I'm in the mood to be tied up and left in a corner

So, when i was 18 and curious/confused and excited about my thoughts and feelings.  I found a personals ad in the local paper advertising "Mistress Victoria T/S dominatrix".

I mustered the courage up to call her.  I was so very very nervous.  It took a a few calls but she gave me her time and we talked about who she was and what she did.  Also about who I was and how i was feeling about the whole thing.  Very nice woman.  Though at that time she was Pre-OP.

She invited me to watch a session with one of her clients.  Obviously with his permission of course.  I agreed.  I was very excited about th whole thing.

I met her at her home and was told the ground rules.  "I do not speak unless spoken to.  I will be naked and i will be hand cuffed.  I will follow all instructions."  Sounded good to me.  I was way out of my comfort zone and was happy to have someone to lead me and look after me.

I was meant to be blindfolded for the trip to the clients place.  i was as when she told me the nieghbourhood we were going to it turned out i lived there.

So we went in to this guys house.  I was told he was into extreme insertions.  Bugered if I knew what that meant at the time.  I carried he toy bag, avoided eye contact wth him and her.  *which she eventually told me that i was allowed to look, as that is why i was there*.  I got naked when instructed, and was handcuffed and sat in the corner whilst she went about her session with him.

During her play she asked me if I had sucked a guys cock before.  I said no.  after a bit she started with the insertions. teeling about warming a person up first.  the toys gradually got bigger, till she pulled out the last one.  The biggest.  She called it hugo.  It was huge!, thicker then my arm.

My eyes wide she came upto me and said, " do you think you could handle this?."  I shook my head, and she said giggled" I can train you to take it".

He took it.  All of it.  Hats off to him.

The session ended when i made Ms Victoria aware that there was some blood coming from him.  she immeadiately stopped the session.  we tidied up and went back to her place.

With one of the girls I played with in my past, she liked to be tied up too.  So one afternoon i organised for her to come over and for me to dominate her.  She was soo nervous, which was unusual for her, she is usually so calm and confident. 

I hog tied her in her sexy black lingerie and left her while i had a shower.  it was for something lilke a total of 10 mins.

 when i returned i made her kiss my feet.  she did it with out hesitation.  I then unbound her and tied her to a chair with her hands behind her and her legs spread.  She was blindfolded the entire time. 

 I put three pegs on each lip of her pussy, then taped them down to her legs.  opening her up a little.  I put pegs on her nipples too.  she was enjoying it.  I went down and spent a lot of time licking her pussy.  To this day I have never tasted anyone as sweet.  really nice.

 When I stopped, just before i thought she was about to go over the edge, she began to complain.  I told her she will now have 15 minutes alone time.  She didn't like that.

 After that time I released her and bound her hands in front of her.  I told her to suck my cock, and she greedily started.  That was awesome too.  After awhile she stopped and asked very politley if she could ride me.  I allowed it and we fucked.  that was great too!.

 Afterwards when we were out the back having a smoke and glass of water we both spoke about what we liked and how much we enjoyed ourselves.

 The next time we got together for something like this, I was very different and just demanded her to suck my cock.  She was against it and told me that "now I am just acting like a jerk". 

 We did nothing that afternoon and she left not long after.  To this day i still kick myself for being "such a jerk".  She was right.  I was being very selfish and I think at that moment I ruined something that could have been really great.

Sometimes I hand cuff my hands behind me naked. I have myself gagged too.

I have a small vibrator secured to a chair in front of me.  I then try to get myself off by rubbing against the vibrator. It works and nicely frustrating. Sometimes I think about doing it and letting my wife catch me. The curiosity of what she would do excites me.

 I don't do it because I think I would feel to embarrassed to be caught like that.

There was another girl in my past that I played with. She and our relationship at the time was complicated.

All I was I interested in though was kinky sex, so I persevered.

 Eventually she acted on all the kinky sexting that we were doing. She came around one afternoon, none of my housemates were home.

 We had a couple of cigarettes and a coffee and a brief chat. Then I suggested we moved to the bedroom, since we both knew why she was here and alone. I asked her for some kinky abuse.

She bound my hands with a soft leather belt I had, she then got a good strong grip around my balls and bagan to sqeeze.  man that felt good!.  she begun to flick them and smack them and tighten her grip.  It was great! and frightening!.

 All the while she kept talking to me as we did earlier when having a cigarette and coffee.  She got up set hand hit a little harder or squeeze a little tighter, if i got distracted when talking to her.

I really enjoyed that, I miss it sometimes.

So, I have learnt much recently.  I'm really appreciating the kindess and the welcome I am recieving in the forums.  Thanks again to those that have taken the time to read my posts and provide input.

 I've joined , it's more the etyle of community I am looking for, i'll still be lurking around here for the wealth of infomration I am getting from the forums.

 Since gaining more enlightenment in the BDSM scene, I have found that I don't feel like I have ever really submitted to anyone, of my previous play partners.  wich explains a lot. 

 I'm now learning more about what it really means to submit to someone, am looking forward to exploring this more. 

I'm scared and intimitdated and I like it!.

I'd like to let it be known that I am interested in speaking to people in my area, that may know of any munch groups that are welcoming of newcomers to the BDSM scene.  I'd like to take advantage of experience and advice. 

I am not ignoring the advice given of others on this site, but I think it would be good for my wife and I if you could sit and chat comfortably with people of our ilk. 

Saludos.