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| i am looking for a Domme. i am not seeking RT or 24/7 but i find that the call of this lifestyle is hard to ignore. i have a relationship that i do not want to jeopardize but i need more than what i am getting now. i feel very selfish at the moment. my time is limited and my home off limits, but for the time we can have together i will be yours totally. i cannot travel.
i am a submissive who happens to have fallen in love with a vanilla man~ go figure~, i have no idea why, but it happened. i am not looking for 24/7, i am looking for someone to have talk with, to play with and to be a friend. If You are interested, drop me a line and lets chat~jinx~. i try to check in every couple of days so please be patient.
P.S. Yes the pic is old but the only thing that has really changed is my hair, it is currently much shorter, i will try to get a new photo up soon.
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Listening to 50 shades of Grey at work, wearing tight pants is not very productive. A few people have asked me tonight, why i am so antsy....i just smiled, anything else i said would have no doubt been an HR issue. |
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Is wondering when i can get back to the business of living ~sighs~. It is amazing that one small thing can change your life. |
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Listening to 50 shades of grey, what do you think of the book??? |
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Just looking for friends right now |
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it is amazing to me how one small reference can bring my brain back into this world. i have to be honest, i tend to suppress all thoughts of being a sub. Why wish for something that you can't have? A friend asked me why i do it, why do i deny myself that part of me. i do not deny all of my submissive tendencies~ i cook, i clean, i care for my family and for my love. i do for others and it makes me happy. The part i really miss is the pain, the pleasure. Saying, "Yes Ma'am" or asking for more... i miss the bruises. i miss wincing as i sit down. i miss the satisfaction of feeling like a puddle of jelly after a great session. i miss the bonding and the trust. |
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I work nights so the best way to get ahold of me is im at the same nick here at Yah..
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The BDSM bug crawled back into my brain after a delightful weekend with a friend. While there was no play, we talked about it and every time I get into reminiscing I find myself thinking, obsessing, wondering if I can have the best of both worlds? It would take a very special person to make it work.
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Time. It goes so fast and yet so slow.
Changes are happening that while i may not approve of i need for my physical and mental health. |
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i have a mouth.
Yup thats right and i'm not afraid to use it...be it to speak my mind knowing that it could get me in trouble :) or to give pleasure.. so many things you can do with a mouth~ kiss~lick~ nibble~ bite~suck.
it can open wide to be used or be forced closed. bit gags preferred :P
out of this mouth come words of begging...please, more, yes just to name a few
out of this mouth comes sounds of pleasure or pain~both wonderful sounds
but what i love to hear out of this mouth the most is Yes Sir/Yes Ma'am as i do your bidding~ such a small phrase that brings great joy to people....
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My nilla bf pointed out tonight that i seem to be obsessed with vampire romance novels. We're not talking Twilight (although i did enjoy the novels, not the movie) but paranormal romances, ones with a little bit of kink and just a hint of D/s in most of them.
i didnt mention to him that i get wet whenever someone gets bit. That is one of my faveorite things, to be bitten be it gentle or hard enough to bruise. ive only been bitten hard enough to bleed, but didnt enjoy it as much* not into blood*. He suggested that i might want to expand my interests, and i have others but when it comes to books i want nothing more to be able to loose myself in them. Kind of like subspace with out the lovely beatings.....
