spankedforgood

Lately I feel empty, unwanted. I feel like the world is falling apart and I'm having a really hard time keeping it together. I'm not sure what is going on with me or why I can't pull myself out. I've always been able to pull myself out of depression but idk this anxiety I'm feeling is constant. I don't ever feel calm; I'm always worried I'm making someone mad or upse. I'm terrified to lose people so I'm quiet and try to keep it all to myself. I want to be mad right now but I think those around me will just think of me as a burden. gah I need to fix whatever is wrong with me. 

I quit my job two weeks ago because of how I've been feeling although that job abso was breaking me and I'm glad I'm done there. Anyways I just need to complain for a bit... I'll pick myself up. I always do. I'm just so tired of whatever this stupid feeling is. 

Just wanted to throw this out there if your on the mobile side of collar space messaging works At least it is for me.  Hope it helps! 

Just looking for fun chats right now. 

Planning trips literally sucks! I'm currently planning a trip in February to go to Disney. Most of the trip is planned except two nights the first night and last i picked flight dates based on price which looking back yeah I feel like it was stupid. This is the first trip I've ever planned tho! 
I have no idea how to find a hotel in my price and now I'm panicking loll idk why I do this to myselffff

Today has just been one of those days... work was absolutely shit. Lost my debit card... bought a pool idk why because I don't know how to put it together... I'm tired. I decided to end the night with a little thing of ice cream... spilled it all over my bed... ... tomorrow hassss to be better than this 

I just want a daddy dom type who can handle a brat and have some fun where is heeee lol 

Anyone want to chat today? super bored today and want to talk! Please

Good lord this website is a bit cringy sometimes  

I swear so I was talking to one guy and we shared pics and I just send a generic one of my face and I swear he sends a picture of himself  in front of the mirror with his tiny Dick displayed "oops, wrong picture" lmao like sureeeeeee. I delete the messages and I'm moving on I didn't say anything back and like 5 minutes later he sends a pic of just his face and says again oops wrong picture. so I delete and move on. Another 10 minutes passs and I get a pic message from another guy on my kik ang you guessed it a Dick pic who says "Tom" the first guy gave him my kik. lol so I'm like good bye.... oh wait ya Tom told me about you your the one with the tiny dick... nice to meet ya. Lmao. I'm so done right now lmao. 

Then another message... I stopped replying to a guy at like 1:30am you know because I fell asleep...  we had talked for all but 30 minutes maybeeee! He sends me a message "your so lucky I dont own you, I would punish you severely for ignoring me" (like I haven't heard that one a million times" 

my reply "lol I'm not for sale! (emoji Of painted nails) thank you!" 

some of yall need to get livessssss. I doubt that's gonna happen so I'm gonna have fun trolling while I can lolololol

(If spelling and punctuation is bad, I knowwww I tried to fix it but it just kept getting worse... idk whats wrong)

Hello :) I have been sick this last week with Covid. I'm finallly getting better but still sneezing alottt but I'm getting better and am soooo thankful for that. I've been feeling very little this last week. wishing I had someone to take care of me a bit. Someday maybe that will happen for me but right now it's just me! I'm glad I can start getting back to normal this week and go back to work. I feel Like I've lost a week of my life truly I have just slept for a week and ate saltine crackers because I haven't been able to taste anything lol. I'm miss writing on here, my old profile had many pages of my writing but I've lost all of that unfortunately. maybe I'll try to write more. I'm sure it won't be super exciting stuff all the time but it helps me get out of my head a bit. 

i started talking to an old friend again. I've known him for 8 years which is crazy! Weve always talked about getting together but its hard with the distance and just life things. i am glad we are talking again, he makes me feel safe and special and sometimes that's all I need. 

We can journal again!!! Oh my god I'm so excited lol. I stopped coming here because honestly the journal gotten taken down. Yay! 
lol I used to write in it all the time and I plan to start again. 
my name is J and I'm a submissive took a long long break after realizing I didn't know what I wanted. I guess I still don't but I'd love to start figuring that out. I guess mostly if I ever couod I'd want a pretty normal relationship but mixed with bdsm discipline and other fun things lol