I have been active in the local scene for about 8 years. I only play at the local dungeon, and am currently not interested in private play. I also am not interested in phone sex, or cyber training .
I got a couple of great toys recently. A purple-ish rose flogger, and a purple short whip. Can't wait to use them. They were both made by a local vendor who's work is excellent (I'd recommend him to anyone). Will let you know how they handle.
Making evil plans for the weekend. Thinking that if I go to the club, I'll wear a new corset. Have a couple of cool ones. Saw a couple more that I like on Ebay. Now that I'm officially an empty nester, I have lots more money to spend on stuff for me. Go figure.
Wow, time slips away so quickly. Didn't realize it's been so long since I've been on this site. Went to RHPS last weekend with friends from the club. Had a blast. They are now having a monthly show every 2nd weekend here in Mempho land. Think we'll have to make it a habit.
I haven't posted in a long while. I've been busy with our local club. We just finished a cool event last night and I'm still wired from that. It's all really coming together, but it's a lot of work.?
Wow, I just realized I haven't posted all month. I've just been busy getting ready for Fetish in the Forrest: ( Here's the link for anyone interested. http://www.impacthome.com/forest.htm ) Can hardly wait. Last year, I got a chance to participate in a kidnapping scene and play with a really sweet male sub. The scenery was indescribable. But mostly it's going to be a chance to get to know my fellow freaks and kinksters a little better.
Next month we are having a formal dinner at the local dungeon, where submissives will be wait-staff for the patrons. It's going to have a Victorian era theme. I'm helping one of the planners do some research on BDSM in the Victorian Era. It is very interesting. They were only straight laced on the surface. They apparently had numerous clubs and brothels that were BDSM oriented. One of the most famous was run by Mary Jefferies. I'm interested in learning more.
I have fallen in love with the song by Three Days Grace called "Pain" . I put it on my Dungeon Mix that I like to play with. I'm thinking of buying the album. But here's the Youtube link to the video.
Well, Wicked Women party was a f-ing blast. Played a male sub that I had purchased at auction. Got a little rough on him at the end, but he went away smiling. But the thing I liked about him the most was the conversation we had before the party started. He's one of those quiet intellectuals. Not as easy to connect to emotionally, but after you get past that, he's a fantastic guy. And a wonderful play partner. I got to use Flogzilla on him at full force. He took it like a man. Afterward you could feel the heat coming off his back, like a sunburn. Man that was so awesome. I can't wait to play with him again. Next time I probably won't be so hard on him. I don't like to leave marks or bruises (there are some exceptions, obviously). But the situation called for it. I just love what we do.
I haven't been able to post lately because my computer has been down. Hope to get a new one soon. Saw my former submissive tonight. I've been missing him. He's been busy with stuff, he hasn't been able to come by and visit. Hope that changes. I enjoyed the play and conversations we had. Exploring, pushing, his limits. Helping him (and me) discover what we truly wanted from the relationship, from the play, from the service, gave me a deep satisifaction that I haven't found in any other place. I'm hoping to find it again.
Well apparently the zippers that we made for Carnivale went over really well. They were all decorated to match anyone's taste in gear. Which reminds me, I need to make myself one. I've got most of the stuff, just haven't had the time to do it. Guess that will change now that I've moved closer to everything. Need to get on an exercise routine now though. I already do yoga and aerobics once a week, but need to start working on doing it regularly. Get my flogging arm built up a little more. *g*
Tomorrow night is our sensual dinner at the club. The one we had last year was very erotic, and a one of a kind experiences. Our Kitchen Goddess does all the cooking and uses submissives as the table, centerpieces, and decorations. She is very creative with it all and an excellent cook to boot. This years theme is "Night at the museum" where everything is a work of art. Makes my mouth water just thinking about it.
I think we made at least a couple of dozen decorated zippers last night to give away as prizes for Carnivale. It was pretty cool. There is also a very sweet natured female submissive that was helping me. I kind of just started noticing her lately. She's shy and very, very submissive. I haven't had the chance to play with her, but she approached me a couple of weeks ago and I wasn't able to the last couple of times we were both at the club. But now, I've had the chance to connect with her some more, and find myself looking forward to having the chance to explore her in a BDSM setting. It's good to be the Domme.
I find myself wide awake at 2AM. Lots of changes going on in my life, and I'm not sure how they will all turn out. I recently saw on a friends blog, a YouTube video about failure, and how a lot of really great people have had spectacular failures in their lives. Moral of the story-- don't ever give up. I kind of like that, being as I'm not really the giving up type. Of course sometimes I get discouraged, but somehow manage to pull it all together and get what I need out of life. I think I'm in the pulling it together stage. Not altogether a bad place to be in the grand scheme of things.
Wednesday, we'll be getting together to make some zippers and stuff for prizes at our Carnivale event. I've made some small, breathable ball gags to use, and have gathered up some miscellanious kinky stuff to donate as prizes. I very much enjoy learning to make new toys especially with our group. It always makes the task more pleasureable.