i wonder what he would think about warewolf books...lol
nite and pleasant dreams
jinxy
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i had a friend ask me this evening how i went about becoming a submissive. She asked if i just woke up one day and decided to ask someone to beat my ass! LOL hmm interesting lunchtime discussion. This journey began when i was complaining to another co worker many years ago about the passive men i was dating...but thats another story... i told her i wanted a man that knew what he wanted and wasnt afraid to tell me. One that was passionate in all aspects in life~ int the bedroom and out. i guess i was pretty passionate about it, because i remember the look she gave me as she said, "come for drinks tonight and let me educate you" . Educate me she did, this quiet petite woman that i had worked with for months was a Domme. She sat me down and explained some about the lifestyle and said i was a natural born sub. i remember looking at her and asking if she was insane. LOL. i went home and got online to start researching. The more i read, the more i became intrigued, but the question now was where to find someone in real life....and again that is another journal entry all together. My current coworker just looked at me tonight and shook her head, she said i just dont understand. i told her that being a submissive is something you are born as.. you can and should be trained but not everyone enjoys giving up her power, surrendering...leaping off a building and knowing that Someone will be there to catch you before you hit....tired and beginning to ramble. More tomorrow night. Heres to sweet dreams and sweet memories. jinxy
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i work overnights, so if you email me and dont get a quick response, please be patient. i can also be reached at Yah-- IM with the same nick
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i can chat with men, i can flirt with men but i cannot do anything with else with another man! Sorry but its the way it is.
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it has been a while and life has changed but my underlying desires have not. I still miss the lifestyle, still miss all things kinky but I have a great life with a man who loves me and would do anything for me. We get along great everywhere but the bedroom. I've had so many inner discussions with myself to see if it is worth it. What is more important contentment or passion? Dont get me wrong I would love to have both, but with the one i am with, it doesnt work that way. ive had passion ande nothing else, now i have everything i want or need except for passion. Sighs. I've even thought about going bevhind his back but i dont think i could live with it and me telling him would destroy us. ive considered an online Dom, but again, is that cheating? I've never cheated on anyone in my life, i will end a relationship before i do that. i dont want this one to end. sigs...sometimes journaling really sucks.
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Happy Fourth of July!!!!
Keep those who are fighting for our freedom in your heart and your minds, not only today, but always.
Stay safe! |
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wow, i never was good at journaling :) There has been so much happen since i was last on here. The biggest would be that i fell in love with a completely vanilla guy~goddess help me~ He is everything i could want in a man, except Dominate~ lol~. There is a part of me that misses being a submissive, to be honest it's mainly the physical part i miss, boy doesnt that sound a bit shallow huh? We have talked about my wants and my needs and he's flat out honest about not being able to fulfill those more agressive needs, like being beaten or restrained or even some of the more vigourous sex that i enjoy. We have even discussed finding a Domme for me, but our relationship is still fairly new(about a year) and we are living together, so i am unsure if even that would work. i've been talking to an friend who was a sub and is now a Domme that i previously had a realtionship and she keeps telling me that she knows i miss it. i would never admit it to Her though, she wants me back. Unfortunately that is one relationship that would never work, even on a friends with benefits level. Sooooo here i am back on this site, looking, thinking, wondering... what's really out there for a submissive living a vanilla life but craving so much more.... |
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~smiles~ Happy Holidays to A/all. Santa didnt bring me a Dom for Christmas but i did get a pair of scooby doo slippers :)
To A/all be safe and have fun over the coming holidays.
~j~ |
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i'm not your every day average subbie. i'm not a doormat~i have opinions, desires and needs~i just know the right way to ask for them. i'm experienced enough to know what i want and what i need. As far as who i am looking for~appearances dont matter, it is what is on the inside that matters. i want someone to get to know me body heart and soul. To be able to read me enough that i dont need a safe word. To be honest i tend to be aggessive in my everyday life~i have a job, kids, ect, but i love to be able to totally let go~to let my hair down, my guard down and let myself float into subspace.
i want to be treated like a lady outside the bedroom and His whore in the bedroom :). But i also want a partner in life, i've done the casual on the side and i have so much more to give all i need is HIM. ~j~ |
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After much soul searching trying to decide if i wish to continue as a submissive and to find the perfect O/one(s), i've joined this site. i have so much to give to the right O/ones and i know this will be a journey like no other i've ever undertaken. In the vanilla world it's hard enough to find someone honest, and trustworthy that will be true to you. In this world its even more of a chalelnge. *hoists her back pack up, checks her compass and sets off to find the O/ones*** |
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| Age: 29 |
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