new year new problems
do you believe in fate? i only ask because there was a point in time where i was sure i had a good plan/path to transition that fell through so hard, it turned into a nearly two decade attempt at trying to bury what turned out to be a key part of me.
on the more peaceful side of things, something i figured was Never Gonna Happen ends up very real and This Is Us Now because hearts and minds change? or maybe being with someone that's actively on gender affirming hormones means you get the horrible reality of what the sex life is now.
but what does it mean? who is to say really. realistically nothing changes because the horrible problem with fate is that, ultimately, the destination at hand is supposedly set in stone and it's a path i've attempted and failed before.
so what can change this time besides the path that leads right back to that same void?
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