.. I was not in sub space... but I was sooo free.. i was bucking to meet the flogger... They were both flogging me at the same time.. each with a different stroke... I was enjoying them soo much.. then I was released from the wall and placed on a table face down... mr smell good entered my mouth.. and my friend who was hard as a rock entered my ass.. and they fucked me and fucked me until they both came.. my friend washed himself off and entered my mouth and my friend fucked my pussy.. this time well all came .. I was hot and sweaty and covered in cum.. they relased me from the table and brought me over to some chairs and I was able to catch my breath.. it was a few minutes before I could speak... I was crying.. I had never been treated so well in my life.. by two of my favorite people..

we had a cup of coffee and chatted and caught up .. all got dressed... and headed out...

it was a magical wonderful evening.. with two of my favorite people... who got together for a scene ... I will always be grateful for a wonderful evening.. that I will never forget

Good afternoon everyone that bothers to read my blog-

I was supposed to be kayaking in the adirondacks this week... however life does love to throw curve balls so that of course did not happen...

It is a beautiful fall cool sunny day- and although I prefer 90 plus humidity- I will take this..

It is my birthday today and I enjoy spending my day pleasing no one but me.. so this morning took a great walk after I attended to the things I needed to attend to...

then made some incredible whole wheat blueberry pancakes.. and finished catching a chest cold... LOL well you know

as far as my journey on here- well it has had its ups and downs- more ups than downs really which is never a bad thing... I have talked to some really great people and had some awesome conversations...

the whole cyber sex or phone sex thing- well that is just plain annoying- but-for those that have had more to say- they have been great.

If you read this and you contact me- dont bother with cyber or wanting me to look at pictures of your male genitailia- or such nonsense- I dont do bdsm for the sex.. I do sex for the bdsm.. .

so if you want to talk about sex- go to plentyoffish.com.. hookup.com or some other site... It really doesnt interest me-- that is like the whipped cream on top of an incredible carmel sunday- with lots of nuts--- I dont need it.. I like to have it--

I need the ice cream the rich sauce and the handfulls of nuts--- and that is the bdsm... I hope you all understand- and honestly dont care if you dont- but that is my game...

Enjoy my day everyone... My gift to you is plenty of smiles :D

will not be online much this weekend so if you contact me please do not get upset if I dont respond right away-

I will not be online much until after Wed- so I hope everyone has a great weekend and I will catch you on the flip side !!!!

I am thinking I am one of the charmed ones in life.  WARNING WARNING.. these words are going to make you do something you never dreamed of... LOL

I need to be careful what I write- a person I have chatted with showed up my house today .. uninvited... i wasnt home... WTF...LOL

My downstairs neighbors called me and said this really creepy looking guy was going up and down the street asking if they new where Kim Lived... of course he didnt have my last name.. but new the street.. we are back to WTF...

So.. I will promise in the future that unless I TRULY want something to happen .. I WILL NOT WRITE IT.. apparently.. I have enourmous powerful powers that I was unaware of ...I command a dominant man to search me out..without even trying.. sometimes people are too fucken funny.. but thank you all for the wonderful comments..

 I need to add a disclosure to my last entry-

PLease do nto show up at my house even if you have an idea of where I live- UNINVITED...

A word to the few that will read this... not for the faint of heart.

Okay well a few days on the site and I have chatted with and talked with quite a few amazing people.. I am very impressed.  I do love the banter that goes on between two adults who can have an intelligent conversation. 

I have had 3 people tell me they want me to come stay with them after chatting with me on the phone for a couple of hours.  This does beg the question of what exactly are they in love with.  Why would anyone after 1 conversation say something like that.  A few thoughts pop into my head

1. They are lying.  Flat out crazy liars.  They are full of shit and they oh yea are lying to me

2.  They are desperate, no one fits the bill but me.. that seems a little odd...

3.. I am just that freaken amazing of a person that I impress the hell out of them and they cannot live without me- of course this is what they tell me ... however...

I am not sure, nor am I saying they are lying.  They will take care of me.. pay my bills,, protect me.. they will make my world worry free so I can take care of them. 

I so have to wonder about this.. needless to say.. I have not taken that offer- nor probably will I ... If you are that mesmorized by me after a 2 hour conversation.. I must have incredible powers of persuasion.. that I am not aware of, and apparently the world thus far in my life has been missing out on my amazing personality.

Pay my bills.. take care of me.. who does that after a 2 hour conversation.  Maybe it is my jaded outlook on life, or on men or on people, but I think they are full of shit.  Call me crazy.. or maybe I am old.  If someone had promised me the world at 20 I would have been all over it... now that old brain of mine.. just wont let me go and fall for that...

so my expression of put up or shut up goes.. IF your going to take care of me for as long as I serve you.. SHOW IT.. dont tell me.. dont promise me... SHOW up on my door take me out to a wonderful dinner and and show me... because the words mean nothing... actions speak volumes... talking a good game makes me think your a con.  PUT UP.... or SHUT UP... or take me for what I am.. fun.. good for a day- and then we are both on their way... your stories of grandure have no affect on me.. without the proof...

After chatting with several people from this site .. I thought I would clarify a few things for people who are actually looking to meet me. 

I have been in bdsm since 1990- so.. I have done most of what is out there- and enjoy most of it- I am not looking to fullfill some long lost fantasy that I have never had.  I enjoy the creativity and style of a dominant.  IT is not a comparison, or challenge to do something to me that has never been done... a real dominant is secure in who he is.. and isnt trying to please me.  I am along for the ride that is the WHOLE POINT. 

JUST BE A MAN AND DO WHAT YOU LIKE.. 9 out of 10 times if it doesnt involve my hard limits I will like it.  If I dont I will tell you- I am not shy

I am looking for people to experience a scene with on my road trip down south.

I have planned stops to for family and friends in State line PA, Smithfield Va..Raleigh NC, . Charleston SC.. and Cocoa Beach Florida.  (Everyone leaves NYS- must be the weather- or the darn taxes lol)

my journey will be either on 95 or 81.. I will be traveling approx 7-10 thousand miles in 3 -4 months. 

as far as what I am looking for-

people to meet with .. enjoy a few experiences and move on.  I will not be doing this every few months or even every year. 

I go where I am needed... or where I have jobs... so my schedule changes frequently..

I am a confirmed commitment phobe...

 I am NOT looking for a hotel room, a place to stay, your protection, your money, your collaring, or even your opinions on my life or life style. I think it is sweet that you offer, however .. I am not a mooch.. and am not looking for a free ride.

I am a type A personality in my real life- this is escape and enjoyment for me. It gives me a few hours where I am not the fixer, problem solver, and I am not in control.

Please  Do not try and require anything of me unless we are in scene- it wont happen 

 



I wont change my mind on anything I say no to- dont bother trying to convince me ..it will simply end our conversations.

I dont do long term relationships.. and when I scene with someone .. it is a great few hours or even an afternoon.. and I will be on my way with hopefully a great memory of you, and you of me....

I am a nice person and will no way tolerate meanness in any way.

Not looking to hurt anyone, I would just like to experience some real men.. and not a person who is claiming to be a dominant all the while just trying to please the sub. THAT is not a turn on for me. 

That said- I am not a pig cunt whore bitch or any other nasty name you choose to call me.  I am a woman who offers submission to have a mutually satisfying erotic experience.