Well, it looks like the Midsouth FemDom group is going to sponser another Wicked Women party at our local beating place. In the past these parties have been a blast. They are high protocol, and the men are subservient to all Women who are present (Dominate & sub alike). It's a good chance for the male subs to serve and indulge in some of their fetishes. Such as giving foot massages, boot and foot worship, etc... And of course there's always lots of hot, sexy, creative play that only Female Dominates can inspire. I'm looking forward to it all.
We had another interesting lunch conversation today. Somehow we started talking about men?s fantasies and one of the women at the table wondered aloud ?why do most men fantasize about having two women at once?? My male co-worker (who is definitely a funny guy) piped up with his theory? It?s a two parter. One?is because of the extra boobies. (Ok I?m paraphrasing, but his version was much more intellectual sounding.) The second?It?s an evolutionary device hard wired into the male primate that will help propagate the species by encouraging extra stimulation in the absence of male competition, there by reducing the possibility of injury. In other words, there?s no other guys around so why not? *g* He had apparently thought about it a lot. Sometimes several times a day even. *weg*
Last night was a lot of fun. We had our second annual "Amateur Ball Breakers" pool tournament to raise money for our local dungeon. Ball breaking I understand *g* However, pool is not my game. Yet somehow I've ended up in charge of it *g* Probably because I'm bossy. *duh* But the tournament is only 1/2 the story. Once you get the bunch of us together we can't help but to act up and end up taking over what ever place we're in. It's one reason I love being around these folks so much. And it's one of the best things about having a local place to do. We have clothing optional yoga and aerobics. We can call each other to help move, baby-sit, if we need a ride, for computer help, automobile repairs, air conditioner, etc.. The folks are always willing to lend a hand to fellow kinksters. It's one of the things I love about being part of this group.
I'm in an introspective mood tonight. I've gone from contemplating the Zen of Dominance, to empathizing with Top-Drop. It's a good thing tomorrow night is Karaoke. I can drink and be shallow. *g*
Tonight I find myself thinking about a sweet little red head. I can almost feel the softness of her skin under my hand. Almost hear the little sounds she makes when I'm nearing the edge of her tolerance level. Almost smell her musk when she's wet and ready. She makes me want to do the most evil things to her, just to feel her cum on my hand. She's like Godiva truffle-- something to savor, indescribable, and unbelievably enjoyable.
To anyone asking about playing, I only play at the local dungeon. It has all the amenities, equipment to die for, and it's really the safest meeting and play space for everyone involved. I understand that a lot of folks don't want to play in public, but that's the only place I will play. And you all know, it's all about me. *grin*
I was talking with a couple of my male co-workers at lunch today, and one that I have been friends with is going to graduate school. He made the mistake of asking the rest of us if we thought he should take 2 or 3 summer classes. So I asked back "How big a masochist are you?" He looked at me very puzzled, so I explained. "Well if you just like to be spanked occasionally, then you should probably take 2 classes, but if you own your own cuffs and "gimp" hood then you won't be satisfied with less than 3." They stared at me for about half a heart beat and then erupted in laughter. I love my job.
It's Tuesday, and I'm still thinking about the scene I had last Saturday night. I haven't played that hard in quite awhile.
I had been thinking recently how much I missed being able to do that. Not since I released d from training. I've been missing that kind of a relationship the last few weeks. Being able to delve further into their psyche. Being able to go hard and not worry about going past their limit. Having a very intimate and satisfying emotional (as opposed to sexual)cuddle during aftercare. Now mind you, my play partners have been terrific, and my scenes have been extraordinary and satisfying. But when someone belongs to you, it's a little different. At least to me it is.
Anyway, just some musings on an overcast Tuesday
Vendor Faire is awesome. I went intending only to get a horse hair flogger, and ended up with said HH flogger, one braided bufflo hide heavy flogger, a purple cane set, and an eagle talon thingy. My fav is the buffalo flogger. It's soooo cool, very thuddy. Feels like being hit with wet towels. The subs were all over themselves for me to try it out on them. Even a couple of the Dommes offered to bottom just so they could feel the effect of the flogger.
It's good to be the Domme.
Well, this weekend is vendor faire at the local dungeon. Can't wait. Looking for a new horse hair flogger to match my other stuff. I love purple and black, so hopefully they will have one that is just perfect for me. Then after vendor faire, I really need to re-organize my toy bag. I keep saying that, but every time I do , I just end up playing with someone and it gets all un-organized again. Oh, the life of a Domme.
Lately I've had the opportunity to play with a some of the local femsubs. I enjoy playing with both male and females but something about playing with the girls brings out the true predator in me. I immerse my self completely in the experience. I get completely wrapped up in the sights of their curves, the feel of my hands on their round asses, the smell of their pussies as they are about to climax. I love the softness of them, the strength of them, the look in their eyes as I call them a c*nt, a slut, a good girl. I can't wait for the next time.
