What is there to know about me? Always a simple question that seems to demand too complex an answer. Many terms have been used to describe me over the years. Dominant. Sadist. A lover. A monster. Gentle and cruel. Seductive and dangerous. A caregiver and guide. Silly and playful. Frightening and startling. Pleasant and easy going. A good friend. Understanding and demanding. Quick to savor both a lover's laughter and tears. Curious and creative. Demented and depraved. I've been called a dreamer, a maker, a explorer, listener, tinkerer, artist, sensualist, an edge player, all around mad scientist, and a decent cook. A cuddly teddy bear and sadistic bastard. A companion and protector. A lifting hand and the voice that whispers to the depths to a person's very soul. All of these fit me perfectly, and do not describe me at all. These labels are but small windows through which aspects of my soul might be glimpsed and understood, yet each only covers a tiny facet.
Like my nickname might suggest, I exist in that twilight realm between the darkness and the light, born of both yet belonging fully in neither. I do not hold them as mutually exclusive, nor do I feel it makes me a paradox or puzzle. I am both the man and the monster, friend and fiend, the profound and the profane, often at the same time and without internal conflict. Try to fit me in one category and you'll end up missing the other side of me completely. I no longer worry about how or why; I simply am. What most people call twisted or perverted, I call Tuesday.
I'm known for being a edge player as well as a die-hard sadist, but all too often that is all that people seem to know about me. For me, it is not so much about the edge I, myself, am willing to skate along, but rather finding the edges of others and drawing them along the dizzying heights and depths of their own minds. I am happiest when I have my fingers in the mind and soul of a partner, holding each part of their innermost heart up for both of us to see, then breathing life into the darkest and most hidden of places within their soul. And at the end of they day, I am but a man, quick to laugh, to hold a loved one close, and to simply be me.
Still with me? Good! Below are some quick thoughts that I think are pretty much a 'need to know' sort of thing.
**Want to be on my friends list?** Feel free to shoot me an invite, I'm generally a friendly sort of guy. Be forewarned, I tend to ramble a bit, am sporadic when it comes to posting, and am all over the place when I'm replying to the boards. It's part of my quirky but fun personality. Just FYI.
**Have a question or just want to talk?** By all means, shoot me a email, chances are pretty good I'll write back. In fact, I might write back with something the length of War & Peace. What can I say? I'm a talkative chap.
**Thinking about wanting to play with me?** Just a quick suggestion, I'm a lot more likely to respond to someone who approaches me as if I'm a human being, instead of a Dial-A-Dom. Be yourself, talk to me, and we'll see how things go. I'm not looking for a petition or anything along those lines, but a “Hello, I was reading your profile/posts/whatever and was hoping we could discuss your thoughts are on <insert your interest here>, and perhaps discuss playing at some point?” works a damned sight better than “Hey, u wanna do unspeakable things 2 me?” You wouldn't walk up to a complete stranger on the street and have the first thing out of your mouth be, “rip my clothes off and fuck me!,” would you? Also, most people tend to assume that an edge player must always play along the edge. I'm into this mainly because I enjoy exploring the minds of others, and I'm generally willing to play with all types of intensity levels, if I find the person interesting.
**Looking for training?** Understand that for me, training doesn't mean I'm going to have sex with you, or put you under consideration for a collar. I know there's plenty of people out there that consider 'training = sex' or 'training = first step to getting a collar.' I'm not one of them. When I train someone, I'm trying to teach them, and not to get my rocks off or add another person to my household. If that's not your focus when it comes to training, then I'm not the one for you. Yes, people I'm considering adding to my household will be trained, but being considered and being trained are two entirely different things.
**Wanting to be mentored?** I love teaching and sharing knowledge, whether it be specific techniques, general philosophy, or anything in-between. But if you're going to spend the entire time not listening to anything I have to say, then I'd prefer not to waste my time, or yours. Note that I tend to be very verbose when it comes to mentoring and likely prone to ramble when discussing concepts. Q&A may follow any lessons, so be sure to take notes. Well, no notes on the rambling parts. I'm also willing to pass on my knowledge on toy construction.
**Interested in seeking a collar?** Some very important things to keep in mind. First, you'll be expected to speak with preiapet during the consideration process. She can provide insight into what I want and like, and it will give her a chance to get to know you. I do not hold out a relationship with her as a requirement to being involved with me, but being able to at least get along with her is important. I'm not looking for a triad or anything along those lines, but if we can't all sit down together on occasion to a good dinner or go to the movies without conflict, then things probably won't work out. Second, while I'm willing to travel to visit a partner, distance can limit the amount of face to face time. I am not adverse to LDR's, but the limitations on physical time together due to distance needs to be discussed from the beginning. I would also expect potential long distance partners to be willing to travel here to visit on occasion as well. Third, I don't buy into the whole “We've known each other for a whole week now, so it's collar time!” philosophy. Being considered is a process that is not to be taken lightly, as I take it seriously and rushing into it is never a good idea. I've done so a few times when I was younger and stupid, but now I know better. Before a person becomes a part of my household, I want to make sure they will not bring disharmony with them.
**You've heard that I make toys and want me to make something for you?** I do make toys, but I no longer am interested in making them for sale. I will occasionally accept commissions or offers from friends or close associates, but I've been burned too many times over the years to be interested in making something for anyone I do not know. If you want to know how to make something, I can explain the process to you, or if you're local, I can probably show you how.
**Want to borrow or use my writing, stories, pictures, likeness, or some of my twisted thoughts?** Be sure to ask and receive permission first, otherwise I'll be forced to give all of your friends and family members small, loud, horribly cute puppies. Do any of the above without my permission *and* without crediting me? Each of your friends and family members will be given two puppies and a cat. You have been warned!
